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I Have Thought About Dying

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    Today when I thought about dying,

    I felt an enormous amount of solace. The thought that someday I won't have to live brings an eerie feeling of comfort. I have two requests: I don't want to die in a painful matter and no one else can be physically hurt. One time, I was thinking about dying and I smiled. Just...
    LB1911 LB1911 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 14, 2014

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    All The Time

    We're all gonna die. So yep, I think about it frequently.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25, F Jan 25, 2011

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    I Think About Dying A Lot..

    I think about what would happen to my family, my children.. Would they be alright?.. I think about how it would happen.. A car accident? Illness? Old age? I think about what my next life will be like.. Will I finally have an easy life? (all of my lives have been pretty damn tough...
    Beautifulimperfections Beautifulimperfections 26-30, F Mar 7, 2012

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    ..pause For Thought

    I am a self-confessed Depressive. Throughout my dysfunctional life I have played 'The Dying Game' over in my mind, many times.  My neighbour also suffered 'mental health issues' and he also spent many years playing that same game.Then he was given the awful news; he had Terminal...
    fmn44 fmn44 46-50, F 2 Responses May 8, 2012

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    Many, Many Times

    It could be very painful, maybe even slow. I'm not comfortable with that. Some days I hope it's fast, other times I hope that I will at least have a moment to appreciate the irony of it and pray. However I have come to accept that death could happen at any moment, and that my...
    Explodey Explodey 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 24, 2010

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    A Lot Lately

    I think about it a lot lately but it is not a sad thing for me.  It is a peaceful thing and I am not afraid of dying.
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 11 Responses Dec 24, 2009

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    Yes I Have

    I have thought about dying, not suicide though.  Just my own death.I know it has to happen one day, hopefully not too soon though.
    ImNotGood ImNotGood 31-35, F Nov 12, 2011

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    Thought About Dying

    Actually I've thought about it a lot.  It's definitely one thing I plan to do before I die.
    MrNewton MrNewton 46-50, M 2 Responses Dec 17, 2009

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    More Than I Care To Admit

    I actually came to terms with death somewhat a few years ago. As a kid it really scared me. I would lie in bed and think about. I would doubt God even though I was non-denominational Christian and walked to Sunday school every Sunday. Then in 2011, we moved across the country...
    Spankmesweetly Spankmesweetly 22-25, F 2 Responses May 31, 2013

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    What If

    what if i did die.who would mourn.who would cry.what lies would be told.which stories shared.would my funeral be a large one.who would take care of my kidds.where would i go.what happens after i died i dont think of suicide but death itself is amazing and so unknown with so many...
    13thstep13 13thstep13 31-35, M 1 Response Dec 21, 2011

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    I am ready. I am no longer afraid.

    I hope it happens very soon. Eternal sleep is so much more peaceful than life. I'm tired of walking through hell everyday, empty and alone and hurting. I despise the rage I feel...
    Icarus1228 Icarus1228 36-40, F Jul 8, 2014

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    Not For A Long Time

    at one point in time, not so long Ago, I hated every day I woke up, and just wanted to die to escape the torment in my head& soul. There are days I still feel tormented, but thankfully not as often as I used to, and I haven't attempted suicide in quiet a while.
    Pebbles1982 Pebbles1982 26-30, F Apr 24, 2011

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    jim2430 jim2430 31-35, M Jul 8, 2014

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    Honestly

    Yes,I have thought about dying because i think life is so hard.And it will stay that way..You can only can find the fun side of it if you take it easy and let it flow.Sometimes this advise really have a good point."Never take life seriously.Nobody gets out alive anyway."
    Dyana6252 Dyana6252 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 25, 2010

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    Luwa

    Luwa. I'm spit No one would notice if I died.
    NotBackingDown NotBackingDown 13-15, F Aug 16, 2012

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    Yes I Have Thought Of It Once Or Twice When I Was 15 Years Old And Thought It Was Just Hopless That I Was Never Going To Find Love Ever Again

    I know it sounds a stupid reason to try to kill myself because I was never going to be in love ever again I might never feel what I felt like when I fell in love so when I was about fifteen I tried to kill myself probably twice but I am not going to do that ever again I thought I...
    angelus1988 angelus1988 22-25, M 1 Response May 20, 2011

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    I have felt like this a couple times before. Like if this is my life, then why am I here? I felt as if it was all hell. I also shattered my self confidence and any hope of a normal...
    DanielPhillips DanielPhillips 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 6

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    lately I've just been thinking about dying and what it would be like if I was gone and how it would affect the people that matter to me most (my little sister, my bf, my mom, etc...
    ysimm23 ysimm23 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 15

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    I just found out that I have osteosarcoma. A tumor was found on my leg, and just in time too. I probably wouldn't have lived if we hadn't caught it when we did. I'm not worried...
    idontbelong00 idontbelong00 13-15 2 Responses Feb 24

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    I have realistic dreams about dying. I've fallen off a cliff, burned to death, gotten ran over, crashed in an airplane, and many more. I can always feel them so intensely, and with...
    KingLaserDestroyer KingLaserDestroyer 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 9

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    I've been thinking about dying a lot these past few days. but I don't want to kill myself in that sense. I just want to not exist for a while.
    Cosmicmutt Cosmicmutt 18-21, M 4 days ago

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    I'm worried so much about dying that I'm not living life. :(
    dirtydarkness dirtydarkness 26-30, F 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    Ethan3088hnz9 Ethan3088hnz9 31-35, M 1 Response Feb 15

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    Pokemon X and Y Rom [Download] Nintendo 3DS Emulator [MediaFire] by 3DS_Emulator_X thirteen Adhere to sixteen 726 sights Tweet...
    Ethan3088hnz9 Ethan3088hnz9 31-35, M 1 Response Feb 13

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    Yeah. about 95% of my friends are guys. In real life and online. For some reason I just don't get along with many girls. I haven't since the middle of high school. I don't mind it...
    LostandFading LostandFading 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 17

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    I haven't had it yet, I have been on a waiting list for the Last year and it could take another 1 to 2 years before I have the operation. I was hesitant to register myself but I...
    Mykerinos1 Mykerinos1 46-50, M Feb 22

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    Getting braces was one of the greatest things that's ever happened to me! I would have never even imagine I was ever gonna be lucky enough to have braces 😄 I used to think my...
    Gabe1997 Gabe1997 16-17, T 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I'm a high school teacher and coach, so I have deal with girls ages 14-18 every day. I'll have about one or two girls in each class trying to flirt with me. Then when there is...
    coachaxel coachaxel 26-30, M Feb 25

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    for so many years i welcomed death. i wanted it to take me because of how my life went when i was a child. now that my body might have stomach cancer i am so afraid of dying now. i...
    JEJ2259 JEJ2259 22-25, M 20 hrs ago

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    When I was 12 years old I was spoken to about a rare condition I have and told that I would die between the age of 25 and 30. At 12 years old this felt quite weird and scary but...
    Amber2694 Amber2694 18-21, F 15 hrs ago

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    I can tell you losing my Mama and my best friend has been horrible. I have a loving husband, 2 beautiful stepsons, and my own amazing son, but the pain of knowing I can not call...
    Mamagonetoosoon Mamagonetoosoon 41-45, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    One of the people who used to abuse me (a close family member) is dying.. They're not expected to live another six months. I really don't know how I should feel about this. They're...
    AaronH96 AaronH96 18-21, F 21 hrs ago

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    Little mischievous Bruno...sigh. Today has been full of begging, chewing things he shouldn't, and overall being just a pest. Poor little guy didn't get outside much today because...
    TheKristaJo TheKristaJo 22-25, F 1 hr ago

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    I've been married for almost a year now and it's insane how much I crave sex, but even more insane how little I get. Our last time was maybe December. I need sex! I need a LOT more...
    firemedic12 firemedic12 26-30, M 2 hrs ago

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    Today started with a visit from the neurologist. He asked how I was feeling and what I was able to accomplish. He had obviously already read what the nurses wrote though, since...
    ncbarr ncbarr 31-35, F 48 mins ago

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    i'm going to stop being a perfectionist long enough to just post this and stop obsessing about it. i need to apologize to all my friends for causing them to worry. A situation that...
    shimmeringrose shimmeringrose 31-35, F 4 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    Here is what I know from my life experiences. I can never trust anyone. Nobody cares about anyone but themselves. People will lie to your face and pretend to care about you just...
    Zzzwriter Zzzwriter 41-45, M 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    indiaadplacingcompany indiaadplacingcompany 22-25, T 39 mins ago

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    I have panic attacks that revolve around my health and my fear of dying. My quality of life is gone, and I feel like I would be a lot farther along in life if I wasn't scared to...
    beachlover81 beachlover81 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 9

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    Weird things set me off and make me cry. I guess I'm sensitive like that. Avoid these subjects around me and we be cool.. For one, the word, '************'(mofo)...hate that. Hate...
    Levi1 Levi1 13-15, M 19 hrs ago

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    I’m sitting here having a million thoughts go through my mind and I figure out that a part of me died when I was diagnosed with diabetes. Basically my freedom of living was taken...
    MyCrookedSmile MyCrookedSmile 22-25, F 3 Responses Feb 5

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    Why fear death? We are all going on the same destination at the end. We are born to die. We live to fulfill whatever we want to be then eventually will die. We do whatever it...
    msj02 msj02 22-25, F Feb 15

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    I have had severe anxiety for several months now. I hate it. I've been diagnosed with GAD but I'm so obsessed with my health, think that I have a serious illness and that I'm going...
    tvdlover1865 tvdlover1865 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 22

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