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I Have Relapsed Back Into Anorexia

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 70 People

    I am completely addicted to my Anorexia Nervosa.

    It's official. I though having enough treatment, enough therapy, enough inpatients, residential facilities and various ways of being forced fed would eventually change me. Moving into different homes with different people, meeting new friends and living different lives...I had...
    Lucile199 Lucile199
    22-25, F
    Jul 15, 2014


    I don't think people who aren't anorexic really get it, I mean the advice is great and everything but its more than a self image problem. And that's what I would like to talk about to someone who is suffering from it too, the re-occurring feelings of wanting to do it again
    chantelliefay chantelliefay
    22-25, F
    Sep 8, 2013

    I've been to school three times

    since it started and I've already skipped three classes, been late to five, and had several breakdowns.. I past out from lack of sleep, food and water today and they took me to a hospital, guess where I'm on lockup now 😊😊😊 kms
    anonanastasia anonanastasia
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 31, 2015

    My Anorexia Poem

    I met a girl named Ana,she became my best friend,shes always in my mind,she'll be here until the end,she told me I'm fat,and to look in the mirror,I then saw my body,and it all became clear,I listened to her,did as I was told,"don't eat your fat", it's all I behold,she whispered...
    thea213 thea213
    18-21, F
    Aug 21, 2013

    I was anorexic, I told my parents,

    they ruined my life and now I am back to pro ana. Can anyone help me retrain my brain? :)
    Sunshinetoday Sunshinetoday
    1 Response Mar 8, 2015

    I've started obsessing over my calorie intake

    again... Today I ate 1274 calories and I weigh 168 pounds.... I hate my body now since I've recovered. I used to be 135 pounds... My lowest was 120.... I haven't been able to get that low again in so long... I want to get back down to 135 because I'll be healthy their... But it...
    prettypumpkinqueen prettypumpkinqueen
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 12, 2015

    Granted most of it having to do with me quite

    literally not having enough money for food (I buy ramen, milk, cereal, coffee.) I eat around 100-500 cals a day.
    xxretroholidayxx xxretroholidayxx
    22-25, F
    Dec 31, 2015

    I'm getting sick again

    and I hate it. I started restricting again a few days ago and I spent the last 2 days buying my old safe foods and making little ration boxes for the next week like I used to do in the worst part of my illness. I dont want to relapse but its happening and I know theres nothing I...
    FeedingTheWolves FeedingTheWolves
    18-21, F
    Oct 26, 2015

    the worst part of relapse is all the work

    that you've done before was for nothing and you have to do it all over again. it's exhausting and disappointing.
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    3 Responses Mar 25, 2014

    The Relapse.

    I was first diagnosed with anorexia on the 27th of April, 2009, when I was 13, weighing 27kg's (59lb's) I was always sick, really weak, but still did normal activities. I recovered on the 10th of December, 2011 when I was 15, once I recovered that's when I really notice the...
    Ashleighkayte Ashleighkayte
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 12, 2012

    I have relapsed multiple times into anorexia

    but I am not a real sufferer as have never even been hospitalised always just an outpatient. I'm good at fooling everyone that I'm better. But the truth is I'm just an acceptable weight with all the mental torment still there. I feel like a fraud.
    asiul9 asiul9
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Jun 16, 2014

    I had just gotten back to my target weight was

    started sports again. But now i've relapsed again. I can't stop it and my parents can't either. They finally got me to eat something but even then i hid it in a napkin. My weight has gone back down to 88lbs and it keeps getting lower. I feel alone in all this and I have no...
    deleted deleted
    Jan 9, 2016

    I use to smoke Marijuana

    as of 2 days ago & I have noticed that since highschool it has helped me to get over my Anorexia problem I use to have. I am now 22 and having problems eating while I'm sober. I use to weigh 90 in highschool then started smoking Marijuana and it helped me start eating. I...
    ambrose121813 ambrose121813
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Feb 8, 2015

    I know it's not right all along,

    & i try to recover, i really do. But when i feel like i'll be lost without it. Like, an emptiness inside of me, kind of like losing someone that means a lot too me. I wouldn't expect anyone without a ED to exactly understand, but you can't just tell us to eat & expect an...
    AnorexicHiddlestoner AnorexicHiddlestoner
    22-25, F
    1 Response May 31, 2014

    Happy I'm Back

    On 16th January when I was 14 years old, I was admitted into a psychiatric unit due to anorexia (started off as bulimia but turned into anorexia). I barely ate, I lived on under 200 calories a day and 2g of fat and even when I ate that I vomitted it back up and exercised for...
    UnableToChange UnableToChange
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 7, 2013
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