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I Have Schizophrenia

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    This is really really hard

    for me to confess, because no one else knows about this and I never went to the doctors or something, most likely because I like the way it is. So because I never went somewhere, I don't really know if it is really schizophrenia or something else. Well...inside me.. there's me...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 2

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    Surreal is the word that best describes how my

    life has been this past week or so. Nothing is concrete. I've been wandering in a daze. I find myself unable to sleep at night, and so I've been sleeping very little. There is no reason behind the insomnia, none of the usual panic I get, just.....being unable to fall asleep...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    Controversial Treatments

    I've read a few articles and have had people tell me to stop trust in God because he doesn't answer prayers. I found that God does always answer prayers, maybe not the way we want or even with the answer we want, but he does answer. Yes,no,or wait awhile. We will overcome by the...
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 21, 2012

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    I had Schizophrenia,

    when I was 19, I remember the wicked voices in my head, and the lack of sleep, and the reading about how there was no cure, I spent my time fighting for my life, and hiding the fact that I was crazy from everybody...I am happy to tell you that today at age 32 I no longer have...
    Jesusfoundme Jesusfoundme 31-35, F 6 Responses Aug 15

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    I have overcome Schizophrenia!

    !! Who the SON SETS FREE IS FREE INDEED.....From the moment I fell when I was 19----The voices told me that I sold my soul! I was redeemed! I had just fallen, I walked around my house in a lost and dazzed and confused state, I noticed that all of my clocks had stopped, every one...
    Jesusfoundme Jesusfoundme 31-35, F 8 Responses Apr 9

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    Schizophrenia:the Most Complex People In The World

    Firstly,I would like to say I am not ashamed. I am not ashamed because I believe having paranoid thoughs,ideas,imaginations does not make me a crazy. Society think they work on a one way street,but let me tell you that's not the case. Life is a limitless directional intersect...
    decasanova1 decasanova1 22-25, M 7 Responses May 5, 2011

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    My Story Of Being Recovered From Schizophrenia

    (Randy S. 24 years old diagnosed at 18 with Schizophrenia)*******This was made for NAMI's newsletter" It's my story. From Schizophrenia, to recovery and working in the mental health field I first remember the gradual decent into...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Mar 4, 2011

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    I was watching the walking dead with my roommate

    and suitemate. It was the first episode when he is staying with the black man and his son. That night the mother returns to her home and tries to get in. She is a zombie. My friend spoke up and said, "I can't imagine what it would be like for a child to see their parent like...
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 20

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    I feel tingly and the demons keep trying to

    talk to me. Every time we talk it's just the same stupid conversation over and over. I wish they'd just leave me alone.
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 15

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    My New Friends! : )

    What my mind has given me is two friends that have guided me through tough times and I wish that I could show them to the people I care about most but I can't. These two are named Mary and Neil and they are brother and sister and my best friends. They came to me a little bit ago...
    Kaylayikes Kaylayikes 16-17, F 5 Responses Sep 4, 2013

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    I am trying to understand the differences

    between the rest of the world and me. I am told that I am crazy and to just take my Invega. Why am I crazy? I'm right. Prove me wrong one time and I'll take that damn medicine. They can't prove me wrong. I know the medicine stops the voices but that's one of the worst parts...
    SecNotSure SecNotSure 31-35, M 2 Responses Oct 5

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    Eighteen And Schizophrenic. Me.

    I see shadow-people, I hear voices both in and out of my head, I feel people touch me when they have not, I have multiple delusions but... most of the time, I'm still me. I am not in a constant belief of my delusions and sometimes, like now, I know they are complete lies. I...
    Tasser194 Tasser194 18-21 3 Responses Nov 2, 2012

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    I got diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia in

    1980 when I was 19 years old. I have got treated with medication, therapy, vocational programs. and multiple hospitalizations. I didn't have many dreams of a life after I got out of high school. Maybe just a vague feeling that I would like to have a good job and be rich and...
    555calif 555calif 51-55, M 4 Responses Oct 11

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    Screw everyone. I'm not sick.

    I function fine. I function fine!! I have a 3.7 gpa! I go to college full time!! I have plenty of close friends. I handle all of my own affairs. I can take care of myself perfectly well but everyone insists that I'm "ill" and "need to be medicated" just because I experience the...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 21

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    The girl next door will not shut up.

    She is whining about how she cuts when she gets upset. Whining about how her family treated her when she went to the hospital. I'm sitting over with the exact same problem plus schizophrenia, but i don't make as big a deal about it as she does. That is what I like about people...
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    Few Stories With Me And Schizophrenia

    *** I apologize ahead of time incase there is some vague spots about certain things due to well, quite frankly, I promised some of "those who can not be seen by others than, myself" that I would not share too much. But I will still share what I feel that I can and not anger them...
    Spookems Spookems 26-30, F 6 Responses Apr 4, 2013

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    Paranoid Schizophrenia

    I was first hospitalized in a psych ward in 1980. After a week and a half I was released and from there was put in a house for schizophrenics. I was 19 years old. It was called Soteria House and was a world famous experiment where they didn't believe in medication and none of the...
    555calif 555calif 51-55, M 8 Responses Sep 4, 2010

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    I heard somewhere that schizophrenia

    and Tourette's is seen as demonic possession in religion.... Well. My boyfriend has Tourette's and I'm schizophrenic. I guess we're one devilish couple :P besides the point, I don't know whether or not I should tell him about my mental status. He always feels bad when he ticks...
    Shadowgirll Shadowgirll 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 12

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    Just Need To Vent

    I was diagnosed with schizophrenia when I was 18. What was supposed to be the best time of my life was a nightmare I'll never be able to forget. The nightmare continues now into my twenties, and I see how this horrible disease has affected me mentally, emotionally, and...
    mkayx13 mkayx13 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 30, 2013

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    experience: So I'm at Jersey Shore.

    In the hotel room. About to take a shower and I look at the dirty shower curtains and a thought comes into my head thats not mine. "Well that would be fun to strangle yourself with!" ...... Well that was weird.
    vasquezd2 vasquezd2 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    Today I heard someone talk about schizophrenia.

    .. they were like " it'd split personality" and started laughing. Um no. First of all don't laugh, there's nothing to laugh about. Next it shows how much he doesn't get it because schizo may mean "split" but it doesn't mean split personality. Schizophrenia is many things... but...
    always34 always34 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 12

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    I am getting better,

    but slowly. I can now almost distinguish between reality and hallucinations, but I still have hallucinations. The anti-psychotics mostly just make it less obvious that I'm tripping balls, and they don't actually help with what I'm feeling. It's very creepy, combined with my...
    uwuplz uwuplz 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Things basically are sucking hard

    for me right now because all of my positive helper voices have just completely vanished. They are goooone. I can't feel them, hear them, nothing. I have lost my entire support system, my guides, my caretakers, the guards of my emotional well-being. They're gone. If I'm going to...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I have Schizophrenia

    Hello. I have had Schizophrenia diagnosed for 9 years but really had it for like 15 years. It is very difficult and I would be more than happy to chat back and forth with poeple with life's problems. Here is a poem of how it started. I like to vent through poetry. Here...
    JoanofArc JoanofArc 41-45, F 9 Responses Jan 4, 2008

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    experience: Im taking a shower at my dorm in

    college when all of a sudden I realize that the water drops that fall on the walls are lighting up. They're telling me a message. I have to decode the water otherwise I can never leave. I sit in the shower for about an extra hour dragging my finger from drop to drop to save...
    vasquezd2 vasquezd2 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    My Inhuman Aberration, My Story.

    I joined experience project in hopes to find and meet people with schizophrenia. My reasoning for that is I come from a small town and feel rather isolated. I have been living with paranoid schizophrenia for a few years now. About 5 to be exact.....that's just diagnosed. I was...
    ksenger ksenger 26-30, F 4 Responses Apr 30, 2013

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    Murmurs

    My case of schizophrenia is mild. I'm grateful that I don't have it as bad as some people. I don't know about other people but I don't hear voices too clearly. When things are quiet and I really pay attention, I can hear them. They are just faint murmurs in the background, like...
    AltF4 AltF4 22-25, M 2 Responses Sep 29, 2013

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    Schizophrenia??

    As a child i had no friends at all, i only had my beloved mother. At the age of 10 i began to experience severe bullying in school (daily beatings) this went on for 4 long and painful years. At age 12 i would purposely keep myself awake all night cos i realized that by staying...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Mar 15, 2012

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    Schizophrenia is the bane of my existence.

    ..every day is a challenge. And for the first time ever I've heard voices... It's always been just visions.illusions.. Of things that aren't real. But now I have a familiar voice screaming in my ear. Pleading for help.and I know i can't make this stop.. It's getting worse and its...
    Shadowgirll Shadowgirll 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 1

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    Its getting out of hand.

    .. it is ruining my life! I have found two quotes which represent how I am feeling “I didn’t know how to communicate my suffering to anyone else. My anger was returning. I was screaming for help, but the language I was speaking no one seemed to understand. (183)” “in my...
    achorusgirl achorusgirl 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 19

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    Couldhelp Couldhelp 18-21, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Story Of Noiseless (the Rough Not So Well Written First Story)

    I am a girl, 19 my name is Melissa. I have schizophreniaI havnt always been soundless, and I do speak. Not to very many people but enough to enjoy life and a good conversation once in awhile. I am shy and I have alway been that way. I like reading fantasy books, painting, and...
    noiseless noiseless 18-21, F 7 Responses Sep 6, 2012

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    My Reaction

    When I first experienced the positive symptoms of schizophrenia, I formulated my own explanation of what was happening to me. I called it psychopathy; therefore I considered myself a psychopath. My definition of a psychopath was someone who used other people's minds or psyche...
    ericsbat ericsbat 22-25 3 Responses Apr 20, 2009

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    He won't leave me alone.

    That voice. Calling me horrible names that make me cry all night. One time I was sitting with this girl who I thought was my friend- she laughs at me all the time and calls me the same names that voice calls me. It's like no one can ever understand.
    BloodOnIce BloodOnIce 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 11

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    anyone else get annoyed

    when people think people with schizophrenia are all murderers and need to be locked up? Or when they think we are demon possessed?
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 7

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    I heard voices for th first time today atleast

    to my knowledge, they were mostly muttering whispers and inaudible whispers so i couldnt tell what they were saying. It was pretty freeky in the moment i guess
    Ifeeluberish Ifeeluberish 18-21, M 6 Responses Mar 17

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    Speaking with Norda today (not a real person,

    product of my psychosis) N: I hate this!! We're alone!! They (my friends) hate us!! Me: No, they don't Norda. N: I want to kill them all. I hate them. We've always been alone. Me: Norda you're being dramatic. N: YOU'RE alone too, you know. You've ALWAYS been alone. The...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 28

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    As a small child, I remember hearing voices

    saying, "touch the hot stove. spill the boiling water on your mother." I remember how loud they were. There were only 2. By the time I was 12 there were about 30 different voices and not a single positive one. Most of them appeared after my brother and his friend tried to rape...
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 17

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    ParanoidGirl ParanoidGirl 26-30 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Couldhelp Couldhelp 18-21, M 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    Noiseless: Indepth Sz

    All my past storys have been from when my S/S started and until I was diagnosed. But I hadnt got to indepth about my SZ or the S/S I have from my SZ. Thats what im going to write about today. My schizophrenia changes frequently lately, or atleast the people I see do. Normally it...
    noiseless noiseless 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 27, 2012

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    I Am New Here And Am Schizophrenic Since 1993.

    Hello. My name is Diana and I am schizophrenic since 1993. I am pretty much stable on my meds now but this wasn't always the case. It all started with the tv talking to me and me being scared out of my mind. I live in Tampa Florida since 1988 and the voices started in my head...
    ladydiana0824 ladydiana0824 46-50, F 3 Responses Oct 1, 2013

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    It was the perfect angle.

    I was laying in my bed in my room. I had my left leg propped up over my right knee. I could see the shiny scars reflecting the light off my leg. I could read the words. The voices made me do it as punishment for not listening. It said, "I do what i'm told." I also saw the secret...
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    Any time I try to do anything nice,

    the demons shoot me down. I give an extra big tip and they say "You're just trying to make yourself feel like a good person, you're a monster." Or when I worry about my friends they say "You're only doing this to cover up how selfish you are. You only care about yourself...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F Oct 6

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    experience: So im sitting in the therapists room

    and he asks me what I saw. I started telling him what I saw and he starts asking more and more questions then automatically I think, "Why is he asking me these questions? What is he going to do with the answers? He's going to tell them.... I cant trust him. Hes one of THEM." and...
    vasquezd2 vasquezd2 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    It is amazing that this time last year I was

    just getting released from a mental hospital. Now, I am at school and staying busy. I have classes all day, then work, and rugby practice. At night, I do my homework and practice my instruments. Somethings are still holding me back a bit though and it is hard to explain that to...
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 9

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    Schizophrenia - A Story Of Survival And Redemption

    I would like to start with a brief recap of my life leading up to my initial hospitalization and diagnosis, and then acceptance of Jesus Christ as my savior. I was born on September 5th, 1986 in Binghamton New York. I was raised in a Christian family, who took me to church up...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Nov 1, 2012

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    this may sound very wrong of me,

    but does anyone else get tired of people with depression and bipolar disorder acting like they are so much worse off than everyone else? Its not like they are talking to someone who has the most severe mental illness known to man...sorry if im wrong. I just get tired of going to...
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 17

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    when I was 14 my mother was raped

    and almost murdered this triggered an episode and at 16 I did Lsd Pot shrooms and had a second psychosis since that moment I decided that drugs opened up a can of worms for me and gave all that life away kinda withdrew I am still on ant-psychotic meds to this day but never had...
    Soroe Soroe 36-40, M Mar 20

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    Im wondering if medication is the right option

    for me . I also strongly disagree with my diagnoses
    betadeacy betadeacy 13-15, F 4 Responses Sep 4

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    I Do Too...

    I had my first episodes around 17 - 18...  Diagnosed as paranoid schizo. at first... but slowly but surely managed to ward off my ignorant parents and after a while left home to pursue these visions and dreams I had in my head...I am untreated upto this day and I am 23 now...
    JDean JDean 21-25, M 11 Responses Dec 17, 2007

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