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I Have Schizophrenia

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    I finished my school year

    and did fairly well in most classes. I now have an apartment and am working to pay for it all on my own. I am nervous but excited. I dread working so much, but if that is what it takes to be a functional and happy member of society then alright. Lets do it and praise God along...
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 1 Response May 6

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    There are many things inhabiting this body.

    One is here to observe and then act in a way that benefits as many people possible. It's here to fix something. One is just here to observe. One wants to kill things and have sex. One wants to have fun and be happy and doesn't really care about anything else. One doesn't...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 9

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    I don't know what else to do.

    None of my teachers have ever had a student like me. They don't seem to know how to help. It frustrating. I am almost ready to give up. I know accomadations have to be made in a classroom for people with thses tings, but how do you help a schizophrenic music major? Everythung I...
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F Apr 20

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    Why can't my hallucinations just be

    hallucinations? I'm tired of people thinking I did something to cause them like watch a bad movie. I'm tired of people saying I am being followed by demons and can see into the spiritual world. I'm not saying those things don't exist, but I am saying that my hallucinations are...
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 2 Responses May 11

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    What if we are just psychic?

    Reality is just in our mind so who's to say that we have to think a certain way to be "sane"
    neutralwalrus neutralwalrus 70+, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Do I? I apologize if this annoying in any way

    but I wanted do I have schizophrenia? In the past few years I've always thought I heard voices but in the past six or so months it had gotten scary. The voices are now overpowering, my vision starts to fade out, and I start to lose control of body. They usually target my...
    EyeAmSweetGore EyeAmSweetGore 18-21, F 1 Response May 19

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    Creepy thing. I haven't had any frightening

    visual hallucinations in a while. I've seen people and animals recently, but just a few minutes ago I saw a creature eating a dead body in our bathroom. It is frightening because I keep seeing those creature now and I recognize them from somewhere. Unfortunatly, I am home alone...
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 2 Responses May 10

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    LovemusicNotpeople LovemusicNotpeople 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 23

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    The past few days the symptoms have come back

    to quickly. I can't concentrate. Classes are horrible. People ask what is wrong and I say I can't focus. They are lk, "me too." I'm just like you don't even know. I told my teachers that I can't hear over the hallucinations, I can't remember anything, and I am trouble to focus...
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 15

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    I'm scared and frustrated.

    Every so often there's these people I meet in my life that I have this magnetic attraction to. Not a romantic attraction or anything like that, but it's just like I'm SUPPOSED to be around this person. I end up becoming close friends with them. Usually there's something wrong...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 4 Responses May 2

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    My therapist doesn't understand how I can go

    through every day without people noticing my symptoms but the truth is I have huge issues with dissociation I don't talk to her about. I'm not even the girl whose body I'm in, I'm here to help her, she's been gone gone gone a long while now. She can't do anything so I do it for...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 31

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    and am finding out in short order how much

    strength is associated and required, this damn illness hurts. I'm also a veteran and know a trick or two. I once thought that medication was nothing more than chemical restraint. Please, listen, this is an illness and can be treated as such. Yeah, maybe meds. Doesn't what you're...
    cavedweller2 cavedweller2 36-40, F Apr 14

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    I'm so sleepy all the time

    but I'm not on meds I'm just always sleepy all I want to do is sleep
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 10

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    Noiseless: Indepth Sz

    All my past storys have been from when my S/S started and until I was diagnosed. But I hadnt got to indepth about my SZ or the S/S I have from my SZ. Thats what im going to write about today. My schizophrenia changes frequently lately, or atleast the people I see do. Normally it...
    noiseless noiseless 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 27, 2012

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    When I first started hearing them they

    inmatated voices I knew so I was confused to as when it actually started but then I started to think I was being stalked by people and they wouldn't leave me alone. They knew stuff about me and I even thought I was on some sick reality tv show and hoped for an end but it didn't...
    CopeWithMe CopeWithMe 22-25 Dec 22, 2014

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    I want a girlfriend who also has schizophrenia.

    That way we can both understand and be there for each other. That'd be nice.
    TNDO95 TNDO95 18-21, M 5 Responses Dec 11, 2014

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    My life is like a roller coaster ride with all

    its sudden ups and downs, cliche but accurate.
    zarpanzur zarpanzur 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 14

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    Just Need To Vent

    I was diagnosed with schizophrenia when I was 18. What was supposed to be the best time of my life was a nightmare I'll never be able to forget. The nightmare continues now into my twenties, and I see how this horrible disease has affected me mentally, emotionally, and...
    mkayx13 mkayx13 26-30, F 3 Responses Oct 30, 2013

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    I might have it not sure.

    I have never hallucinated until now. I just saw Chuck Norris teleport next to me, I grew a penis and a third boob, and my nails grew really long
    Chelsea248744 Chelsea248744 18-21, F 4 Responses May 1

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    I got diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia in

    1980 when I was 19 years old. I have got treated with medication, therapy, vocational programs. and multiple hospitalizations. I didn't have many dreams of a life after I got out of high school. Maybe just a vague feeling that I would like to have a good job and be rich and...
    555calif 555calif 51-55, M 4 Responses Oct 11, 2014

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    The only thing I have to do is not listen.

    It's as simple as that. Don't talk to him, don't listen to what he has to say, it's all lies. But I'm dumb. And weak. And I told Azriel, I told him that now that I hear them I feel it's only a matter of time before he separates me from God entirely. Ever since he showed up he...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    He won't leave me alone.

    That voice. Calling me horrible names that make me cry all night. One time I was sitting with this girl who I thought was my friend- she laughs at me all the time and calls me the same names that voice calls me. It's like no one can ever understand.
    BloodOnIce BloodOnIce 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 11, 2014

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    My Inhuman Aberration, My Story.

    I joined experience project in hopes to find and meet people with schizophrenia. My reasoning for that is I come from a small town and feel rather isolated. I have been living with paranoid schizophrenia for a few years now. About 5 to be exact.....that's just diagnosed. I was...
    ksenger ksenger 26-30, F 4 Responses Apr 30, 2013

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    I Do Too...

    I had my first episodes around 17 - 18...  Diagnosed as paranoid schizo. at first... but slowly but surely managed to ward off my ignorant parents and after a while left home to pursue these visions and dreams I had in my head...I am untreated upto this day and I am 23 now...
    JDean JDean 18-21, M 11 Responses Dec 17, 2007

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    Do you find it extremely difficult telling

    people what you are feeling/ explaining things in general because you feel as though although you are still "there" at the same time you are not..? Or ..?? I dont know, this is somthing I really struggle with. Unless I write down everything that happens to me either when they...
    neutralwalrus neutralwalrus 70+, M 41 mins ago

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    Story Of Noiseless (the Rough Not So Well Written First Story)

    I am a girl, 19 my name is Melissa. I have schizophreniaI havnt always been soundless, and I do speak. Not to very many people but enough to enjoy life and a good conversation once in awhile. I am shy and I have alway been that way. I like reading fantasy books, painting, and...
    noiseless noiseless 18-21, F 7 Responses Sep 6, 2012

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    I have Schizophrenia

    Hello. I have had Schizophrenia diagnosed for 9 years but really had it for like 15 years. It is very difficult and I would be more than happy to chat back and forth with poeple with life's problems. Here is a poem of how it started. I like to vent through poetry. Here...
    JoanofArc JoanofArc 41-45, F 9 Responses Jan 4, 2008

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    Everywhere I go I hear "no chance" this

    and "impossible" that and "forever" and "you can't win." But, almost never are these phrases spoken to me directly but rather when I'm around, I hear them from other people talking to other people. With my symptoms and illness, I always think they are talking about me, like it's...
    zarpanzur zarpanzur 26-30, M 2 Responses Apr 5

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    This is really really hard

    for me to confess, because no one else knows about this and I never went to the doctors or something, most likely because I like the way it is. So because I never went somewhere, I don't really know if it is really schizophrenia or something else. Well...inside me.. there's me...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 2, 2014

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    I didn't go to my first therapy appointment

    with the new therapist. I just don't know if I trust therapy anymore. And it's useless to me because it's always at set dates and times. Times where maybe nothing is going on for me and I'm good. When I'm really messed up and freaking out, therapy isn't there. It doesn't help me...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    My god I can't stand their hounding

    and their heckling. Every night I have to hear them back me into a corner about how I'll end up in hell. I feel like my brain is just constantly preoccupied with how much I don't want to go to hell now. My nightmares are full of demons mocking me. I'm terrified that God doesn't...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Controversial Treatments

    I've read a few articles and have had people tell me to stop trust in God because he doesn't answer prayers. I found that God does always answer prayers, maybe not the way we want or even with the answer we want, but he does answer. Yes,no,or wait awhile. We will overcome by the...
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 21, 2012

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    The medicine is bad for me.

    I will not take it. I know the truth of what it is. It is mind control.
    Herrington Herrington 16-17 Apr 8

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    Few Stories With Me And Schizophrenia

    *** I apologize ahead of time incase there is some vague spots about certain things due to well, quite frankly, I promised some of "those who can not be seen by others than, myself" that I would not share too much. But I will still share what I feel that I can and not anger them...
    Spookems Spookems 31-35, F 6 Responses Apr 4, 2013

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    Just got diagnosed. My psychiatrist prescribed

    me abilify and so far, other then some drowsiness, I'm feeling pretty good. Most of my symptoms are fading, and I even find myself much less anxious. Life seems to be improving, my studies are even getting better. The diagnosis has been hard but I think I've found ways to cope...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Apr 1

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    I was just diagnose with paranoid schizophrenia

    while i'm in nursing school. I had a mental breakdown and a bad reaction to a drug which surface up to me having this. They diagnose me last week it's still surreal that I have this ,but i'm going to pray that I can finish school .I was in the hospital for a week and lost my...
    whitster02 whitster02 26-30, F 1 Response May 18

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    My New Friends! : )

    What my mind has given me is two friends that have guided me through tough times and I wish that I could show them to the people I care about most but I can't. These two are named Mary and Neil and they are brother and sister and my best friends. They came to me a little bit ago...
    Kaylayikes Kaylayikes 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 4, 2013

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    I had Schizophrenia,

    when I was 19, I remember the wicked voices in my head, and the lack of sleep, and the reading about how there was no cure, I spent my time fighting for my life, and hiding the fact that I was crazy from everybody...I am happy to tell you that today at age 32 I no longer have...
    Jesusfoundme Jesusfoundme 31-35, F 10 Responses Aug 15, 2014

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    do you ever wish others to be schizophrenic

    for just 1 day or week? i do. so they could understand what it is we go through. so they would quit with their ignorant talk and quit using words like "schizo" as negative adjectives...jw
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 7 Responses Dec 31, 2014

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    I've been hearing voices on

    and off since I turned fourteen, but it wasn't until my sophomore year of college that these auditory hallucinations became incessant and overwhelming. Usually the voices will belong to unidentifiable individuals of varying identity (years of psychiatric treatment and...
    tatianya tatianya 26-30, F 21 Responses May 9

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    I decided to ignore the scratching inside the

    bed but it's still there. Taunting me....
    VeniceTheMenice VeniceTheMenice 31-35, F 5 Responses Jan 14

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    Schizophrenia - A Story Of Survival And Redemption

    I would like to start with a brief recap of my life leading up to my initial hospitalization and diagnosis, and then acceptance of Jesus Christ as my savior. I was born on September 5th, 1986 in Binghamton New York. I was raised in a Christian family, who took me to church up...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Nov 1, 2012

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    anyone else get annoyed

    when people think people with schizophrenia are all murderers and need to be locked up? Or when they think we are demon possessed?
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 7, 2014

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    Paranoid Schizophrenia

    I was first hospitalized in a psych ward in 1980. After a week and a half I was released and from there was put in a house for schizophrenics. I was 19 years old. It was called Soteria House and was a world famous experiment where they didn't believe in medication and none of the...
    555calif 555calif 51-55, M 8 Responses Sep 4, 2010

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    Celebrating John Nash.

    For those of you who do not know, John Nash died today. He was a mathmatician and and Nobel Prize winner who also suffered from paranoid schizophrenia. Just so happens that today is also Schizophrenia awareness day. The color for that is purple.
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I have overcome Schizophrenia!

    !! Who the SON SETS FREE IS FREE INDEED.....From the moment I fell when I was 19----The voices told me that I sold my soul! I was redeemed! I had just fallen, I walked around my house in a lost and dazzed and confused state, I noticed that all of my clocks had stopped, every one...
    Jesusfoundme Jesusfoundme 31-35, F 9 Responses Apr 9, 2014

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