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I Have Schizoaffective Disorder

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    Hi,my names alex and i have schizoaffective

    disorder.i was working for 3 weeks as a phone operater and it didnt work out.i ended up getting to stressed out so i quit.keeping a job with a mental illness is very hard to do.has anyone with a mental illness been able to keep a job? 3 weeks is the longest ive lasted sense i...
    weirdalex93 weirdalex93 22-25, F 6 Responses Feb 20

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    Does This Seem A Psychotic Episode?

    hello to everyone on this site. I have struggled with my mental health for over a year now and my diagnosis has changed from ;"first episode psychosis" to simply "severe anxiety" to "the most severe anxiety you have ever seen" to psydo psychosis to "over active imagination" to...
    alicefg alicefg 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 22, 2013

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    Gifted Yet Difficult

    I was diagnosed with schizophrenia when I was 19 but something changed in 2005 it was then when my darkness turned to light my diagnoses changed from schizophrenia to schizoaffective disorder. You see I am a Christian, I have been redeemed back in 2000 after I had sold my soul by...
    Jesusfoundme Jesusfoundme 31-35, F 4 Responses Jul 25, 2012

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    This Is The Soundtrack Of My Life Living With

    Schizoaffective Disorder Every song I post is an excellent representation of what I went through living with Schizoaffective disorder from the very first voice to my mania to the hardships I've endured. What brought me to the faith in God who was the only one who was ever on my...
    Jesusfoundme Jesusfoundme 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 16, 2014

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    I think it's time for me to come out

    and admit this. I was diagnosed at 17 with Schizoaffective Disorder. I don't like to talk about it much because it's very personal and it tends to scare a lot of people away.. but what a lot of people don't understand is that on the surface, I appear fairly normal, just like...
    Shinook26 Shinook26 26-30, M 4 Responses Sep 6, 2014

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    This Is The Soundtrack Of My Life Living With Schizoaffective Disorder

    Every song I post is an excellent representation of what I went through living with Schizoaffective disorder from the very first voice to my mania to the hardships I've endured. What brought me to the faith in God who was the only one who was ever on my side which led me to peace...
    Jesusfoundme Jesusfoundme 31-35, F 4 Responses Nov 15, 2013

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    My Story

    I guess it all has to do with perspective, with reality, with what we see ourselves as being, and how we cope.  I reach far into myself every day to find hope.  I pray I always have this capacity.  I need God, I need my true friends, and I need compassion for what I am and...
    Poseidon23 Poseidon23 26-30, M 2 Responses Mar 24, 2011

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    You know sometimes I don't think it's possible

    for some one to love or atleast not the same way I'd love them. People threw out my life have not been the best but it's cause I keep putting my self in the same situation over and over again because I do t know what els to do. But yea honestly I don't have an opinion on day to...
    twoface88 twoface88 26-30, M Apr 29, 2014

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    When things are bad they are ******* terrible I

    don't want to be alone but I'm so uncomfortable around others it's like I want to be alone but I'm sad because I am it makes no sense I don't know what to do I feel like I'm slowly becoming trapped in my own mind
    twoface88 twoface88 26-30, M 2 Responses Apr 7, 2014

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    The first time I had schizoaffective symptoms

    was middle school. I thought once all these disorder were caused and had completely blocked out these troubling memories. The mood problems started during my teenage years, where I remember being the most manic. Depression came in and made me forget all the psychosis, but the...
    DeludedRecovery DeludedRecovery 31-35, F Feb 11, 2014

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    I am constantly arguing with myself about what

    is real and what is a figment of my mind created by my disorder.
    ogechi98 ogechi98 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 12, 2014

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    Its' hard to suffer like this

    and its a lonely death trap
    lovelinessbathes lovelinessbathes 31-35, M 1 Response Dec 31, 2014

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    I got diagnosed Schizoaffective in May of 2012

    and started on antipsychotic medications which have caused me to double my weight. I want to lose 100lbs but I keep gaining. Any advice would be appreciated.
    ParanoidGirl ParanoidGirl 26-30 3 Responses Jun 13, 2014

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    We Are Not Crazy. We Are Gifted.

    i think that us who are schizoaffective are not crazy or delusional. i think that we are able to see another side of life that very few can. i think we have our own perception of things and yeah maybe sometimes it gets a little screwed up. i think that ' normal ' non-schizo...
    steadybein steadybein 18-21, F 14 Responses Aug 9, 2011

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    I Keep My Illness A Taboo

    It's hard being around people. I don't go to church anymore. I went to several churches in my life. A Baptist Church, Non-Denominational, no matter where I go. I keep my illness a Taboo. The last time I went to church on a regular basis, I attended bible study each week. It took...
    noaht43 noaht43 41-45, T 6 Responses Aug 24, 2012

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    I have been dealing with this illness Since the

    age of 16. I am 33 now. It was a HUGE turning point in my life. It changed EVERYTHING. I had 3 Head injuries, the 3rd one was a kick to the head from someone sliding into first base during a baseball game causing a contusion. 3 months later, I started having dellusions. The...
    Crazy4capoeira Crazy4capoeira 31-35, M Nov 7, 2014

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    I have schizoaffective disorder.

    I'm sitting at home on a friday night by myself. First of all I didn't have the energy to go out, secondly, I just never seem to have plans anymore. I'm unemployed. Since a bad psychotic episode in college 10 years ago, it's been the same story; get a job, have a psychosis...
    krome13 krome13 31-35, M 2 Responses Dec 12, 2014

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    So I'm trying to reach out to other people

    that schizoaffective it is fun to talk to them because I feel like they understand and sometimes they don't but it's ok also g as we are both diffrent. Normal people are usually lame. I don't know about other people that are schizoaffective but I am very picky about the company...
    twoface88 twoface88 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 14, 2014

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    I have schizoaffective disorder

    and I recently changed meds from olanzapine to Latuda and in the last 2 weeks I've lost 10lbs!!!
    ParanoidGirl ParanoidGirl 26-30 2 Responses Jan 30

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    I dont know what to say to be honest.

    I have never been much of a conversationalist unless i'm in a really good mood. Ive been through some hectic psychotic episodes that lasted for long periods of time. Ive been well for a good while now but only recently have i actually experienced what its like to be happy even...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 19, 2014

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    I am sure that this is an unhealthy obsession.

    I'm obsessed with my illness. I talk about it all the time, I'm constantly reading and researching about it. I'm very active in Facebook groups dedicated to coping with it. I even run a Facebook page for it. I'm not sure if I need to stop or not, or if I'll find a coping...
    britsmarie britsmarie 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 12, 2014

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    Successfully Managing Schizoaffective Disorder.

    Hi there ^_^ I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder shortly before my 18th birthday. Then when I was 19 I began hearing voices in my head. I soon thought that anyone I thought of could hear my thoughts. This would include the whole world if I simply thought of (and to) the whole...
    XSu1c1deK1ngX XSu1c1deK1ngX 22-25 3 Responses Aug 26, 2010

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    So my psycitrist is trying to get me to

    confront my anxiety and it's funny to me because the things in life that are good for me make me very uncomfortable. I am a very agressive person in side my head but when I am around many people I am just very quite. Most people I meet strike me as simple and I don't enjoy the...
    twoface88 twoface88 26-30, M May 30, 2014

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    hey im vanessa i have borderline personality

    disorder and schizoaffective disorder.i cant keep a job.i struggle daily.all i want to do is sleep.i feel like im not real alot and im just watching everything happen around me.does anything get easier.im losing hope.
    nessa88 nessa88 26-30, F 3 Responses May 16

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    Hi, I have Schizoaffective Disorder,

    and I feel like I have split personalities, one is the Schizoaffective part of me, the one who talks about angels and demons, light and darkness and the world, and who has a very difficult time getting out of bed, and suffers from anxiety and heart problems, then there is the...
    Jesusfoundme Jesusfoundme 31-35, F 7 Responses Apr 30

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    It derailed my life in a big way.

    ..I've struggled with it for the past 5 years, attempted suicide twice, and though I'm usually a pretty happy person I sometimes feel less than, shame, and regret/guilt because of it.
    elizsvot elizsvot 22-25, F 2 Responses May 9

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    Accepting Me

    Although I have been diagnosed since the age of 17 with various different mental health illnesses and disorders, which can change based on symptoms just for the sake of a diagnosis (really just to appease the insurance companies so the doctor can get paid), after close evaluation...
    callmemomma25 callmemomma25 31-35, F 9 Responses Mar 10, 2013

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    Uhhhh...

    I don't know where to begin. My heart and mind are racing because i dont know what to say. My palms are sweating. Just the act of posting my thoughts and feelings on the internet makes me scared and paranoid. I'm not the best a handling this disorder. I dont talk to anyone...
    silverhand10 silverhand10 22-25, M 7 Responses Mar 26, 2011

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    I'm hearing a lot of negative things again.

    Specifically the devil telling me to cut myself. I want to call my therapist but she will just tell me to go into the er and I have a busy couple of days ahead of me. I won't do anything until Thursday when all this is over and since the stress might be done I might not have to...
    ParanoidGirl ParanoidGirl 26-30 3 Responses Feb 16

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    A Lifetime Of Confusion

    When I was 8 years old, my parents divorced and I never felt truly happy ever again. Then when I was 10, both parents met new partners. I was living with my Dad, who told me on the Friday that he was getting married. I was overjoyed. Not only would I get a new step-brother, I...
    Gledwood Gledwood 36-40, M 4 Responses Jun 3, 2011

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    This Is The Soundtrack Of My Life Living With

    Schizoaffective Disorder Every song I post is an excellent representation of what I went through living with Schizoaffective disorder from the very first voice to my mania to the hardships I've endured. What brought me to the faith in God who was the only one who was ever on my...
    Jesusfoundme Jesusfoundme 31-35, F 6 Responses Mar 24, 2014

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    iwas diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder,

    although i dont think i actualy have that.im going to therapy and i think it s helping. tomorrow is my first day of work i havent worked in a year.i think i might be able to keep this job,im going to give it my all. my therapys wants me take take my meds but im not mentally ill...
    weirdalex93 weirdalex93 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 17, 2014

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    My Uncomfortable Mind....Battling Schizoaffective Disorder and PTSD

    I should probably tell you a little about myself. I have been described by friends as "sweet", "kind", and "quiet". I love animals, art, children, and life itself on the good days. I have been married to Frank for 18 years and he is the most supportive person I have ever met. Our...
    ChristineX ChristineX 46-50, F 2 Responses Jun 9, 2013

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    Not sure how to start this

    but i feel it should be shared at least i think i should. At the age of 31 32 dont remember exactly though I'll be 34 soon i was diagnosed. The reason I was diagnosed as I was sent to see a psychiatrist from my job for reasons i choose not to discuss at this time. I guess i...
    angelwraith angelwraith 31-35, M 1 Response Apr 24, 2014

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    Schizoaffective disorder is ruining my grades

    and is making everyday living daunting. It feels as if i cannot go on with life.
    ogechi98 ogechi98 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 20

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    I will never forget the day

    that I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder. I mean, I have never been so emotional, before. I was crying for the fear of stigmas, and I was crying for the fear of my family not understanding it all. At the same time, however, I was crying for the relief that it was - I...
    ajatuksissani ajatuksissani 22-25, M 2 Responses Jun 15, 2014

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    Im new to this group i think.

    I havent been on n a while. After being hospitalized for a while my diagnosis became debatable. My drs didnt know if i had paranoid schizophrenia or disorganized schizophenia. After being in the hospital a while longer they changed my diagnosis to schizoaffective disorder...
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 29, 2014

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    Climbing Up From Rock Bottom

    I began having mental health issues (mainly depression and an eating disorder) when I was fourteen but I was not diagnosed with Schizoaffective Disorder until I was 19.  It was at 19 that I began to experience severe paranoia.  Shortly after that the voices...
    CloserToFine CloserToFine 22-25, F 6 Responses Jul 19, 2008

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    What are people's suggestions

    for getting off the meds? Also key tell tale signs when you need to get back on them?
    crackleface crackleface 22-25, M 2 Responses Oct 25, 2014

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    My thoughts are getting the best of me.

    I merely mess up with my LGBT coordinator who was co-hosting the drag show with another guy and I didn't get anything done in time and it was totally my fault so I apologized because I know how busy he is and to play goosechase with me like that, I just felt bad in general. So...
    Shinook26 Shinook26 26-30, M Jul 5, 2014

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    I have Schizoaffective Disorder.

    I have audio and visual hallucinations but in the last week or so I've starting seeing and feeling spiders crawling on my skin. It's itchy. I can see the spiders biting me and I can feel it in my brain. I know it doesn't make sense. That's why I can't talk to anyone about it. I...
    ParanoidGirl ParanoidGirl 26-30 2 Responses Jun 21, 2014

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    my boyfriend has this

    and its killing me the things I've gone through with him. I'm brokenhearted and I feel guilty everyday because I want to leave him but we had a connection that's so deep I can't bear leaving him. mostly because I don't want to hurt him and I'm scared to lose him. I've never felt...
    themuffingirly themuffingirly 22-25, F 3 Responses Feb 3

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    There are times when I have delusions

    that I'm in hell. I had a near death experience when I was 17 years old. I caught meningitis and spent 1 week in the hospital with nurse assistance a week after. Sometimes I get in places where I believe that I died that night and I was a bad person so I'm paying the price now...
    brza1 brza1 36-40, M May 27, 2014

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    Am I the only one on EP

    who seems to suffer from this? It has made me attempt suicide 6 times already.
    Paranoidbeyondbelief Paranoidbeyondbelief 16-17, M 7 Responses Oct 9, 2014

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    To those who have read my story on

    why I don't want any kids.. this is one of the reasons. I don't think it would be fair to push a child through something that I can not control, let alone live with the rest of my life. By the way, the stuff I said on that story where just a ton of thoughts and feelings I needed...
    RoyalGoldx RoyalGoldx 26-30, M Feb 1, 2014

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    Im going insane. I hear satan tell me to kill

    everyone because no one loves me. He tells me to cut my self up because im worthless. So i cut all over my arm. I feel relieved after doing it. But satan still hates me...why? The only person that ever talks me always says horrible things about me. Even after i draw inverted...
    tec129 tec129 18-21, M 2 Responses May 12

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