I Have Some Soul Searching to Do

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 514 People

    Becoming Me

    I left a sexless marriage. I left a husband who cared very little for my emotional well being. In that leaving my house was sold and my children, family and friends are all trying to get comfortable with the new normal. My marriage was mortally flawed the day my husband decided...
    carpediem2 carpediem2
    36-40, F
    Oct 3, 2013

    Once Again I Find Myself Questioning....

    I have been with my husband for half my life. However, we didn't get married until 2008. He always wanted to marry me, it was I that did not feel as though I REALLY REALLY wanted to. We have 2 children, 12 and 9. I love this man but I can't help but to think to myself...
    reachable reachable
    2 Responses Jul 15, 2010

    The Bottom

    hello world... im just a eighteen yr old girl that just wants to find happiness .. i have very few family its just me my brother mom and dad. we are not close. i rather be gone or work then be at this house. i use to have alot of friends but them i staRTED blowing them off when i...
    ohbabykrissyxo ohbabykrissyxo
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Aug 2, 2011

    Blackfoot Prayer

    To Our Creator, To Our Spirits [guides Animal and Human and more] most High.. To Our ancestors of wisdom & experience... From the East, the South, the West, and the North And within the colors of our different skins and the colors of intelligent designs Hear me, hear us, our...
    esronCounsel esronCounsel
    36-40, M
    Jul 21, 2013

    Gardening Of The Soul

    . . . . change one letter, Soul into Soil. What is good for one is good for the other. *smile* Your soil is the first thing to think about when it comes to having a good healthy garden. Without good soil you won't have good results. In order to understand how to better your...
    MorningBreeze MorningBreeze
    56-60, F
    5 Responses May 31, 2011

    Finding The True Me

    I don't know who I am a an individual. I see all these people walking around showing off the type of people they are good or bad. And I can't show off anything. I don't know who I am or where I belong. I don't know exactly what my soul searches for or what will make me truly...
    GettingOverShit GettingOverShit
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Aug 17, 2013


    So right now I am in my first year of college, and never before has the question of "what I'm going to do" been so frequently asked. My problem is not knowing what I'm going to do, it's knowing when and how I'm going to do it, because I pretty much want to do everything...
    jude89 jude89
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 15, 2009

    My Life

    I am 19 years old, with two children, and just can't find my purpose. I turn to alcohol out of boredom because I do not know anything else I want to do. I want to be a good father and a good son. I've attempted to just stop everything and start fresh, but it feels as if I just...
    Cookiemonster1993 Cookiemonster1993
    18-21, M
    Jan 20, 2013

    I Feel Like I'm In Limbo

    I'm turning 36 in a month and it's pushed me to do some deep reflecting and soul searching within. Divorced at 31 after a not so satisfying relationship of 10yrs I find myself in the same type of relationship only this one has been much more damaging. I also graduate...
    idived idived
    36-40, F
    5 Responses Apr 13, 2009

    I Am Creating My Own World

    I have a quote I wrote out and left it out for deeper study. It started a long path of soul searching. I hope I always continue to search my soul, it is the core of my being. The Divine created this beautiful world for us to enjoy and live on. We all walk our own path. All unique...
    MorningBreeze MorningBreeze
    56-60, F
    7 Responses Aug 17, 2013

    How Do You Soul Search? I Need To Do Some, Feeling Confused About My Life.

    I've been with my partner for 6 years, were engaged and for the very most of the time like most couples, we are very happy. We live together, we have a laugh together and love eachother alot. He's twice my age and has 5 children (i have none)- but this does not bother me and has...
    Feb 3, 2013

    This Is Not It.

    I know in my heart that this is not all there is to my life. I'm not happy most of the time at home, and work is wonderful but not totally stable yet. Something has to change in order for me to be able to see or accept happiness, something that I want so badly. I have never...
    rottenrobi rottenrobi
    46-50, F
    1 Response Sep 13, 2012

    Self Discovering

    These words are from "Letters To A Poet" by ~ Rainer Maria Rilke Be patient towards all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves like locked rooms and like books that are written in a foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be...
    MorningBreeze MorningBreeze
    56-60, F
    6 Responses Sep 12, 2010


    I have been in a relationship for over a year and found myself very unhappy. I have issues with trust and am working on it to better myself, but in the mean time my relationship doesn't seem that it will get any better. We are two people who live like roommates instead of a...
    FloatingSoul FloatingSoul
    1 Response Feb 10, 2012

    Examination Of Love

    I have made a discovery! lol... on a very serious note..... I have been asking myself lately ..."Why haven't i found love?" The answer hit me upside my head till my brain hurts but my soul... is enlightened! It is because I did not love myself!!!! I did not demand the respect...
    MorningBreeze MorningBreeze
    56-60, F
    3 Responses Jun 4, 2011

    I'm On That Road

    taking personality quizzes as much as i could, reading old stuff i wrote, old journals, old songs, old stuff...just trying to find ME again, and be ME. sometimes, we do have to take a step outside the person we've been and realize the person we're meant to be---the person we...
    mistyeyedlass mistyeyedlass
    18-21, F
    Apr 14, 2009

    Once Again I Find Myself Questioning....

    I have been with my husband for half my life. However, we didn't get married until 2008. He always wanted to marry me, it was I that did not feel as though I REALLY REALLY wanted to. We have 2 children, 12 and 9. I love this man but I can't help but to think to myself...
    reachable reachable
    Jul 15, 2010

    I Have Been A Martyr.

    Its been a long week and I have made a very disturbing discovery about myself. I am a martyr and have been playing this game for for too long with myself.  I don't mean that I go around complaining to friends, family and acquaintances about my life.  In fact it is the absolute...
    TKD1 TKD1
    51-55, F
    Sep 15, 2013

    I'm Begging, Please Let Me Get Through This

    I've never had to face decisions like these, I don't really know how to handle them. For the first time in my life I feel alone, surrounded by people that never have and never will respect me. I gave my all to them and they gladly sat there and took it from me. I have truly...
    Tripjointswithdope Tripjointswithdope
    22-25, M
    May 30, 2012

    I Don't Know.

    I used to be this vibrant, happy, social person. I would get occasional stress, but it wasn't anything i couldn't handle. Now, I can't seem to have the energy to do anything but work, homework, and sleep. I hate my life how it is, and I don't like the direction I'm going. I...
    Soliloquoy Soliloquoy
    18-21, F
    Oct 17, 2012

    But I'll Do It Later!

    I am a bit tired to start soul searching today, I'll add it to my to do list and then I'll get to it. I hope I don't find anything unfixable!
    LordVoldemort LordVoldemort
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Apr 14, 2009

    I want a "steady" relationship with God.

    I was born a Christian and my family's active in church. But Im sad and embarrased to say, that my faith isn't that strong. So I guess I need to pack my things up and go somewhere far from here and clear my mind and soul. I need to find myself. I need to make peace with myself...
    Spencer024 Spencer024
    26-30, F
    Mar 4, 2015

    Introspection and Insomnia

     I am really struggling with what my future is going to look like.  I have been in an unhappy marriage for a long time (24 years).  There have been brief periods of relative contentment...but it has never been healthy or complete.  It is not a relationship...
    invisiblewife invisiblewife
    41-45, F
    13 Responses Feb 15, 2009

    The Short End Of The Stick...

    After a brutally lean winter financially it has been good to get back to work as a landscape contractor -my 'regular' job. The workload has been okay, but not abundant enough to turn anything down. I work solo most of the time as I generally don't have any bigger projects that I...
    VTMarkus VTMarkus
    46-50, M
    1 Response Jun 3, 2012

    Wanna Know

    Wanna know,Where life's going,Lately,Don't like it,Need out,Know what I want,It's a matter,How to get it,I think,I've waited long enough.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket
    46-50, M
    Jan 19, 2012

    At the time of healing from a major break up,

    I decided to again, search myself and do a massive self reflection. Yesterday, I started reading a pocket book about some teachings from Taoism and it helped me a lot. The year end of 2014 wasn't okay for me and my dad lost his job (my education provider). That was a lot to take...
    guhint guhint
    22-25, F
    Jan 5, 2015

    I Know What I Want

    Perhaps it's not really soul searching if you already know what you want from life.  The epiphany is over, now it's a matter of figuring out how to make it happen.  I guess there is still soul searching involved, because you'll loose yourself if you don't pay attention...
    intothewoods intothewoods
    1 Response Dec 27, 2008
    deleted deleted
    Jan 6, 2015

    Why Am I Here?

    I am 22. My mom passed away last year, my father hasn't contacted me in 3 months, my younger brother is in the custody of an aunt and uncle who I do not have a good relationship with, my grandparents have all passed away. I am essentially alone. I truly wonder what my purpose is...
    SN21 SN21
    4 Responses Nov 27, 2012

    Feeling Lost

    I have recently split with my first and only love! we were in my first same sex relationship and i adored the ground she walked on, we truly loved each other. I thought she was perfect for me, my family, did not! They said things like "she isn't right for you, you have been brain...
    lostheart87 lostheart87
    1 Response Jun 6, 2013

    Trying To Find Myself Out There, Somewhere.

    I've been doing a lot of soul searching lately. What I've come to realise is that I'm lost. I feel as if I've been lost for a long time. Not in a physical sense; more of an emotional or spiritual sense I suppose. 'Why am I here?' is a question that has always bothered me. There...
    LeBonBon LeBonBon
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jun 17, 2013

    The Positives Of Soul Searching

    Sometimes I find it useful to do some soul-searching. That way I can find something out about myself that can hopefully make me a better person and to find some inner-peace. I used to write a lot, like heaps and as I was mentally clearing out my past (letting go), I came across...
    Skye90 Skye90
    22-25, F
    Oct 25, 2013

    Crystal Clear

    When we are upset, it's easy to blame others. The true cause of our feelings, however, is within us. For example, imagine yourself as a glass of water. Now, imagine past negative experiences as sediment at the bottom of your glass. Next, think of others as spoons. When stirred...
    MorningBreeze MorningBreeze
    56-60, F
    10 Responses Nov 10, 2010


    Where does one find a broken soul? Then how does one repair it? Just wondering... Lost mine somewhere..
    shhdonottellhubby shhdonottellhubby
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Sep 10, 2010

    Have You Ever Noticed ....

    When others are set in their ways, they're obstinate, but you are firm and resolved. When your neighbor doesn't like your friend, she's prejudiced, but when you don't like her friend, you are a good judge of human nature. When she tries to treat someone especially well, she is...
    MorningBreeze MorningBreeze
    56-60, F
    8 Responses Sep 21, 2011
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