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I Have Schizophrenia

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    Why, why did my schizophrenic mind torture me

    with this dream? Was it so desperate to feel wanted that it created this whole new life? But now it won't let me wake up and actually do it. It's like being trapped in that God-awful welcome to my nightmare video.
    DreamWarriorBlake DreamWarriorBlake 22-25, M Jul 2

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    Everywhere I go I hear people talking about me.

    I know its probably just my schizophrenia but it still bothers me. Does anyone else have the same problem?
    redbeefsteaktomato redbeefsteaktomato 36-40 6 Responses 4 days ago

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    My roommate is leaving to go on vacation

    tomorrow. She will be gone for a whole week. That means I will be alone in the apartment for a week with bare minimum social interactions. This is dangerous for me because I get sucked into my head. I was very concerned originally because I didn't want to be left alone with the...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 26

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    And the beast will fully-dally While the girl

    skips around And he's waiting yes he's waiting For her feet to hit the ground And she knows that he's there But she doesn't really care Because in the end it won't matter In the end none of it will matter And she wishes she were dead oh yes She wishes she were dead But her...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 9

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    I have overcome Schizophrenia!

    !! Who the SON SETS FREE IS FREE INDEED.....From the moment I fell when I was 19----The voices told me that I sold my soul! I was redeemed! I had just fallen, I walked around my house in a lost and dazzed and confused state, I noticed that all of my clocks had stopped, every one...
    Jesusfoundme Jesusfoundme 31-35, F 9 Responses Apr 9, 2014

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    I Wanted to Die.

    i wish i could say overcomming the episodes was easy, but it wasnt. it would come, and go. at leased the severity would. it started when i was a kid. maybe 9 or 10. i was popular before then, but yearned isolation. i had only one best friend and would stick with them. i always...
    BellaVara BellaVara 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 8, 2009

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    I had Schizophrenia,

    when I was 19, I remember the wicked voices in my head, and the lack of sleep, and the reading about how there was no cure, I spent my time fighting for my life, and hiding the fact that I was crazy from everybody...I am happy to tell you that today at age 32 I no longer have...
    Jesusfoundme Jesusfoundme 31-35, F 10 Responses Aug 15, 2014

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    I've been hearing voices on

    and off since I turned fourteen, but it wasn't until my sophomore year of college that these auditory hallucinations became incessant and overwhelming. Usually the voices will belong to unidentifiable individuals of varying identity (years of psychiatric treatment and...
    tatianya tatianya 26-30, F 21 Responses May 9

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    Noiseless: Indepth Sz

    All my past storys have been from when my S/S started and until I was diagnosed. But I hadnt got to indepth about my SZ or the S/S I have from my SZ. Thats what im going to write about today. My schizophrenia changes frequently lately, or atleast the people I see do. Normally it...
    noiseless noiseless 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 27, 2012

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    When I was 7 I had imaginary friends,

    but they never left as I got older. They just became more real. I understood no one could see them, no one could hear them. It was only me and I didn't understand why. I just had these people like things talking to me and I was treated like an outcast when I tried to talk about...
    Schizotistic Schizotistic 22-25, M 2 Responses Jul 4

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    day1 without her, I hav to try

    and relax so the voices don't come bak :/
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jul 18

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    Father chose me to battle this horrible thing.

    I'll keep it locked up in me where it can't hurt anyone. I'm the one who's best for this. I will stay good and strong and close to Father. I will win.
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F Jun 26

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    Fire. Fire fire fire.

    My brain is burning. I can't be around people. I'm confused. My inside is evil and I don't want it. I'm terrified of her. She's evil. She's evil and evil. Why was I made into this strange abomination that has to spend life fighting itself. I don't want to be evil. I don't want...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 27

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    http://loveaschizophrenic.

    blogspot.com/ Hey y'all. This is my new blog. It is just about life and schizophrenia. Feel free to check it out and comment. Share it with your friends. All you gotta do is highlight the address,right click or alt and click, then select go to: http://loveaschizophrenic.blogspot...
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 4

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    When I first started hearing them they

    inmatated voices I knew so I was confused to as when it actually started but then I started to think I was being stalked by people and they wouldn't leave me alone. They knew stuff about me and I even thought I was on some sick reality tv show and hoped for an end but it didn't...
    CopeWithMe CopeWithMe 22-25 Dec 22, 2014

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    Lately, my schizophrenia has really been making

    me lose my mind. I already have so much on my mind, go away, please.
    whyusteens whyusteens 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    I have Schizophrenia

    Hello. I have had Schizophrenia diagnosed for 9 years but really had it for like 15 years. It is very difficult and I would be more than happy to chat back and forth with poeple with life's problems. Here is a poem of how it started. I like to vent through poetry. Here...
    JoanofArc JoanofArc 41-45, F 9 Responses Jan 4, 2008

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    Ha!! That's right!! I'm fighting them!

    ! I am!! That's why I've been having all these nightmares of being attacked. But in all of them even though the fights are unpleasant and scary, I end up being proud of myself for being brave enough to fight them in the end. I win, that's the point of it, I win!! Screw them...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 22

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    I just discovered that the person I've been

    talking to for the last twenty minutes wasn't actually there.
    DreamWarriorBlake DreamWarriorBlake 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 7

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    Schizophrenia:the Most Complex People In The World

    Firstly,I would like to say I am not ashamed. I am not ashamed because I believe having paranoid thoughs,ideas,imaginations does not make me a crazy. Society think they work on a one way street,but let me tell you that's not the case. Life is a limitless directional intersect...
    decasanova1 decasanova1 22-25, M 7 Responses May 5, 2011

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    SCREW the fricking devil.

    He's like a snake in a bird nest. He keeps taking all the chicks and I can't do crap. People just walk right into his hands. What people don't understand is that you'll LOVE him you'll WANT to go to him. Like a drug. They go to play and get eaten. No one knows. Convinces the...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 26

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    do you ever wish others to be schizophrenic

    for just 1 day or week? i do. so they could understand what it is we go through. so they would quit with their ignorant talk and quit using words like "schizo" as negative adjectives...jw
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 7 Responses Dec 31, 2014

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    He won't leave me alone.

    That voice. Calling me horrible names that make me cry all night. One time I was sitting with this girl who I thought was my friend- she laughs at me all the time and calls me the same names that voice calls me. It's like no one can ever understand.
    BloodOnIce BloodOnIce 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 11, 2014

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    So, last week I found out

    that I have schizophrenia along with a couple other things...
    TheMrMuffin TheMrMuffin 18-21, M Jun 23

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    Paranoid Schizophrenia

    I was first hospitalized in a psych ward in 1980. After a week and a half I was released and from there was put in a house for schizophrenics. I was 19 years old. It was called Soteria House and was a world famous experiment where they didn't believe in medication and none of the...
    555calif 555calif 51-55, M 8 Responses Sep 4, 2010

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    Something new has been talking to me.

    The voice says he died in this room, and I need to get out "before they get me too." So I guess I have a new imaginary friend. Great.
    DreamWarriorBlake DreamWarriorBlake 22-25, M 2 days ago

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    Few Stories With Me And Schizophrenia

    *** I apologize ahead of time incase there is some vague spots about certain things due to well, quite frankly, I promised some of "those who can not be seen by others than, myself" that I would not share too much. But I will still share what I feel that I can and not anger them...
    Spookems Spookems 31-35, F 5 Responses Apr 4, 2013

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    Screw everyone. I'm not sick.

    I function fine. I function fine!! I have a 3.7 gpa! I go to college full time!! I have plenty of close friends. I handle all of my own affairs. I can take care of myself perfectly well but everyone insists that I'm "ill" and "need to be medicated" just because I experience the...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 21, 2014

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    Big tall men big tall men.

    Walking through a city but the city is broken, falling apart. The sky is strange, almost yellow. The men are shadows. Quiet. I'm standing behind a tree watching. Tired. My horn nubs are itchy and I'm scratching them on a tree until it hurts. I think of cutting things into my...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F Jun 27

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    Is this healthy?? Ok,

    so I'm not diagnosed with schizophrenia, or anything related. I most likely do not have it, but I'm still wondering if this is something I should tell my psychologist.. I have been experiencing the fear that people are able to read my mind. I also believe that my actions on...
    littlewolf1 littlewolf1 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 9

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    Schizophrenia??

    As a child i had no friends at all, i only had my beloved mother. At the age of 10 i began to experience severe bullying in school (daily beatings) this went on for 4 long and painful years. At age 12 i would purposely keep myself awake all night cos i realized that by staying...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Mar 15, 2012

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    Just Need To Vent

    I was diagnosed with schizophrenia when I was 18. What was supposed to be the best time of my life was a nightmare I'll never be able to forget. The nightmare continues now into my twenties, and I see how this horrible disease has affected me mentally, emotionally, and...
    mkayx13 mkayx13 26-30, F 3 Responses Oct 30, 2013

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    This past Wednesday I was taken to the ER by my

    counselor on account of a severe bout of voices that constituted what psychiatrists term a psychotic episode. Unrelentingly for nearly a week I fell victim to auditory hallucinations that proclaimed without doubt that I deserved to die, and then went on to give me specific...
    tatianya tatianya 26-30, F 10 Responses Jun 7

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    Experience last night

    that happened after I was praying and praying for God to save everyone. I was angry and ranting and I started to shout at the devil telling him to leave us alone. And then suddenly I felt a pressure over my mouth like someone was covering it, hard. At first I was scared but...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 18

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    Murmurs

    My case of schizophrenia is mild. I'm grateful that I don't have it as bad as some people. I don't know about other people but I don't hear voices too clearly. When things are quiet and I really pay attention, I can hear them. They are just faint murmurs in the background, like...
    AltF4 AltF4 22-25, M 2 Responses Sep 29, 2013

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    My Reaction

    When I first experienced the positive symptoms of schizophrenia, I formulated my own explanation of what was happening to me. I called it psychopathy; therefore I considered myself a psychopath. My definition of a psychopath was someone who used other people's minds or psyche...
    ericsbat ericsbat 22-25 3 Responses Apr 20, 2009

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    I was looking through one my notebooks

    and found a weird piece of writing I did in my psychotic/stressed state I just thought I'd share. I vaguely recall writing it. Was it meant to be a shanty of some sort? I don't really remember " As the sky sets grey And the clouds fall down She's afraid because she can't see...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    My Inhuman Aberration, My Story.

    I joined experience project in hopes to find and meet people with schizophrenia. My reasoning for that is I come from a small town and feel rather isolated. I have been living with paranoid schizophrenia for a few years now. About 5 to be exact.....that's just diagnosed. I was...
    ksenger ksenger 26-30, F 4 Responses Apr 30, 2013

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    The room is dark. I'm lying on my back the

    ground with my feet against the wall, staring at the shadows above. "So you're me then?" From somewhere in the room I hear him laugh. I sigh. "Well what are we gonna do about this then. I can't have you be me, and obviously you don't want me to be you." He's quiet. "Do you...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 28

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    I decided to ignore the scratching inside the

    bed but it's still there. Taunting me....
    VeniceTheFree VeniceTheFree 31-35, F 5 Responses Jan 14

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    I don't think my medication is working.

    The other night I was bugged by voices so bad I couldn't concentrate on a conversation. Then they told me they'd stop if I killed my boyfriend. When I said no, they possessed me. They made me get a knife and fight him. But he's smart. He tricked them into letting me go, but they...
    DreamWarriorBlake DreamWarriorBlake 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 26

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    So he's come back and he's just sort of been

    chilling around me since last night. It's like whenever I'm starting to feel normal again he pops up to change that. He won't ever let me be happy. I can pray all I want to make him go away but he always comes back.
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 20

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    I have Schizo, I have 2 voices 1.

    I call whitehat (good) and 2. Blackhat (bad)
    Decaydence Decaydence 70+, T 1 Response Jul 18

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    I was still legally a child.

    I guess I could have claimed neglect. My ***-hole step mom decided it (everytime she got paid) would be okay for her to buy "cute shoes" instead of help me pay for the medication I needed to stay out of hospitals and a productive member of society. I worked what little I could...
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 28

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    Story Of Noiseless (the Rough Not So Well Written First Story)

    I am a girl, 19 my name is Melissa. I have schizophreniaI havnt always been soundless, and I do speak. Not to very many people but enough to enjoy life and a good conversation once in awhile. I am shy and I have alway been that way. I like reading fantasy books, painting, and...
    noiseless noiseless 18-21, F 7 Responses Sep 6, 2012

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    I Do Too...

    I had my first episodes around 17 - 18...  Diagnosed as paranoid schizo. at first... but slowly but surely managed to ward off my ignorant parents and after a while left home to pursue these visions and dreams I had in my head...I am untreated upto this day and I am 23 now...
    JDean JDean 18-21, M 11 Responses Dec 17, 2007

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