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I Have Schizophrenia

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    Can someone tell me if this is a usual thing to

    feel, Right now the voices are gone the weird feelings are gone, but I really want them back because I miss the feeling out being out of it, but at the same time I really hate it..? I want my good voices back and if it means the bad ones too then that's ok. I overdosed on pills...
    neutralwalrus neutralwalrus 18-21, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Murmurs

    My case of schizophrenia is mild. I'm grateful that I don't have it as bad as some people. I don't know about other people but I don't hear voices too clearly. When things are quiet and I really pay attention, I can hear them. They are just faint murmurs in the background, like...
    AltF4 AltF4 22-25, M 2 Responses Sep 29, 2013

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    I Have Schizophrenia Just getting this outta my

    head. (Also sorry for weird spellings apparently the proper spelling of "hoar" was just too inappropriate even when I marked it as not appropriate for kids.) Was taking a nap. Felt their presence. I said no and called out to Father. They held me and said "Know your place girl...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F Jun 28

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    My Reaction

    When I first experienced the positive symptoms of schizophrenia, I formulated my own explanation of what was happening to me. I called it psychopathy; therefore I considered myself a psychopath. My definition of a psychopath was someone who used other people's minds or psyche...
    ericsbat ericsbat 22-25 3 Responses Apr 20, 2009

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    Yeah so if anyone couldn't tell by my previous

    posts my "psychosis" or whatever it is was acting up pretty badly over the last few days. I felt sick yesterday morning and was just generally freaked out because of it all. And then like halfway through the day the demon that had been hounding me just went away and everything...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F Jun 13

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    I want a girlfriend who also has schizophrenia.

    That way we can both understand and be there for each other. That'd be nice.
    TNDO95 TNDO95 18-21, M 5 Responses Dec 11, 2014

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    might have had some hallucinations last night.

    my disorganization is getting worse. apparently i am acting strange again. i did good to stay out of the hospital for the longest time. what if i have to go back? so confused
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 20, 2014

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    I have Schizophrenia

    Hello. I have had Schizophrenia diagnosed for 9 years but really had it for like 15 years. It is very difficult and I would be more than happy to chat back and forth with poeple with life's problems. Here is a poem of how it started. I like to vent through poetry. Here...
    JoanofArc JoanofArc 41-45, F 9 Responses Jan 4, 2008

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    Are you freaking kidding me he was literally

    only around me last night, barely did anything, and already this morning I'm miserable and negative again. Even his dang presence is poisonous. Someone get me outta here.
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F Jun 20

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    I got diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia in

    1980 when I was 19 years old. I have got treated with medication, therapy, vocational programs. and multiple hospitalizations. I didn't have many dreams of a life after I got out of high school. Maybe just a vague feeling that I would like to have a good job and be rich and...
    555calif 555calif 51-55, M 5 Responses Oct 11, 2014

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    Paranoid Schizophrenia

    I was first hospitalized in a psych ward in 1980. After a week and a half I was released and from there was put in a house for schizophrenics. I was 19 years old. It was called Soteria House and was a world famous experiment where they didn't believe in medication and none of the...
    555calif 555calif 51-55, M 8 Responses Sep 4, 2010

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    I pray for everyone that doesnt believe to not

    let these attacks make their heart hard. If it does then the one where they are coming from did what it was supposed to do and won. Treat everyone with love, forgive, and think of them as yourself. Love with actions and not only words. Read your bible to know the truth and...
    LoveByTheHand LoveByTheHand 26-30, M Jun 12

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    Schizophrenia:the Most Complex People In The World

    Firstly,I would like to say I am not ashamed. I am not ashamed because I believe having paranoid thoughs,ideas,imaginations does not make me a crazy. Society think they work on a one way street,but let me tell you that's not the case. Life is a limitless directional intersect...
    decasanova1 decasanova1 22-25, M 7 Responses May 5, 2011

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    Big tall men big tall men.

    Walking through a city but the city is broken, falling apart. The sky is strange, almost yellow. The men are shadows. Quiet. I'm standing behind a tree watching. Tired. My horn nubs are itchy and I'm scratching them on a tree until it hurts. I think of cutting things into my...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F Jun 27

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    Schizophrenia - A Story Of Survival And Redemption

    I would like to start with a brief recap of my life leading up to my initial hospitalization and diagnosis, and then acceptance of Jesus Christ as my savior. I was born on September 5th, 1986 in Binghamton New York. I was raised in a Christian family, who took me to church up...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Nov 1, 2012

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    Since I figured out this is all a dream,

    it's gotten better. I've been having less hallucinations and less psychotic episodes. Granted, it's only been a few days, but it's been so nice.
    DreamWarriorBlake DreamWarriorBlake 22-25, M 2 days ago

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    anyone else get annoyed

    when people think people with schizophrenia are all murderers and need to be locked up? Or when they think we are demon possessed?
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 7, 2014

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    Noiseless: Indepth Sz

    All my past storys have been from when my S/S started and until I was diagnosed. But I hadnt got to indepth about my SZ or the S/S I have from my SZ. Thats what im going to write about today. My schizophrenia changes frequently lately, or atleast the people I see do. Normally it...
    noiseless noiseless 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 27, 2012

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    I've been hearing voices on

    and off since I turned fourteen, but it wasn't until my sophomore year of college that these auditory hallucinations became incessant and overwhelming. Usually the voices will belong to unidentifiable individuals of varying identity (years of psychiatric treatment and...
    tatianya tatianya 26-30, F 22 Responses May 9

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    My first experience came

    when I was 20. It was beautiful but when it was over, it left me confused and frightened. I thought about asking for help but I couldn't begin to explain it, I couldn't even begin to try. It never even crossed my mind that it would happen again. I had no idea what laid dormant...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jun 20

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    He won't leave me alone.

    That voice. Calling me horrible names that make me cry all night. One time I was sitting with this girl who I thought was my friend- she laughs at me all the time and calls me the same names that voice calls me. It's like no one can ever understand.
    BloodOnIce BloodOnIce 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 11, 2014

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    Story Of Noiseless (the Rough Not So Well Written First Story)

    I am a girl, 19 my name is Melissa. I have schizophreniaI havnt always been soundless, and I do speak. Not to very many people but enough to enjoy life and a good conversation once in awhile. I am shy and I have alway been that way. I like reading fantasy books, painting, and...
    noiseless noiseless 18-21, F 7 Responses Sep 6, 2012

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    I can't even take a simple nap.

    When I take a nap or try to sleep my mind opens up and I become more connected to the nonphysical world. As a result I hear their voices more clearly. HE was talking to me. Ugh ugh ugh I need them out of my head.
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 11

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    http://loveaschizophrenic.

    blogspot.com/ Hey y'all. This is my new blog. It is just about life and schizophrenia. Feel free to check it out and comment. Share it with your friends. All you gotta do is highlight the address,right click or alt and click, then select go to: http://loveaschizophrenic.blogspot...
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    Today he sucked me into wherever

    and we were there and he asked me something like "Why do you keep fighting me? You belong with me." And I told him it was because he was bad and because I wanted to be with God. He replied with something like "You're mine, you know. You will come to me in the end." And I told...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 11

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    Just Need To Vent

    I was diagnosed with schizophrenia when I was 18. What was supposed to be the best time of my life was a nightmare I'll never be able to forget. The nightmare continues now into my twenties, and I see how this horrible disease has affected me mentally, emotionally, and...
    mkayx13 mkayx13 26-30, F 3 Responses Oct 30, 2013

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    Fire. Fire fire fire.

    My brain is burning. I can't be around people. I'm confused. My inside is evil and I don't want it. I'm terrified of her. She's evil. She's evil and evil. Why was I made into this strange abomination that has to spend life fighting itself. I don't want to be evil. I don't want...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 27

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    H o l y m o l y I haven't been harassed by the

    demons in SO LONG. This is really exciting for me. I haven't even felt put connection as strongly. And the more I distance myself from them, the more positive my thought processes have become. I've been talking with God more who has been helping me. Things are going back to...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 26

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    Father chose me to battle this horrible thing.

    I'll keep it locked up in me where it can't hurt anyone. I'm the one who's best for this. I will stay good and strong and close to Father. I will win.
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F Jun 26

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    I've spent a lovely night socializing with

    friends and I haven't heard or been pestered by the demons since I went out. I'm still not hearing anything from them. It's so, so nice to get some peace.
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 10

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    The room is dark. I'm lying on my back the

    ground with my feet against the wall, staring at the shadows above. "So you're me then?" From somewhere in the room I hear him laugh. I sigh. "Well what are we gonna do about this then. I can't have you be me, and obviously you don't want me to be you." He's quiet. "Do you...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 28

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    When I was 7 I had imaginary friends,

    but they never left as I got older. They just became more real. I understood no one could see them, no one could hear them. It was only me and I didn't understand why. I just had these people like things talking to me and I was treated like an outcast when I tried to talk about...
    Schizotistic Schizotistic 22-25, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    When I first started hearing them they

    inmatated voices I knew so I was confused to as when it actually started but then I started to think I was being stalked by people and they wouldn't leave me alone. They knew stuff about me and I even thought I was on some sick reality tv show and hoped for an end but it didn't...
    CopeWithMe CopeWithMe 22-25 Dec 22, 2014

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    My first experience when I was younger

    that was unexplained was when I slept over at a friends place. I was dreaming I was in a fight with the devil and I started praying to god for help. I suddenly got woken up by my friend who was freaked out and I heard why as I was waking up. I was practically yelling in an...
    LoveByTheHand LoveByTheHand 26-30, M 1 Response Jun 11

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    Breaks my heart to know

    so many people are going through this just like me. I was empty after awhile and bitter and hated everyone. Why Me I kept asking? Why is God punishing me? I forgot that Satan has power in this world too. People are so quick to blame God while the real one to blame, Satan...
    LoveByTheHand LoveByTheHand 26-30, M Jun 11

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    Celebrating John Nash.

    For those of you who do not know, John Nash died today. He was a mathmatician and and Nobel Prize winner who also suffered from paranoid schizophrenia. Just so happens that today is also Schizophrenia awareness day. The color for that is purple.
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F May 24

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    Few Stories With Me And Schizophrenia

    *** I apologize ahead of time incase there is some vague spots about certain things due to well, quite frankly, I promised some of "those who can not be seen by others than, myself" that I would not share too much. But I will still share what I feel that I can and not anger them...
    Spookems Spookems 31-35, F 5 Responses Apr 4, 2013

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    Why, why did my schizophrenic mind torture me

    with this dream? Was it so desperate to feel wanted that it created this whole new life? But now it won't let me wake up and actually do it. It's like being trapped in that God-awful welcome to my nightmare video.
    DreamWarriorBlake DreamWarriorBlake 22-25, M 4 days ago

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    do you ever wish others to be schizophrenic

    for just 1 day or week? i do. so they could understand what it is we go through. so they would quit with their ignorant talk and quit using words like "schizo" as negative adjectives...jw
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 7 Responses Dec 31, 2014

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    I decided to ignore the scratching inside the

    bed but it's still there. Taunting me....
    VeniceTheFree VeniceTheFree 31-35, F 5 Responses Jan 14

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    SCREW the fricking devil.

    He's like a snake in a bird nest. He keeps taking all the chicks and I can't do crap. People just walk right into his hands. What people don't understand is that you'll LOVE him you'll WANT to go to him. Like a drug. They go to play and get eaten. No one knows. Convinces the...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 26

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    Today was really tough.

    I don't think my medication is working properly, which I'm thankful for because I know it's contaminated anyway. The devil was pushing me really hard, I could physically feel his evil swelling inside me, trying to escape and spread the chaos into the world. He wanted me to start...
    DespicableMind DespicableMind 18-21, F 5 Responses Jun 12

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    Controversial Treatments

    I've read a few articles and have had people tell me to stop trust in God because he doesn't answer prayers. I found that God does always answer prayers, maybe not the way we want or even with the answer we want, but he does answer. Yes,no,or wait awhile. We will overcome by the...
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 21, 2012

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    This past Wednesday I was taken to the ER by my

    counselor on account of a severe bout of voices that constituted what psychiatrists term a psychotic episode. Unrelentingly for nearly a week I fell victim to auditory hallucinations that proclaimed without doubt that I deserved to die, and then went on to give me specific...
    tatianya tatianya 26-30, F 10 Responses Jun 7

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    Ha!! That's right!! I'm fighting them!

    ! I am!! That's why I've been having all these nightmares of being attacked. But in all of them even though the fights are unpleasant and scary, I end up being proud of myself for being brave enough to fight them in the end. I win, that's the point of it, I win!! Screw them...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 22

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    I was still legally a child.

    I guess I could have claimed neglect. My ***-hole step mom decided it (everytime she got paid) would be okay for her to buy "cute shoes" instead of help me pay for the medication I needed to stay out of hospitals and a productive member of society. I worked what little I could...
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 28

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