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I Have Thought About Dying

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 183 People

    Many, Many Times

    It could be very painful, maybe even slow. I'm not comfortable with that. Some days I hope it's fast, other times I hope that I will at least have a moment to appreciate the irony of it and pray. However I have come to accept that death could happen at any moment, and that my...
    Explodey Explodey 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 24, 2010

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    I am ready. I am no longer afraid.

    I hope it happens very soon. Eternal sleep is so much more peaceful than life. I'm tired of walking through hell everyday, empty and alone and hurting. I despise the rage I feel...
    Icarus1228 Icarus1228 36-40, F Jul 8

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    ..pause For Thought

    I am a self-confessed Depressive. Throughout my dysfunctional life I have played 'The Dying Game' over in my mind, many times.  My neighbour also suffered 'mental health issues' and he also spent many years playing that same game.Then he was given the awful news; he had Terminal...
    fmn44 fmn44 46-50, F 2 Responses May 8, 2012

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    All The Time

    We're all gonna die. So yep, I think about it frequently.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25, F Jan 25, 2011

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    Yes I Have

    I have thought about dying, not suicide though.  Just my own death.I know it has to happen one day, hopefully not too soon though.
    ImNotGood ImNotGood 31-35, F Nov 12, 2011

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    What If

    what if i did die.who would mourn.who would cry.what lies would be told.which stories shared.would my funeral be a large one.who would take care of my kidds.where would i go.what happens after i died i dont think of suicide but death itself is amazing and so unknown with so many...
    13thstep13 13thstep13 31-35, M 1 Response Dec 21, 2011

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    Honestly

    Yes,I have thought about dying because i think life is so hard.And it will stay that way..You can only can find the fun side of it if you take it easy and let it flow.Sometimes this advise really have a good point."Never take life seriously.Nobody gets out alive anyway."
    Dyana6252 Dyana6252 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 25, 2010

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    A Lot Lately

    I think about it a lot lately but it is not a sad thing for me.  It is a peaceful thing and I am not afraid of dying.
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 11 Responses Dec 24, 2009

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    I Think About Dying A Lot..

    I think about what would happen to my family, my children.. Would they be alright?.. I think about how it would happen.. A car accident? Illness? Old age? I think about what my next life will be like.. Will I finally have an easy life? (all of my lives have been pretty damn tough...
    Beautifulimperfections Beautifulimperfections 26-30, F Mar 7, 2012

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    jim2430 jim2430 31-35, M Jul 8

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    Yes I Have Thought Of It Once Or Twice When I Was 15 Years Old And Thought It Was Just Hopless That I Was Never Going To Find Love Ever Again

    I know it sounds a stupid reason to try to kill myself because I was never going to be in love ever again I might never feel what I felt like when I fell in love so when I was about fifteen I tried to kill myself probably twice but I am not going to do that ever again I thought I...
    angelus1988 angelus1988 22-25, M 1 Response May 20, 2011

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    Luwa

    Luwa. I'm spit No one would notice if I died.
    NotBackingDown NotBackingDown 13-15, F Aug 16, 2012

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    Today when I thought about dying,

    I felt an enormous amount of solace. The thought that someday I won't have to live brings an eerie feeling of comfort. I have two requests: I don't want to die in a painful matter and no one else can be physically hurt. One time, I was thinking about dying and I smiled. Just...
    LB1911 LB1911 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 14

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    Thought About Dying

    Actually I've thought about it a lot.  It's definitely one thing I plan to do before I die.
    MrNewton MrNewton 46-50, M 2 Responses Dec 17, 2009

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    More Than I Care To Admit

    I actually came to terms with death somewhat a few years ago. As a kid it really scared me. I would lie in bed and think about. I would doubt God even though I was non-denominational Christian and walked to Sunday school every Sunday. Then in 2011, we moved across the country...
    Spankmesweetly Spankmesweetly 22-25, F 2 Responses May 31, 2013

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    Not For A Long Time

    at one point in time, not so long Ago, I hated every day I woke up, and just wanted to die to escape the torment in my head& soul. There are days I still feel tormented, but thankfully not as often as I used to, and I haven't attempted suicide in quiet a while.
    Pebbles1982 Pebbles1982 26-30, F Apr 24, 2011

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    90% of the time, i have dreams in which i am dying or something is trying to kill me like a lion, a snake, or some dangerous dogs ~
    iamjustbeingme iamjustbeingme 16-17, M 1 Response Nov 29

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    Two years ago i dyed my hair by myself to the blonde colour. My hair are dark brown. I became light blonde hair but this tint destroyed my hair. I couldnt do anything. They were...
    angel8i angel8i 31-35 2 Responses Dec 2

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    My grandfather is 94. Well almost 95. He served in World War Two as a sailor. He met my deceased grandmother during World War Two while working on repairing the same airplane. He...
    FiftyLyricsInAMiracle FiftyLyricsInAMiracle 13-15, F Dec 9

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    I think about dying almost every day of my life. It's usually about suicide. The problems I create for myself seem to pile heavier and heavier on my shoulders to the point I feel I...
    TRP92 TRP92 22-25, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    We are always trying to find that happiness...."when I get a raise, when I have kids, when I have a job, when I have a car." We rush thru life trying to find that elusive thing...
    RubyLane RubyLane 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 22

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    me: *thinks about dying* me: *panics* me: *thinks about living* me: *panics* me: ????????????
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 23

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    okay so there's this guy in my school and he's one of my 2 close friends and i like him so much. like I've never felt this way about a guy before because I've always thought I was...
    cookingaubrey cookingaubrey 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 23

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    I am a Muslim. I am proud to be a Muslim. And I think that the idea that some people have about Islam is really twisted. Even many Muslims have got it all wrong. For example, the...
    ashfaaqb ashfaaqb 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 4

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    At 30.years old, I have about 3 very close friends, including my fiance. I have 1 friend who is there for me but we are not super close.. I am totally content only having a few...
    jjewell84 jjewell84 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 23

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    I'm definitely not saying I use it though. I have about seven others I'd sooner tolerate.
    Starrkya Starrkya 18-21, F Dec 7

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    I only have about four people in my life currently that I trust and that haven't betrayed me. Two female friends, an ex, and a guy that is my best friend that I want to be more...
    ImJustJen ImJustJen 26-30, F 4 Responses Dec 7

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    4"Here. Hold this. Keep refreshing every few minutes and if you see a red one on the message box call me. Is that understood?""Yes.""Don't do something I wouldn't," he said softly...
    TheTestOfTimeAndPain TheTestOfTimeAndPain 26-30 14 hrs ago

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    She knows who she is. Mighty pretty and brainy. Not sure what natural color hair or eye colour she's got but she rocks my socks. If somehow she cant read between the lines here...
    AcousticAnne AcousticAnne 26-30, F 1 Response 22 hrs ago

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    I dreamed last night that I found my old friend Marcus whom I haven't seen in a full two years. He had grown out his hair but was still dying it black it seemed and it was...
    queenjellyfish queenjellyfish 16-17, F 12 hrs ago

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    I feel our friendship is dying. I can sense it. The blood of our friendship is stopping its flow and the heart of it is pumping slower, soon it's going to stop and die. When we...
    fadingintoexistance fadingintoexistance 16-17, F Dec 7

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    A lot of people I know are afraid of dying... Why are they even afraid of dying if they're gonna end up dying in the end?
    Misaki7590 Misaki7590 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 1

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    I'm 22 and about a year ago I was totally different person. Popular, very fit from going to the gym, etc.. I was also smoking weed. Everything was going great, but at then end of...
    unknownOrigin unknownOrigin 22-25 Dec 1

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    I lost my mom this January. actually she is my step mother but she raised me since I was 8 so she is my mom to me. her death was slow and painful and a very long time coming. I...
    omgeezus omgeezus 26-30, F 3 Responses Nov 19

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    My dreams aren't entirely correct though. Recently I've been having dreams where small details or parts of it have come true the next day. In example ; 1. I dreamt about my step...
    trappedgirl17 trappedgirl17 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    There are no words to describe the sadness that you feel, saying goodbye to someone you know who is dying of cancer, and who is too young to have their life end so quickly...
    SeaSpray01 SeaSpray01 41-45, F 3 Responses Nov 22

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    I am Dying I have Cirrhosis of the Liver I am an alcohol addict If I could get Marijuana it would satisfy the addiction and not kill my liver. Marijuana is illegal. Alcohol is...
    Tsuru1953 Tsuru1953 61-65 Nov 24

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    I'm dying.... LEGIT DYING. Lol I can't breathe I am coughing like a mad woman! Aka dying chicken. Seriously, it took me legit like weeks fighting it until my immune system...
    ofthisgirl90 ofthisgirl90 22-25, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    3 shades: Black White & Grey What are the colors of the rainbow? Most eyes see a vibrant world painted by the full color spectrum soaking up the light prisms as they cast...
    writingmyrelease writingmyrelease 26-30, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    im slowly dying on the inside but I smile and pretend I'm alright I can't show weakness I want people to know I'm ok
    neonpinkcupcakelover neonpinkcupcakelover 16-17, F Nov 21

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    I am not afraid of dying as its not the end but the beginning.... all I wish is to die a peaceful and content person with no regrets
    shaurya26 shaurya26 36-40, F 1 Response Dec 4

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    Death was all around me again beater was pouring outside. Everyone I knew was dying until it was just my daughter and me. Then, my daughter moved in with another lady leaving me to...
    JJjenniejones JJjenniejones 41-45, F 1 Response Nov 29

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    Dying isn't the end of life, it's only the beginning
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 7 Responses Nov 30

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    I lost my dad on November 22. I watched a big strong healthy man become over powered by Alzheimer's and dementia. I watched these diseases slowly destroy him. When he died he was...
    abluerose abluerose 41-45, F 1 Response Dec 3

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    I think I will be dying soon. not because of my actions , but life itself appears inching in that direction. hope has been vanishing for years and now it feels like there is not...
    techopeless techopeless 31-35 2 Responses a week ago

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    I feel like I'm dying lol. Oh my goshhhhh it feels like knives stabbing my lower abdomen repeatedly. Being a girl has its perks, and this certainly is NOT one of them! Just thought...
    lizygurl lizygurl 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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