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    Austin777137 Austin777137 26-30, M 3 Responses Dec 25, 2015

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    I was very suicidal in the past.

    But I don't think I would ever kill myself now because my life is finally starting to turn around
    bearhugs00 bearhugs00 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 20

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    I think I understand it now

    and I knew it all along, No matter how hard I really tried I never did belong. I really do get it now and I really can see How much you hate me here, how you wish it was you three. How could I have been so stupid or naive To think that any of you would care enough to grieve...
    ShyButterfly04 ShyButterfly04 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 11, 2015

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    It's been years since a man you touched me

    loved me . Why don't I have some too love ? It's been 2 years since I've had a boyfriend no wait .... 3 and its hurts ... How come no none loves me likes me ? Being so alone and having no confidents no plans for my future ... No kid no home no life .... Just darkness . But my...
    amandalovee24 amandalovee24 22-25, F 4 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    I've thought about it many of times before

    and once went a long with it until I got stopped and told my close neighbour has died. Right now it's all I seem to want to do. Like whats the point in living if **** is just gonna happen all the time. You can't even have good things in life because someone is gonna ruin it for...
    internationalkoala internationalkoala 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 12, 2015

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    just seems like my life is a complete lie.

    i don't even know who I am anymore. what is the point?
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 2, 2015

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    This was a long time ago.

    My daughters were young and money was tight. My then wife was depressed and delighted in inflicting her pain on us. I was seriously considering suicide. At one point I was ready to jump off a bridge onto the freeway. Someone saw me walking to the bridge. They stopped and...
    SilverPagan SilverPagan 51-55, M 2 Responses Oct 27, 2015

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    I think about it all of the time,

    and today those thoughts are much stronger than usual. I'm just beginning to wonder what my true purpose here is. I'm sick of feeling like **** every other day, dealing with my issues and the issues projected onto me by family and friends. I'm afraid to die, honestly, but...
    AcousticSoul17 AcousticSoul17 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 9, 2015

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    Lets face it most of us think about it

    and thats why we're still alive. Generally those that don't think before they do it succeed. Because if you think about what keeps us alive like friends and family they are all that really matter. People who commit suicide don't care about anything but them self
    Fionaagain Fionaagain 36-40, F 5 Responses Aug 5, 2015

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    I can't stand living anymore.

    There's so much pain. I need to die.
    Killingmesoftly78 Killingmesoftly78 13-15, F 7 Responses Jan 25

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    I hate when people talk down on people

    who attempt suicide . The people who they should talk down on are the people who made them feel like they needed to die
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Jul 7, 2015

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    August 26, 2011

    This was one of the worst days of my life. Actually, it started a incredibly bad downward slide that still now has not reached the bottom. I sat on my couch, alone in my place. My wife was out 'scoring'....part of the problem... The money was gone. All of it. Things were being...
    RisenFromAshes RisenFromAshes 36-40, M 4 Responses May 2, 2013

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    I think about it everyday.

    I just want to down a few bottles of nyquil and take some sleeping pills.
    SuicidalTeen16 SuicidalTeen16 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 21

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    Maybe I should drive.

    Home . Drunk. Drive over a cliff into the river.. Would anyone even care? If I died In a car accident? How could you live with yourself now? Treating me this wAy to lead me to driving over a bridge... "Suicide isn't cowardly. What's cowardly is pushing someone so hard to the...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 4 Responses May 6, 2015

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    Right now it sounds like the best idea.

    I am not even tired of life anymore it's just the fact that i can't take it anymore.
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Apr 24, 2015

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    I think about it everyday,

    even when there's a smile on my face. Everyone looks but they don't see;don't see me for me. I'm screaming from within"someone please save me" I'm trapped,can't breathe;my soul wants to be set free.. Free from her;she is me and I,she. We are one in the same,do you feel our pain...
    Tiffany199221 Tiffany199221 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 22, 2015

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    Crap can just be overwhelming!

    So the thoughts are bound to happen. But I believe there's always a way out of that darkness. For me it was God and His Son My Lord Savior Jesus Christ. Still hard at times, but I deal and keep moving. No one said it was easy. Whether it's faith, religion, someone to talk...
    Salute2MyFlaws Salute2MyFlaws 22-25, F 4 Responses Sep 11, 2014

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    Keyana136 Keyana136 13-15 2 Responses Oct 17, 2015

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    i felt like committing suicide today,

    just wish the pain would go away
    briang33 briang33 41-45, M 1 Response Nov 25, 2015

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    You think you know me.

    .. But you don't know the first thing about me... You think you've been through depression... But you haven't... How long did it last?? Oh two weeks? That's cute!! Depression is ******* hell... You try to sympathize but the problems you face, would be close to the bottom of my...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M Mar 10, 2015

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    I'm going to either snap

    or kill myself
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses a week ago

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    I'm Here For You

    Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and over and over You take out...
    MissJessicurr MissJessicurr 18-21, F 8 Responses Oct 19, 2012

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    Today I lost my grandfather.

    My mom and I went to plan the funeral and Just going through that made me lose any and all suicidal thoughts I've been having. I saw a pain in my moms eyes that I've never seen and I don't ever want her to have that because of me. I never want my family to have to plan my...
    ParanoidGirl ParanoidGirl 26-30 Jan 27

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    Suicide is not an answer.

    Its a permanent solution to a temporary problem.Talk to anybody,please.
    Pablo56692112 Pablo56692112 56-60, M 2 Responses Nov 27, 2015

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    I have, and still do,

    but I will never do it, there's always something to look forward to. Surprises and curiosity are the reason why I'm still here, and I know that there are more to come
    DoorMattress DoorMattress 13-15, M Apr 24, 2015

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    forceful digging fury in my mind is the sweat

    and fear worth my time one tiny shred of evidence will surly be the death of my innocence fly away free never feeling the consequences or stay and see the beauty that life possess the devil weaves a magical spell either way I'm left stuck inside a cell
    HearMyEscape HearMyEscape 31-35, F 3 Responses Jan 30, 2015

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    eatthekids1stplease eatthekids1stplease 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 18, 2014

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    I want to die... It's Christmas morning.

    .. And I want to die... How ****** up am I? Please just kill me
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 25, 2014

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    In the past,i was very suicidal at

    that time.i once tried it aswell.i overdosed my depression pills,nothing happened.But I don't think I would ever kill myself now because my life is finally starting to turn around.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 20, 2015

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    This was when I was young.

    I would often overthink and get very emotional when I got hurt. I had no one to talk to, no one to guide me. I found comfort in seeing my blood. As I got older I realized, the problems I had were not as monumental as I thought they were. I'm grateful that I didn't give up.
    purplehaze78 purplehaze78 36-40, F 3 Responses Oct 14, 2015

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    4sh1ynn 4sh1ynn 13-15, F 23 Responses Jul 13, 2014

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    The day these thoughts have faded my smile will

    be revealed The day these thoughts are silenced my smile will be real The day these thoughts have vanished Depression will be vanquished The day these thoughts are forgotten I'll be happy for that's all I want
    polarbearlove polarbearlove 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 18, 2015

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    Very Dark Moments...

    December was not a great month. In fact...it hadn't been that great of a year if I was being completely honest.   I sat alone staring out at the snow floating down from above...and realized I had never felt so utterly alone in my entire life. My melancholy had clearly...
    KassieKat KassieKat 46-50, F 7 Responses Feb 7, 2012

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    Many may not like what I say

    but it's EP and I can pretty much put it all out there if I choose. My thought on suicide is that it is one of the weakest, selfish and most cowardly things that a person can do. And before you tell me I don't have a right to say those words allow me to point out that indeed I...
    pinkstarburst pinkstarburst 46-50, F 5 Responses May 20, 2015

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    I just have to ask, why is it

    that it takes someone to kill themselves for people to care about them?
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Jun 25, 2015

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    Being completely alone no one loves you people

    call you only to use you . Or feeling alone and having everyone around you love you . Idk they both to me hurt . I'm alone with no one it hurts it's been hurting .
    amandalovee24 amandalovee24 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 3, 2015

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    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Dec 7, 2015

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    In the past.I was very suicidal at

    that time.I once tried it as well.I overdosed my depression pills,nothing happened.But I don't think I would ever kill myself now because my life is finally starting to turn around.
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Dec 22, 2015

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    I think I'm actually gonna do it this time.

    There's no one here to stop me anymore.
    SheWhoCuts SheWhoCuts 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 28

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    akaShaun akaShaun 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 28, 2015

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    Honestly **** everything.

    Nothing I ever do is ever good enough. I just wish I can go to sleep and never wake up.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Nov 21, 2014

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    It happens everyday..

    . I always think, what if i end this. What if i pick a knife and end everything. My misery, my tiredness, both phisically and emotionally. End my sadness... I look at my knife and i get scared of death ... Ughhh another day, another painful day...
    Potchii Potchii 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 7

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    "straight and fast". Is how it should be done.

    Driving straight and fast into the fastest truck, making sure it causes you maximum damage so you wouldn't even have time to breathe.
    ExperiencesAndNotMistakes ExperiencesAndNotMistakes 18-21, F 6 Responses Dec 3, 2015

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    I am going to be dismissed from the university

    that my father had paid his money so I can get a good education in. He thinks I will graduate this year which I should have. I have no idea how to tell him that I am an undeserving self absorbed *****. I am terrified for him because he has heart disease. I am afraid of the...
    amy2017 amy2017 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 20, 2015

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    Sorry Pink... In the darkest of hours,

    the darkness of night. I pray for you to find me, to take away my fight. Sodden tremors from a far away place, threatens to consume the smile upon my face. As gods mercy filters through this land, save me from the torture of my own hands. The tiny treasures I find, have been...
    HearMyEscape HearMyEscape 31-35, F 1 Response May 20, 2015

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