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I Have Suffered From Depression For Years

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    I never write anything down

    when I’m depressed. It seems pointless. Not because I don’t have anything to say, but I feel like anything I write down will be a cliché. Some sad depression poem of how I can’t see a future for myself anymore. And I hate writing cliché’s. It’s so annoying to me. I...
    TrickRTreat17 TrickRTreat17 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 6, 2015

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    I've suffered depression

    for many years indeed. For the longest time I would just bottle every screwed up thought that I had. In high school I turned to creative writing doing poems/song so that I could go to the deep dark corners of my mind and just call it "art". This worked for quite a while and...
    mattywheels25 mattywheels25 31-35, M 2 Responses Jun 19, 2015

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    Don't make people with depression feel guilty

    for there lack of interest and motivation within things. It can not be helped.
    danyellelakin danyellelakin 22-25, F 4 Responses Jun 4, 2015

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    20 years str8, treatment resistant.

    ...who can trump me on that? Lol. (Morbid humor)
    TwistedCognition TwistedCognition 36-40, M 3 Responses Jan 5

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    I am a 22 year old college student,

    who struggles intensive depression for the past three years. Here is my story of facing reality. I described myself as an insecure, complex person. The fact that I created barriers, masks to prevent people seeing through my deepest feeling. It seems other's perspective matters...
    J12Chuang J12Chuang 22-25, M 2 Responses Sep 28, 2015

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    I've been suffering from acute depression

    for years. I've hidden my illness for a long time because I figured that It would go away as I grow older. However, that has not been the case. I still somewhat suffer from depression, but thanks to God ( That conscious energy and life force ) and a loving family, I always...
    agathashelly agathashelly 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 13, 2014

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    It has come to the point

    where I'll burst into tears over one strand of my hair falling out, where I'll start gritting my teeth because I have to get out of bed for the day, just the sound of my stomach growling makes me want to punch my stomach as hard as I can. I feel like I'm waiting for a day that...
    SadlySafe SadlySafe 13-15, F 5 Responses Jan 28

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    Loneliness

    As I get older I notice my depression getting worse and worse. Ever since I was a little kid I always had the hardest time making friends, I was always told I was unique but now I think I'm just too different from other people. I went to a private school and made a few friends...
    swimfast09 swimfast09 22-25 2 Responses Jun 28, 2013

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    "You're mad." "Why are you mad at me?

    " I'm not mad. I'm depressed with a resting ***** face.
    InsecureBlurryface InsecureBlurryface 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 27

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    pbarn pbarn 31-35, M Jan 23

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    I'm ****** up I spend my nights trying to get

    to the bottom of a bottle I have depression Sometimes I debate if I'd want to wake up tomorrow
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Nov 12, 2015

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    Sashamendelli Sashamendelli 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 13

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    The worst time when I'm depressed I usually not

    myself I can't survive without Bella my Labrador Retriever I got Bella for my twenty third birthday back in two thousand and twelve which was a really rough year I was on the verge of committing suicide my old friend Sarah G McDonald didn't know I was suffering and was ready to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 30, 2015

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    I went tubeing today on the back of my cousin's

    jet ski and had a really rude awakening. It was my first time going tubeing in years, so it was a real struggle trying to hold on to that tube and not fall off. The sea water was splashing in my eyes and then the tube started making these huge turns that made it extremely...
    Lynnd520 Lynnd520 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 5, 2015

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    (The following is an article

    that I stumbled upon, that pertained DIRECTLY to the issues and problems that I ha ave been facing since I've been in my teens. This information might be able to help some of you who suffer the same things, and it is presented with the intention and hope that it can help...
    TtotheD TtotheD 56-60, M 5 Responses Feb 20, 2014

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    Feeling really low today.

    Yesterday was a nightmare. Nothing went as planned. Hoping today turns out 1000 times better.
    44SingleFemaleSouthEdm 44SingleFemaleSouthEdm 41-45, F Aug 10, 2015

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    cactie87 cactie87 26-30, M 4 Responses Aug 28, 2015

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    I was so depressed for years,

    I considered taking my life many times, as the voices in my head told me I was worthless and no one loved me. One day I gave Jesus my heart and told him that no Matter what it took I wanted to obey Him. He filled me with peace, set me free from those voices and now I hear them...
    ceruleanwaters ceruleanwaters 31-35, F Mar 2, 2014

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    If you really think about it -legitimately sit

    and think about it- the idea that this unconquered misery of yours is born of deficient chemicals is quite ridiculous- and furthermore exasperating. The very concept makes you want to dig out that fleshy gray globule in your head, dice it up and lay it out on a stainless steel...
    LittleWhiteRoom LittleWhiteRoom 18-21, F Jul 2, 2015

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    I am 19 have had severe depression my whole

    life with only a few breaks from it in gaps throughout the years it never seems to go away everything good is just a temporary high it breaks my heart constantly
    cameroncampbell cameroncampbell 18-21, M 1 Response May 14, 2015

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    It's been pretty easy to cope with

    for a very long time, thanks to the fact that I stopped self-medicating years ago! But lately, it's been harder and harder to even think I'm a part of anything outside my house, or my laptop. My left is ruined; my right knee is already replaced-over 11 years ago. I'm fairly...
    TtotheD TtotheD 56-60, M 1 Response Jul 18, 2014

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    I have had depression

    for quite some years thoughts of feeling no good. And like I'm worthless but now I have support and love within myself b
    Nikkilight25 Nikkilight25 22-25 1 Response Aug 26, 2015

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    I can't remember how to spell

    or pronounce it, but I was diagnosed with a form of depression that is constant, underlying, and unprovoked. Its a brain chemical issue that I was born with and isn't severe, but I do get really down for little to no reason sometimes. its frustrating when you know you should be...
    RenegadeReaper RenegadeReaper 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 26, 2015

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    Today, I'm in blue again.

    The feeling of drowning can be really exhausting. Especially when we have to deal with the same challenge for years. But I don't give up this time. At least, I could still enjoy the beauty at my backyard.
    Reneems Reneems 31-35, F 3 Responses Aug 27, 2015

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    You try to lift me I don't get better What's

    making you happy Is making me sadder In your golden cage all I feel is Strange In your perfect world so Strange I feel so absurd in this life Don't come closer in my arms forever you'll be Strange like me. When you touch me Strange When you kill me Strange All I feel is...
    BrokeAssBxtch BrokeAssBxtch 18-21, F Dec 3, 2015

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    The last time I remember being truly happy was

    towards the end of 2009. I had just completed my first year of uni, and spent a few days at a friend's house. We had a great time Christmas shopping and sharing a laugh together just before I went home. That's my most recent happy memory. I had my first depressive episode in May...
    PrettyLes PrettyLes 22-25, F Aug 10, 2015

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    And still do. I have my bouts of depression

    quite often about different things. I don't think it will go away anytime soon.
    OldSoulRedux OldSoulRedux 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 13

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    Once upon a time there lived a beautiful couple

    who loved each other very much. He had a good job and she had designs of brilliance. They were living with a terrible friend of his, the black dog. Try as they might to get the bastard to leave he just did not and it marred the relationship that was otherwise perfect. As the...
    SoberingBabySteps SoberingBabySteps 31-35, M Aug 26, 2015

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    People confuse depression with just general

    sadness. You cannot just try to feel better or cheer up. When you are depressed, you feel hopeless, helpless, lonely, misunderstood, you may even be in poor health or have chronic pain. Depression is not just being sad; it is an illness that is detrimental to so many parts of...
    XlizrocksY XlizrocksY 22-25, F Sep 1, 2015

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    No matter how bad i try to deny it

    or hide it...I still, no matter how bad ive tried fight it, have depression after all these years. Its like a dark cloud that just never goes away haunting you constantly making its presence known just when you think youre getting better. Making damn sure you arent happy for too...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Nov 1, 2014

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    My depression had gotten the best of me.

    My grades have slipped. Now I'm facing a possible academic dismissal.
    DoneAnd0ver DoneAnd0ver 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 23, 2015

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    Used to. Not anymore :) It's weird how things

    can turn around. It took a good 3 years to overcome, but I kicked depressions *** before it killed me. I feel even better than I did before I was depressed, I think it's due to having more pride in myself and realising that I have a value that isn't determined by people's...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Dec 21, 2015

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    When I'm on Zoloft, the suicidal thoughts are

    not that present but they still are in the back of my head. Not as frequent as before but still present. They emerge faster when I'm alone for a while.
    BrokenNOTcracked BrokenNOTcracked 18-21, F Sep 9, 2015

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    So why tell a sad person to choose that.

    If they want to be gone why say okay. Why say they have to choose. Lately on ep i fight both. Staying And going. One member called his brother wrong For leaving earth. Me called the old moron wrong. Dont hate brother. Fix causes. Then another member said...
    JustBipolarMe JustBipolarMe 46-50, M Jun 18, 2015

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    How I Feel... In A World Full Of Hate.

    Hi guys, I have a blog in which I pretty much say my beliefs and my feelings etc. I think you might be able to relate since I suffer from depression also : It would be nice to know somebody feels the same as me. Here is the link. http://world-of-perfectionists.blogspot.com.au/2...
    Jtraino Jtraino 16-17, F Nov 6, 2012

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    My depression comes and goes.

    Sometimes it's bad but not severe other times it's so severe, it becomes a battle I can't over come, a suicidal depression. Recently I was so so depressed that I thought everything was going wrong, I wanted to give up so bad! I hurt my friend, someone said to me that they would...
    juliaek1 juliaek1 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 20, 2014

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    awlaa awlaa 18-21, M Sep 1, 2015

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    One of the symptoms people have noticed in me is

    that I have lost the 'sparkle' in my eyes. I can't say I've noticed it in myself, but others have. I get a glassy haze when I zone out apparently. My affect feels flat most of the time, which I have noticed.
    PrettyLes PrettyLes 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 13, 2015

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    I have been bullied for a while

    now 3 years i think.. My parents dont believe me and think im being childish.. No one at school talks to me unless its to make fun of me or pity me. I dont know how to talk to people really..i have 0 friends and im pretty depressed. Everyday i hide it a little but its there.. I...
    AyatoMuffin AyatoMuffin 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 7, 2015

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    Everytime I try to do something about my

    depression, it just makes things worse. Life is cruel.
    Mossonarock Mossonarock 41-45, M Aug 26, 2015

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    I thank my lord and savor

    for everything I have wants and needs I came out of my shell for once I see there's hope
    Nikkilight25 Nikkilight25 22-25 Aug 29, 2015

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    I feel like I'm rolling with the emotions

    now that I am back on an antidepressant/antipsychotic 😭 I'm not sad and tearful but I am careless and I satisfied with life.
    BrokenNOTcracked BrokenNOTcracked 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 12, 2015

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    This condition runs in my family,

    and I was diagnosed when I was in 7th grade..
    SentimentalMood SentimentalMood 36-40, F 5 Responses Jun 18, 2015

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    who enjoys running? it helps me with my

    depression. I have not done it for couple of years but going to start again this year :)
    pbarn pbarn 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 23

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    I hate it, it makes every bad emotion

    that much worse. I feel like a zombie again and want to shut out the world.
    ErraticSarcastic ErraticSarcastic 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 24, 2015

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