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I Have Thought About Dying

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    Yes I Have

    I have thought about dying, not suicide though.  Just my own death.I know it has to happen one day, hopefully not too soon though.
    ImNotGood ImNotGood 31-35, F Nov 12, 2011

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    Yes I Have Thought Of It Once Or Twice When I Was 15 Years Old And Thought It Was Just Hopless That I Was Never Going To Find Love Ever Again

    I know it sounds a stupid reason to try to kill myself because I was never going to be in love ever again I might never feel what I felt like when I fell in love so when I was about fifteen I tried to kill myself probably twice but I am not going to do that ever again I thought I...
    angelus1988 angelus1988 22-25, M 1 Response May 20, 2011

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    Not For A Long Time

    at one point in time, not so long Ago, I hated every day I woke up, and just wanted to die to escape the torment in my head& soul. There are days I still feel tormented, but thankfully not as often as I used to, and I haven't attempted suicide in quiet a while.
    Pebbles1982 Pebbles1982 26-30, F Apr 24, 2011

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    Today when I thought about dying,

    I felt an enormous amount of solace. The thought that someday I won't have to live brings an eerie feeling of comfort. I have two requests: I don't want to die in a painful matter and no one else can be physically hurt. One time, I was thinking about dying and I smiled. Just...
    LB1911 LB1911 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 14

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    What If

    what if i did die.who would mourn.who would cry.what lies would be told.which stories shared.would my funeral be a large one.who would take care of my kidds.where would i go.what happens after i died i dont think of suicide but death itself is amazing and so unknown with so many...
    13thstep13 13thstep13 31-35, M 1 Response Dec 21, 2011

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    Honestly

    Yes,I have thought about dying because i think life is so hard.And it will stay that way..You can only can find the fun side of it if you take it easy and let it flow.Sometimes this advise really have a good point."Never take life seriously.Nobody gets out alive anyway."
    Dyana6252 Dyana6252 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 25, 2010

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    All The Time

    We're all gonna die. So yep, I think about it frequently.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25, F Jan 25, 2011

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    Thought About Dying

    Actually I've thought about it a lot.  It's definitely one thing I plan to do before I die.
    MrNewton MrNewton 46-50, M 2 Responses Dec 17, 2009

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    A Lot Lately

    I think about it a lot lately but it is not a sad thing for me.  It is a peaceful thing and I am not afraid of dying.
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 11 Responses Dec 24, 2009

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    Luwa

    Luwa. I'm spit No one would notice if I died.
    NotBackingDown NotBackingDown 13-15, F Aug 16, 2012

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    I am ready. I am no longer afraid.

    I hope it happens very soon. Eternal sleep is so much more peaceful than life. I'm tired of walking through hell everyday, empty and alone and hurting. I despise the rage I feel...
    Icarus1228 Icarus1228 36-40, F Jul 8

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    Many, Many Times

    It could be very painful, maybe even slow. I'm not comfortable with that. Some days I hope it's fast, other times I hope that I will at least have a moment to appreciate the irony of it and pray. However I have come to accept that death could happen at any moment, and that my...
    Explodey Explodey 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 24, 2010

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    More Than I Care To Admit

    I actually came to terms with death somewhat a few years ago. As a kid it really scared me. I would lie in bed and think about. I would doubt God even though I was non-denominational Christian and walked to Sunday school every Sunday. Then in 2011, we moved across the country...
    Spankmesweetly Spankmesweetly 22-25, F 2 Responses May 31, 2013

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    ..pause For Thought

    I am a self-confessed Depressive. Throughout my dysfunctional life I have played 'The Dying Game' over in my mind, many times.  My neighbour also suffered 'mental health issues' and he also spent many years playing that same game.Then he was given the awful news; he had Terminal...
    fmn44 fmn44 46-50, F 2 Responses May 8, 2012

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    jim2430 jim2430 31-35, M Jul 8

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    I Think About Dying A Lot..

    I think about what would happen to my family, my children.. Would they be alright?.. I think about how it would happen.. A car accident? Illness? Old age? I think about what my next life will be like.. Will I finally have an easy life? (all of my lives have been pretty damn tough...
    Beautifulimperfections Beautifulimperfections 26-30, F Mar 7, 2012

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    dadhereforyou dadhereforyou 51-55, M a week ago

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    I love vines so much, they have me dying of laughter every time, LOL
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    I love my mum, but it was not easy. Our relationship used to be quite dysfunctional. My mum's in-laws were awful to her because her first child, me, is not a son. (Makes me wonder...
    Eugene214 Eugene214 26-30, F Oct 8

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    The only good thing about dying is being able to put together a game of Cards against Humanity with Ghandi, Mother Theresa, anyone of the Popes, Martin Luther King Jr, Queen...
    ImToolazyforaWittyUseName ImToolazyforaWittyUseName 31-35, M 1 Response Sep 28

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    First off, I have been dying to say that a lot of these posts are only random in context and are actually relevant to the person XD Including myself, haha. Anyway. I had someone...
    PerspectiveDetective PerspectiveDetective 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 25

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    I am sure many of you have leaned a plethora of life lessons, so I am not reinventing the wheel here, but I find it more curious that some people seem to inately know how to live...
    chatty1962 chatty1962 51-55, F Oct 6

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    I started having them pop up about 3yrs ago and went a year before seeing a doctor about it. it is mostly in my groin and inner thighs. when I saw my doctor for it she sent me to...
    ashephe ashephe 36-40, F 2 Responses Sep 24

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    I think I've had PMDD all of my adult life. I cannot take the pill; the side effects are brutal. I'm 44 years old now and, it's getting worse. During ovulation, I'm having such...
    stonecoldsad stonecoldsad 41-45, F Sep 25

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    People have always just told me everything. They always tell me things they never tell anyone else. And when so many people tell you things, over and over, the amount of secrets...
    Torturedprince Torturedprince 26-30, M Sep 26

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    This really ***** me. I want to sleep and kind of need to, but night is when I do all my thinking. Sleepiness wears off after the first few hours and leaves me awake stewing over...
    WillMeer WillMeer 46-50, M 3 days ago

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    Myths women have about men: "I'll give him the silent treatment, that'll p!ss him off"....
    AntonioV AntonioV 46-50, M 5 Responses Oct 9

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    The thought of taking my own life has crossed my mind for years. There isn't a day that goes by that it doesn't. Of course I'm writing this so I haven't, and there are several...
    garfield82 garfield82 31-35, M 4 hrs ago

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    I had another nightmare... It was the same one as last night... :/ it was so vivid... And it was about losing you. :/ there was blood everywhere... People dying all around me.. But...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 19 hrs ago

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    I am so lonely I don't have anyone I can connect with in my life. I can't blame anyone but myself for being in such a lonely state because I have poor social skills I cant hold a...
    KnowMeOO KnowMeOO 18-21, M 18 hrs ago

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    When you're playing your favorite song in car then all of a sudden you hear somebody else "singing" along and it scares the **** out of you. And your like, can you stfu so it don't...
    xsimplysara xsimplysara 16-17, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    Words can't explain how confused, or scared I am of dying, once we die, we are gone. Forever. Will we even remember anything? Probably not. Because we won't be anything. A piece of...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 9

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    The feeling of dying while alive is unprecedented. Its a shedding of old skin making room to grow into a new skin. Dying to my old ways, dying to my old habits. I see a new day on...
    AquariusLife AquariusLife 26-30, F 1 day ago

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    I started smoking ciggies at 14-30 now. I'm not dying. Went through a phase when I was 22-every packet was my 'last' packet. Have come to the conclusion (unless there ever is a...
    cherryjar cherryjar 26-30, F 3 Responses Oct 4

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    I am in my mid twenties and just got married. My husband is the most supportive, loving, and loyal person who accepts all my flaws. I couldn't ask for a better partner. However, I...
    xl2368 xl2368 26-30, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    So, the story starts off a few years earlier than described (18) . I can't say what happened before I give a bit of a backstory. So, I was in High School, and since I had a bunch...
    shadow2233 shadow2233 18-21, M 4 hrs ago

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    1. My name is Becky, but only family and close friends call me that. 2. My pen name is Rebekah Wolveire. 3. I am 5ft. 4. I am curvy. (Chunky). 5. Wolveire means of the wolf, but...
    RebekahWriter13 RebekahWriter13 31-35, F 3 hrs ago

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    I'm Sooo dying to do so. I want to try the double head *****. Omgggg
    curiouschick09 curiouschick09 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 28

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    Everyone thinks I'm such a happy person, but I'm not. I'm dying inside and falling apart. God please hear my call. I am afraid for me.
    jazzsinger1991 jazzsinger1991 22-25, F Oct 1

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    Im obsessed with dying my hair! Iv dyed it dark brown, brown, light brown, blond, ombre, dark red, red, dark purple, blue, black, yeahhh im only 14 aswell :)
    LLAMAAAA LLAMAAAA 13-15, F Oct 1

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    she lives 5,000 miles away, but she is depressed and dying inside, and i cant afford to go and help her
    rxcxrds rxcxrds 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 2

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    I am afraid that it's becoming my grandmothers time to go. I'm so far away from her and when my grandpa was dying I couldn't be there. I honestly can't imaging a life without my...
    chanel0408 chanel0408 18-21, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I try not to let anything affect me I can't help the way I feel. I am dying inside...
    Changeallaround Changeallaround 22-25 1 day ago

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    I really don't understand what's wrong with me. Imma lazy perfectionist who doesn’t give a **** about anything but at the same time cares too much about everything .. If that...
    lostwithin25 lostwithin25 22-25, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    I always imagine my sister or mom or someone in my family dying. I picture them either in a coma or car accident or something traumatizing. Idk why but those are just random...
    destiny0710 destiny0710 18-21, F Oct 8

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    I love my wife(Don't judge her too harshly, she isn't here to defend her self after all) but more and more its becoming love in the abstract because I am finding that our...
    whowantstoknow97 whowantstoknow97 31-35, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    The first I was aware of how close I came to dying I was 13. I had gone backpacking in New Hampshire with my parents and their hiking club. When we got to the top of the mountian...
    ubermaus ubermaus 41-45, M 6 days ago

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    That is definitely also probable to make cell web pages, Fb pages and blogs. The web-sites developed with Wix World-wide-web page builder seem to be quite awesome and Google...
    Donettekc1059 Donettekc1059 31-35, M 1 Response 22 hrs ago

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    I am an almost 21 year old female. 5'7" and 115 pounds. I have struggled with severe self esteem issues for years, basically my whole adolescent and teenage life and since I was...
    Iambekah Iambekah 18-21, F 11 hrs ago