I Have Some Horribly Painful Memories

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    I find writing sort of therapeutic

    and I really don't have a problem talking about it it's just not something you really just chat with like you would the weather. I can't say my past was That bad given I have known many with Much worse and some still stuck in a living hell.. But I also know, no matter how big or...
    hitvl hitvl
    22-25, F
    Dec 4, 2013

    It was dark. Very dark.

    I was between the ages of three and five, playing in my room with a rolling vacuum cleaner. The kind that rolls the balls around in the plastic and plays music or dings bells when they move. My mother came into the room. She had been working night shifts at the time and she was...
    twistedxalice twistedxalice
    22-25, F
    Feb 11, 2016

    Adult Children

    My adult children are now in their thirties. They were sweet and affectionate when they were little, but as they have grown older the have become callous and mean-spirited. They do not care how much pain they inflict on me. I have a disability. I have suffered physical as...
    hurtbeyondrepair hurtbeyondrepair
    3 Responses Jul 30, 2012

    Let Learn How To Love One Another Life Is Too Short.

    biran29 biran29
    26-30, M
    1 Response Aug 12, 2012

    My dad died 4 weeks ago.

    2 months before he died he fell and got a head injury. When he was in the hospital he became combative due to the head injury I hated to see him so confused and miserable. He wouldn't stay in bed and pushed people away and I remember seeing 2 nurses having to hold his arms...
    deleted deleted
    Sep 22, 2015

    I remember being 3 years old

    and my mom's brother kicked me and my family out of our dead grandma's house (she died on my birthday earlier that year) and we had to live in a tent for a few months at some park. We then went on to a Homeless shelter. The times have just gotten worse.
    Fainmail67 Fainmail67
    16-17, M
    Feb 11, 2016


    I won't go into details on certain parts but I feel I have to say what's been haunting me for years. One memory was in 8th grade. It's really hard for me to actually like someone more than a friend but I did. I fell in love with a friend who also had a sad past. He wasn't in my...
    theinugirl1 theinugirl1
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 27, 2012

    of Iraq and without details under fire

    and duress, sometimes the children on the side of the road are impossible to miss...literally
    ShottyB ShottyB
    36-40, M
    Feb 19, 2016

    Rough Around The Edges...

    I remember being a child... Pure and inocent. I remember trying to be happy and peaceful.... And I remember my father. I was sure he hated himself, he took it out us (mom, sisters and me). We managed to leave when I was 8, but he was always there.... Torturing me, not with fists...
    torturedchild torturedchild
    18-21, F
    Jan 21, 2013


    Memories suck big time, that is all.
    emmylou82 emmylou82
    26-30, F
    Dec 20, 2012

    "Death is peace, and you don't deserve peace.

    You deserve to sit in your own pain and agony. You made this throne, and you shall sit on it as it crumbles." These words have always stuck in my head, and with the painful choices I've made, I fear this is going to happen to me. I am scared. And I've wished I could change so...
    Legend12090 Legend12090
    18-21, M
    Nov 28, 2013

    When I was 13 my first real boyfriend abused me

    physically, emotionally,mentally and sexually. 4 months I put up with it. My mistake was to trust him after he cheated on me. After that was when it all started. One memory I suppressed so deep that I don't know it happened until I got a flashback. A few years after that...
    Mandy94 Mandy94
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jan 8, 2014


    I am a loner, I dont have a gigantic group of friends, nobody misses me, I'm never the first person anybody looks for in a crowded room. I'm just me. Take it or leave it.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Nov 6, 2012

    I was never sure if it was a memory

    or a dream until I asked my cousin about it, and she told me it was all true. I remember being on a balcony, with a bunch of adults including my father and aunts. We were at a party. I remember there being a cactus that I had pricked my finger on. But what I remember the most is...
    Victoriaxoxo12 Victoriaxoxo12
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 4, 2014


    I dont really know what to title this story. about a week ago I went to visit my friend at her school and her new roommate raped me, I called my sister and my friend to come to her house right after and they brought me to the hospital and i went to the police station as well. But...
    demiL demiL
    26-30, F
    Sep 25, 2012


    Don't you just wish you can get revenge on the ones in the past? (Only if they deserve it.) I met some very rotten people in real life and it is a painful memory to remember, I sometimes cry in my sleep dreaming about it then waking up and realizing I am crying. My memory is...
    Werewolf01 Werewolf01
    1 Response Oct 16, 2012

    At one time, I was the victim of a *********.

    I went to my parents to have something done about it and they wouldn't listen to me. I understand now the problems rape victims have when attempting to seek justice.
    Mossonarock Mossonarock
    46-50, M
    Feb 11, 2016

    Burned In My Memory...

    I had something terrible happen to me it has scarred me for life. I'm not going to say exactly what it was but I hate when anyone goes through it. But I don't think of it as I'm a victim I'm a survivor. I'm lucky to be alive. And I'm thankful for that. I will always hate the man...
    ThisismeXD ThisismeXD
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 3, 2013

    My Life History Part 1: Finally I have some

    quiet time for myself so now I will share my life history with all of you. I hope I will get some insight I haven't came across before. I was born in China in the 80's. From what I know, my parents never lived just by themselves after marriage. They lived with my paternal...
    Yinhx Yinhx
    31-35, F
    Feb 20, 2016

    My Life History Part 3: Fast forward to the

    first few years being in the USA. I had to learn English from the alphabets. I was 9 years old at the time. The only words I knew before coming was Hi and Ok. This is one of my very first memories when I arrived here. My first elementary school I went was predominately African...
    Yinhx Yinhx
    31-35, F
    1 Response Feb 28, 2016

    I can't seem to move on from past traumatic

    moments and it messes with my head no matter what I do.. I have zero confidence because of psychical and mental abuse and I really wish I could move on and leave it all in the past. I have done amazing support from family and friends and appreciate all the help and everything...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Mar 8, 2016

    I've had mild PTSD for a few years.

    It all started out when me and now my ex-husband bought our first home in a nice suburban neighborhood with wide streets in summer of 2012. We closed in August and 2 days after we move in we discover the AC units wasn't working right so we couldn't use it. We haven't gotten...
    Yinhx Yinhx
    31-35, F
    1 Response Mar 13, 2016

    Watching my father die wishing I had at least

    tried to make an effort to be that one son who was close and knew his father like the back of his own hand.. I never really made and effort to figure out what my father's interests were.. I regret not taking better care if him..... I miss him greatly..
    themoonwalkswithme themoonwalkswithme
    16-17, M
    1 Response Dec 30, 2014

    Because of my past I relive these memories,

    in some form, every night. For the past 11 years I have suffered night terrors that grow increasingly worse once my "tolerance" matches the things I see. I gave up on having them stop, and have just grown to except that sleep is just a prison for me.
    MsBree01 MsBree01
    26-30, F
    Dec 29, 2014

    The Most Painful Memory

    For me is the one that leaves me questioning my pain for years. With no one to relate to or help. The one that fills me with fear and feelings of betrayal and heartache. I can't say it on here just yet, but I'll get there. In the mean time I need to focus on the positive. Its...
    deleted deleted
    Dec 20, 2012

    when I was a child my father was

    so violent so tyrannic with me and my mother and brother??always hurting us , telling us bad things et hitting us so so strong that when he will died I will never see him even at cemetery
    lyllou30 lyllou30
    41-45, F
    Feb 12, 2016

    and I don´t need to struggle to forget them

    because I´ve seen that those memories are branded in my brain forever: The day when a man tried to kidnap my son, those days, when I´ve been attacked (twice in one year), and some horribly memories from my marriage. But although those memories are branded in my brain forever I...
    Loretta78 Loretta78
    36-40, F
    Jan 29, 2016

    Yes, they are horrible,

    but they make me who I am. All the hurt and pain, all these things that happened, continue to shape who I am, if I like it or not. I have gotten better, and will continue to heal. Nightmares are common for me, and usually a nightly thing, along with sleep paralysis, which is...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Feb 11, 2016

    Lies 7...

    I open eyes... I start looking around... it was still dark... then I start asking myslef should I leave?... I couldn't trust this person... then I hear something coming outside from the tiny room I as in... I try to stand up... but it was no use... I couldn't get up until my...
    Newguy3214 Newguy3214
    13-15, M
    4 Responses Aug 6, 2012

    the blood was spilling to the floor.

    I ran to sink, and it poured here. everywhere was red. I felt cold. I was shaking. I couldn't think. I thought I was gonna die, and I would die if I didn't do something. I lost too much blood, I was going to faint. I didn't. I put some towels on it, after some time washed the...
    darklotus01 darklotus01
    13-15, T
    1 Response Feb 12, 2016

    What do you think of this man .

    This man persecuted me and he even wanted to run me over by a car
    Amirhom Amirhom
    36-40, F
    1 Response Oct 4, 2014

    I remember the exact day my father stabbed me.

    I almost died because I lost so much blood. I was flipping 5 years old.
    Jerrichoo Jerrichoo
    16-17, M
    1 Response Dec 29, 2014
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