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I Have Sucidal Feelings

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    BiXwolfsXbears BiXwolfsXbears 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 10

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    I Dream Of Ending It....

    Does the nervedamage show? .....Is the survival switch tripped?....How can I feel this way when there is nothing tangible to put my fingure on. Am I thus selfish thinking only of my own?....I am so tired feeling this way. I am obliged to carry on, only the thought of cutting...
    Gaspar1111 Gaspar1111 31-35, M 6 Responses Mar 29, 2010

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    I'm a cutter I haven't cut in 3 weeks

    but not I slipped I cut myself bad
    skyboy4545 skyboy4545 61-65, M 4 Responses Oct 4, 2014

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    “Suicide is not chosen; it happens when pain

    exceeds resources for coping with pain.” Some ignorant ******* today kept saying that people who commit suicide are weak and cowardly and that if they are suicidal they should just do it because we don't need people like them around. He's so dumb. Yes, there are some...
    bandgeekavery bandgeekavery 13-15, T Mar 31

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    I can't take it anymore life just isn't worth

    living anymore. For the people I love the most I know you care but it's pointless and won't do you any good. I can't tell anyone that I might actually do it. This app is the best way to get my thoughts and true feelings out...
    Jb359 Jb359 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 22

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    i have that kind of feeling

    since 6th grade & I still think of that feeling when when I'm alone in my sleep
    RodrigoGalindo730 RodrigoGalindo730 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 27

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    Sometimes I just feel like I should just kill

    myself. I have nothing to live for. I have no friends, no one that cares for me. I'm always alone and have no one to spend time with. I'm worthless. All I do is go to school and work. I never have anyone that shows they care or gives me attention. I'm always pushed to the side...
    Bitterrsweet Bitterrsweet 18-21, F 17 Responses May 25, 2014

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    I have these images in my head of my lifeless

    body after taking an overdose of pills and faces of people I know after they find out Im dead...
    jadzullaik3 jadzullaik3 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 12

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    At 21 years of age, I'm just waiting

    until money becomes a concern and I'm out. I will wait until my sister graduates high school so she will have a better understanding. It feels as if I was born into a game I never wanted to play.
    PuckDrop PuckDrop 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 18, 2014

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    Ok things still aren't working out

    and I don't know what to do anymore.My mom got me a therapist but I still feel suicidal. I feel like in order to be free and at peace I need to do this.
    Jb359 Jb359 16-17, F Dec 1, 2014

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    I Have That Feeling

    i dont know why but from my childhood i have suicidal feeling when i was a kid i often think how i kill myself and now i m a great suicidal most of the time i spend by thinking how i will kill myself when i m on any building i want to jump from there and when i saw any blade or...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Mar 10, 2010

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    In order to accomplish this I am planning to

    travel to SouthAmerica in April... Btw, my method is sodium pentobarbital ( aka Nembutal ) and I know where it can be found there ... I am 47 years old male ... If you want we can discuss further... you can directly contact me at mybygone(at)gmail(dot)com.. Is there any company...
    mybygone mybygone 46-50, M Mar 4

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    About 10 days ago i met the most amazing person

    on here on EP. (to me at least) we started talking and kicked off perfectly. we talked day and night for days. and we knew each other so well it felt like months. but they live really far from me and i just called them last night. we had a conversation and i just woke up to them...
    ThePlaguer ThePlaguer 16-17, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    kei83 kei83 13-15, F 8 Responses Jul 14, 2014

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    kei83 kei83 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 5, 2014

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    I've been having suicidal feelings

    since I was about 13, I'm a coward because I've never cut just the sight of blood scares me. But that doesn't stop me from thinking that I have no purpose being here, I feel like disappearing at times.
    AnaTurtle AnaTurtle 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 18, 2014

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    trayomis trayomis 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 21

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    I'm about to turn 30

    and I've done nothing with my life. I didn't graduate from high school. I don't have any marketable skills. I don't even have a job. I'm mentally ill to the point that I've had several hospital stays over the last 2 years. I hear voices telling me to kill myself. I see things...
    ParanoidGirl ParanoidGirl 26-30 3 Responses Nov 12, 2014

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    I've been thinking about dying a lot these past

    few days. but I don't want to kill myself in that sense. I just want to not exist for a while.
    Cosmicmutt Cosmicmutt 18-21, M Mar 1

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    I know this is going to sound weird

    but I want to od on pain pills. Not to kill my self but to get into the hospital. I'm feeling very depressed and I don't know what else to do.
    ParanoidGirl ParanoidGirl 26-30 4 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    Yesterday, I told my mom I was suicidal.

    Of course she freaked out a little and told my little sister. The shittiest thing I said was probably how my relationship with her feels superficial, but she doesn't understand why. So, now she is going out of her way to try and "help" which is even more annoying. Like come on...
    PuckDrop PuckDrop 18-21, M Feb 27

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    I read my mother messages

    and i saw that she was telling my stepdad that if she disappeared my dad and my grandma would take care of me. I DONT LIKE THAT. I've never cried so much n my life. I can´t imagine my life without her. The only thing i want to do is sleep for ever. She doesnt have a work...
    depressedisanillness depressedisanillness 41-45, F 2 Responses Dec 17, 2014

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    I truly thought they were gone.

    . But here they are again. My dear old friends. I told them they would come back. Can never stay away for too long... Oh no.. That'd be a tragedy..
    painseeker16 painseeker16 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    I was just discharged 2 days ago from a 5150

    hold. I had a change of mind while I at the hospital and felt so secure about trying to better myself and promised myself I would try to kill myself again, but I don't know what happened today,.... I want to just die and get these emotions over with
    ghetti24 ghetti24 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 15, 2014

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    A message if you have suicidal feelings/

    everyday I feel like blasting my brains out but I found my purpose of living and nothing will get in my way of achieving it/ find your reason, don't just give up because there's more to life than waking up and looking good/ if it was that/ there wouldn't be any homeless in the...
    JDcent JDcent 16-17, M Jun 16, 2014

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    Welcome To My Mind The daily election

    concerning suicide is nearing its last poll. Life is great, love is wonderful, I have so much to discover! Life is stupid, love doesn't exist, all things undiscovered are misery. I will work and have a family. I will be loved an appreciated. But the end is the same for...
    metagross metagross 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 30

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    The thoughts and urges are always here

    but there getting worse! Every object I see, I get an image of me killing myself with it! All I've been thinking of today is one question which was "if I would kill myself today, would they notice and since its New Year's Eve, I would give them a day to celebrate my death and a...
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 1 Response Dec 31, 2014

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    Today I waited on the train tracks

    as the train was coming somebody pushed me out of the way ... :( Im sad I wish they would have let the train hit me.
    Hiimamyimdead Hiimamyimdead 18-21, F 7 Responses Jun 26, 2014

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    Nothing in my life has ever made me want to

    commit suicide more than people's reaction to my trying to commit suicide.
    Brokendreams24 Brokendreams24 16-17, F 2 Responses May 6, 2014

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    I always think of doing it

    but I don't try to do it....
    RodrigoGalindo730 RodrigoGalindo730 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 30

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    I will admit a big part of my life I have self

    harm and also attempted to commit suicide several times I'm here to tell you. it doesn't help , at the moment it might seem like it does but it's a lie and I promise If you ever feel down or need someone to talk to I'm here if you think no one cares think again I care...
    angie314 angie314 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 15

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    Everything is my fault.

    I know that. Everyone is better off without me so I have came up with a plan. I've been so miserable with my life and I can't think of any other way to end the hurt and the upset. This way no one will be burdened by me being here. My parents won't have me being a problem for...
    Jenezebel Jenezebel 26-30, F 4 Responses Dec 20, 2014

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    i just for once i dont want thoughts

    or feelings in my head anymore
    elephant17 elephant17 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 21, 2014

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    Imagine This

    Thinking about ending your life tonight? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you've written and rewritten over and over and...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx 70+ 2 Responses Nov 3, 2013

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    I thought I had beat this.

    But just the constant isolation for so long is bringing these feelings back really hard. I'm just so tired of always being alone.
    zoezatara zoezatara 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    When I'm not distracted by something else I

    wanted to die almost all the time. Though it's unhealthy but my thoughts in methods of committing suicide are so bizarre sometimes. I don't think I'll ever do it nope, I've tried once and failed. But it's a part of me I can live with now.
    GrumpyMe GrumpyMe 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 2, 2014

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    I need someone to talk to.

    like. right now
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Nov 16, 2014

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    I never thought I would be the person

    who attempted suicide... but I was wrong
    MADSOUNDS MADSOUNDS 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 12, 2014

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    I don't plan to kill myself

    and I don't want to die at this very moment but idk sometimes I just get these thoughts like why am I still here if I'm unhappy, unsettled and can't really find any joy in anything most the time and I just feel like my presence is being wasted because life is just given to you...
    Purplelamb Purplelamb 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 19

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    A while ago I've ordered Nembutal over Internet

    and got it seized by customs ... SO that the only available option now is to travel somwhere I can find and buy Nembutal in person ... I'm planning to go to Peru ...I know where it can be found/bought there ... But I feel I need someone with me to go throgh all this ... If we...
    mybygone mybygone 46-50, M Mar 12

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    My first plan, say Plan "A",

    was about ordering Nembutal over Internet .. I did ... But my parcel has been seized by customs ... So that I now have a Plan "B" ... instead of ordering some stuff over Internet , Plan "B" is about going directly to where I can find the needed stuff , SouthAmerica in this case...
    mybygone mybygone 46-50, M Mar 26

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    Right now i feel really suicdal.

    I wish there was a way where I can die and no one would even remember I existed, I don't really talk to a lot of people or make myself well known because one day if I really want to die only my family and a couple of other people will even know I existed.
    Babygirl3799 Babygirl3799 16-17, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    i dont normally feel like this,

    just feel like i want to end it all, never to wake up again, i feel used, i know my partner does his best, but i can not stop this feeling of been overwelmed, and i want it to stop, the empitness , most days im good at concealing it, but not today. why is it so hard life, i know...
    briang33 briang33 41-45, M 1 Response a week ago

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    My boyfriend told me loved me.

    He's 35 I'm 19. He told me my age doesn't matter. It did. He told me my skin color didn't matter. It did. He told me he would fight for our love. He didn't. Why? Why tell me this? For my body? But, why? There's plenty other girls. He knew he was my world. He knew he was my...
    ohwee12 ohwee12 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 29, 2013

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    Ang012685 Ang012685 26-30, F 3 Responses Apr 10

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    "You told me think about it,

    well I did, now I don't want to feel a thing anymore, I'm tired of begging for the things that I want, I'm over sleeping like a dog on the floor. Imagine living like a king some day, a single night without a ghost in the wall, and if the bass shakes the earth underground, we'll...
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 1 Response Jun 22, 2014

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