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I Have Sucidal Feelings

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    What Should I Do?

    Sorry its a bit long,I am sorry if this sounds really depressing and cliché. My mum and me used to argue a lot, she said she wished she had an abortion and many other things, so i moved in with my dad, 2 years later he got into an argument with my mother and he hit her (knocking...
    myproblem1 myproblem1 16-17, F 4 Responses Oct 17, 2012

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    I Dream Of Ending It....

    Does the nervedamage show? .....Is the survival switch tripped?....How can I feel this way when there is nothing tangible to put my fingure on. Am I thus selfish thinking only of my own?....I am so tired feeling this way. I am obliged to carry on, only the thought of cutting...
    Gaspar1111 Gaspar1111 31-35, M 6 Responses Mar 29, 2010

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    I have attempted suicide

    before about 4 years ago and I chickened out half way through. I'm in college now and I feel worse, I never really discovered who I am as a person, just been conforming to society and who I'm around. I feel that now is my time but I feel like it would be a waste of time just...
    WolfChild12 WolfChild12 18-21, F Oct 12

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    My life has gotten to the point

    where I just spent the last 20 minutes looking at different suicide methods!
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M Oct 1

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    i let some ******* get under my skin

    so now im really upset and i asked my friends for help but no one is responding... i feel really alone right now and am only staying alive right now because im on vacation with my family and dont want my young cousins to see my body
    kinkykittymeow kinkykittymeow 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 18

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    I've been dealing with a lot lately

    and I just want it to be over with
    chynoweth17 chynoweth17 13-15, F Aug 5

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    "You told me think about it,

    well I did, now I don't want to feel a thing anymore, I'm tired of begging for the things that I want, I'm over sleeping like a dog on the floor. Imagine living like a king some day, a single night without a ghost in the wall, and if the bass shakes the earth underground, we'll...
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 1 Response Jun 22

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    So I'm putting this here cause I have the

    emotional ability too. I've been suicidal since 14, not so much anymore cause I've kinda learned to live with the feelings to an extent but I was on Zoloft and Prozac for a long time until I couldn't afford them anymore so I would go on and of them as they became affordable. So...
    Jak2395 Jak2395 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 16

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    Imagine This

    Thinking about ending your life tonight? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you've written and rewritten over and over and...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx 70+ 2 Responses Nov 3, 2013

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    I'm getting closer. The feelings of despair

    and helplessness are getting louder and louder. Today I lost another Soldier I deployed with to suicide. I'm not sure how much more I can take.
    SignalSarge SignalSarge 46-50, M Aug 12

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    I'm so tired, I'm so tired.

    Maybe I should just take a long nap. Maybe I'll end up in a warm place or a place where the wind will brush against my face where it's feel like I'm sleeping on a cloud. I should end it now, no one would miss me. Believe I know no one will I'm so tired. I'm just so tired....
    LuckyGuy001 LuckyGuy001 13-15, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I feel really sad. Like at this point i dont

    know what to do. I just want to jump out of my window.
    FindingHappinessx3 FindingHappinessx3 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 22

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    Three years ago I was sucidal.

    Everyone made fun of the way I looked and acted and bullshit. I had my ups and downs on relationships. All this made me a stronger person. I smile in front of people make everyone happy and I'll be happy . But when I'm alone I drive myself insane. I can't stand myself 😣 is...
    Melodyjr Melodyjr 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 26

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    Tonight

    I don't really know how I feel. Sad? Depressed? Alone? Hurt? Does it even matter? I know I hate myself. I hate every inch of my body and every thought I have. I feel cowardly because I find myself at the edge but I just can't bring myself to go over. About half an hour ago I...
    Mintallyill Mintallyill 26-30 7 Responses Mar 11, 2013

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    i just for once i dont want thoughts

    or feelings in my head anymore
    elephant17 elephant17 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 21

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    I had an amazing Saturday!

    I spent it at homecoming with the girl I have liked for a long time(the only hard part was fighting my social anxiety so I only thought about the girl I was with) I even asked her out at the end and she said yes! My Sunday was a different story! I didn't get to talk to the girl...
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 1 Response Sep 28

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    Everyday I look on the mirror an think how ugly

    I am and how I want to die. And how no day loves me. I look at the bridge that is in my town and think how much id like to jump.
    Hiimamyimdead Hiimamyimdead 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 25

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    At 21 years of age, I'm just waiting

    until money becomes a concern and I'm out. I will wait until my sister graduates high school so she will have a better understanding. It feels as if I was born into a game I never wanted to play.
    PuckDrop PuckDrop 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 18

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    It was never a thought

    but now suicide is a question
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 13-15, F Aug 10

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    I'm a cutter I haven't cut in 3 weeks

    but not I slipped I cut myself bad
    skyboy4545 skyboy4545 61-65, M 3 Responses Oct 4

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    kei83 kei83 13-15, F Jul 18

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    I thought I was getting better,

    I wasn't having the thoughts as often and I wasn't cutting for about two months but I relapsed and went about another two weeks, then I started getting suicidal thoughts again and they are getting more and more often, I even thought about what I would put on my suicide note if...
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 2 Responses Sep 18

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    I am 14 years old, and I am coming to realize

    that me and my family's relationship is changing. My parents are more supportive towards my younger sibling than they were to me. It seems as though everything I do is wrong around them. Everything I do ticks them off. Why are they like this? They used to be different...
    Cheriko Cheriko 18-21, F Jun 15

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    No More...

    ..coz , now , I'm in love with my life. Its hard and everything., but, hey, whats life without different seasons of emotions???
    San051 San051 22-25, F 3 Responses Feb 10, 2011

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    I never thought I would be the person

    who attempted suicide... but I was wrong
    MADSOUNDS MADSOUNDS 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 12

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    I just want to die. I had to delete my other ep

    account due to harassment. I was raped and I have flashbacks really bad. It makes me so frustrated. I feel like I have no where to turn. And I wouldn't mind if I didn't wake up tomorrow.
    Rayven1997 Rayven1997 16-17, F Aug 1

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    So this isn't easy to say

    but I can't keep it inside anymore. I want to commit suicide, and I've had thoughts about it for a long time now. I'm 16 and I have told my mom, mentor and cousin. They say I need professional help but 3yrs later and still no help. I was thinking about committing it by the end...
    Jb359 Jb359 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 18

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    Today I waited on the train tracks

    as the train was coming somebody pushed me out of the way ... :( Im sad I wish they would have let the train hit me.
    Hiimamyimdead Hiimamyimdead 18-21, F 7 Responses Jun 26

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    Not In Control

    I've felt suicidal what seems like forever, but it's getting worse. The feeling to give up gets stronger and stronger every day. I recently went to my doctors he sent me to see a counsellor. It's not helping, the suicidal feels are getting worse. I don't know what to do. I don't...
    myproblem1 myproblem1 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 3, 2013

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    kei83 kei83 13-15, F 8 Responses Jul 14

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    My parents are talking about robin Williams

    suicide, they are both talking how f**ked up a person must be to commit or even think of it and how selfish they are and everything else they could think of along those lines! If only you knew their son(me) thinks of it every night! I personally think there f**ked up for not...
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 1 Response Aug 11

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    For the love of God!!

    Not to be mean or anything but if you want to end your life there is the internet! You don't need help googling suicide methods. There are sooo many websites. If you really wanted to die you would be dead. You don't have to come on here posting for methods and saying you want to...
    littlegirl03 littlegirl03 18-21, F Jul 22

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    I have since I was 14.

    Last week I overdosed on pills called my friend in a drunken stupor and next thing I know I'm locked in the psych ward for 2 days. The experience has not made the feelings go away. I'm so lonely and depressed I would like for it to all end because I don't know if I can wait too...
    CharmedAmour CharmedAmour 22-25, F 3 Responses May 7

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    A message if you have suicidal feelings/

    everyday I feel like blasting my brains out but I found my purpose of living and nothing will get in my way of achieving it/ find your reason, don't just give up because there's more to life than waking up and looking good/ if it was that/ there wouldn't be any homeless in the...
    JDcent JDcent 16-17, M Jun 16

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    When I'm not distracted by something else I

    wanted to die almost all the time. Though it's unhealthy but my thoughts in methods of committing suicide are so bizarre sometimes. I don't think I'll ever do it nope, I've tried once and failed. But it's a part of me I can live with now.
    GrumpyMe GrumpyMe 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 2

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    I've had suicidal thoughts

    and feelings for ages. I hate my life. I just want to go to sleep and never wake up. I want to end everything. I cant stand my life anymore. everyday is exactly the same. I sleep in, wake up, go on the computer, eat dinner alone in my room, I cut, and then I listen to depressing...
    silentgirl1234 silentgirl1234 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 9

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    I have so much going on in the inside of me I

    feel like nobody understands, I'm trying my best to make it through the day. But I don't feel like I'm going to make it
    Ajstar99 Ajstar99 22-25 2 Responses Sep 21

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    Every time I shower I full up the tub,

    lay down, and hold my breath. I've always known but never admitted to myself that I'm waiting for the time I don't come back up. I leave that as a daily option.
    marchz13 marchz13 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 17

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    Grrrrrr

    I want to pack a backpack with everything i might possibly need ... not to miss a thing out. I don't want to get it wrong again .... i can't cope with getting it wrong AGAIN!!! The disappointment of not even being able to take your own life is overwhelming. I almost want to...
    deadinsideout deadinsideout 26-30, F 10 Responses Jul 25, 2013

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    What the hell is the point

    if no one loves me????
    GaleJake GaleJake 13-15, M 2 Responses Mar 17

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    The thoughts are constant,

    they come much more often, the feelings of worthlessness, hopelessness, anger, fear, depression! I don't know what to do anymore! I coped for a while by cutting but then I tried to quit! I want to start again! I felt something when I did it! Seeing the blood flowing! Without...
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 1 Response Oct 1

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    I Wish I Dead Alot

    People always act like im not there.most of them ignore my questions.My Family hates me.    My mum when me and my brother fights tells me to get to my room and just leaves him alone.my mum has always loved my brother more and i tell.my dad moved cause he hated his life here...
    xxxunbrokenxxx xxxunbrokenxxx 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 10, 2011

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    I openly admitted to my GP today about it right

    in front of my mother not realising she was still there but she know feels really guilty but I dunno whether to be happy that I've finally told someone about it or scared because I'll be questioned upon it soon😭
    Daisyellenrose Daisyellenrose 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 4

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    I Have That Feeling

    i dont know why but from my childhood i have suicidal feeling when i was a kid i often think how i kill myself and now i m a great suicidal most of the time i spend by thinking how i will kill myself when i m on any building i want to jump from there and when i saw any blade or...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Mar 10, 2010

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    Down in it again... I hate to seek attention,

    but I'm trying to stay here... .45 or 12 gauge? What should I do to stop this suffocating feeling?
    PleasePegMe1 PleasePegMe1 36-40, M 1 Response Aug 19

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    kei83 kei83 13-15, F 20 Responses Jul 5

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    My demons are taking over me again

    and I know this time I'm not going be able to fight them off.
    WhatsThePointInLifeAnymore WhatsThePointInLifeAnymore 16-17, M 3 Responses Aug 23

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    Killing oneself is, anyway,

    a misnomer. We don't kill ourselves. We are simply defeated by the long, hard struggle to stay alive. When somebody dies after a long illness, people are apt to say, with a note of approval, "He fought so hard." And they are inclined to think, about a suicide, that no fight was...
    Brokendreams24 Brokendreams24 16-17, F 3 Responses May 7

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    My boyfriend told me loved me.

    He's 35 I'm 19. He told me my age doesn't matter. It did. He told me my skin color didn't matter. It did. He told me he would fight for our love. He didn't. Why? Why tell me this? For my body? But, why? There's plenty other girls. He knew he was my world. He knew he was my...
    ohwee12 ohwee12 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 29, 2013

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    I Do Too

    I have suicidal feelings and thoughts frequently. I have for years. I have survived one pathetic attempt many years ago that resulted in horrible feelings of failure and shame. It ended up being something I had to explain to my family It ended up a mess It ended making people a...
    mac885 mac885 56-60, F 2 Responses Mar 13, 2013

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    What's wrong with me?

    I know my heart is beating but I am numb. I don't feel alive and I can't shake it. I have bouts of depression, I think. I just don't feel a thing, I know why. I want to hear her voice, just one last time. I want to look into her piercing blue eyes, just one last time. I...
    SignalSarge SignalSarge 46-50, M Aug 5

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    So now I am getting therapy,

    it seems to be going very well honestly. Hopefully it stays like this!
    Jb359 Jb359 16-17, F Oct 11

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    Nothing in my life has ever made me want to

    commit suicide more than people's reaction to my trying to commit suicide.
    Brokendreams24 Brokendreams24 16-17, F 2 Responses May 6

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