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I Have the Urge to Self Injure

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    Having The Urge.... Non Stop - I have the urge every minute. I think about it at college, at work, when I go to bed. It's non stop. I don't know what else to do! It controls me, my...
    WorthlessFreak WorthlessFreak 18-21, F Mar 5, 2013

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    Why Not? - It's been over a year since I have cut... perhaps maybe even longer. However, there is hardly even a day that goes by when I don't think about doing it and picture doing...
    zailiza zailiza 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 15, 2013

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    I'M Sorry - I'm sorry for being so begative. I don't mean to be this way but it is the only way i can get my words out, even when i know no one is listening. I'm sorry for not...
    danielle18 danielle18 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 25, 2013

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    Stopped By Force - so two weeks ago i wrote a letter of my thoughts and how i think about cuting deep or oding or a tree and a rope then just after i had finsh my friend amber and...
    ToriJustTori ToriJustTori 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 25, 2012

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    Temptation - I started cutting at 13 and stopped cutting at 27, but when I'm highly upset I do still get the urge. I sometimes wonder if that will ever go away.
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 9 Responses Mar 11, 2010

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    I Am Told To Hurt Myself - When it comes to self- harm I don't cut or burn myself. I don't do what a lot of people do to release pain or anything. I don't do this out of choice or...
    Nuggeten15 Nuggeten15 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 23, 2013

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    Now - I want to cut. I want to hear the musical sigh of skin parting. I want to see the blood flow gently down my forearm, and fall upon my knee. I want to not feel the pain that...
    Veronica4 Veronica4 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 4, 2011

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    Urge To Cut - The feeling just came on with a vengence. Everything just came rushing back to me and now I've become overwhelmed. I really feel like self injurying right now. The...
    TragedyxInxWaiting TragedyxInxWaiting 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 19, 2011

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    Cailey - There's this girl I met on this website and she hurts herself I got to know her and now I love her like she's my own sister but she keeps saying she will kill herself and...
    Wolf0278 Wolf0278 18-21, M 3 Responses Aug 5, 2012

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    Ughh. - I read all these venting stories and it just makes me feel the need to want to cut more and more. I haven't cut in such a long time. It has been several months. I think...
    Dreamwishes Dreamwishes 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 28, 2012

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    Cant Stop :( - I use to cut a lot and i still do every little bit but i haven't cut for over a week now but with all these thoughts going threw my head i have been thinking about...
    cmcm123 cmcm123 18-21, F 2 Responses May 30, 2013

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    I Just Dont Know - My life is so tough right now. Im only 15 but ive hone through more then you'll ever imagine. But this month is the worst for me first off i lost a friend her...
    toriaann98 toriaann98 16-17, F 1 Response May 24, 2013

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    Scars - The scars I show on the outside, from the razor digging... Slicing, cutting. Those are nothing compared to the mass of scars inside. Each cut I make externalizes it a bit...
    Melly0678 Melly0678 31-35, F 1 Response May 24, 2013

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    Email Me - Right now at this very moment I am having huge, terrible urges to cut myself. I don't know where it's coming from, but it hit my right in the chest. Like the feeling you...
    FarrahSpada FarrahSpada 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 30, 2013

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    Pisscakes - I had a good day. Detail.
    newmurderer newmurderer 70+ 3 Responses Jun 6, 2010

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    Nightmare - I had a seriously messed up dream last night. i dreamed that i was this girl (who wasn’t me but it was all from her viewpoint) & she had huge cuts all over her body...
    artgirlxx artgirlxx 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 25, 2013

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    Tired Of Fighting - I want to give up. Im one week clean and cant hold back anymore
    BabyGirlAtHeart BabyGirlAtHeart 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 23, 2013

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    Its a part of myself I'm not proud of. I started when I was fifteen. It's a sort of release, granted its not a good thing. I haven't in a long time but when things get bad I think...
    dixiecrystal1 dixiecrystal1 18-21, F Mar 31

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    My mom compares me to my cousin who is really smart and it got so bad that I burned myself I have the scar still I was 10 and I'm 16 now. I still burn myself from time to time.
    damagedprincess18 damagedprincess18 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 22, 2013

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    Trigger. - I try to stop myself from cutting but i really can't. I really want to put a razor blade on my skin
    undiscoveredg1rl undiscoveredg1rl 16-17, F Feb 18, 2013

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    Help From Instagram - I used to self harm but on instagram I have found a few good pages that have helped me recover. recently I found a page called Beautifu11y_Tragic. its...
    FreeMyHeart FreeMyHeart 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 5, 2013

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    Damn It - [long list of obscenities here] My mom saw my cuts again. I'm not ready to tell them everything thats wrong with me...Their not ready to know. *sigh*
    Hitshufflereplay Hitshufflereplay 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 14, 2011

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    Urges.. - I stare at white pale paper.. black ink spreads, like some kind of creature.. a monochrome world, and i am its preacher.. my religion, calling me.. i dont know why i...
    topretend topretend 16-17, M 3 Responses Dec 10, 2011

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    I haven't self harmed in months and it's been so hard and everything is starting to get bad again and nobody believes a word I say and it's so frustrating
    ccourrtney ccourrtney 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 3

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    Urges - I've never cut before, because I'm too much of a coward, but when things get particularly bad, like right now, I tend to get to the point where I feel the need to cut. But...
    KiwiDan KiwiDan 18-21, M 5 Responses Apr 16, 2013

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    3 Years - It has been 3 years with no cutting and today was my downfall. I never forgot how great the relief is that I get from cutting, but I tried to put it behind me and failed...
    endlesswirl endlesswirl 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 27, 2013

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    I've been doing good with not harming myself. It's so hard though. I've done it since 6th grade. It turned into an addiction every now and then I get a strong urge to hurt myself...
    Mimi3430 Mimi3430 13-15, F 3 Responses Dec 4, 2013

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    My Story - I have never really cut myself before... once, when I was younger I used to "think" about it a lot and one day when I was really upset I took a knife (it was very small...
    jsualmtha jsualmtha 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 3, 2013

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    I have self harmed and still do... I have been recovering from cutting, but I have broke a few times, and wish I could just stay strong. I still harm in other ways, and I hate to...
    Chiisai425 Chiisai425 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 15

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    This...Is Me. - Hi :) My name is Lexi. My friends call me Lexi but my name is Alexis Dorrington. My past is long and complicated so sit back, It might take awhile. It all started...
    LexiSI LexiSI 13-15, F 1 Response May 27, 2013

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    Only Been 2 Days - Its been two days since I have cut. Last night I don't know why or how but i fell into an extreme sadness. It hasn't gone away but there are intervals where it...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 27, 2012

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    The Times I Pinch My Ear - Whenever times get really hard, I just need something else to focus on... just anything at all. But since I live with such uptight people, where I'm...
    icewhip icewhip 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 16, 2011

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    I Self Harm - Particularly when I'm very angry and want to take my anger out on others but can't. So then I turn it on myself. Sounds stupid, I know. But sometimes even the feel of...
    AngryBlackChic20 AngryBlackChic20 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 30, 2012

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    Just 1 Cut.... - I'm feeling extremely anxious lately, not just because this is the first Mother's Day since my mom passed, but I'm under a lot of stress. I just want to be happy...
    lexus25 lexus25 26-30, F May 12, 2013

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    I Need To Punish Myself - At times I seem narcissistic and vain, but at times I feel so low, like a piece of ******* ****, so much that all I feel is shame and guilt. It's not...
    Kikiana1 Kikiana1 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 22, 2012

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    Last night..for the first time I. What feels like forever. I cut. It felt so good. Yet at the same time I wanted it to be deeper and to hurt more. I then cried myself to sleep...
    Darkflowers Darkflowers 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 3

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    Documentary: Self Harm - Have you self-harmed and want to share your story? You will be paid for your time. Location: world wide Format: online video interview. If in Ontario...
    clajournalism clajournalism 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 11, 2012

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    What A Release - A warm wave flows through my body , a QUICK flood of warmth, from my toes up to my face. My pulse is racing, I'm sweaty and hot, yet cold chills are running up my...
    libra604 libra604 26-30, M 1 Response Feb 1, 2012

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    Freedom...For Just A Moment - There's no escaping it is there? everything that goes even slightly wrong or unplanned in your day, and you start to feel like crap, you feel that...
    ditzyxxx ditzyxxx 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 12, 2013

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    Ran Out Of Bandages. . :/ - My self harm is getting worse each day. I cut more than once a day and I just can't stop I've tried, but I just can't do it. I need it. The blood. The...
    ImOkayNow ImOkayNow 16-17, F Sep 26, 2011

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    Twisted Affair - I want to feel the blade going deep into my skin. I want to watch as my blood flows. For peace comes to me in the moment I watch the damage I cause. All my life...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 5, 2013

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    I Need Distracting - I'm just going to type some random ramblings to distract me from this urge to self harm (and as a random related thought, can I just say, I hate the picture...
    sezziy sezziy 22-25, F 5 Responses Jun 15, 2010

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    Every Single Night... - ... I hear the blades calling my name. "give in!" Im not giving in...at least not now. I stare at my bare arms, perfect. Not even a scratch. Why do i...
    fourteenbluebirds fourteenbluebirds 13-15, F Dec 5, 2011

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    Relapse... - It's been years since I've done anything but lately...especially these last couple days, some times I wan nothing more then to open a damn vain or something. I know...
    Jamie81390 Jamie81390 18-21, F Sep 7, 2013

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    Hurting Myself - This is a terrible thing! I had a nightmare about my mother belittling me and woke up clawing my own face! Not to mention the scars on my arms from cutting myself...
    TheMorrigan TheMorrigan 41-45, F 2 Responses Apr 23, 2013

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    I Wish - Sometimes, when I get to that point of no return, that point that no matter what happens I know I am going to cut, I just sometimes wish I had the courage to stop. To tell...
    elc015 elc015 22-25, F Dec 23, 2012

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    ....but it's not because I'm sad. I'm just at the point where I start to think that if I just inflicted my own pain where it hurts, it would just go away...I know it makes no sense...
    IcyDragon IcyDragon 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 12

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    Injure - I guess I qualify since I have been dead twice and brought back. I did it to myself. The third try seems right around the corner.
    mailmanshadow mailmanshadow 51-55, M 1 Response Apr 1, 2012

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    It Never Fully Goes Away... - The marks down my arms have finally begun to fade away, but got noticed for the first time about a week ago. I used the good old "clawed by a cat...
    Fernwolf Fernwolf 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 16, 2012

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    It's A Weird Addiction - I never thought with just one cut that i'd be stolen for life. I don't like me and I like to hurt myself intentionally. It starts with a scratch, ends with...
    KISSndKILL KISSndKILL 18-21, F May 3, 2012

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    Not Right Now - I don't have the urge right now, but I have had it before, sometimes quite frequently. Luckily, I have always been able to somehow resist those urges, no matter how...
    lyricalongings lyricalongings 31-35, F 3 Responses Jun 7, 2010 </