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I Have Sucidal Feelings

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    At 21 years of age, I'm just waiting

    until money becomes a concern and I'm out. I will wait until my sister graduates high school so she will have a better understanding. It feels as if I was born into a game I never wanted to play.
    PuckDrop PuckDrop 22-25, M 2 Responses Aug 18, 2014

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    I need someone to talk to.

    like. right now
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Nov 16, 2014

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    When I'm not distracted by something else I

    wanted to die almost all the time. Though it's unhealthy but my thoughts in methods of committing suicide are so bizarre sometimes. I don't think I'll ever do it nope, I've tried once and failed. But it's a part of me I can live with now.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 2, 2014

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    What if I were to die tonight.

    ..would anyone care????
    andrewvickers andrewvickers 22-25, M 9 Responses Jun 26

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    Soullessangel16 Soullessangel16 16-17, F Aug 17

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    I have never thought

    that in my life I would have feel this low before, bur I have been feeling these kinds of feelings for a while now, and I don't understand it because I am afraid of death, yet I still have these feelings. I have just been under constant stress and depression that these feelings...
    FFPower FFPower 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 6

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    Right now i feel really suicdal.

    I wish there was a way where I can die and no one would even remember I existed, I don't really talk to a lot of people or make myself well known because one day if I really want to die only my family and a couple of other people will even know I existed.
    Abelsgirl1 Abelsgirl1 16-17, F 2 Responses May 15

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    Everything is my fault.

    I know that. Everyone is better off without me so I have came up with a plan. I've been so miserable with my life and I can't think of any other way to end the hurt and the upset. This way no one will be burdened by me being here. My parents won't have me being a problem for...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Dec 20, 2014

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    I just want to jump off the cliff ir cut my arm

    open. I feel like I don't have friends. I feel like I did something wrong to now my exbf. I lost myself. I feel like everyone hates me. Nobody check on me to see if I am ok. I feel alone.
    elephant17 elephant17 18-21, F 2 Responses May 31

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    cameronpolson cameronpolson 16-17, M May 24

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    I will admit a big part of my life I have self

    harm and also attempted to commit suicide several times I'm here to tell you. it doesn't help , at the moment it might seem like it does but it's a lie and I promise If you ever feel down or need someone to talk to I'm here if you think no one cares think again I care...
    angie314 angie314 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 15

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    Today I waited on the train tracks

    as the train was coming somebody pushed me out of the way ... :( Im sad I wish they would have let the train hit me.
    Hiimamyimdead Hiimamyimdead 18-21, F 7 Responses Jun 26, 2014

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    I never thought I would be the person

    who attempted suicide... but I was wrong
    MADSOUNDS MADSOUNDS 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 12, 2014

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    "You told me think about it,

    well I did, now I don't want to feel a thing anymore, I'm tired of begging for the things that I want, I'm over sleeping like a dog on the floor. Imagine living like a king some day, a single night without a ghost in the wall, and if the bass shakes the earth underground, we'll...
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 1 Response Jun 22, 2014

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    Gina1993 Gina1993 18-21, F 7 Responses Jun 6

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    This past year has been a hard year

    for me. Everything seems like a struggle. My whole life I had these feeling. I always felt I was meant to suffer. I was about to work through it keep pushing striving for better. Thinks started to go bad for me emotionally when my grandmother died two years later my father my...
    Madmanwithabox29 Madmanwithabox29 26-30, M Jul 19

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    Madmanwithabox29 Madmanwithabox29 26-30, M 4 Responses a week ago

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    Nothing in my life has ever made me want to

    commit suicide more than people's reaction to my trying to commit suicide.
    Brokendreams24 Brokendreams24 16-17, F 2 Responses May 6, 2014

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    I feel like it so much

    but I know I can't do it. The end of the world is coming in 4 years time and I must fight to go to heaven. It is against gods rules to kill oneself.
    GZPJ GZPJ 13-15, M 4 Responses Aug 18

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    This was a very common feeling

    for me when I've been in a relationship. I just wanted to give up on life because the one person I wanted didn't wanted me and I was always sticking to being loyal cause that's how I am. And I did allot of crazy things like taking over dose of pills and etc. Up to this day I...
    Kadeez Kadeez 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 2

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    About 10 days ago i met the most amazing person

    on here on EP. (to me at least) we started talking and kicked off perfectly. we talked day and night for days. and we knew each other so well it felt like months. but they live really far from me and i just called them last night. we had a conversation and i just woke up to them...
    ThePlaguer ThePlaguer 16-17, M 3 Responses May 21

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    i just for once i dont want thoughts

    or feelings in my head anymore
    elephant17 elephant17 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 21, 2014

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    I try not to overdose.

    ..but these thoughts stay with me for days or weeks...and they wont go... they're in my head, calling me to pick a bottle of pills and take the whole lot... I try not to listen to it so I do something to keep me away..but it hard...
    bpc2415 bpc2415 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 31

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    Ang012685 Ang012685 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 10

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    My boyfriend told me loved me.

    He's 35 I'm 19. He told me my age doesn't matter. It did. He told me my skin color didn't matter. It did. He told me he would fight for our love. He didn't. Why? Why tell me this? For my body? But, why? There's plenty other girls. He knew he was my world. He knew he was my...
    ohwee12 ohwee12 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 29, 2013

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    Well it would be lie

    if I said I don't have suicidal feelings at all anymore but they are tremendously reduced. I used to have them much more. When I was 18 I thought about it the Japanese samurai style. Now the only time I think about it is when I wonder if my life is dream I'm trapped in and...
    Maybeincubus Maybeincubus 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 28

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    0love 0love 18-21 1 Response Jun 17

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    I've been having suicidal feelings

    since I was about 13, I'm a coward because I've never cut just the sight of blood scares me. But that doesn't stop me from thinking that I have no purpose being here, I feel like disappearing at times.
    AnaTurtle AnaTurtle 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 18, 2014

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    carlymgc carlymgc 13-15, F 1 Response May 29

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    Okay before you read on,

    know that I will NOT ever kill myself. It's not me. It's just a bad feeling lately. I have a job that's unstable, medical bills so high I get called all day everyday asking when I'll pay them, I had to quit school because I can't pay for it and no financial aid since my dad...
    sheepthatsleeps sheepthatsleeps 18-21, F 1 Response May 28

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    Sometimes I wonder if i died the next day she

    would care. I just got done quitting my job that was worth staying to go home to deal with college and with my ex. She was once a wife to me and the reason I say ex because she left me during my out of trip job. I lost her and my kid. I'm homeless unloved and she's already move...
    JusDave JusDave 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 17

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    sometimes I just wonder like

    if my parents are telling me saying they don't have enough money and **** like I have the feeling they are putting the blame on me...I don't know how to say :( I shouldn't be alive.. I waste a lot of their money.. if I wasn't here they would have more money to travel and give...
    itsmereesa itsmereesa 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 19

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    I hate when my friend come to me

    and I can't help ??
    NerdyDevinxX NerdyDevinxX 16-17, M 1 Response May 28

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    What's the point of living

    when you're invisible
    YourOneAndOnlyReject YourOneAndOnlyReject 13-15, F 3 Responses May 29

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    Killing oneself is, anyway,

    a misnomer. We don't kill ourselves. We are simply defeated by the long, hard struggle to stay alive. When somebody dies after a long illness, people are apt to say, with a note of approval, "He fought so hard." And they are inclined to think, about a suicide, that no fight was...
    Brokendreams24 Brokendreams24 16-17, F 3 Responses May 7, 2014

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    I'm about to turn 30

    and I've done nothing with my life. I didn't graduate from high school. I don't have any marketable skills. I don't even have a job. I'm mentally ill to the point that I've had several hospital stays over the last 2 years. I hear voices telling me to kill myself. I see things...
    ParanoidGirl ParanoidGirl 26-30 2 Responses Nov 12, 2014

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    Everyday I look on the mirror an think how ugly

    I am and how I want to die. And how no day loves me. I look at the bridge that is in my town and think how much id like to jump.
    Hiimamyimdead Hiimamyimdead 18-21, F 5 Responses Jun 25, 2014

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    nickroman15 nickroman15 16-17, M 1 Response Jun 16

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    Don't die or kill ya self!

    For all yall going through tough things that you cannot bare and want to end it DON'T. I aint suicidal but I feel for you all. Look you made it this far, why stop now? Heck things kept getting to you but you still here? Get out there and show it who's BOSS! I'll keep yall in my...
    karebeaar karebeaar 22-25, F Aug 1

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    it is getting worse whenever I tried to ignore

    it. although I had the best moment people could get, the best people could met, the best thing people could experienced, but my inner voice won't stop . I feel so cold
    Gina1993 Gina1993 18-21, F Jul 31

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    Would they really care?

    Do I really matter to them? Do I mean anything to them? Would their lives be better if I were gone? would the fighting end? Would they change? Would they love each other? If I'm really the cause of all the problems, why shouldn't I just end it? A bullet to the head maybe? It...
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 2 Responses May 28

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    I Do Too

    I have suicidal feelings and thoughts frequently. I have for years. I have survived one pathetic attempt many years ago that resulted in horrible feelings of failure and shame. It ended up being something I had to explain to my family It ended up a mess It ended making people a...
    mac885 mac885 56-60, F 2 Responses Mar 13, 2013

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    I was just discharged 2 days ago from a 5150

    hold. I had a change of mind while I at the hospital and felt so secure about trying to better myself and promised myself I would try to kill myself again, but I don't know what happened today,.... I want to just die and get these emotions over with
    ghetti24 ghetti24 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 15, 2014

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    A message if you have suicidal feelings/

    everyday I feel like blasting my brains out but I found my purpose of living and nothing will get in my way of achieving it/ find your reason, don't just give up because there's more to life than waking up and looking good/ if it was that/ there wouldn't be any homeless in the...
    JDcent JDcent 16-17, M Jun 16, 2014

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    " I don't know what I want in life.

    I don't know what right now. All I know is that I'm hurting so much inside that it's eating me, And one day , There won't be any me left."
    Soullessangel16 Soullessangel16 16-17, F 1 Response a week ago

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    well hello. .....this is my 1st post.

    I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who has kind words and understanding. I have a rare genetic disorder called ehlers-danlos syndrome -type 3. I am in pain everyday and I feel very isolated. I think about suicide daily. What keeps me here is knowing that there are...
    kathyeds kathyeds 36-40, F Jan 12

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