I Have Some Bad Childhood Memories

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    Up until recently, all of my best friends have

    been male. I never gave it a lot of thought. I just figured I liked guys better. When things were first becoming very bad with me and my ex, a woman who I was friends with started wanting to talk about what was going on in my life and I completely shut her out and stopped...
    TKD1 TKD1
    51-55, F
    1 Response Feb 5, 2014

    Yes, I do and many of them I have repressed,

    because I don't want to remember them.
    moondiva moondiva
    36-40, F
    Apr 20

    I Wish I Have A Better Childhood Memory....

    I had a rough childhood. I don't have many best memories during my high school. I was not the popular girl in school. In fact i was more of the laughing stalk. I am different from the average girl here. I am tall, and i mean really tall and huge girl compared to the average girls...
    iy85 iy85
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Sep 28, 2013


    So yesterday I had a flashback..I am actually trying to bring back some bad memories that I can't remember, it's like my brain is hiding them from me..they are vanished...I don't know if I have post traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), I just can't remember some of those so called...
    sparkydream sparkydream
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Sep 30, 2013

    He Was Slowly Dying, I Couldn'T Help

    A couple weeks ago he was killing himself. I was home alone and we were on the phone and he said he was cutting. I start to cry and I notice that I can hear him stab himself repeatedly. Crying over the phone uncontrollably, he told me to stop crying. I can tell by the way his...
    21nee 21nee
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 27, 2013

    There are two memories I can't get out of my

    head. And I've never told anyone about them because they're that terrifyingly shocking. I was just confused when I was a kid and tried to tell people but no one would really listen, but as I grew up the extremity of what I'd see had began to dawn on me. Several times it's felt...
    Mariyah22 Mariyah22
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Dec 25, 2014

    My Darkness

    I have wanted to put down the story of my life for a while now. Most of it was out of my control so I take no blame for it but...there were some things that I bear some responsibility. Mom...yeah well...my mom was...and still is a drug addict. The pictures you see at the...
    deleted deleted
    8 Responses Feb 25, 2013

    this is me. damaged, broken me.

    there nothing special about me, im just an average women trying to muddle through life with ease. i was always a 'strange' child according to people, but they never dove deeper to find out why, i was just labelled, bullied and isolated. i didn't have a normal childhood in fact i...
    littlemiss052014 littlemiss052014
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Jul 3, 2014

    I have a lot if bad childhood memories I was

    forced to live through. All it would have taken was for a single person to tell Me it wasn't my fault and my whole childhood would have been different. So please, pass this post on to any child you might know, even if they are living in good conditions: If someone responds to...
    QuestionMarks QuestionMarks
    41-45, F
    1 Response Nov 7, 2015

    Just thinking about it.

    . Makes me feel sad every time...
    EndlessDreams22 EndlessDreams22
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Feb 16, 2014

    When I was at the elementry school,

    my mom threw a birthday party for me. I invited my friends from school. On the day of the party, the house was full of balloons and decoration. I remember the cake and the food that my mom made for everybody. I waited and waited but nobody came to my party. Every year at my...
    Tedybearhug Tedybearhug
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Apr 20, 2014

    Most Embarrassing Moment Ever!

    Here I am, around 7 or 8 years old, and in elementary school. This week was the week we took our achievement tests(way before the f-cats they take now.The teacher passed out the first of the tests for that day, gave instructions, and reminded us there was to be COMPLETE silence...
    deleted deleted
    5 Responses Aug 15, 2013

    I grew up in a broken household.

    From a young age I knew that my mother and father hated each other and I knew that it was my fault that they were still together. I witnessed acts of violence against each other and knew deep down that our little family was broken and not like other families. To save me from...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Mar 3, 2014

    issit considered "normal,

    happy" childhood? I remember the first weeks in kindergarten, primary school...its common for kids to feel frightened in a totally new environment..but even up til my first day in secondary school( age 13), I insisted my mother to accompany me to school on first few days...
    sommersjo sommersjo
    36-40, F
    Nov 3, 2015

    Resentfully captive, they simmer.

    Biding time and seeking release. Fermenting sickness in rising heat.
    Intotheunknown Intotheunknown
    46-50, F
    1 Response Aug 4, 2015

    When I was 8 my sister was born

    and my mom had really bad postpartum depression .She would constantly hit me and she never tended to me ,I basically raised myself .I resent her for not getting the help she needed .It hurts because I cannot forgive her I have so much anger towards her .I love her but the...
    jcat09 jcat09
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 19, 2015

    The uncle I suspect of raping me died this

    Monday... And memories started to haunt me again. All the things I keep inside... Most of them are about my grandmother. He used to live at her place and somehow his death brought it back... I need to get rid of it... Things I have never told or told only to the closest friends...
    Mellangela Mellangela
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Jan 24, 2015

    I loved him. But I hated him once.

    Now I love him again. What if that event did not happen? What if he were always the same kind father? Would I have become who I am today? I don’t care about these questions anymore because I am proud what I’ve become. “Everything is about you, Dad” My father was not only...
    dreamhigh23 dreamhigh23
    18-21, F
    Apr 7
    alexsomebody alexsomebody
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Aug 13, 2015

    From the age of 5 till I was 16,

    I was mentally raped physically abused degraded molested. 9 therapists later tell me it's you were in the wrong place at the wrong time, then tell me it's not my fault. Now my whole outlook on life. Is totally f.cked. I know that not all people are horrid monsters. So...
    socalsissi socalsissi
    36-40, T
    3 Responses Feb 26, 2014
    masterLLL masterLLL
    56-60, M
    2 Responses Aug 9, 2015

    So I was talking to my friend yesterday

    and I realized that I was never hugged as a kid. Idk I just didn't. Any memory I do have of hugs It was because my parents did something stupid and were saying sorry for something they would do again the next day but I was too pissed and trying to avoid the alcohol and cigarette...
    SkollHati SkollHati
    18-21, M
    5 Responses Dec 30, 2014

    My "mom" and "dad" tried to blame their drug

    and alcohol use and going to jail on me. Just like I blame my problems now on them. :)
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Sep 12, 2015

    I Hate You

    Ever since i was a child i was abused by my father not only me but my brothers as well. I remember my father draging me by the head of my hair and hitting my brothers with those aluminum brooms you can buy at any store and leaving bruse's all over them.There where many times that...
    bubbleso0o bubbleso0o
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Oct 18, 2011

    Story(s)? I look up

    as a man enters the hottub. Why does he have to come in? Now I can't play with my noodle! I think bitterly. I sigh, resigning to the side of the tub and tossing my noodle up on the deck next to my new underwater skateboard. "Hi." he says. I look up, noticing that he looks...
    zydeko zydeko
    Mar 4, 2015

    What's with people judging kids on here?

    You think because of the age difference they didn't have a bad experience or are right now!!! Judgmental ***** who come on here to make them feel worse ain't been through enough to understand anything! Leave them alone and deal with your own ****!!!
    SaintShoot SaintShoot
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Aug 5, 2015

    Childhood Chains That Bind Me

    Just had a memory pop into my head. I was 10 years old and I was brushing my hair in front of the mirror in Mum and Dad's room (our room, my sis and I, never had a mirror). My older brother Danny walks in and says "boys don't look at you because you are pretty, they look at you...
    Xenajet Xenajet
    36-40, F
    1 Response Aug 2, 2012

    I know i have had a bad childhood

    but if someone came up to me and told me i could change it i wouldn't take that chance. My past has made me who i am today. I am a person who who respects, never judges, and doesn't give a damn about what people think. My past has broken me but also made me the strongest i could...
    Jewels2145 Jewels2145
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Feb 1, 2014

    Foster Home Yo-yo

    My parents and older sister died in an auto accident when I was ten years old.  My parents had no real family they spoke of (when I finally looked them up, I can see why they never stayed in contact), so I was shuffled from different foster care homes.  One family was...
    winecaddyman winecaddyman
    51-55, M
    3 Responses Sep 2, 2011

    Even though I am still a child/ adolescent it

    has been like a roller coaster. When my Mom was pregnant with me, my dad had left and when I was 3 I would keep on asking where my daddy was because all my friends had one and I didn't even know what one was. My mom lost her temper with me and slapped me, I cried and got...
    13-15, F
    1 Response Feb 28

    I was 6 years old, playing at the bottom of the

    stairs at my house, when I saw my morbidly obese aunt slouch to the top of the stairs and step on my Thomas the Tank Engine. Her fat *** flew into the air, bounced off the bannister and instead of rolling down the stairs, actually crashed THROUGH the staircase and dropped into...
    jasonBK1 jasonBK1
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Mar 28

    I have had a lot of good childhood memories,

    but whenever someone ask's me to tell them a story about my childhood, only bad memories come up first, and I actually have to think about a good one that happened... I don't know why my bad childhood memories are the first to pop into my head... I automatically remember how...
    PsychGirl94 PsychGirl94
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 24, 2014

    I was 5 years old when I promised myself I

    would never try methamphetamine. Like most nights I woke up and couldn't get back to sleep so I went in my grandma's room and laid in her bed. That never failed. I'm not sure what time it was when the phone rang and woke the both of us up. She was worried because bad news...
    SapphicMinion SapphicMinion
    5 Responses Dec 30, 2014

    Childhood Lost

    I'm a 23 year old woman and my childhood was taken from me. I was only 8 years old when I was forced into adulthood. I've gone through so much negativity that my memory has gone. Unfortunately, the only memories I have left from my "childhood" are only the bad ones. (My dad never...
    skyyalexxis skyyalexxis
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Nov 13, 2013

    When I think of my childhood,

    I realise that a lot of things scared me as a kid, specially at night, no wonder I turned out to be that paranoid person. My mind often visualized a lot of things, created scenarios and made me believe them. For example, I remember that I would hear every night sounds coming...
    MissGaga MissGaga
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 18

    Pretty much everyday I have to deal with the

    consequences of your actions that have a big impact on my life. Maybe you are finding it hard at times, possibly more than what I think but I feel I'm the one left in a rut while you get on with life. I want answers but I know I'll never ask, I wouldn't be able to face it, I'd...
    lovetodraw19 lovetodraw19
    18-21, F
    May 14, 2015

    I just found an old journal of mine.

    I had to be 15 or 16 years old. I was a tortured soul to say the least. After reading it no wonder I'm so much of a loner. In the beginning it's me trying to be friends with people put getting rejected or used. It talks about how ugly I am and how stupid I am. I started to...
    solojo solojo
    31-35, M
    3 Responses Aug 15, 2015

    Nothing ever happened to me.

    Watched other kids laugh and play without me as a kid. Watched my best friend ruin himself on drugs and crime throughout my teens. Watched my family fall apart when I was young. Watched my crushes find someone else. Watched my life and future slip through my fingers. It's...
    Vumsy Vumsy
    22-25, M
    Dec 25, 2014

    My whole childhood is built on drugs,

    mothering my sister, being the one to make sure everything's okay, and being the strong one. Memories of my childhood aren't all bad. I have happy memories but my mind always replays the bad ones, but I guess you remember the bad more than the good, altleast that's what I do. My...
    Flower124 Flower124
    Aug 16, 2015

    My name is Alfredriq,

    I'm from Hempstead,Ny and still live there to this day,my father on the other hand,left me and my mom when I was 5 years old,see he gave up to easily,from thereon my mom had to raise me for all of those years.See I was 17,when I went to Hempstead Union Free School District,while...
    AlfredriqDeAndrew AlfredriqDeAndrew
    18-21, M
    1 Response Feb 29

    I think about my childhood every day,

    not a day go by that i don't think about during some part of the day. idk why i keep thinking about it. yeah i have a lot of bad memories their not going any where. i have some good ones too. but the bad out weigh the good.
    56-60, M
    3 Responses Jan 3

    What Did I Do That Was Soo Wrong???

    I remember when I was younger....maybe around the ages of 8-10 I was sent to my room and my mother followed in with a belt. I remember laying in my bed clutching the covers over me as she repeatedly hit me with the belt. anywhere and everywhere...Both her and my stepfather...
    daysh24 daysh24
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Dec 10, 2011

    "silence Makes The Victim"

    you make yourself the victim when your silenced by the shame always carry your head held high because your not to blame nothing that has happened to you can take away from who you are any pain that you have felt will only leave faded scar now its time for courage now its time...
    firefly21 firefly21
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Sep 16, 2011

    Has anyone as a child experimented with the

    same sex? I was about 6 or 7 years old. I knew what I was doing but I did it anyway. I am completely heterosexual now. Not that it's wrong or anything it's just bothers me, after all these years I still remember it. Is this normal? Anyone else done this?
    Usernamesimpleman Usernamesimpleman
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Mar 4, 2015

    My First Memory

    My first memory is from I think I was 3 or early 4... I'm walking through a dark room, a basement or a larger bath or wash room. I only have a shirt on but it's ripped and my body feels cold. I'm dirty and don't understand why I can't hold it in, why my butt hurts so bad, even...
    NoatoNoaki NoatoNoaki
    18-21, M
    12 Responses May 22, 2011

    It's not as big as the other story in the group

    I guess, but it's kind of big for me. I was 5 years old expecting I was going to watch disney movie about bunch of squirrels singing and dancing with my older cousins which turned out to be it was a bloody gruesome zombie movie. Yes, it's a zombie. I grew up with a fear of that...
    Sonoluminescence Sonoluminescence
    Oct 10, 2015

    At the age of 8 I was removed from my home.

    I was forced to move in with my Aunt who I never got along with. She was my evil step mom from the start. Well yesterday I got to see my cousin who was like my brother and my aunt who was lik a mom to me and the rest of my family for the first time sense I was 8 well my cousin...
    JayKnotz JayKnotz
    16-17, F
    Jul 24, 2014

    My mom and dad were both drug addicts

    and alcoholics. I lived in a bad neighborhood with not many friends. Birthdays and Christmases were basically non existent for me. The day I turned 18 I left home and haven't been back since.
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Jul 25, 2015

    Does anyone here have experience being the kid

    that was covered in freckles? I did and it was not fun!
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Aug 17, 2015

    Just got done downloading 78 solid color anime

    wallpapers. They are really nice to look at. I have them set on a slide show to change every minute. Can you believe that? 78 different colors with 78 different waifus. But my two military parents do not approve. They would rather have me wearing combat boots than wasting my...
    jasonBK1 jasonBK1
    18-21, M
    Apr 3

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    Well... its time. In like 3 hours this site will be dead. I'll be trying out some other sites, mainly Ex2 and Experience Again when they open up, so if you want to contact me, I'll...
    LysChan LysChan
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 21
    I always hold my hands together... My fingers interlocked between each other, occasionally I will gently rub the back of my hand with a finger and tighten my grip should I become...
    KikFindme12thNumber KikFindme12thNumber
    22-25, M
    Apr 21
    Second experience: I'm about 14, at a park with my dad. I was standing beside a road waiting for my dad to catch up so we could cross it. A car with a couple guys in it drive by...
    ShadowCat1988 ShadowCat1988
    26-30, F
    Apr 20
    In the middle of the journey of life, I came to myself within a dark wood where the straight way was lost. -Dante I may have lost myself somewhere along this long road home, or...
    KikFindme12thNumber KikFindme12thNumber
    22-25, M
    Apr 20
    We are a desi couple and I am the husband here. Have been here earlier and had some good interaction with people and friends here. Since EP is closing, I would like to connect...
    Desicouplefun Desicouplefun
    46-50, M
    Apr 20
    And finally, I will mention Barbara Welling. She was the President of the Communication Workers of America local in Reno, Nevada when I was unjustly fired and discriminated against...
    EdwardKellner EdwardKellner
    41-45, M
    Apr 19
    if anyone wants to add me on another site, I'm on vent, applies to me, and relate to that. just let me know if you want my info. can't believe it's really closing.
    CallmeHopelessNotRomantic CallmeHopelessNotRomantic
    36-40, F
    4 Responses Apr 19
    Ok so when did people get the idea that it's ok to compare your life someone else's. Hmm? Just because I am not out there, homeless and starving with no clothes on my back does not...
    HeadInTheCloudz HeadInTheCloudz
    13-15, F
    1 Response Apr 19
    What I am saying about AT&T on EP today is true. It really happened to me and this picture is really me.
    EdwardKellner EdwardKellner
    41-45, M
    Apr 19
    CWA in Reno, Nevada failed to properly represent me when I was unjustly fired and discriminated against by AT&T.
    EdwardKellner EdwardKellner
    41-45, M
    Apr 19
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