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I Have Some Bad Childhood Memories

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    I'm the youngest in my family,

    I've 2 elder sisters and I'm really thankful to have them. Up till now, my parents are still not sparing a thought for us.. :( They always gamble although we are already very poor. Have not supported me through my education thus I still owe a debt of $6k+. Even though I wanna...
    sweetlittlemess sweetlittlemess 22-25, F Feb 12

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    I wish I could have had someone to hug me

    and tell me everything was gonna be all right as I got older, but instead I suffered thinking the scars inside would never heal. Now I have scars on the outside too. If only I had someone back then... :(
    Boo37 Boo37 13-15, F Mar 30

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    My mom drank through my entire childhood

    and would take me to house parties and lock me in the bathroom or get anyone she could to babysit me. Including disgusting men. I was molested multiple times. I was never fed properly or dressed/bathed properly. I had to learn to do everything myself, I lived on dry cereal and...
    Purplesloths Purplesloths 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 14

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    There are some things

    that I hate to remember about my childhood, and it pains me to recall them but they've made me who I am today and I'm good with that
    misternobrain misternobrain 22-25, M 2 Responses Jan 9

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    Angry Childhood Memory

    One of the bad things I did when I was about 7 or 8 my family and I were at church and I was angry at my mum don't remember why but I got her keys for the car and hid it inside the hall under the chair so after church my mum was asking around for her keys and everyone from church...
    realme12 realme12 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 2, 2013

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    When I was at the elementry school,

    my mom threw a birthday party for me. I invited my friends from school. On the day of the party, the house was full of balloons and decoration. I remember the cake and the food that my mom made for everybody. I waited and waited but nobody came to my party. Every year at my...
    Tedybearhug Tedybearhug 26-30, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Being Unwanted

    Since birthday people says that you are a gift to your parents...is it a lie or truth? Since my childhood I've always been tossed around between my mother, grandmother, and great grandmother...sad isn't it? Throughout my 21 years of life I'm always been tossed around to live...
    theunwantedloner theunwantedloner 22-25, F 5 Responses Nov 2, 2013

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    What Did I Do That Was Soo Wrong???

    I remember when I was younger....maybe around the ages of 8-10 I was sent to my room and my mother followed in with a belt. I remember laying in my bed clutching the covers over me as she repeatedly hit me with the belt. anywhere and everywhere...Both her and my stepfather...
    daysh24 daysh24 22-25, F 5 Responses Dec 10, 2011

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    I Hate You

    Ever since i was a child i was abused by my father not only me but my brothers as well. I remember my father draging me by the head of my hair and hitting my brothers with those aluminum brooms you can buy at any store and leaving bruse's all over them.There where many times that...
    bubbleso0o bubbleso0o 26-30, F 2 Responses Oct 18, 2011

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    Daddys Gone...

    My parents got divorced right when i turned 5. So i had to spend a week at each parents house. My dad lived in a bottom floor, 2 bedroom apartment with my Uncle Hans. We shared a room, while my uncle got one to himself. Well, one night i woke up from a bad dream. I was scared. I...
    Bry24 Bry24 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 24, 2013

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    As far as I can go through my childhood

    memories I can remember the first one… just feeling… fear. My childhood was full of it. Scared of dark, of sleeping in my own bed, of dark corners and shadows and silent sounds around. Can remember myself trembling in my bed, trying to blend into the wall, disappear. I...
    Mellangela Mellangela 26-30, F Apr 11

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    Flashback

    So yesterday I had a flashback..I am actually trying to bring back some bad memories that I can't remember, it's like my brain is hiding them from me..they are vanished...I don't know if I have post traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), I just can't remember some of those so called...
    sparkydream sparkydream 16-17, F 7 Responses Sep 30, 2013

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    Scrubber

    i was systematically beaten and neglected by my parents for the majority of my childhood. we were locked in our room all day with nothing to eat or drink and no where to go toilet! i don't know what was worse,  being beaten or listening helplessly to my poor little brother...
    nickie73 nickie73 36-40, F 3 Responses Aug 3, 2009

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    He Was Slowly Dying, I Couldn'T Help

    A couple weeks ago he was killing himself. I was home alone and we were on the phone and he said he was cutting. I start to cry and I notice that I can hear him stab himself repeatedly. Crying over the phone uncontrollably, he told me to stop crying. I can tell by the way his...
    21nee 21nee 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 27, 2013

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    Up until recently, all of my best friends have

    been male. I never gave it a lot of thought. I just figured I liked guys better. When things were first becoming very bad with me and my ex, a woman who I was friends with started wanting to talk about what was going on in my life and I completely shut her out and stopped...
    TKD1 TKD1 46-50, F 3 Responses Feb 5

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    My First Memory

    My first memory is from I think I was 3 or early 4... I'm walking through a dark room, a basement or a larger bath or wash room. I only have a shirt on but it's ripped and my body feels cold. I'm dirty and don't understand why I can't hold it in, why my butt hurts so bad, even...
    NoatoNoaki NoatoNoaki 18-21, M 13 Responses May 22, 2011

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    I know i have had a bad childhood

    but if someone came up to me and told me i could change it i wouldn't take that chance. My past has made me who i am today. I am a person who who respects, never judges, and doesn't give a damn about what people think. My past has broken me but also made me the strongest i could...
    Jewels2145 Jewels2145 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 1

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    Stolen From Me.

    I feel like my childhood was taken away from me. Its not fair I don't have any good memories to look back on just painful constant abuse. People tell me that it always gets worse before it gets better. I don't know if I believe that anymore. Its been bad for a long time now and I...
    goldengirl24 goldengirl24 22-25, F 12 Responses Jul 13, 2012

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    When I was a little girl I was tortured by my

    favorite uncle. I cried out, as bystanders laughed. It was a cruel heartless crime. It happened so suddenly. My fat uncle grabbed my little arms and sat on them.Then he tickled my pits for minutes, while I laughed and cried my eyes out!! Sadly, I did the same thing to my little...
    Deseraye1 Deseraye1 31-35, F 3 Responses Mar 20

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    Lost

    My childhood was stolen from me, by the people that are suppose to care the most about me. The people that are suppose to love me unconditionally, suppose to watch me grow up, the people that are suppose to protect me, and the people that are suppose to always be there for me...
    idontknowwhattodoaboutit idontknowwhattodoaboutit 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 5, 2013

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    My Darkness

    I have wanted to put down the story of my life for a while now. Most of it was out of my control so I take no blame for it but...there were some things that I bear some responsibility. Mom...yeah well...my mom was...and still is a drug addict. The pictures you see at the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 12 Responses Feb 25, 2013

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    I was abandoned by my mother at a young age.

    I'm sure this has affected the person I've become
    lonelyCPA lonelyCPA 36-40, F 2 Responses Mar 22

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    "silence Makes The Victim"

    you make yourself the victim when your silenced by the shame always carry your head held high because your not to blame nothing that has happened to you can take away from who you are any pain that you have felt will only leave faded scar now its time for courage now its time...
    firefly21 firefly21 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 16, 2011

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    Foster Home Yo-yo

    My parents and older sister died in an auto accident when I was ten years old.  My parents had no real family they spoke of (when I finally looked them up, I can see why they never stayed in contact), so I was shuffled from different foster care homes.  One family was...
    winecaddyman winecaddyman 51-55, M 3 Responses Sep 2, 2011

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    AlbertOlami AlbertOlami 22-25, M Mar 24

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    Welp

    At times that would'nt even matter the darkest hour can come from memories prevailing in the deteriorating mind of iniquities unleashed upon the loved ones in line of question questions that wander the break of dawn upon her thought that she can lash out scream out yell out...
    aliyahlc aliyahlc 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 26, 2011

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    Is it worse to have parents

    who don't even acknowledge your experience or to have parents who shoot you down with hurtful words with anything you do?
    Celstie Celstie 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 14

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    This is something I have never told my family.

    It is a memory wore by time and faded to the point that I often wonder if it even happened. I wouldn't say I was molested or sexually abused. I don't really know what to call it. Growing up I was always trying to bother my brother and his best friend who are both 8 years...
    reconworm reconworm 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 13

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    My Blog About Surviving

    Originally I started my blog just to have a diary to write in. Recently a few others have found it and followed me and Its so nice to get the support. But after talking with friends who are also survivors they told me my writings really help them. So I figured if It can help them...
    silverstar415850 silverstar415850 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 23, 2012

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    Just thinking about it.

    . Makes me feel sad every time...
    TearfulNights22 TearfulNights22 22-25, F 6 Responses Feb 16

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    My Secrets Don't Count.

    I think I was about 5ish when my best friend at the time asked if I wanted to have sex. I must have known what it was, because I immediately began shaking. I asked if her mom would be ok with that, or told her that her mom probably wouldn't want her to, or something like that. I...
    byrddog byrddog 18-21, F Jul 26, 2011

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    Can't Let Go

    So as much as i try and let go of my horrible child hood it always comes back to haunt me in one way or another. My grandma raised me till i was 10,that's when my mom got out of jail and came over and took me in the middle of the night. She had nothing no place to live, no money...
    paramedicgirl paramedicgirl 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 7, 2009

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    Bad Enough.

    I do have some bad childhood memories. The earliest happened on the isle of Wight, The isle of Wight for my American friends is a small island off the south coast of England. One year when I was about six or seven we, that is my mum, dad, Nan, brother and me were on holiday there...
    AlmostAristotle AlmostAristotle 61-65, M 5 Responses Nov 22, 2011

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    Childhood Lost

    I'm a 23 year old woman and my childhood was taken from me. I was only 8 years old when I was forced into adulthood. I've gone through so much negativity that my memory has gone. Unfortunately, the only memories I have left from my "childhood" are only the bad ones. (My dad never...
    skyyalexxis skyyalexxis 22-25, F 5 Responses Nov 13, 2013

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    The Shitness That I Live In... Though I Bet No On Can Be Bothered Reading This :/

    MY MUM- Well from a young age me and my mum have never got on, i dont think she has ever liked me. Then when my brother was born i got jelous, he was perfect to her where as i was never good enough. I accept i was bad but i only wanted to be noticed. Being punished made me center...
    awkwarduck awkwarduck 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 7, 2011

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    I have lots of bad memories - I remember being 5

    and my mom and I were in the bathroom getting ready to go to school or something. I remember saying to her that I hated myself and that I was so ugly. I felt so rejected as a little kid by the people outside my family. When I was 7 and my lil brother 5 I came home from school to...
    msoptimist msoptimist 36-40, F 1 Response Dec 13, 2013

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    Most Embarrassing Moment Ever!

    Here I am, around 7 or 8 years old, and in elementary school. This week was the week we took our achievement tests(way before the f-cats they take now.The teacher passed out the first of the tests for that day, gave instructions, and reminded us there was to be COMPLETE silence...
    floridasweet floridasweet 66-70, F 5 Responses Aug 15, 2013

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    I Wish I Have A Better Childhood Memory....

    I had a rough childhood. I don't have many best memories during my high school. I was not the popular girl in school. In fact i was more of the laughing stalk. I am different from the average girl here. I am tall, and i mean really tall and huge girl compared to the average girls...
    iy85 iy85 26-30, F 5 Responses Sep 28, 2013

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    I'm the youngest in my family,

    I've 2 elder sisters and I'm really thankful to have them. Up till now, my parents are still not sparing a thought for us.. :( They always gamble although we are already very poor. Have not supported me through my education thus I still owe a debt of $6k+. Even though I wanna...
    sweetlittlemess sweetlittlemess 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 12

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    I grew up in a broken household.

    From a young age I knew that my mother and father hated each other and I knew that it was my fault that they were still together. I witnessed acts of violence against each other and knew deep down that our little family was broken and not like other families. To save me from...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Mar 3

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    Growing up I was loved

    and hated literally before I was born. My mother and father loved me but my grandmother hated every part of me. She hated me because I was my fathers child. But my mom had another child by him and my grandma loved him. I didn't get it then nor do I now. She mad my childhood a...
    aries1214 aries1214 22-25, F 3 Responses Feb 26

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    It May Not Sound Like Much But

    Going through your parents divorce at 11 can leave some nasty scars. I cried every night my dad left. I begged him to stay followed him to his car screaming I love you dad say it back ... I had to hear him say it over 10 times before he left each night just to start to believe it...
    BamaQueen BamaQueen 18-21, F Nov 25, 2013

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    Not Horrible, Still Bad Memories

    I remember when my sister almost died. I remember my mom freaking out, the ambulance ride, the wait in the hospital. Of course this happened when my dad was at work. (Everything happened when the one person that would know what to do was gone!) I remember when a bunch of glass...
    kleisse kleisse 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 3, 2008

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    New Mexico

    Disclaimer: For the sake of protecting my identity as well those involved, I have changed names and been vague on the location of this story but the story itself it true nonetheless. When I was in 2nd grade, my mom moved us down to Very South, New Mexico. To this day, she still...
    FortressV FortressV 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 14, 2013

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    From the age of 5 till I was 16,

    I was mentally raped physically abused degraded molested. 9 therapists later tell me it's you were in the wrong place at the wrong time, then tell me it's not my fault. Now my whole outlook on life. Is totally f.cked. I know that not all people are horrid monsters. So...
    socalsissi socalsissi 36-40, T 3 Responses Feb 26

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    I managed to forget all of my bad childhood

    memories, until a few months back when they started resurfacing in my dreams, so now not only do I have to deal with these memories, I can't sleep that well either :/
    xMina97x xMina97x 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 25

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    I love my mom and my grandma

    but growing up was sometimes really hard for me. I remember waking up in the middle of the night when I was really little so i could bury my head under my pillow and cry. I wanted to see my mom and felt abandoned because she wanted to have fun so she left me and my sister with...
    bsmirror bsmirror 22-25, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Related Experiences

    Lots of things in mind these days. Lots of memories, that I didn't have on the surface. I have things to say that I'm not ready to say. I don't even think I'm ready to write them...
    WickedScullyOfTheWest WickedScullyOfTheWest 31-35, F 3 days ago

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    Okay so this happens a lot of times , I have weird feeling that something bad is going to Happen And it does . It's not all bad all the times but mostly , what is my body telling...
    Rydude Rydude 16-17, M Mar 23

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    Hello I may new guy. like in my topic I have a bad father Very bad guy. he was a better more than now but now he was a drunken and the moron. He was blame everyone in family is...
    apicha3893 apicha3893 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 13

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    Phantom Manor - Some of the more common nightmares i've had involve a certain attraction known as Phantom Manor. Many of these take place at Disneyland Paris, basically it...
    Monstermaster13 Monstermaster13 22-25, M Mar 27

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    I havent written here in forever but today I need to vent. Why do I allow the people around me to have so much control over my mood, the way I feel about myself, the decisions I...
    JaggedLittlePill JaggedLittlePill 36-40, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    A actually wrote this last January 31st but I wasn't able to post it immediately because I'm a little bit busy. Just a random post, I don't know what are the things that will be...
    m00nshine m00nshine 16-17, F Mar 24

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    I have google translate so um here I go.. if you have someone that you really hold close to your heart and that person loves you a lot to please don't be like me and mess up.. I...
    dragin2000 dragin2000 13-15, M 1 Response Apr 9

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    My mom let me use sippy cups every night before bed until I was about 8 because it was a comfort to me... That in itself isn't so bad, but there are pictures that pop up on the...
    Boo37 Boo37 13-15, F Apr 1

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    Being on the countryside on a swing in a tree. playing with my cousins hide and seek all night long. I had a pleasant childhood.
    Cristianpellicier Cristianpellicier 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 3