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I Have Schizophrenia

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    might have had some hallucinations last night.

    my disorganization is getting worse. apparently i am acting strange again. i did good to stay out of the hospital for the longest time. what if i have to go back? so confused
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 20, 2014

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    I can't even walk through the dark

    for 5 seconds without wanting to scream because I feel so paranoid something is going to pop out in front of me. Even when I have the lights on I still see them I still hear the screams and the calls for my name I still see you in the mirror even though when I turn around your...
    walljen92 walljen92 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 8

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    My life is like a roller coaster ride with all

    its sudden ups and downs, cliche but accurate.
    zarpanzur zarpanzur 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 14

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    Well, my aunt is the only living family member

    with schizophrenia. She asked how things were going and i told her about my doctors meeting and everything about the schizophrenia, her answer was that "she doesnt know much about it". I was hoping to finally have someone close to talk with about it but unfortunately not...
    EverythingAndAnything EverythingAndAnything 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 2

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    Just because you disappear

    when I look directly at you doesn’t mean I didn’t see you standing in my mirror, watching me. I’m going to ignore you making noises that no one else can hear. I won’t let you ruin the stable streak I’ve had for so long. This paranoia, these hallucinations, this...
    thereisnothingwrongwithyou thereisnothingwrongwithyou 22-25, F Jan 22

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    Noiseless: Indepth Sz

    All my past storys have been from when my S/S started and until I was diagnosed. But I hadnt got to indepth about my SZ or the S/S I have from my SZ. Thats what im going to write about today. My schizophrenia changes frequently lately, or atleast the people I see do. Normally it...
    noiseless noiseless 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 27, 2012

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    I got diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia in

    1980 when I was 19 years old. I have got treated with medication, therapy, vocational programs. and multiple hospitalizations. I didn't have many dreams of a life after I got out of high school. Maybe just a vague feeling that I would like to have a good job and be rich and...
    555calif 555calif 51-55, M 3 Responses Oct 11, 2014

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    I was in my aural skills class

    and they started making jokes about hallucinations. I was waiting for someone to come out with the word, "Schizo" like normally happens with ignorant people. Luckily it didn't. Then, I was just chillin and having a conversation with someone about schizophrenia and they started...
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F Feb 12

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    Just got diagnosed. My psychiatrist prescribed

    me abilify and so far, other then some drowsiness, I'm feeling pretty good. Most of my symptoms are fading, and I even find myself much less anxious. Life seems to be improving, my studies are even getting better. The diagnosis has been hard but I think I've found ways to cope...
    Knifeaddict Knifeaddict 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 1

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    The medicine is bad for me.

    I will not take it. I know the truth of what it is. It is mind control.
    Herrington Herrington 16-17 Apr 8

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    Schizophrenia??

    As a child i had no friends at all, i only had my beloved mother. At the age of 10 i began to experience severe bullying in school (daily beatings) this went on for 4 long and painful years. At age 12 i would purposely keep myself awake all night cos i realized that by staying...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Mar 15, 2012

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    Paranoid Schizophrenia

    I was first hospitalized in a psych ward in 1980. After a week and a half I was released and from there was put in a house for schizophrenics. I was 19 years old. It was called Soteria House and was a world famous experiment where they didn't believe in medication and none of the...
    555calif 555calif 51-55, M 8 Responses Sep 4, 2010

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    I decided to ignore the scratching inside the

    bed but it's still there. Taunting me....
    VeniceTheMenice VeniceTheMenice 31-35, F 5 Responses Jan 14

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    Schizophrenia:the Most Complex People In The World

    Firstly,I would like to say I am not ashamed. I am not ashamed because I believe having paranoid thoughs,ideas,imaginations does not make me a crazy. Society think they work on a one way street,but let me tell you that's not the case. Life is a limitless directional intersect...
    decasanova1 decasanova1 22-25, M 7 Responses May 5, 2011

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    Eighteen And Schizophrenic. Me.

    I see shadow-people, I hear voices both in and out of my head, I feel people touch me when they have not, I have multiple delusions but... most of the time, I'm still me. I am not in a constant belief of my delusions and sometimes, like now, I know they are complete lies. I...
    Tasser194 Tasser194 18-21 3 Responses Nov 2, 2012

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    Story Of Noiseless (the Rough Not So Well Written First Story)

    I am a girl, 19 my name is Melissa. I have schizophreniaI havnt always been soundless, and I do speak. Not to very many people but enough to enjoy life and a good conversation once in awhile. I am shy and I have alway been that way. I like reading fantasy books, painting, and...
    noiseless noiseless 18-21, F 7 Responses Sep 6, 2012

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    It runs in my family,

    my aunt is one of the people who have it, who is alive right now. I've so far been diagnosed with depression, ADD. Before i got "investigated" for ADD, my mother thought that it might be schizophrenia, i didn't even give it a secound thought but now, i think i might actually be...
    EverythingAndAnything EverythingAndAnything 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 23

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    He won't leave me alone.

    That voice. Calling me horrible names that make me cry all night. One time I was sitting with this girl who I thought was my friend- she laughs at me all the time and calls me the same names that voice calls me. It's like no one can ever understand.
    BloodOnIce BloodOnIce 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 11, 2014

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    There are many things inhabiting this body.

    One is here to observe and then act in a way that benefits as many people possible. It's here to fix something. One is just here to observe. One wants to kill things and have sex. One wants to have fun and be happy and doesn't really care about anything else. One doesn't...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F Apr 9

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    The past few days the symptoms have come back

    to quickly. I can't concentrate. Classes are horrible. People ask what is wrong and I say I can't focus. They are lk, "me too." I'm just like you don't even know. I told my teachers that I can't hear over the hallucinations, I can't remember anything, and I am trouble to focus...
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 15

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    anyone else get annoyed

    when people think people with schizophrenia are all murderers and need to be locked up? Or when they think we are demon possessed?
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 7, 2014

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    and am finding out in short order how much

    strength is associated and required, this damn illness hurts. I'm also a veteran and know a trick or two. I once thought that medication was nothing more than chemical restraint. Please, listen, this is an illness and can be treated as such. Yeah, maybe meds. Doesn't what you're...
    cavedweller2 cavedweller2 36-40, F Apr 14

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    Does anyone here have

    or know somone with schizophrenia who doesn't hallucinate at all except for maybe smells? Or you just hallucinate very little. I dont seem to find many people with it who dont hallucinate
    Ifeeluberish Ifeeluberish 18-21, M 3 Responses Feb 23

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    Anyone can share the link between schizophrenia

    and dementia. I am very concern with poor memory issue due to schizophrenia.
    Jochan Jochan 46-50, M Feb 23

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    do you ever wish others to be schizophrenic

    for just 1 day or week? i do. so they could understand what it is we go through. so they would quit with their ignorant talk and quit using words like "schizo" as negative adjectives...jw
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 7 Responses Dec 31, 2014

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    My Inhuman Aberration, My Story.

    I joined experience project in hopes to find and meet people with schizophrenia. My reasoning for that is I come from a small town and feel rather isolated. I have been living with paranoid schizophrenia for a few years now. About 5 to be exact.....that's just diagnosed. I was...
    ksenger ksenger 26-30, F 4 Responses Apr 30, 2013

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    I Do Too...

    I had my first episodes around 17 - 18...  Diagnosed as paranoid schizo. at first... but slowly but surely managed to ward off my ignorant parents and after a while left home to pursue these visions and dreams I had in my head...I am untreated upto this day and I am 23 now...
    JDean JDean 18-21, M 11 Responses Dec 17, 2007

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    Schizophrenia - A Story Of Survival And Redemption

    I would like to start with a brief recap of my life leading up to my initial hospitalization and diagnosis, and then acceptance of Jesus Christ as my savior. I was born on September 5th, 1986 in Binghamton New York. I was raised in a Christian family, who took me to church up...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Nov 1, 2012

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    I had Schizophrenia,

    when I was 19, I remember the wicked voices in my head, and the lack of sleep, and the reading about how there was no cure, I spent my time fighting for my life, and hiding the fact that I was crazy from everybody...I am happy to tell you that today at age 32 I no longer have...
    Jesusfoundme Jesusfoundme 31-35, F 9 Responses Aug 15, 2014

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    I'm so angry. I'm so very,

    very angry. EVERYTHING has been irritating me. Everything. Things that wouldn't normally. Any time I hear someone eat I want to punch them in the face. Any time someone tries talking to me I want to scream. Any time I'm in close proximity to another person I get incredibly...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 20

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    Doy You Feel Unreal

    I sometimes feel like I am not really real. That what is happening is like watching a TV show. That I am not a person. I am feeling it right now but I have felt like this for a few days. it comes and goes and sometimes frightens me.
    insanepoet84 insanepoet84 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 17, 2013

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    When I first started hearing them they

    inmatated voices I knew so I was confused to as when it actually started but then I started to think I was being stalked by people and they wouldn't leave me alone. They knew stuff about me and I even thought I was on some sick reality tv show and hoped for an end but it didn't...
    CopeWithMe CopeWithMe 22-25 Dec 22, 2014

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    keeps hearings voices of my own thoughts.

    ..getting very annoying....keeps on hearing "oh my god"
    danhdn74 danhdn74 36-40, M Feb 12

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    Keep Sharing

    I have noticed that there have been a lot of posts in this group lately... I just want to say how excited this makes me! It is so great that everyone feels comfortable enough to share their stories about such a subject... it isn't necessarily an easy subject to open up about...
    thereisnothingwrongwithyou thereisnothingwrongwithyou 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 7, 2013

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    Murmurs

    My case of schizophrenia is mild. I'm grateful that I don't have it as bad as some people. I don't know about other people but I don't hear voices too clearly. When things are quiet and I really pay attention, I can hear them. They are just faint murmurs in the background, like...
    AltF4 AltF4 22-25, M 2 Responses Sep 29, 2013

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    and I'm not violent or dangerous.

    I was experiencing the brunt of my illness for a year and a half (1996-1997). I committed one violent act that whole time. Take a year and a half out of anyone's life, and they very likely might have done one violent act. After I was getting better (c.1998), I was living in a...
    OqSydSchizo16 OqSydSchizo16 36-40, M 1 Response Mar 18

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    It seems like my school doesn't want to help me

    much when it comes to my schizophrenia. They just tell me, "maybe this major isn't for you." Unfortunatly, that is how the world is. Not everyone is going to help me just because i'm schizophrenic. I guess it comes down to choosing between equality or justice.
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 17

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    I have Schizophrenia

    Hello. I have had Schizophrenia diagnosed for 9 years but really had it for like 15 years. It is very difficult and I would be more than happy to chat back and forth with poeple with life's problems. Here is a poem of how it started. I like to vent through poetry. Here...
    JoanofArc JoanofArc 41-45, F 9 Responses Jan 4, 2008

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    Was practicing a new coping mechanism

    where I blatantly insult the demons/disrespect them, whatever to prove that nothing bad will happen and that I'm safe now. (Sort of like exposure therapy??) Anyways that ended up triggering the psychosis! Hooray! (Sarcasm) Anyways since that night I've had regular nightmares...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 4

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    My New Friends! : )

    What my mind has given me is two friends that have guided me through tough times and I wish that I could show them to the people I care about most but I can't. These two are named Mary and Neil and they are brother and sister and my best friends. They came to me a little bit ago...
    Kaylayikes Kaylayikes 16-17, F 5 Responses Sep 4, 2013

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    Does anyone have or dealt with schizophreniform?

    Mine has lasted 2 years but apparently that's not schizophrenia. I rarely hallucinate. But i have what I think might be a delusion that my thoughts are fragmented and split into thousands of pieces and my personality is broken because i cant communicate with people because i...
    Ifeeluberish Ifeeluberish 18-21, M 3 Responses Mar 6

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    Few Stories With Me And Schizophrenia

    *** I apologize ahead of time incase there is some vague spots about certain things due to well, quite frankly, I promised some of "those who can not be seen by others than, myself" that I would not share too much. But I will still share what I feel that I can and not anger them...
    Spookems Spookems 31-35, F 6 Responses Apr 4, 2013

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    I wanted to be in the marines.

    I can't because I am schizophrenic. I want to be a music educator. I can't because I am schizophrenic and cant hear the music over them. I'm not that smart and people don't seem to like me. No one pays me any mind.I am nothing special. I want to do something big and be apart of...
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 12

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    Its not a cake walk even

    though I've been fairly stable for over a decade, and I get disability payments. I still have very disorganized thought. I have a very hard time sorting through details in my life, and that causes bad anxiety, because I don't want certain details, which could be a lot of things...
    OqSydSchizo16 OqSydSchizo16 36-40, M 1 Response Jan 20

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    Controversial Treatments

    I've read a few articles and have had people tell me to stop trust in God because he doesn't answer prayers. I found that God does always answer prayers, maybe not the way we want or even with the answer we want, but he does answer. Yes,no,or wait awhile. We will overcome by the...
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 21, 2012

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    It is exhausting trying to keep my brain at bay.

    Mood swings and paranoia then dump on hallucinations… how am I supposed to focus on school? How am I expected to make studying a priority when I am just trying to keep my mind from imploding? Meds, sure, thanks for the not helpful advice. What about something that I can do?
    thereisnothingwrongwithyou thereisnothingwrongwithyou 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 25

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