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I Have Suffered From Depression

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    Diagnosed with it but they feed me meds

    that lead me to ICU or suicide I battle depression till this day I gave up on doctors, Id rather be safe and live then take some crazy drugs. **** im sad and depressed still but Im not dead on drugs perscribed
    Michelle41011 Michelle41011 41-45, T Aug 14, 2015

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    In the past I suffered from depression

    and every now and then I still get hit with a bad day (usually directly related to the amount of alcohol consumed). I have quit drinking but last night I relasped and I am so depressed today. I feel really alone. I am in a new place. I don't have friends here. I just need to get...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jun 24, 2015

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    Sometimes you gotta give yourself the pep talk

    like, "Hello you badass, amazing human being, don't be sad, you're doing ******* great... keep going"
    RogueLogic2 RogueLogic2 26-30, F 5 Responses Dec 9, 2015

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    Im tired of these medicine's,

    it's been two years since my serious depression, anxiety and selfharm. I dont want to take these medicine's, i have been taking them for so long and no signs of depression for a year, ugh..
    Soldottern Soldottern 18-21, F Mar 31, 2014

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    I still get it occassionally.

    The feeling that you're not meant for this world and the temptation to end your own life seems like the best idea in the world....
    Skin0Man1 Skin0Man1 18-21, M 6 days ago

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    just know that I'm here

    if any of you need to talk. I try my best to respond as fast as I can.
    peterbiltgirl17 peterbiltgirl17 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 10, 2015

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    Have Being The Key Word

    I tried the medication and therapy and counseling and every other thing. I finally realized one day that i was the only person that was qualified enough to "fix" myself and so i got to work and that's exactly what i did. Music has been a huge part of my recovery, good family...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 15, 2010

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    For at my lowest of low,

    I found my humanity. From the pits of my hell, I saw the world from a fresh perspective. Though I may wonder what might've been, I'll be forever grateful for the tears along the way. And in my mind, I'll still think me weak, But in my heart, I shall no longer be meek. I cloak...
    RogueLogic2 RogueLogic2 26-30, F 2 Responses 19 mins ago

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    I dont know when someone can say

    that they HAVE suffered from it, when the worst is over, when you feel great (even though it can sneak back at you.). I, suffer from depression, i think, well that is what we have called it for the past 2+ years. But now, me and my mother is thinking that i am schizofrenic. It...
    Soldottern Soldottern 18-21, F Feb 9, 2015

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    As much as you hate your illness

    and the way it's turned your life around, do you feel attached to it? I'm scared at the thought of recovery. I'd been dealing with depression for so long, and it completely took over my life, so it became a part of my identity. Now I feel an emotional attachment to it, as much...
    electriccloud electriccloud 18-21, F Nov 5, 2014

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    And i still do. Between it

    and my sexual addiction I'm loosing hope. I feel like I'm loosing and I should just end the charade
    soma1971 soma1971 41-45, M Sep 1, 2014

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    When someone breaks a mug

    and they try to put it back together, then they keep dropping it and kicking it around, it continues to break. So they're extra careful with it and they let the glue dry. So why do we treat people different?
    emmeliarochester emmeliarochester 16-17, F Mar 28, 2015

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    creedsoul11 creedsoul11 18-21, F Aug 10, 2015

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    Dear, Depression

    Dear, Depression. Please get out of my head. You are not wanted here. No one wants you. You are an annoying evil spirit, lurking around, look for attention. Depression, You are worst than an demon trying to possess a vulnerable person. I cant see you, depression but I can feel...
    Renee104 Renee104 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 20, 2013

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    “It’s so difficult to describe depression

    to someone who’s never been there, because it’s not sadness. I know sadness. Sadness is to cry and to feel. But it’s that cold absence of feeling— that really hollowed-out feeling.” J.K. Rowling
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 7, 2015

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    During my years of being anorexic,

    I also suffered from depression. I took anti-depressants for a while after getting out of treatment, but that doesn't mean I still don't suffer from depression from time to time.
    BwayGirl676 BwayGirl676 22-25, F Dec 15, 2014

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    I suffer from Bi Polar depression.

    When I was first diagnosed with depression, they diagnosed me with chronic depression which is depression caused by the fact that somebody wants attention and to be depressed. They later realized that I am in fact NOT chronically depressed. My parents kept telling me to just...
    AnyExperience AnyExperience 13-15, F Jul 24, 2015

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    But right now I feel like I'm in a really good

    patch. I have a good job, uni is going alright and I actually have some friends. I have been getting some negative thoughts lately, but I have been doing my best to change them around. In an attempt to keep my thought pattern positive. I really don't know if I can handle another...
    KateyCake KateyCake 22-25, F Jul 6, 2014

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    I was diagnosed with derision several months

    ago, though I know I've had it for a very long time. I'm now on antidepressants to help with everything, but ever since I started taking them, everything has been getting worse. I feel even more depressed than I was before and I just want everything over with....
    kaylanbray98 kaylanbray98 16-17, F May 16, 2015

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    And Still Do

    i guess i am never going tto be completely over it.but i have found a way to coupe.that all i could ever ask for.and i hope those people who are still wresteling with depression will also find a way to coupe.
    ghostofmyself ghostofmyself 36-40 3 Responses Mar 30, 2009

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    Not A Pretty Picture

    It's a long hard road for everyone when you suffer from depression. You don't really know as to how you got there but you did. Trying to find the reasons adds just that more stress building up the depression. Doctor's put you on medications which have very little help. Thoughts...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 24, 2011

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    I go through it all the time.

    It hurts. It turns my world black, sometimes for days that feel like they will never end. I have taken meds before which just make my head feel wrong. I have gone through talk therapy. I have a few tools I can use when I remember them. Now I am looking at my diet as a way to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I suffer from depression every day

    and it sucks! I've tried to commit suicide and even turned to drugs trying to make it go away but the drugs just made things so much worse. I have to keep myself busy and go to counseling to keep it under control. If anyone else suffers with depression and ever need to talk, I...
    DanieGirl1 DanieGirl1 31-35 4 Responses Dec 13, 2015

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    Well i haven't posted in quite awhile

    but i reely was helped by people on this site. Depression had taken me for most of my adolescent years and i used alcohol and drugs to get through it. It was horrible feeling like a bum and worthless, but things have changed now. I'm nearly 20 and I've moved through 3 different...
    kagan1 kagan1 18-21, M May 8, 2014

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    I Have Suffered

    I have suffered,Depression,The dreaded word,Somehow,Today,I made up my mind,no more,This has to stop,Had enough,Need to change.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Feb 2, 2012

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    I Have Suffered From Depression

    I have suffered from depression since i can remember but was diagnosed about 10 years and have been on medication since. I have good times but recently have been on a real downer. Although I have a loving family around me, Stress's of life have caused a return of the...
    martinspinney martinspinney 41-45, M 1 Response Jul 8, 2010

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    Less Extreme...

    Most will say that I'm still depressed. Maybe I am, a little bit. But, it is nothing compared how it USED to be! I used to cry often and occasionally cut. I've written suicide letters before. I've been through drug addiction, meds, counseling. I'm over that... I still have...
    LovelessDeluxe LovelessDeluxe 22-25 Mar 28, 2011

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    The first 4 months of 2015 were quite a hard

    few months and I suffered from minor depression and barely left my room. Although things aren't as bad I still have those weeks where I just want to hide in my room and be left alone by everyone. This was one of the things I wrote down during one of my pity parties I often had...
    Daniellevn Daniellevn 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 14, 2015

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    laubrown1 laubrown1 18-21, F Apr 28, 2014

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    So I was just scrolling through Facebook

    and notice some pictures my friend just posted. Considering she's one of my friends I look at them. I notice in a few of her pictures she has tons of cuts on her arms. As soon as I saw them, my heart completely sank. I thought back to the times when I use to self harm and it...
    ForeverLostPoet ForeverLostPoet 16-17, F Jul 14, 2014

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    One Of The Loneliest Places On Earth

    I suffered from depression during my teenage years and I can honestly say it was one of the loneliest experiences in my life..... so many people bandy depression around like a bad back, but true depression is an awful, debilitating illness that is poorly understood in our society...
    lostlittlefirefly lostlittlefirefly 36-40, F Dec 5, 2011

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    In Time...

    I too still suffer from depression. I have learned to deal with it tho. To me its a frame of mind. Coming to terms with it and learning from it. It takes time. I don't like to take medication but there are times that is is a necessary thing untill you can get yourself to a place...
    cdlbr2000 cdlbr2000 41-45 Mar 31, 2009

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    i still am. the thing

    that sucks the most is that it saps every ounce of your motivation for anything. so even small tasks seem HUGE and all i want to do is sleep so i dont have to deal with it... what do i do?
    peaceinmiles peaceinmiles 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 29, 2015

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    xlauren15 xlauren15 13-15, F Jun 18, 2015

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    What To Too

    I hate this feeling I am 49 years old in not good health overweight live with my parents because of health and some times I think of end all this **** I just do not know what to do even the meds are not helping so sad most of the time
    Frecklesthebear Frecklesthebear 46-50 1 Response Sep 16, 2013

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    Even before i was diagnosed with depression,

    i love alcohol. It's not really the taste of it, but the feeling i get whenever i get drunk. Well fast forward after being diagnosed, my doctor warned me to never ever mix my meds to any alcoholic drink. But being my self-destructive self, I did what I was not supposed to do...
    mischaelric011392 mischaelric011392 22-25, F Jun 24, 2015

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    and still do. you know theres a single friend

    in every group of friends. im at single one. and every says "look who i met" or "im metting him later on lunch" it ****** me of.
    noahfaith noahfaith 16-17, M 1 Response Dec 26, 2015

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    For so long now That my life experience

    Should gain me a phd Or four Lmao
    JustBipolarMe JustBipolarMe 46-50, M Jan 6

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    I don't know why I'm depressed :/ i have a

    great group of friends, a supportive home life, and I'm in college studying the program that i've always dreamed of. I even started seeing this new guy, and he makes me feel amazing. he's sweet and caring, and he's there for me. he's not disrespectful either. I just still feel...
    TaylorNicole312 TaylorNicole312 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 20, 2014

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    Today I felt so in despair

    and depressed. Money is depleting at a rapid pace while I'm still waiting to get a job. My family said mean things to me like I'm stupid and useless. I worked so hard the last couple of months for them but they don't try to understand. My friends... even when I disappear no...
    Husky1011 Husky1011 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 6, 2014

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    2 months ago I was diagnosed with HSV 2.

    An ex bf (who was the lowest piece of **** on the face of the planet) gave it to me after he stepped out on me. However I found this out while in a relationship with a new man that was the man of my dreams. Ever felt like you finally got what you wanted and now it's taken from u...
    allofme4 allofme4 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 15, 2013

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    Would you join? I have made a community for people suffering from depression, anxiety, personality disorders, bullying, abuse, self-harming, suicidal ideation....pretty much life...
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