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I Have Some Bad Childhood Memories

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    My Secrets Don't Count.

    I think I was about 5ish when my best friend at the time asked if I wanted to have sex. I must have known what it was, because I immediately began shaking. I asked if her mom would be ok with that, or told her that her mom probably wouldn't want her to, or something like that. I...
    byrddog byrddog 18-21, F Jul 26, 2011

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    Is it worse to have parents

    who don't even acknowledge your experience or to have parents who shoot you down with hurtful words with anything you do?
    Celstie Celstie 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 14

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    Can't Let Go

    So as much as i try and let go of my horrible child hood it always comes back to haunt me in one way or another. My grandma raised me till i was 10,that's when my mom got out of jail and came over and took me in the middle of the night. She had nothing no place to live, no money...
    paramedicgirl paramedicgirl 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 7, 2009

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    My childhood was great fun up

    until about the age of 10, I loved it and was proud of the good old days, and still to this day I enjoy reminiscing about them, probobly because they are so hard to imagine happiness in that house I grew up in. At the age of 9, I was diagnosed with, well, some pretty serious...
    writingforlife6 writingforlife6 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 7

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    My First Memory

    My first memory is from I think I was 3 or early 4... I'm walking through a dark room, a basement or a larger bath or wash room. I only have a shirt on but it's ripped and my body feels cold. I'm dirty and don't understand why I can't hold it in, why my butt hurts so bad, even...
    NoatoNoaki NoatoNoaki 18-21, M 12 Responses May 22, 2011

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    Childhood Lost

    I'm a 23 year old woman and my childhood was taken from me. I was only 8 years old when I was forced into adulthood. I've gone through so much negativity that my memory has gone. Unfortunately, the only memories I have left from my "childhood" are only the bad ones. (My dad never...
    skyyalexxis skyyalexxis 22-25, F 5 Responses Nov 13, 2013

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    He Was Slowly Dying, I Couldn'T Help

    A couple weeks ago he was killing himself. I was home alone and we were on the phone and he said he was cutting. I start to cry and I notice that I can hear him stab himself repeatedly. Crying over the phone uncontrollably, he told me to stop crying. I can tell by the way his...
    21nee 21nee 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 27, 2013

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    I love my mom and my grandma

    but growing up was sometimes really hard for me. I remember waking up in the middle of the night when I was really little so i could bury my head under my pillow and cry. I wanted to see my mom and felt abandoned because she wanted to have fun so she left me and my sister with...
    bsmirror bsmirror 22-25, F Apr 20

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    When I was in fourth grade,

    I was a chubby outcast with a super unflattering haircut. For my birthday I can remember getting this grey shirt with a butterfly on it and it made me feel beautiful. I wore it all the time and LOVED it. My mom got sick of seeing me wear it, so she hid it so I couldn't find it...
    mohawkmom mohawkmom 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 26

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    Home sweet hell.... Still to this day I have

    horrible nightmares from my childhood my mother was a typical single working mother who went to church and raised us well so everyone thought anyway.... Behind closed doors is where the beatings and endless name calling took place she get off of work and drink until bed time...
    Forbiddenkisses Forbiddenkisses 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 21

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    Not Horrible, Still Bad Memories

    I remember when my sister almost died. I remember my mom freaking out, the ambulance ride, the wait in the hospital. Of course this happened when my dad was at work. (Everything happened when the one person that would know what to do was gone!) I remember when a bunch of glass...
    kleisse kleisse 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 3, 2008

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    Foster Home Yo-yo

    My parents and older sister died in an auto accident when I was ten years old.  My parents had no real family they spoke of (when I finally looked them up, I can see why they never stayed in contact), so I was shuffled from different foster care homes.  One family was...
    winecaddyman winecaddyman 51-55, M 3 Responses Sep 2, 2011

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    Flashback

    So yesterday I had a flashback..I am actually trying to bring back some bad memories that I can't remember, it's like my brain is hiding them from me..they are vanished...I don't know if I have post traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), I just can't remember some of those so called...
    sparkydream sparkydream 18-21, F 6 Responses Sep 30, 2013

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    At the age of 8 I was removed from my home.

    I was forced to move in with my Aunt who I never got along with. She was my evil step mom from the start. Well yesterday I got to see my cousin who was like my brother and my aunt who was lik a mom to me and the rest of my family for the first time sense I was 8 well my cousin...
    JayKnotz JayKnotz 13-15, F Jul 24

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    my earliest memory is

    when I was 2 and this kid called Jason hit me with a orange hockey stick, then slammed my face into the concrete, I used to get beaten up daily from 2-3 years old,
    eatthekids1st eatthekids1st 18-21, M 1 Response May 11

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    I know i have had a bad childhood

    but if someone came up to me and told me i could change it i wouldn't take that chance. My past has made me who i am today. I am a person who who respects, never judges, and doesn't give a damn about what people think. My past has broken me but also made me the strongest i could...
    Jewels2145 Jewels2145 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 1

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    Brown Bottles

    I grew up being surrounded by brown bottles, nothing but brown bottles. The number of brown bottles always out numbered the food. I guess I should be thankful though, I'm not eating from the garbage how my mother grew up eating. But I know grandma would disapprove of all these...
    JellyBean92 JellyBean92 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 19, 2013

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    Most Embarrassing Moment Ever!

    Here I am, around 7 or 8 years old, and in elementary school. This week was the week we took our achievement tests(way before the f-cats they take now.The teacher passed out the first of the tests for that day, gave instructions, and reminded us there was to be COMPLETE silence...
    floridasweet floridasweet 66-70, F 5 Responses Aug 15, 2013

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    When I was ten I lost my virginity in the

    school office to a girl I liked, I was kicked out of school and my mum called me a psychopath just like my father (he's gone) and stabbed me through the hand with a kebab knife
    zacisbest45 zacisbest45 16-17, M 2 Responses Aug 2

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    My Darkness

    I have wanted to put down the story of my life for a while now. Most of it was out of my control so I take no blame for it but...there were some things that I bear some responsibility. Mom...yeah well...my mom was...and still is a drug addict. The pictures you see at the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 12 Responses Feb 25, 2013

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    I love my mum, but it was not easy.

    Our relationship used to be quite dysfunctional. My mum's in-laws were awful to her because her first child, me, is not a son. (Makes me wonder what century they think it is.) As a result, mum wanted ME to be best at everything. Mainly, school study. But I never was. Her...
    Eugene214 Eugene214 26-30, F Oct 8

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    When I was at the elementry school,

    my mom threw a birthday party for me. I invited my friends from school. On the day of the party, the house was full of balloons and decoration. I remember the cake and the food that my mom made for everybody. I waited and waited but nobody came to my party. Every year at my...
    Tedybearhug Tedybearhug 26-30, F 3 Responses Apr 20

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    Just thinking about it.

    . Makes me feel sad every time...
    SweetRose22 SweetRose22 22-25, F 5 Responses Feb 16

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    I managed to forget all of my bad childhood

    memories, until a few months back when they started resurfacing in my dreams, so now not only do I have to deal with these memories, I can't sleep that well either :/
    Azzyyy Azzyyy 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 25

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    From the age of 5 till I was 16,

    I was mentally raped physically abused degraded molested. 9 therapists later tell me it's you were in the wrong place at the wrong time, then tell me it's not my fault. Now my whole outlook on life. Is totally f.cked. I know that not all people are horrid monsters. So...
    socalsissi socalsissi 36-40, T 3 Responses Feb 26

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    I just suppress most of my childhood.

    I don't remember a lot of it because I don't want to. I don't remember my life out of school very well.
    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 28

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    When I was about 11 I received my second phone.

    It was a normal low budget phone. One afternoon while visiting my dad who was sound asleep I decided to google "preteen role models" because I felt as if I needed someone to look up to. I thought I was going to find results that showed people my age who do volunteer work or...
    CCoconut CCoconut 13-15, F 1 Response May 4

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    Up until recently, all of my best friends have

    been male. I never gave it a lot of thought. I just figured I liked guys better. When things were first becoming very bad with me and my ex, a woman who I was friends with started wanting to talk about what was going on in my life and I completely shut her out and stopped...
    TKD1 TKD1 46-50, F 2 Responses Feb 5

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    I Hate You

    Ever since i was a child i was abused by my father not only me but my brothers as well. I remember my father draging me by the head of my hair and hitting my brothers with those aluminum brooms you can buy at any store and leaving bruse's all over them.There where many times that...
    bubbleso0o bubbleso0o 26-30, F 2 Responses Oct 18, 2011

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    As far as I can go through my childhood

    memories I can remember the first one… just feeling… fear. My childhood was full of it. Scared of dark, of sleeping in my own bed, of dark corners and shadows and silent sounds around. Can remember myself trembling in my bed, trying to blend into the wall, disappear. I...
    Mellangela Mellangela 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 11

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    Well I've never had any good childhood memories

    so this title makes sense. This sucks.
    XxBadXVibesxX XxBadXVibesxX 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 26

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    AlbertOlami AlbertOlami 22-25, M Mar 24

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    My parents divorced when I was 7

    and it was a nasty divorce and they werent legally divorsed they just made custody scedules by themselves. And the plan was that me and my brother Kaiden who is 3 years older would live with my mum and my other brother Dan would live with my dad. But me and my mum got into a...
    newaccountquinnmac12 newaccountquinnmac12 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 1

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    "silence Makes The Victim"

    you make yourself the victim when your silenced by the shame always carry your head held high because your not to blame nothing that has happened to you can take away from who you are any pain that you have felt will only leave faded scar now its time for courage now its time...
    firefly21 firefly21 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 16, 2011

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    I Wish I Have A Better Childhood Memory....

    I had a rough childhood. I don't have many best memories during my high school. I was not the popular girl in school. In fact i was more of the laughing stalk. I am different from the average girl here. I am tall, and i mean really tall and huge girl compared to the average girls...
    iy85 iy85 26-30, F 5 Responses Sep 28, 2013

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    Childhood Chains That Bind Me

    Just had a memory pop into my head. I was 10 years old and I was brushing my hair in front of the mirror in Mum and Dad's room (our room, my sis and I, never had a mirror). My older brother Danny walks in and says "boys don't look at you because you are pretty, they look at you...
    Xenajet Xenajet 36-40, F 1 Response Aug 2, 2012

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    Like that time my dad killed my fish

    or like how everyday he would grab my stomach and say what's this, how he beat my mom up every night and I would try to stop him and I would get hurt too for that....but as soon as we went to church he would act so holy and everyone would say we were the perfect fAmily...
    XObabydollOX XObabydollOX 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 15

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    this is me. damaged, broken me.

    there nothing special about me, im just an average women trying to muddle through life with ease. i was always a 'strange' child according to people, but they never dove deeper to find out why, i was just labelled, bullied and isolated. i didn't have a normal childhood in fact i...
    littlemiss052014 littlemiss052014 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 3

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    I used to like to hang out with my brother,

    but he didn't want his little sister tagging along so he left me at his friends house to play with his sister. She wanted to play house and insisted she'd be the Mommy. I didn't want to be the baby so I told her I'd be the dog (I loved animals and always liked wearing collars...
    lalalagirl40 lalalagirl40 41-45, F 4 Responses Oct 9

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    Growing up It was just me

    and my mum. We lived on a main busy road. It was scary. One time there was a car accident metres from us where someone died. I went on the news with my mother, where you could see us viewing from the roadside. All it was, was cars 24/7 all through the day and night, and sirens...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 70+, F 6 days ago

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    The Shitness That I Live In... Though I Bet No On Can Be Bothered Reading This :/

    MY MUM- Well from a young age me and my mum have never got on, i dont think she has ever liked me. Then when my brother was born i got jelous, he was perfect to her where as i was never good enough. I accept i was bad but i only wanted to be noticed. Being punished made me center...
    awkwarduck awkwarduck 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 7, 2011

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    What Did I Do That Was Soo Wrong???

    I remember when I was younger....maybe around the ages of 8-10 I was sent to my room and my mother followed in with a belt. I remember laying in my bed clutching the covers over me as she repeatedly hit me with the belt. anywhere and everywhere...Both her and my stepfather...
    daysh24 daysh24 22-25, F 6 Responses Dec 10, 2011

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    This is something I''ve never told anyone

    and I managed to forget what happened until recently. When I was 10 I had a crush on a guy who was 16, we occasionally held hands under a table but then he started to move his hand up my leg, and touch me on my private parts. I remember wondering what he was doing, and what ever...
    DarkRaven13 DarkRaven13 13-15, F 1 Response May 20

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    Things have always been rough

    for me... Here's why my life sucks... 1) my parents split when I was 2 2) I'm an only child 3) I was made fun of in elementary school, and barely anyone accepted me except for a couple people of whom I still know today luckily...I've never really been truly accepted by society...
    ashcash97 ashcash97 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 29

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    There are some things

    that I hate to remember about my childhood, and it pains me to recall them but they've made me who I am today and I'm good with that
    misternobrain misternobrain 22-25, M 2 Responses Jan 9

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    I grew up in a broken household.

    From a young age I knew that my mother and father hated each other and I knew that it was my fault that they were still together. I witnessed acts of violence against each other and knew deep down that our little family was broken and not like other families. To save me from...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Mar 3

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    When I was 15, I fell off a roof at my house .

    My mum said serves you right and left me in my pool of blood overnight...
    zacisbest45 zacisbest45 16-17, M 1 Response Aug 11

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    I was abandoned by my mother at a young age.

    I'm sure this has affected the person I've become
    lonelyCPA lonelyCPA 36-40, F 2 Responses Mar 22

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    I've almost died twice.

    ._. First, when I was 5, a flood came by my house and if my dad didn't save me. I would of drowned. And when I was 11, my grandfather had a signed rugby shirt hanging up on the wall above the computer and it almost fell on me because I was playing on the computer when it fell.
    InnerEgo InnerEgo 16-17, T 1 Response May 2

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    I remember as a child writing my father letters

    in prison. I remember birthdays not seeing my mother. I remember being left home alone. I remember not having food, not having electric, cats being repossessed and being evicted. My daughter irritates me because she has no idea some of the real pain people experience as children...
    KeeWee812 KeeWee812 22-25, F Aug 4

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    My memories aren't too terrible.

    I went to a small primary school, and i was 9 years old and was in a class with 10 and was 11 years old's as we had a mixed age class room because of how small the school was. That year I was bullied by some of the older kids in the class. They would call me names and insult me...
    DarkRaven13 DarkRaven13 13-15, F 1 Response May 20

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    GermanWildChild GermanWildChild 13-15, F May 29

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    I felt I had a good future

    until I was 8 and a half. I was traumatized and scared to death of my stepfather as a child. He booted me up the backside multiple times once and he told me "Stop crying or I'll give you a reason to cry about". Than you mother for bringing this demon into our lives.
    T3chmupp3t T3chmupp3t 18-21, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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