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I Have Thought About Dying

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    Many, Many Times

    It could be very painful, maybe even slow. I'm not comfortable with that. Some days I hope it's fast, other times I hope that I will at least have a moment to appreciate the irony of it and pray. However I have come to accept that death could happen at any moment, and that my...
    Explodey Explodey 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 24, 2010

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    Yes I Have Thought Of It Once Or Twice When I Was 15 Years Old And Thought It Was Just Hopless That I Was Never Going To Find Love Ever Again

    I know it sounds a stupid reason to try to kill myself because I was never going to be in love ever again I might never feel what I felt like when I fell in love so when I was about fifteen I tried to kill myself probably twice but I am not going to do that ever again I thought I...
    angelus1988 angelus1988 22-25, M 1 Response May 20, 2011

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    More Than I Care To Admit

    I actually came to terms with death somewhat a few years ago. As a kid it really scared me. I would lie in bed and think about. I would doubt God even though I was non-denominational Christian and walked to Sunday school every Sunday. Then in 2011, we moved across the country...
    Spankmesweetly Spankmesweetly 22-25, F 2 Responses May 31, 2013

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    What If

    what if i did die.who would mourn.who would cry.what lies would be told.which stories shared.would my funeral be a large one.who would take care of my kidds.where would i go.what happens after i died i dont think of suicide but death itself is amazing and so unknown with so many...
    13thstep13 13thstep13 31-35, M 1 Response Dec 21, 2011

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    All The Time

    We're all gonna die. So yep, I think about it frequently.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 18-21, F Jan 25, 2011

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    Thought About Dying

    Actually I've thought about it a lot.  It's definitely one thing I plan to do before I die.
    MrNewton MrNewton 46-50, M 2 Responses Dec 17, 2009

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    Honestly

    Yes,I have thought about dying because i think life is so hard.And it will stay that way..You can only can find the fun side of it if you take it easy and let it flow.Sometimes this advise really have a good point."Never take life seriously.Nobody gets out alive anyway."
    Dyana6252 Dyana6252 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 25, 2010

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    Luwa

    Luwa. I'm spit No one would notice if I died.
    NotBackingDown NotBackingDown 13-15, F Aug 16, 2012

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    Today when I thought about dying,

    I felt an enormous amount of solace. The thought that someday I won't have to live brings an eerie feeling of comfort. I have two requests: I don't want to die in a painful matter and no one else can be physically hurt. One time, I was thinking about dying and I smiled. Just...
    LB1911 LB1911 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 14

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    I am ready. I am no longer afraid.

    I hope it happens very soon. Eternal sleep is so much more peaceful than life. I'm tired of walking through hell everyday, empty and alone and hurting. I despise the rage I feel...
    Icarus1228 Icarus1228 36-40, F Jul 8

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    jim2430 jim2430 31-35, M Jul 8

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    A Lot Lately

    I think about it a lot lately but it is not a sad thing for me.  It is a peaceful thing and I am not afraid of dying.
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 11 Responses Dec 24, 2009

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    I Think About Dying A Lot..

    I think about what would happen to my family, my children.. Would they be alright?.. I think about how it would happen.. A car accident? Illness? Old age? I think about what my next life will be like.. Will I finally have an easy life? (all of my lives have been pretty damn tough...
    Beautifulimperfections Beautifulimperfections 26-30, F Mar 7, 2012

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    Not For A Long Time

    at one point in time, not so long Ago, I hated every day I woke up, and just wanted to die to escape the torment in my head& soul. There are days I still feel tormented, but thankfully not as often as I used to, and I haven't attempted suicide in quiet a while.
    Pebbles1982 Pebbles1982 26-30, F Apr 24, 2011

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    Yes I Have

    I have thought about dying, not suicide though.  Just my own death.I know it has to happen one day, hopefully not too soon though.
    ImNotGood ImNotGood 31-35, F Nov 12, 2011

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    ..pause For Thought

    I am a self-confessed Depressive. Throughout my dysfunctional life I have played 'The Dying Game' over in my mind, many times.  My neighbour also suffered 'mental health issues' and he also spent many years playing that same game.Then he was given the awful news; he had Terminal...
    fmn44 fmn44 46-50, F 2 Responses May 8, 2012

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    I think about what will happen to my kids, my mom and dad. I try not to think about dying but I feel so hopeless. My life is filled with very few accomplishments and deep regret...
    lifealreadylost lifealreadylost 31-35, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    My mother is terminally ill and is expected to die soon. I love her very much and have many regrets. I dont tell people because I do not like the sympathy but I juat want those...
    meli2 meli2 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 8

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    For the past month, I've been having a recurring dream about the girl I care about dying. And it hasn't been, some days I have it, most I don't, it's reached a point where I have...
    Nix0 Nix0 16-17, M 3 days ago

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    This is actually 150 things about me. This was made by Nathan something from tumblr "150 cute questions" 1. Who was the last person you held hands with? -no one? 2. Are you...
    Yogurtree Yogurtree 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    I'm not quite sure whether I have one or not but I have this symptoms: 1. I feel like most of the times I feel nothing unless anger and sadness and hurt. Sometimes I'll laugh but...
    ayamaxx ayamaxx 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 3

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    I dread looking in mirrors. I hate what I see. I look hideous. I try to tell myself that I'm beautiful everyday to gain some confidence, but I always go back to feeling ugly. My...
    msladyt757 msladyt757 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 8

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    Aldi is one of my favorite grocery stores. They have about 80% of what I'll ever need. But I love hitting the grocery stores during the week from about 8:30 on and scoping out...
    CrazyWaterSpring CrazyWaterSpring 51-55, M 2 Responses Jul 7

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    So I have about 3 EP friends I've talk to since I've been back on. They are all cool, but one in particular I really enjoy talking to. It's funny because we really don't talk...
    RjMommy245 RjMommy245 22-25, F Jul 12

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    I am about a year from graduating a PhD in Biology. Thankfully I have only have to take out 8k for graduate school (most was paid by a stipend) but I have about 30k from...
    ChrisT26 ChrisT26 26-30, M Jul 18

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    I wouldn't say I'm an athiest as most of the time I do believe in some form of God; though i believe him to not be how he is portrayed in The Bible. For example, more of a spirit...
    CaitlinBuchan97 CaitlinBuchan97 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 18

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    I love my State! I always wonder the stereotypes and pre assumptions other people have about us. The only ones I see are on TV. The one thing I notice when talking to other...
    Teeze22 Teeze22 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 2

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    I have about 7 mental disorders. I have bipolar, schizophrenia, borderline personality, impulse control, intermittent explosive, PTSD, and Asperger's syndrome. I have a lot of...
    Blaze1103 Blaze1103 26-30, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I'd sit down, this is gonna be 10 years of quieted emotions.. Emotions, doesn't that word just terrify you a little? I know it terrifies me. I wanna post this not for sympathy, but...
    StayingSaneWithoutYou StayingSaneWithoutYou 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 7

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    Okay so my dad had cancer, and we can't do anything about it. My mom tries her best to make him feel better or tries to serve him good food that his stomach can take, which is not...
    suskypls suskypls 16-17, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    Finally finally FINALLY another letter!!! He mailed one to my little sis as well and told her a huge surprise he has for me but I'm not allowed to know. I'm sooo curious and dying...
    armygirlfriend14 armygirlfriend14 18-21, F 9 hrs ago

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    My Mom's Death I remember it clearly as though it happened yesterday. She was an amazing woman. Very independent yet not. My dad really held her together. I remember the...
    PoetryNEmotion PoetryNEmotion 51-55, F 2 Responses Jul 5

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    In my dream, when you're close to death, some company calls you in to be measured for your coffin, and to give samples of blood. I got a notification that it was my time to come...
    Kryzta Kryzta 26-30, F Jul 9

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    I am so scared of being nothing...the thought of death makes me panic. I have severe panic attacks whenever I think about it. I feel like I am spiralling out of control physically...
    justaweirdo56 justaweirdo56 16-17, F Jul 4

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    My heart may be beating, But my soul is dying. I am to broken to be fixed, everyone who tries gets cut on my broken heart. I keep finding myself sitting up at night crying...
    SaphiraJane SaphiraJane 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 6

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    I'm really scared of my family members dying. I'm a senior in high school and my dad died three years ago. His death was really unexpected so after that I was like "Wow, it's true...
    youthberry youthberry 18-21, F Jul 10

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    I am terrified of dying. When I was younger I was very religious, and believed that if I was a good person I would go to heaven. Now that I'm older I'm starting to question my...
    CynicalSinner CynicalSinner 16-17, F 4 Responses Jun 30

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    I was so excited to get home to write to all of you following my story. Not excited given my situation, but excited for the chance to maybe help some of you going through what I am...
    RiseAbove222 RiseAbove222 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 3

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    Idl how to feel right now...I think I would be more happy to fall asleep and just not get back up. I'm trying to be strong and positive but I just can't do it no more. Last night...
    XFallingAngelX XFallingAngelX 16-17, F Jul 19

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    Today is z first day i did not call you n hear your voice, I feel like am dying off. I wish I get back to the old times when we used to talk n laugh out loud . I do not know how to...
    Alicedreams Alicedreams 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 20

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    Random Thoughts Part II: It kind of bugs me when people say things like "It's nice to meet you", before they've gotten to know me. I mean how do you know it's nice to meet me, I'm...
    DeathstalkerScorpion DeathstalkerScorpion 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 30

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    I think most of my EP friends know I was gone for about a week recently, but most of you don’t know where I was. I was actually on a vacation with my family “across the pond...
    SaraBee1995 SaraBee1995 18-21, F 3 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    I am afraid that my ailing Father maybe dying. I received a shocking phone call from my brother almost 2 months ago. He told me how my Dad was doing since I live so far away from...
    Sara600 Sara600 56-60, F Jul 17

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    It did not work out the way that I'd hoped. I won't name the site that I used, but I created a profile about 2 years ago (2012ish), and figured it give it a shot. I answered a...
    moonchile moonchile 26-30, F 6 hrs ago

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    I am not afraid of dying and never will be
    Sproketsocet Sproketsocet 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 30

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    I'm actually dying on the inside. My digestive system is shutting down. I'm scared
    Yerbamate Yerbamate 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 2

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    I had strangest of the dreams. I saw myself dying :s. And to make things even more strange..... next day ( night) I saw my sibling making grand arrangements for their funeral.
    lonelyheartbroken lonelyheartbroken 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 16

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    I'm 38. Caring for my dying 59 year old husband. Been married 17 years almost and this is KILLING me. It hurts seeing him hurt so bad. It hurts not having him. He sleeps constantly...
    Amginn Amginn 36-40 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I wake up in morning wishing i never did. I sit up in bed and look at my phone no texts like always making up friends in my head. Fall back to sleep by crying sometimes i feel like...
    beautifulreject beautifulreject 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 28