I Have Sucidal Feelings

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    Well it would be lie

    if I said I don't have suicidal feelings at all anymore but they are tremendously reduced. I used to have them much more. When I was 18 I thought about it the Japanese samurai style. Now the only time I think about it is when I wonder if my life is dream I'm trapped in and...
    Maybeincubus Maybeincubus
    26-30, M
    Jun 28, 2015

    Don't die or kill ya self!

    For all yall going through tough things that you cannot bare and want to end it DON'T. I aint suicidal but I feel for you all. Look you made it this far, why stop now? Heck things kept getting to you but you still here? Get out there and show it who's BOSS! I'll keep yall in my...
    karebeaar karebeaar
    22-25, F
    Aug 1, 2015
    kei83 kei83
    13-15, F
    18 Responses Jul 5, 2014

    About 10 days ago i met the most amazing person

    on here on EP. (to me at least) we started talking and kicked off perfectly. we talked day and night for days. and we knew each other so well it felt like months. but they live really far from me and i just called them last night. we had a conversation and i just woke up to them...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses May 21, 2015

    I have sucidal feels alot

    as late I tried cutting myself I chatted to the. Doctor been put on tablets but none seem to work I hear voices in my head telling. Me to go and kill myself and iam a worthless person ect my moods are relly bad I smashed up my bedroom. And the window I cut my arm doing it...
    Joanne181 Joanne181
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 13, 2015

    i just for once i dont want thoughts

    or feelings in my head anymore
    19BiGirl 19BiGirl
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 21, 2014

    " I don't know what I want in life.

    I don't know what right now. All I know is that I'm hurting so much inside that it's eating me, And one day , There won't be any me left."
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Aug 20, 2015
    0love 0love
    18-21
    1 Response Jun 17, 2015

    I have sucidal feels alot

    as late I tried cutting myself I chatted to the. Doctor been put on tablets but none seem to work I hear voices in my head telling. Me to go and kill myself and iam a worthless person ect my moods are relly bad I smashed up my bedroom. And the window I cut my arm doing it...
    Joanne181 Joanne181
    18-21, F
    Dec 13, 2015

    Sometimes I just feel like I should just kill

    myself. I have nothing to live for. I have no friends, no one that cares for me. I'm always alone and have no one to spend time with. I'm worthless. All I do is go to school and work. I never have anyone that shows they care or gives me attention. I'm always pushed to the side...
    Bitterrsweet Bitterrsweet
    18-21, F
    17 Responses May 25, 2014
    Gina1993 Gina1993
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Jun 6, 2015

    it is getting worse whenever I tried to ignore

    it. although I had the best moment people could get, the best people could met, the best thing people could experienced, but my inner voice won't stop . I feel so cold
    Gina1993 Gina1993
    22-25, F
    Jul 31, 2015

    i just want to end it all already,

    its just to much for me, i can't bear to feel like this anymore, i feel like none is there for me and none cares I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY
    emilybell20 emilybell20
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Nov 12, 2015

    Sometimes I often ask myself

    why am I still here & think negative thoughts.
    Yourfavnextdoor Yourfavnextdoor
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 30, 2015

    I need someone to talk to.

    like. right now
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    11 Responses Nov 16, 2014

    I have sucidal feels alot

    as late I tried cutting myself I chatted to the. Doctor been put on tablets but none seem to work I hear voices in my head telling. Me to go and kill myself and iam a worthless person ect my moods are relly bad I smashed up my bedroom. And the window I cut my arm doing it...
    Joanne181 Joanne181
    18-21, F
    Dec 13, 2015

    I never thought I would be the person

    who attempted suicide... but I was wrong
    MADSOUNDS MADSOUNDS
    13-15, F
    3 Responses Aug 12, 2014

    What if I were to die tonight.

    ..would anyone care????
    andrewvickers andrewvickers
    22-25, M
    7 Responses Jun 26, 2015

    well hello. .....this is my 1st post.

    I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who has kind words and understanding. I have a rare genetic disorder called ehlers-danlos syndrome -type 3. I am in pain everyday and I feel very isolated. I think about suicide daily. What keeps me here is knowing that there are...
    kathyeds kathyeds
    36-40, F
    Jan 12, 2015

    I have sucidal feels alot

    as late I tried cutting myself I chatted to the. Doctor been put on tablets but none seem to work I hear voices in my head telling. Me to go and kill myself and iam a worthless person ect my moods are relly bad I smashed up my bedroom. And the window I cut my arm doing it...
    Joanne181 Joanne181
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 13, 2015

    When I'm not distracted by something else I

    wanted to die almost all the time. Though it's unhealthy but my thoughts in methods of committing suicide are so bizarre sometimes. I don't think I'll ever do it nope, I've tried once and failed. But it's a part of me I can live with now.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 2, 2014

    Imagine This

    Thinking about ending your life tonight? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you've written and rewritten over and over and...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx
    70+
    2 Responses Nov 3, 2013
    AlisCookieMonster AlisCookieMonster
    22-25
    4 Responses Aug 18, 2015

    I thought these feelings were greatly reduced

    but they have begun to surface more since I now feel I may have lost the best friend I've ever had. The only things holding them back are hope for the future and the pain I know it would cause the people who I care about and who care about me.
    Maybeincubus Maybeincubus
    26-30, M
    Dec 13, 2015

    I'm a cutter I haven't cut in 3 weeks

    but not I slipped I cut myself bad
    skyboy4545 skyboy4545
    61-65, M
    2 Responses Oct 4, 2014

    I was just discharged 2 days ago from a 5150

    hold. I had a change of mind while I at the hospital and felt so secure about trying to better myself and promised myself I would try to kill myself again, but I don't know what happened today,.... I want to just die and get these emotions over with
    ghetti24 ghetti24
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Jun 15, 2014
    dqtxeb25 dqtxeb25
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Oct 31, 2015

    This past year has been a hard year

    for me. Everything seems like a struggle. My whole life I had these feeling. I always felt I was meant to suffer. I was about to work through it keep pushing striving for better. Thinks started to go bad for me emotionally when my grandmother died two years later my father my...
    Madmanwithabox29 Madmanwithabox29
    26-30, M
    Jul 19, 2015

    I Dream Of Ending It....

    Does the nervedamage show? .....Is the survival switch tripped?....How can I feel this way when there is nothing tangible to put my fingure on. Am I thus selfish thinking only of my own?....I am so tired feeling this way. I am obliged to carry on, only the thought of cutting...
    Gaspar1111 Gaspar1111
    31-35, M
    6 Responses Mar 29, 2010

    Would they really care?

    Do I really matter to them? Do I mean anything to them? Would their lives be better if I were gone? would the fighting end? Would they change? Would they love each other? If I'm really the cause of all the problems, why shouldn't I just end it? A bullet to the head maybe? It...
    sm1ttay sm1ttay
    16-17, M
    2 Responses May 28, 2015

    sometimes I just wonder like

    if my parents are telling me saying they don't have enough money and **** like I have the feeling they are putting the blame on me...I don't know how to say :( I shouldn't be alive.. I waste a lot of their money.. if I wasn't here they would have more money to travel and give...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Aug 19, 2015

    I have sucidal feels alot

    as late I tried cutting myself I chatted to the. Doctor been put on tablets but none seem to work I hear voices in my head telling. Me to go and kill myself and iam a worthless person ect my moods are relly bad I smashed up my bedroom. And the window I cut my arm doing it...
    Joanne181 Joanne181
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 13, 2015

    I almost don't want to write anything

    because literally no one in my life knows...anything about what hides in my head. why would I tell them now?
    LookingGlassxx LookingGlassxx
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Oct 14, 2015

    im always sad and i have no body to talk to

    or who understands what i feel
    cocooneill cocooneill
    46-50, F
    4 Responses Nov 15, 2015

    I feel like it so much

    but I know I can't do it. The end of the world is coming in 4 years time and I must fight to go to heaven. It is against gods rules to kill oneself.
    Kezio Kezio
    13-15, M
    3 Responses Aug 18, 2015

    I'm about to turn 30

    and I've done nothing with my life. I didn't graduate from high school. I don't have any marketable skills. I don't even have a job. I'm mentally ill to the point that I've had several hospital stays over the last 2 years. I hear voices telling me to kill myself. I see things...
    ParanoidGirl ParanoidGirl
    26-30
    2 Responses Nov 12, 2014

    Nothing in my life has ever made me want to

    commit suicide more than people's reaction to my trying to commit suicide.
    Brokendreams24 Brokendreams24
    18-21, F
    2 Responses May 6, 2014

    I know also that harming myself would be bad

    for others to hear, perceive or know and that gives me pause.
    Maybeincubus Maybeincubus
    26-30, M
    Dec 13, 2015

    At 21 years of age, I'm just waiting

    until money becomes a concern and I'm out. I will wait until my sister graduates high school so she will have a better understanding. It feels as if I was born into a game I never wanted to play.
    PuckDrop PuckDrop
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Aug 18, 2014

    today I seriously thought about committing

    suicide, and not caring how I leave things after.
    LookingGlassxx LookingGlassxx
    22-25, F
    Oct 14, 2015
    Madmanwithabox29 Madmanwithabox29
    26-30, M
    4 Responses Aug 20, 2015

    Killing oneself is, anyway,

    a misnomer. We don't kill ourselves. We are simply defeated by the long, hard struggle to stay alive. When somebody dies after a long illness, people are apt to say, with a note of approval, "He fought so hard." And they are inclined to think, about a suicide, that no fight was...
    Brokendreams24 Brokendreams24
    18-21, F
    2 Responses May 7, 2014

    This was a very common feeling

    for me when I've been in a relationship. I just wanted to give up on life because the one person I wanted didn't wanted me and I was always sticking to being loyal cause that's how I am. And I did allot of crazy things like taking over dose of pills and etc. Up to this day I...
    Kadeez Kadeez
    16-17, F
    1 Response Aug 2, 2015

    Everything is my fault.

    I know that. Everyone is better off without me so I have came up with a plan. I've been so miserable with my life and I can't think of any other way to end the hurt and the upset. This way no one will be burdened by me being here. My parents won't have me being a problem for...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Dec 20, 2014

    Tonight

    I don't really know how I feel. Sad? Depressed? Alone? Hurt? Does it even matter? I know I hate myself. I hate every inch of my body and every thought I have. I feel cowardly because I find myself at the edge but I just can't bring myself to go over. About half an hour ago I...
    Mintallyill Mintallyill
    26-30
    7 Responses Mar 11, 2013

    My boyfriend told me loved me.

    He's 35 I'm 19. He told me my age doesn't matter. It did. He told me my skin color didn't matter. It did. He told me he would fight for our love. He didn't. Why? Why tell me this? For my body? But, why? There's plenty other girls. He knew he was my world. He knew he was my...
    ohwee12 ohwee12
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Nov 29, 2013
    LookingGlassxx LookingGlassxx
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 14, 2015

    My personal experience with Sucidal Feelings

    have always been on and off. On my really awful bad days I would just want God to take me as the pain is too much to handle and the strength you once had to fight is now gone. But even though I've prayed and asked God the same question each and every time, I'm still here, but...
    MissQueenB MissQueenB
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Sep 19, 2015

    I'm so tired of fighting.

    I'm wake up everyday forcing myself to feel happier. I tried!!!! I tried to be good! I tried to make it. But I can't. No one is going to save me. And I don't have the strength to do it myself. I think about how my family would feel if I did it. Would they hate me? Would they...
    Danlor9991 Danlor9991
    22-25, M
    4 Responses Dec 18, 2015
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Aug 17, 2015

    I've written all my letters.

    I think I'm going to end it all. May Satan give me the strength to end my life.
    painseeker16 painseeker16
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Sep 18, 2015

    What's the point of living

    when you're invisible
    YourOneAndOnlyReject YourOneAndOnlyReject
    13-15, F
    4 Responses May 29, 2015

    I Do Too

    I have suicidal feelings and thoughts frequently. I have for years. I have survived one pathetic attempt many years ago that resulted in horrible feelings of failure and shame. It ended up being something I had to explain to my family It ended up a mess It ended making people a...
    mac885 mac885
    56-60, F
    2 Responses Mar 13, 2013
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