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    Honestly **** everything.

    Nothing I ever do is ever good enough. I just wish I can go to sleep and never wake up.
    nathanieljlaw nathanieljlaw 18-21, M 3 Responses Nov 21, 2014

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    I just have to ask, why is it

    that it takes someone to kill themselves for people to care about them?
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Jun 25

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    Sometimes i feel like leaving my house

    and throwing myself off a bridge. I just wanted to say that and get it off my chest.
    jaylol jaylol 22-25, M 4 Responses Dec 20, 2014

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    I think I understand it now

    and I knew it all along, No matter how hard I really tried I never did belong. I really do get it now and I really can see How much you hate me here, how you wish it was you three. How could I have been so stupid or naive To think that any of you would care enough to grieve...
    ShyButterfly04 ShyButterfly04 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 11

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    I hate when people talk down on people

    who attempt suicide . The people who they should talk down on are the people who made them feel like they needed to die
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Jul 7

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    A Step Too Close A few weeks ago I took a step

    that was too far. My life felt like it was falling apart all around me. My thoughts were haunting and the nightmares even more haunting. I didn't want to live the way I was living anymore. My mind made a choice that I will never forget. I decided it was okay to die and say...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 28, 2014

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    I think about it everyday,

    even when there's a smile on my face. Everyone looks but they don't see;don't see me for me. I'm screaming from within"someone please save me" I'm trapped,can't breathe;my soul wants to be set free.. Free from her;she is me and I,she. We are one in the same,do you feel our pain...
    Tiffany199221 Tiffany199221 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 22

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    I planned it out. Tequila

    and a razorblade. I survived the thoughts. I did pray for death though, I wanted to wake up in the afterlife. Recently I as smoking to kill myself. I quit it and hopefully this will be the last thought.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 10

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    S inking into darkness U nable to breathe I

    ncreasing hopelessness C uts on my skin I nto eternal sleep I will fall D on't cry; you never cared E verything will be better when I am gone
    GirlforGod2 GirlforGod2 13-15 1 Response Jul 6

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    Ever thought of suicide thoughts.

    Well I know I have many times. But I'm too afraid to do anything I'm a weakling. Don't get me wrong I don't want anyone to feel bad or sorry for me I just want to express my feeling through here. Well I always thought would anyone really miss me or would they just miss me for...
    ErenJ ErenJ 18-21, M 3 Responses Dec 27, 2013

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    i keep having suicidal thoughts i want to.

    . i tried a few times but didn't work.
    lilithity lilithity 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 22

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    XxautychanxX XxautychanxX 13-15, F 4 Responses Jul 7

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    4sh1ynn 4sh1ynn 13-15, F 24 Responses Jul 13, 2014

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    I have, and still do,

    but I will never do it, there's always something to look forward to. Surprises and curiosity are the reason why I'm still here, and I know that there are more to come
    DoorMattress DoorMattress 13-15, M 2 Responses Apr 24

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    The day these thoughts have faded my smile will

    be revealed The day these thoughts are silenced my smile will be real The day these thoughts have vanished Depression will be vanquished The day these thoughts are forgotten I'll be happy for that's all I want
    polarbearlove polarbearlove 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 18

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    Badriyah Badriyah 26-30, F 5 Responses Aug 4

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    I just want it all to be over.

    I feel so lost. So broken. So helpless.. Like im trapped under water, locked to an anchor. Slowly drowning. But instead of dying and drowning, im suffocating. I'm stuck at the feeling of knowing you're about to die. But death just will not come. I can't breathe. I can't see. And...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 22

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    Funny you want to terminate your life

    when you're too scared of cancer.
    catacomb catacomb 66-70 1 Response Jul 7

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    I'm actually thinking about what the point of

    me living . All my life has been nothing but pain .
    ebonylove19 ebonylove19 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 17

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    Very Dark Moments...

    December was not a great month. In fact...it hadn't been that great of a year if I was being completely honest.   I sat alone staring out at the snow floating down from above...and realized I had never felt so utterly alone in my entire life. My melancholy had clearly...
    KassieKat KassieKat 46-50, F 8 Responses Feb 7, 2012

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    AnxiousAndAlone AnxiousAndAlone 26-30, M 4 Responses Jul 6

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    my life is dull and i cant stand it.

    i want something to happen to make it funner. like someone kidnapping me or going on a killing spree with me.
    danielfrost1995 danielfrost1995 18-21, M Jul 29

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    I'm so tired of myself

    and my life but I'm too wimpy to commit suicide..
    halohai halohai 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 12

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    I have thought about ending it a few times,

    to check out and leave by my own terms. Sometimes it seemed like it was the only way I could control my life, that I could actually be the one who decides how my life should be. Existential questions, the search for an identity, the sometimes conflicting nature of what I wanted...
    Synapse81 Synapse81 31-35, M 2 Responses Nov 11, 2014

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    These are the reasons I haven't done it yet: 1.

    Shotguns, which are the only reliable means to commit suicide, are too expensive and you need a hunter's licence and to be at least 21. 2. I don't have access to all my money, meaning I'm unable to take them all out in cash, stack them in a pile and burn them. 3. It's...
    TrappedOrphan TrappedOrphan 13-15, M 1 Response Jul 7

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    August 26, 2011

    This was one of the worst days of my life. Actually, it started a incredibly bad downward slide that still now has not reached the bottom. I sat on my couch, alone in my place. My wife was out 'scoring'....part of the problem... The money was gone. All of it. Things were being...
    RisenFromAshes RisenFromAshes 36-40, M 4 Responses May 2, 2013

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    I feel like crap. unmotivated,

    unwanted. i smile outside but inside i cry. i don't trust myself. i always think i am stupid, ugly, pig... i dont take care of myself. i am always compared with people better than me. i always think that i will never reach them... i hate myself... i want to die
    Potchii Potchii 22-25, M 3 Responses Jul 17

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    Like all the time! But I'm too much of a coward

    to do so, but that's a good thing too right?
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Jul 7

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    eatthekids1stplease eatthekids1stplease 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 18, 2014

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    My mom literally makes me want to kill myself.

    She says that I treat her like **** but she doesn't realize that when she says that it makes me think that I'm a bad person. She makes me feel worthless and horrible.
    romeann62 romeann62 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Maybe I should drive.

    Home . Drunk. Drive over a cliff into the river.. Would anyone even care? If I died In a car accident? How could you live with yourself now? Treating me this wAy to lead me to driving over a bridge... "Suicide isn't cowardly. What's cowardly is pushing someone so hard to the...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 4 Responses May 6

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    My names amber and I have thought about suicide

    a lot. I have so many problems at home and school is really stressful. My parents don't understand how hard it could be to be a teenager, they think "you only go to school and back so why should you be tired?" But they don't understand how frustrating school is. My friends act...
    diamond104 diamond104 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 16, 2014

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    Sorry Pink... In the darkest of hours,

    the darkness of night. I pray for you to find me, to take away my fight. Sodden tremors from a far away place, threatens to consume the smile upon my face. As gods mercy filters through this land, save me from the torture of my own hands. The tiny treasures I find, have been...
    HotMessExpress101 HotMessExpress101 31-35, F 1 Response May 20

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    Lets face it most of us think about it

    and thats why we're still alive. Generally those that don't think before they do it succeed. Because if you think about what keeps us alive like friends and family they are all that really matter. People who commit suicide don't care about anything but them self
    Fionaagain Fionaagain 31-35, F 5 Responses Aug 5

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    All the time. I feel like i have no friends

    and i know nobody likes me. I hate me, i hate my personality, the way i look the way i am and everybody else seems to hate it too. It's like screaming and no one can hear you know? I'm breaking and i don't think I can take it anymore.
    felicitydunlap felicitydunlap 13-15, F 8 Responses Jul 7

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    If anyone here needs talking to someone,

    help, advice or just talk, you can pm me... I will listen. :-) Don't give up guys an girls!
    Metalisha Metalisha 22-25, F Aug 23

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    Right now it sounds like the best idea.

    I am not even tired of life anymore it's just the fact that i can't take it anymore.
    BloodyVictim BloodyVictim 16-17, F 11 Responses Apr 24

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    embonza1 embonza1 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 8

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    forceful digging fury in my mind is the sweat

    and fear worth my time one tiny shred of evidence will surly be the death of my innocence fly away free never feeling the consequences or stay and see the beauty that life possess the devil weaves a magical spell either way I'm left stuck inside a cell
    HotMessExpress101 HotMessExpress101 31-35, F 3 Responses Jan 30

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    akaShaun akaShaun 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 28

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    You think you know me.

    .. But you don't know the first thing about me... You think you've been through depression... But you haven't... How long did it last?? Oh two weeks? That's cute!! Depression is ******* hell... You try to sympathize but the problems you face, would be close to the bottom of my...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M Mar 10

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    For me it's a daily topic on mind.

    I never intend to do it, but who knows....maybe one day I'll just give up.
    fracturedforever fracturedforever 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 8

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    How to sit with someone

    who is suicidal? Understand that their longing for death is really their longing for Home. This is a spiritual crisis, not merely a medical one. They are trying to awaken from a nightmare. By all means, call a doctor, obtain professional medical help, get them to a hospital...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Apr 13, 2014

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    Many may not like what I say

    but it's EP and I can pretty much put it all out there if I choose. My thought on suicide is that it is one of the weakest, selfish and most cowardly things that a person can do. And before you tell me I don't have a right to say those words allow me to point out that indeed I...
    pinkstarburst pinkstarburst 41-45, F 5 Responses May 20

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    I'm Here For You

    Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and over and over You take out...
    MissJessicurr MissJessicurr 18-21, F 8 Responses Oct 19, 2012

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    I just took five pills cut

    and put inc in my cut I want to die
    polarbearlove polarbearlove 16-17, F 4 Responses a week ago

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