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I Have Some Horribly Painful Memories

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    I find writing sort of therapeutic

    and I really don't have a problem talking about it it's just not something you really just chat with like you would the weather. I can't say my past was That bad given I have known many with Much worse and some still stuck in a living hell.. But I also know, no matter how big or...
    hitvl hitvl 22-25, F Dec 4, 2013

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    Lies 7...

    I open eyes... I start looking around... it was still dark... then I start asking myslef should I leave?... I couldn't trust this person... then I hear something coming outside from the tiny room I as in... I try to stand up... but it was no use... I couldn't get up until my...
    Newguy3214 Newguy3214 13-15, M 4 Responses Aug 6, 2012

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    I was never sure if it was a memory

    or a dream until I asked my cousin about it, and she told me it was all true. I remember being on a balcony, with a bunch of adults including my father and aunts. We were at a party. I remember there being a cactus that I had pricked my finger on. But what I remember the most is...
    Victoriaxoxo12 Victoriaxoxo12 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 4, 2014

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    I remember the exact day my father stabbed me.

    I almost died because I lost so much blood. I was flipping 5 years old.
    Jerrichoo Jerrichoo 13-15, M 1 Response Dec 29, 2014

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    Revenge

    Don't you just wish you can get revenge on the ones in the past? (Only if they deserve it.) I met some very rotten people in real life and it is a painful memory to remember, I sometimes cry in my sleep dreaming about it then waking up and realizing I am crying. My memory is...
    Werewolf01 Werewolf01 16-17 1 Response Oct 16, 2012

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    The Most Painful Memory

    For me is the one that leaves me questioning my pain for years. With no one to relate to or help. The one that fills me with fear and feelings of betrayal and heartache. I can't say it on here just yet, but I'll get there. In the mean time I need to focus on the positive. Its...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 20, 2012

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    Burned In My Memory...

    I had something terrible happen to me it has scarred me for life. I'm not going to say exactly what it was but I hate when anyone goes through it. But I don't think of it as I'm a victim I'm a survivor. I'm lucky to be alive. And I'm thankful for that. I will always hate the man...
    ThisismeXD ThisismeXD 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 3, 2013

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    Let Learn How To Love One Another Life Is Too Short.

    AT EVERY POINT IN TIME, LETS GIVE THANKS TO ALL MIGHTY ALLAH AND REMEMBER THE NEEDY ALWAYS. NOTHING IS TOO SMALL TO ASSIST YOUR FELLOW MAN. IS GOOD TO LEARN HOW TO SHARE, NO MATTER HOW LITTLE RESOURCES YOU HAVE. PLEASE MY BROTHERS AND SISTER SHARE WHAT YOU HAVE WITH THOSE THAT...
    biran29 biran29 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 12, 2012

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    Because of my past I relive these memories,

    in some form, every night. For the past 11 years I have suffered night terrors that grow increasingly worse once my "tolerance" matches the things I see. I gave up on having them stop, and have just grown to except that sleep is just a prison for me.
    MsBree01 MsBree01 22-25, F Dec 29, 2014

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    ...lies...

    I won't go into details on certain parts but I feel I have to say what's been haunting me for years. One memory was in 8th grade. It's really hard for me to actually like someone more than a friend but I did. I fell in love with a friend who also had a sad past. He wasn't in my...
    theinugirl1 theinugirl1 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 27, 2012

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    What do you think of this man .

    This man persecuted me and he even wanted to run me over by a car
    Amirhom Amirhom 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 4, 2014

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    Watching my father die wishing I had at least

    tried to make an effort to be that one son who was close and knew his father like the back of his own hand.. I never really made and effort to figure out what my father's interests were.. I regret not taking better care if him..... I miss him greatly..
    themoonwalkswithme themoonwalkswithme 13-15, M 1 Response Dec 30, 2014

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    Adult Children

    My adult children are now in their thirties. They were sweet and affectionate when they were little, but as they have grown older the have become callous and mean-spirited. They do not care how much pain they inflict on me. I have a disability. I have suffered physical as...
    hurtbeyondrepair hurtbeyondrepair 51-55 3 Responses Jul 30, 2012

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    Memories

    Memories suck big time, that is all.
    emmylou82 emmylou82 26-30, F Dec 20, 2012

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    bmo9 bmo9 36-40, M Dec 29, 2014

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    Loner

    I am a loner, I dont have a gigantic group of friends, nobody misses me, I'm never the first person anybody looks for in a crowded room. I'm just me. Take it or leave it.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 6, 2012

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    ...

    I dont really know what to title this story. about a week ago I went to visit my friend at her school and her new roommate raped me, I called my sister and my friend to come to her house right after and they brought me to the hospital and i went to the police station as well. But...
    demiL demiL 22-25, F Sep 25, 2012

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    When I was 13 my first real boyfriend abused me

    physically, emotionally,mentally and sexually. 4 months I put up with it. My mistake was to trust him after he cheated on me. After that was when it all started. One memory I suppressed so deep that I don't know it happened until I got a flashback. A few years after that...
    Mandy94 Mandy94 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 8, 2014

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    Rough Around The Edges...

    I remember being a child... Pure and inocent. I remember trying to be happy and peaceful.... And I remember my father. I was sure he hated himself, he took it out us (mom, sisters and me). We managed to leave when I was 8, but he was always there.... Torturing me, not with fists...
    torturedchild torturedchild 18-21, F Jan 21, 2013

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    "Death is peace, and you don't deserve peace.

    You deserve to sit in your own pain and agony. You made this throne, and you shall sit on it as it crumbles." These words have always stuck in my head, and with the painful choices I've made, I fear this is going to happen to me. I am scared. And I've wished I could change so...
    Legend12090 Legend12090 16-17, M Nov 28, 2013

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