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I Have Schizophrenia

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    I feel tingly and the demons keep trying to

    talk to me. Every time we talk it's just the same stupid conversation over and over. I wish they'd just leave me alone.
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 15

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    Urgh, I wish I could fly.

    I'd fly to the moon, I would. I'd sit on the moon and talk to the stars about how boring Earth is. I'd make an official complaint to the man in charge whilst on the moon.
    BrokenThread BrokenThread 18-21, F Sep 3

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    Murmurs

    My case of schizophrenia is mild. I'm grateful that I don't have it as bad as some people. I don't know about other people but I don't hear voices too clearly. When things are quiet and I really pay attention, I can hear them. They are just faint murmurs in the background, like...
    AltF4 AltF4 22-25, M 2 Responses Sep 29, 2013

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    I had Schizophrenia,

    when I was 19, I remember the wicked voices in my head, and the lack of sleep, and the reading about how there was no cure, I spent my time fighting for my life, and hiding the fact that I was crazy from everybody...I am happy to tell you that today at age 32 I no longer have...
    Jesusfoundme Jesusfoundme 31-35, F 2 Responses Aug 15

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    it started in junior year of high school.

    then got way worse when i started college in Philadelphia. I was having visual hallucinations/delusions about God and how he hated me so much. I cant even go to church now. And lately after I started abilify now I have auditory hallucinations at night where I hear a woman...
    vasquezd2 vasquezd2 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 14

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    Time? Time Is An Illusion. the Only Real Time Is Party Time.

    I was hanging around in the woods, and I realized that all the world is not a "world" as we believe it to be.  It is, in fact, sight and sound etc, put into my eyes and ears by someone.  That someone is trying to communicate with me.  And the next thing I...
    Datwa Datwa 16-18, M 8 Responses Jan 11, 2008

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    Is anyone happily married with this disease?

    Or in a successful relationship? If so, any advice for how to make it work?? All comments are welcome...
    emdebono emdebono 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 31

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    I am only fifteen years old

    and in the last 6 months, I have been diagnosed with schizophrenia. I feel like there's not really anyone out there dealing with the same thing, because it's extremely rare for someone to have it at my age.
    mrsgollum mrsgollum 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 1

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    So I finally made an appointment to get tested.

    I'm so incredibly nervous though. I've never shared any of the things that have happened to me with any one before. I covered the surface with one of my friends and she stopped being friends with me. I fleetingly mentioned some details to the counselor at my school I went to for...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 20

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    I suffer with Schizophrenia

    and I need time to escape from Lana. She follows me everywhere, I swear. I am currently on antipsychotic medicine to try and cure it. I go to therapy and have 24/7 care. I also suffer with Anxiety Disorder and Anorexia Nervosa. I am on my way to recovery. Well, they think so...
    thefaultinmylife thefaultinmylife 13-15, F 8 Responses Jul 3

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    Noiseless: Indepth Sz

    All my past storys have been from when my S/S started and until I was diagnosed. But I hadnt got to indepth about my SZ or the S/S I have from my SZ. Thats what im going to write about today. My schizophrenia changes frequently lately, or atleast the people I see do. Normally it...
    noiseless noiseless 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 27, 2012

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    Controversial Treatments

    I've read a few articles and have had people tell me to stop trust in God because he doesn't answer prayers. I found that God does always answer prayers, maybe not the way we want or even with the answer we want, but he does answer. Yes,no,or wait awhile. We will overcome by the...
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 21, 2012

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    My Inhuman Aberration, My Story.

    I joined experience project in hopes to find and meet people with schizophrenia. My reasoning for that is I come from a small town and feel rather isolated. I have been living with paranoid schizophrenia for a few years now. About 5 to be exact.....that's just diagnosed. I was...
    ksenger ksenger 26-30, F 4 Responses Apr 30, 2013

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    I Have A New Found Respect For People With Schizophrenia!

    A few years ago I experienced a prolonged drug induced psychosis as a result of a bad reaction to a prescribed medication. I can say that the experience was absolutely the most difficult time in my life. Trying to cope with my own thoughts and perceptions was an enormous daily...
    miles2gob4isleep miles2gob4isleep 56-60, F 4 Responses Jun 16, 2011

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    This is really really hard

    for me to confess, because no one else knows about this and I never went to the doctors or something, most likely because I like the way it is. So because I never went somewhere, I don't really know if it is really schizophrenia or something else. Well...inside me.. there's me...
    Sonaira95 Sonaira95 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    I heard voices for th first time today atleast

    to my knowledge, they were mostly muttering whispers and inaudible whispers so i couldnt tell what they were saying. It was pretty freeky in the moment i guess
    Ifeeluberish Ifeeluberish 18-21, M 6 Responses Mar 17

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    I Am New Here And Am Schizophrenic Since 1993.

    Hello. My name is Diana and I am schizophrenic since 1993. I am pretty much stable on my meds now but this wasn't always the case. It all started with the tv talking to me and me being scared out of my mind. I live in Tampa Florida since 1988 and the voices started in my head...
    ladydiana0824 ladydiana0824 46-50, F 3 Responses Oct 1, 2013

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    He won't leave me alone.

    That voice. Calling me horrible names that make me cry all night. One time I was sitting with this girl who I thought was my friend- she laughs at me all the time and calls me the same names that voice calls me. It's like no one can ever understand.
    BloodOnIce BloodOnIce 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 11

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    Schizophrenia??

    As a child i had no friends at all, i only had my beloved mother. At the age of 10 i began to experience severe bullying in school (daily beatings) this went on for 4 long and painful years. At age 12 i would purposely keep myself awake all night cos i realized that by staying...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Mar 15, 2012

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    Story Of Noiseless (the Rough Not So Well Written First Story)

    I am a girl, 19 my name is Melissa. I have schizophreniaI havnt always been soundless, and I do speak. Not to very many people but enough to enjoy life and a good conversation once in awhile. I am shy and I have alway been that way. I like reading fantasy books, painting, and...
    noiseless noiseless 18-21, F 7 Responses Sep 6, 2012

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    I have had my schizophrenia

    for years and I can't talk to people about it in person because they think I'm insane. Well I am but it doesn't mean I'm a different person than before. I have not told any of my family because they will want to get me help and I don't want help. They will just treat me...
    wonderland512 wonderland512 13-15, F 4 Responses Jul 7

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    My Reaction

    When I first experienced the positive symptoms of schizophrenia, I formulated my own explanation of what was happening to me. I called it psychopathy; therefore I considered myself a psychopath. My definition of a psychopath was someone who used other people's minds or psyche...
    ericsbat ericsbat 22-25 3 Responses Apr 20, 2009

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    As a small child, I remember hearing voices

    saying, "touch the hot stove. spill the boiling water on your mother." I remember how loud they were. There were only 2. By the time I was 12 there were about 30 different voices and not a single positive one. Most of them appeared after my brother and his friend tried to rape...
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 17

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    I have overcome Schizophrenia!

    !! Who the SON SETS FREE IS FREE INDEED.....From the moment I fell when I was 19----The voices told me that I sold my soul! I was redeemed! I had just fallen, I walked around my house in a lost and dazzed and confused state, I noticed that all of my clocks had stopped, every one...
    Jesusfoundme Jesusfoundme 31-35, F 5 Responses Apr 9

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    Paranoid Schizophrenia

    I was first hospitalized in a psych ward in 1980. After a week and a half I was released and from there was put in a house for schizophrenics. I was 19 years old. It was called Soteria House and was a world famous experiment where they didn't believe in medication and none of the...
    555calif 555calif 51-55, M 8 Responses Sep 4, 2010

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    I have Schizophrenia

    Hello. I have had Schizophrenia diagnosed for 9 years but really had it for like 15 years. It is very difficult and I would be more than happy to chat back and forth with poeple with life's problems. Here is a poem of how it started. I like to vent through poetry. Here...
    JoanofArc JoanofArc 41-45, F 9 Responses Jan 4, 2008

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    Can you ever get rid of this horrid disorder

    or is everyone destined to live with it forever?
    Ifeeluberish Ifeeluberish 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 1

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    Concrete Thinking: An Elusive And Silently Destructive Force

    Hello, "A rolling stone gathers no moss." "When the cat is away, the mice will play." After taking my psychological testing, I met with the psychologist after her evaluation of the test results. The psychologist informed me that my IQ had decreased, my abstract thinking had...
    CBH9 CBH9 41-45 Jul 19, 2012

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    Few Stories With Me And Schizophrenia

    *** I apologize ahead of time incase there is some vague spots about certain things due to well, quite frankly, I promised some of "those who can not be seen by others than, myself" that I would not share too much. But I will still share what I feel that I can and not anger them...
    Spookems Spookems 26-30, F 4 Responses Apr 4, 2013

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    I Do Too...

    I had my first episodes around 17 - 18...  Diagnosed as paranoid schizo. at first... but slowly but surely managed to ward off my ignorant parents and after a while left home to pursue these visions and dreams I had in my head...I am untreated upto this day and I am 23 now...
    JDean JDean 21-25, M 11 Responses Dec 17, 2007

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    Eighteen And Schizophrenic. Me.

    I see shadow-people, I hear voices both in and out of my head, I feel people touch me when they have not, I have multiple delusions but... most of the time, I'm still me. I am not in a constant belief of my delusions and sometimes, like now, I know they are complete lies. I...
    Tasser194 Tasser194 18-21 3 Responses Nov 2, 2012

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    when I was 14 my mother was raped

    and almost murdered this triggered an episode and at 16 I did Lsd Pot shrooms and had a second psychosis since that moment I decided that drugs opened up a can of worms for me and gave all that life away kinda withdrew I am still on ant-psychotic meds to this day but never had...
    Soroe Soroe 36-40, M Mar 20

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    Every time I close my eyes I see the same face.

    This disfigured one, with giant black holes where they eyes should be, or maybe they're shadows I don't know. Either way it's always there when I close my eyes, lit up against the black. It used to really scare me when it first appeared. Like a screamer every time I blinked too...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 16

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    I Wanted to Die.

    i wish i could say overcomming the episodes was easy, but it wasnt. it would come, and go. at leased the severity would. it started when i was a kid. maybe 9 or 10. i was popular before then, but yearned isolation. i had only one best friend and would stick with them. i always...
    BellaVara BellaVara 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 8, 2009

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    this may sound very wrong of me,

    but does anyone else get tired of people with depression and bipolar disorder acting like they are so much worse off than everyone else? Its not like they are talking to someone who has the most severe mental illness known to man...sorry if im wrong. I just get tired of going to...
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 17

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    I'm so afraid if I sleep I will never wake up.

    I can feel the demons grabbing me and I know if I lose my control for a second I'll be gone.
    YeahIKnowImSick YeahIKnowImSick 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 18

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    It all started back when I was young,

    When I was a little girl I was afraid of everything. I'd scream when a video would pop out of the VCR, and my mom couldn't even mow the lawn without me coming outside with her. I wanted to follow her around because I was terrified that something would happen to her. One of my...
    feliciablogger feliciablogger 22-25, F Aug 14

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    I lost my son because I didn't fight hard

    enough. He was taken from me and his sister because I couldn't handle the fight. What have I done?
    mandyownstimmy mandyownstimmy 26-30, F 3 Responses Jul 30

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    And I just finished my last group sessions

    so im out in the real world and looking for friends who also have schizophrenia to relate to
    vasquezd2 vasquezd2 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 19

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    Speaking with Norda today (not a real person,

    product of my psychosis) N: I hate this!! We're alone!! They (my friends) hate us!! Me: No, they don't Norda. N: I want to kill them all. I hate them. We've always been alone. Me: Norda you're being dramatic. N: YOU'RE alone too, you know. You've ALWAYS been alone. The...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    My New Friends! : )

    What my mind has given me is two friends that have guided me through tough times and I wish that I could show them to the people I care about most but I can't. These two are named Mary and Neil and they are brother and sister and my best friends. They came to me a little bit ago...
    Kaylayikes Kaylayikes 16-17, F 4 Responses Sep 4, 2013

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    I'm freaking out. I saw a picture of a open

    sore on Facebook about three weeks ago. It was so disturbing that I haven't been able to stop seeing it and I've been very paranoid that I'm going to get it because they said it was caused by the same shampoo I use. I later found out that it was photo shopped but that hasn't...
    ParanoidGirl ParanoidGirl 26-30 1 Response Jul 7

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    I hate this. I can't sleep.

    Why can't I sleep? Because I'm paranoid that my damn reflection is going to come out of the mirror and kill me if I look away too long. Is that logical? No. Reasonable? No. But I'm still scared, still can't sleep. This is bullcrap.
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 15

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    How I Overcame Schizophrenia :)

    Hi I was looking on the internet looking for somewhere to post my life story of how I beat Schizophrenia. And I found this site  I want to help people with Schizophrenia who aren't as well as me and to help them see that it can be beaten. I got Schizophrenia at age 14 my...
    v2rsz8qz0n v2rsz8qz0n 22-25 3 Responses May 31, 2010

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    I don't want to believe I do though,

    so I don't know what to think.....I mean I've never been diagnosed or anything. I constantly struggle with delusions though. I'm always confused over what's real. I could put that off and ignore it though, because I didn't experience hallucinations or paranoia or anything else...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 11

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    Just Need To Vent

    I was diagnosed with schizophrenia when I was 18. What was supposed to be the best time of my life was a nightmare I'll never be able to forget. The nightmare continues now into my twenties, and I see how this horrible disease has affected me mentally, emotionally, and...
    mkayx13 mkayx13 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 30, 2013

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    I havent been on in several months.

    After being hospitalized for a while, my diagnosis became debatable. At first they couldnt decide between paranoid schizophrenia or disorganized schizophrenia. After being in the hospital a little while longer, they changed my diagnosis to schizoaffective disorder bipolar type...
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 29

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    sweetsomnolence sweetsomnolence 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 16

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    I'm The Parent Of A Schizophenic Teen.

    It's just been one roller coaster after another.  It started a little over a year ago, when she was 16.  It was mostly confined to severe paranoia that people were talking about her or hated her.  Even strangers on the street, she would point them out and tell me they were...
    bostongirl51 bostongirl51 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 6, 2011

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    Part two of my experience: Now

    that I am older, things have gone downhill. I lost my mother a year and a half ago, and since her death I have gotten worse and worse. I hear new voices. And when I am off my medicine the voices are constant. I hear people's thoughts that aren't mine. Almost every week I wonder...
    feliciablogger feliciablogger 22-25, F 4 Responses Aug 14

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    The most confusing part is seeing things relate

    to you everywhere. Half the time it feels like something is toying with me. Some examples; Having a nightmare a demon raped me then waking up the next morning and hearing "Blurred Lines" for the first time ever on the radio. Do you even know how disturbing it is to wake up from...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 1

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    I'm very worried currently.

    Delusions have returned full force and I keep slipping in and out of awareness of them. My raised anxiety levels and low levels of sleep is bringing it all out. Lately I've become almost completely absorbed in fantasy. There are demons all around me, and they harass me while I'm...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 26

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    Schizophrenia - A Story Of Survival And Redemption

    I would like to start with a brief recap of my life leading up to my initial hospitalization and diagnosis, and then acceptance of Jesus Christ as my savior. I was born on September 5th, 1986 in Binghamton New York. I was raised in a Christian family, who took me to church up...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Nov 1, 2012

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