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    i'm thinking about it now in fact. i'm tired of being depressed and sick all the time. i'm tired of being used. i'm tired of hurting. i don't think anyone will miss me except...
    Transluminal2010 Transluminal2010 41-45, M Apr 9

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    I have lightly considered before. But I would never do it, because I'm too afraid of the pain and I have goals and ambitions in life.
    Akakios1 Akakios1 13-15, M 6 Responses Apr 4

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    Yesterday my school was put on lockdown because a girl brought a gun to school to try to commit suicide in the school bathrooms. Scary part wasnt being put on lockdown.. It was the...
    princessxk96 princessxk96 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 28

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    I'm not gonna lie here, I have thought about, and attempted suicide... God forbid me from Heaven and Hell won't have me
    TristonBrozik TristonBrozik 13-15, M Apr 9

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    August 26, 2011 - This was one of the worst days of my life. Actually, it started a incredibly bad downward slide that still now has not reached the bottom. I sat on my couch...
    amodelcitizen amodelcitizen 36-40, M 7 Responses May 2, 2013

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    Thinking To Myself, - I would never do it. I could never do it. But I think about it. Not that I want to. Not that I'm going to. But that I could. In my bathroom, looking at the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 3, 2013

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    I ******* hate my life. Someone just shoot me. End my stupid insignificant life now.
    calicorex4 calicorex4 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    The thoughts about trying to commit suicide are just more real yet less intense. I mean I cry about it and it scares me but it seems more like a job to be done. There are moments...
    searchingfar searchingfar 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 1

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    I'm not going to lie. I have thought about suicide. I didn't do it for attention. I honestly wanted to commit suicide that day. I didn't tell anyone cause they would think I'm...
    IDontKnowAnymore13 IDontKnowAnymore13 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 9

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    I have said this when I first started on EP. That when I say I get it, that means I get what you guys go through. I don't know you pain because yours is yours and mine is mine...
    mlcockrell mlcockrell 36-40, M Apr 3

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    i'm thinking about it now in fact. i'm tired of being depressed and sick all the time. i'm tired of being used. i'm tired of hurting. i don't think anyone will miss me except...
    Transluminal2010 Transluminal2010 41-45, M Apr 9

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    I can't take much more anymore. I have divorced parents.. I get bullied at home where I am now, told I'm stupid, worthless and a bunch of other stuff. I clean the whole house...
    idkEP idkEP 13-15, F Mar 30

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    I have thought about suicide when i was a kid and i still do but now i just hide all my feels im literally a soulless doll that doesn't say to many words. I watch everything thats...
    LolipopGummi LolipopGummi 18-21, T 1 Response Mar 7

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    I Just Wanna Let Go - Sometimes I feel like I am the only one who can see the truth behind life and it scares me. I see people worrying about school, relationships, and other...
    xBrickWallx xBrickWallx 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 20, 2013

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    Here To Listen - After seeing the Amanda Todd story it really made me wish that I could have helped her I did not know her but if I did I definitely would not have treated her that...
    someoneforyou12 someoneforyou12 22-25, F Oct 14, 2012

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    I'm thinking about suicide still, even right now when I'm at my happiest. It's actually hilarious when I really think about it.
    nepineph nepineph 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 29

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    :'( - Even after my O.D i still think about cutting i havent yet but it's like every time im in a low mood when i feel like life's got nufing for me i just wanna cut myself really...
    ohmylife ohmylife 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 24, 2012

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    I've tried 5 times... But then I realised if I've tried 5 times and it hasn't worked then something is clearly stopping me... I haven't tried since but I don't want to talk too...
    izzyrosee izzyrosee 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    Suicide is constantly on my mind. Whether it be plans, thoughts of it, or just the general idea, I can't make my thoughts deviate from the subject. I am sure that it will be the...
    lacklongafter lacklongafter 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 30

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    14 years ago. Laying on my bedroom floor. Tears streaking down my face and puddling on the carpet. Thoughts too scary for a teenager and a solution far too permanent. I reach for a...
    GypsySun GypsySun 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 26

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    How to sit with someone who is suicidal? Understand that their longing for death is really their longing for Home. This is a spiritual crisis, not merely a medical one. They are...
    saktilv saktilv 41-45, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    Everyone... - Everyone is basically ALWAYS making fun of me...for no reason.... I have thought about cutting myself and suicide... But I never bring myself to do it, I try to be as...
    StephTheLoser StephTheLoser 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 9, 2013

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    Heaven's not ready 4 me; Hell's afraid imma take over..đź‘ą
    pyeito pyeito 31-35, M 1 Response Apr 9

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    At one point I had it all planned out. I was going to make things right with everyone and answer any doubts in their mind about me. What came next wasn't that elaborate. I was...
    IcyDragon IcyDragon 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 7

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    My First Thought - I don't exactly remember the first time I actually thought about suicide but then again I don't remember much about that year of depression... I didn't even...
    Samoeil Samoeil 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 10, 2013

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    i'm thinking about it now in fact. i'm tired of being depressed and sick all the time. i'm tired of being used. i'm tired of hurting. i don't think anyone will miss me except...
    Transluminal2010 Transluminal2010 41-45, M 2 Responses Apr 9

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    It's been a long week. Monday my therapy session got ambushed by parents. Thursday I get a call from my therapist saying that my parents wanted to have a session and so mine was...
    searchingfar searchingfar 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 4

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    I am still here, and I know that I am a fighter. I may feel like ending my life, but I should be proud of myself for coming a long way and still being strong. But this battle will...
    llovelyfallenangell llovelyfallenangell 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 17

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    Today is another bad day....I don't know what to do....it seems like there is only one answer
    kzambori kzambori 46-50, F 1 Response Mar 29

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    I have thought about suicide and I still continue to think about it. Every night. It seems like it's the only way out of this sadness that I feel. I'm not motivated to get my self...
    Glo59 Glo59 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 26

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    Overcoming Fear - I frequently feel so anxious about my self-worth that the thought of turning my car into traffic is really tempting. I rely solely on other people to validate my...
    GreenBooks GreenBooks 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 25, 2012

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    Its so hard to keep your feelings hidden when they are suffocating you :.(
    Anonomous441 Anonomous441 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 5

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    I've moved on to knives now. Razors seemed childish to cut with.
    GaleJake GaleJake 13-15, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    My names amber and I have thought about suicide a lot. I have so many problems at home and school is really stressful. My parents don't understand how hard it could be to be a...
    diamond104 diamond104 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 16

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    What Keeps Me Going Right Now - I thought I'd share this in case maybe it can help someone else get through hard times. It may not be the best method, I don't really know. I all...
    niuchao niuchao 22-25 4 Responses Jan 12, 2012

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    Listen to me. Please, don't you ever think about ending your life. Not now, not ever. I know how you must feel- like you're a worthless peice of trash. I know. I've felt like that...
    defi4nce defi4nce 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 3

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    Do you guys ever get so used to thinking about suicide that it comforts you? Knowing it can all be over whenever you want? Im so done with physical life im excited to finally be...
    Anonomous441 Anonomous441 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 3

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    I'm 17 and I have a severe skin condition called Hidradenitis Suppurativa. It is so painful, and absolutely disgusting. I've had it for ten years now, and its all the same...
    bel1196 bel1196 16-17, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I proud all of you are here right now.
    Daylejess Daylejess 13-15, F Mar 30

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    I left town because I had something to do. I had been planning for maybe two weeks off and on not committed to doing anything. Then the day I had planned for was here. It seemed...
    searchingfar searchingfar 22-25, F Apr 8

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    I've decided to do it. On February 5th 2014. I'm going to drink a glass of milk to coat my stomach then take all of the medications I will just be getting refilled. (90 100mg...
    WoeIsKayla WoeIsKayla 16-17, F 7 Responses Jan 15

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    I'm Here For You - Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your...
    MissJessicurr MissJessicurr 18-21, F 8 Responses Oct 19, 2012

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    Ever thought of suicide thoughts. Well I know I have many times. But I'm too afraid to do anything I'm a weakling. Don't get me wrong I don't want anyone to feel bad or sorry for...
    ErenJ ErenJ 18-21, M 3 Responses Dec 27, 2013

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    I often wonder, if I committed suicide how many gasps, cries, screams, tears or words would be spoken as a sign of love. But then I remember its late and I'm alone, tired, scared...
    mmccarth mmccarth 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 9, 2013

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    The voices are getting louder. The thoughts are getting stronger. I need to get away. But can I get away quick enough?
    Chinoi6 Chinoi6 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 15

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    I hate that I think of suicide and there's people out there that have it way worst than me. Why am I so weak
    Glo59 Glo59 18-21, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    I don't know if I'm still here because I'm strong to not do it or because I'm a coward to do it
    Glo59 Glo59 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 16

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    The awful moment when you realize that no one you know will actually care if you commit suicide
    ExpressionDepression ExpressionDepression 22-25, M 1 Response Dec 8, 2013

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    I live in a happy house with parents who love me. I love them too. I feel safe with them. I have a brother who I jokingly say I hate because of his annoyance, I love him however. I...
    varixtic varixtic 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 26

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    I lock the bathroom and turn to face the mirror. Look I mean I think everytime. I pick up the blade and thumb it to see how sharp. I wet my skin were I want to cut so it's easier...
    Frozensilence Frozensilence 16-17, F 4 Responses Dec 23, 2013

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    Seriously ... I took 1mg xanax earlier. Have now been drinking. Considering taking the other 25mg xanax and killing the rest of the booze with hopes of not waking up. INB4 so...
    Kolakona Kolakona 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 29