I Have Scars and Cuts That Tell a Story

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 6,081 People

    I didn't know where else to put this

    but I feel like this tells the story behind a lot of my cuts... I really needed to get this out. It's super long though so sorry about that. Another addition to my long ongoing story... This is a hard one for me... Maybe because it was so recent or maybe because it hit me...
    LivviyLove LivviyLove
    18-21, F
    3 Responses May 7, 2014

    I am not sure if I abhor you

    for what you did to me or resent you for scarring me: physically and mentally. I honestly did not know what to think of what happened that day (many years back) which then turned to days, weeks... but with hindsight, I now know that it was not my fault. Unfortunately, underneath...
    Etherealinsanity Etherealinsanity
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 5

    So.. I feel like a failure I had a really bad

    relapse last night..... Ugh I'm a failure...... Can it all just end
    Justforgetaboutme Justforgetaboutme
    13-15, F
    4 Responses Sep 14, 2015

    I can still see the marks faintly on my arms,

    and I am tempted to go back there. It would be so easy....just don't know what to do anymore.
    ErraticSarcastic ErraticSarcastic
    31-35, F
    Nov 9, 2015

    I have many scars, but I think they are

    beautiful because they are unique to me and tell my story. I have a scar on my forehead, where my head was busted open at five years old from falling on my grandma's concrete porch, I have scars on my neck and back from having moles removed, I have a scar on my chest from chemo...
    BeyondGreenEyes BeyondGreenEyes
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Mar 1, 2015

    What if I told you that lighters

    and razors used to be my only friends? Would you care? Or would shoot me nasty looks and stare?
    BeautyOfTheBeast BeautyOfTheBeast
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Dec 8, 2013

    *trigger warning but happy ending,

    thank you if you read* I started cutting when I was 12...the very first time I did 6 small, shallow cuts on the inside of my wrist. They were less than half an inch long and horizontal. I could see blood in them but they were too shallow for them to drip or run or anything. They...
    angelcutie angelcutie
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Oct 2, 2015

    it's a long story... I grew up in a small town

    in Poland with three brothers and four sisters on a farm owned by my parents. We never really had the money so my parents had to go aboard to work. There was no special bond like the ones you see in a normal family. When I was 14 people at school started bullying me just for the...
    HellBunneh HellBunneh
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 7

    I use to be whole. No cuts,

    no scars. No burns, no marks, no bruises, no scrapes. Just a clean, honest soul, with a kind heart. I use to put other's first, and ignore what I wanted. How foolish. Now I'm in a deep, dark place. A place without light, a place without peace or rest. But I don't hesitate...
    deleted deleted
    Sep 26, 2015

    32 stitches on the my right arm remind me daily

    of what I'm capable of doing. Tattoos cannot hide what I have really done in my past. My scars remind me of who I need to become.
    TowerJimmyDabzs TowerJimmyDabzs
    36-40, M
    Jan 31

    I hate the way I love to cut.

    I hate e painful showers and trips to the restroom. But even the sting still reminds me that I can still go deeper. I know it's bad but sometimes it feels like cutting is the only way to express myself. And the only way I can regain some control and feel some pain instead of...
    FantrashticEmily FantrashticEmily
    13-15, F
    1 Response Jan 26

    i got new blades today yay.

    .. (hint no enthusiasm what so ever)
    RosesAndRazors RosesAndRazors
    16-17, F
    1 Response Feb 5, 2015
    YoungDisobedientSlave YoungDisobedientSlave
    13-15, F
    Nov 26, 2015

    Don't u ever look at your scars

    or cuts as remember what cause it? I did.. Many times over
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Aug 17, 2015

    Well, I've actually got (at least) thirteen.

    Maybe I have more. I've lost count. They're all surgical in nature, and since a lot of my surgeries took place when I was very small, I don't remember exactly where all of the scars are, between fading and hair growing over them and the like. This makes me sad, in a way. Going...
    seriouslyscarred seriouslyscarred
    22-25, M
    1 Response Dec 3, 2015

    I have one right next to my left eye.

    It's from running face-first into a door.
    16-17, T
    Oct 2, 2015

    I wanna cover my chest

    and shoulers and back with cuts to show how much I'm hurting and how betrayed and neglected I am
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Sep 25, 2015

    i've been cutting for a

    while now. the moment that the blade cuts my skin and blood flows down my wrist.. but hey! who caries anyway
    kelleh kelleh
    13-15, F
    Feb 26

    A deep one at the back of my knee from a

    motorcycle accident, a few tiger stripes from being overweight in my early twenties, one on my middle finger bearing six stitches next to my nails from a cooking accident, feet that carries 3rd degree burn scars from when I was barely out of diapers and one faint one on my right...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Oct 29, 2015

    The picture above is of my wrist.

    My story didn't end and neither did yours if you're reading this.
    NemoNoMore NemoNoMore
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Apr 23, 2014

    I haven't self harmed in two years & 3 months.

    I know cutting is not the way to deal with things. My life has been harder since I last cut but I've managed to stay clean. I still have scars that are 2+ years old.
    xcheyennexsmithx xcheyennexsmithx
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Feb 27

    I'm sure that every wound tells a story.

    Whether it be that one time your cat scratched you, or being burnt after escaping a deadly fire; wounds of self-harm bear the most heartfelt stories. All that differs between each of us is how many pages that story may be? I conclude by saying that my story is way too long to...
    deleted deleted
    Jun 26, 2014

    the story mine tell is

    that I am a motorcycle rider.
    1niceguy4u 1niceguy4u
    51-55, M
    Sep 25, 2015

    why is the pic butterflies?

    lol anyway.. I do have alot of scars..unfortunately its not the story that makes a person seem like they lived a hard life or went through something horrendous..but in a way I did, sometimes emotional scars run deeper than anything visible ever could.
    Cocrispy Cocrispy
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Feb 26

    Blood Art

    She paints a pretty picture But her story has a twist Her paintbrush was a razor Her canvas was her wrist . She paints a pretty picture In a color that's blood red While using her sharp paintbrush She ends up finally dead Her pretty picture fading Quite slowly on her arm Her...
    chaoscandy chaoscandy
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 3, 2013

    I remember... The deepest cut I ever made.

    .. Was on my leg.. me and my girlfriend we were having a fight and broke up... I loved her to death and I couldn't take that I let her slip out of my reach... I cut across my left leg. The scar reminds me of out good time.. But... I cry every time I talk to her or look at her.
    SexyKitten222244 SexyKitten222244
    16-17, F
    Aug 17, 2015

    My Ugly Scars

    Each one of my scars tells a story...of a war against myself. When I hurt, its the only way I know how to deal with my pain. It wasn't to long ago...maybe 3 or 4 weeks ago, that a dear friend here on EP talked me out of hurting myself. It also helped that my husband found the...
    deleted deleted
    5 Responses May 12, 2013

    I have scars on my wrists,

    arms, upper arms, chest, and thighs. Everyone I know has only seen the ones on my wrists. A lot of my friends were shocked to find these there. "But you were always the happy one! Nooo!" Well actually no, I was depressed all of 8th grade. Just an act to keep others from not...
    flinm flinm
    16-17, M
    Apr 2, 2014

    I like winter because I have an excuse

    for wearing long sleeves and pants.
    itsmeaspen itsmeaspen
    13-15, F
    1 Response Sep 24, 2015

    B: Hey babe, I'm sorry

    but I think we should break up. G: Why? B: Because I hate walking around with a girl who has scars and cuts all over her arms and legs. Then people staring at me because I'm with her. That's just stressful for me. G: Do you still think I'm beautiful? B: I never did. I lied...
    evewalter evewalter
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 29


    The feel of that blade on my skin I slice it open, I see the blood, the world stops, my anger subsides, my stress is temporally alleviated, I don't feel quite so alone, My anxiety levels drop back down, I feel almost normal, I feel calm, and somewhat happy I'm so stressed...
    staystrongandbrave staystrongandbrave
    16-17, F
    5 Responses Jan 1, 2013

    Heartbroken.. Divistaded.

    . I'm lost.. I don't know what to do or where to go No one cares.. I'm alone.. Everyone hates me wish I know why.. I cut because I feel like I deserve it.. I deserve that pain.. I deserve to be hurt..
    Fadia17 Fadia17
    2 Responses Feb 26
    DontKnow2013 DontKnow2013
    22-25, F
    1 Response May 19, 2015

    (Lol. This is a stupid little essay

    that i wrote for english class, but I'm bored so why not post it.) Everybody has scars, and each and every scar is different. There is a unique and unexplained story behind every scar that marks the body. Some people have scars from animal attacks, some from being in a fight...
    ItsAllASecret ItsAllASecret
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Mar 16, 2014

    Many of them are self-inflicted.

    .. Back from when I was deeply depressed. That depression lasted for about 4 years, and still kinda lingers. Some of my scars have healed and disappeared, but many still remain after several months since the self harm was inflicted. Every time I look at them I feel ashamed and...
    Protonyx Protonyx
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Feb 17, 2015

    I cut, not as much anymore

    but I have destroyed my body it's full of scars some that will probably never fade, I want to cut but I don't want to feel the stupidity afterwards, help
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jan 3

    It started last year.

    With a guy. He tried to win over my heart, and I stupidly did stuff to see how much he really cared for me. So one day before he was to come over that night, I slashed my wrist. He literally spent 30 minutes kissing my wrist making me promise I would never do it again. Well...
    Britkitty Britkitty
    18-21, F
    Dec 23, 2015

    Everyone talks about depression

    as if they know it. But what they don’t know is that depression is a hooded figure standing just outside of a wooden doorway, it’s feeling the blood dripping down your skin and having the sick thought of “Oh, look how beautiful the red is” (they always say red is...
    Sorao88 Sorao88
    22-25, M
    2 Responses May 4, 2015

    My Self-Harm Story

    Anymore I only have scars. Scars that I didn't even need. It took me two years to realize you shouldn't dwell on the past or bottle things up because one day, that bottle will blow. Cutting is not needed. It's a temporary fix to a temporary problem. The way I look at things is...
    Tatteredheart Tatteredheart
    16-17, M
    2 Responses Oct 26, 2013

    Cutters Lullaby

    I didn't write this but I thought id share it since its so well written. Go to sleep and close your eyes, And dream of broken butterflies, That tore their wings against a thorn, You know the pain that they have borne. Silver metal shines so bright, Scarlet blood that feels so...
    akkikitsune akkikitsune
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jun 15, 2013

    Nobody knows about the boy

    who was ached for friend. A person he could he could run to when he need help. A person he loved to see and would never want to leave their side. When he went home though, he was nothing but a tragic mistake. His family didn't care about how he felt. His mother never new that he...
    xmoody25 xmoody25
    16-17, M
    1 Response Feb 24, 2015

    little boy: are you an angel?

    me:what? little boy: my mum told me that those who have marked wrists are angels. me. I am not an angel. little boy: of course you are. mum said that only angels harm themselves because they dont like life on earth. this world is destroying them so they try to return to...
    ProfessorPsycho ProfessorPsycho
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Dec 13, 2013

    Im excited my scars are fading away,

    i can wear shorts and t-shirts now and not be asked "whats all those marks on your body?"
    RosesAndRazors RosesAndRazors
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Sep 25, 2015

    Something To Be Proud Of

    I was at a public pool last week and I saw a woman with scars on her thighs, arms, and shoulders, they were clearly self harm scars. She wasn't hiding them at all and she didn't look the least bit embarrassed. Not only did I admire her but I also felt calmed that someone (even a...
    thereisnothingwrongwithyou thereisnothingwrongwithyou
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Jul 23, 2012

    I was 15 when i first cut myself,

    i was under pressured, there was this one girl, a friend of mine, she was 14 and she cuts. I asked her what she felt when she cut, she said relieved. I went back home, i unscrewed a sharperner and that was the first time i cut. At first it didnt bleed but pain, so much pain, it...
    flamedoll flamedoll
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 9, 2014

    I am 13 years old, and I have been cutting

    for almost 2 months. I want to stop but I honestly cant, its an addiction. Ive struggled a lot with self image issues and confidence, ive had a lot of rough times growing up..... I just don't know what to do. I don't have anyone to talk to.
    kaitlynalexis12190 kaitlynalexis12190
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Feb 25

    I started cutting in 7th grade

    and am now a freshman in high school. My sister is drug addict and my dad cheated several times, so all the bullshit they put on my family got me started. My mom told me I was a joke and that I can't ever do anything right. I was challenged and bullied by people at school just...
    24wildroses 24wildroses
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Nov 21, 2014

    Distract yourself. That's what they tell you to

    do, to prevent you from picking that blade up again. The problem with that theory, it's only temporary. And when your alone, at night trying to sleep. That thought you tried to distract yourself from, comes back with a rage.
    princessxk96 princessxk96
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Dec 27, 2013

    well since this is a 'welcoming' site .

    ... ................................. my mom had this rude and slobby *** bf. I found out he smoked pot and weed and ever since then my mom and him would slam the door in my face, and shut me out. Then I fond out they had s*x and my mom was pregnant I cried forever I didn't want...
    leahxlife leahxlife
    13-15, F
    1 Response Feb 20

    i have been cut free

    for about three years now its very hard but i fight it day to day
    smoothbutters smoothbutters
    18-21, F
    Feb 27

    I've yet to tell anyone this.

    You could say that I take things too seriously sometimes. I'm too passionate, too compassionate. Believe it or not, these things are possible. I make a small mistake and sometimes I take it out on myself. Other people who have joined this group probably have more scars than I...
    deleted deleted
    Jan 18

    Umm as I read the stories here u all come from

    f*cked up families or backrounds, or have been mistreated in some way so I feel like a joke.. I have a normal family parents are scientists they smoke but rarely there is my brother too he's a normal person I however am not. From young age as my dad would say i controled myself...
    browndeadeyes browndeadeyes
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Mar 7, 2015
    ellsarah11 ellsarah11
    18-21, F
    Mar 24

    One day it will be deep enought to leave a

    permanent, visible mark. They are reminders, story tellers and friends of mine
    DexieAnderson DexieAnderson
    16-17, M
    3 Responses Feb 27

    I do it only for the scars.

    The stings and the blood is not bad either
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jan 26
More Stories