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I Have Suffered From Depression For Years

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    I first started showing signs of major

    depressive disorder at age 9 and was officially diagnosed at age 14 in a psychiatric institution.
    leggyshay leggyshay 16-17, F Jun 18

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    More damage from meds

    than bullies. The wealthy committed a crime. And wont be punished. They paid to relabel seroquel. The new classification is legal. And the lawsuit solved nothing. Hence depression gets worse. As new problems arise When my body defeated seroquel. And the doctors...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M Jun 18

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    I Wonder Why

    When you live with depression, you have a lot of time to think about things in general. I try to dissect it daily, I think in hopes of beating it somehow one day. I wonder what about it makes everything so overly painful. I mean excruciatingly mentally painful. It's not...
    VoteForPedro VoteForPedro 51-55, F 3 Responses Jul 8, 2012

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    I used to go on and off with anxiety

    and then depression. However I never had any suicidal thoughts because I have a slight bit of arrogance thinking that I am very needed. People left and right said I should smoke pot but I'm not about that being asthmatic and such. Finally I found the right anti depressant which...
    ValhallaAwaits ValhallaAwaits 22-25, M Jun 19

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    Today, I'm in blue again.

    The feeling of drowning can be really exhausting. Especially when we have to deal with the same challenge for years. But I don't give up this time. At least, I could still enjoy the beauty at my backyard.
    Reneems Reneems 31-35, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    This condition runs in my family,

    and I was diagnosed when I was in 7th grade..
    SentimentalMood SentimentalMood 36-40, F 5 Responses Jun 18

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    I became depressed in the 6th grade.

    That was the year that I was sexually assaulted by a few students on my bus. They threatened to beat me if I ever told anyone about it, so I stood quiet. That year was spent mostly in tears and I began to self-harm. I continued to do so for 3 years, until I finally had it. In...
    neutralbeanie neutralbeanie 13-15, T 1 Response Jun 19

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    I am a 14 year old boy living in Tennessee,

    I have been a very quiet, shy, and emotional person, these past few years I would stay locked in my room and never come out unless it was to eat, my parents don't want to get it checked out so it is just left to get worse, well, recently it has gotten far worse, I have recently...
    santana772 santana772 13-15, M 2 Responses Jun 24

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    It's been pretty easy to cope with

    for a very long time, thanks to the fact that I stopped self-medicating years ago! But lately, it's been harder and harder to even think I'm a part of anything outside my house, or my laptop. My left is ruined; my right knee is already replaced-over 11 years ago. I'm fairly...
    TtotheD TtotheD 56-60, M 1 Response Jul 18, 2014

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    Everytime I try to do something about my

    depression, it just makes things worse. Life is cruel.
    Mossonarock Mossonarock 41-45, M 1 day ago

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    High school was a terrible part of my life,

    and I consider this the point where depression started to affect me. Throughout middle school, I had a couple of friends I could be myself around, but I was always the shy kid who preferred to stay in small groups. By the time I went to high school, I became more withdrawn and...
    erinw96 erinw96 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 20

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    Today I went to turn in the final documents

    for a place to live. It didn't end well. Still homeless still depressed still angry. A friend asked if he could leave his weapon in my car. I said yes with thoughts of suicide in my mind. I tried to stay here with my family but they don't matter anymore. All that matters is my...
    BrokenWingedAngel BrokenWingedAngel 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 18

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    No matter how bad i try to deny it

    or hide it...I still, no matter how bad ive tried fight it, have depression after all these years. Its like a dark cloud that just never goes away haunting you constantly making its presence known just when you think youre getting better. Making damn sure you arent happy for too...
    thekingwizard thekingwizard 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 1, 2014

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    I've suffered depression

    for many years indeed. For the longest time I would just bottle every screwed up thought that I had. In high school I turned to creative writing doing poems/song so that I could go to the deep dark corners of my mind and just call it "art". This worked for quite a while and...
    mattywheels25 mattywheels25 26-30, M 2 Responses Jun 19

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    I am 19 have had severe depression my whole

    life with only a few breaks from it in gaps throughout the years it never seems to go away everything good is just a temporary high it breaks my heart constantly
    cameroncampbell cameroncampbell 18-21, M 1 Response May 14

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    Good morning, or is it?

    I must admit this weather is really getting to me. Waking up to the same routine for days on end... working hard to stay positive. Enjoy the "down" time... get caught up on work I'd been putting off, you know? Being married to who I am though, makes this time dreadfully painful...
    ExistsinHOPE ExistsinHOPE 51-55, F Feb 9

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    If you really think about it -legitimately sit

    and think about it- the idea that this unconquered misery of yours is born of deficient chemicals is quite ridiculous- and furthermore exasperating. The very concept makes you want to dig out that fleshy gray globule in your head, dice it up and lay it out on a stainless steel...
    LittleWhiteRoom LittleWhiteRoom 18-21, F Jul 2

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    I never write anything down

    when I’m depressed. It seems pointless. Not because I don’t have anything to say, but I feel like anything I write down will be a cliché. Some sad depression poem of how I can’t see a future for myself anymore. And I hate writing cliché’s. It’s so annoying to me. I...
    TrickRTreat17 TrickRTreat17 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 6

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    It's like closing your eyes

    and being in a dark tunnel or pitch black roller coaster and seeing and hearing and feeling everything that's happened or gone wrong or been missing, bad decisions, everything for the past 25 years. And you can feel the drop coming in your stomach but you can't see it and you...
    losthope313 losthope313 36-40, F Jan 23

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    Depression Is Ruining My Life And Everything Around Me

    I just turned 25 and i suffer from anxiety depression I started noticing something was wrong with me around middle school I feel worthless and empty my self of steam is at an all time low its been a very tough time this past yr dealing with this depression is affecting my...
    Drew8728 Drew8728 22-25, M Oct 17, 2012

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    It's not the meds. Just having some listen to

    me with out giving advice. Just a touch on had or hug can go alone way.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jul 4

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    Yep I use to suffer from the age of 10/11

    when my parents would argue.. This lasted till I was 16, it settled down whilst I was at college and they don't argue now. Been depressed free for about 2/3 years, but wait it's back again.. I'll just drink my sorrows in peace..
    Adam352 Adam352 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 3

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    Don't make people with depression feel guilty

    for there lack of interest and motivation within things. It can not be helped.
    danyellelakin danyellelakin 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 4

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    I went tubeing today on the back of my cousin's

    jet ski and had a really rude awakening. It was my first time going tubeing in years, so it was a real struggle trying to hold on to that tube and not fall off. The sea water was splashing in my eyes and then the tube started making these huge turns that made it extremely...
    Lynnd520 Lynnd520 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 5

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    today I don't know why I'm

    even here... I am so utterly depressed that I cannot comprehend any emotion besides being sad... I try to be nice to others and I get snapped at- I try to be genuine and I am lied to... I can't go on much longer
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jun 22

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    Once upon a time there lived a beautiful couple

    who loved each other very much. He had a good job and she had designs of brilliance. They were living with a terrible friend of his, the black dog. Try as they might to get the bastard to leave he just did not and it marred the relationship that was otherwise perfect. As the...
    SoberingBabySteps SoberingBabySteps 31-35, M 1 day ago

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    How I Feel... In A World Full Of Hate.

    Hi guys, I have a blog in which I pretty much say my beliefs and my feelings etc. I think you might be able to relate since I suffer from depression also : It would be nice to know somebody feels the same as me. Here is the link. http://world-of-perfectionists.blogspot.com.au/2...
    Jtraino Jtraino 16-17, F Nov 6, 2012

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    hello Darkness, we meet again :(

    so sad.. as always.. :(
    wonderfulIam wonderfulIam 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 22

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    I have had depression

    for quite some years thoughts of feeling no good. And like I'm worthless but now I have support and love within myself b
    Nikkilight25 Nikkilight25 22-25 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    Hi there I'm crying. My name is Andrea

    and I´m a sunshine, funny girl at college and sweetest kid at home but most of all I´m depressed. I feel alone at all times and can´t find the strength to get out of bed in the mornings, I´m sorry that I´ve been so sad for so long and that nobody around me can help me. I´m...
    andre41697 andre41697 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 18

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    I was so depressed for years,

    I considered taking my life many times, as the voices in my head told me I was worthless and no one loved me. One day I gave Jesus my heart and told him that no Matter what it took I wanted to obey Him. He filled me with peace, set me free from those voices and now I hear them...
    ceruleanwaters ceruleanwaters 31-35, F Mar 2, 2014

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    (The following is an article

    that I stumbled upon, that pertained DIRECTLY to the issues and problems that I ha ave been facing since I've been in my teens. This information might be able to help some of you who suffer the same things, and it is presented with the intention and hope that it can help...
    TtotheD TtotheD 56-60, M 5 Responses Feb 20, 2014

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    Depression, anxiety,

    and anger can overtake me. The anger is intoxicating, I can feel it radiate through my veins. The depression can be really bad. For years the meds I took worked, I was aware of the depression but could fight it. A month ago it overwhelmed me and I started to shut down. I...
    mslvr01 mslvr01 46-50, M 2 Responses Nov 13, 2014

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    I am tired. I grew up in a disfunctional middle

    class family. My mother is manic depressive bipolar, and my dad dealt with his problems by working and drinking. I never understood why my mother was "the way she was", if that makes sense. I was terrified that I would be like her. When I was pregnant with my first child, i was...
    EnglishBrand EnglishBrand 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 25

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    I can't remember how to spell

    or pronounce it, but I was diagnosed with a form of depression that is constant, underlying, and unprovoked. Its a brain chemical issue that I was born with and isn't severe, but I do get really down for little to no reason sometimes. its frustrating when you know you should be...
    RenegadeKay RenegadeKay 18-21 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    One of the symptoms people have noticed in me is

    that I have lost the 'sparkle' in my eyes. I can't say I've noticed it in myself, but others have. I get a glassy haze when I zone out apparently. My affect feels flat most of the time, which I have noticed.
    PrettyLes PrettyLes 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 13

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    It All Started In 2nd Grade.

    I was bullied since 2nd grade. I moved to a new school and people were nice and then BOOM. we grow up. In 5th grade, I was diagnosed with clinical depression. I don't take pills because my parents don't know about it. I secretly see a therapist. I have cut and I still do and I'm...
    Whisperedcries2 Whisperedcries2 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 24, 2012

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    Feeling really low today.

    Yesterday was a nightmare. Nothing went as planned. Hoping today turns out 1000 times better.
    44SingleFemaleSouthEdm 44SingleFemaleSouthEdm 41-45, F Aug 10

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    comfortablynumb4 comfortablynumb4 16-17, F Sep 9, 2014

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    I can't deal with society

    and day-today life any more. Going outside and facing the the negative judgement of others is too much to bear. I want to go completely off the grid. I'm desperately trying buy all the things I need to disappear into the wilderness where it's just me and nature - no people...
    Parvus Parvus 41-45, M 1 Response Jun 18

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    Today I went too the doctors.

    She told me I have anxiety and depression. I believe that is true. I have too be in a place alone too feel better about myself.
    YourSecretAdmire22 YourSecretAdmire22 22-25, M Feb 11

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    I hate the days where it seems a monumental

    task just to get by with the most basic effort. I am actually jealous of people who seem to always be fine. Their life looks peachy while I want to ******* scream just because I woke up again .
    WWB82 WWB82 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 23

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    So why tell a sad person to choose that.

    If they want to be gone why say okay. Why say they have to choose. Lately on ep i fight both. Staying And going. One member called his brother wrong For leaving earth. Me called the old moron wrong. Dont hate brother. Fix causes. Then another member said...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M Jun 18

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    Ever Since That Death

    Having been raped my Dad, contracting the illness HIV/AIDS, dropping out of school in my first year. Imagine loosing my Dad's property to my Uncles, i was totally left with nothing. For sure what kills people is not illness but depression. Am constanly thinking on how am will...
    AINE808 AINE808 18-21 1 Response Apr 27, 2012

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    My depression comes and goes.

    Sometimes it's bad but not severe other times it's so severe, it becomes a battle I can't over come, a suicidal depression. Recently I was so so depressed that I thought everything was going wrong, I wanted to give up so bad! I hurt my friend, someone said to me that they would...
    juliaek1 juliaek1 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 20, 2014

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    The last time I remember being truly happy was

    towards the end of 2009. I had just completed my first year of uni, and spent a few days at a friend's house. We had a great time Christmas shopping and sharing a laugh together just before I went home. That's my most recent happy memory. I had my first depressive episode in May...
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