I Have Schizophrenia

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 745 People

    allahdragon777 allahdragon777
    22-25, M
    1 Response Apr 11

    when you're eating a piece of fruit

    and there's a bug in it and you say to yourself it's not real it's just my psychosis. then you take a bite...... **** IT WAS REAL!!!
    slider978 slider978
    16-17, F
    Oct 7, 2015

    Gee, us schizophrenics can barely get

    everything done. >-< Literally ten seconds of meditation before dogs started barking, shadows moving across the window, walls and windows shaking and pounding along with the beat of my heart. Breath lost, body gone numb; I started to tell the shadow people in the window to go...
    Xxial Xxial
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 14, 2015

    This past Wednesday I was taken to the ER by my

    counselor on account of a severe bout of voices that constituted what psychiatrists term a psychotic episode. Unrelentingly for nearly a week I fell victim to auditory hallucinations that proclaimed without doubt that I deserved to die, and then went on to give me specific...
    tatianya tatianya
    26-30, F
    6 Responses Jun 7, 2015

    I've been hearing voices on

    and off since I turned fourteen, but it wasn't until my sophomore year of college that these auditory hallucinations became incessant and overwhelming. Usually the voices will belong to unidentifiable individuals of varying identity (years of psychiatric treatment and...
    tatianya tatianya
    26-30, F
    15 Responses May 9, 2015

    I don't know why I'm here.

    Looking for answers maybe? Most likely though is that I don't want to feel so alone. I've apparently been ill for years. Started off diagnosed with depression in my early teens. Turns out that was the start of all of this darkness. Back in 2012 (the year the world was meant to...
    tallynats tallynats
    18-21
    1 Response Feb 14

    Just Need To Vent

    I was diagnosed with schizophrenia when I was 18. What was supposed to be the best time of my life was a nightmare I'll never be able to forget. The nightmare continues now into my twenties, and I see how this horrible disease has affected me mentally, emotionally, and...
    mkayx13 mkayx13
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Oct 30, 2013

    I think I have schizophrenia,

    I have this voice that doesn't have a gender and when it comes to life nobody hears or sees it and it's a shadow - like figure, do I have schizophrenia? it tells me to kill myself and that nothing I say matters. it only fades when I am in physical pain.
    Momo9819 Momo9819
    16-17, F
    1 Response Feb 22

    voxer me I have schizophrenia

    and am looking for others with the same my voxer is dhodge569
    allahdragon777 allahdragon777
    22-25, M
    Apr 10

    I don't know if I do.

    .but I defintely hear something..and it never goes away, no matter what I do..it is always there
    Cocrispy Cocrispy
    22-25, M
    4 Responses Mar 6

    What is the point of trying to fight the

    insanity? Why not let myself fly off the deep end? Would that not be easier than trying to white knuckle it all the time? Is it fear of being called "crazy?" Who cares at this point. Is it fear of failing? I feel like I already am anyway. So again why am I trying so hard?
    thereisnothingwrongwithyou thereisnothingwrongwithyou
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Dec 7, 2015

    I need to love if you hate people

    and dark and twisted please talk to me I'm a very ****** up person I love creepy people/guys
    Tenshouhifuhihifuu Tenshouhifuhihifuu
    13-15, F
    Apr 11

    I'm so angry. I'm so very,

    very angry. EVERYTHING has been irritating me. Everything. Things that wouldn't normally. Any time I hear someone eat I want to punch them in the face. Any time someone tries talking to me I want to scream. Any time I'm in close proximity to another person I get incredibly...
    Hush92 Hush92
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 20, 2015

    I am hearing voices a lot

    and have to wait until tomorrow to get my meds increased and I'm having a really hard time right now.
    allahdragon777 allahdragon777
    22-25, M
    1 Response Mar 27

    I've had schizophrenia

    since I was little. Its gotten worse through the years. I'm on meds now and have a therapist and have been hospitalized twice. I'm at the point where I don't know what's real. I have a boyfriend but I fear he may not be real. I have recently realized my delusion - I think I'm a...
    Bre54 Bre54
    16-17, F
    Mar 30

    I decided to ignore the scratching inside the

    bed but it's still there. Taunting me....
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    5 Responses Jan 14, 2015

    I think that everyone is talking about me,

    conspirating about me.I'm trying to resolve this problem though.
    futurefather futurefather
    26-30, M
    1 Response Nov 21, 2015
    Fralicious Fralicious
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 1, 2015

    I have schizophrenia.

    I also have PTSD, Bipolar Depression, Epilepsy, and Autism. I am 23 years old, and was diagnosed with schizophrenia when I was 21. I am now almost 24 years old. When I was diagnosed, I didn't believe I had schizophrenia. But now that I am older, I accept my diagnosis, and take...
    asianspice24 asianspice24
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 25

    Sometimes I think letting go of reality would

    be easier. Why do we cling so tightly to something so two faced?
    thereisnothingwrongwithyou thereisnothingwrongwithyou
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Feb 11

    Everywhere I go I hear people talking about me.

    I know its probably just my schizophrenia but it still bothers me. Does anyone else have the same problem?
    redbeefsteaktomato redbeefsteaktomato
    36-40
    5 Responses Jul 23, 2015

    Hello hello hello I am what I am Sometimes I

    talk to very good things They make me feel warm and happy Sometimes I talk to very bad things They make me feel crazy and filthy Sometimes I talk to people People can make me feel many different ways Sometimes I see weird things Sometimes I see normal things Sometimes I see...
    Hush92 Hush92
    18-21, F
    Nov 24, 2015

    I remember the first time she spoke to me,

    didn't say much, but it was the best thing anyone had ever said to me. It was my d-day, what started all of the time spent in the ER and rez. The ghosts were screaming, loud as could be, and they had to be let out, but I couldn't. I was in school, no relief allowed in that hell...
    ouroboros0 ouroboros0
    18-21, M
    Jan 28

    Sometimes, you just can't really ever know

    if something is real or not. Were those memories from dreams, or did they actually happen? My inner monologue is really loud and can overshadow real world sounds. When your life is **** and your childhood is lost, it can become epic like a movie, but its surely an open-ended one...
    icanhasover9000 icanhasover9000
    22-25, M
    1 Response Aug 8, 2015

    I have overcome Schizophrenia!

    !! Who the SON SETS FREE IS FREE INDEED.....From the moment I fell when I was 19----The voices told me that I sold my soul! I was redeemed! I had just fallen, I walked around my house in a lost and dazzed and confused state, I noticed that all of my clocks had stopped, every one...
    SealedWithAKisss SealedWithAKisss
    31-35, F
    8 Responses Apr 9, 2014

    do you ever wish others to be schizophrenic

    for just 1 day or week? i do. so they could understand what it is we go through. so they would quit with their ignorant talk and quit using words like "schizo" as negative adjectives...jw
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Dec 31, 2014

    When I first started hearing them they

    inmatated voices I knew so I was confused to as when it actually started but then I started to think I was being stalked by people and they wouldn't leave me alone. They knew stuff about me and I even thought I was on some sick reality tv show and hoped for an end but it didn't...
    CopeWithMe CopeWithMe
    22-25
    1 Response Dec 22, 2014

    my dreams redefine weird I had this dream

    once in which I Beyonce was a magical queen who built a giant silk building in which she placed millions of kittens and everybody had to play with them or they are screwed when I woke up I decided to change it for my horror story plot and replaced the silk building with a creepy...
    Fralicious Fralicious
    18-21, F
    Nov 29, 2015

    Screw everyone. I'm not sick.

    I function fine. I function fine!! I have a 3.7 gpa! I go to college full time!! I have plenty of close friends. I handle all of my own affairs. I can take care of myself perfectly well but everyone insists that I'm "ill" and "need to be medicated" just because I experience the...
    Hush92 Hush92
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Oct 21, 2014

    Few Stories With Me And Schizophrenia

    *** I apologize ahead of time incase there is some vague spots about certain things due to well, quite frankly, I promised some of "those who can not be seen by others than, myself" that I would not share too much. But I will still share what I feel that I can and not anger them...
    Spookems Spookems
    31-35, F
    5 Responses Apr 4, 2013

    Murmurs

    My case of schizophrenia is mild. I'm grateful that I don't have it as bad as some people. I don't know about other people but I don't hear voices too clearly. When things are quiet and I really pay attention, I can hear them. They are just faint murmurs in the background, like...
    AltF4 AltF4
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Sep 29, 2013

    might have had some hallucinations last night.

    my disorganization is getting worse. apparently i am acting strange again. i did good to stay out of the hospital for the longest time. what if i have to go back? so confused
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 20, 2014

    My Inhuman Aberration, My Story.

    I joined experience project in hopes to find and meet people with schizophrenia. My reasoning for that is I come from a small town and feel rather isolated. I have been living with paranoid schizophrenia for a few years now. About 5 to be exact.....that's just diagnosed. I was...
    ksenger ksenger
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Apr 30, 2013

    Celebrating John Nash.

    For those of you who do not know, John Nash died today. He was a mathmatician and and Nobel Prize winner who also suffered from paranoid schizophrenia. Just so happens that today is also Schizophrenia awareness day. The color for that is purple.
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer
    18-21, F
    May 24, 2015
    ihavepsychosis5 ihavepsychosis5
    18-21, M
    Feb 19

    I want a girlfriend who also has schizophrenia.

    That way we can both understand and be there for each other. That'd be nice.
    TNDO95 TNDO95
    18-21, M
    5 Responses Dec 11, 2014

    Paranoid Schizophrenia

    I was first hospitalized in a psych ward in 1980. After a week and a half I was released and from there was put in a house for schizophrenics. I was 19 years old. It was called Soteria House and was a world famous experiment where they didn't believe in medication and none of the...
    555calif 555calif
    51-55, M
    8 Responses Sep 4, 2010

    does anyone like me feel the doctors made a

    mistake? i am not sick anymore. i just take my meds everyday to be safe. it's all related to sleep deprivation, weed, and being shy. to fix it you got to be as healthy as you can be. diet exercise water sleep staying clean. i do want to get on with my life but am on welfare and...
    techtabtips techtabtips
    31-35, M
    Oct 17, 2015

    I am back to having visual hallucinations in my

    head. Last night I was seeing the devil trying to have sex with me. Than I dreamt of people with open stomach wounds walking around and talking to me. Scared because the voices have told me that I won't be able to die and will be the last person on earth. I am also seeing live...
    LissMiss2 LissMiss2
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Mar 17

    the best word for it would be trapped,

    against your will a invisible thing can **** with anything and everything you ever did, say, or thought. It can mess with you so much to the point you are no longer a person.. but just a shell to go to point A to point B .. no reflection in this life anymore.. just noise ..that I...
    Cocrispy Cocrispy
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Mar 20

    "As you will be inhabiting the body of a female

    human, you may or may not draw attention from male humans seeking to mate. It is recommended to refrain from such relations with human beings while on earth. Behaviors of an interested male may include such things as prolonged eye contact, excessive smiling or touching, verbal...
    Hush92 Hush92
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 24, 2015

    Anybody use the vitamin NAC successfully

    for schizophrenia? On it now seems to help pretty good
    LissMiss2 LissMiss2
    31-35, F
    Mar 21

    anyone else get annoyed

    when people think people with schizophrenia are all murderers and need to be locked up? Or when they think we are demon possessed?
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 7, 2014

    How am I going to live like this the rest of my

    life? Sure I have an amazing support system, which really helps, I don't ever want to sound like I am taking them for granted...but the internal struggle (especially lately) gets to be a lot. I can't handle nights like the last two were all I want to do is make my arms bleed...
    thereisnothingwrongwithyou thereisnothingwrongwithyou
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Dec 7, 2015

    wacko, schizo, psycho

    and nuts call me whatever I don't mind for I can escape from this world and leave you behind.
    slider978 slider978
    16-17, F
    1 Response Oct 12, 2015

    Controversial Treatments

    I've read a few articles and have had people tell me to stop trust in God because he doesn't answer prayers. I found that God does always answer prayers, maybe not the way we want or even with the answer we want, but he does answer. Yes,no,or wait awhile. We will overcome by the...
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 21, 2012

    I had Schizophrenia,

    when I was 19, I remember the wicked voices in my head, and the lack of sleep, and the reading about how there was no cure, I spent my time fighting for my life, and hiding the fact that I was crazy from everybody...I am happy to tell you that today at age 32 I no longer have...
    SealedWithAKisss SealedWithAKisss
    31-35, F
    8 Responses Aug 15, 2014

    He won't leave me alone.

    That voice. Calling me horrible names that make me cry all night. One time I was sitting with this girl who I thought was my friend- she laughs at me all the time and calls me the same names that voice calls me. It's like no one can ever understand.
    BloodOnIce BloodOnIce
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jun 11, 2014

    Dang it!! The things I experience vanish from

    my memory like dreams. I was in a room lit dimly by candle light. It was stone. Damp stone, looked like some sort of dungeon. And I was on my back on another stupid canopy bed and HE is over me, that same dark entity, and I feel his hands around my throat and while his hands...
    Hush92 Hush92
    18-21, F
    Nov 21, 2015

    and am finding out in short order how much

    strength is associated and required, this damn illness hurts. I'm also a veteran and know a trick or two. I once thought that medication was nothing more than chemical restraint. Please, listen, this is an illness and can be treated as such. Yeah, maybe meds. Doesn't what you're...
    cavedweller2 cavedweller2
    36-40, F
    Apr 14, 2015

    Honestly I'm tired I have to many issues I'm

    not like any human being I don't like sex I'm sadistic I'm a psychopath I'm bipolar I have MPD I really like blood I just want a friend everyone's scared of me I'll never find anyone to love or be friends with I hate the world and honestly people and myself most of all I'm just...
    Tenshouhifuhihifuu Tenshouhifuhihifuu
    13-15, F
    3 Responses Apr 11

    I got diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia in

    1980 when I was 19 years old. I have got treated with medication, therapy, vocational programs. and multiple hospitalizations. I didn't have many dreams of a life after I got out of high school. Maybe just a vague feeling that I would like to have a good job and be rich and...
    555calif 555calif
    51-55, M
    4 Responses Oct 11, 2014

    I'm really really depressed again

    because I can't figure out if today's just a dream or if its real. I hate schizophrenia. I hate living with it.
    Bre54 Bre54
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 31

    I saw you floating there in the corner,

    dark and menacing with your dark cloak blowing in the wind. I can only imagine your face as a black hole too.
    thereisnothingwrongwithyou thereisnothingwrongwithyou
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 16

    Story Of Noiseless (the Rough Not So Well Written First Story)

    I am a girl, 19 my name is Melissa. I have schizophreniaI havnt always been soundless, and I do speak. Not to very many people but enough to enjoy life and a good conversation once in awhile. I am shy and I have alway been that way. I like reading fantasy books, painting, and...
    noiseless noiseless
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Sep 6, 2012

    Schizophrenia:the Most Complex People In The World

    Firstly,I would like to say I am not ashamed. I am not ashamed because I believe having paranoid thoughs,ideas,imaginations does not make me a crazy. Society think they work on a one way street,but let me tell you that's not the case. Life is a limitless directional intersect...
    decasanova1 decasanova1
    22-25, M
    7 Responses May 5, 2011

    I have Schizophrenia

    Hello. I have had Schizophrenia diagnosed for 9 years but really had it for like 15 years. It is very difficult and I would be more than happy to chat back and forth with poeple with life's problems. Here is a poem of how it started. I like to vent through poetry. Here...
    JoanofArc JoanofArc
    41-45, F
    9 Responses Jan 4, 2008

    Noiseless: Indepth Sz

    All my past storys have been from when my S/S started and until I was diagnosed. But I hadnt got to indepth about my SZ or the S/S I have from my SZ. Thats what im going to write about today. My schizophrenia changes frequently lately, or atleast the people I see do. Normally it...
    noiseless noiseless
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Sep 27, 2012

    I have been misdiagnosed

    since I was 15. I never sought out help until now. My dr put me on geodon and Lamictal. I just thought I was normal until I was diagnosed. I see shadow people and I feel bugs crawling on my back. I've lived a long time with this undiagnosed. sometimes I cry sitting in the...
    lmwhite106 lmwhite106
    41-45, F
    1 Response Dec 31, 2015
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