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I Have Suicidal Thoughts

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 291 People

    After 6 FAILED suicide attempts you would think

    I would get the point of God not wanting me.
    00Broken00 00Broken00
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 18, 2015

    My Story

    My Story is long one.  I sit and cry sometimes wondering why was I born.  Well, here is my story. I was born but given up for adoption.  My real mother could not care for me since she was deaf and mute.  All my siblings were adopted but I was also adopted for...
    trying2Bhappy trying2Bhappy
    26-30, F
    6 Responses Jul 14, 2007
    cashetty69 cashetty69
    51-55, M
    Nov 5, 2015

    Suicide what a sweet relief

    but so unobtainable: If only I could If only I would Just pull that trigger Here the guns loud mischievious snicker What would await me Would it be a blood red sea Could it make me jump with glee Solving my life's endless tragedy Putting and end to my countless troubles My...
    ABlittleAlice ABlittleAlice
    1 Response Feb 28, 2014

    I just feel like I'm just down a path of

    destruction. I feel as though I'm going to disappoint everyone who's expecting so much out of me.I currently can't even bring myself to go to my classes, I find myself sitting and laying in my single dorm room, from day to night, from night to day.The thoughts of ending it all...
    tejimofor tejimofor
    22-25, F
    Apr 1, 2014

    It scares me, but when I'm stressed out

    or upset I suddenly get an intrusive thought and it freezes my world. "You can end it." It send frozen shocks up my spine and I am still. I have attempted suicide in the past, twice to be honest and both of them I backed out at the exact last second of jumping off the roof and I...
    SenzaAmore1013 SenzaAmore1013
    22-25, F
    May 18, 2015
    31-35, F
    Feb 19, 2014

    They Are Only At. Nothing More

    I haven't had any for a while now. I know why too. Despite the crap that's going on at the moment and the crap that I was going through, I realised that I would never go through with it, so there was no point thinking about it anymore. I have had suicidal...
    MrsLalaninjacakes MrsLalaninjacakes
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Nov 16, 2009

    After struggling with cancer

    and fighting so hard, I'm now struggling with suicidal thoughts. Kind of ironic isn't it?
    lagatta lagatta
    46-50, F
    7 Responses Apr 7, 2015

    Deadly Delima

    Like many others who face the struggles and hardships if this world, I too have often considered leaving this world behind me. I am amazed and yet disgusted that I have lived this long. I am a waste of space that could be put to good use in an over-populated country and perfectly...
    Shonnie Shonnie
    22-25, F
    Jun 23, 2008

    But I Don't Want To Die

    I was browsing experiences and came upon this one. I joined becuase it is true, especially the last month or so. Most of my experiences I haven't written stories for yet, but I wanted to write one here so that my friends wouldn't worry. It isn't that I want to die. I do not...
    accomplice accomplice
    46-50, M
    5 Responses Apr 21, 2011

    Game Over. Start Again?

    I don't consider myself a suicidal person, as such.  I have the thoughts often, but I know myself well enough to know I won't follow through with it.  Overall, I love life too much, no matter how much pain there is. But sometimes, I just get so tired.  This year...
    lunameow lunameow
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Aug 17, 2007

    A Great Life, Yet I Think of Ending It...

    I've been handed everything in life.  I'm a student about to graduate from a very reputable university with really high grades.  I have no loans, and was getting paid over $3000 a month for my entire time in university (and I've saved quite a deal over this time). ...
    krakenman krakenman
    2 Responses Jan 24, 2009

    I Hate My Life

    the last 3 months have been the worst time of my whole life and one thing after the other has been too much for me to handle. i was depressed, had anorexia, then i got arrested, completely bombed the SAT, got my heart broken, i developed binge eating disorder which led to bulimia...
    jenn1619 jenn1619
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 15, 2008

    I feel so alone in this world.

    I feel like I don't belong. I have no one to talk to about my problems. I feel like I'm here for no reason. I have no purpose. I am stupid. I have no talents. I don't have any friends. I don't fit in with society. I want to die. No one loves me. No one knows how I feel. No one...
    Stillbreathing19 Stillbreathing19
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 1, 2014


    You’re sitting at your desk. You know it’s time to go. You’ve said that to yourself over a million times. But this time you know, for sure, is real. You’re tired. You’re just so very tired. Your parents pissed you off. Like school wasn’t bad enough today. You go to...
    prettybrowneyes1993 prettybrowneyes1993
    18-21, F
    Oct 18, 2013

    Been feeling this way

    for nearly 4 years........ I lost someone who I held close and in doing so I lost myself. I turned to a road of drink and abuse towards myself, I spent ages trying to escape reality, trying to find a way back to before.... I then ended up kicked out and pushed to the streets...
    FoolishPaddy FoolishPaddy
    22-25, M
    Jul 11, 2015

    Ok - I am going to try this

    and please only honest responses. I do not want to keep living and do not want any advice, I am tired of therapists and pills and all that bs and have accepted that things are not going to ever, ever get better. I have started my final arrangements and have finished off around...
    Jaclyn9 Jaclyn9
    36-40, T
    2 Responses May 22, 2014

    I've Been Through Some Stuff

    Pretty much my story is that I've been through some stuff in my past an life has'nt changed an i'm tired of it
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 13, 2007
    verino verino
    22-25, T
    1 Response Nov 9, 2014

    Socially Acceptable Suicide

    If you live long enough, things start to become clear. Like why I can't quit smoking or lose weight. It's the socially acceptable way to an early death. I know I'm not actually addicted to either smoking or eating because I can go long stretches without either. As in several...
    Sumpin Sumpin
    56-60, F
    Oct 27, 2013


    Haven't been too good the last few days.  I don't know what to do with myself.  I've started playing with the idea of suicide again.  And not like normal where it's just my mind wandering into the what-ifs.  No, it's full on planning things out and everything...
    moonlit1 moonlit1
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Sep 27, 2008

    My Kids Are My Saviors

    My life has been **** for the past year. The man I fell in love with treats me like complete ****. They day i was supposed to find out if I was pregnant (July 14th last year), this ******* nearly snatches the right side of my face off because he wanted to grab my phone so I...
    Foreveryours116 Foreveryours116
    18-21, F
    Aug 7, 2013

    Just Hold On

    July 26th, two years ago I was thinking about committing suicide. I was a teenager, depressed and alone. I had it all planned... I was gonna go downstairs that night, take a bottle of pills, go to bed and that would be the end of me. I even had a note ready. I went outside in...
    Jessluvzlife Jessluvzlife
    22-25, F
    Jul 28, 2013

    I've been feeling sad

    for a long time, it's not like I am sad all the time but I've noticed that the things I used to like don't make me happy anymore, I have to pretend I'm having fun or enyoing other people's company... I don't want to sounf like a ***** but most f the time I would like to be alone...
    22-25, F
    Mar 1, 2014

    Too Logical To Follow Through

    I've had suicidal thoughts, but when I think about locating the right artery for it to be a success, I think about all the nerves nearby that could cause serious hand dysfunction if I miss or survive. I am practical and logical about it so would never follow through, but they...
    justhere7 justhere7
    31-35, F
    Dec 3, 2013

    Yeah, the helpline. I've called it before

    and last night. 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3..........what happens at 0. There is this pulling at me like I have to do something. Today I was talking to someone about Russian Roulette and thinking if there was a gun on the table with just one bullet, I would probably take a chance...
    deleted deleted
    Apr 28, 2014

    Every Now And Then,in My Darker Moments...

    Sometimes,I admit,I think about it.I don't think about actually DOING it,but I think about HOW I would do it,hypothetically,like.I've come up with a pretty bizarre method of suicide that,if I did commit it,I would go through with.Basically,I'd find some kind of big fire,one that...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Sep 17, 2012

    depression is not abut pain,

    is about constant feeling of being numb:being numb to emotions, being numb to lie. i wake up every day just to go back to bed again, days arent really days: they r just obstacles that need to be faced. on suspension from school with numerous issues& bf left for another country...
    tvontheradio94 tvontheradio94
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Feb 17, 2014

    I just want to die, I can no longer think,

    My mind's anxiety at staying still, Pretend I'm fine I don't give a ****, Enough of this life I have had my fill, My mind's eye sees some lonely bridge, Its time for me to leave forlorn, Scream and yell yet no sound comes out, Just one who hates for just being born I've tried...
    Jaclyn9 Jaclyn9
    36-40, T
    1 Response Oct 6, 2014

    i think iv'e always been this way

    whenever anything goes wrong the first thing i think is i have to kill myself. but i'm too much of a coward so i just sit there scraping a razor blade across my skin always waiting for the day i feel brave enough to finally end it all. in short life sucks then it ends :(
    BenjaminWittmann BenjaminWittmann
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jun 5, 2014

    Crimson Red

    I sit hereIn this dark room                Filled with the unknownHow did I end up here?                                The urge to find...
    crimsonredlove crimsonredlove
    18-21, F
    Jun 4, 2011

    Suicide Attempt

    The last time that made me stop trying to commit suicide was when i tried to hang myself when i was alone... and failed. When it comes to suicide, i dont need to cut myself for attention. I dont need someone to say they care, when everyone moves on. I dont need anyone to know how...
    ChessHottie ChessHottie
    22-25, F
    9 Responses Sep 18, 2013

    Nothing To Live For. Wish I Would Die. Totally Alone. Helpless & Hopeless,

    Everyday is the same. I struggle to get out of bed in the afternoon and when I do I check my phone only to see that I have no missed calls and no text messages. I have no friends and nobody who loves me. I am completely alone. Every chance I get I leave my phone elsewhere just so...
    PiiE PiiE
    1 Response Sep 4, 2012

    Suicide Poem

    Ever since i turned fourteen and my mean old cousin touched me there.i feel like a freak now.Like im dying on the inside and bleeding on the out.i can be happy yet thinking of dying and then when im sad of course im still thinking of dying.thats not all dark secrets line my wall...
    deleted deleted
    Oct 8, 2013


    I really hope sharing this helps me, but more importantly helps others. I had a pretty easy going childhood til fifth grade about four years ago. My dad became an alcoholic around this time. At first it was that he would have a couple beers here and there, but then you knew...
    ooo818ooo ooo818ooo
    22-25, F
    Apr 14, 2013

    Just Feel Like Giving Up At Times

    at times i just cant help but feel like giving up and not pushing myself pointlessly anymore. i hate to admit that i have these thoughts, even ashamed because i don't think i should have them and i hate having to keep it to myself, leaving it in my head to get worse and worse...
    sezy sezy
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 17, 2007


    saw this on tumblr and had to share it.. WARNING: This CAN be triggering as ****. You're sitting at your desk, and you know it's time to go. You've said that to yourself over a million times, but this time you know, for sure, is real. You're tired... you're just so very tired...
    Lelli33 Lelli33
    18-21, F
    10 Responses Mar 23, 2012

    Always On My Mind...

    I lay in bed at night wishing i will die of natural causes,Ive always been really sickly and im fat so my chances of just dying are pretty high anyways But ever since i was kid ive always kinda felt like i didnt belong and people didnt really want me around I was the one always...
    tatsmyheart tatsmyheart
    2 Responses Nov 8, 2011

    I'm So Tired

    I'm so tired of hearing "**** happens", "this too shall pass", "get over it", "tomorrow is a new day". I haven't had suicidal thoughts for over a year and now for the past 3 weeks, my depression and anxiety has allowed these thoughts to come back and haunt almost my every waking...
    smilingthroughblacktears smilingthroughblacktears
    26-30, F
    Oct 1, 2013

    If someone reaches out

    and is met with anger, it will only solidify their worthlessness. Sometimes it's just needing to hear an "I love you". "I'm here for you." "I understand." And receiving a strong embrace. Defensiveness makes it about you and doesn't help either person.
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Nov 29, 2014

    Desperation Escalating

    I'm 32, I used to be a niave optimist. Looking back I realize I was a ******* jackass. Although i dont think about suicide daily it creeps in now and again confounding my thoughts of any rhyme or reason. I`m not going to admit i have a problem if so, i might as well off myself...
    kate8090 kate8090
    31-35, F
    1 Response Apr 15, 2011
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Nov 22, 2015

    When ever I have depressing moment in my life I

    question everything that could have caused it. I've made attempts to take my own life but I always back out. I was almost successful September 10, 2004. I laid myself down in my bed, I taped my mouth and stuffed tissue paper in nose. As I started to slip, my mom found me...
    SyrJeremyW63 SyrJeremyW63
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Mar 14, 2015

    I Just Want To Be Happy

    im 23yrs old and im nothing but a failure. im in debt up to my eyes from medical bills and im having a hard time paying them. i have a great girlfriend who recently has started dealing with some issues of her own that are tearing our relationship apart and i just dont want this...
    pinkfloyd092003 pinkfloyd092003
    26-30, M
    Oct 25, 2013

    When it comes to my depression,

    it's kind of an on and off thing. There might be a cause for it--tiredness, anxiety. But then there are times when I have depression and I don't know why it's there. And I suddenly want to die. It's like a kind of confirmation of how I feel. Even when I'm not depressed, I still...
    Geishacowgirl Geishacowgirl
    22-25, T
    1 Response Oct 23, 2014

    I'm dreading the warmer weather coming

    since that will mean short sleeve shirts. I have started cutting myself which is strange since it doesn't hurt like I would think and it seems like an addicting habit. I don't know why I do most things anymore, I've spent time with therapists and bottles of anti-depressants...
    Jaclyn9 Jaclyn9
    36-40, T
    May 20, 2014

    Should I Tell Someone? Help Please..

     i'm Feeling Really Low & Started Having Suicidal Thoughts- They Are Always In The Back of My Head, I Think About Over Dosing, Drowing Myself, Stabbing Myself, Throwing Myself Off Of Somewhere High EtcThe Thoughts Are Always There At The Back Of My Mind- They Come And Go...
    DarkenedAngel DarkenedAngel
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Oct 3, 2011

    hey all ! ... this is important

    and big. can i have a small time of yours, just little.. few minutes.. i sign up here around a year back to share my story with people and i did. i expected people will help me out from my heart broken stage and yes to maximum extend people helped, thanks a lot... then i began...
    heartless2 heartless2
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Jul 22, 2014


    hi, this is my first story ive posted i often contemplate suicide, i think whats the point in living, but then i snap back into myself and say oh i was just a bit sad that day. To be honest i dont have a sad life my family loves me i have friends that care about me, and yet...
    Secret90 Secret90
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Mar 22, 2010

    Suicide Letter

    W ell I guess we will start at the beginning....   Well my name is Colin O’Brien I was born in Vancouver B.C., December 29 1988. My family moved to the Nelson area soon after my birth and I have lived in South Slocan pretty much my whole life.   Well enough of...
    coliom coliom
    26-30, M
    May 10, 2009
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