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I Have Suffered From Depression For Years

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    It's been pretty easy to cope with

    for a very long time, thanks to the fact that I stopped self-medicating years ago! But lately, it's been harder and harder to even think I'm a part of anything outside my house, or my laptop. My left is ruined; my right knee is already replaced-over 11 years ago. I'm fairly...
    TtotheD TtotheD 56-60, M 1 Response Jul 18, 2014

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    Umm. Since 13, But found ways to cope.

    Advice on rebuilding. Love you first to locate love. EP Link The barriers. EP Link Carlin knew. http://youtu.be/rsL6mKxtOlQ Societys flaw. EP Link Dont believe those who bark unless they teach better. EP Link Try for living happy. EP Link Smile to...
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M 1 Response Apr 27

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    I hate the days where it seems a monumental

    task just to get by with the most basic effort. I am actually jealous of people who seem to always be fine. Their life looks peachy while I want to ******* scream just because I woke up again .
    WWB82 WWB82 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 23

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    No matter how bad i try to deny it

    or hide it...I still, no matter how bad ive tried fight it, have depression after all these years. Its like a dark cloud that just never goes away haunting you constantly making its presence known just when you think youre getting better. Making damn sure you arent happy for too...
    TheKingWizard TheKingWizard 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 1, 2014

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    I have been depressed off

    and on since I was 14 and I am now 20. most of the time I have no reason to be so sad. I just get so down and get anxiety. Sadly things like this run in my family. I just get Embarrassed because people around me don't understand. I'm not sure that I understand either. I'm...
    JustDevy JustDevy 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 24

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    Loneliness

    As I get older I notice my depression getting worse and worse. Ever since I was a little kid I always had the hardest time making friends, I was always told I was unique but now I think I'm just too different from other people. I went to a private school and made a few friends...
    swimfast09 swimfast09 22-25 3 Responses Jun 28, 2013

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    My friends think that i am happy

    because i am always laughing. When in reality I am crying myself to sleep wondering if this pain will ever end. It used to be worse I used to cut myself wondering when i would build enough courage to dig deeper and end it, but now I just cry and think that the world doesn't need...
    lolawolf lolawolf 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 21

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    How I Feel... In A World Full Of Hate.

    Hi guys, I have a blog in which I pretty much say my beliefs and my feelings etc. I think you might be able to relate since I suffer from depression also : It would be nice to know somebody feels the same as me. Here is the link. http://world-of-perfectionists.blogspot.com.au/2...
    Jtraino Jtraino 16-17, F Nov 6, 2012

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    Depression, anxiety,

    and anger can overtake me. The anger is intoxicating, I can feel it radiate through my veins. The depression can be really bad. For years the meds I took worked, I was aware of the depression but could fight it. A month ago it overwhelmed me and I started to shut down. I...
    mslvr01 mslvr01 46-50, M 3 Responses Nov 13, 2014

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    30 Years Now

    Some periods are more severe than others, but I've suffered off and on since I was ten years old. That was when a horrible, violent crime affected my family and changed the entire landscape of how I viewed the world. My little brother was kidnapped back in 1981, held hostage for...
    lauren71 lauren71 41-45, F 1 Response Feb 24, 2013

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    My depression comes and goes.

    Sometimes it's bad but not severe other times it's so severe, it becomes a battle I can't over come, a suicidal depression. Recently I was so so depressed that I thought everything was going wrong, I wanted to give up so bad! I hurt my friend, someone said to me that they would...
    juliaek1 juliaek1 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 20, 2014

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    I was so depressed for years,

    I considered taking my life many times, as the voices in my head told me I was worthless and no one loved me. One day I gave Jesus my heart and told him that no Matter what it took I wanted to obey Him. He filled me with peace, set me free from those voices and now I hear them...
    ceruleanwaters ceruleanwaters 31-35, F Mar 2, 2014

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    Sometimes when you're depressed you just want

    to stay in bed. I wasn't feeling ok since yeasterday and this morning things were still f*cked up but I went to school anyway. I had to because we had a little exam and stuff. But almost everything went so wrong that I realised "the wanting to stay in bed" feeling is here to...
    Aragornie Aragornie 22-25, F May 14

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    Suffering From Depression ~

    I have been suffering from varing degrees of depression for almost as long as I can remember. Throughout my teen years and into my early 20`s I delp with it by smothering it with drugs and alcohol. Which anyone knows only makes any problem worse. I now realize this is especially...
    novascotia novascotia 26-30, M Oct 17, 2010

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    For as long as i can remember.

    ... Never actually sat and thought about it until now tho.
    lehcar1977 lehcar1977 36-40, F Dec 20, 2014

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    Realization

    I just realized tonight that I have suffered from a deep depression for over a decade now. I don't know how I'm still alive. I'm afraid that the years are going to go by and one day I'm going to wake up and realize that I've been depressed for the majority of my life.
    fightthedayaway fightthedayaway 26-30, F 1 Response May 4, 2012

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    today is another one of those days?

    why the hell do I keep waking up? what am I good for? why do I have to keep doing this, feeling like this, day after day?
    WWB82 WWB82 31-35, F Feb 3

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    I really need to talk to someone

    and just vent. I feel like my depression has completely taken over. I don't feel the same anymore. I use to be so happy, funny, loving and caring Nd now I just don't know who I am. I don't really know if I can even call it depression at this point. I try faking I'm happy but idk...
    xBlossomx xBlossomx 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 20

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    Will This Monster Ever Leave Me Or Will It Always Haunt Me?

    I have decided that after 12 years of dealing with and taking every medication my doctor has given me to control the monster inside of me and yet MY DEPRESSION is at the worst possible point ever, I can no longer continue my life like this. It controls everything about me and it...
    MomBoye MomBoye 41-45, F 2 Responses Oct 4, 2012

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    On Depression

    i have had depression for most of my adult life.as well as low self esteem.put those together,and it makes for a rough life,as most people know.my brother died,hen i was around 30,im 44 no.i never liked him,he was an alcoholic,was biploar.he was a difficult person to be around...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Nov 24, 2012

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    Today I went too the doctors.

    She told me I have anxiety and depression. I believe that is true. I have too be in a place alone too feel better about myself.
    AwesomeGuyy22 AwesomeGuyy22 22-25, M Feb 11

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    I become depressed even

    though nothing is happening in my life which is common for people who suffer on and off for yrs. I also have arthritis in my right knee, and spine. Depression May Worsen Osteoarthritis Pain OA of the knee can cause joint pain, swelling and stiffness. As it worsens, it may begin...
    McCannT12 McCannT12 41-45, F 1 Response Dec 18, 2014

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    Ever since i was about 11 i have suffered from

    depression and anxiety. For years i suffered in silence until one day it became too much and thought about suicide and almost went threw with it until i met my best friend, for his privacy lets call him Mario. Mario made me feel so safe and treated me like a human being and...
    yvette20 yvette20 18-21, F 13 hrs ago

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    I've been dealing with this

    for over 10 years now, most of this time I have been in a dark hole. It went as far as me losing all hope and even forgetting who I am, who I used to be before my depression. Recently I have been able to see some light. It's not easy, and I have bad days but I have after 10...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F Mar 6

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    I always ask myself why am I here I manage to

    give myself a positive answer but now it's getting harder
    jorgoth jorgoth 16-17, M 2 Responses May 11

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    I have felt like I have carried extra weight on

    my shoulders for years. I don't know what it is like to feel free and exhilarated.Jobs have depressed me the most in my life. I feel like most of my life is gone because of jobs that I have had to uphold in the past. Kinda like juggling, because if the ball drops then the whole...
    capehope3 capehope3 41-45 3 Responses May 12

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    Depression Is Ruining My Life And Everything Around Me

    I just turned 25 and i suffer from anxiety depression I started noticing something was wrong with me around middle school I feel worthless and empty my self of steam is at an all time low its been a very tough time this past yr dealing with this depression is affecting my...
    Drew8728 Drew8728 22-25, M Oct 17, 2012

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    It's like closing your eyes

    and being in a dark tunnel or pitch black roller coaster and seeing and hearing and feeling everything that's happened or gone wrong or been missing, bad decisions, everything for the past 25 years. And you can feel the drop coming in your stomach but you can't see it and you...
    losthope313 losthope313 36-40, F Jan 23

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    It started 5 years ago.

    Little by little, I started to drown. That is what depression feels like. Drowning. No matter how hard you try to keep your head above the water, you get dragged back down. It's suffocating. It started as crying. Over nothing. Hours of crying and crying for no reason. I stopped...
    SummerOf22 SummerOf22 18-21, F Jan 8

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    (The following is an article

    that I stumbled upon, that pertained DIRECTLY to the issues and problems that I ha ave been facing since I've been in my teens. This information might be able to help some of you who suffer the same things, and it is presented with the intention and hope that it can help...
    TtotheD TtotheD 56-60, M 5 Responses Feb 20, 2014

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    Most likely this has to do with having been

    bullied at school, had tons of medical problems growing up (and some I've only recently confirmed, though I've always suspected), and generally feeling like a failure for not having ever been in any kind of relationship, never had sexual relations, have never been kissed, and am...
    halfblind79 halfblind79 31-35, M Mar 3

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    I am 19 have had severe depression my whole

    life with only a few breaks from it in gaps throughout the years it never seems to go away everything good is just a temporary high it breaks my heart constantly
    cameroncampbell cameroncampbell 18-21, M 1 Response May 14

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    Suffering From Depression ~

    I have been suffering from varing degrees of depression for almost as long as I can remember. Throughout my teen years and into my early 20`s I delp with it by smothering it with drugs and alcohol. Which anyone knows only makes any problem worse. I now realize this is especially...
    novascotia novascotia 26-30, M 1 Response Oct 17, 2010

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    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M Mar 4

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    Good morning, or is it?

    I must admit this weather is really getting to me. Waking up to the same routine for days on end... working hard to stay positive. Enjoy the "down" time... get caught up on work I'd been putting off, you know? Being married to who I am though, makes this time dreadfully painful...
    ExistsinHOPE ExistsinHOPE 51-55, F Feb 9

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    comfortablynumb4 comfortablynumb4 16-17, F Sep 9, 2014

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    Ever Since That Death

    Having been raped my Dad, contracting the illness HIV/AIDS, dropping out of school in my first year. Imagine loosing my Dad's property to my Uncles, i was totally left with nothing. For sure what kills people is not illness but depression. Am constanly thinking on how am will...
    AINE808 AINE808 18-21 1 Response Apr 27, 2012

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    I Wonder Why

    When you live with depression, you have a lot of time to think about things in general. I try to dissect it daily, I think in hopes of beating it somehow one day. I wonder what about it makes everything so overly painful. I mean excruciatingly mentally painful. It's not...
    VoteForPedro VoteForPedro 51-55, F 3 Responses Jul 8, 2012

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    For 15 years now and I know

    that the math would say I was 7 when it started and some people would say what would I have to be depressed about but in school and home my life wasn't that great, because of my step dad I was made to feel invisible and like I wasn't worth anything, me and my brothers being...
    Lahaynes14 Lahaynes14 22-25, M 2 Responses May 12

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    I wish that I could shake this funk

    that I'm in. I don't enjoy anything and don't want to be around anyone. But tomorrow is Monday and it's back to work. Smiling and pretending that I'm fine.
    mombo1969 mombo1969 41-45, M 3 Responses Apr 26

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    These last couple of days have been the worst

    of my life, I found a lump in my underarm, I was worried but enough to go to the doc, but not that much. Cancer goes in my family, but I mean I'm 21.. I didn't seriously think of it. My sister yelled at me and called me a bunch of things for worrying enough to even go to the doc...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F Mar 27

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    Depression Is Something Which Lots Of People Suffer With But The Extent Of It Varies...

    I'm not sure when it began but i have always had issues which i disliked about myself. the usual silly things which most girls dislike (hair, skin, weight). It seemed o gradually get out of control though, leading to eating disorders, trying desperately to change the way i looked...
    xxmollxx xxmollxx 18-21 2 Responses Oct 16, 2010

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    I love it when tears roll down my eyes.

    And I feel the wet drops of tears all over my face..
    AddictedToSelfDestruction AddictedToSelfDestruction 22-25, M Jan 22

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    It All Started In 2nd Grade.

    I was bullied since 2nd grade. I moved to a new school and people were nice and then BOOM. we grow up. In 5th grade, I was diagnosed with clinical depression. I don't take pills because my parents don't know about it. I secretly see a therapist. I have cut and I still do and I'm...
    Whisperedcries2 Whisperedcries2 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 24, 2012

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    it started when i was 9.

    I dont know how to get out from it. I think im pulling my boyfiend down with me. we dated for 2.5yrs now. I even get confused about staying with him or not. my depression makes me second guess everything. when i feel happy i find a reason not to be. its almost like i got so use...
    homerbonner homerbonner 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    depression is like the wrecking ball

    and your like the wall it hits and hits to knock you over ..pushs u over the edge..honestly.
    sparksfly545 sparksfly545 13-15, F Feb 16

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