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    Hi, my names Alex and i have schizoaffective

    disorder.i was diagnosed in 2012...i think XDIt all started when i was working in a hotel and my parents decided to move away.i got very depressed.One morning i was walking to work and just as i was about to go in to work i turned the other way and ran away.i walked and walked...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Feb 21

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    We Are Not Crazy. We Are Gifted.

    i think that us who are schizoaffective are not crazy or delusional. i think that we are able to see another side of life that very few can. i think we have our own perception of things and yeah maybe sometimes it gets a little screwed up. i think that ' normal ' non-schizo...
    steadybein steadybein 18-21, F 14 Responses Aug 9, 2011

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    A Lifetime Of Confusion

    When I was 8 years old, my parents divorced and I never felt truly happy ever again. Then when I was 10, both parents met new partners. I was living with my Dad, who told me on the Friday that he was getting married. I was overjoyed. Not only would I get a new step-brother, I...
    Gledwood Gledwood 36-40, M 4 Responses Jun 3, 2011

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    I don't think I'd ever tell anyone

    but I might as well. I have Schizoaffective Disorder which, in a basic definition, it's like Bipolar and Schizophrenia, some people have disagreed with me but that's the basic definition of it. They say " How can you have both?" well, both are very different disorders. I have...
    JudeLeDude JudeLeDude 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 17

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    So my psycitrist is trying to get me to

    confront my anxiety and it's funny to me because the things in life that are good for me make me very uncomfortable. I am a very agressive person in side my head but when I am around many people I am just very quite. Most people I meet strike me as simple and I don't enjoy the...
    twoface88 twoface88 26-30, M May 30

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    I will never forget the day

    that I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder. I mean, I have never been so emotional, before. I was crying for the fear of stigmas, and I was crying for the fear of my family not understanding it all. At the same time, however, I was crying for the relief that it was - I...
    ajatuksissani ajatuksissani 22-25, M 2 Responses Jun 15

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    Schizoaffective: My S.a.d. Story

    It's was May of 06 when my world turned upside down. I began hallucinating and suggesting inwardly this is normal. Then I blacked out and woke up . I  was semi counscience but was basically having a nervous breakdown. I suddenly found myself bargaining with the devil(delusional...
    decasanova1 decasanova1 22-25, M 3 Responses May 4, 2011

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    This Is The Soundtrack Of My Life Living With Schizoaffective Disorder

    Every song I post is an excellent representation of what I went through living with Schizoaffective disorder from the very first voice to my mania to the hardships I've endured. What brought me to the faith in God who was the only one who was ever on my side which led me to peace...
    Jesusfoundme Jesusfoundme 31-35, F 4 Responses Nov 15, 2013

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    I must be one of the strangest persons on this

    earth. Diagnosed with this disorder at least several years ago, I am on disability for this and also PTSD. I have many hobbies and am intelligent in many ways but can't apply myself due to concentration problems and fear of people. But I don't consider social anxiety/phobia as...
    4k5dii 4k5dii 46-50, M Apr 14

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    my names Alex and i have schizoaffective

    disorder. you can message me if you want. here is my youtube chanel if anyone if feeling lonely. :) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zPeYN7khcpU&list=UU43-FIFmjEMrOaKhZTM-78w
    weirdalex21 weirdalex21 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 19

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    Uhhhh...

    I don't know where to begin. My heart and mind are racing because i dont know what to say. My palms are sweating. Just the act of posting my thoughts and feelings on the internet makes me scared and paranoid. I'm not the best a handling this disorder. I dont talk to anyone...
    silverhand10 silverhand10 22-25, M 7 Responses Mar 26, 2011

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    What does that even mean.

    I am so tired of being tired because my brain is more manic then my body. How do I slow my brain down.
    sweetsadness23 sweetsadness23 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 25

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    I Am Living With Schizoaffective Disorder And I'M Beating It........

    I have been sick most all of my life. I'm forty years old now. I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder first in 1999, and I was suffering from Chronic Post Tramatic Stress Disorder at that time but was not diagnosed for that until 2008. In 2003 the doctors added Schizoaffective...
    freedompride freedompride 36-40 3 Responses May 16, 2013

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    The worst of Schizoaffective is the darkness.

    I can't really describe it, but it's as though the darkness is alive and is trying to overtake me. I also have delusions, but I've learned to notice them and reject them so that they don't dominate my life anymore. Delusions are like when I'm driving and I see the car in...
    LightinDarkness8 LightinDarkness8 26-30 3 Responses Mar 21

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    Successfully Managing Schizoaffective Disorder.

    Hi there ^_^ I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder shortly before my 18th birthday. Then when I was 19 I began hearing voices in my head. I soon thought that anyone I thought of could hear my thoughts. This would include the whole world if I simply thought of (and to) the whole...
    XSu1c1deK1ngX XSu1c1deK1ngX 22-25 3 Responses Aug 26, 2010

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    This Is The Soundtrack Of My Life Living With

    Schizoaffective Disorder Every song I post is an excellent representation of what I went through living with Schizoaffective disorder from the very first voice to my mania to the hardships I've endured. What brought me to the faith in God who was the only one who was ever on my...
    Jesusfoundme Jesusfoundme 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 16

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    I have Schizoaffective Disorder.

    I have audio and visual hallucinations but in the last week or so I've starting seeing and feeling spiders crawling on my skin. It's itchy. I can see the spiders biting me and I can feel it in my brain. I know it doesn't make sense. That's why I can't talk to anyone about it. I...
    ParanoidGirl ParanoidGirl 26-30 1 Response Jun 21

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    My thoughts are getting the best of me.

    I merely mess up with my LGBT coordinator who was co-hosting the drag show with another guy and I didn't get anything done in time and it was totally my fault so I apologized because I know how busy he is and to play goosechase with me like that, I just felt bad in general. So...
    JudeLeDude JudeLeDude 22-25, M Jul 5

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    My Uncomfortable Mind....Battling Schizoaffective Disorder and PTSD

    I should probably tell you a little about myself. I have been described by friends as "sweet", "kind", and "quiet". I love animals, art, children, and life itself on the good days. I have been married to Frank for 18 years and he is the most supportive person I have ever met. Our...
    ChristineX ChristineX 46-50, F 2 Responses Jun 9, 2013

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    Not sure how to start this

    but i feel it should be shared at least i think i should. At the age of 31 32 dont remember exactly though I'll be 34 soon i was diagnosed. The reason I was diagnosed as I was sent to see a psychiatrist from my job for reasons i choose not to discuss at this time. I guess i...
    angelwraith angelwraith 31-35, M 1 Response Apr 24

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    iwas diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder,

    although i dont think i actualy have that.im going to therapy and i think it s helping. tomorrow is my first day of work i havent worked in a year.i think i might be able to keep this job,im going to give it my all. my therapys wants me take take my meds but im not mentally ill...
    weirdalex21 weirdalex21 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 17

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    This Is The Soundtrack Of My Life Living With

    Schizoaffective Disorder Every song I post is an excellent representation of what I went through living with Schizoaffective disorder from the very first voice to my mania to the hardships I've endured. What brought me to the faith in God who was the only one who was ever on my...
    Jesusfoundme Jesusfoundme 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    A Gift?

    i've been to two psychiatrist's within the last two months; and finally that is, after waiting my whole life to come out and say something. i have routines that i do to avoid being scared. when i say scared; i mean i panic.. and freak out kindof? i like to call it "episodes...
    amberrr amberrr 16-18, F 11 Responses Dec 11, 2007

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    Does This Seem A Psychotic Episode?

    hello to everyone on this site. I have struggled with my mental health for over a year now and my diagnosis has changed from ;"first episode psychosis" to simply "severe anxiety" to "the most severe anxiety you have ever seen" to psydo psychosis to "over active imagination" to...
    alicefg alicefg 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 22, 2013

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    To those who have read my story on

    why I don't want any kids.. this is one of the reasons. I don't think it would be fair to push a child through something that I can not control, let alone live with the rest of my life. By the way, the stuff I said on that story where just a ton of thoughts and feelings I needed...
    RoyalGoldx RoyalGoldx 22-25, M 2 Responses Feb 1

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    I can't stop thinking.

    My mind is racing. I don't know what to do. I'm not seeing my dr for a month. I have intense voices and I wish I knew how to quiet them down without taking a prn. I'm also seeing a cat at the moment. He usually only comes around when things are really bad. Does anyone have...
    ParanoidGirl ParanoidGirl 26-30 4 Responses Feb 17

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    So I'm trying to reach out to other people

    that schizoaffective it is fun to talk to them because I feel like they understand and sometimes they don't but it's ok also g as we are both diffrent. Normal people are usually lame. I don't know about other people that are schizoaffective but I am very picky about the company...
    twoface88 twoface88 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 14

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    So I have a girl friend

    now wich is really cool for me but also at the same time it makes me aware of how difficult it is for me to have normal relationships with people. It's difficult for me because I get caught up in my mind And what it's saying wich usually lead to much anxiety for no reason. It...
    twoface88 twoface88 26-30, M Apr 5

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    I got diagnosed Schizoaffective in May of 2012

    and started on antipsychotic medications which have caused me to double my weight. I want to lose 100lbs but I keep gaining. Any advice would be appreciated.
    ParanoidGirl ParanoidGirl 26-30 1 Response Jun 13

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    I dont know what to say to be honest.

    I have never been much of a conversationalist unless i'm in a really good mood. Ive been through some hectic psychotic episodes that lasted for long periods of time. Ive been well for a good while now but only recently have i actually experienced what its like to be happy even...
    youngozziman youngozziman 18-21, M Apr 19

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    So at the age 20 I was diagnosed with

    schizoaffective disorder. I have been diagnosed with a chemical imbalance since the age of seven as they did not want to label a seven year old schizophrenic. I used to throw huge fights kick hit punch then when I was calm my mum would ask why I would respond she told me too .at...
    justwanabe justwanabe 22-25, F Apr 5

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    My World

    I have been diagnosed with this condition for 3 years now and this is the first time i have found a site that has other people that have been diagnosed with the same thing..... I have felt so very alone i have suffered on and off with depression for a long time i have bipolar...
    Keindia Keindia 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 25, 2011

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    I Keep My Illness A Taboo

    It's hard being around people. I don't go to church anymore. I went to several churches in my life. A Baptist Church, Non-Denominational, no matter where I go. I keep my illness a Taboo. The last time I went to church on a regular basis, I attended bible study each week. It took...
    noaht43 noaht43 41-45, T 7 Responses Aug 24, 2012

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    My Story

    I guess it all has to do with perspective, with reality, with what we see ourselves as being, and how we cope.  I reach far into myself every day to find hope.  I pray I always have this capacity.  I need God, I need my true friends, and I need compassion for what I am and...
    Poseidon23 Poseidon23 26-30, M 2 Responses Mar 24, 2011

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    What are your symptoms daily

    after you been treated for schizoaffective disorder?
    SsMcGavin SsMcGavin 22-25, M 2 Responses Jul 5

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    Climbing Up From Rock Bottom

    I began having mental health issues (mainly depression and an eating disorder) when I was fourteen but I was not diagnosed with Schizoaffective Disorder until I was 19.  It was at 19 that I began to experience severe paranoia.  Shortly after that the voices...
    CloserToFine CloserToFine 22-25, F 6 Responses Jul 19, 2008

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    I Went Through Many Diagnoses Before They Got It Right

    I started my life as Bipolar with Psychotic features and struggled with the horrible mood swings and it's effects on my family and friends for many years.  In those years it just wasn't done to admit that your child was mentally ill so my parents never got me any help and I...
    psikotik1 psikotik1 41-45 3 Responses Nov 6, 2008

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    I Always Knew I Was Different.

    My life is in chaos as we speak. I do have schizoaffective disorder but I am on meds and they do help. My problem besides my disorder that turns me in to a lonely weirdo is that my dear mother who always took care of me in despite of being a single mom has stage four breast...
    erilove84 erilove84 26-30, F 3 Responses Oct 19, 2013

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    Im new to this group i think.

    I havent been on n a while. After being hospitalized for a while my diagnosis became debatable. My drs didnt know if i had paranoid schizophrenia or disorganized schizophenia. After being in the hospital a while longer they changed my diagnosis to schizoaffective disorder...
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 29

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    You know sometimes I don't think it's possible

    for some one to love or atleast not the same way I'd love them. People threw out my life have not been the best but it's cause I keep putting my self in the same situation over and over again because I do t know what els to do. But yea honestly I don't have an opinion on day to...
    twoface88 twoface88 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 29

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    The first time I had schizoaffective symptoms

    was middle school. I thought once all these disorder were caused and had completely blocked out these troubling memories. The mood problems started during my teenage years, where I remember being the most manic. Depression came in and made me forget all the psychosis, but the...
    DeludedRecovery DeludedRecovery 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 11

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    So my uncle got me to start praying

    and it has helped me calm my mind. But good things have happend to me sense. When I started I was very sad And afraid I would pray to stay calm to not get emotional and to cleanse my spirit of negative energy. So any ways some times when I pray wierd things come to me. Like the...
    twoface88 twoface88 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 2

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    There are times when I have delusions

    that I'm in hell. I had a near death experience when I was 17 years old. I caught meningitis and spent 1 week in the hospital with nurse assistance a week after. Sometimes I get in places where I believe that I died that night and I was a bad person so I'm paying the price now...
    brza1 brza1 36-40, M May 27

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    When things are bad they are ******* terrible I

    don't want to be alone but I'm so uncomfortable around others it's like I want to be alone but I'm sad because I am it makes no sense I don't know what to do I feel like I'm slowly becoming trapped in my own mind
    twoface88 twoface88 26-30, M 2 Responses Apr 7

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    Lately I've been very depressed

    and have felt like killing myself. I've expressed this to my doctor and he's given me a higher dose of my anti psychotic but I don't think I'm having a psychotic episode I think it's depression. My reasoning for thinking that is I'm not hallucinating like I usually do during a...
    ParanoidGirl ParanoidGirl 26-30 4 Responses Mar 2

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    I have this girl I have been seeing.

    I pray every day and go hiking in the mountains I am really enjoying life here I think I actually feel happy it is so strange for me. I do my best to stay calm and focus on others needs before mine, It has helped me maintain for friend ships and things. I realize now I have come...
    twoface88 twoface88 26-30, M Mar 9

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    Gifted Yet Difficult

    I was diagnosed with schizophrenia when I was 19 but something changed in 2005 it was then when my darkness turned to light my diagnoses changed from schizophrenia to schizoaffective disorder. You see I am a Christian, I have been redeemed back in 2000 after I had sold my soul by...
    Jesusfoundme Jesusfoundme 31-35, F 4 Responses Jul 25, 2012

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    Accepting Me

    Although I have been diagnosed since the age of 17 with various different mental health illnesses and disorders, which can change based on symptoms just for the sake of a diagnosis (really just to appease the insurance companies so the doctor can get paid), after close evaluation...
    callmemomma25 callmemomma25 31-35, F 10 Responses Mar 10, 2013

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    And co-morbid panic disorder with ADHD.

    Every day of my life presents a great challenge. I am fortunate to have decent healthcare and disability income. Now I just need a psychiatrist that is willing to work with me on medications. I have a good idea of what works and is effective. Any suggestions?
    Thisoneman Thisoneman 31-35, M 1 Response Feb 16

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    SuperPanda SuperPanda 26-30, M Apr 14

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    I tried to kill myself five days ago.

    In the hospital they gave me this title, maybe an upgrade from schizophrenia? I really have no hope for a normal life. I don't even know if I can survive this.
    nicholeooo nicholeooo 22-25 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Related Experiences

    I have been really struggling lately with wondering if a man would want to marry a girl like me who has Schizoaffective disorder. I really want to be married one due but I'm...
    ParanoidGirl ParanoidGirl 26-30 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I feel so confused most days, I just don't feel like im really here, I feel like Im in a movie watching myself or something. I don't know it's weird, I feel disconnected from my...
    silentgirl1234 silentgirl1234 13-15, F 3 Responses