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I Have Sucidal Feelings

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    I need someone to talk to.

    like. right now
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Nov 16, 2014

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    About 10 days ago i met the most amazing person

    on here on EP. (to me at least) we started talking and kicked off perfectly. we talked day and night for days. and we knew each other so well it felt like months. but they live really far from me and i just called them last night. we had a conversation and i just woke up to them...
    ThePlaguer ThePlaguer 16-17, M 5 Responses May 21

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    "You told me think about it,

    well I did, now I don't want to feel a thing anymore, I'm tired of begging for the things that I want, I'm over sleeping like a dog on the floor. Imagine living like a king some day, a single night without a ghost in the wall, and if the bass shakes the earth underground, we'll...
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 1 Response Jun 22, 2014

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    nickroman15 nickroman15 16-17, M 1 Response Jun 16

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    i dont normally feel like this,

    just feel like i want to end it all, never to wake up again, i feel used, i know my partner does his best, but i can not stop this feeling of been overwelmed, and i want it to stop, the empitness , most days im good at concealing it, but not today. why is it so hard life, i know...
    briang33 briang33 41-45, M 2 Responses May 14

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    I don't plan to kill myself

    and I don't want to die at this very moment but idk sometimes I just get these thoughts like why am I still here if I'm unhappy, unsettled and can't really find any joy in anything most the time and I just feel like my presence is being wasted because life is just given to you...
    Purplelamb Purplelamb 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 19

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    I don’t know if it is normal to have suicidal

    thoughts, but I do get them from time to time. I don’t understand why I get them, because honestly when my life is good. As long as I remembered I would have thoughts wishing that I would die, for someone to kill me, wishing I was never born and planning on ways on how to kill...
    Secret179688 Secret179688 18-21 Mar 23

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    I truly thought they were gone.

    . But here they are again. My dear old friends. I told them they would come back. Can never stay away for too long... Oh no.. That'd be a tragedy..
    painseeker16 painseeker16 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    Would they really care?

    Do I really matter to them? Do I mean anything to them? Would their lives be better if I were gone? would the fighting end? Would they change? Would they love each other? If I'm really the cause of all the problems, why shouldn't I just end it? A bullet to the head maybe? It...
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 2 Responses May 28

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    “Suicide is not chosen; it happens when pain

    exceeds resources for coping with pain.” Some ignorant ******* today kept saying that people who commit suicide are weak and cowardly and that if they are suicidal they should just do it because we don't need people like them around. He's so dumb. Yes, there are some...
    bandgeekavery bandgeekavery 13-15, T Mar 31

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    Today I waited on the train tracks

    as the train was coming somebody pushed me out of the way ... :( Im sad I wish they would have let the train hit me.
    Hiimamyimdead Hiimamyimdead 18-21, F 7 Responses Jun 26, 2014

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    Everyday I look on the mirror an think how ugly

    I am and how I want to die. And how no day loves me. I look at the bridge that is in my town and think how much id like to jump.
    Hiimamyimdead Hiimamyimdead 18-21, F 5 Responses Jun 25, 2014

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    Ang012685 Ang012685 26-30, F 3 Responses Apr 10

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    I hate when my friend come to me

    and I can't help ??
    NerdyDevinxX NerdyDevinxX 16-17, M 1 Response May 28

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    I know this is going to sound weird

    but I want to od on pain pills. Not to kill my self but to get into the hospital. I'm feeling very depressed and I don't know what else to do.
    ParanoidGirl ParanoidGirl 26-30 4 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    Sometimes I just feel like I should just kill

    myself. I have nothing to live for. I have no friends, no one that cares for me. I'm always alone and have no one to spend time with. I'm worthless. All I do is go to school and work. I never have anyone that shows they care or gives me attention. I'm always pushed to the side...
    Bitterrsweet Bitterrsweet 18-21, F 17 Responses May 25, 2014

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    I've tried ending it a few times.

    He always stops me. I know he cares but I don't want to be here anymore. I don't want to breathe anymore.
    CarefulFriend18 CarefulFriend18 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    When I'm not distracted by something else I

    wanted to die almost all the time. Though it's unhealthy but my thoughts in methods of committing suicide are so bizarre sometimes. I don't think I'll ever do it nope, I've tried once and failed. But it's a part of me I can live with now.
    GrumpyMe GrumpyMe 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 2, 2014

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    trayomis trayomis 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 21

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    Killing oneself is, anyway,

    a misnomer. We don't kill ourselves. We are simply defeated by the long, hard struggle to stay alive. When somebody dies after a long illness, people are apt to say, with a note of approval, "He fought so hard." And they are inclined to think, about a suicide, that no fight was...
    Brokendreams24 Brokendreams24 16-17, F 3 Responses May 7, 2014

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    At 21 years of age, I'm just waiting

    until money becomes a concern and I'm out. I will wait until my sister graduates high school so she will have a better understanding. It feels as if I was born into a game I never wanted to play.
    PuckDrop PuckDrop 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 18, 2014

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    I'm about to turn 30

    and I've done nothing with my life. I didn't graduate from high school. I don't have any marketable skills. I don't even have a job. I'm mentally ill to the point that I've had several hospital stays over the last 2 years. I hear voices telling me to kill myself. I see things...
    ParanoidGirl ParanoidGirl 26-30 2 Responses Nov 12, 2014

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    well hello. .....this is my 1st post.

    I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who has kind words and understanding. I have a rare genetic disorder called ehlers-danlos syndrome -type 3. I am in pain everyday and I feel very isolated. I think about suicide daily. What keeps me here is knowing that there are...
    kathyeds kathyeds 36-40, F Jan 12

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    The pain in my chest is too much.

    Emptiness is killing me slowly. Im relapsing again
    jokerwithamask jokerwithamask 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 5

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    I used to have these feelings all the time.

    .. I tried a couple times but the blade was to dual to do anything except give me a cut so shallow that I didn't hardly bleed at all. I gave up... it was pointless, I mean I walk out the front door and the unknown powers that control this world will send a car my way and I wouldn...
    witchgirl69 witchgirl69 16-17, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Well it would be lie

    if I said I don't have suicidal feelings at all anymore but they are tremendously reduced. I used to have them much more. When I was 18 I thought about it the Japanese samurai style. Now the only time I think about it is when I wonder if my life is dream I'm trapped in and...
    Maybeincubus Maybeincubus 22-25, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    kei83 kei83 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 5, 2014

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    kei83 kei83 13-15, F 8 Responses Jul 14, 2014

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    I never thought I would be the person

    who attempted suicide... but I was wrong
    MADSOUNDS MADSOUNDS 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 12, 2014

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    A message if you have suicidal feelings/

    everyday I feel like blasting my brains out but I found my purpose of living and nothing will get in my way of achieving it/ find your reason, don't just give up because there's more to life than waking up and looking good/ if it was that/ there wouldn't be any homeless in the...
    JDcent JDcent 16-17, M Jun 16, 2014

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    I was just discharged 2 days ago from a 5150

    hold. I had a change of mind while I at the hospital and felt so secure about trying to better myself and promised myself I would try to kill myself again, but I don't know what happened today,.... I want to just die and get these emotions over with
    ghetti24 ghetti24 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 15, 2014

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    I will admit a big part of my life I have self

    harm and also attempted to commit suicide several times I'm here to tell you. it doesn't help , at the moment it might seem like it does but it's a lie and I promise If you ever feel down or need someone to talk to I'm here if you think no one cares think again I care...
    angie314 angie314 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 15

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    My boyfriend told me loved me.

    He's 35 I'm 19. He told me my age doesn't matter. It did. He told me my skin color didn't matter. It did. He told me he would fight for our love. He didn't. Why? Why tell me this? For my body? But, why? There's plenty other girls. He knew he was my world. He knew he was my...
    ohwee12 ohwee12 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 29, 2013

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    0love 0love 18-21 1 Response Jun 17

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    Everything is my fault.

    I know that. Everyone is better off without me so I have came up with a plan. I've been so miserable with my life and I can't think of any other way to end the hurt and the upset. This way no one will be burdened by me being here. My parents won't have me being a problem for...
    Jenezebel Jenezebel 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 20, 2014

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    I thought I had beat this.

    But just the constant isolation for so long is bringing these feelings back really hard. I'm just so tired of always being alone.
    zoezatara zoezatara 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    Okay before you read on,

    know that I will NOT ever kill myself. It's not me. It's just a bad feeling lately. I have a job that's unstable, medical bills so high I get called all day everyday asking when I'll pay them, I had to quit school because I can't pay for it and no financial aid since my dad...
    sheepthatsleeps sheepthatsleeps 18-21, F 1 Response May 28

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    What if I were to die tonight.

    ..would anyone care????
    andrewvickers andrewvickers 22-25, M 8 Responses a week ago

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    My first plan, say Plan "A",

    was about ordering Nembutal over Internet .. I did ... But my parcel has been seized by customs ... So that I now have a Plan "B" ... instead of ordering some stuff over Internet , Plan "B" is about going directly to where I can find the needed stuff , SouthAmerica in this case...
    mybygone mybygone 46-50, M Mar 26

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    carlymgc carlymgc 13-15, F 2 Responses May 29

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    i just for once i dont want thoughts

    or feelings in my head anymore
    elephant17 elephant17 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 21, 2014

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    I think at times, we all feel like suicide

    might be an option. Maybe we're upset, and say it out of frustration and anger hoping someone will care. Sometimes we say it because we think that's what we're supposed to do. Sometimes it's the voice in the darkness, creeping in, whispering awful things. "You're not good enough...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 16, 2014

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    In order to accomplish this I am planning to

    travel to SouthAmerica in April... Btw, my method is sodium pentobarbital ( aka Nembutal ) and I know where it can be found there ... I am 47 years old male ... If you want we can discuss further... you can directly contact me at mybygone(at)gmail(dot)com.. Is there any company...
    mybygone mybygone 46-50, M Mar 4

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    I Do Too

    I have suicidal feelings and thoughts frequently. I have for years. I have survived one pathetic attempt many years ago that resulted in horrible feelings of failure and shame. It ended up being something I had to explain to my family It ended up a mess It ended making people a...
    mac885 mac885 56-60, F 2 Responses Mar 13, 2013

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    Imagine This

    Thinking about ending your life tonight? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you've written and rewritten over and over and...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx 70+ 2 Responses Nov 3, 2013

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    I Dream Of Ending It....

    Does the nervedamage show? .....Is the survival switch tripped?....How can I feel this way when there is nothing tangible to put my fingure on. Am I thus selfish thinking only of my own?....I am so tired feeling this way. I am obliged to carry on, only the thought of cutting...
    Gaspar1111 Gaspar1111 31-35, M 6 Responses Mar 29, 2010

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