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I Have Thought About Dying

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 183 People

    Thought About Dying

    Actually I've thought about it a lot.  It's definitely one thing I plan to do before I die.
    MrNewton MrNewton 46-50, M 2 Responses Dec 17, 2009

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    All The Time

    We're all gonna die. So yep, I think about it frequently.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 70+, F Jan 25, 2011

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    Many, Many Times

    It could be very painful, maybe even slow. I'm not comfortable with that. Some days I hope it's fast, other times I hope that I will at least have a moment to appreciate the irony of it and pray. However I have come to accept that death could happen at any moment, and that my...
    Explodey Explodey 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 24, 2010

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    I am ready. I am no longer afraid.

    I hope it happens very soon. Eternal sleep is so much more peaceful than life. I'm tired of walking through hell everyday, empty and alone and hurting. I despise the rage I feel...
    Icarus1228 Icarus1228 36-40, F Jul 8, 2014

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    Yes I Have

    I have thought about dying, not suicide though.  Just my own death.I know it has to happen one day, hopefully not too soon though.
    ImNotGood ImNotGood 31-35, F Nov 12, 2011

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    A Lot Lately

    I think about it a lot lately but it is not a sad thing for me.  It is a peaceful thing and I am not afraid of dying.
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 11 Responses Dec 24, 2009

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    Honestly

    Yes,I have thought about dying because i think life is so hard.And it will stay that way..You can only can find the fun side of it if you take it easy and let it flow.Sometimes this advise really have a good point."Never take life seriously.Nobody gets out alive anyway."
    Dyana6252 Dyana6252 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 25, 2010

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    What If

    what if i did die.who would mourn.who would cry.what lies would be told.which stories shared.would my funeral be a large one.who would take care of my kidds.where would i go.what happens after i died i dont think of suicide but death itself is amazing and so unknown with so many...
    13thstep13 13thstep13 31-35, M 1 Response Dec 21, 2011

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    More Than I Care To Admit

    I actually came to terms with death somewhat a few years ago. As a kid it really scared me. I would lie in bed and think about. I would doubt God even though I was non-denominational Christian and walked to Sunday school every Sunday. Then in 2011, we moved across the country...
    Spankmesweetly Spankmesweetly 22-25, F 2 Responses May 31, 2013

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    ..pause For Thought

    I am a self-confessed Depressive. Throughout my dysfunctional life I have played 'The Dying Game' over in my mind, many times.  My neighbour also suffered 'mental health issues' and he also spent many years playing that same game.Then he was given the awful news; he had Terminal...
    fmn44 fmn44 46-50, F 2 Responses May 8, 2012

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    I Think About Dying A Lot..

    I think about what would happen to my family, my children.. Would they be alright?.. I think about how it would happen.. A car accident? Illness? Old age? I think about what my next life will be like.. Will I finally have an easy life? (all of my lives have been pretty damn tough...
    Beautifulimperfections Beautifulimperfections 26-30, F Mar 7, 2012

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    Luwa

    Luwa. I'm spit No one would notice if I died.
    NotBackingDown NotBackingDown 13-15, F Aug 16, 2012

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    Yes I Have Thought Of It Once Or Twice When I Was 15 Years Old And Thought It Was Just Hopless That I Was Never Going To Find Love Ever Again

    I know it sounds a stupid reason to try to kill myself because I was never going to be in love ever again I might never feel what I felt like when I fell in love so when I was about fifteen I tried to kill myself probably twice but I am not going to do that ever again I thought I...
    angelus1988 angelus1988 22-25, M 1 Response May 20, 2011

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    Not For A Long Time

    at one point in time, not so long Ago, I hated every day I woke up, and just wanted to die to escape the torment in my head& soul. There are days I still feel tormented, but thankfully not as often as I used to, and I haven't attempted suicide in quiet a while.
    Pebbles1982 Pebbles1982 26-30, F Apr 24, 2011

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    jim2430 jim2430 31-35, M Jul 8, 2014

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    Today when I thought about dying,

    I felt an enormous amount of solace. The thought that someday I won't have to live brings an eerie feeling of comfort. I have two requests: I don't want to die in a painful matter and no one else can be physically hurt. One time, I was thinking about dying and I smiled. Just...
    LB1911 LB1911 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 14, 2014

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    Related Experiences

    Its not so much the idea of dying, but I actually enjoy them when they revolve around my suicide. Very intense and entertaining.
    kingbrizo kingbrizo 18-21 Apr 11

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    I've begged for forgiveness asked you to punish me hit me beat me run me over with your car 🚗 but just let it go already. You keep making up stories that are solely in your...
    tommcam tommcam 41-45, M 2 hrs ago

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    I wonder why some people can make a joke about death?... I wonder what is so funny about dying?... or maybe it's only me who takes it so seriously that I found these ideas...
    msj02 msj02 22-25, F 4 Responses Apr 16

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    It's scary how much I think about dying. The saddest part is that I don't think I would even be missed. How ******* pathetic is that?
    guestno3 guestno3 41-45 Apr 17

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    people around me don't understand how horrible this disorder is. Borderline personality disorder can be and is debilitating. I'm tired of being different. I'm tired of being...
    bloodRedd bloodRedd 26-30, F 2 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    In the years since I researched and wrote Mean Mothers, I’ve talked to women about our shared experiences. Every woman’s story is different, of course; perhaps the greatest...
    rescueme99 rescueme99 41-45 4 Responses Apr 11

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    i wasnt going to write a story about this.... but i will just to share y story with people and hopefully i can maybe try to help people who have it too...
    Slothislife Slothislife 18-21, M 12 Responses 4 days ago

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    1- I will weigh 120 pounds by summer 2016 2- I'm 13 I'll be 14 by this summer. 3- I will have a good boyfriend by late 2015 to early 2016 4- I will get my GED at 16 6- I will...
    SadlySafe SadlySafe 13-15 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I need to figure out what to do with my life. I feel as though I just exist with no purpose. I feel as though people associate their life meaning with their work. I have some...
    meeeghanp77 meeeghanp77 18-21, F Apr 7

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    My office manager has no backbone. Her only goal is to secure her pension so she can retire in another year or so. Although she is payed to manage a medical practice of 4 doctors...
    BrokeBandit BrokeBandit 36-40, F Apr 8

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    I have an older brother who can't seem to get off of my stuff. I am 14, he is 15. We both have about the same things, with only minor differences. But, I have a few unique things...
    pokemaster2001 pokemaster2001 13-15, M 1 Response Apr 16

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    Honestly I only have about 4 real friends but seriously I'd rather have a few close friends than a ton of fake friends..
    relapsing14 relapsing14 16-17, F 6 hrs ago

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    People have said I have an attractive smile before. I don't think so though. I've been told I "light up" with my smile. Which makes me want to gag. My teeth are very crooked. I...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    For as long as I can remember I've ruined most "now" moments because they remind me of other " then"moments from my past. I can be walking through a load of silver birch trees and...
    Blondiex15 Blondiex15 36-40, F 19 Responses Mar 30

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    What are your thoughts on: gay marriage? Jesus told us not to judge and He didn't join in the crowd when they wanted to judge someone for what she did that they didn't like. He...
    blankcheck4urhart blankcheck4urhart 36-40, F Apr 2

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    (1980) I was born while my parents were getting divorced. I saw my dad a handful of times. (1983) my mom remarries a man who likes little girls. My mom knew what was going on but...
    wingedvalkyrie7 wingedvalkyrie7 31-35, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    1. I love bird watching. 2. I often do what other people won't. (such as dive bombing into the brambles to save a kitten) 3. have a short fuse of impatience if you think you know...
    favestril favestril 41-45, F 4 hrs ago

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    This person has been my friend for half of my life, within the last couple of years, I've realized my feelings are stronger and that i love her; that I want more. She lives 6 hours...
    v30a84 v30a84 26-30, F 3 hrs ago

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    He's my math professor. I think he's in mid thirties. There are rumors saying that he is married but I never saw him wearing a ring. I went to his office hours and saw no pictures...
    Totoroc Totoroc 18-21, F 56 mins ago

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    I feel like I'm dying. I somehow manage to go through my daily routines but I no longer feel like there's a reason for me breathe. I feel like I'm just existing, not living; and...
    ILoveWeights ILoveWeights 26-30, M Mar 29

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    Help me.... I'm a potatoe and I'm dying
    philex2014 philex2014 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 15

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    My aunt is dying of Lou Gehrigs/ALS disease. Last night I dreamt my mom called me to tell me she passed. I feel my dream was God's way of getting my heart prepared. I know it won't...
    Bluetangerine Bluetangerine 46-50, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    -Father. Sociopathic. Physically and mentally abusive to both my mother and myself. I lived with him for thirteen years. My current household: -Mother. I live with her now. Was...
    SilencesLullaby SilencesLullaby 16-17, F 4 hrs ago

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    the biggest impact. I believe that everyone, sooner or later, has this thing happening in their lives which will change them forever. It’s not comparable. For the one’s who...
    deleleleteddd deleleleteddd 13-15, F Mar 30

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    **Note: due to character limitations, the full version of this story can only be viewed on the EP website.** Anyone who has read my stories here on EP, knows that I speak...
    Loverofpeace Loverofpeace 41-45, F 11 Responses 6 days ago

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    Hypocrit'sPeople on EP are always crying and whi'ning and bi'ching and p'ssing and mo'aning about the p'ervs and how all the men are p'ervs and everyone just wants s'x and sends...
    ForeverTheChampion ForeverTheChampion 22-25 1 Response 4 days ago

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    She got her nail, went to my right leg and dug out something. You can see she dug too much and looks like she went into a layer of skin she shouldn't have. I said about it and she...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 1 Response 4 hrs ago