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I Have Schizoaffective Disorder

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    Dare I say that I found healing from my

    schizoaffective disorder when I lost my family doctor......Truth be told I would have probably still found healing if he would have stayed but stopped being such a jerk. I was already almost there, I was hearing angels singing, especially when I warmed up to the idea of liking...
    cutiepitunia cutiepitunia 70+ Jan 6

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    I was just recently diagnosed with the disorder.

    I hear voices that tell me I am both good and evil at times for trying to kill myself. i also see hallucinations of Angels and demons in my mind. It's very hard to decide whether the negative thinking makes me a good or bad person when I am constantly listening to the battle. My...
    LissMiss2 LissMiss2 31-35, F 5 Responses Sep 7, 2015

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    I don't really have much to share,

    the only reason I've made it this far in life is because I'm a grade A narcissist, but like this weird self-loathing narcissist that hates me and is envious of everyone else. I lie so much to cover up my disorder issues from friends and acquaintances that when I try being honest...
    YOURauntJemima YOURauntJemima 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 5, 2015

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    https://myschizoaffectiveblog.

    wordpress.com Please check it out!
    LissMiss2 LissMiss2 31-35, F Sep 9, 2015

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    Does This Seem A Psychotic Episode?

    hello to everyone on this site. I have struggled with my mental health for over a year now and my diagnosis has changed from ;"first episode psychosis" to simply "severe anxiety" to "the most severe anxiety you have ever seen" to psydo psychosis to "over active imagination" to...
    alicefg alicefg 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 22, 2013

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    I think it's time for me to come out

    and admit this. I was diagnosed at 17 with Schizoaffective Disorder. I don't like to talk about it much because it's very personal and it tends to scare a lot of people away.. but what a lot of people don't understand is that on the surface, I appear fairly normal, just like...
    BellsproutDigsIt BellsproutDigsIt 26-30, M 4 Responses Sep 6, 2014

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    I was just recently diagnosed with

    schizoaffective disorder along with OCD, generalized anxiety disorder, and PTSD....I've kept silent about my issues my whole life due to things done to me as a child to "cure" me of dermatillomania....I'm constantly plagued with fantasy conversations with friends, family, and...
    ambercano ambercano 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 5, 2015

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    About 4 years ago I was diagnosed with

    schizoaffective disorder. At that time my Dr assumed that I hear voices and see things but I don't. I went along with it and now it's out of control. I really don't remember saying I have hallucinations but since then I've been in the hospital because of them when I wanted...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 23, 2015

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    Hi, I have Schizoaffective Disorder,

    and I feel like I have split personalities, one is the Schizoaffective part of me, the one who talks about angels and demons, light and darkness and the world, and who has a very difficult time getting out of bed, and suffers from anxiety and heart problems, then there is the...
    SealedWithAKisss SealedWithAKisss 31-35, F 7 Responses Apr 30, 2015

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    I have been exploited

    and persecuted by a group of undercovers for 15 years now and I fear that this will continue for the rest of my life. Last year they even brought in a psychic who is really a paranoid schizophrenic to spread half truthes and lies about me causing my family doctor to turn on me...
    SealedWithAKisss SealedWithAKisss 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 8, 2015

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    This Is The Soundtrack Of My Life Living With

    Schizoaffective Disorder Every song I post is an excellent representation of what I went through living with Schizoaffective disorder from the very first voice to my mania to the hardships I've endured. What brought me to the faith in God who was the only one who was ever on my...
    SealedWithAKisss SealedWithAKisss 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 16, 2014

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    I've posted about this before.

    I got caught up in a lie that I hear voices when I don't. I have all the other symptoms of schizoaffective but not hallucinations. I told my therapist who believed me and I told my mom but mom doesn't believe me. I'm seeing my Dr today and I hope to clear the air with him but...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 5, 2015

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    Accepting Me

    Although I have been diagnosed since the age of 17 with various different mental health illnesses and disorders, which can change based on symptoms just for the sake of a diagnosis (really just to appease the insurance companies so the doctor can get paid), after close evaluation...
    callmemomma25 callmemomma25 31-35, F 9 Responses Mar 10, 2013

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    I was going to wait for a bit to come out with

    this, normally because people tend to judge when it comes to psychological disorders, especially unknown ones. I was diagnosed at 17, I had an exceptionally hard time dealing with the fact that I was probably going to have to deal with my demons for the rest of my life. My...
    Dereth Dereth 26-30, M 2 Responses Jan 1

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    My Uncomfortable Mind....Battling Schizoaffective Disorder and PTSD

    I should probably tell you a little about myself. I have been described by friends as "sweet", "kind", and "quiet". I love animals, art, children, and life itself on the good days. I have been married to Frank for 18 years and he is the most supportive person I have ever met. Our...
    ChristineX ChristineX 46-50, F 2 Responses Jun 9, 2013

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    This Is The Soundtrack Of My Life Living With

    Schizoaffective Disorder Every song I post is an excellent representation of what I went through living with Schizoaffective disorder from the very first voice to my mania to the hardships I've endured. What brought me to the faith in God who was the only one who was ever on my...
    SealedWithAKisss SealedWithAKisss 31-35, F 10 Responses Mar 24, 2014

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    How can I possibly be good enough

    for other people. "normal" people. With the inescapable reality of this all.. Im surprised I make it out of bed most days.
    4floyd 4floyd 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 27, 2015

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    So, does anyone have a mental volume?

    Like, do your thoughts get loud or really quiet? I've tried explaining it to people and no one understands
    everyonecallsmephoenix everyonecallsmephoenix 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 18, 2015

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    Sitting in Red lobster.

    Super stressed. Look towards back end of Restaurant that's empty. Then proceed to hear demonic wails and screams while everyone around me continues to eat un-phased.
    Autumnbug Autumnbug 18-21 2 Responses Sep 12, 2015

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    I dont know what to say to be honest.

    I have never been much of a conversationalist unless i'm in a really good mood. Ive been through some hectic psychotic episodes that lasted for long periods of time. Ive been well for a good while now but only recently have i actually experienced what its like to be happy even...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 19, 2014

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    i've had all kinds of weird delusions.

    (i am on meds now that are working to keep me in my right mind now.) it's funny to look back on them. A popular one i had always involved people getting killed and replaced by impostors. At one point i thought my parents were killed and replaced by look-a-like communist spies. i...
    marion75 marion75 36-40, F 2 Responses Sep 28, 2015

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    i'm not where i would like to be yet

    but i've gotten pretty far.when i first got diagnosed i couldn't even go outside,it gave me alot of anxiety.i thought the hallucinations i had wanted me to kill myself.i would try to keep myself distracted with anything i could at home after i ran out of things to do i would...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 26, 2015

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    I don't think I'd ever tell anyone

    but I might as well. I have Schizoaffective Disorder which, in a basic definition, it's like Bipolar and Schizophrenia, some people have disagreed with me but that's the basic definition of it. They say " How can you have both?" well, both are very different disorders. I have...
    BellsproutDigsIt BellsproutDigsIt 26-30, M Apr 17, 2014

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    Climbing Up From Rock Bottom

    I began having mental health issues (mainly depression and an eating disorder) when I was fourteen but I was not diagnosed with Schizoaffective Disorder until I was 19.  It was at 19 that I began to experience severe paranoia.  Shortly after that the voices...
    CloserToFine CloserToFine 22-25, F 6 Responses Jul 19, 2008

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    The first time I had schizoaffective symptoms

    was middle school. I thought once all these disorder were caused and had completely blocked out these troubling memories. The mood problems started during my teenage years, where I remember being the most manic. Depression came in and made me forget all the psychosis, but the...
    DeludedRecovery DeludedRecovery 31-35, F Feb 11, 2014

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    The voices told me that I can not die

    and will be here until the end of the world. Tried to kill myself a few times, should I take this as they are right? I'm scared now more than ever could it be true?
    LissMiss2 LissMiss2 31-35, F 3 Responses Sep 25, 2015

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    I think that living with mental illness is like

    experiencing life through more than one set of eyes, like when you are checking and when you aren't. you get more than one vantage point. it can almost be a blessing in disguise to be able to see the world more than one way. I don't know about you, but I have lived with this...
    JaclynAisling87 JaclynAisling87 26-30, F 3 Responses Jun 14, 2015

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    Successfully Managing Schizoaffective Disorder.

    Hi there ^_^ I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder shortly before my 18th birthday. Then when I was 19 I began hearing voices in my head. I soon thought that anyone I thought of could hear my thoughts. This would include the whole world if I simply thought of (and to) the whole...
    XSu1c1deK1ngX XSu1c1deK1ngX 22-25 3 Responses Aug 26, 2010

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    iwas diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder,

    although i dont think i actualy have that.im going to therapy and i think it s helping. tomorrow is my first day of work i havent worked in a year.i think i might be able to keep this job,im going to give it my all. my therapys wants me take take my meds but im not mentally ill...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 17, 2014

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    Gifted Yet Difficult

    I was diagnosed with schizophrenia when I was 19 but something changed in 2005 it was then when my darkness turned to light my diagnoses changed from schizophrenia to schizoaffective disorder. You see I am a Christian, I have been redeemed back in 2000 after I had sold my soul by...
    SealedWithAKisss SealedWithAKisss 31-35, F 3 Responses Jul 25, 2012

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    I've experienced symptoms all my life,

    but it didn't reach it's absolute peak until October of this year. Even before, I repeatedly let everyone around me know that I desperately needed help. Help I got alright. After a failed suicide attempt, I was placed in Hell On Earth, otherwise know as Summit Ridge. The only...
    everyonecallsmephoenix everyonecallsmephoenix 18-21, F 6 Responses Dec 18, 2015

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    I Always Knew I Was Different.

    My life is in chaos as we speak. I do have schizoaffective disorder but I am on meds and they do help. My problem besides my disorder that turns me in to a lonely weirdo is that my dear mother who always took care of me in despite of being a single mom has stage four breast...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Oct 19, 2013

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    My Story

    I guess it all has to do with perspective, with reality, with what we see ourselves as being, and how we cope.  I reach far into myself every day to find hope.  I pray I always have this capacity.  I need God, I need my true friends, and I need compassion for what I am and...
    Poseidon23 Poseidon23 26-30, M 2 Responses Mar 24, 2011

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    I don't think what I have seen is unreal.

    I started seeing non-corporeal faces around / in front of normal human faces. Anyone else?
    SadieCosmo SadieCosmo 16-17, F 4 Responses Dec 22, 2015

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    How has being schizoaffective affected your

    relationships? positively or negatively
    everyonecallsmephoenix everyonecallsmephoenix 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 24, 2015

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    Personally I think that I'm the only one on

    this planet with my disorder, but the docs just have to classify it as something. I cannot function with people and my face always feels numb but it's not of a physical cause.
    BBuff BBuff 46-50, M Nov 6, 2015

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    This Is The Soundtrack Of My Life Living With Schizoaffective Disorder

    Every song I post is an excellent representation of what I went through living with Schizoaffective disorder from the very first voice to my mania to the hardships I've endured. What brought me to the faith in God who was the only one who was ever on my side which led me to peace...
    SealedWithAKisss SealedWithAKisss 31-35, F 4 Responses Nov 15, 2013

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    Hi,my names alex and i have schizoaffective

    disorder.i was working for 3 weeks as a phone operater and it didnt work out.i ended up getting to stressed out so i quit.keeping a job with a mental illness is very hard to do.has anyone with a mental illness been able to keep a job? 3 weeks is the longest ive lasted sense i...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Feb 20, 2015

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    We Are Not Crazy. We Are Gifted.

    i think that us who are schizoaffective are not crazy or delusional. i think that we are able to see another side of life that very few can. i think we have our own perception of things and yeah maybe sometimes it gets a little screwed up. i think that ' normal ' non-schizo...
    steadybein steadybein 18-21, F 14 Responses Aug 9, 2011

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    I see and hear people

    who aren't there. My family, close friends, demons, and my kidnapper/rapist. Some are comforting, some are not. I'm just relieved to see I'm not the only one. I've seen and heard people my whole life.
    swiftasacoursingriver swiftasacoursingriver 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 9, 2015

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    I have been dealing with this illness Since the

    age of 16. I am 33 now. It was a HUGE turning point in my life. It changed EVERYTHING. I had 3 Head injuries, the 3rd one was a kick to the head from someone sliding into first base during a baseball game causing a contusion. 3 months later, I started having dellusions. The...
    Crazy4capoeira Crazy4capoeira 31-35, M Nov 7, 2014

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    Uhhhh...

    I don't know where to begin. My heart and mind are racing because i dont know what to say. My palms are sweating. Just the act of posting my thoughts and feelings on the internet makes me scared and paranoid. I'm not the best a handling this disorder. I dont talk to anyone...
    silverhand10 silverhand10 22-25, M 7 Responses Mar 26, 2011

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    I started hearing voices

    when I was 13 and for a long time I didn't understand what they were. I also had a horrible time in school. I was constantly in trouble for not listening to the teacher or concentrating on my studies. I ended up leaving high school when I was 16 because I couldn't handle it...
    ParanoidGirl ParanoidGirl 26-30 2 Responses Dec 11, 2015

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    When things are bad they are ******* terrible I

    don't want to be alone but I'm so uncomfortable around others it's like I want to be alone but I'm sad because I am it makes no sense I don't know what to do I feel like I'm slowly becoming trapped in my own mind
    twoface88 twoface88 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 7, 2014

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    A Gift?

    i've been to two psychiatrist's within the last two months; and finally that is, after waiting my whole life to come out and say something. i have routines that i do to avoid being scared. when i say scared; i mean i panic.. and freak out kindof? i like to call it "episodes...
    amberrr amberrr 16-17, F 11 Responses Dec 11, 2007

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