I Have Suffered From Depression For Years

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    If I can't blame anyone else it means it's all

    my fault and I can't take that. So don't tell me to grow up and that I'm responsible for myself. Can't handle it.
    Alex1834 Alex1834
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Mar 29

    I went tubeing today on the back of my cousin's

    jet ski and had a really rude awakening. It was my first time going tubeing in years, so it was a real struggle trying to hold on to that tube and not fall off. The sea water was splashing in my eyes and then the tube started making these huge turns that made it extremely...
    Lynnd520 Lynnd520
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Aug 5, 2015

    Don't make people with depression feel guilty

    for there lack of interest and motivation within things. It can not be helped.
    danyellelakin danyellelakin
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Jun 4, 2015

    How I Feel... In A World Full Of Hate.

    Hi guys, I have a blog in which I pretty much say my beliefs and my feelings etc. I think you might be able to relate since I suffer from depression also : It would be nice to know somebody feels the same as me. Here is the link. http://world-of-perfectionists.blogspot.com.au/2...
    Jtraino Jtraino
    16-17, F
    Nov 6, 2012

    I have had depression

    for quite some years thoughts of feeling no good. And like I'm worthless but now I have support and love within myself b
    Nikkilight25 Nikkilight25
    22-25
    Aug 26, 2015

    Loneliness

    As I get older I notice my depression getting worse and worse. Ever since I was a little kid I always had the hardest time making friends, I was always told I was unique but now I think I'm just too different from other people. I went to a private school and made a few friends...
    swimfast09 swimfast09
    22-25
    2 Responses Jun 28, 2013

    I was so depressed for years,

    I considered taking my life many times, as the voices in my head told me I was worthless and no one loved me. One day I gave Jesus my heart and told him that no Matter what it took I wanted to obey Him. He filled me with peace, set me free from those voices and now I hear them...
    ceruleanwaters ceruleanwaters
    31-35, F
    Mar 2, 2014

    When life is rough, pray.

    -----:------:------:----- Pray, when life is great.
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    16-17, M
    Apr 1

    I survived another day.

    But I don't know if I can be thankful for this right now.
    Alex1834 Alex1834
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 29

    I've suffered depression

    for many years indeed. For the longest time I would just bottle every screwed up thought that I had. In high school I turned to creative writing doing poems/song so that I could go to the deep dark corners of my mind and just call it "art". This worked for quite a while and...
    mattywheels25 mattywheels25
    31-35, M
    Jun 19, 2015

    I am a 22 year old college student,

    who struggles intensive depression for the past three years. Here is my story of facing reality. I described myself as an insecure, complex person. The fact that I created barriers, masks to prevent people seeing through my deepest feeling. It seems other's perspective matters...
    J12Chuang J12Chuang
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Sep 28, 2015

    People confuse depression with just general

    sadness. You cannot just try to feel better or cheer up. When you are depressed, you feel hopeless, helpless, lonely, misunderstood, you may even be in poor health or have chronic pain. Depression is not just being sad; it is an illness that is detrimental to so many parts of...
    XlizrocksY XlizrocksY
    26-30, F
    Sep 1, 2015

    If you call to Him, He will answer you If you

    run to Him, He will run to you If you lift your hands, He will lift you up Draw near to Him, He is here for you Give Him your love, He's in love with you He will heal your heart, He will cleanse your hands If you rend your heart, He will heal your land. Come now praise His name...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    16-17, M
    Mar 31

    For with God nothing will be impossible (Luke

    1:37). There yet is hope for you in Christ. Whatever your problem may be, and however seemingly grave the situation miay be, it is nothing to the Age of Ages. There yet is hope for you in Christ. All other things are void of actual help. Some may help in soothing the problem...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    16-17, M
    Apr 3

    I never write anything down

    when I’m depressed. It seems pointless. Not because I don’t have anything to say, but I feel like anything I write down will be a cliché. Some sad depression poem of how I can’t see a future for myself anymore. And I hate writing cliché’s. It’s so annoying to me. I...
    TrickRTreat17 TrickRTreat17
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jun 6, 2015
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    16-17, M
    Apr 14

    I hate it, it makes every bad emotion

    that much worse. I feel like a zombie again and want to shut out the world.
    ErraticSarcastic ErraticSarcastic
    31-35, F
    1 Response Nov 24, 2015

    Nobody understands that

    even when I'm doing nothing, in my mind I'm moving mountains.
    Alex1834 Alex1834
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Feb 23

    Everyone I talk to these days is disappointed

    in me. Everything I do is wrong everything I say is can't be understood cause I am a screw up. Thank world. I know. Telling me everyday wont help. "oh I don't need to even try to help you cause you don't want help." Thats what my father said. Everyone wants help. Nobody wants to...
    Alex1834 Alex1834
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 1

    How do I face another day,

    when I can't take it? How do I turn another page, when I'm faking? How do I package up the pain, when I can't shake it?
    Alex1834 Alex1834
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Mar 29

    I can't remember how to spell

    or pronounce it, but I was diagnosed with a form of depression that is constant, underlying, and unprovoked. Its a brain chemical issue that I was born with and isn't severe, but I do get really down for little to no reason sometimes. its frustrating when you know you should be...
    RenegadeReaper RenegadeReaper
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 26, 2015

    I don't even bother to explain how I'm feeling

    anymore. They wont get it anyways.
    Alex1834 Alex1834
    16-17, F
    Feb 24

    (I refer this to Christians going through

    TRIALS or/and TEMPTATIONS, lest a fellow wishes to wrongly counter the write-up)  Dear Christians and whomever this may concern, God doesn't give us what we can handle but helps us handle what we are given, because, just as impure gold is passed through fire and made pure, we...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    16-17, M
    Apr 10
    TheMadHatterWasHere TheMadHatterWasHere
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 21
    Sashamendelli Sashamendelli
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Jan 13

    I have been depressed

    for as long as I can remember, but didn't realise what u beat feeling was actually major depression. I thought it was just my personality. In January, I was told by a doctor what I have, and was offered a bunch of treatment which I declined and never went back. since then, I've...
    Itsallahoax Itsallahoax
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Mar 30

    No matter how bad i try to deny it

    or hide it...I still, no matter how bad ive tried fight it, have depression after all these years. Its like a dark cloud that just never goes away haunting you constantly making its presence known just when you think youre getting better. Making damn sure you arent happy for too...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Nov 1, 2014

    My depression comes and goes.

    Sometimes it's bad but not severe other times it's so severe, it becomes a battle I can't over come, a suicidal depression. Recently I was so so depressed that I thought everything was going wrong, I wanted to give up so bad! I hurt my friend, someone said to me that they would...
    juliaek1 juliaek1
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 20, 2014

    Everyone needs compassion,

    a love that's never failing, let mercy fall on us. Everyone needs forgiveness, the kindness of a Savior, the Hope of nations. Savior, He can move the mountains My God is mighty to save. He is mighty to save. Forever, author of Salvation He rose and conquered the grave. Jesus...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    16-17, M
    Apr 3

    And so you don't even try to make something of

    your life cause you couldn't handle the rejection and failure.
    Alex1834 Alex1834
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Feb 24

    If you really think about it -legitimately sit

    and think about it- the idea that this unconquered misery of yours is born of deficient chemicals is quite ridiculous- and furthermore exasperating. The very concept makes you want to dig out that fleshy gray globule in your head, dice it up and lay it out on a stainless steel...
    LittleWhiteRoom LittleWhiteRoom
    18-21, F
    Jul 2, 2015

    20 years str8, treatment resistant.

    ...who can trump me on that? Lol. (Morbid humor)
    TwistedCognition TwistedCognition
    36-40, M
    2 Responses Jan 5

    Sooner or later, we all go through a crucible.

    Most believe there are two types of people who go into a crucible. The ones who become stronger from the experience and survive it, and the ones who die. But there's a third type. The ones who learn to love the fire and choose to stay in their crucible because it's easier to...
    Alex1834 Alex1834
    16-17, F
    Mar 11

    My depression had gotten the best of me.

    My grades have slipped. Now I'm facing a possible academic dismissal.
    DoneAnd0ver DoneAnd0ver
    18-21, F
    Dec 23, 2015

    Everytime I try to do something about my

    depression, it just makes things worse. Life is cruel.
    Mossonarock Mossonarock
    41-45, M
    Aug 26, 2015

    (The following is an article

    that I stumbled upon, that pertained DIRECTLY to the issues and problems that I ha ave been facing since I've been in my teens. This information might be able to help some of you who suffer the same things, and it is presented with the intention and hope that it can help...
    TtotheD TtotheD
    56-60, M
    5 Responses Feb 20, 2014

    I hate the days where it seems a monumental

    task just to get by with the most basic effort. I am actually jealous of people who seem to always be fine. Their life looks peachy while I want to ******* scream just because I woke up again .
    WWB82 WWB82
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jan 23, 2015

    I want to run away from life

    and hide, but no matter where I go the demons are always there pulling me into the pit of despair.
    nevets68 nevets68
    46-50, M
    Feb 10
    pbarn pbarn
    31-35, M
    Jan 23

    For those of you who have lost your desire to

    pray, to sing,I'm asking God to put that melody back in your hearts tonight; cause you to lift your voice, even though you don't understand. Your Father in Heaven loves you, do not forsake Him...do not forget the benefits of the Lord. God bless you.
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    16-17, M
    Apr 1

    I used to go on and off with anxiety

    and then depression. However I never had any suicidal thoughts because I have a slight bit of arrogance thinking that I am very needed. People left and right said I should smoke pot but I'm not about that being asthmatic and such. Finally I found the right anti depressant which...
    ValhallaAwaits ValhallaAwaits
    22-25, M
    Jun 19, 2015

    Used to. Not anymore :) It's weird how things

    can turn around. It took a good 3 years to overcome, but I kicked depressions *** before it killed me. I feel even better than I did before I was depressed, I think it's due to having more pride in myself and realising that I have a value that isn't determined by people's...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Dec 21, 2015

    I've been suffering from acute depression

    for years. I've hidden my illness for a long time because I figured that It would go away as I grow older. However, that has not been the case. I still somewhat suffer from depression, but thanks to God ( That conscious energy and life force ) and a loving family, I always...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Aug 13, 2014

    "You're mad." "Why are you mad at me?

    " I'm not mad. I'm depressed with a resting ***** face.
    JulyArizona JulyArizona
    13-15, F
    Jan 27

    It's been pretty easy to cope with

    for a very long time, thanks to the fact that I stopped self-medicating years ago! But lately, it's been harder and harder to even think I'm a part of anything outside my house, or my laptop. My left is ruined; my right knee is already replaced-over 11 years ago. I'm fairly...
    TtotheD TtotheD
    56-60, M
    1 Response Jul 18, 2014

    And still do. I have my bouts of depression

    quite often about different things. I don't think it will go away anytime soon.
    OldSoulRedux OldSoulRedux
    22-25, F
    Jan 13

    If you don't pray about it

    as much as you complain about it you shouldn't be complaining about it. Sometimes we say we want things to change, but we never go to the one who can bring change. Many times He is just sitting up their waiting to see how bad you want it. When you want something bad enough, you...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    16-17, M
    Mar 29

    I am 17 and have had it all my life

    but I was taken off the medicine in 6th grade and that's when I was forced to deal with it head on.
    Peterpanswifey Peterpanswifey
    18-21, F
    Feb 24

    I am 19 have had severe depression my whole

    life with only a few breaks from it in gaps throughout the years it never seems to go away everything good is just a temporary high it breaks my heart constantly
    cameroncampbell cameroncampbell
    18-21, M
    1 Response May 14, 2015

    The last time I remember being truly happy was

    towards the end of 2009. I had just completed my first year of uni, and spent a few days at a friend's house. We had a great time Christmas shopping and sharing a laugh together just before I went home. That's my most recent happy memory. I had my first depressive episode in May...
    PrettyLes PrettyLes
    26-30, F
    Aug 10, 2015

    who enjoys running? it helps me with my

    depression. I have not done it for couple of years but going to start again this year :)
    pbarn pbarn
    31-35, M
    1 Response Jan 23

    when I have good days,

    I think it's all over, then something triggers it, maybe a noisy neighbour, and the blackness returns and I'm so sad that all these years I've tried to work through it reading self-help books, listening to hypnosis cds, changing my diet, positive thinking etc, then it comes back...
    TLMills TLMills
    36-40, F
    1 Response Mar 30

    Since a very young age,

    i've always felt left out of everything, disconnected from life... Suicidal thoughts hit me like waves. they were strong and made me feel like i was drowning. Yet... i'm still here, i want to end it all but i'm still here, and that's what you need to fight against, that desire...
    CatarinaF CatarinaF
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 14
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