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I Have Some Horribly Painful Memories

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    Adult Children

    My adult children are now in their thirties. They were sweet and affectionate when they were little, but as they have grown older the have become callous and mean-spirited. They do not care how much pain they inflict on me. I have a disability. I have suffered physical as...
    hurtbeyondrepair hurtbeyondrepair 51-55 3 Responses Jul 30, 2012

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    Revenge

    Don't you just wish you can get revenge on the ones in the past? (Only if they deserve it.) I met some very rotten people in real life and it is a painful memory to remember, I sometimes cry in my sleep dreaming about it then waking up and realizing I am crying. My memory is...
    Werewolf01 Werewolf01 16-17 1 Response Oct 16, 2012

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    Burned In My Memory...

    I had something terrible happen to me it has scarred me for life. I'm not going to say exactly what it was but I hate when anyone goes through it. But I don't think of it as I'm a victim I'm a survivor. I'm lucky to be alive. And I'm thankful for that. I will always hate the man...
    ThisismeXD ThisismeXD 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 3, 2013

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    Loner

    I am a loner, I dont have a gigantic group of friends, nobody misses me, I'm never the first person anybody looks for in a crowded room. I'm just me. Take it or leave it.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 6, 2012

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    What do you think of this man .

    This man persecuted me and he even wanted to run me over by a car
    Amirhom Amirhom 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 4, 2014

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    The Most Painful Memory

    For me is the one that leaves me questioning my pain for years. With no one to relate to or help. The one that fills me with fear and feelings of betrayal and heartache. I can't say it on here just yet, but I'll get there. In the mean time I need to focus on the positive. Its...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 20, 2012

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    Because of my past I relive these memories,

    in some form, every night. For the past 11 years I have suffered night terrors that grow increasingly worse once my "tolerance" matches the things I see. I gave up on having them stop, and have just grown to except that sleep is just a prison for me.
    MsBree01 MsBree01 22-25, F Dec 29, 2014

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    "Death is peace, and you don't deserve peace.

    You deserve to sit in your own pain and agony. You made this throne, and you shall sit on it as it crumbles." These words have always stuck in my head, and with the painful choices I've made, I fear this is going to happen to me. I am scared. And I've wished I could change so...
    Legend12090 Legend12090 16-17, M Nov 28, 2013

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    When I was 13 my first real boyfriend abused me

    physically, emotionally,mentally and sexually. 4 months I put up with it. My mistake was to trust him after he cheated on me. After that was when it all started. One memory I suppressed so deep that I don't know it happened until I got a flashback. A few years after that...
    Mandy94 Mandy94 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 8, 2014

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    I remember the exact day my father stabbed me.

    I almost died because I lost so much blood. I was flipping 5 years old.
    Jerrichoo Jerrichoo 13-15, M 1 Response Dec 29, 2014

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    I was never sure if it was a memory

    or a dream until I asked my cousin about it, and she told me it was all true. I remember being on a balcony, with a bunch of adults including my father and aunts. We were at a party. I remember there being a cactus that I had pricked my finger on. But what I remember the most is...
    Victoriaxoxo12 Victoriaxoxo12 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 4, 2014

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    Let Learn How To Love One Another Life Is Too Short.

    AT EVERY POINT IN TIME, LETS GIVE THANKS TO ALL MIGHTY ALLAH AND REMEMBER THE NEEDY ALWAYS. NOTHING IS TOO SMALL TO ASSIST YOUR FELLOW MAN. IS GOOD TO LEARN HOW TO SHARE, NO MATTER HOW LITTLE RESOURCES YOU HAVE. PLEASE MY BROTHERS AND SISTER SHARE WHAT YOU HAVE WITH THOSE THAT...
    biran29 biran29 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 12, 2012

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    ...lies...

    I won't go into details on certain parts but I feel I have to say what's been haunting me for years. One memory was in 8th grade. It's really hard for me to actually like someone more than a friend but I did. I fell in love with a friend who also had a sad past. He wasn't in my...
    theinugirl1 theinugirl1 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 27, 2012

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    bmo9 bmo9 36-40, M Dec 29, 2014

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    Lies 7...

    I open eyes... I start looking around... it was still dark... then I start asking myslef should I leave?... I couldn't trust this person... then I hear something coming outside from the tiny room I as in... I try to stand up... but it was no use... I couldn't get up until my...
    Newguy3214 Newguy3214 13-15, M 4 Responses Aug 6, 2012

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    ...

    I dont really know what to title this story. about a week ago I went to visit my friend at her school and her new roommate raped me, I called my sister and my friend to come to her house right after and they brought me to the hospital and i went to the police station as well. But...
    demiL demiL 22-25, F Sep 25, 2012

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    Watching my father die wishing I had at least

    tried to make an effort to be that one son who was close and knew his father like the back of his own hand.. I never really made and effort to figure out what my father's interests were.. I regret not taking better care if him..... I miss him greatly..
    themoonwalkswithme themoonwalkswithme 13-15, M 1 Response Dec 30, 2014

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    Rough Around The Edges...

    I remember being a child... Pure and inocent. I remember trying to be happy and peaceful.... And I remember my father. I was sure he hated himself, he took it out us (mom, sisters and me). We managed to leave when I was 8, but he was always there.... Torturing me, not with fists...
    torturedchild torturedchild 18-21, F Jan 21, 2013

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    Memories

    Memories suck big time, that is all.
    emmylou82 emmylou82 26-30, F Dec 20, 2012

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    I find writing sort of therapeutic

    and I really don't have a problem talking about it it's just not something you really just chat with like you would the weather. I can't say my past was That bad given I have known many with Much worse and some still stuck in a living hell.. But I also know, no matter how big or...
    hitvl hitvl 22-25, F Dec 4, 2013

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    "Someone like you" by Adele :(
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    It's not really the songs themselves that make me cry, it's the memories that go with them.
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    I am tired of pleasing people who are cruel, and uncaring of my own feelings. I can only bear so much of your burdens before it destroys me. I am tired of fighting for something...
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    Does anyone here have experience being the kid that was covered in freckles? I did and it was not fun!
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    So, I went on about 3 dates with this guy. I knew he didn't want anything serious & that was fine with me. He even had me meet his 12 yr old daughter. Anyhow, 2 weeks ago, I asked...
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    My whole childhood is built on drugs, mothering my sister, being the one to make sure everything's okay, and being the strong one. Memories of my childhood aren't all bad. I have...
    Flower124 Flower124 18-21 Aug 16

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    I just found an old journal of mine. I had to be 15 or 16 years old. I was a tortured soul to say the least. After reading it no wonder I'm so much of a loner. In the beginning it...
    solojo solojo 31-35, M 1 Response Aug 15

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    Yeah, so, i think that kids are growing up too fast I don't know. I mean i am still a kid but still. When i was 13 i was still playing with my friends outside. And now, girls are...
    AnjaM98 AnjaM98 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 15

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    It coud be hell some nights...
    alexsomebody alexsomebody 22-25, M 2 Responses Aug 13

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    I am about to take the stand at court which I have never done before.. I am a witness to something and I have never been in this position before. I have very bad anxiety I get...
    LuvLostSoul LuvLostSoul 26-30, F Aug 13

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    Usually it has something to do about my future; if I'll get accepted into a good college, if I'll find a passion and succeed in life. Basically if I'll ever be good enough. Right...
    misanthropicpessimist misanthropicpessimist 13-15, F Aug 13

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    Sleepovers become raggers Juice becomes alcohol Candy becomes weed Butter knives become razor blades Scraped knees become slit wrists Death becomes a trend Love becomes...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 8 Responses Aug 12

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    It's strange to explain. Some sort of an eating disorder maybe... When I was young, I was neglected and had to scrounge around to get food of any kind. Then when I was placed in...
    disneyalltheway disneyalltheway 18-21, F Aug 11

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    In 5th grade it was a popular thing in my class to rate people's looks and personality on a scale of 1-10. It was mainly the girls that did it because they thought they were cooler...
    MeltingGlassHeart MeltingGlassHeart 26-30, M 3 Responses Aug 10

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    There are some great people in this world and I have come to realize that yesterday I met my twin! She's a great person and we get each other . Family is all I got after all that...
    Bennythebull7 Bennythebull7 13-15, M 2 Responses Aug 10

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    Mooooooo ( I'm with "bringmethemoon" :-)
    cashetty69 cashetty69 51-55, M Aug 10

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    How much do we have to sacrifice until its enough ? do we really have to give up so much sometimes?.. Why does a heart beat for the wrong person, if its never meant to be?.. Why...
    Starz93 Starz93 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 9

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    When I had no job, no one bothered. People found ways to demotivate me. When I started working for a reputed company with a good pay , people wanted to be friends for selfish...
    deceptiveoutofcloset deceptiveoutofcloset 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 9

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    terrors memories that should be forgotten
    masterLLL masterLLL 56-60, M 2 Responses Aug 9

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    Weather my childhood beatings or combat issues I have nightmares nightly now, The past don't define me ive adapted and acceapted but still have those aweful memories
    Averageguy41011 Averageguy41011 41-45, M 3 Responses Aug 8