I Have Repressed Memories, I Want To Access Them In Safety

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    Any More Good Books On Repressed Memories?

    I've been scouring libraries and books for recovering repressed memories and childhood sexual abuse ever since I recovered some earlier this year. So far, I've read: Repressed Memories: A Journey to Recovery from Sexual Abuse -- Renee Fredrickson, Ph.D. Blind to Betrayal: Why we...
    reclaiminglife reclaiminglife
    36-40, F
    Oct 14, 2013

    I have bits and pieces.

    .. I remember bright camera lights and the photography flash umbrella. I also remember me screaming. And being very very scared and in intense pain. The memories feel like they took place during a medical procedure but I've never gotten a medical procedure done when I was little...
    Njhth Njhth
    18-21, F
    Nov 22, 2015

    I Have Memories

    I have some memories that I don't even want to touch at all. They are to painful for me. That I just won't even talk about them at all. I just won't share them with any one at all. They are that hard to talk about. I think that they always will be so hard to talk about.
    acjf acjf
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 12, 2011

    I've had my therapist tell my

    that my behavior both in childhood and now is consistent with someone who was sexually abused as a child. I have vague memories of something. I can remember the cold tile of the floor, the smell of his cologne, struggling to breathe, but I don't know for sure if what I'm...
    mary909 mary909
    18-21, F
    Feb 23, 2016

    Saw This Group And Welled Up With Tears....

    I think I do.... I dont know. Some of it has started comming out and I feel like I have a legion of memories I have managed to escape. But You know that welp in your throat when something goes wrong, that panic, that anxiety.... the choking cough that just wont come up???? Then a...
    AlyceOverTheRainbow AlyceOverTheRainbow
    26-30, F
    3 Responses May 12, 2011

    Step One.

    most of my childhood is repressed from conscious memory.. I remember some good, but mostly very bad. what scares me is that those happenings I have blocked out are even worse than those that I have no problem recalling. I know the cause of most of my issues, but there are some...
    shenandoah678 shenandoah678
    1 Response Sep 8, 2011

    I'M Not Sure How Many More Of These I Have

    I have two memories that I can think of that I repressed and later remembered. The first I remembered on my own. I think it was something I read on the Internet that reminded me, but I'm not sure. This is the most vivid memory I have now. I just remember we had just gotten off...
    halfbloodprincess halfbloodprincess
    22-25, F
    Oct 8, 2013

    My Repressed Memories

    I recently found out from my mother that at age 4 I was molested, by a girl who was 6 or 7 at the time. She asked me if I remembered any of it, and the thing is I don't, I have memories from before it happened and after but when I think about what happened I have no memories. I...
    XxAngelGirl96xX XxAngelGirl96xX
    Nov 24, 2013

    So fairly recently I got a flash of a memory,

    very vague and filled with a lot if confusion/fear. Here's from the start, you see I always use to get terrible nightmares about my old bedroom, even now it's just an unholy place to think about. I never though much about it, until I got the memory flash, I don't know fully what...
    Kethomet Kethomet
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Feb 13, 2014

    I can't remember my sexual abuse.

    . I see flashes of it occasionally. I see the rape in my nightmares.. but I want to know what all happened to me. I can't stand the thought of someone knowing more about my past than I do. these memories are screwing with me now. I need to fix this.. remember and deal with it.
    boklenHolley7 boklenHolley7
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 22, 2016

    When I was 3 days away from my 15th birthday I

    was told to clean out the garden. His garden… I was to pick the weeds in the corn and cabbage. I was feeling bad already because I got in a fight with my sister prior. So I go out there. It’s really hot, at least 100 degrees. I went out there, picked the weeds I could...
    Tripnotic Tripnotic
    18-21, M
    Jan 21, 2016

    I Can't Remember Most Things Before Age 6

    I used to think it was because I was too stressed out and couldn't process immigrating to the US. You know, the whole new language, completely new world thing.... And now I realize it was actually because I was sexually abused as a child. Apparently, my brain was doing it's best...
    reclaiminglife reclaiminglife
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Oct 27, 2013


    I think I have repressed memories. Can anyone tell me how they knew they had repressed memories? Did you remember the memory and realize that it had been repressed? Or did you have symptoms?
    blackcats blackcats
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Nov 17, 2013

    Idk what of. Something bad,

    I know. I only know that when a room is the temperature of my old preschool; when the familiar smell of a hospital daycare; the taste of food served at a Catholic Church I haven't been to in 10 years, I get sickish and feel like I am about to cry. I definitely know something...
    deleted deleted
    Sep 21, 2015

    I can't remember what happen

    before age 6 and above. Like I have absolutely no idea what my life was then. I don't even remember when my little brother was a baby. I kinda just woke up and somehow know everyone. I don't remember the first time I met my cousins. I don't remember anything before I was age 6...
    Kezio Kezio
    16-17, M
    Nov 23, 2015

    Time Travel

    When I was six years old my parents divorced, and my mother remarried 3 months later to a wealthy dentist. I have a massive memory gap from the month leading up to moving in with my new stepdad. It's not just that the memories are missing now, they were missing then, too...
    lillee11 lillee11
    31-35, F
    1 Response Apr 3, 2013
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