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I Have Thought About Suicde

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    I am still here, and I know

    that I am a fighter. I may feel like ending my life, but I should be proud of myself for coming a long way and still being strong. But this battle will never end. That's the sad part.
    llovelyfallenangell llovelyfallenangell 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 17

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    Death would be my saviour right now.

    .. I don't want to be here anymore.
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 26

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    Honestly **** everything.

    Nothing I ever do is ever good enough. I just wish I can go to sleep and never wake up.
    nathanieljlaw nathanieljlaw 18-21, M 3 Responses Nov 21

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    4sh1ynn 4sh1ynn 13-15, F 26 Responses Jul 13

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    i'm thinking about it

    now in fact. i'm tired of being depressed and sick all the time. i'm tired of being used. i'm tired of hurting. i don't think anyone will miss me except those who will have to do things for themselves once i am gone. i have no wife or kids so no one depends on me. my...
    Transluminal2010 Transluminal2010 41-45, M 7 Responses Apr 9

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    I sit here and am watching you fall in Love

    with another woman. I hate it all. I am to blame and I am the one who ruined it all. I should just die and make this pain easier for all of us.
    hopeless678 hopeless678 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 9

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    I don't want to hurt my family.

    I can't go through with it because I can't bear the thought of traumatizing them like that. I guess that's what keeps me going :)
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Jul 17

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    Literally everyday. And I'm sick of it.

    Every time I get a little closer to actually trying again. I just feel like, I'm just one person. My family doesn't need me, my friends don't need me, the world doesn't need me. So why am I alive?
    imjackandimdark imjackandimdark 16-17, M Dec 13

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    I am living but can u force someone

    who is miserable do what what makes them miserable
    hellspice hellspice 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    I just wanted to say thank you to everyone on

    here. I never posted an experience but the people here are all so nice and let me know that I'm not alone. Even if you don't know my story I know that I can talk on here and that I won't be judged!
    skysplits skysplits 16-17, F May 28

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    Crap can just be overwhelming!

    So the thoughts are bound to happen. But I believe there's always a way out of that darkness. For me it was God and His Son My Lord Savior Jesus Christ. Still hard at times, but I deal and keep moving. No one said it was easy. Whether it's faith, religion, someone to talk...
    Salute2MyFlaws Salute2MyFlaws 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 11

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    August 26, 2011

    This was one of the worst days of my life. Actually, it started a incredibly bad downward slide that still now has not reached the bottom. I sat on my couch, alone in my place. My wife was out 'scoring'....part of the problem... The money was gone. All of it. Things were being...
    amodelcitizen amodelcitizen 36-40, M 6 Responses May 2, 2013

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    I want to die. Tonight.

    I can't take the stress of my life anymore.
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 30

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    I'm Here For You

    Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and over and over You take out...
    MissJessicurr MissJessicurr 18-21, F 8 Responses Oct 19, 2012

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    Everyday it's the same ****.

    .. Today I even caught myself whispering "I hate my ******* life" to myself... Out loud.. Which has never happened before... I just want it all to end... :'( I'm damaged beyond repair and there's not a single person that can save me... I just want to let the disease win... I'm...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 3 Responses Dec 5

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    I have thought about suicide

    when i was a kid and i still do but now i just hide all my feels im literally a soulless doll that doesn't say to many words. I watch everything thats going people don't know this but i know thing they dont want every one esle to know...
    LolipopGummi LolipopGummi 18-21, T 1 Response Mar 7

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    It was well over a year ago.

    .. I was having a panic attack, due to emotional issues outside of being suicidal. My then roommate was avoiding me, when all I needed was to talk to someone... I couldn't stop crying - I had been awake somewhere between 30 and 48 hours. At that point I couldn't even remember...
    iFortiTude iFortiTude 31-35 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    mrsxnobody mrsxnobody 16-17, F 5 Responses Nov 22

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    I used to belive in God

    but after so many nights and days alone i realized that everything i was sure that i had, hope,love and real friends,it was just illusion, i just can't do what most people do...pretend everything is ok and life makes sense...
    anderlr anderlr 13-15, M 1 Response Nov 27

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    A lot of times i feel

    that the only thing that can open my heart is a knife called suicide.
    anderlr anderlr 13-15, M 1 Response Nov 26

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    My names amber and I have thought about suicide

    a lot. I have so many problems at home and school is really stressful. My parents don't understand how hard it could be to be a teenager, they think "you only go to school and back so why should you be tired?" But they don't understand how frustrating school is. My friends act...
    diamond104 diamond104 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 16

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    I'm just so alone and I can't handle it anymore.

    It would be so peaceful and easy! I've thought of everyday I could possibly do it now.
    BulletproofLoneliness BulletproofLoneliness 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 29

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    I cut myself pretty bad a month ago.

    Not intending on suicide but I came close. I can't help but think what reason I'm still on earth.
    TheLonelyStoner95 TheLonelyStoner95 18-21, M 3 Responses May 20

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    Good thing is everyday i'm closer to death

    if it will be suicide or not i don't really care cuz a dead end is a happy end for me.
    anderlr anderlr 13-15, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    at the end of the day.

    when everything is said and done. I really kinda just... take a step back. look at myself, and hate me. I dont know what to do anymore. I fail everything. im just... im just about done.
    Searching4MyJuliet Searching4MyJuliet 18-21, M 4 Responses Dec 9

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    I've been thinking about it a lot lately.

    But I don't really want to kill myself, I just want to escape. I want to be calm. Maybe if I could make it look like an accident I wouldn't feel so guilty. Anyways, I'm seriously considering it, but deep down I know I'll never have the guts to actually do it. I guess I'll just...
    SkinnyIsPerfect SkinnyIsPerfect 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 29

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    The awful moment when you realize

    that no one you know will actually care if you commit suicide
    ExpressionDepression ExpressionDepression 22-25, M 1 Response Dec 8, 2013

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    Ever thought of suicide thoughts.

    Well I know I have many times. But I'm too afraid to do anything I'm a weakling. Don't get me wrong I don't want anyone to feel bad or sorry for me I just want to express my feeling through here. Well I always thought would anyone really miss me or would they just miss me for...
    ErenJ ErenJ 18-21, M 3 Responses Dec 27, 2013

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    The thought of not having to deal with this

    ****** world anymore is tempting...but I'm honestly so scared of actually taking my life away just like that. It's something permanent, how would I know if things get better? I'm just too big of a coward to actually disappear from here. However, I often find myself wondering...
    Realitea Realitea 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    :'(

    Even after my O.D i still think about cutting i havent yet but it's like every time im in a low mood when i feel like life's got nufing for me i just wanna cut myself really deep because in that moment of time death sounds pretty good.
    ohmylife ohmylife 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 24, 2012

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    eatthekids1stplease eatthekids1stplease 18-21, M Jul 18

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    Honestly, I didn't have a rough life growing up.

    Given, it wasn't easy, I had my fair share of **** to go through at a very young age, but many have had worse than I. But ever since I can remember, I've wanted to give up on life. Even as a little girl on the playground. I didn't see the point in living. I've never truly felt...
    cgu94 cgu94 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 2

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    Life isn't even worth this pain.

    .. What's the ******* point? I hate this so much. And will be much happier when I'm dead.
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 3 Responses Dec 8

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    Things like "it gets better"

    and "suicide is a permanent solution to a temoprary problem" may be true, but they don't really help to stop a person from killing themselves. Just be there for them and talk to them and listen, and cheer them up, but don't pretend to know how they feel. We can't. AND don't ever...
    YukiUeda17 YukiUeda17 16-17, M 2 Responses Jun 13

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    It's getting to the point of the night

    when I don't give a **** anymore. I'm at work...but I can't escape the thoughts. I still want to die. *sigh* when will this stop :'(
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F Dec 4

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    I think about it some times.

    How it would be easy just to wipe my self a way from the miserable life. That there's gonna come the day where everything I said or did will no longer matter. That, what's the point really. I'd just be helping a lot of people out by disappearing, better yet, probably not being...
    catherineeac catherineeac 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 4

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    Sometimes i feel like leaving my house

    and throwing myself off a bridge. I just wanted to say that and get it off my chest.
    jaylol jaylol 22-25, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    It's Time to disappear ASAP.

    . I'm going to cut off my phone and run away! I'm so ******* done!! WITH EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE!!! **** this...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 24

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    Suicide does not end the chances of life

    getting worst, suicide just eliminates the possibility of it ever getting better.
    Glo59 Glo59 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 7

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    How to sit with someone

    who is suicidal? Understand that their longing for death is really their longing for Home. This is a spiritual crisis, not merely a medical one. They are trying to awaken from a nightmare. By all means, call a doctor, obtain professional medical help, get them to a hospital...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Apr 13

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    Everything hurts so much.

    .. Pretending to be happy... 2 years ago is when that started... When I actually had to put effort into faking a smile... And now... I just don't bother any more... That's too much energy... ****, waking up is too much energy... Let me ******* die already... :( I'm so...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 30

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    Once I even planned out the whole thing.

    .. And that plan is perfect and still a draft in my mind, you know, in case life really gets to me one day.
    PsychologyNerd PsychologyNerd 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 11

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    I almost killed myself on June 26.

    I couldn't find my knife though. The next morning I was shocked with how my mind thought that. I haven't had a suicidal thought since then
    CatWithScars CatWithScars 13-15, F 5 Responses Jul 19

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    Very Dark Moments...

    December was not a great month. In fact...it hadn't been that great of a year if I was being completely honest.   I sat alone staring out at the snow floating down from above...and realized I had never felt so utterly alone in my entire life. My melancholy had clearly...
    KassieKat KassieKat 46-50, F 9 Responses Feb 7, 2012

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    I feel so alone in this world.

    . The only company I have is someone who can't even stand to be around me... - Myself
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 3 Responses Nov 26

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    Let's play a game of Russian Roulette.

    .. But there's just one catch... I go first, and pull the trigger until the gun goes off... My own family has lost faith in me... I'm abandoned... And lost..
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 3 Responses Dec 6

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    throughthedoorway throughthedoorway 13-15, F 7 Responses Dec 4

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    I don't belive in God.

    ..but sometimes ilook at the sky and try to ask God "why? don't you see my pain? if i jump now will you hold me?" so stupid...but i know how i will do it... but not when...i am so sick of waiting
    anderlr anderlr 13-15, M 2 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    I keep confiding in people

    that I plan to commit suicide and no one takes me seriously. So much for being cared for and missed and all that crap.
    PurpleHart PurpleHart 16-17, F 4 Responses Jul 5

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    The darkness is back.

    The pills aren't helping and nobody cares. I'm tired of trying when each day just brings more pain, more disappointments, and more loneliness. I'm never enough for anyone. Never good enough, never smart enough, never good-looking enough, never talented enough. Just never...
    Transluminal2010 Transluminal2010 41-45, M 8 Responses May 11

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    Haithere354 Haithere354 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    I acually tried to kill myself the other night

    after my boyfriend told me he doesnt love me anymore and is into another girl. I took atleast 20 pills and got dizzy and passed out. I woke up the next day like nothing had happened. I dont know why it didnt work.