I Have Random Moments of Extreme Sadness and Paranoia

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    “I have absolutely no pleasure in the

    stimulants in which I sometimes so madly indulge. It has not been in the pursuit of pleasure that I have periled life and reputation and reason. It has been the desperate attempt to escape from torturing memories, from a sense of insupportable loneliness and a dread of some...
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    Sep 12, 2014

    omg! I can't stand it!

    !! the paranoia....wtf? sometimes I think everything I type on the internet or say on the phone os being recorded or that ppl are out to get me!?!? i think it stems from not being able to trust my own family! ppl just dont get it! i have bpd, it is all or none for me. love or...
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    Aug 14, 2015

    Unbearable Sadness

    A few hours ago out of no where i felt a deep sadness come on. Not sure why it came about all i know is now that its here it just wont get out. Its eating at me inside and out. I feel the need to scream to make it go away but it wont. Whenever it gets this bad i normally take a...
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    2 Responses Mar 12, 2012

    What can I do to stop being paranoid over

    person. For example I think my therapist hates me,she wants to get rid of me, deep down I know that's not true but I can't help but think that. I also get paranoid that people online hate me and pretend they like talking to me. So I'm mostly just paranoid of everyone I meet
    Alexx556 Alexx556
    18-21, T
    2 Responses Sep 18, 2015

    I don't know.. no one's probably going to read

    this, but who cares? lately I've been feeling so down, it's the worst it's been in a long time.. the same thoughts go through my mind. I feel so worthless. I just want to die, it's that bad. but if I let it pass everything will be okay again in a few weeks.. until I hit a major...
    Kittenxxmeowx Kittenxxmeowx
    22-25, F
    Nov 30, 2015

    today has been an off day

    for me.. I've been doing really good lately but today I fell back into my depression..
    stellakayy stellakayy
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 17, 2016

    I dont know why but out of nowhere it comes.

    Like the feeling of having no control over my life and my heart thumps like hundred times per second. I feel down and useless , like i m no longer needed and important..
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    1 Response Feb 8, 2016

    Yesss! I end up exploding at someone.

    I get extremely sad when I dont get mych attention. Then I get paranoid maybe im not good enough. may I did something wrong. I try to push them away. then they react in frustration or annoyance. Then that pushes me and be for I know it. im telling them to go **** off. All...
    WickedlilAngel WickedlilAngel
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Apr 13, 2015

    Luckily this doesn't happen too much anymore.

    It was at the worst point about 6 months ago, which is why I had to start taking meds. But I seem to be doing pretty well now, so I hope it stays that way.
    ErraticSarcastic ErraticSarcastic
    31-35, F
    Nov 12, 2015

    So i made a profile on this website about a

    year ago thinking it would help me with my anxiety and depression but my boyfriend at the time made me delete it! I have been suffering with anxiety and depression for nearly 4 years now due to me having health issues. I admit my depression isnt at its worst at the moment and...
    Alicerosex Alicerosex
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Aug 14, 2015

    It's been happening a lot recently I just get

    these episodes of panic where I'm crying and hyperventilating and I almost never know why and its debilitating they're so hard to come out of and they leave me exhausted. I hate them because they stress my mom out and I hate having her worry about me. I always come out of them...
    FloralSkies FloralSkies
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 27, 2015

    I just got diagnosed with depressive anxiety

    and paranoia. It's interesting, because I didn't realize when I was having issues or meltdowns was due to paranoia. I find myself very isolated because I'm riddled with fears. Trying to accomplish a short trips the grocery store is complete hell. It's a constant, "the world is...
    LoveJennaXo LoveJennaXo
    26-30, F
    Nov 12, 2015

    The Truth-

    Darkness falls upon me once again, From the outside, it's easy to hide On the inside, my heart cries..... I've learned how to face it, It takes every piece of my heart and soul to understand But my heart still cries when darkness falls. The Zombies here, are the same as me, but...
    Amantcul Amantcul
    56-60, M
    1 Response Nov 19, 2013

    This website is starting to become very

    "difficult" [that's the only word I can think of] for me. It's NOT this website's "fault", that's not what I mean. It's "me". I know because I've been through this "paranoia-anxiety-merry-go-round" countless times over the years. Now it's happening again, but on THIS site. It's...
    judgebear69 judgebear69
    46-50, M
    Jan 9, 2016

    He knows everything about me,

    but I barely know him. I don’t know if he doesn’t want me to know, or if he thinks I don’t care. I think he doesn’t want to tell me anything, because I’ve told him I want to help. I think he’s scared to let anyone in, but I don’t know if I should be the one he...
    LittleMissLiddell LittleMissLiddell
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 28, 2016

    I had a dream tonight,

    instead of a nightmare. Except I doubted whether or not my boyfriend really loved me. It's missing with my head in the real world now. FML
    barelysurviving95 barelysurviving95
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 10, 2015

    I don't know what the hell is wrong with me.

    ...but I can't bear this feeling it's like sadness is gripping my mind for no reason....I find myself making big issues out of silly problems. ...crying myself to bed.I'm completely clueless about this.it's so.....so...hurting.
    111rosy560 111rosy560
    13-15, F
    Mar 5, 2016

    I have these moments

    when I'm happy then a memory pops up and bites me in the kaboos. Most of my memories are of rejections and being bullied and being assaulted and it just makes me cry into my pillow, then I think everyone's against me and talking about me behind my back. That's why I'm mostly...
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    Jun 19, 2015

    Saddness mostly. I have been experiencing it

    again lately, but a dream made me feel a little better, for now at least. Maybe if I somehow make myself have more vivid dreams thry could put me in a better mood. I saw these Lucid Dreaming pills on Amazon. If my doctor says they're safe, I'll use them. I read the reviews and...
    moose73630 moose73630
    18-21, M
    Oct 25, 2015

    Do you get that itchy feeling of humiliation,

    hatred and the thirst for revenge when someone criticise and judge you in negative ways ?
    Probcreator17 Probcreator17
    18-21, M
    Feb 16, 2016

    This is one of those things,

    that when read on a good day will make me cringe. Dark. That is just how I feel. I just started university. This has been stressful and emotionally wearing. I have been here for 6 days, and until today I felt fine. Now...I feel like I have hit the wall. Reality is wearing in...
    WonderingOfTheSoul WonderingOfTheSoul
    1 Response Sep 25, 2015

    Never Ending Battle.

    So much is going on in my life right now I am never happy anymore. I don't want to be around anybody, I just want to be alone and secluded from the world. I could be laughing with friends and then remember something or see something that reminds me of every single one of my...
    SecretSpirit SecretSpirit
    22-25, F
    Oct 9, 2011

    So my dumb paranoid ***,

    just dragged my innocent friend for no reason. I dragged her by her edges because I thought that she was talking **** about me....when really it was about someone else...and she even proved it so I feel very dumb. I feel mean I said things that I shouldn't have because I wanted...
    paintdeath paintdeath
    18-21, F
    Feb 17, 2016

    Im gettin' real tired of this.

    .. when the sadness just hits you like a train... you feel so weak and alone even though you're not and nothing makes it better. Uggh...
    onebadmtfk onebadmtfk
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Mar 6, 2016

    just so sad. and its really hard right

    now idk what's been up with me, but this feeling is unbearable.
    stellakayy stellakayy
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 27, 2016


    Every so often I'll these moments where I'm extremely depressed. And I think that everything is out to get me and no one really likes me.  It usually happens at night when im most alone. It's probably because of that, that I have these moments most often at that time. I...
    Turbulence Turbulence
    18-21, M
    9 Responses Jun 19, 2009

    I get heart beating real fast in places

    and at work now I am in break room using freezer to cool myself down. I have a presentation in few min and trying focus .
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    Jan 28, 2016

    An Open Letter to the Guy I Stopped Waiting

    For Candymag http://m.candymag.com/guys/an-open-letter-to-the-guy-i-stopped-waiting-for Wait for me, you said. You were sure, but you weren't clear. You said those words as if they were the easiest thing to do. You said them as if, at one point in time, you'll know when...
    JuanaChange JuanaChange
    26-30, F
    Aug 13, 2015

    whenever I'm alone with my own thoughts I'm

    either always sad or scared or sometimes both. I always feel like I do everything wrong and always dwell on my mistakes even though I try not to. whenever I get a little stressed and not know what to do I always get panicky and then I don't function right..
    BeautifulSoul09 BeautifulSoul09
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 18, 2015

    For me it's extreme sadness.

    Paranoia isn't very common. I'm going through saddness right now. I don't know what's wrong with me. If you asked me why I'm sad I wouldn't be able to tell you.
    moose73630 moose73630
    18-21, M
    1 Response Sep 27, 2015

    Right now I'm having this feelings mixed with

    spurts of anxiety. I just finished watching a sad movie about a man dealing with schizophrenia. He meets a woman, falls in love but it's never revealed if she's real or in his mind. For whatever reason these types of films trigger something inside me. This very moment I find...
    aBlackRoseBurial aBlackRoseBurial
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jan 26, 2016

    Yes, for any tiny thing I start crying

    and become afraid that I am going to push my boyfriend away. Things have gone very fast for us and I am scared to death when we finally spend time in person he will realize he has made a huge mistake. He has his own anxiety as well, so it seems when I get freaked out he pulls...
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    1 Response Jan 28, 2016

    The taste of bitter sorrow The haste of the

    painful tribulation At the corner of my heart I weep Imprisoned in darkness, devoured by anguish The sudden pulse of affliction Someone come find me Light the path leading to euphoric field The panorama of exuberant delight Let me see it... Let me have it
    PiperMcLean PiperMcLean
    18-21, F
    Jul 11, 2015

    Shut down. My head is a sensitive.

    I am afraid, there are too many mirrors. Who am I? What is real? There are too many of me.
    May 28, 2015
    XxSxarletxX XxSxarletxX
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 26, 2015

    I am learning how to accept

    that my mental illness is not my identity I stumbled across this book for this very reason called YOU ARE NOT YOUR BRAIN: 4 step solution for changing bad habbits, ending unhealthy thinking and taking control of your life. At first I thought not another self help book, bur I...
    LadyGhost27 LadyGhost27
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Nov 15, 2015

    This always happens to me every night

    and sometimes during the day. I get really depressed and start to get paranoid and worried about things and that just hurts me emotionally
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    Apr 10, 2015

    I've been getting bouts of sadness lately.

    its scaring me, because even though I do have things that have been causing me a lot of stress, they seem to be coming out of nowhere. its that heavy feeling in your chest you just can't shake..
    crystalballer27 crystalballer27
    26-30, F
    Apr 8, 2015
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