of this group because that pretty much sums up exactly how I feel.
For whatever reasons, I do not have many *good* memories, I have had A LOT of unfortunate, strange and just plain bad experiences and met some equally strange and mean people.
I am not feeling sorry for...
'happiness' were all illusionary. The only at I find peace in myself is to accept that I am not a generally happy person, though on the outside I may seem to be. Such is life.. the pursuit of happiness would be futile without the deepest grief, or any other human emotion..