I Have Thought About Dying

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 175 People

    Yes I Have

    I have thought about dying, not suicide though.  Just my own death.I know it has to happen one day, hopefully not too soon though.
    ImNotGood ImNotGood
    31-35, F
    Nov 12, 2011

    Yes I Have Thought Of It Once Or Twice When I Was 15 Years Old And Thought It Was Just Hopless That I Was Never Going To Find Love Ever Again

    I know it sounds a stupid reason to try to kill myself because I was never going to be in love ever again I might never feel what I felt like when I fell in love so when I was about fifteen I tried to kill myself probably twice but I am not going to do that ever again I thought I...
    angelus1988 angelus1988
    22-25, M
    1 Response May 20, 2011

    Thought About Dying

    Actually I've thought about it a lot.  It's definitely one thing I plan to do before I die.
    MrNewton MrNewton
    46-50, M
    2 Responses Dec 17, 2009

    Not For A Long Time

    at one point in time, not so long Ago, I hated every day I woke up, and just wanted to die to escape the torment in my head& soul. There are days I still feel tormented, but thankfully not as often as I used to, and I haven't attempted suicide in quiet a while.
    Pebbles1982 Pebbles1982
    31-35, F
    Apr 24, 2011

    Today when I thought about dying,

    I felt an enormous amount of solace. The thought that someday I won't have to live brings an eerie feeling of comfort. I have two requests: I don't want to die in a painful matter and no one else can be physically hurt. One time, I was thinking about dying and I smiled. Just...
    LB1911 LB1911
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 14, 2014

    A Lot Lately

    I think about it a lot lately but it is not a sad thing for me.  It is a peaceful thing and I am not afraid of dying.
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm
    41-45, F
    11 Responses Dec 24, 2009

    I am ready. I am no longer afraid.

    I hope it happens very soon. Eternal sleep is so much more peaceful than life. I'm tired of walking through hell everyday, empty and alone and hurting. I despise the rage I feel...
    Icarus1228 Icarus1228
    41-45, F
    Jul 8, 2014
    jim2430 jim2430
    31-35, M
    Jul 8, 2014

    ..pause For Thought

    I am a self-confessed Depressive. Throughout my dysfunctional life I have played 'The Dying Game' over in my mind, many times.  My neighbour also suffered 'mental health issues' and he also spent many years playing that same game.Then he was given the awful news; he had Terminal...
    fmn44 fmn44
    46-50, F
    2 Responses May 8, 2012

    All The Time

    We're all gonna die. So yep, I think about it frequently.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick
    22-25
    Jan 25, 2011

    I Think About Dying A Lot..

    I think about what would happen to my family, my children.. Would they be alright?.. I think about how it would happen.. A car accident? Illness? Old age? I think about what my next life will be like.. Will I finally have an easy life? (all of my lives have been pretty damn tough...
    Beautifulimperfections Beautifulimperfections
    26-30, F
    Mar 7, 2012

    Luwa

    Luwa. I'm spit No one would notice if I died.
    NotBackingDown NotBackingDown
    13-15, F
    Aug 16, 2012

    More Than I Care To Admit

    I actually came to terms with death somewhat a few years ago. As a kid it really scared me. I would lie in bed and think about. I would doubt God even though I was non-denominational Christian and walked to Sunday school every Sunday. Then in 2011, we moved across the country...
    Spankmesweetly Spankmesweetly
    26-30, F
    2 Responses May 31, 2013

    What If

    what if i did die.who would mourn.who would cry.what lies would be told.which stories shared.would my funeral be a large one.who would take care of my kidds.where would i go.what happens after i died i dont think of suicide but death itself is amazing and so unknown with so many...
    13thstep13 13thstep13
    31-35, M
    1 Response Dec 21, 2011

    Many, Many Times

    It could be very painful, maybe even slow. I'm not comfortable with that. Some days I hope it's fast, other times I hope that I will at least have a moment to appreciate the irony of it and pray. However I have come to accept that death could happen at any moment, and that my...
    Explodey Explodey
    22-25, M
    1 Response Mar 24, 2010

    Honestly

    Yes,I have thought about dying because i think life is so hard.And it will stay that way..You can only can find the fun side of it if you take it easy and let it flow.Sometimes this advise really have a good point."Never take life seriously.Nobody gets out alive anyway."
    Dyana6252 Dyana6252
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 25, 2010

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