I Have Random Moments of Extreme Sadness and Paranoia

I was born into a family that was beyond broken. My mother abandoned myself and my sister when i was only 4 years old. Since then I have been raised by my grandmother with my cousin and my sister. About 2 years ago I found out that my...

When it hits, it hits you quickly.... all at once. It's like.... I guess... What snorting heroin must feel like. Except this is no euphoria. It's a cocktail of emotions-- fear, pain, and an angry helplessness. You're upset. You're...

So much is going on in my life right now I am never happy anymore. I don't want to be around anybody, I just want to be alone and secluded from the world. I could be laughing with friends and then remember something or see something...

1 moment I'm the Happiest baby girl you'll ever see in this Universe, the next I'm so down in the Dumps that Dying doesn't seem all that bad. I want to live with a Night Nurse in a Hospital Nursery Crib as a baby girl-albeit an Adult...

A few hours ago out of no where i felt a deep sadness come on. Not sure why it came about all i know is now that its here it just wont get out. Its eating at me inside and out. I feel the need to scream to make it go away but it wont...

Every so often I'll these moments where I'm extremely depressed. And I think that everything is out to get me and no one really likes me.  It usually happens at night when im most alone. It's probably because of that, that I ...

I'm generally a pretty happy person, very optimistic, and very talkative with people I know. People I don't know very well I tend to "ignore", not show much emotion, and am quiet. Anyways, once a week or so, generally when I'm alone...

My extreme sadness and paranoia runs in the family- my father and one of my brothers has it as well.
Anything can trigger it- forget to return my call and I'm devastated. Fall asleep before you can reply to my text and I am convinced...

Sometimes I have moments where I am extremely depressed and a couple of times I just feel like I'm in pain from the loneliness. I just want to bursting into tears and I want to die there and then.
It just feels like no one loves me and...