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I Have Thought About Dying

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    I Think About Dying A Lot..

    I think about what would happen to my family, my children.. Would they be alright?.. I think about how it would happen.. A car accident? Illness? Old age? I think about what my next life will be like.. Will I finally have an easy life? (all of my lives have been pretty damn tough...
    Beautifulimperfections Beautifulimperfections 26-30, F Mar 7, 2012

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    Thought About Dying

    Actually I've thought about it a lot.  It's definitely one thing I plan to do before I die.
    MrNewton MrNewton 46-50, M 2 Responses Dec 17, 2009

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    More Than I Care To Admit

    I actually came to terms with death somewhat a few years ago. As a kid it really scared me. I would lie in bed and think about. I would doubt God even though I was non-denominational Christian and walked to Sunday school every Sunday. Then in 2011, we moved across the country...
    Spankmesweetly Spankmesweetly 26-30, F 2 Responses May 31, 2013

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    I am ready. I am no longer afraid.

    I hope it happens very soon. Eternal sleep is so much more peaceful than life. I'm tired of walking through hell everyday, empty and alone and hurting. I despise the rage I feel...
    Icarus1228 Icarus1228 36-40, F Jul 8, 2014

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    Luwa

    Luwa. I'm spit No one would notice if I died.
    NotBackingDown NotBackingDown 13-15, F Aug 16, 2012

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    Honestly

    Yes,I have thought about dying because i think life is so hard.And it will stay that way..You can only can find the fun side of it if you take it easy and let it flow.Sometimes this advise really have a good point."Never take life seriously.Nobody gets out alive anyway."
    Dyana6252 Dyana6252 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 25, 2010

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    Not For A Long Time

    at one point in time, not so long Ago, I hated every day I woke up, and just wanted to die to escape the torment in my head& soul. There are days I still feel tormented, but thankfully not as often as I used to, and I haven't attempted suicide in quiet a while.
    Pebbles1982 Pebbles1982 31-35, F Apr 24, 2011

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    Many, Many Times

    It could be very painful, maybe even slow. I'm not comfortable with that. Some days I hope it's fast, other times I hope that I will at least have a moment to appreciate the irony of it and pray. However I have come to accept that death could happen at any moment, and that my...
    Explodey Explodey 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 24, 2010

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    Yes I Have

    I have thought about dying, not suicide though.  Just my own death.I know it has to happen one day, hopefully not too soon though.
    ImNotGood ImNotGood 31-35, F Nov 12, 2011

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    Yes I Have Thought Of It Once Or Twice When I Was 15 Years Old And Thought It Was Just Hopless That I Was Never Going To Find Love Ever Again

    I know it sounds a stupid reason to try to kill myself because I was never going to be in love ever again I might never feel what I felt like when I fell in love so when I was about fifteen I tried to kill myself probably twice but I am not going to do that ever again I thought I...
    angelus1988 angelus1988 22-25, M 1 Response May 20, 2011

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    jim2430 jim2430 31-35, M Jul 8, 2014

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    Today when I thought about dying,

    I felt an enormous amount of solace. The thought that someday I won't have to live brings an eerie feeling of comfort. I have two requests: I don't want to die in a painful matter and no one else can be physically hurt. One time, I was thinking about dying and I smiled. Just...
    LB1911 LB1911 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 14, 2014

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    All The Time

    We're all gonna die. So yep, I think about it frequently.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25 Jan 25, 2011

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    A Lot Lately

    I think about it a lot lately but it is not a sad thing for me.  It is a peaceful thing and I am not afraid of dying.
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 11 Responses Dec 24, 2009

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    What If

    what if i did die.who would mourn.who would cry.what lies would be told.which stories shared.would my funeral be a large one.who would take care of my kidds.where would i go.what happens after i died i dont think of suicide but death itself is amazing and so unknown with so many...
    13thstep13 13thstep13 31-35, M 1 Response Dec 21, 2011

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    ..pause For Thought

    I am a self-confessed Depressive. Throughout my dysfunctional life I have played 'The Dying Game' over in my mind, many times.  My neighbour also suffered 'mental health issues' and he also spent many years playing that same game.Then he was given the awful news; he had Terminal...
    fmn44 fmn44 46-50, F 2 Responses May 8, 2012

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    In my dream last night, one part of it was me reading more about anxiety online. There was a list of anxieties experienced by people who actually had anxiety disorder, and a list...
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    In my youth I was arrogant ,reckless, and ignorant. I acted solely to help only myself and I didn't see the truth because I did not wish to see. I did things I wasn't proud of...
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    The great thing about being a guy is I don't have to put on a "face" to go outside. All I have to do is make sure my nutsack isn't showing and I'm pretty much golden.
    slingshot007 slingshot007 46-50, M 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    I've not been here as often as id like... Just about to start work again.. So... I'll leave a little pot of love and hugs here... Just help yourself... Be good.. Hope you are...
    expressomarkie expressomarkie 46-50, M 2 hrs ago

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    Been married for almost two decades & my wife still doesn't understand my desire for intimacy. Not just talking about sex either. I need to be touched, hand holding or a simple...
    Mandi7833 Mandi7833 36-40, F 2 hrs ago

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    Friday I'm sleeping over his house with our son. our son is excited to have a sleep over with his sisters. I'm looking foward to being in bed with my ex and cuddle. I'm not...
    smashmouth4eva smashmouth4eva 31-35, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    ugh today was so triggering! my sis just keep doing and saying things that trigger me, first she was eating chocolate and then she was like "omg I'm about to finish the whole bar...
    Silentsuffer Silentsuffer 13-15, F 4 hrs ago

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    I started to 'waist train' with corsets just a couple of months back. Had a few trial and error mistakes with corsets that may look ok but just not strong enough or laces too short...
    Georgieshore Georgieshore 51-55, T 5 hrs ago

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    My ex has turned me into a very untrusting person. I always believed him... Stood up for him... He had for years been doing things that left me trusting nothing about him...
    WastedShadedDaylight WastedShadedDaylight 31-35, F 11 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    Characteristics Of Narcissistic Mothers 1. Everything she does is deniable. (Most of the time) 2. She violates your boundaries. (Odd time and doesn't respect my wishes) 3. She...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 46-50 5 hrs ago

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    I was thinking about it today. Well, I wasn't depressed or anything. Just bored and felt kinda empty so I thought about random things like wouldn't it be fun if I tried to attempt...
    Boujie Boujie 18-21, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    just me wondering why i didn't even do anything like i only messaged by "hello there" just really curious about someone so i messaged for knowing how he is?!!!!!!! now i am blocked...
    GamesBOSS GamesBOSS 18-21, M 4 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    I have passion about nothing in my life. It's always been like this. I don't want to achieve anything, I don't want to do anything. I just want the years to pass by and wait for my...
    Fwtw Fwtw 18-21, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    Wel) i have tried overdosing hanging myself and cutting my wrists but i got caught everytime for me the easiest thing was overdosing or cutting my wrists but only if you have taken...
    wichita316 wichita316 22-25, F 9 hrs ago

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    I am 55 and just growing up because my husband is dying, I am going to be a widow, and i have never gotten to know ME.
    flowerchild3 flowerchild3 51-55, F 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    My mindthrobs also caution me about the very idea of having mindthrobs. It's dreadfully silly, but I am young at heart and will joyfully enthuse like a little kid all those who...
    Deafning Deafning 36-40, M 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    When I'm alone I'll fantasize about killing myself. I'm not actually going to do it anytime soon, but I can't help but wonder what it would be like. I have it all planned out and I...
    Syntagram Syntagram 16-17, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    It was during the summer. I was out of school and house hopping since I had no stable home to go back to. It was a difficult year. I felt like dying every day. I had bouts of...
    starsheepie starsheepie 22-25, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    My phobia was started when I was in the sixth grade. At two different points in the year, at the exact same time in the morning, and at the exact same spot in front of my locker...
    tn182194 tn182194 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    xxladyjadedxx xxladyjadedxx 26-30, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    If only we can all accept the very basic truth about life; we were born as individuals and naturally we are going to die as individuals (alone and loneliness, maybe those words...
    Nonotu Nonotu 22-25, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    My bf and I started dating a year ago. He was just coming out of a relationship with the mother of their then 2 year old child. He hid the relationship for a long time, but then...
    franklymydear42 franklymydear42 41-45, F 6 Responses a week ago

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    Hi, I stumbled upon this site while searching ( as iv done thousands of times, for yeeears now) in hopes that I can find some magical supplement to cure the living hell that my...
    Hopelesslyfallen Hopelesslyfallen 31-35, F a week ago

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    I am mid in to my pmdd. This month is not so bad but again I get rapid thoughts,uncontrollable outbursts. Hate myself,cannot sleep,major cramps. Everything aches. My mental state...
    4getmenot79 4getmenot79 36-40, F 3 Responses Jan 31