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I Have Schizophrenia

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    An old friend, not me.

    I say 'old friend' because a year ago he faked a suicide to me and a number of other girls and is still pretending to be dead, even though I found out he's alive. He blocked me and the other girls on all social media and ignored all texts and calls. Anyways, he's never gone in...
    cutexmuffin524 cutexmuffin524 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 20

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    Controversial Treatments

    I've read a few articles and have had people tell me to stop trust in God because he doesn't answer prayers. I found that God does always answer prayers, maybe not the way we want or even with the answer we want, but he does answer. Yes,no,or wait awhile. We will overcome by the...
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 21, 2012

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    I have had my schizophrenia

    for years and I can't talk to people about it in person because they think I'm insane. Well I am but it doesn't mean I'm a different person than before. I have not told any of my family because they will want to get me help and I don't want help. They will just treat me...
    wonderland512 wonderland512 13-15, F 4 Responses Jul 7

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    I havent been on in several months.

    After being hospitalized for a while, my diagnosis became debatable. At first they couldnt decide between paranoid schizophrenia or disorganized schizophrenia. After being in the hospital a little while longer, they changed my diagnosis to schizoaffective disorder bipolar type...
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 29

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    My Reaction

    When I first experienced the positive symptoms of schizophrenia, I formulated my own explanation of what was happening to me. I called it psychopathy; therefore I considered myself a psychopath. My definition of a psychopath was someone who used other people's minds or psyche...
    ericsbat ericsbat 22-25 3 Responses Apr 20, 2009

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    The worst part about having it is the fact

    that it's not a very relatable disorder. Atleast in my experience
    Ifeeluberish Ifeeluberish 18-21, M 3 Responses Jun 3

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    Ok, so since I'm rather reluctant to say

    everything at once, I feel the need to start with the smaller things. There's this cat, whom I've named Archimedes, that I saw die a year ago. Then I saw him the next day, and he looked fine. And he started following me. He would never do anything. Just stare at me, like it was...
    Quertal Quertal 13-15, M 3 Responses Jun 22

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    Few Stories With Me And Schizophrenia

    *** I apologize ahead of time incase there is some vague spots about certain things due to well, quite frankly, I promised some of "those who can not be seen by others than, myself" that I would not share too much. But I will still share what I feel that I can and not anger them...
    Spookems Spookems 26-30, F 4 Responses Apr 4, 2013

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    Part two of my experience: Now

    that I am older, things have gone downhill. I lost my mother a year and a half ago, and since her death I have gotten worse and worse. I hear new voices. And when I am off my medicine the voices are constant. I hear people's thoughts that aren't mine. Almost every week I wonder...
    feliciablogger feliciablogger 22-25, F 4 Responses Aug 14

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    Every time I close my eyes I see the same face.

    This disfigured one, with giant black holes where they eyes should be, or maybe they're shadows I don't know. Either way it's always there when I close my eyes, lit up against the black. It used to really scare me when it first appeared. Like a screamer every time I blinked too...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 16

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    Murmurs

    My case of schizophrenia is mild. I'm grateful that I don't have it as bad as some people. I don't know about other people but I don't hear voices too clearly. When things are quiet and I really pay attention, I can hear them. They are just faint murmurs in the background, like...
    AltF4 AltF4 22-25, M 2 Responses Sep 29, 2013

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    My New Friends! : )

    What my mind has given me is two friends that have guided me through tough times and I wish that I could show them to the people I care about most but I can't. These two are named Mary and Neil and they are brother and sister and my best friends. They came to me a little bit ago...
    Kaylayikes Kaylayikes 16-17, F 4 Responses Sep 4, 2013

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    Can you ever get rid of this horrid disorder

    or is everyone destined to live with it forever?
    Ifeeluberish Ifeeluberish 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 1

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    I suffer with Schizophrenia

    and I need time to escape from Lana. She follows me everywhere, I swear. I am currently on antipsychotic medicine to try and cure it. I go to therapy and have 24/7 care. I also suffer with Anxiety Disorder and Anorexia Nervosa. I am on my way to recovery. Well, they think so...
    thefaultinmylife thefaultinmylife 13-15, F 8 Responses Jul 3

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    Schizophrenia??

    As a child i had no friends at all, i only had my beloved mother. At the age of 10 i began to experience severe bullying in school (daily beatings) this went on for 4 long and painful years. At age 12 i would purposely keep myself awake all night cos i realized that by staying...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Mar 15, 2012

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    Eighteen And Schizophrenic. Me.

    I see shadow-people, I hear voices both in and out of my head, I feel people touch me when they have not, I have multiple delusions but... most of the time, I'm still me. I am not in a constant belief of my delusions and sometimes, like now, I know they are complete lies. I...
    Tasser194 Tasser194 18-21 3 Responses Nov 2, 2012

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    It all started back when I was young,

    When I was a little girl I was afraid of everything. I'd scream when a video would pop out of the VCR, and my mom couldn't even mow the lawn without me coming outside with her. I wanted to follow her around because I was terrified that something would happen to her. One of my...
    feliciablogger feliciablogger 22-25, F Aug 14

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    My Inhuman Aberration, My Story.

    I joined experience project in hopes to find and meet people with schizophrenia. My reasoning for that is I come from a small town and feel rather isolated. I have been living with paranoid schizophrenia for a few years now. About 5 to be exact.....that's just diagnosed. I was...
    ksenger ksenger 26-30, F 4 Responses Apr 30, 2013

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    I am only fifteen years old

    and in the last 6 months, I have been diagnosed with schizophrenia. I feel like there's not really anyone out there dealing with the same thing, because it's extremely rare for someone to have it at my age.
    mrsgollum mrsgollum 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 1

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    I'm sorry I just need to post this

    because I'm feeling EXTREMELY angry....has anybody else had genuine experiences with ghosts/demons/God etc and nobody is believing them cause of being diagnosed with schizophrenia or psychosis or something??? I am starting to feel extremely angry by this. It's gone to far...
    GeorgiaAlicee GeorgiaAlicee 18-21, F 5 Responses Jun 26

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    How I Overcame Schizophrenia :)

    Hi I was looking on the internet looking for somewhere to post my life story of how I beat Schizophrenia. And I found this site  I want to help people with Schizophrenia who aren't as well as me and to help them see that it can be beaten. I got Schizophrenia at age 14 my...
    v2rsz8qz0n v2rsz8qz0n 22-25 3 Responses May 31, 2010

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    Keep Sharing

    I have noticed that there have been a lot of posts in this group lately... I just want to say how excited this makes me! It is so great that everyone feels comfortable enough to share their stories about such a subject... it isn't necessarily an easy subject to open up about...
    thereisnothingwrongwithyou thereisnothingwrongwithyou 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 7, 2013

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    Paranoid Schizophrenia

    I was first hospitalized in a psych ward in 1980. After a week and a half I was released and from there was put in a house for schizophrenics. I was 19 years old. It was called Soteria House and was a world famous experiment where they didn't believe in medication and none of the...
    555calif 555calif 51-55, M 8 Responses Sep 4, 2010

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    This is really really hard

    for me to confess, because no one else knows about this and I never went to the doctors or something, most likely because I like the way it is. So because I never went somewhere, I don't really know if it is really schizophrenia or something else. Well...inside me.. there's me...
    Sonaira95 Sonaira95 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    I Wanted to Die.

    i wish i could say overcomming the episodes was easy, but it wasnt. it would come, and go. at leased the severity would. it started when i was a kid. maybe 9 or 10. i was popular before then, but yearned isolation. i had only one best friend and would stick with them. i always...
    BellaVara BellaVara 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 8, 2009

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    when I was 14 my mother was raped

    and almost murdered this triggered an episode and at 16 I did Lsd Pot shrooms and had a second psychosis since that moment I decided that drugs opened up a can of worms for me and gave all that life away kinda withdrew I am still on ant-psychotic meds to this day but never had...
    Soroe Soroe 36-40, M Mar 20

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    I lost my son because I didn't fight hard

    enough. He was taken from me and his sister because I couldn't handle the fight. What have I done?
    mandyownstimmy mandyownstimmy 26-30, F 3 Responses Jul 30

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    Well... Sort of. One psychiatrist says it's

    schizoaffective, another says it schizophrenia but who cares? Honestly, I feel like the only people who care are stalkers or ******* bastards that want to use this against me... But what do I know? I guess this is why they want to medicate me. **** that! Yeah, the world seems...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jun 4

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    I'm so afraid if I sleep I will never wake up.

    I can feel the demons grabbing me and I know if I lose my control for a second I'll be gone.
    YeahIKnowImSick YeahIKnowImSick 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 18

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    Nothing happened today

    as I tried to sleep which was great. I felt the demons lurking but for whatever reason they chose not to attack me. Now that I'm awake I'm not sure if they're still here or not....do they ever leave? Yesterday was awful. It was day (I think? I don't remember?) and I was in bed...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 23

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    sweetsomnolence sweetsomnolence 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 16

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    I feel lost. I'm done with everything

    and even trying now. My family calls me weak because of this disorder, they think I'm not trying hard enough. A friend found out and is now pretending they don't know me although we have known each other for three years. My therapist has given up on me and is calling me a...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Aug 9

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    I have overcome Schizophrenia!

    !! Who the SON SETS FREE IS FREE INDEED.....From the moment I fell when I was 19----The voices told me that I sold my soul! I was redeemed! I had just fallen, I walked around my house in a lost and dazzed and confused state, I noticed that all of my clocks had stopped, every one...
    Jesusfoundme Jesusfoundme 31-35, F 5 Responses Apr 9

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    Actually I have s-phrenia,

    OCD, and general anxiety but I think saying I have s-phrenia grabs people's attention more than just saying I have mental illness. S-phrenia can be caused by many different things depending on the individual. Its NOT caused by demons or bad parenting. Lol- yeah I guess in my...
    Cetacean Cetacean 36-40, M 2 Responses Jun 6

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    The most confusing part is seeing things relate

    to you everywhere. Half the time it feels like something is toying with me. Some examples; Having a nightmare a demon raped me then waking up the next morning and hearing "Blurred Lines" for the first time ever on the radio. Do you even know how disturbing it is to wake up from...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 1

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    I Am New Here And Am Schizophrenic Since 1993.

    Hello. My name is Diana and I am schizophrenic since 1993. I am pretty much stable on my meds now but this wasn't always the case. It all started with the tv talking to me and me being scared out of my mind. I live in Tampa Florida since 1988 and the voices started in my head...
    ladydiana0824 ladydiana0824 41-45, F 3 Responses Oct 1, 2013

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    And I just finished my last group sessions

    so im out in the real world and looking for friends who also have schizophrenia to relate to
    vasquezd2 vasquezd2 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    Schizophrenia - A Story Of Survival And Redemption

    I would like to start with a brief recap of my life leading up to my initial hospitalization and diagnosis, and then acceptance of Jesus Christ as my savior. I was born on September 5th, 1986 in Binghamton New York. I was raised in a Christian family, who took me to church up...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Nov 1, 2012

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    it started in junior year of high school.

    then got way worse when i started college in Philadelphia. I was having visual hallucinations/delusions about God and how he hated me so much. I cant even go to church now. And lately after I started abilify now I have auditory hallucinations at night where I hear a woman...
    vasquezd2 vasquezd2 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 14

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    My Story Of Being Recovered From Schizophrenia

    (Randy S. 24 years old diagnosed at 18 with Schizophrenia)*******This was made for NAMI's newsletter" It's my story. From Schizophrenia, to recovery and working in the mental health field I first remember the gradual decent into...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Mar 4, 2011

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    I'm very worried currently.

    Delusions have returned full force and I keep slipping in and out of awareness of them. My raised anxiety levels and low levels of sleep is bringing it all out. Lately I've become almost completely absorbed in fantasy. There are demons all around me, and they harass me while I'm...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 26

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    He won't leave me alone.

    That voice. Calling me horrible names that make me cry all night. One time I was sitting with this girl who I thought was my friend- she laughs at me all the time and calls me the same names that voice calls me. It's like no one can ever understand.
    BloodOnIce BloodOnIce 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 11

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    I'm freaking out. I saw a picture of a open

    sore on Facebook about three weeks ago. It was so disturbing that I haven't been able to stop seeing it and I've been very paranoid that I'm going to get it because they said it was caused by the same shampoo I use. I later found out that it was photo shopped but that hasn't...
    ParanoidGirl ParanoidGirl 26-30 1 Response Jul 7

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    Time? Time Is An Illusion. the Only Real Time Is Party Time.

    I was hanging around in the woods, and I realized that all the world is not a "world" as we believe it to be.  It is, in fact, sight and sound etc, put into my eyes and ears by someone.  That someone is trying to communicate with me.  And the next thing I...
    Datwa Datwa 16-18, M 8 Responses Jan 11, 2008

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    Schizophrenia:the Most Complex People In The World

    Firstly,I would like to say I am not ashamed. I am not ashamed because I believe having paranoid thoughs,ideas,imaginations does not make me a crazy. Society think they work on a one way street,but let me tell you that's not the case. Life is a limitless directional intersect...
    decasanova1 decasanova1 22-25, M 7 Responses May 5, 2011

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    I don't want to believe I do though,

    so I don't know what to think.....I mean I've never been diagnosed or anything. I constantly struggle with delusions though. I'm always confused over what's real. I could put that off and ignore it though, because I didn't experience hallucinations or paranoia or anything else...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 11

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    I have Schizophrenia

    Hello. I have had Schizophrenia diagnosed for 9 years but really had it for like 15 years. It is very difficult and I would be more than happy to chat back and forth with poeple with life's problems. Here is a poem of how it started. I like to vent through poetry. Here...
    JoanofArc JoanofArc 41-45, F 9 Responses Jan 4, 2008

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    I saw someone posting about experiencing

    feelings of demons/ghosts/gods. I went through the same period but I finally figured out the demons/ghosts/devils versus angels/Jesus only represent the evilness and goodness of people. What we are sensing or feeling is actually the spirits, the Holy Spirit.
    iamfish717 iamfish717 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 5

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    I hate this. I can't sleep.

    Why can't I sleep? Because I'm paranoid that my damn reflection is going to come out of the mirror and kill me if I look away too long. Is that logical? No. Reasonable? No. But I'm still scared, still can't sleep. This is bullcrap.
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 15

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    Concrete Thinking: An Elusive And Silently Destructive Force

    Hello, "A rolling stone gathers no moss." "When the cat is away, the mice will play." After taking my psychological testing, I met with the psychologist after her evaluation of the test results. The psychologist informed me that my IQ had decreased, my abstract thinking had...
    CBH9 CBH9 41-45 Jul 19, 2012

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    I heard voices for th first time today atleast

    to my knowledge, they were mostly muttering whispers and inaudible whispers so i couldnt tell what they were saying. It was pretty freeky in the moment i guess
    Ifeeluberish Ifeeluberish 18-21, M 6 Responses Mar 17

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    So I finally made an appointment to get tested.

    I'm so incredibly nervous though. I've never shared any of the things that have happened to me with any one before. I covered the surface with one of my friends and she stopped being friends with me. I fleetingly mentioned some details to the counselor at my school I went to for...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Story Of Noiseless (the Rough Not So Well Written First Story)

    I am a girl, 19 my name is Melissa. I have schizophreniaI havnt always been soundless, and I do speak. Not to very many people but enough to enjoy life and a good conversation once in awhile. I am shy and I have alway been that way. I like reading fantasy books, painting, and...
    noiseless noiseless 18-21, F 7 Responses Sep 6, 2012

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