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I Have Some Horribly Painful Memories

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    I remember the exact day my father stabbed me.

    I almost died because I lost so much blood. I was flipping 5 years old.
    Jerrichoo Jerrichoo 13-15, M 1 Response Dec 29, 2014

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    Revenge

    Don't you just wish you can get revenge on the ones in the past? (Only if they deserve it.) I met some very rotten people in real life and it is a painful memory to remember, I sometimes cry in my sleep dreaming about it then waking up and realizing I am crying. My memory is...
    Werewolf01 Werewolf01 16-17 1 Response Oct 16, 2012

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    I dont really know what to title this story. about a week ago I went to visit my friend at her school and her new roommate raped me, I called my sister and my friend to come to her house right after and they brought me to the hospital and i went to the police station as well. But...
    demiL demiL 22-25, F Sep 25, 2012

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    Let Learn How To Love One Another Life Is Too Short.

    AT EVERY POINT IN TIME, LETS GIVE THANKS TO ALL MIGHTY ALLAH AND REMEMBER THE NEEDY ALWAYS. NOTHING IS TOO SMALL TO ASSIST YOUR FELLOW MAN. IS GOOD TO LEARN HOW TO SHARE, NO MATTER HOW LITTLE RESOURCES YOU HAVE. PLEASE MY BROTHERS AND SISTER SHARE WHAT YOU HAVE WITH THOSE THAT...
    biran29 biran29 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 12, 2012

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    Memories

    Memories suck big time, that is all.
    emmylou82 emmylou82 26-30, F Dec 20, 2012

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    Watching my father die wishing I had at least

    tried to make an effort to be that one son who was close and knew his father like the back of his own hand.. I never really made and effort to figure out what my father's interests were.. I regret not taking better care if him..... I miss him greatly..
    themoonwalkswithme themoonwalkswithme 13-15, M 1 Response Dec 30, 2014

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    Burned In My Memory...

    I had something terrible happen to me it has scarred me for life. I'm not going to say exactly what it was but I hate when anyone goes through it. But I don't think of it as I'm a victim I'm a survivor. I'm lucky to be alive. And I'm thankful for that. I will always hate the man...
    ThisismeXD ThisismeXD 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 3, 2013

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    "Death is peace, and you don't deserve peace.

    You deserve to sit in your own pain and agony. You made this throne, and you shall sit on it as it crumbles." These words have always stuck in my head, and with the painful choices I've made, I fear this is going to happen to me. I am scared. And I've wished I could change so...
    Legend12090 Legend12090 16-17, M Nov 28, 2013

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    What do you think of this man .

    This man persecuted me and he even wanted to run me over by a car
    Amirhom Amirhom 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 4, 2014

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    The Most Painful Memory

    For me is the one that leaves me questioning my pain for years. With no one to relate to or help. The one that fills me with fear and feelings of betrayal and heartache. I can't say it on here just yet, but I'll get there. In the mean time I need to focus on the positive. Its...
    jkitty93 jkitty93 18-21, F Dec 20, 2012

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    Adult Children

    My adult children are now in their thirties. They were sweet and affectionate when they were little, but as they have grown older the have become callous and mean-spirited. They do not care how much pain they inflict on me. I have a disability. I have suffered physical as...
    hurtbeyondrepair hurtbeyondrepair 51-55 3 Responses Jul 30, 2012

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    Because of my past I relive these memories,

    in some form, every night. For the past 11 years I have suffered night terrors that grow increasingly worse once my "tolerance" matches the things I see. I gave up on having them stop, and have just grown to except that sleep is just a prison for me.
    MsBree01 MsBree01 22-25, F Dec 29, 2014

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    ...lies...

    I won't go into details on certain parts but I feel I have to say what's been haunting me for years. One memory was in 8th grade. It's really hard for me to actually like someone more than a friend but I did. I fell in love with a friend who also had a sad past. He wasn't in my...
    theinugirl1 theinugirl1 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 27, 2012

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    Loner

    I am a loner, I dont have a gigantic group of friends, nobody misses me, I'm never the first person anybody looks for in a crowded room. I'm just me. Take it or leave it.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 6, 2012

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    Lies 7...

    I open eyes... I start looking around... it was still dark... then I start asking myslef should I leave?... I couldn't trust this person... then I hear something coming outside from the tiny room I as in... I try to stand up... but it was no use... I couldn't get up until my...
    Newguy3214 Newguy3214 13-15, M 4 Responses Aug 6, 2012

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    I find writing sort of therapeutic

    and I really don't have a problem talking about it it's just not something you really just chat with like you would the weather. I can't say my past was That bad given I have known many with Much worse and some still stuck in a living hell.. But I also know, no matter how big or...
    hitvl hitvl 18-21, F Dec 4, 2013

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    When I was 13 my first real boyfriend abused me

    physically, emotionally,mentally and sexually. 4 months I put up with it. My mistake was to trust him after he cheated on me. After that was when it all started. One memory I suppressed so deep that I don't know it happened until I got a flashback. A few years after that...
    Mandy94 Mandy94 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 8, 2014

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    bmo9 bmo9 31-35, M Dec 29, 2014

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    Rough Around The Edges...

    I remember being a child... Pure and inocent. I remember trying to be happy and peaceful.... And I remember my father. I was sure he hated himself, he took it out us (mom, sisters and me). We managed to leave when I was 8, but he was always there.... Torturing me, not with fists...
    torturedchild torturedchild 18-21, F Jan 21, 2013

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    I was never sure if it was a memory

    or a dream until I asked my cousin about it, and she told me it was all true. I remember being on a balcony, with a bunch of adults including my father and aunts. We were at a party. I remember there being a cactus that I had pricked my finger on. But what I remember the most is...
    Victoriaxoxo12 Victoriaxoxo12 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 4, 2014

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    The uncle I suspect of raping me died this Monday... And memories started to haunt me again. All the things I keep inside... Most of them are about my grandmother. He used to live...
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    I was 5 years old when I promised myself I would never try methamphetamine. Like most nights I woke up and couldn't get back to sleep so I went in my grandma's room and laid in her...
    Sapphic33 Sapphic33 26-30, F 8 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    So I was talking to my friend yesterday and I realized that I was never hugged as a kid. Idk I just didn't. Any memory I do have of hugs It was because my parents did something...
    SkollHati SkollHati 18-21, M 5 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    When I was younger I was always envious of my brother who was 3 years younger than me. Both of my parents were working, therefore my grandparents would babysit us until they pick...
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    This year 2014! I want to do something different this year instead of new years resolutions I'm doing past year reflections as I notice this years resolutions i didn't even met...
    MilweePetite MilweePetite 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 29, 2014

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    I have something to say... Something, there I said it. ;)
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    I grew up in a family full of mental illness. So I always had a fear of going crazy. I feared for my mental health since I was old enough to understand things like that. I made...
    DarkwingGoslyn DarkwingGoslyn 31-35 5 days ago

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    The universe functions in perfect balance. There is nothing out of order other than the stressful beliefs we cling to. Thoughts of fear and lack tell you that you are small...
    Injoy1767 Injoy1767 46-50, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    you don't get to choose if you got hurt in this world.. but you do have some say in who hurts you..
    li17 li17 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    Thanks to a lot accidents I don't feel much at all. My nerves are dead. I can't feel a hug. I can barely feel when someone holds my hand. I can't tell if I'm holding onto something...
    shyguy38 shyguy38 18-21, M 17 hrs ago

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    "All this bad blood here Won't you let it dry? It's been cold for years Won't you let it lie?" -Bastille I haven't heard this song in forever but these lines have been stuck in...
    OBuddyOpal OBuddyOpal 13-15, F Jan 8

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    I can't stand to be around sick people. they **** me off. I spent a good part of my childhood watching my step-dad (adopted dad) die a. painful slow death. colon cancer
    angierose2014 angierose2014 36-40, F a week ago

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    A smile danced upon the edges of my lips, when the memory of you flashed in my mind. Remembering me, on your lap. The notion of the 'Oreo game', playing out. You always let me have...
    ASoldiersLoveBug ASoldiersLoveBug 22-25, F Jan 5

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    when you have come to know love.. what else should be lacking..? when it is not even close to love itself.. then is it just a comfort zone..? when I close my eyes and hold...
    li17 li17 26-30, F 11 hrs ago

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    Any form of prayer, meditation, stillness, or connecting with your heart is a way of “calling” the divine/infinite intelligence/higher self/cosmic source/love/intuition...
    Injoy1767 Injoy1767 46-50, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    They're in my room somewhere. My friend hid pills in my room. I'll tear my room apart until I find them. I hate sobriety.
    gothstan gothstan 16-17, M 1 Response Dec 29, 2014

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    If you are in love with someone that you agreed to do a friends with benefits thing with and they know. STOP that crap right now because they don't really care about you. Or if you...
    mypawshaveprints mypawshaveprints 18-21, F Dec 29, 2014

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    PARENTS!!!!!! If you have children n they believe in Santa Claus u do NOT have to tell them just let them read starting now- Dear _your_name_here__ Your parents lied to you...
    unicorns345 unicorns345 13-15, M Dec 31, 2014

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    Repair the jet plane already! Geez, is it gonna take you another light year to do so? :P I'm kidding! But you knew that already because you're very merciful. Oh! I must also...
    greeksterman greeksterman 18-21, M Jan 1

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    The beginning of 2014 brought two important people into my life. Both of which I met on EP. When joining this site over a year ago, I wasn't looking for friendship or an...
    Macy21 Macy21 36-40, F Jan 1

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    Hair. I have peachfuzz on my stomach, chest, back, and some on my face, I hate it, and honestly thinking about waxing it
    Stormi33 Stormi33 18-21, F Jan 2

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    The group "I Want to Know if You Think I'm Attractive Lol" doesn't even serve a purpose. People who KNOW that they're attractive post pictures just for attention and extra...
    queenettejeanette queenettejeanette 13-15, F 4 Responses Jan 3

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    I don't know what it was, but as we were laying there that first night, you were telling me something that I had already pretty much pieced together, I told you briefly about my...
    NewBeginnings77 NewBeginnings77 31-35, F Jan 4

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    My cheeks are hot with embarrassment😳I got a notification from some girl on my friends list and saw this.. She made a commented saying it was about me just incase I didn't know...
    Mama86 Mama86 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 4

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    This has to be one if the best posts I've seen on tumblr. If you feel physically ill, you get to stay home from school to stop other kids from getting your illness or because you...
    nowimawarrior nowimawarrior 13-15, F 4 Responses Jan 5

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    At the time of healing from a major break up, I decided to again, search myself and do a massive self reflection. Yesterday, I started reading a pocket book about some teachings...
    guhint guhint 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 5

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    It's almost comical and a harsh reality that you can fall in love yet fail to love yourself, both physically and mentally. which really makes you doubt yourself. And that, is...
    LegitimateRabbit LegitimateRabbit 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 6

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    It breaks my very soul. And I want to write some Bullshit massive paragraph in all caps exclaiming something cringy on Facebook and I can't. I'm glad it exists. I'm hurt that it...
    LegitimateRabbit LegitimateRabbit 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 8