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I Have Thought About Suicde

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    A Step Too Close A few weeks ago I took a step

    that was too far. My life felt like it was falling apart all around me. My thoughts were haunting and the nightmares even more haunting. I didn't want to live the way I was living anymore. My mind made a choice that I will never forget. I decided it was okay to die and say...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 28

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    The darkness is back.

    The pills aren't helping and nobody cares. I'm tired of trying when each day just brings more pain, more disappointments, and more loneliness. I'm never enough for anyone. Never good enough, never smart enough, never good-looking enough, never talented enough. Just never...
    Transluminal2010 Transluminal2010 41-45, M 8 Responses May 11

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    :'(

    Even after my O.D i still think about cutting i havent yet but it's like every time im in a low mood when i feel like life's got nufing for me i just wanna cut myself really deep because in that moment of time death sounds pretty good.
    ohmylife ohmylife 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 24, 2012

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    I'm Here For You

    Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and over and over You take out...
    MissJessicurr MissJessicurr 18-21, F 8 Responses Oct 19, 2012

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    I used to belive in God

    but after so many nights and days alone i realized that everything i was sure that i had, hope,love and real friends,it was just illusion, i just can't do what most people do...pretend everything is ok and life makes sense...
    anderlr anderlr 13-15, M 1 day ago

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    I cut myself pretty bad a month ago.

    Not intending on suicide but I came close. I can't help but think what reason I'm still on earth.
    TheLonelyStoner95 TheLonelyStoner95 18-21, M 2 Responses May 20

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    Death would be my saviour right now.

    .. I don't want to be here anymore.
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Suicide does not end the chances of life

    getting worst, suicide just eliminates the possibility of it ever getting better.
    Glo59 Glo59 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 7

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    I hate it when people make

    even just the little comments about suicide, I know they don't mean any harm at all and I try not to take to much from it. But when your someone in the room that has these thoughts and feelings, it's just so hard to hear.
    ExPButterfly ExPButterfly 16-17, F a week ago

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    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 18

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    I'm moving at the end of December.

    ...I'm just not 100% sure I am going to make it until then with these thoughts :/
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 10

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    I Have Thought About Suicde I lay here in the

    dark with my insomnia, waiting for the pill to kick in... Can't sleep and always tired... It takes a toll on my day to day tasks, especially at work... Sleep is the key ingredient to finding success and happiness, but I can't even get that right... Next, my ADD... Now this one...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 10

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    I tried to commit suicide yesterday morning.

    .. Hasn't even been 24 hours and suicide jokes are being made... It hurts so much. :/ but I have to pretend like it didn't. :/ im in so much pain. :(
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 4 Responses Nov 16

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    I hate this I have bad allergies this cat is

    getting to me !!! I feel like killing myself this world is harsh
    amandalovee24 amandalovee24 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 13

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    When I hear that I say - NO.

    I DO NOT ACCEPT THAT. DO. NOT. And this goes to EVERYONE who feels this way. I do too. I'm not that idiot who thinks they know what they are taking about, but they really don't. I understand. I have depression. I cut. I know how I will kill myself. I know how much it hurts...
    Masqurade Masqurade 13-15, F a week ago

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    I am still here, and I know

    that I am a fighter. I may feel like ending my life, but I should be proud of myself for coming a long way and still being strong. But this battle will never end. That's the sad part.
    llovelyfallenangell llovelyfallenangell 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 17

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    Things like "it gets better"

    and "suicide is a permanent solution to a temoprary problem" may be true, but they don't really help to stop a person from killing themselves. Just be there for them and talk to them and listen, and cheer them up, but don't pretend to know how they feel. We can't. AND don't ever...
    YukiUeda17 YukiUeda17 16-17, M 2 Responses Jun 13

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    I acually tried to kill myself the other night

    after my boyfriend told me he doesnt love me anymore and is into another girl. I took atleast 20 pills and got dizzy and passed out. I woke up the next day like nothing had happened. I dont know why it didnt work.
    AnnonymousSecrets AnnonymousSecrets 16-17, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    Ever thought of suicide thoughts.

    Well I know I have many times. But I'm too afraid to do anything I'm a weakling. Don't get me wrong I don't want anyone to feel bad or sorry for me I just want to express my feeling through here. Well I always thought would anyone really miss me or would they just miss me for...
    ErenJ ErenJ 18-21, M 3 Responses Dec 27, 2013

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    Double dose of my sleeping pill tonight.

    .. Time to get some rest....
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M Nov 10

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    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M Nov 4

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    Crap can just be overwhelming!

    So the thoughts are bound to happen. But I believe there's always a way out of that darkness. For me it was God and His Son My Lord Savior Jesus Christ. Still hard at times, but I deal and keep moving. No one said it was easy. Whether it's faith, religion, someone to talk...
    Salute2MyFlaws Salute2MyFlaws 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 11

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    I just wanted to say thank you to everyone on

    here. I never posted an experience but the people here are all so nice and let me know that I'm not alone. Even if you don't know my story I know that I can talk on here and that I won't be judged!
    skysplits skysplits 16-17, F May 28

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    I have thought about ending it a few times,

    to check out and leave by my own terms. Sometimes it seemed like it was the only way I could control my life, that I could actually be the one who decides how my life should be. Existential questions, the search for an identity, the sometimes conflicting nature of what I wanted...
    Synapse81 Synapse81 31-35, M 2 Responses Nov 11

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    i'm thinking about it

    now in fact. i'm tired of being depressed and sick all the time. i'm tired of being used. i'm tired of hurting. i don't think anyone will miss me except those who will have to do things for themselves once i am gone. i have no wife or kids so no one depends on me. my...
    Transluminal2010 Transluminal2010 41-45, M 7 Responses Apr 9

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    August 26, 2011

    This was one of the worst days of my life. Actually, it started a incredibly bad downward slide that still now has not reached the bottom. I sat on my couch, alone in my place. My wife was out 'scoring'....part of the problem... The money was gone. All of it. Things were being...
    amodelcitizen amodelcitizen 36-40, M 6 Responses May 2, 2013

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    MaryJay712 MaryJay712 16-17, F Nov 10

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    Honestly, I didn't have a rough life growing up.

    Given, it wasn't easy, I had my fair share of **** to go through at a very young age, but many have had worse than I. But ever since I can remember, I've wanted to give up on life. Even as a little girl on the playground. I didn't see the point in living. I've never truly felt...
    cgu94 cgu94 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 2

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    I'm a body filled with failure.

    .. Nothing but a waste of your time.... Please just let me die... So that I don't have to suffer any longer... I don't want to work... I don't want to eat... I don't want to talk... I don't want to breathe... Honestly I just want to disappear and never return... I'm sorry...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 5 days ago

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    I have thought about suicide

    when i was a kid and i still do but now i just hide all my feels im literally a soulless doll that doesn't say to many words. I watch everything thats going people don't know this but i know thing they dont want every one esle to know...
    LolipopGummi LolipopGummi 18-21, T 1 Response Mar 7

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    I can't take it anymore.

    I've felt depressed all week and feel very scared and nervous right now. Idk what to do. Help!!
    Lifeisgoodtearsofjoy Lifeisgoodtearsofjoy 16-17, M 2 Responses Nov 4

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    I can't help but sit

    and watch as my world crashes and burns around me...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Haithere354 Haithere354 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    I don't want to hurt my family.

    I can't go through with it because I can't bear the thought of traumatizing them like that. I guess that's what keeps me going :)
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Jul 17

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    4sh1ynn 4sh1ynn 13-15, F 27 Responses Jul 13

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    A lot of times i feel

    that the only thing that can open my heart is a knife called suicide.
    anderlr anderlr 13-15, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I hate having this thought cross my mind.

    ..but now with the icy roads I can make it look like an accident
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 9

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    eatthekids1stplease eatthekids1stplease 18-21, M Jul 18

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    Every night go to sleep,

    I wish that I would never wake up.
    lamiavarc lamiavarc 16-17, F 9 Responses Aug 17

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    Masqurade Masqurade 13-15, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    The awful moment when you realize

    that no one you know will actually care if you commit suicide
    ExpressionDepression ExpressionDepression 22-25, M 1 Response Dec 8, 2013

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    Honestly **** everything.

    Nothing I ever do is ever good enough. I just wish I can go to sleep and never wake up.
    nathanieljlaw nathanieljlaw 18-21, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    Yep quite a lot. I have drunk bleach

    and overdosed on pills but I'm not yet dead. I was thinking about killing myself this summer but it cannot happen now because I have the eyes of my friends and family on me but i don't doubt the fact that I am still capable of doing it.
    littlecrazymia littlecrazymia 13-15, F 7 Responses Aug 12

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    I feel so alone in this world.

    . The only company I have is someone who can't even stand to be around me... - Myself
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Very Dark Moments...

    December was not a great month. In fact...it hadn't been that great of a year if I was being completely honest.   I sat alone staring out at the snow floating down from above...and realized I had never felt so utterly alone in my entire life. My melancholy had clearly...
    KassieKat KassieKat 46-50, F 9 Responses Feb 7, 2012

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    Last night I thought nobody wanted me to be

    here, existing so i thought of ending it all
    Suizidal Suizidal 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 14

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    mrsxnobody mrsxnobody 16-17, F 5 Responses 5 days ago

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    i can do it if i really want to

    which i do. but im scared about what might happen afer.
    lulubear271 lulubear271 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 10

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    Here are those thoughts again.

    .. Wanting to die... Nothing seems more satisfying... I hate this ******* life... Make it end
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 19

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    How to sit with someone

    who is suicidal? Understand that their longing for death is really their longing for Home. This is a spiritual crisis, not merely a medical one. They are trying to awaken from a nightmare. By all means, call a doctor, obtain professional medical help, get them to a hospital...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Apr 13

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    I have thought about it.

    Many times. I'm not proud of it. But it happened.
    Dreamer32 Dreamer32 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 14

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    I'm scared alone I have no

    where to go just my car and my job . I don't want to go back to that house where my mom bit me . Idk if I'm going to make this ....
    amandalovee24 amandalovee24 22-25, F 1 Response