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I Have Sucidal Feelings

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    That feeling when everything was going perfect

    then it kicks in. Nobody cares Nobody know how sad You are. Nobody is their for you. All I need is for people to care. I want HIM to care. He thinks im fine. He even knows about the cuts but he doesnt care. Nobody does. If i go now maybe they might notice how unhappy I am.
    PoppyRaye PoppyRaye 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 19, 2013

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    What the hell is the point

    if no one loves me????
    GaleJake GaleJake 13-15, M 3 Responses Mar 17

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    The feeling and thought come

    and go just about every day. It basically doubles when I'm alone.
    Harbinger96 Harbinger96 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 7

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    Its becoming easier and easier to imagine death

    at my own hand. Ive over dosed before and i know how it felt. Im scared of my thoughts.... :(
    seekingpeace19 seekingpeace19 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 1

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    Tonight

    I don't really know how I feel. Sad? Depressed? Alone? Hurt? Does it even matter? I know I hate myself. I hate every inch of my body and every thought I have. I feel cowardly because I find myself at the edge but I just can't bring myself to go over. About half an hour ago I...
    Mintallyill Mintallyill 26-30 7 Responses Mar 11, 2013

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    I Hate This

    I have this feeling inside me again and i can't stand it. I wake up each morning wishing i had not made it through the night and then it kicks in that i have to drag myself through yet ANOTHER day. It is taking over my mind... thinking it over and over ... about what i would do...
    deadinsideout deadinsideout 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 25, 2013

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    My life had been falling apart

    since 1997. Things were falling to pieces. Worst of all my family was leaving me one by one. My uncle in 1999. My father in 2003. My aunt on 2005. My other uncle on 2006. And finally my mom in 2009. I am the only one left. All are in linden hill cemetery. When my mom died it...
    AGothicOdyssey AGothicOdyssey 46-50, M 2 Responses Dec 26, 2013

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    What Should I Do?

    Sorry its a bit long,I am sorry if this sounds really depressing and cliché. My mum and me used to argue a lot, she said she wished she had an abortion and many other things, so i moved in with my dad, 2 years later he got into an argument with my mother and he hit her (knocking...
    myproblem1 myproblem1 16-17, F 4 Responses Oct 17, 2012

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    I'm tired of feeling this way.

    I just want someone to love me . :( I hate everything .
    Brokenpiecesthatsmile Brokenpiecesthatsmile 16-17, F Jan 20

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    To Cut Or Not

    to cut my wrist' or not that is the question
    thompson21 thompson21 26-30, M 2 Responses Aug 22, 2013

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    When I'm not distracted by something else I

    wanted to die almost all the time. Though it's unhealthy but my thoughts in methods of committing suicide are so bizarre sometimes. I don't think I'll ever do it nope, I've tried once and failed. But it's a part of me I can live with now.
    GrumpyGrouchy GrumpyGrouchy 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 2

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    No More...

    ..coz , now , I'm in love with my life. Its hard and everything., but, hey, whats life without different seasons of emotions???
    San051 San051 22-25, F 3 Responses Feb 10, 2011

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    I think about death a lot,

    almost everyday now. I wonder what it would feel like to feel nothing, no pain, stress, nothing. I have attempted suicide twice. I feel alone in this world, no matter how many people I talk to I feel no one will understand me. I have my reason for not wanting to stay alive, but...
    WolfChild12 WolfChild12 16-17, F Apr 2

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    Help

    About two months ago, I was raped by my boss at work. I pretended that it didn't happen and tried to move on, but couldn't so I quit. After that, life has just been a mess. I've talked to lawyers and decided to press charges but the case and my ex co workers are bugged me and...
    MIXXXY MIXXXY 26-30 1 Response Apr 13, 2013

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    I don't really know

    why I've even been feeling like this lately. At first I was just a little depressed, but then it just started getting worse and I started feeling even worse. Now I just keep thinking about suicide and stuff like that's and it's really scaring me. There are sometimes when I...
    Siren10 Siren10 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 26

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    GaleJake GaleJake 13-15, M 1 Response Mar 21

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    Just not in good spirits tonight!

    ! :( kik abb50. Need some new people in my life.
    Abb50 Abb50 18-21, F Jan 1

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    Back From Dead

    Razor blades , 3 cuts, 10 Vicodin , 10 hours of attempted drowning. I slept, tub was red full of my blood. I was leaving my body when paramedics resuscitated me back to life and medi vac'd me to hospital where surgery brought me back to life. Now I have pain and scars and trying...
    Extinguish Extinguish 36-40, M 2 Responses Nov 25, 2012

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    Tired..

    I'm so tired of living.. Pff.
    Suicide16 Suicide16 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 31, 2013

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    Uni

    I've recently come to Uni and have made a good group of friends, they know that i have history of depression but they get upset when i don't ask them for help. I just don't like asking for help.....what do i do?...
    Pyrodude Pyrodude 18-21, M Nov 29, 2013

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    im shaking like crazy from the anorexia.

    I try to control it, but that only makes it worse, and I shake uncontrollably. ive been studying for a chemistry mid-term that I know nothing about. I know im going to fail, and that's about it. I had a good day around people I could connect with, and then I go home and I try to...
    wishingforrecovery wishingforrecovery 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 29

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    Hurting.

    I continually imagine slitting my wrist. What can i do to stop this? I want to be happy and strong but, my life has been a struggle. Im having a hard time getting it started and im very lonely. Being lonely is the worst part. Imagine rarely going out, just sitting around doing...
    Jkrubally Jkrubally 18-21, F Nov 22, 2012

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    I've been looking at different ways to try

    and kill myself. I finally found one that I can... will do. I want too, but I'm hesitant. I keep thinking about everyone I'm going to leave behind. My family, my friends, my girlfriend... What's going to happen when I'm gone? Will they move on? Will they miss me? Are they...
    stellersjay stellersjay 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 21

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    Everything's my fault.

    ....... Why couldn't I have just died?!.... It's what I ******* deserve..... Whatever.... Life sucks and then you die.
    GaleJake GaleJake 13-15, M 2 Responses Apr 1

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    I Dream Of Ending It....

    Does the nervedamage show? .....Is the survival switch tripped?....How can I feel this way when there is nothing tangible to put my fingure on. Am I thus selfish thinking only of my own?....I am so tired feeling this way. I am obliged to carry on, only the thought of cutting...
    Gaspar1111 Gaspar1111 31-35, M 6 Responses Mar 29, 2010

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    Not In Control

    I've felt suicidal what seems like forever, but it's getting worse. The feeling to give up gets stronger and stronger every day. I recently went to my doctors he sent me to see a counsellor. It's not helping, the suicidal feels are getting worse. I don't know what to do. I don't...
    myproblem1 myproblem1 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 3, 2013

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    I Wish I Was A Ghost

    If I was a ghost, at least I'll know people ignoring me are not doing it on purpose. They just can't hear me, can't see me, can't touch me. Unfortunately I'm not. As it's been pointed out many time's by my parents, I'm a burden, I'm a parasite, I'm a problem with no solution. My...
    cursedjelly cursedjelly 22-25, M Jul 25, 2013

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    Death Sounds Great

    Im home alone....... im not loved..... im just a pain.... i just cause problems..... My life as always been my animals and i have always loved my dogs...... now they just get on my nerves..... i dont have patience for them. Im taking care of a baby kitten that its momma was hit...
    Abb50 Abb50 18-21, F Aug 16, 2013

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    I hate humans so much.

    . They make me miserable & I always think of commit suicide .. I'm so tired ..
    sasha2104 sasha2104 31-35, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I've tried and tried to commit suicide

    and one day I will not fail! I hate my life. I hate my past. I hate that I'm judged on everything. I just want the pain to go. I don't actually want to be happy, I just want to be ok.
    HC12345 HC12345 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 12

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    Three years ago I was sucidal.

    Everyone made fun of the way I looked and acted and bullshit. I had my ups and downs on relationships. All this made me a stronger person. I smile in front of people make everyone happy and I'll be happy . But when I'm alone I drive myself insane. I can't stand myself 😣 is...
    Melodyjr Melodyjr 13-15, F Jan 26

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    I Just Want To Let Go

    All I wanted was just to let go, lose control breakdown and have someone say "it's okay." I'm so tired of being in control and having to do everything for everyone and even more tired of the gossip. Aside from using me they have the nerve to talk about me behind my back. I...
    letingo letingo 26-30, F 6 Responses Mar 14, 2010

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    My boyfriend told me loved me.

    He's 35 I'm 19. He told me my age doesn't matter. It did. He told me my skin color didn't matter. It did. He told me he would fight for our love. He didn't. Why? Why tell me this? For my body? But, why? There's plenty other girls. He knew he was my world. He knew he was my...
    ohwee12 ohwee12 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 29, 2013

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    Cant Breathe

    I just cant do this anymore im not able to breathe i will jump i just hope i wont make it alive i hope itll be enough to kill me.
    Unknown95 Unknown95 18-21, F 8 Responses Oct 16, 2013

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    I don't see any other option.

    .. My boyfriend of three years threw me aside like used trash, the day we broke up, he went out on a date with a girl I trusted him with. He says he cares about me, and he "loves" me. He calls his new girl-toy by my name sometimes. He's been there through the hardest time, he was...
    BekkoNisou BekkoNisou 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 3, 2013

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    Many Attemps

    I have tried to OD on pills and I was revived after I hung myself back then my parents put me in a hospital said I did it just for attention now then know I'm gay Im just a "mistake" in their eyes
    Applelovergod Applelovergod 22-25 4 Responses Sep 1, 2013

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    Grrrrrr

    I want to pack a backpack with everything i might possibly need ... not to miss a thing out. I don't want to get it wrong again .... i can't cope with getting it wrong AGAIN!!! The disappointment of not even being able to take your own life is overwhelming. I almost want to...
    deadinsideout deadinsideout 26-30, F 10 Responses Jul 25, 2013

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    Imagine This

    Thinking about ending your life tonight? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you've written and rewritten over and over and...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx 13-15, T 2 Responses Nov 3, 2013

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    Broken

    I have always been sad for as long as I can remember , nothing in my life felt easy , it wood take forever to explain it all but I'm never happy depression has taken over my whole entire life and no matter what pills I take or what people i talk to that feeling never Goes away...
    BrokenNSanity BrokenNSanity 22-25, F 12 Responses Oct 15, 2013

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    I Wish I Dead Alot

    People always act like im not there.most of them ignore my questions.My Family hates me.    My mum when me and my brother fights tells me to get to my room and just leaves him alone.my mum has always loved my brother more and i tell.my dad moved cause he hated his life here...
    xxxunbrokenxxx xxxunbrokenxxx 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 10, 2011

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    I Do Too

    I have suicidal feelings and thoughts frequently. I have for years. I have survived one pathetic attempt many years ago that resulted in horrible feelings of failure and shame. It ended up being something I had to explain to my family It ended up a mess It ended making people a...
    mac885 mac885 51-55, F 2 Responses Mar 13, 2013

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    well, this is my second attempt at writing

    tonight. my first time it was practically an novel and apparently it wasn't mature for people below the age of 18. it was terrible. ive never wanted to die so much in my whole life. ive never needed it so much.ive never been this helpless.
    wishingforrecovery wishingforrecovery 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 25

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    up97 up97 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 29, 2013

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    I Have That Feeling

    i dont know why but from my childhood i have suicidal feeling when i was a kid i often think how i kill myself and now i m a great suicidal most of the time i spend by thinking how i will kill myself when i m on any building i want to jump from there and when i saw any blade or...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Mar 10, 2010

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    I'm laying in bed crying my eyes out!

    I just feel lost and out of place like I don't belong here. I give and give to everyone to make them happy and I get nothing in return, I give in to their wants and needs and no one gives in to mine ever, I'm tired of being here everyday it gets harder to put a smile on when I...
    DontKnowWhatToDoHelp DontKnowWhatToDoHelp 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 20

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    Getting There

    I'm a cutter and a burner and up until a few days that was all. But my "mild" depression went worst and I lost touch with everything good. I sunk into a shell of loneliness and I'm tired of it. My friends abandoned me, everyone sees what's happening but they all turn there heads...
    oOoAllieoOo oOoAllieoOo 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 24, 2012

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    Thoughts

    I think about suicide 24/7. My parents won't allow me to take antidepressants and I have no hope.
    dontletgoholdon dontletgoholdon 18-21, F 10 Responses Aug 11, 2013

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    Harbinger96 Harbinger96 18-21, M 2 Responses a week ago

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