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I Have Suffered From Depression For Years

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    I was so depressed for years,

    I considered taking my life many times, as the voices in my head told me I was worthless and no one loved me. One day I gave Jesus my heart and told him that no Matter what it took I wanted to obey Him. He filled me with peace, set me free from those voices and now I hear them...
    ceruleanwaters ceruleanwaters 31-35, F Mar 2, 2014

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    No matter how bad i try to deny it

    or hide it...I still, no matter how bad ive tried fight it, have depression after all these years. Its like a dark cloud that just never goes away haunting you constantly making its presence known just when you think youre getting better. Making damn sure you arent happy for too...
    TheKingWizard TheKingWizard 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 1, 2014

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    I just want to get lost

    for a while, my thoughts are killing me... All I want to do is die
    Sadd363 Sadd363 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 15, 2014

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    Sometimes I feel like I could fly…other times,

    I am falling. The latter is my current experience, I'm afraid. I've had this monkey on my back for so long that I don't really remember life without it, if such a thing even existed. I feel like I am alone, even when I am with the people I love. I used to have friends and a...
    LauraCom LauraCom 18-21, F 1 Response May 20, 2014

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    i was bullied for quite a few years

    and that left me with depression at where im at now. ive self harmed to release what i was feeling and ive starved myself to fit their perfect image. i have slight anxiety around going places and talking to new people aswell
    simplyyzoee simplyyzoee 13-15, F Aug 12, 2014

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    It's gotten worse since my father died in Nov

    and I feel real lonely because i spent a lot of time being by his side and taking care of him as he had bad health. Having a really bad night tonight.
    youcantbreakme youcantbreakme 36-40, F 1 Response Aug 15, 2014

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    I Wonder Why

    When you live with depression, you have a lot of time to think about things in general. I try to dissect it daily, I think in hopes of beating it somehow one day. I wonder what about it makes everything so overly painful. I mean excruciatingly mentally painful. It's not...
    VoteForPedro VoteForPedro 51-55, F 3 Responses Jul 8, 2012

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    A lot of people don't know my past story,

    When I was in 6th grade I was diagnosed with depression, I had severe anxiety and I couldn't handle it. I tried over dosing on pain medication but it failed, I ended up in a hospital, then later that year I was diagnosed with anorexia nervosa, I never ate, ever. But I went...
    treya15 treya15 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 4, 2014

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    There's a monster inside of me.

    Yes, a monster. It's not some fairytale creature with large fangs, or a hairy body, no. It's real. I can feel it festering inside of me. It is me. Every day I struggle to keep it down, to shut it out, to quiet it. It's anger swells in my head, I can hear it screaming, with it's...
    edlineuser edlineuser 18-21, F Jul 11, 2014

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    Depression, anxiety,

    and anger can overtake me. The anger is intoxicating, I can feel it radiate through my veins. The depression can be really bad. For years the meds I took worked, I was aware of the depression but could fight it. A month ago it overwhelmed me and I started to shut down. I...
    mslvr01 mslvr01 46-50, M 2 Responses Nov 13, 2014

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    I hate the days where it seems a monumental

    task just to get by with the most basic effort. I am actually jealous of people who seem to always be fine. Their life looks peachy while I want to ******* scream just because I woke up again .
    WWB82 WWB82 31-35, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    My depression comes and goes.

    Sometimes it's bad but not severe other times it's so severe, it becomes a battle I can't over come, a suicidal depression. Recently I was so so depressed that I thought everything was going wrong, I wanted to give up so bad! I hurt my friend, someone said to me that they would...
    juliaek1 juliaek1 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 20, 2014

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    It All Started In 2nd Grade.

    I was bullied since 2nd grade. I moved to a new school and people were nice and then BOOM. we grow up. In 5th grade, I was diagnosed with clinical depression. I don't take pills because my parents don't know about it. I secretly see a therapist. I have cut and I still do and I'm...
    Whisperedcries2 Whisperedcries2 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 24, 2012

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    I really need to talk to someone

    and just vent. I feel like my depression has completely taken over. I don't feel the same anymore. I use to be so happy, funny, loving and caring Nd now I just don't know who I am. I don't really know if I can even call it depression at this point. I try faking I'm happy but idk...
    ArtisticLife ArtisticLife 16-17, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    The Old To The New

    I was a happy child, well loved and loved life. Pretty sheltered Now I think of it, not that I am from a good área, my mum just kept me away from bad kids. I started smoking pot, through boredom at 13. Was smoking every day after about 3 months. I kept a close circle happy being...
    bobby277 bobby277 22-25, M 1 Response Dec 20, 2012

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    I suffered from depression starting in

    elementary school due to being bullied in school and at home. It was on and off in 8th-10th grade. I tried committing suicide for the first time in 3rd grade. I cut in 6th. My insecurity issues got worse in high school and I was basically starving myself to be skinny. Now, I can...
    dashuria dashuria 16-17, F Nov 2, 2014

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    andylovesyou23 andylovesyou23 13-15, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Loneliness

    As I get older I notice my depression getting worse and worse. Ever since I was a little kid I always had the hardest time making friends, I was always told I was unique but now I think I'm just too different from other people. I went to a private school and made a few friends...
    swimfast09 swimfast09 22-25 2 Responses Jun 28, 2013

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    Depression Is An Under-statement.

    Am a 22year old gal living with HIV/AIDS contrated through rape by my Dad. Am the only gal in the family and when my Mum Died, Dad turned me into his wife and raped me every night, when i refused he beat me so bad and threaten to stop paying tuition. Dad died in 2010, making me...
    AINE808 AINE808 18-21 Apr 27, 2012

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    Depression Bcoz I Have No Kid Since 5 Yrs

    guys history s that iam married frm 5 yrs my husband s very nice he s cooperating with me alottt...but sometimes iam feeling very lonely no one s for me my husband with his work but when he come frm office he gave me time but whole day sometimes iam feeling very lonely wht can i...
    sadf30 sadf30 26-30 Sep 25, 2012

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    30 Years Now

    Some periods are more severe than others, but I've suffered off and on since I was ten years old. That was when a horrible, violent crime affected my family and changed the entire landscape of how I viewed the world. My little brother was kidnapped back in 1981, held hostage for...
    lauren71 lauren71 41-45, F 1 Response Feb 24, 2013

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    Will This Monster Ever Leave Me Or Will It Always Haunt Me?

    I have decided that after 12 years of dealing with and taking every medication my doctor has given me to control the monster inside of me and yet MY DEPRESSION is at the worst possible point ever, I can no longer continue my life like this. It controls everything about me and it...
    MomBoye MomBoye 41-45, F 1 Response Oct 4, 2012

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    Suffering From Depression ~

    I have been suffering from varing degrees of depression for almost as long as I can remember. Throughout my teen years and into my early 20`s I delp with it by smothering it with drugs and alcohol. Which anyone knows only makes any problem worse. I now realize this is especially...
    novascotia novascotia 26-30, M Oct 17, 2010

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    (The following is an article

    that I stumbled upon, that pertained DIRECTLY to the issues and problems that I ha ave been facing since I've been in my teens. This information might be able to help some of you who suffer the same things, and it is presented with the intention and hope that it can help...
    TtotheD TtotheD 56-60, M 5 Responses Feb 20, 2014

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    Depression Is Something Which Lots Of People Suffer With But The Extent Of It Varies...

    I'm not sure when it began but i have always had issues which i disliked about myself. the usual silly things which most girls dislike (hair, skin, weight). It seemed o gradually get out of control though, leading to eating disorders, trying desperately to change the way i looked...
    xxmollxx xxmollxx 18-21 2 Responses Oct 16, 2010

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    It started 5 years ago.

    Little by little, I started to drown. That is what depression feels like. Drowning. No matter how hard you try to keep your head above the water, you get dragged back down. It's suffocating. It started as crying. Over nothing. Hours of crying and crying for no reason. I stopped...
    SummerOf22 SummerOf22 18-21, F Jan 8

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    For as long as i can remember.

    ... Never actually sat and thought about it until now tho.
    lehcar1977 lehcar1977 36-40, F Dec 20, 2014

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    On Depression

    i have had depression for most of my adult life.as well as low self esteem.put those together,and it makes for a rough life,as most people know.my brother died,hen i was around 30,im 44 no.i never liked him,he was an alcoholic,was biploar.he was a difficult person to be around...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Nov 24, 2012

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    Been struggle with depression

    since i was 15,now i am 29.I was in and out of mental hospital 4 times.Therapists and psychiatrists didn't help. Those medications only turn me into a zombies and made me feeling groggy. I am trying to deal with my depression everyday.
    Stephanieloveowl Stephanieloveowl 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    shethia shethia 18-21, F 10 hrs ago

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    comfortablynumb4 comfortablynumb4 16-17, F Sep 9, 2014

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    I've been suffering from acute depression

    for years. I've hidden my illness for a long time because I figured that It would go away as I grow older. However, that has not been the case. I still somewhat suffer from depression, but thanks to God ( That conscious energy and life force ) and a loving family, I always...
    agathashelly agathashelly 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 13, 2014

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    Realization

    I just realized tonight that I have suffered from a deep depression for over a decade now. I don't know how I'm still alive. I'm afraid that the years are going to go by and one day I'm going to wake up and realize that I've been depressed for the majority of my life.
    fightthedayaway fightthedayaway 26-30, F 1 Response May 4, 2012

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    For anyone who's been through depression,

    that emptiness...this is a treat to read. Haven't ever read anything I connect more to. http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.in/2013/05/depression-part-two.html?m=1
    SecretsOut14 SecretsOut14 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 14, 2014

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    It's been pretty easy to cope with

    for a very long time, thanks to the fact that I stopped self-medicating years ago! But lately, it's been harder and harder to even think I'm a part of anything outside my house, or my laptop. My left is ruined; my right knee is already replaced-over 11 years ago. I'm fairly...
    TtotheD TtotheD 56-60, M 1 Response Jul 18, 2014

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    I become depressed even

    though nothing is happening in my life which is common for people who suffer on and off for yrs. I also have arthritis in my right knee, and spine. Depression May Worsen Osteoarthritis Pain OA of the knee can cause joint pain, swelling and stiffness. As it worsens, it may begin...
    McCannT12 McCannT12 41-45, F 1 Response Dec 18, 2014

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    Am i undeserving of a mother's love do you

    even love me? i feel like i was a mistake it's like the past all over again where you take everything out on me, i know im not perfect and i know i'm the child that always lets you down, you call me evil, you tell me i'm the reason your prayers dont get answered, what have i...
    sixlives sixlives 22-25, F Nov 1, 2014

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    Ever Since That Death

    Having been raped my Dad, contracting the illness HIV/AIDS, dropping out of school in my first year. Imagine loosing my Dad's property to my Uncles, i was totally left with nothing. For sure what kills people is not illness but depression. Am constanly thinking on how am will...
    AINE808 AINE808 18-21 1 Response Apr 27, 2012

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    My friends think that i am happy

    because i am always laughing. When in reality I am crying myself to sleep wondering if this pain will ever end. It used to be worse I used to cut myself wondering when i would build enough courage to dig deeper and end it, but now I just cry and think that the world doesn't need...
    lolawolf lolawolf 16-17, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I'm 22 And Have Depression

    Not a day goes by that I don't combat it. Combined with my asphergers syndrome it makes life very hear.
    Lux22 Lux22 22-25 2 Responses Jan 12, 2013

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    I love it when tears roll down my eyes.

    And I feel the wet drops of tears all over my face..
    AddictedToSelfDestruction AddictedToSelfDestruction 22-25, M 2 days ago

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    Suffering From Depression ~

    I have been suffering from varing degrees of depression for almost as long as I can remember. Throughout my teen years and into my early 20`s I delp with it by smothering it with drugs and alcohol. Which anyone knows only makes any problem worse. I now realize this is especially...
    novascotia novascotia 26-30, M 1 Response Oct 17, 2010

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    http://m.youtube.com/watch?

    v=TUAc_5e-lvg He explains me soo much.
    hopecatcher hopecatcher 16-17, F May 8, 2014

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    izzybubble000 izzybubble000 26-30, F Aug 10, 2014

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    why do i hate myself?

    ?? well we all have our own reasons as to why we hate our selves ah as years went by up until now there is no one i hate more than myself, i have created my own demons,the demons that haunt me every night, as sleep eludes mei am haunted by gruelling memories of my past. i look...
    sixlives sixlives 22-25, F Nov 4, 2014

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    The Gray Clouds Keep Darkening

    I have never been the "innocently happy type", but you probably guessed that by where this is posted. Other than a suicide attempt the summer before I started high school, I have never really hit rock bottom. Well... there was that attempt on my own life in the Army, but that was...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 9, 2012

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    It's like closing your eyes

    and being in a dark tunnel or pitch black roller coaster and seeing and hearing and feeling everything that's happened or gone wrong or been missing, bad decisions, everything for the past 25 years. And you can feel the drop coming in your stomach but you can't see it and you...
    losthope313 losthope313 31-35, F 23 hrs ago

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    hi, i am 34 year old have suffered from

    tingling, needle pricking and burning sensation 8 month back that time i did test of vit b12 and found it was low i took injection of methylcobalmin for 4 month and recovered but now 1 month before i suffered from same disease tingling and and burning sensation in my foot and...
    gopaljalwal gopaljalwal 31-35, M 1 Response Jun 21, 2014

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    My depression started back in high school

    around fifteen years old. By fourteen I finally knew what being gay was cause I had no idea despite having secret same sex attractions for years prior. What started as depression from loneliness and always being teased at school while hiding my sexuality branched out over the...
    DarkPhoenix1985 DarkPhoenix1985 26-30, M Oct 11, 2014

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    Depression Is Ruining My Life And Everything Around Me

    I just turned 25 and i suffer from anxiety depression I started noticing something was wrong with me around middle school I feel worthless and empty my self of steam is at an all time low its been a very tough time this past yr dealing with this depression is affecting my...
    Drew8728 Drew8728 22-25, M Oct 17, 2012

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    How I Feel... In A World Full Of Hate.

    Hi guys, I have a blog in which I pretty much say my beliefs and my feelings etc. I think you might be able to relate since I suffer from depression also : It would be nice to know somebody feels the same as me. Here is the link. http://world-of-perfectionists.blogspot.com.au/2...
    Jtraino Jtraino 16-17, F Nov 6, 2012

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