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I Have Some Bad Childhood Memories

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    From the age of 5 till I was 16,

    I was mentally raped physically abused degraded molested. 9 therapists later tell me it's you were in the wrong place at the wrong time, then tell me it's not my fault. Now my whole outlook on life. Is totally f.cked. I know that not all people are horrid monsters. So...
    socalsissi socalsissi 36-40, T 3 Responses Feb 26, 2014

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    I have had a lot of good childhood memories,

    but whenever someone ask's me to tell them a story about my childhood, only bad memories come up first, and I actually have to think about a good one that happened... I don't know why my bad childhood memories are the first to pop into my head... I automatically remember how...
    LostandFading LostandFading 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 24, 2014

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    What Did I Do That Was Soo Wrong???

    I remember when I was younger....maybe around the ages of 8-10 I was sent to my room and my mother followed in with a belt. I remember laying in my bed clutching the covers over me as she repeatedly hit me with the belt. anywhere and everywhere...Both her and my stepfather...
    daysh24 daysh24 22-25, F 6 Responses Dec 10, 2011

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    My First Memory

    My first memory is from I think I was 3 or early 4... I'm walking through a dark room, a basement or a larger bath or wash room. I only have a shirt on but it's ripped and my body feels cold. I'm dirty and don't understand why I can't hold it in, why my butt hurts so bad, even...
    NoatoNoaki NoatoNoaki 18-21, M 12 Responses May 22, 2011

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    At the age of 8 I was removed from my home.

    I was forced to move in with my Aunt who I never got along with. She was my evil step mom from the start. Well yesterday I got to see my cousin who was like my brother and my aunt who was lik a mom to me and the rest of my family for the first time sense I was 8 well my cousin...
    JayKnotz JayKnotz 13-15, F Jul 24, 2014

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    When I was at the elementry school,

    my mom threw a birthday party for me. I invited my friends from school. On the day of the party, the house was full of balloons and decoration. I remember the cake and the food that my mom made for everybody. I waited and waited but nobody came to my party. Every year at my...
    Tedybearhug Tedybearhug 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 20, 2014

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    I Wish I Have A Better Childhood Memory....

    I had a rough childhood. I don't have many best memories during my high school. I was not the popular girl in school. In fact i was more of the laughing stalk. I am different from the average girl here. I am tall, and i mean really tall and huge girl compared to the average girls...
    iy85 iy85 26-30, F 5 Responses Sep 28, 2013

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    The uncle I suspect of raping me died this

    Monday... And memories started to haunt me again. All the things I keep inside... Most of them are about my grandmother. He used to live at her place and somehow his death brought it back... I need to get rid of it... Things I have never told or told only to the closest friends...
    Mellangela Mellangela 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 24

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    Story(s)? I look up

    as a man enters the hottub. Why does he have to come in? Now I can't play with my noodle! I think bitterly. I sigh, resigning to the side of the tub and tossing my noodle up on the deck next to my new underwater skateboard. "Hi." he says. I look up, noticing that he looks...
    kingbrizo kingbrizo 18-21 1 day ago

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    Brown Bottles

    I grew up being surrounded by brown bottles, nothing but brown bottles. The number of brown bottles always out numbered the food. I guess I should be thankful though, I'm not eating from the garbage how my mother grew up eating. But I know grandma would disapprove of all these...
    JellyBean92 JellyBean92 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 19, 2013

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    "silence Makes The Victim"

    you make yourself the victim when your silenced by the shame always carry your head held high because your not to blame nothing that has happened to you can take away from who you are any pain that you have felt will only leave faded scar now its time for courage now its time...
    firefly21 firefly21 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 16, 2011

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    I was 5 years old when I promised myself I

    would never try methamphetamine. Like most nights I woke up and couldn't get back to sleep so I went in my grandma's room and laid in her bed. That never failed. I'm not sure what time it was when the phone rang and woke the both of us up. She was worried because bad news...
    SapphicMinion SapphicMinion 26-30, F 6 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    I just suppress most of my childhood.

    I don't remember a lot of it because I don't want to. I don't remember my life out of school very well.
    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 28, 2014

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    When I was ten I lost my virginity in the

    school office to a girl I liked, I was kicked out of school and my mum called me a psychopath just like my father (he's gone) and stabbed me through the hand with a kebab knife
    zacisbest45 zacisbest45 18-21, M 3 Responses Aug 2, 2014

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    I love my mum, but it was not easy.

    Our relationship used to be quite dysfunctional. My mum's in-laws were awful to her because her first child, me, is not a son. (Makes me wonder what century they think it is.) As a result, mum wanted ME to be best at everything. Mainly, school study. But I never was. Her...
    Eugene214 Eugene214 26-30, F Oct 8, 2014

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    My Darkness

    I have wanted to put down the story of my life for a while now. Most of it was out of my control so I take no blame for it but...there were some things that I bear some responsibility. Mom...yeah well...my mom was...and still is a drug addict. The pictures you see at the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Feb 25, 2013

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    There are two memories I can't get out of my

    head. And I've never told anyone about them because they're that terrifyingly shocking. I was just confused when I was a kid and tried to tell people but no one would really listen, but as I grew up the extremity of what I'd see had began to dawn on me. Several times it's felt...
    Mariyah22 Mariyah22 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 25, 2014

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    Flashback

    So yesterday I had a flashback..I am actually trying to bring back some bad memories that I can't remember, it's like my brain is hiding them from me..they are vanished...I don't know if I have post traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), I just can't remember some of those so called...
    sparkydream sparkydream 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 30, 2013

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    I felt I had a good future

    until I was 8 and a half. I was traumatized and scared to death of my stepfather as a child. He booted me up the backside multiple times once and he told me "Stop crying or I'll give you a reason to cry about". Than you mother for bringing this demon into our lives.
    Profweird Profweird 22-25, M 2 Responses Oct 15, 2014

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    Just thinking about it.

    . Makes me feel sad every time...
    SleepyRose22 SleepyRose22 22-25, F 5 Responses Feb 16, 2014

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    Things have always been rough

    for me... Here's why my life sucks... 1) my parents split when I was 2 2) I'm an only child 3) I was made fun of in elementary school, and barely anyone accepted me except for a couple people of whom I still know today luckily...I've never really been truly accepted by society...
    ashcash97 ashcash97 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 29, 2014

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    Growing up It was just me

    and my mum. We lived on a main busy road. It was scary. One time there was a car accident metres from us where someone died. I went on the news with my mother, where you could see us viewing from the roadside. All it was, was cars 24/7 all through the day and night, and sirens...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 Oct 13, 2014

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    When I was in fourth grade,

    I was a chubby outcast with a super unflattering haircut. For my birthday I can remember getting this grey shirt with a butterfly on it and it made me feel beautiful. I wore it all the time and LOVED it. My mom got sick of seeing me wear it, so she hid it so I couldn't find it...
    mohawkmom mohawkmom 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 26, 2014

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    My childhood was great fun up

    until about the age of 10, I loved it and was proud of the good old days, and still to this day I enjoy reminiscing about them, probobly because they are so hard to imagine happiness in that house I grew up in. At the age of 9, I was diagnosed with, well, some pretty serious...
    writingforlife6 writingforlife6 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 7, 2014

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    Most Embarrassing Moment Ever!

    Here I am, around 7 or 8 years old, and in elementary school. This week was the week we took our achievement tests(way before the f-cats they take now.The teacher passed out the first of the tests for that day, gave instructions, and reminded us there was to be COMPLETE silence...
    floridasweet floridasweet 66-70, F 5 Responses Aug 15, 2013

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    Childhood Lost

    I'm a 23 year old woman and my childhood was taken from me. I was only 8 years old when I was forced into adulthood. I've gone through so much negativity that my memory has gone. Unfortunately, the only memories I have left from my "childhood" are only the bad ones. (My dad never...
    skyyalexxis skyyalexxis 22-25, F 5 Responses Nov 13, 2013

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    GermanWildChild GermanWildChild 13-15, F May 29, 2014

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    My parents divorced when I was 7

    and it was a nasty divorce and they werent legally divorsed they just made custody scedules by themselves. And the plan was that me and my brother Kaiden who is 3 years older would live with my mum and my other brother Dan would live with my dad. But me and my mum got into a...
    newaccountquinnmac12 newaccountquinnmac12 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 1, 2014

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    Foster Home Yo-yo

    My parents and older sister died in an auto accident when I was ten years old.  My parents had no real family they spoke of (when I finally looked them up, I can see why they never stayed in contact), so I was shuffled from different foster care homes.  One family was...
    winecaddyman winecaddyman 51-55, M 3 Responses Sep 2, 2011

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    He Was Slowly Dying, I Couldn'T Help

    A couple weeks ago he was killing himself. I was home alone and we were on the phone and he said he was cutting. I start to cry and I notice that I can hear him stab himself repeatedly. Crying over the phone uncontrollably, he told me to stop crying. I can tell by the way his...
    21nee 21nee 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 27, 2013

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    Up until recently, all of my best friends have

    been male. I never gave it a lot of thought. I just figured I liked guys better. When things were first becoming very bad with me and my ex, a woman who I was friends with started wanting to talk about what was going on in my life and I completely shut her out and stopped...
    TKD1 TKD1 46-50, F 2 Responses Feb 5, 2014

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    When I was 15, I fell off a roof at my house .

    My mum said serves you right and left me in my pool of blood overnight...
    zacisbest45 zacisbest45 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 11, 2014

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    This is something I''ve never told anyone

    and I managed to forget what happened until recently. When I was 10 I had a crush on a guy who was 16, we occasionally held hands under a table but then he started to move his hand up my leg, and touch me on my private parts. I remember wondering what he was doing, and what ever...
    DarkRaven13 DarkRaven13 16-17, F 1 Response May 20, 2014

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    So I was talking to my friend yesterday

    and I realized that I was never hugged as a kid. Idk I just didn't. Any memory I do have of hugs It was because my parents did something stupid and were saying sorry for something they would do again the next day but I was too pissed and trying to avoid the alcohol and cigarette...
    SkollHati SkollHati 18-21, M 5 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    I never really had much friends

    as a little kid. I remember one time I thought I made a friend. She invited me to the football field. Nobody ever invited me anywhere so I was excited. When we got there, there was more kids and I have social anxiety so I immediately got nervous. Out of nowhere they want me to...
    AwkwardDemon AwkwardDemon 16-17, M 1 Response Oct 29, 2014

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    There are some things

    that I hate to remember about my childhood, and it pains me to recall them but they've made me who I am today and I'm good with that
    misternobrain misternobrain 22-25, M 2 Responses Jan 9, 2014

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    I had a rotten dad that was "there"

    but we all wished he wasn't, because all he did was yell, and beat us with belts and put us down. But because he stayed and "took care of us", our mom worked too but she was the one we all went to, depended on, he thought it was all good to do, that we should be grateful for...
    borielis borielis 61-65, M Nov 30, 2014

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    Is it worse to have parents

    who don't even acknowledge your experience or to have parents who shoot you down with hurtful words with anything you do?
    Celstie Celstie 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 14, 2014

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    Has anyone as a child experimented with the

    same sex? I was about 6 or 7 years old. I knew what I was doing but I did it anyway. I am completely heterosexual now. Not that it's wrong or anything it's just bothers me, after all these years I still remember it. Is this normal? Anyone else done this?
    Usernamesimpleman Usernamesimpleman 22-25, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I grew up in a broken household.

    From a young age I knew that my mother and father hated each other and I knew that it was my fault that they were still together. I witnessed acts of violence against each other and knew deep down that our little family was broken and not like other families. To save me from...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Mar 3, 2014

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    Childhood Chains That Bind Me

    Just had a memory pop into my head. I was 10 years old and I was brushing my hair in front of the mirror in Mum and Dad's room (our room, my sis and I, never had a mirror). My older brother Danny walks in and says "boys don't look at you because you are pretty, they look at you...
    Xenajet Xenajet 36-40, F 1 Response Aug 2, 2012

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    this is me. damaged, broken me.

    there nothing special about me, im just an average women trying to muddle through life with ease. i was always a 'strange' child according to people, but they never dove deeper to find out why, i was just labelled, bullied and isolated. i didn't have a normal childhood in fact i...
    littlemiss052014 littlemiss052014 22-25, F 4 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    I keep having bad nightmares about my childhood

    about when on Christmas Eve my mum threatened to kill herself and my dad kicked the **** out of her friend in a drunken rage, I was 12
    zacisbest45 zacisbest45 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 26, 2014

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    Well I've never had any good childhood memories

    so this title makes sense. This sucks.
    XxMisguidedxGhostxX XxMisguidedxGhostxX 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 26, 2014

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    I remember as a child writing my father letters

    in prison. I remember birthdays not seeing my mother. I remember being left home alone. I remember not having food, not having electric, cats being repossessed and being evicted. My daughter irritates me because she has no idea some of the real pain people experience as children...
    KeeWee812 KeeWee812 22-25, F Aug 4, 2014

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    My memories aren't too terrible.

    I went to a small primary school, and i was 9 years old and was in a class with 10 and was 11 years old's as we had a mixed age class room because of how small the school was. That year I was bullied by some of the older kids in the class. They would call me names and insult me...
    DarkRaven13 DarkRaven13 16-17, F 1 Response May 20, 2014

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    I was abandoned by my mother at a young age.

    I'm sure this has affected the person I've become
    lonelyCPA lonelyCPA 36-40, F 2 Responses