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I Have Some Horribly Painful Memories

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    I find writing sort of therapeutic

    and I really don't have a problem talking about it it's just not something you really just chat with like you would the weather. I can't say my past was That bad given I have known many with Much worse and some still stuck in a living hell.. But I also know, no matter how big or...
    hitvl hitvl 18-21, F Dec 4, 2013

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    I was never sure if it was a memory

    or a dream until I asked my cousin about it, and she told me it was all true. I remember being on a balcony, with a bunch of adults including my father and aunts. We were at a party. I remember there being a cactus that I had pricked my finger on. But what I remember the most is...
    Victoriaxoxo12 Victoriaxoxo12 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 4

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    Revenge

    Don't you just wish you can get revenge on the ones in the past? (Only if they deserve it.) I met some very rotten people in real life and it is a painful memory to remember, I sometimes cry in my sleep dreaming about it then waking up and realizing I am crying. My memory is...
    Werewolf01 Werewolf01 16-17 1 Response Oct 16, 2012

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    I dont really know what to title this story. about a week ago I went to visit my friend at her school and her new roommate raped me, I called my sister and my friend to come to her house right after and they brought me to the hospital and i went to the police station as well. But...
    demiL demiL 22-25, F Sep 25, 2012

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    ...lies...

    I won't go into details on certain parts but I feel I have to say what's been haunting me for years. One memory was in 8th grade. It's really hard for me to actually like someone more than a friend but I did. I fell in love with a friend who also had a sad past. He wasn't in my...
    theinugirl1 theinugirl1 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 27, 2012

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    Rough Around The Edges...

    I remember being a child... Pure and inocent. I remember trying to be happy and peaceful.... And I remember my father. I was sure he hated himself, he took it out us (mom, sisters and me). We managed to leave when I was 8, but he was always there.... Torturing me, not with fists...
    torturedchild torturedchild 18-21, F Jan 21, 2013

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    Livyn4pals Livyn4pals 46-50, M Sep 13

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    "Death is peace, and you don't deserve peace.

    You deserve to sit in your own pain and agony. You made this throne, and you shall sit on it as it crumbles." These words have always stuck in my head, and with the painful choices I've made, I fear this is going to happen to me. I am scared. And I've wished I could change so...
    Legend12090 Legend12090 16-17, M Nov 28, 2013

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    Lies 7...

    I open eyes... I start looking around... it was still dark... then I start asking myslef should I leave?... I couldn't trust this person... then I hear something coming outside from the tiny room I as in... I try to stand up... but it was no use... I couldn't get up until my...
    Newguy3214 Newguy3214 13-15, M 4 Responses Aug 6, 2012

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    Memories

    Memories suck big time, that is all.
    emmylou82 emmylou82 26-30, F Dec 20, 2012

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    Burned In My Memory...

    I had something terrible happen to me it has scarred me for life. I'm not going to say exactly what it was but I hate when anyone goes through it. But I don't think of it as I'm a victim I'm a survivor. I'm lucky to be alive. And I'm thankful for that. I will always hate the man...
    ThisismeXD ThisismeXD 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 3, 2013

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    Adult Children

    My adult children are now in their thirties. They were sweet and affectionate when they were little, but as they have grown older the have become callous and mean-spirited. They do not care how much pain they inflict on me. I have a disability. I have suffered physical as...
    hurtbeyondrepair hurtbeyondrepair 51-55 3 Responses Jul 30, 2012

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    The Most Painful Memory

    For me is the one that leaves me questioning my pain for years. With no one to relate to or help. The one that fills me with fear and feelings of betrayal and heartache. I can't say it on here just yet, but I'll get there. In the mean time I need to focus on the positive. Its...
    jkitty93 jkitty93 18-21, F Dec 20, 2012

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    When I was 13 my first real boyfriend abused me

    physically, emotionally,mentally and sexually. 4 months I put up with it. My mistake was to trust him after he cheated on me. After that was when it all started. One memory I suppressed so deep that I don't know it happened until I got a flashback. A few years after that...
    Mandy94 Mandy94 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 8

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    Loner

    I am a loner, I dont have a gigantic group of friends, nobody misses me, I'm never the first person anybody looks for in a crowded room. I'm just me. Take it or leave it.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 6, 2012

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    Let Learn How To Love One Another Life Is Too Short.

    AT EVERY POINT IN TIME, LETS GIVE THANKS TO ALL MIGHTY ALLAH AND REMEMBER THE NEEDY ALWAYS. NOTHING IS TOO SMALL TO ASSIST YOUR FELLOW MAN. IS GOOD TO LEARN HOW TO SHARE, NO MATTER HOW LITTLE RESOURCES YOU HAVE. PLEASE MY BROTHERS AND SISTER SHARE WHAT YOU HAVE WITH THOSE THAT...
    biran29 biran29 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 12, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    Things have always been rough for me... Here's why my life sucks... 1) my parents split when I was 2 2) I'm an only child 3) I was made fun of in elementary school, and barely...
    ashcash97 ashcash97 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    I just relived the only person that ever was a father to me dying again and revisited the memory of his funeral. It just hurts all over again. Why can something that happened 14...
    shyguy38 shyguy38 18-21, M Sep 9

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    You know who I am talking to and I have unblocked you for a time because unlike the friends you are deceiving, I will spare you from being the last to know what is going on. After...
    Joseph84 Joseph84 31-35, M 15 Responses 2 days ago

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    This is something I say with my friends at work. People Are always eating peanuts there and thought this would be funny. "Do you want some peanuts?" "Do I want some what...
    Tigerlily53 Tigerlily53 18-21, F Sep 2

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    This goes out to the Islamic State in the East. You know how to avoid problems. You know how to expand and how to inject terror. However, there is one little bit you left out on...
    Fortiplex Fortiplex 16-17, M 1 Response Sep 2

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    I'm honestly not sure if this is insecurity. Maybe jealousy? Maybe it's simply just saddening for obvious reasons. Anyway, my friend and I both started doing something around the...
    KayJayHoeBum KayJayHoeBum 16-17, M 1 Response Sep 4

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    You'd never (at least I think...) guess that I think some of the things I do :/ I feel trapped by them sometimes, as I don't know how to talk/vent and get them off my chest without...
    jdgsui7 jdgsui7 22-25, M 4 Responses Sep 13

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    When I want to sleep I can't, when I don't want to sleep that's all I can do. When I'm hungry I feel sick, when I'm not hungry I'm fine, I want to cry at the simplest things even...
    wedgieshurtalot wedgieshurtalot 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 14

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    Men watch it in private... Women read it in private... some even read among their friends and laugh and some with their spouses and boyfie's... its not fifty shades of grey...
    suziewuzie suziewuzie 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    First marriages are like first cars. Chances are you are going to crash it. You might as well find someone willing to marry you and get it out of the way as soon as possible. You...
    RandomUniverse RandomUniverse 61-65, M 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    And when someone I know is around, something coming out of my mouth. xD My mind is the harborer of endless thoughts and my mouth loves to let them out.
    left4deadspace left4deadspace 16-17, M 2 days ago

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    Everyone always has something on their mind be it good or bad. There's always something there.
    wedgieshurtalot wedgieshurtalot 16-17, F 2 days ago

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    Well basically yh I have unicorns ^.^ I have 10 at the moment....I use to have 30 but the other 20 raped each other and died..now they've gone unicorn heaven...I think Don't...
    xhumairax xhumairax 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 31

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    “We hate some persons because we do not know them; and we will not know them because we hate them,” observed the English writer Charles Caleb Colton
    Tuesdaygone Tuesdaygone 41-45, F Aug 31

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    I have really dirty thoughts all the time like with anal and pee but no one shares them and I really want to rp them, please message me if u can lend a hand :(
    Cuteboy9 Cuteboy9 13-15, M 2 Responses Aug 31

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    I've met alot of different people on experience project...its amazing. I've met alot of people...kind, funny, intelligent people. With some its like I've known them all my life and...
    xhumairax xhumairax 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 31

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    I have a story Which begins with every corner of my heart drawing a line to the center of my heart, all surrounded by emotions and every emotion hanged with a vein as they run...
    Starz93 Starz93 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 31

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    OK, first off these rules were stolen (but I did say I was going to use them) from shygirl214, but they are absolutely perfect, so I'm going to post them here: Seriously! Ok, I'm...
    wondergirl18 wondergirl18 18-21, F Sep 1

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    I got jungle fever jus something about......
    longnblack longnblack 26-30, M 2 Responses Sep 2

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    A few. Got discriminated against. By a club. That i starved to join. For being poor. And gimped. Came online to cope. Found ep. And peers. Cared for too...
    Livyn4pals Livyn4pals 46-50, M Sep 5

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    No seriously. Like how did i end up drawing a picture of a humanoid bird while listening to Screeching Weasels and all the while my mind's distracted by some story involving Vin...
    sevenforasecret sevenforasecret 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 5

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    Hmm next week I might be going kickboxing seriously I can't wait but im a bit nervous aswell :) Well I'll post something about it if I go
    xhumairax xhumairax 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 13

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    I wanted to say this because I want people to know something about me. For as long as I can remember I have been alone. I have been treated like a mutant and feel like one...
    cloudycarnage cloudycarnage 13-15, M 1 Response Sep 13

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    Life isn't perfect, but I will and can tell you this. I'm much stronger than I was before. I've learned that no matter how much planning, regardless of preparation many things...
    ichooselife ichooselife 36-40, F Sep 13

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    I joined ep because I felt alone and upset even if I did have friends but eveythings so much better now and I don't feel like that anymore so I'm just on here to help others so if...
    xhumairax xhumairax 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 14

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    Hey I'm in the mood for some hard kinky dares to do, message me or comment down below with you ideas please
    mastersmith mastersmith 18-21, M Sep 14

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    I really need some female foot play i need to smell them and rub them :]
    Bbailey84 Bbailey84 26-30 Sep 17

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    You may disagree, but you know it's true. It is okay for a man to hit a women-IF SHE COMMITTED IT FIRST. It's not okay to abuse her because you feel like it or want to. If she...
    DestreyTheUndead DestreyTheUndead 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 17

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    My fear is my teeth my falling out I don't have enough calcium in my body and I always have nightmares of my teeth falling out . They're not perfect but that's just one of my fears...
    HisEmmy HisEmmy 13-15, F Sep 19

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    How do some people live with a very ignorant view in day to day life. Working in retail I see this everyday. Oh this pet food says it's the only natural pet food so I want it...
    ValhallaAwaits ValhallaAwaits 18-21, M Sep 20

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    I am genophobic and gynophobic... There it's true such an odd combination in fact the worst combination of fears I feel anyway. Well I'm xenophobic in general anyway. But there you...
    HelterSkelter1 HelterSkelter1 22-25, M Sep 20

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    Ok I don't understand This guy said he love me. Well I feel the same way too. But he is like wanting me to see his d1ck. I mean not everyone we chat he ask but a few times this...
    definiteintegral definiteintegral 16-17, F Sep 20