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I Have Schizophrenia

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    do you ever wish others to be schizophrenic

    for just 1 day or week? i do. so they could understand what it is we go through. so they would quit with their ignorant talk and quit using words like "schizo" as negative adjectives...jw
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 6 Responses Dec 31, 2014

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    I had Schizophrenia,

    when I was 19, I remember the wicked voices in my head, and the lack of sleep, and the reading about how there was no cure, I spent my time fighting for my life, and hiding the fact that I was crazy from everybody...I am happy to tell you that today at age 32 I no longer have...
    Jesusfoundme Jesusfoundme 31-35, F 10 Responses Aug 15, 2014

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    Ok actually I was diagnosed with a psychotic

    disorder not sz, but this is one small thing that went on in my head today, a glimpse into the exhausting ongoing battle I'm dealing with currently. Me: "I'm just so tired....." Voice: "Ungrateful. You live in Heaven and you aren't even happy." Me: "Why can't I be happy" V...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 12

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    experience: Im taking a shower at my dorm in

    college when all of a sudden I realize that the water drops that fall on the walls are lighting up. They're telling me a message. I have to decode the water otherwise I can never leave. I sit in the shower for about an extra hour dragging my finger from drop to drop to save...
    vasquezd2 vasquezd2 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 19, 2014

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    He won't leave me alone.

    That voice. Calling me horrible names that make me cry all night. One time I was sitting with this girl who I thought was my friend- she laughs at me all the time and calls me the same names that voice calls me. It's like no one can ever understand.
    BloodOnIce BloodOnIce 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 11, 2014

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    Memories I have to keep careful track of my

    memories. I'm in pain a lot, so I have to keep track of all my good memories and all the times I wasn't in pain to remind myself things aren't always terrible. I have to keep track of every time I accidentally hurt myself, whack something on a desk or get scratched because...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F Jan 12

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    Paranoid Schizophrenia

    I was first hospitalized in a psych ward in 1980. After a week and a half I was released and from there was put in a house for schizophrenics. I was 19 years old. It was called Soteria House and was a world famous experiment where they didn't believe in medication and none of the...
    555calif 555calif 51-55, M 8 Responses Sep 4, 2010

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    Noiseless: Indepth Sz

    All my past storys have been from when my S/S started and until I was diagnosed. But I hadnt got to indepth about my SZ or the S/S I have from my SZ. Thats what im going to write about today. My schizophrenia changes frequently lately, or atleast the people I see do. Normally it...
    noiseless noiseless 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 27, 2012

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    I have overcome Schizophrenia!

    !! Who the SON SETS FREE IS FREE INDEED.....From the moment I fell when I was 19----The voices told me that I sold my soul! I was redeemed! I had just fallen, I walked around my house in a lost and dazzed and confused state, I noticed that all of my clocks had stopped, every one...
    Jesusfoundme Jesusfoundme 31-35, F 8 Responses Apr 9, 2014

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    Surreal is the word that best describes how my

    life has been this past week or so. Nothing is concrete. I've been wandering in a daze. I find myself unable to sleep at night, and so I've been sleeping very little. There is no reason behind the insomnia, none of the usual panic I get, just.....being unable to fall asleep...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F Nov 16, 2014

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    I Do Too...

    I had my first episodes around 17 - 18...  Diagnosed as paranoid schizo. at first... but slowly but surely managed to ward off my ignorant parents and after a while left home to pursue these visions and dreams I had in my head...I am untreated upto this day and I am 23 now...
    JDean JDean 21-25, M 11 Responses Dec 17, 2007

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    anyone else get annoyed

    when people think people with schizophrenia are all murderers and need to be locked up? Or when they think we are demon possessed?
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 7, 2014

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    My Inhuman Aberration, My Story.

    I joined experience project in hopes to find and meet people with schizophrenia. My reasoning for that is I come from a small town and feel rather isolated. I have been living with paranoid schizophrenia for a few years now. About 5 to be exact.....that's just diagnosed. I was...
    ksenger ksenger 26-30, F 4 Responses Apr 30, 2013

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    Controversial Treatments

    I've read a few articles and have had people tell me to stop trust in God because he doesn't answer prayers. I found that God does always answer prayers, maybe not the way we want or even with the answer we want, but he does answer. Yes,no,or wait awhile. We will overcome by the...
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 21, 2012

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    might have had some hallucinations last night.

    my disorganization is getting worse. apparently i am acting strange again. i did good to stay out of the hospital for the longest time. what if i have to go back? so confused
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 20, 2014

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    I decided to ignore the scratching inside the

    bed but it's still there. Taunting me....
    VeniceTheMenice VeniceTheMenice 31-35, F 4 Responses Jan 14

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    Have had schizophrenia

    since I was 11. Wasn't diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia until I was 30. Long story short. Stopped taking meds and appointments two years ago. No symptoms of schizophrenia ever since. How do you explain this?
    keepitreal78 keepitreal78 36-40, M 3 Responses Dec 10, 2014

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    Doy You Feel Unreal

    I sometimes feel like I am not really real. That what is happening is like watching a TV show. That I am not a person. I am feeling it right now but I have felt like this for a few days. it comes and goes and sometimes frightens me.
    insanepoet84 insanepoet84 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 17, 2013

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    This is really really hard

    for me to confess, because no one else knows about this and I never went to the doctors or something, most likely because I like the way it is. So because I never went somewhere, I don't really know if it is really schizophrenia or something else. Well...inside me.. there's me...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 2, 2014

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    I got diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia in

    1980 when I was 19 years old. I have got treated with medication, therapy, vocational programs. and multiple hospitalizations. I didn't have many dreams of a life after I got out of high school. Maybe just a vague feeling that I would like to have a good job and be rich and...
    555calif 555calif 51-55, M 4 Responses Oct 11, 2014

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    Schizophrenia??

    As a child i had no friends at all, i only had my beloved mother. At the age of 10 i began to experience severe bullying in school (daily beatings) this went on for 4 long and painful years. At age 12 i would purposely keep myself awake all night cos i realized that by staying...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Mar 15, 2012

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    Being on break really helps calm my symptoms,

    since I can get away from the insanity that is college life. I'm nervous to go back..... Anyways what stuff I have been dealing with hasn't been too bad. Yes I still have my deal with the mirror, I hate it, and I feel like my reflection will come out at any minute and kill me...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 16

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    I have Schizophrenia

    Hello. I have had Schizophrenia diagnosed for 9 years but really had it for like 15 years. It is very difficult and I would be more than happy to chat back and forth with poeple with life's problems. Here is a poem of how it started. I like to vent through poetry. Here...
    JoanofArc JoanofArc 41-45, F 9 Responses Jan 4, 2008

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    Story Of Noiseless (the Rough Not So Well Written First Story)

    I am a girl, 19 my name is Melissa. I have schizophreniaI havnt always been soundless, and I do speak. Not to very many people but enough to enjoy life and a good conversation once in awhile. I am shy and I have alway been that way. I like reading fantasy books, painting, and...
    noiseless noiseless 18-21, F 7 Responses Sep 6, 2012

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    is anyone else offended by th song

    schizophrenic psycho?
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 19, 2014

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    Does anybody else see scary things

    when they close their eyes? I can't close mine, I see too many scary images flash around.
    ShadowOnTheSun ShadowOnTheSun 18-21, T 2 Responses Jan 7

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    Eighteen And Schizophrenic. Me.

    I see shadow-people, I hear voices both in and out of my head, I feel people touch me when they have not, I have multiple delusions but... most of the time, I'm still me. I am not in a constant belief of my delusions and sometimes, like now, I know they are complete lies. I...
    Tasser194 Tasser194 18-21 3 Responses Nov 2, 2012

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    My Reaction

    When I first experienced the positive symptoms of schizophrenia, I formulated my own explanation of what was happening to me. I called it psychopathy; therefore I considered myself a psychopath. My definition of a psychopath was someone who used other people's minds or psyche...
    ericsbat ericsbat 22-25 3 Responses Apr 20, 2009

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    When I first started hearing them they

    inmatated voices I knew so I was confused to as when it actually started but then I started to think I was being stalked by people and they wouldn't leave me alone. They knew stuff about me and I even thought I was on some sick reality tv show and hoped for an end but it didn't...
    CopeWithMe CopeWithMe 22-25 Dec 22, 2014

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    experience: So im sitting in the therapists room

    and he asks me what I saw. I started telling him what I saw and he starts asking more and more questions then automatically I think, "Why is he asking me these questions? What is he going to do with the answers? He's going to tell them.... I cant trust him. Hes one of THEM." and...
    vasquezd2 vasquezd2 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 19, 2014

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    Keep Sharing

    I have noticed that there have been a lot of posts in this group lately... I just want to say how excited this makes me! It is so great that everyone feels comfortable enough to share their stories about such a subject... it isn't necessarily an easy subject to open up about...
    thereisnothingwrongwithyou thereisnothingwrongwithyou 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 7, 2013

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    Just Need To Vent

    I was diagnosed with schizophrenia when I was 18. What was supposed to be the best time of my life was a nightmare I'll never be able to forget. The nightmare continues now into my twenties, and I see how this horrible disease has affected me mentally, emotionally, and...
    mkayx13 mkayx13 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 30, 2013

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    i am a music ed major

    so i have to take 4 aural skills classes. my exam, i was able to get put off until january because of my illness interfering with the class. it doesnt bother my other classes as bad as aural skills. my friends dont seem to understand that. they say that i dont seem sick or i...
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 19, 2014

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    I want a girlfriend who also has schizophrenia.

    That way we can both understand and be there for each other. That'd be nice.
    TNDO95 TNDO95 18-21, M 5 Responses Dec 11, 2014

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    I Am New Here And Am Schizophrenic Since 1993.

    Hello. My name is Diana and I am schizophrenic since 1993. I am pretty much stable on my meds now but this wasn't always the case. It all started with the tv talking to me and me being scared out of my mind. I live in Tampa Florida since 1988 and the voices started in my head...
    ladydiana0824 ladydiana0824 46-50, F 3 Responses Oct 1, 2013

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    Its not a cake walk even

    though I've been fairly stable for over a decade, and I get disability payments. I still have very disorganized thought. I have a very hard time sorting through details in my life, and that causes bad anxiety, because I don't want certain details, which could be a lot of things...
    Cetacean Cetacean 36-40, M 1 Response Jan 20

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    ParanoidGirl ParanoidGirl 26-30 2 Responses Nov 17, 2014

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    I was diagnosed with schizophrenia about 4

    years ago. I've been having a lot of mental breakdowns lately. How do you guys deal with schizophrenia/ mental breakdowns?
    idlehandz56 idlehandz56 22-25, F 5 Responses Dec 27, 2014

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    The girl next door will not shut up.

    She is whining about how she cuts when she gets upset. Whining about how her family treated her when she went to the hospital. I'm sitting over with the exact same problem plus schizophrenia, but i don't make as big a deal about it as she does. That is what I like about people...
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 16, 2014

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    Hello. My name is Tristan.

    A 15 year old male who has started 9th grade not too long ago.. For years, I've suffered from something I could not explain. Seeing and hearing things others could not. I thought I had powers people could not see. Now, I do have Multiple Personalities to top it off. It's like...
    ThatOnePerson5467 ThatOnePerson5467 13-15, M 4 Responses Jan 17

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    I'm trying to sleep. Been 2 nights now.

    As soon as I close my eyes I hear and feel someone or something scratching the bed. And no, there isn't a rat in there.
    VeniceTheMenice VeniceTheMenice 31-35, F Jan 12

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    Things basically are sucking hard

    for me right now because all of my positive helper voices have just completely vanished. They are goooone. I can't feel them, hear them, nothing. I have lost my entire support system, my guides, my caretakers, the guards of my emotional well-being. They're gone. If I'm going to...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 17, 2014

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    I'm surprised there isn't more of us "psychos"

    crawling around on this website. Probably hiding, come out.
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Dec 31, 2014

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    I didn't think it was

    even possible to diagnose anyone under 20 with schizophrenia, silly me. I finally consented to a diagnoses after my 9 year counselor told me it was smart to see another man in the building. This happened to be the doctor that she was giving her notes to for the past 3 years. I...
    CrystalBlueAngel CrystalBlueAngel 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 15, 2014

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    Few Stories With Me And Schizophrenia

    *** I apologize ahead of time incase there is some vague spots about certain things due to well, quite frankly, I promised some of "those who can not be seen by others than, myself" that I would not share too much. But I will still share what I feel that I can and not anger them...
    Spookems Spookems 26-30, F 6 Responses Apr 4, 2013

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    My New Friends! : )

    What my mind has given me is two friends that have guided me through tough times and I wish that I could show them to the people I care about most but I can't. These two are named Mary and Neil and they are brother and sister and my best friends. They came to me a little bit ago...
    Kaylayikes Kaylayikes 16-17, F 5 Responses Sep 4, 2013

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    I am getting better,

    but slowly. I can now almost distinguish between reality and hallucinations, but I still have hallucinations. The anti-psychotics mostly just make it less obvious that I'm tripping balls, and they don't actually help with what I'm feeling. It's very creepy, combined with my...
    uwuplz uwuplz 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 15, 2014

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    Just because you disappear

    when I look directly at you doesn’t mean I didn’t see you standing in my mirror, watching me. I’m going to ignore you making noises that no one else can hear. I won’t let you ruin the stable streak I’ve had for so long. This paranoia, these hallucinations, this...
    thereisnothingwrongwithyou thereisnothingwrongwithyou 22-25, F a week ago

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    Schizophrenia - A Story Of Survival And Redemption

    I would like to start with a brief recap of my life leading up to my initial hospitalization and diagnosis, and then acceptance of Jesus Christ as my savior. I was born on September 5th, 1986 in Binghamton New York. I was raised in a Christian family, who took me to church up...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Nov 1, 2012

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    experience: So I'm at Jersey Shore.

    In the hotel room. About to take a shower and I look at the dirty shower curtains and a thought comes into my head thats not mine. "Well that would be fun to strangle yourself with!" ...... Well that was weird.
    vasquezd2 vasquezd2 18-21, F Nov 19, 2014

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    It was the perfect angle.

    I was laying in my bed in my room. I had my left leg propped up over my right knee. I could see the shiny scars reflecting the light off my leg. I could read the words. The voices made me do it as punishment for not listening. It said, "I do what i'm told." I also saw the secret...
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F Nov 16, 2014

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