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I Have Some Bad Childhood Memories

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    I was 5 years old when I promised myself I

    would never try methamphetamine. Like most nights I woke up and couldn't get back to sleep so I went in my grandma's room and laid in her bed. That never failed. I'm not sure what time it was when the phone rang and woke the both of us up. She was worried because bad news...
    SapphicMinion SapphicMinion 26-30, F 5 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    Nothing ever happened to me.

    Watched other kids laugh and play without me as a kid. Watched my best friend ruin himself on drugs and crime throughout my teens. Watched my family fall apart when I was young. Watched my crushes find someone else. Watched my life and future slip through my fingers. It's...
    Vumsy Vumsy 22-25, M Dec 25, 2014

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    I Hate You

    Ever since i was a child i was abused by my father not only me but my brothers as well. I remember my father draging me by the head of my hair and hitting my brothers with those aluminum brooms you can buy at any store and leaving bruse's all over them.There where many times that...
    bubbleso0o bubbleso0o 26-30, F 2 Responses Oct 18, 2011

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    My childhood was great fun up

    until about the age of 10, I loved it and was proud of the good old days, and still to this day I enjoy reminiscing about them, probobly because they are so hard to imagine happiness in that house I grew up in. At the age of 9, I was diagnosed with, well, some pretty serious...
    writingforlife6 writingforlife6 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 7, 2014

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    But not as bad as most.

    Just bad enough to make me want gone.
    Converted Converted 46-50, M Apr 4

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    There are two memories I can't get out of my

    head. And I've never told anyone about them because they're that terrifyingly shocking. I was just confused when I was a kid and tried to tell people but no one would really listen, but as I grew up the extremity of what I'd see had began to dawn on me. Several times it's felt...
    Mariyah22 Mariyah22 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 25, 2014

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    So I was talking to my friend yesterday

    and I realized that I was never hugged as a kid. Idk I just didn't. Any memory I do have of hugs It was because my parents did something stupid and were saying sorry for something they would do again the next day but I was too pissed and trying to avoid the alcohol and cigarette...
    SkollHati SkollHati 18-21, M 5 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    The uncle I suspect of raping me died this

    Monday... And memories started to haunt me again. All the things I keep inside... Most of them are about my grandmother. He used to live at her place and somehow his death brought it back... I need to get rid of it... Things I have never told or told only to the closest friends...
    Mellangela Mellangela 31-35, F 4 Responses Jan 24

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    this is me. damaged, broken me.

    there nothing special about me, im just an average women trying to muddle through life with ease. i was always a 'strange' child according to people, but they never dove deeper to find out why, i was just labelled, bullied and isolated. i didn't have a normal childhood in fact i...
    littlemiss052014 littlemiss052014 22-25, F 4 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    He Was Slowly Dying, I Couldn'T Help

    A couple weeks ago he was killing himself. I was home alone and we were on the phone and he said he was cutting. I start to cry and I notice that I can hear him stab himself repeatedly. Crying over the phone uncontrollably, he told me to stop crying. I can tell by the way his...
    21nee 21nee 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 27, 2013

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    Growing up It was just me

    and my mum. We lived on a main busy road. It was scary. One time there was a car accident metres from us where someone died. I went on the news with my mother, where you could see us viewing from the roadside. All it was, was cars 24/7 all through the day and night, and sirens...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 Oct 13, 2014

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    Me hears lewis black.

    And bill maher. And jon stewart. Me said what they say. During carter and reagan. Me got shredded. By many. In many ways. For being right. In a country that hates me correct. And those bullies delusional
    Converted Converted 46-50, M 2 Responses Apr 26

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    I was about six or seven

    when the neighbor girl trapped me in her house and wripped the hair out of my head.
    CrazyDaisyeee CrazyDaisyeee 22-25, F Jun 4

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    At the age of 8 I was removed from my home.

    I was forced to move in with my Aunt who I never got along with. She was my evil step mom from the start. Well yesterday I got to see my cousin who was like my brother and my aunt who was lik a mom to me and the rest of my family for the first time sense I was 8 well my cousin...
    JayKnotz JayKnotz 16-17, F Jul 24, 2014

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    What Did I Do That Was Soo Wrong???

    I remember when I was younger....maybe around the ages of 8-10 I was sent to my room and my mother followed in with a belt. I remember laying in my bed clutching the covers over me as she repeatedly hit me with the belt. anywhere and everywhere...Both her and my stepfather...
    daysh24 daysh24 22-25, F 5 Responses Dec 10, 2011

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    Flashback

    So yesterday I had a flashback..I am actually trying to bring back some bad memories that I can't remember, it's like my brain is hiding them from me..they are vanished...I don't know if I have post traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), I just can't remember some of those so called...
    sparkydream sparkydream 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 30, 2013

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    I know i have had a bad childhood

    but if someone came up to me and told me i could change it i wouldn't take that chance. My past has made me who i am today. I am a person who who respects, never judges, and doesn't give a damn about what people think. My past has broken me but also made me the strongest i could...
    Jewels2145 Jewels2145 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 1, 2014

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    I had a rotten dad that was "there"

    but we all wished he wasn't, because all he did was yell, and beat us with belts and put us down. But because he stayed and "took care of us", our mom worked too but she was the one we all went to, depended on, he thought it was all good to do, that we should be grateful for...
    borielis borielis 61-65, M Nov 30, 2014

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    I love my mum, but it was not easy.

    Our relationship used to be quite dysfunctional. My mum's in-laws were awful to her because her first child, me, is not a son. (Makes me wonder what century they think it is.) As a result, mum wanted ME to be best at everything. Mainly, school study. But I never was. Her...
    Eugene214 Eugene214 26-30, F Oct 8, 2014

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    Foster Home Yo-yo

    My parents and older sister died in an auto accident when I was ten years old.  My parents had no real family they spoke of (when I finally looked them up, I can see why they never stayed in contact), so I was shuffled from different foster care homes.  One family was...
    winecaddyman winecaddyman 51-55, M 3 Responses Sep 2, 2011

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    In 5th grade it was a popular thing in my class

    to rate people's looks and personality on a scale of 1-10. It was mainly the girls that did it because they thought they were cooler than sub zero or something. I sat next to one of the "popular" girls and she was making a list. I got curious and was secretly watching her. Well...
    MeltingGlassHeart MeltingGlassHeart 26-30, M 3 Responses Aug 10

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    When I was 15, I fell off a roof at my house .

    My mum said serves you right and left me in my pool of blood overnight...
    zacisbest45 zacisbest45 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 11, 2014

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    Childhood Lost

    I'm a 23 year old woman and my childhood was taken from me. I was only 8 years old when I was forced into adulthood. I've gone through so much negativity that my memory has gone. Unfortunately, the only memories I have left from my "childhood" are only the bad ones. (My dad never...
    skyyalexxis skyyalexxis 22-25, F 4 Responses Nov 13, 2013

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    Story(s)? I look up

    as a man enters the hottub. Why does he have to come in? Now I can't play with my noodle! I think bitterly. I sigh, resigning to the side of the tub and tossing my noodle up on the deck next to my new underwater skateboard. "Hi." he says. I look up, noticing that he looks...
    zydeko zydeko 18-21 Mar 4

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    My whole childhood is built on drugs,

    mothering my sister, being the one to make sure everything's okay, and being the strong one. Memories of my childhood aren't all bad. I have happy memories but my mind always replays the bad ones, but I guess you remember the bad more than the good, altleast that's what I do. My...
    Flower124 Flower124 18-21 Aug 16

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    I grew up in a broken household.

    From a young age I knew that my mother and father hated each other and I knew that it was my fault that they were still together. I witnessed acts of violence against each other and knew deep down that our little family was broken and not like other families. To save me from...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Mar 3, 2014

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    I just found an old journal of mine.

    I had to be 15 or 16 years old. I was a tortured soul to say the least. After reading it no wonder I'm so much of a loner. In the beginning it's me trying to be friends with people put getting rejected or used. It talks about how ugly I am and how stupid I am. I started to...
    solojo solojo 31-35, M 1 Response Aug 15

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    Childhood Chains That Bind Me

    Just had a memory pop into my head. I was 10 years old and I was brushing my hair in front of the mirror in Mum and Dad's room (our room, my sis and I, never had a mirror). My older brother Danny walks in and says "boys don't look at you because you are pretty, they look at you...
    Xenajet Xenajet 36-40, F 1 Response Aug 2, 2012

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    What's with people judging kids on here?

    You think because of the age difference they didn't have a bad experience or are right now!!! Judgmental ***** who come on here to make them feel worse ain't been through enough to understand anything! Leave them alone and deal with your own ****!!!
    SaintShoot SaintShoot 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 5

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    Has anyone as a child experimented with the

    same sex? I was about 6 or 7 years old. I knew what I was doing but I did it anyway. I am completely heterosexual now. Not that it's wrong or anything it's just bothers me, after all these years I still remember it. Is this normal? Anyone else done this?
    Usernamesimpleman Usernamesimpleman 22-25, M 2 Responses Mar 4

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    Up until recently, all of my best friends have

    been male. I never gave it a lot of thought. I just figured I liked guys better. When things were first becoming very bad with me and my ex, a woman who I was friends with started wanting to talk about what was going on in my life and I completely shut her out and stopped...
    TKD1 TKD1 46-50, F 2 Responses Feb 5, 2014

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    I felt I had a good future

    until I was 8 and a half. I was traumatized and scared to death of my stepfather as a child. He booted me up the backside multiple times once and he told me "Stop crying or I'll give you a reason to cry about". Than you mother for bringing this demon into our lives.
    Profweird Profweird 22-25, M 2 Responses Oct 15, 2014

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    "silence Makes The Victim"

    you make yourself the victim when your silenced by the shame always carry your head held high because your not to blame nothing that has happened to you can take away from who you are any pain that you have felt will only leave faded scar now its time for courage now its time...
    firefly21 firefly21 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 16, 2011

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    When I was at the elementry school,

    my mom threw a birthday party for me. I invited my friends from school. On the day of the party, the house was full of balloons and decoration. I remember the cake and the food that my mom made for everybody. I waited and waited but nobody came to my party. Every year at my...
    Tedybearhug Tedybearhug 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 20, 2014

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    Things have always been rough

    for me... Here's why my life sucks... 1) my parents split when I was 2 2) I'm an only child 3) I was made fun of in elementary school, and barely anyone accepted me except for a couple people of whom I still know today luckily...I've never really been truly accepted by society...
    ashcash97 ashcash97 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 29, 2014

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    My Darkness

    I have wanted to put down the story of my life for a while now. Most of it was out of my control so I take no blame for it but...there were some things that I bear some responsibility. Mom...yeah well...my mom was...and still is a drug addict. The pictures you see at the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Feb 25, 2013

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    There are some things

    that I hate to remember about my childhood, and it pains me to recall them but they've made me who I am today and I'm good with that
    misternobrain misternobrain 22-25, M 2 Responses Jan 9, 2014

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    I have had a lot of good childhood memories,

    but whenever someone ask's me to tell them a story about my childhood, only bad memories come up first, and I actually have to think about a good one that happened... I don't know why my bad childhood memories are the first to pop into my head... I automatically remember how...
    PsychGirl94 PsychGirl94 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 24, 2014

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    Does anyone here have experience being the kid

    that was covered in freckles? I did and it was not fun!
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 17

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    alexsomebody alexsomebody 22-25, M 2 Responses Aug 13

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    My mom and dad were both drug addicts

    and alcoholics. I lived in a bad neighborhood with not many friends. Birthdays and Christmases were basically non existent for me. The day I turned 18 I left home and haven't been back since.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jul 25

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    Pretty much everyday I have to deal with the

    consequences of your actions that have a big impact on my life. Maybe you are finding it hard at times, possibly more than what I think but I feel I'm the one left in a rut while you get on with life. I want answers but I know I'll never ask, I wouldn't be able to face it, I'd...
    lovetodraw19 lovetodraw19 18-21, F 1 Response May 14

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    Just thinking about it.

    . Makes me feel sad every time...
    SweetRose22 SweetRose22 22-25, F 5 Responses Feb 16, 2014

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    I Wish I Have A Better Childhood Memory....

    I had a rough childhood. I don't have many best memories during my high school. I was not the popular girl in school. In fact i was more of the laughing stalk. I am different from the average girl here. I am tall, and i mean really tall and huge girl compared to the average girls...
    iy85 iy85 26-30, F 5 Responses Sep 28, 2013

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    Resentfully captive, they simmer.

    Biding time and seeking release. Fermenting sickness in rising heat.
    Intotheunknown Intotheunknown 46-50, F 2 Responses Aug 4

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    From the age of 5 till I was 16,

    I was mentally raped physically abused degraded molested. 9 therapists later tell me it's you were in the wrong place at the wrong time, then tell me it's not my fault. Now my whole outlook on life. Is totally f.cked. I know that not all people are horrid monsters. So...
    socalsissi socalsissi 36-40, T 3 Responses