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I Have Thought About Dying

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    jim2430 jim2430 31-35, M Jul 8

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    Yes I Have

    I have thought about dying, not suicide though.  Just my own death.I know it has to happen one day, hopefully not too soon though.
    ImNotGood ImNotGood 31-35, F Nov 12, 2011

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    Today when I thought about dying,

    I felt an enormous amount of solace. The thought that someday I won't have to live brings an eerie feeling of comfort. I have two requests: I don't want to die in a painful matter and no one else can be physically hurt. One time, I was thinking about dying and I smiled. Just...
    LB1911 LB1911 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 14

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    Many, Many Times

    It could be very painful, maybe even slow. I'm not comfortable with that. Some days I hope it's fast, other times I hope that I will at least have a moment to appreciate the irony of it and pray. However I have come to accept that death could happen at any moment, and that my...
    Explodey Explodey 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 24, 2010

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    What If

    what if i did die.who would mourn.who would cry.what lies would be told.which stories shared.would my funeral be a large one.who would take care of my kidds.where would i go.what happens after i died i dont think of suicide but death itself is amazing and so unknown with so many...
    13thstep13 13thstep13 31-35, M 1 Response Dec 21, 2011

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    All The Time

    We're all gonna die. So yep, I think about it frequently.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25, F Jan 25, 2011

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    Not For A Long Time

    at one point in time, not so long Ago, I hated every day I woke up, and just wanted to die to escape the torment in my head& soul. There are days I still feel tormented, but thankfully not as often as I used to, and I haven't attempted suicide in quiet a while.
    Pebbles1982 Pebbles1982 26-30, F Apr 24, 2011

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    More Than I Care To Admit

    I actually came to terms with death somewhat a few years ago. As a kid it really scared me. I would lie in bed and think about. I would doubt God even though I was non-denominational Christian and walked to Sunday school every Sunday. Then in 2011, we moved across the country...
    Spankmesweetly Spankmesweetly 22-25, F 2 Responses May 31, 2013

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    A Lot Lately

    I think about it a lot lately but it is not a sad thing for me.  It is a peaceful thing and I am not afraid of dying.
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 11 Responses Dec 24, 2009

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    Yes I Have Thought Of It Once Or Twice When I Was 15 Years Old And Thought It Was Just Hopless That I Was Never Going To Find Love Ever Again

    I know it sounds a stupid reason to try to kill myself because I was never going to be in love ever again I might never feel what I felt like when I fell in love so when I was about fifteen I tried to kill myself probably twice but I am not going to do that ever again I thought I...
    angelus1988 angelus1988 22-25, M 1 Response May 20, 2011

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    Thought About Dying

    Actually I've thought about it a lot.  It's definitely one thing I plan to do before I die.
    MrNewton MrNewton 46-50, M 2 Responses Dec 17, 2009

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    I Think About Dying A Lot..

    I think about what would happen to my family, my children.. Would they be alright?.. I think about how it would happen.. A car accident? Illness? Old age? I think about what my next life will be like.. Will I finally have an easy life? (all of my lives have been pretty damn tough...
    Beautifulimperfections Beautifulimperfections 26-30, F Mar 7, 2012

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    Luwa

    Luwa. I'm spit No one would notice if I died.
    NotBackingDown NotBackingDown 13-15, F Aug 16, 2012

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    ..pause For Thought

    I am a self-confessed Depressive. Throughout my dysfunctional life I have played 'The Dying Game' over in my mind, many times.  My neighbour also suffered 'mental health issues' and he also spent many years playing that same game.Then he was given the awful news; he had Terminal...
    fmn44 fmn44 46-50, F 2 Responses May 8, 2012

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    Honestly

    Yes,I have thought about dying because i think life is so hard.And it will stay that way..You can only can find the fun side of it if you take it easy and let it flow.Sometimes this advise really have a good point."Never take life seriously.Nobody gets out alive anyway."
    Dyana6252 Dyana6252 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 25, 2010

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    I am ready. I am no longer afraid.

    I hope it happens very soon. Eternal sleep is so much more peaceful than life. I'm tired of walking through hell everyday, empty and alone and hurting. I despise the rage I feel...
    Icarus1228 Icarus1228 36-40, F Jul 8

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    So i thought i would post on here because i don't have anyone to talk to. So basically i'm 16, i have a lot of problems.. I am deeply depressed, i have bad anxiety/social anxiety...
    FellInReverse FellInReverse 16-17, M 1 Response Nov 7

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    We are always trying to find that happiness...."when I get a raise, when I have kids, when I have a job, when I have a car." We rush thru life trying to find that elusive thing...
    RubyLane RubyLane 41-45, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    me: *thinks about dying* me: *panics* me: *thinks about living* me: *panics* me: ????????????
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I am thinking about cheating on my Therapist. Do you think she will get jealous? I'm making jokes but I feel like dog poo today. I had a bunch of medical tests done...they want...
    ObiOneyouremyonlyhope ObiOneyouremyonlyhope 41-45, F 1 Response Oct 30

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     Its been about three months since my last seizure. I'm expecting another one soon. I normally have them about every three months now. There has only been one time where I...
    Alisaperne6446 Alisaperne6446 18-21, F Nov 12

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    okay so there's this guy in my school and he's one of my 2 close friends and i like him so much. like I've never felt this way about a guy before because I've always thought I was...
    cookingaubrey cookingaubrey 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    1)The Office is my favorite show. 2)I'm very mature but I'm wild also lol. 3) I live in VA. 4) I literally have about 5 friends. 5) I'm forever a stoner. 6) I'm a senior in high...
    EbbsBreaux EbbsBreaux 16-17, F Nov 4

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    I have a large extended family. On my dad's side I have 30 cousins, seven sets of aunts/uncles.. On my mom's side I have about 20 cousins, five sets of uncles/aunts. We also keep...
    Mct7988 Mct7988 26-30, F Nov 2

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    Secret is that it can't be searched. We have about 20 people in the group, some nudists like myself, and just some open minded individuals. Friendly people that appreciate being...
    IZZYNUDIST IZZYNUDIST 41-45, M 4 Responses Nov 16

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    At 30.years old, I have about 3 very close friends, including my fiance. I have 1 friend who is there for me but we are not super close.. I am totally content only having a few...
    jjewell84 jjewell84 26-30, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I Am Afraid of Dying When I was 20, I had it in my head that 37 was going to be it for me. I didn't, for some reason, think I'd see a day past that monumental birthday. Don't ask...
    JesseLeeJames JesseLeeJames 46-50, M Nov 10

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    I smile. I laugh.I joke around. I listen to you talk about your life. I stare at you attentively but on the inside I'm slowly dying.You have no idea. No clue whatsoever. I refuse...
    irreelevance irreelevance 16-17, F Oct 31

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    It's not the actual dying I'm scared of, everyone dies, but it's the sadness people will feel when I'm gone, I cry everytime I think about it, what if it die while I'm young, I can...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F Nov 17

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    I lost my mom this January. actually she is my step mother but she raised me since I was 8 so she is my mom to me. her death was slow and painful and a very long time coming. I...
    omgeezus omgeezus 26-30, F 4 Responses Nov 19

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    There are no words to describe the sadness that you feel, saying goodbye to someone you know who is dying of cancer, and who is too young to have their life end so quickly...
    SeaSpray01 SeaSpray01 41-45, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I am Dying I have Cirrhosis of the Liver I am an alcohol addict If I could get Marijuana it would satisfy the addiction and not kill my liver. Marijuana is illegal. Alcohol is...
    Tsuru1953 Tsuru1953 61-65 3 days ago

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    I know he's dying I just don't want him to go. His tumors equal to about the size of a basketball. He's also bleeding internally. I found that out this morning when I went to find...
    AngelWithASecret2 AngelWithASecret2 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 17

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    I'm sick. Today I was told there is no chance of me getting better, that soon I'll be one of the stars in the sky. Today I realized that the fact that I'm going to die doesn't...
    AriannaG AriannaG 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 31

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    I'm not afraid of dying . can't wait for it, its hell on earth .
    Tracyforrest Tracyforrest 46-50, M Nov 4

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    im so sad i need someone to talk to my aunt is dying she has only one day to live... i really need someone please help im so sad k cnt stop crying i miss her already and i love her...
    Zaquoya Zaquoya 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 8

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    Worst feeling in the world. Nothing's right now, I don't feel like doing anything. I feel like I'm slowly dying. I hate this ****. I understand that we can't be together right now...
    NewEra0916 NewEra0916 26-30, M 3 Responses a week ago

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    im slowly dying on the inside but I smile and pretend I'm alright I can't show weakness I want people to know I'm ok
    neonpinkcupcakelover neonpinkcupcakelover 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    The emergence of aberrometers and wavefront sensing products in the sphere of LASIK in Singapore built it possible to measure wavefront that many buildings in the eye have a...
    Michael838w4jc6 Michael838w4jc6 31-35, M 1 Response 52 mins ago

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    I am not afraid of dying because I have been dead for twice and I liked it
    Taumilynn Taumilynn 36-40 Nov 3

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    I cant breath most of the time .. It gets worse everyday .. My left leg gets paralyzed .. I continuously have this headache .. I'm pale and I cant walk for too long .. My hair is...
    ludee94 ludee94 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 4

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    He woke up from dreaming and put on his shoes Started making his way past 2 in the morning He hasn't been sober for days Leaning now into the breeze Remembering Sunday, he falls...
    RememberingSunday22 RememberingSunday22 36-40, F Nov 4

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    I find it's hard for me to forget my ex. It's been a week. No just 5 days and Im dying. I cant forget him. Im really really dying right now. It kills me inside. Anyone can forget...
    TheLonelyDude TheLonelyDude 18-21, M 3 Responses Nov 7

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    i feel it mostly late at night right before i sleep . i wish i could go running in the middle of the night . i wonder sometimes if that will give me relief. pero , alas, i can't...
    Chulazon Chulazon 31-35, F 4 Responses Nov 10

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    All I have is time, said b, though time she has is short. Shorter than the life she's already had. b is making time loop. Generalising as she is used to she's mixing dialogues of...
    redribbonbook redribbonbook 46-50 Nov 17

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    My mother is such a hypocrite. Usually I can just shrug it off but lately it's been getting to me. Today she yelled at me for finishing a bottle of root beer that she bought a...
    midnightdahlia midnightdahlia 22-25, F 2 hrs ago

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    I met someone in the past year who impacted me really strongly. There was a weird kind of energy "recognition" from him, when we first met. But we met briefly in Sept 2013, sent a...
    elevating elevating 36-40, F 2 hrs ago

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