I Have Severe Depression and Anxiety

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 931 People

    I am proud to say that I struggle

    and try my best to help myself,rather than complain,blame or annoy others.I handle myself no matter how tough it is.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Mar 28

    After years of being bulimia free,

    I'm gonna go on a crazy super binge now! XD
    BlueJinx BlueJinx
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 7

    I cannot seem to get back the feeling of

    anything resembling stability. For almost a year I was starting to feel okay. Days had become quite tolerable. I felt like I made a connection with myself and had a good relationship with my inner self, which helped my mood improve on many levels. I was learning new things about...
    LovelyCrazyStar LovelyCrazyStar
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Nov 11, 2015

    Does anyone else suffer from hyperhidrosis

    or excessive sweating? This is such a depressive condition to suffer from.
    pbarn pbarn
    31-35, M
    Jan 15

    So I'm back in my medication

    after about two weeks off it due to two psychotic episodes- I don't really want to be on any medication but I guess I have no choice! Let's see how things work out - things seem to be working out this month but that won't last I'll either destroy everything or the universe...
    lostneverfound lostneverfound
    26-30, F
    Jan 5

    Have you ever been so sad

    that you physically feel ill? I have.
    snowballcupcake snowballcupcake
    13-15, F
    1 Response Feb 16

    Ugh. I just want to be better.

    All I've ever wanted my entire life is to be better. I'm doing everything possible and, just when I start to feel a little better, depression sneaks up on me and makes me feel bad again. I'm tired. I'm completely drained of everything. I'm fighting and fighting, but sometimes I...
    AmayaTsuki AmayaTsuki
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Feb 18

    I Have Depression and Panic Attacks

    I have major depression, alot and start crying for no apparent reason. The other night I had an anxiety attack. I felt like my heart was going to jump right out of my chest, then I could not catch my breath and had a hard time breathjing. I thought I was going to die. Some days I...
    swatches swatches
    41-45, F
    6 Responses Jun 16, 2007

    again... I always try to explain myself the

    best way j can to people who don't get what I'm going thru. then I get sick and tired of repeating myself wen I've noticed I have to repeat myself each time.--when I try to explain myself again I either randomly lose track of what I was gonna say right in the middle of saying it...
    mentallyhigh mentallyhigh
    18-21, F
    Feb 27

    I hate talking about myself

    but I have a really bad problem with cracking under pressure and just always bein afraid of what complications life brings at me right now im trying to bring back trust with my pet iguana because I dont hold her enough I hold her whenever she wants out and shes also big and...
    aaronpayne aaronpayne
    22-25, M
    1 Response Sep 30, 2015

    The person who is primarily responsible

    for my panic attacks caused another hysterical tantrum inside our house this morning. My mother and I are the ones who have to take it all, always. From about 6am until 10pm just before we go to bed. My mother however, no matter how much I try to convince her, wants to move...
    BlueJinx BlueJinx
    26-30, F
    Apr 6

    Hi all i just want to reach out to somebody else

    because i dont have anyone to talk to, im 27 years old and im 35 weeks pregnant i have very severe depression and anxiety i want to kill myself most days but the only reason i go on is because i dont want my babies without a mother i love them so much but im suffering i dont...
    Sadmama88 Sadmama88
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jan 25

    So i tried to commit suicide.

    To be honest I didn't panic... the thought was nice. I don't wish to condone it, I'm glad I'm alive I guess. But for those few dying hours, it was bliss.
    TheUrge21 TheUrge21
    22-25, M
    Jul 21, 2015

    My depression is my most reliable companion.

    No matter what I achieve on any given day, no matter how far I've come in reaching my goals, it's always there whispering bitter nothings into my ear. I've come out as trans and long since started my transition, I'm dating the only person I've met who unfailingly makes me feel...
    SourPennies SourPennies
    22-25, F
    Jan 19, 2015
    BlueJinx BlueJinx
    26-30, F
    1 Response Dec 16, 2015

    I hate that the cloud of depression follows me

    everywhere. Even when I'm in a good place I still have thoughts of suicide. The gun always sounds good. I manage myself better now but it's still sucks that I'll always be cracked.
    BrokenNOTcracked BrokenNOTcracked
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 6

    I just told my mom that I started therapy.

    Her response was pretty much what I expected. The last time I talked to my parents about my depression was when I was 12. I told them I was suicidal, they took me to a doctor who prescribed me medications that made me feel worse than I did before, then I started therapy for a...
    AmayaTsuki AmayaTsuki
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 4

    I realize that people can't read minds,

    eventough u show them expression,they won't be able to understand till u speak it up to them.they are there to help.speak up ppl!
    weejian weejian
    18-21, M
    Feb 7, 2015

    My therapist wants me to document my anxiety -

    sort of just keeping a log of every time I feel it and what the symptoms are. I've told her how I feel anxious all the time - even when I'm just sitting at home with nothing going on - so we're trying to get to the bottom of what exactly is happening with me. She thinks it's not...
    AmayaTsuki AmayaTsuki
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 22

    I wanted to write this 1 to get it off my back

    and 2 the few people i talk to on here can see and so you can see why i dont always answer what im going through and what not I feel like a mess up most day's i don't know why i just do! i feel anxious all the time and it can be about the world ending or is my husband okay whats...
    sweety7268 sweety7268
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jul 9, 2015

    I've been crying so much lately.

    I guess that's good. I spent so much of my life not feeling anything, so crying is good. It's not fun, but at least it's a feeling. I just feel so insane. I know I'm not literally insane, but my anxiety is so bad that I sometimes feel crazy. It has been bad for so long. I have...
    AmayaTsuki AmayaTsuki
    26-30, F
    1 Response Dec 26, 2015

    I won't share my story

    because I physically can't share my story. Despite how many times I type it, I can never manage to press send. However, I can say this. Having one, I can manage, but both at the same time is a special kind of hell. One that makes you think that you can't get out of it. One that...
    faeriefate faeriefate
    22-25
    Jan 2

    I'm currently having a mild panic attack in

    class. Panic attacks are always awful, but it's even worse when you're stuck in a social situation during one. I'm trying to focus on regulating my breathing and steadying my heart race. Panic attacks tend to make other people freak out too, which only makes it worse, so I'm...
    AmayaTsuki AmayaTsuki
    26-30, F
    Feb 1

    its insane how i always find myself in this

    position, taking care of others while trying to keep myself from falling apart. i try not to always become a therapist to my friends but i cant escape that, it seems. i just wish my efforts actually paid off but im so afraid that things are just going to hell once again. why is...
    hollowmirage hollowmirage
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 7

    Just had a panic attack at work.

    It started out small - an increased heart rate and a little heavy breathing. I tried to calm down, but I just couldn't get it under control. I had to leave and, once I got into my car, I completely lost control. I've always had panic attacks, but they've become more frequent...
    AmayaTsuki AmayaTsuki
    26-30, F
    Feb 13

    No one can help me...

    . Therapist sucks..... Medication doesnt work....
    SmoothSuicide SmoothSuicide
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jun 2, 2014

    after 7 years of this slow dying process i have

    just realised that this is the kind of an illness that never goes away. you just become more or less ill. i never wanted my life to turn out like this and i dont know if it'll be worth it to continue if this hell really never ends.
    hollowmirage hollowmirage
    18-21, F
    Jan 2

    My parents found out.

    After all my hard work of careful planning, I ****** up and they found out. They didn't think "oh that's okay, it's good you found help." They instead got very angry as they have done previously and told me I was being "dramatic". I don't need it and I need to stop with the crap...
    kozmiccbluez kozmiccbluez
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Nov 18, 2014

    I'm taking it one day at a time,

    one step at a time.
    NaomiSunshineJourney NaomiSunshineJourney
    31-35, F
    Feb 27

    I was just diagnosed with

    both about two months ago...... Things got bad when my dad passed away, and after I lost my job, it got progressively worse. I am constantly crying, I shut everyone out, I feel like the world is caving in on me.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jan 7

    Honestly I didn't acknowledge

    or accept it for a long time. Not until it finally got me and nearly crippled me. I've gotten better I think. But there are still bad days, there are always bad days. But a friend near and dear to me, she has a mantra, "better days are coming", and it's honestly helped me...
    Grant0306 Grant0306
    18-21, M
    2 Responses May 15, 2015

    Should I explain to people

    that I have panic attacks? This might sound like a silly question but I'm so confused and inexperienced. I'm wondering how other people choose whether to open up to others or just keep quiet about it? I guess this only applies to people who have panic attacks often, not just...
    BlueJinx BlueJinx
    26-30, F
    Nov 17, 2015

    My friend asked me today how I was.

    I said I feel better and more myself- I even smiled while walking down the road. It's a shame that didn't last! It happened though! I actually smiled I forgot what that felt like. Now I'm here in my hell, my down my hole. I'm used to it but in fed up and tired of this hole...
    lostneverfound lostneverfound
    26-30, F
    Dec 27, 2015

    I can never forget the time i had an attack.

    When I was 6 or 7 years old, me and my brother were at church with my mom and dad. We sat in the rows and listened to the preacher. After that the loud music started. Then it happend. I had an attack, i was worrying over something for whatever reason.....
    TylerAndTrevor TylerAndTrevor
    13-15, M
    3 Responses Aug 30, 2015

    Do you know how painful it is to punch a

    concrete wall so hard that your knuckles crack and bleed? Do you know that it's not normal for someone to be this angry? Do you know that you are the reason why I'm so angry and have no hope in life?
    BlueJinx BlueJinx
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 6

    I'm beginning to wonder

    if I'm even capable of having a "normal" life (normal being subjective, of course). I try to go about my day, doing things that everyone else does, but it never goes according to plan. I'm seeing a therapist and talking to her is great, but I'm not any better. I decided to go...
    AmayaTsuki AmayaTsuki
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 2

    Today marks my first day on

    anti-depressants/anti-anxiety meds. I was taking anti-depressants years ago, when I was first diagnosed at 13, and the side effects were too much for me to handle, so I stopped. Now that I know what to expect, I'm hoping I'll be able to handle it a bit better. The doctor started...
    AmayaTsuki AmayaTsuki
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Mar 17

    I should've been up 20 minutes ago.

    But my anxiety is so bad in the mornings. I'm still trying to force myself to get up and "try life" today. It's exhausting!!!!
    cantblyfe cantblyfe
    36-40, F
    1 Response Apr 20

    I fight depression and anxiety every day.

    .. too much to go into but this distressing feeling overwhelms me at times and its sure agony... I just woke up, didn't sleep well and am anxious and crying for all my issues....I know, self pity is negative and pathetic but sometimes I just can’t help it…. I am also grateful...
    sweetsarah68 sweetsarah68
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Oct 10, 2015

    I am a black hole. I avoid my roommates

    because I don't want to annoy/bring them down. A little background I moved from my home state to try live on my own. I have known one of my roommates since elementary school and reconnected her with around my college years (I'm 28 now) The other one I sort of get along with...
    escapismdream escapismdream
    26-30, F
    1 Response Dec 26, 2015
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Dec 17, 2015

    My depression is incredibly bad today.

    I was doing well for awhile, but today it came back in full force. The worst part is I'm stuck in class all day when all I want to do is curl up on the couch and cry. Crying usually helps me feel better, so it really hurts when I can't let it out. I'm currently hiding out in the...
    AmayaTsuki AmayaTsuki
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Dec 1, 2015

    *attractive girl that isn't diagnosed with

    depression* "Oh my god, I hate my life. I'm going to cut myself :(" *posts pictures of self crying* Everyone: "oh my god, I'm so sorry! If you need anything I'm here for you! You're so beautiful and perfect you don't need to be depressed!" *someone with actual diagnosed...
    RicksRightNip420 RicksRightNip420
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Oct 15, 2015

    I've made an appointment with a GP tomorrow

    morning and I'm going to ask her to give me some Ativan or anything that I can use to keep my panic attacks at bay. I've tried everything from drinking water to breathing techniques, yoga and counseling but my panic attacks won't go away. These panic attacks have disabled me...
    BlueJinx BlueJinx
    26-30, F
    Apr 4

    Scared of talking to people about my issues

    and when I do they think I'm doing it for attention, I cut myself and cry for no reason at all, people laugh at me, look at me weirdly and make me feel unwelcome, I'm so fed up. Not even my best friends know I do this, I doubt they would care anyway.
    AlexFord97 AlexFord97
    18-21, M
    1 Response Nov 19, 2014

    I cant even stand outside my school without

    having a panic attack. I never want to go outside, i try and hide myself and ive became super self concious. Anxiety sucks, all because of my abusive dad. ffs.
    james13456 james13456
    18-21, M
    May 13, 2015

    If you are suicidal, please get help

    if you can't find help within yourself. But, please, do not seek help from your teenage friends, especially if they struggle with their own issues. Please please please. Not only are you being subjected to the hurtful things your brain says to you, you subject others to it. You...
    junipersun21 junipersun21
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 12, 2015

    I will take life one step at a time.

    I've finally realized that there is no point in rushing things. It's all about moving forwards, just a bit by bit each day.
    BlueJinx BlueJinx
    26-30, F
    Feb 2

    I don't care about my anxiety

    or depression anymore. They haven't gone away or anything. I'm just done thinking about this stuff all the time. I need to start living my life.
    BlueJinx BlueJinx
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Nov 18, 2015

    "You are strong for getting out of bed in the

    morning when it feels like hell. You are brave for doing things, even though they scare you or make you anxious. And you are amazing for trying and holding on, no matter how hard life gets. So, I hope you're proud of yourself. You deserve it." These are not my words, but...
    AmayaTsuki AmayaTsuki
    26-30, F
    Jan 25

    Well I just typed up this long *** block

    and I lost it sigh. I feel so alone and empty. I am nearing 30 and am nowhere near where I thought I would be. I thought I would have my **** together by now. I live with two of my roommates/friends in a different state. In the past two years I moved to another state to try...
    escapismdream escapismdream
    26-30, F
    1 Response Dec 24, 2015
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