I Have Rapid Cycling Bipolar Disorder

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    My life goes up and down,

    up and down constantly. I'm all over the place, never quite sure what I'm feeling at any given point. I've never been diagnosed, but my mom has bipolar disorder, and the longer I've thought about it, the more sure I am that bipolar disorder is the only answer to my mood shifts...
    casuallyscreaming casuallyscreaming
    18-21, F
    Sep 22, 2014

    Really, it feels more like a physical deformity

    than a psychiatric illness because it affects the whole body like the plague as you go from a being part of some deep stillness to having a tremendous amount of hyper activity. The prescriptions help a lot but most of the time I just feel like a freak now that I know my own...
    spark16 spark16
    26-30, M
    Dec 17, 2015

    and it's really hard to live with,

    you know? Like, all of the crazy, stupid **** I've done is all so self-destructive. Being so happy and being the life of the party one second to contemplating suicide the next second. It's really hard. The medicine I just started taking makes me sleep all of the time too.
    justleaving justleaving
    18-21, F
    Dec 11, 2014

    I am about to enter a treatment facility

    voluntary to do a vert extreme dangerous treatment ... behavior modification the program they do in prisons to break the minds of killers in the hopes that your mind will heal itself ... im scared it is also used as prisionor of war tatics but 1 day without out mania is worth...
    jesuscleavage jesuscleavage
    46-50, F
    Jul 1, 2015

    I was misdiagnosed at 11

    and then properly diagnosed at 13.
    PsychoticPsychologist PsychoticPsychologist
    13-15
    Apr 23, 2015
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