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I Have Thought About Suicde

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    I have, and still do,

    but I will never do it, there's always something to look forward to. Surprises and curiosity are the reason why I'm still here, and I know that there are more to come
    DoorMattress DoorMattress 13-15, M 2 Responses Apr 24

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    I am not gonna lie I have done a drug OVER DOSE

    AND WHILE MY MOM was talking to my aunt my aunt asked to talk to me then my younger cousin came on the phone she 9 and said hey Joey I love you that woke me up and made me say **** I ****** up
    josephpiper josephpiper 18-21 a week ago

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    i attempted once before

    and was hospitalized. i still think about it all the time. life is just so hard. no matter how hard i try i always fail. i just feel like such a failure and loser.
    lightening69 lightening69 46-50, F 2 Responses Jun 21

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    I think I understand it now

    and I knew it all along, No matter how hard I really tried I never did belong. I really do get it now and I really can see How much you hate me here, how you wish it was you three. How could I have been so stupid or naive To think that any of you would care enough to grieve...
    ShyButterfly04 ShyButterfly04 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 11

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    I guess I am the outcast of the family.

    .. You proved that by letting me be the only one to not know what happened. Thanks for telling me. Thanks for caring about me. Thanks for forgetting about me. Thanks for nothing.
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M May 26

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    I just want it all to be over.

    I feel so lost. So broken. So helpless.. Like im trapped under water, locked to an anchor. Slowly drowning. But instead of dying and drowning, im suffocating. I'm stuck at the feeling of knowing you're about to die. But death just will not come. I can't breathe. I can't see. And...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 22

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    I just want relief. I don't want to be here

    anymore and no one wants me here....
    Justanothergirl2000 Justanothergirl2000 13-15, F 3 Responses May 7

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    I keep confiding in people

    that I plan to commit suicide and no one takes me seriously. So much for being cared for and missed and all that crap.
    PurpleHart PurpleHart 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 5, 2014

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    4sh1ynn 4sh1ynn 13-15, F 25 Responses Jul 13, 2014

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    its so hot i ,get depresssed at the drop of a

    hat i have nothing to look forward to eveything is i do is a perpetual means to an end to get temporary relief, i cant ever enjoy the present
    jaywabz jaywabz 22-25, M Jun 23

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    A Step Too Close A few weeks ago I took a step

    that was too far. My life felt like it was falling apart all around me. My thoughts were haunting and the nightmares even more haunting. I didn't want to live the way I was living anymore. My mind made a choice that I will never forget. I decided it was okay to die and say...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 28, 2014

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    nobody can understand my feeling now,

    I'm afraid that I will jump from here. My mind is full of pain, depress, tired, lonely... I want the end
    hanitears hanitears 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 12

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    Can't. Stop. These. Thoughts.

    .. I can only kill them by killing me.... Nobody actually gives a flying f about me... Nobody... It's all a lie, my life's a joke.. My family are the only ones that really care because I've grown up with them.. But even then I struggle to except their love.. I wish they didn't...
    Catho Catho 18-21, F 2 Responses May 14

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    Omg I'll see you next weekend ,

    we are having problems I know I'm not ready too let you go but I know I need too . You mean a lot daddy . You where here for me but if we have to let go than go bc I don't want us to hurt . I love you babe want you to know . This will let us know where we go this visit will...
    amandalovee24 amandalovee24 22-25, F Jun 17

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    Right now it sounds like the best idea.

    I am not even tired of life anymore it's just the fact that i can't take it anymore.
    BloodyVictim BloodyVictim 16-17, F 13 Responses Apr 24

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    Hey guys...I'm not actually leaving,

    I was just having a hard time last night, but I'm fine now...
    PapaSun56 PapaSun56 18-21, M Jun 10

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    Sorry Pink... In the darkest of hours,

    the darkness of night. I pray for you to find me, to take away my fight. Sodden tremors from a far away place, threatens to consume the smile upon my face. As gods mercy filters through this land, save me from the torture of my own hands. The tiny treasures I find, have been...
    HotMessExpress101 HotMessExpress101 31-35, F 1 Response May 20

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    Yep quite a lot. I have drunk bleach

    and overdosed on pills but I'm not yet dead. I was thinking about killing myself this summer but it cannot happen now because I have the eyes of my friends and family on me but i don't doubt the fact that I am still capable of doing it.
    littlecrazymia littlecrazymia 13-15, F 6 Responses Aug 12, 2014

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    Woke up instantly feeling suicidal.

    .. What the **** is wrong with me?
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M Apr 22

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    Sometimes i feel like leaving my house

    and throwing myself off a bridge. I just wanted to say that and get it off my chest.
    jaylol jaylol 22-25, M 4 Responses Dec 20, 2014

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    Maybe I should drive.

    Home . Drunk. Drive over a cliff into the river.. Would anyone even care? If I died In a car accident? How could you live with yourself now? Treating me this wAy to lead me to driving over a bridge... "Suicide isn't cowardly. What's cowardly is pushing someone so hard to the...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 4 Responses May 6

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    Very Dark Moments...

    December was not a great month. In fact...it hadn't been that great of a year if I was being completely honest.   I sat alone staring out at the snow floating down from above...and realized I had never felt so utterly alone in my entire life. My melancholy had clearly...
    KassieKat KassieKat 46-50, F 8 Responses Feb 7, 2012

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    August 26, 2011

    This was one of the worst days of my life. Actually, it started a incredibly bad downward slide that still now has not reached the bottom. I sat on my couch, alone in my place. My wife was out 'scoring'....part of the problem... The money was gone. All of it. Things were being...
    RisenFromAshes RisenFromAshes 36-40, M 4 Responses May 2, 2013

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    I just have to ask, why is it

    that it takes someone to kill themselves for people to care about them?
    shironekochan shironekochan 16-17, F 5 Responses a week ago

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    my heel. hurts again

    and at work I thought about overdosin on pain pills. I would rather be dead than deal with this pain.
    TammyDRadke TammyDRadke 31-35, F 4 Responses May 9

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    How to sit with someone

    who is suicidal? Understand that their longing for death is really their longing for Home. This is a spiritual crisis, not merely a medical one. They are trying to awaken from a nightmare. By all means, call a doctor, obtain professional medical help, get them to a hospital...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Apr 13, 2014

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    I have thought about suicide

    when i was a kid and i still do but now i just hide all my feels im literally a soulless doll that doesn't say to many words. I watch everything thats going people don't know this but i know thing they dont want every one esle to know...
    LolipopGummi LolipopGummi 18-21, T 2 Responses Mar 7, 2014

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    I realized... My life really opened up

    and actually felt like it was beginning after my dad died. Sure it felt great, but who knows? Maybe I'm a burden to someone else like my dad was to me... I wonder if anyone's life will become brighter once I'm gone? I already know a handful of people will feel bad, but really...
    iamFrightened iamFrightened 18-21, M May 27

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    I don't want to hurt my family.

    I can't go through with it because I can't bear the thought of traumatizing them like that. I guess that's what keeps me going :)
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    I need someone to talk too please,

    I'm in a bad place and i fear I will do something
    BLANKstateofmind BLANKstateofmind 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 21

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    Thing is... I need someone

    who loves me... I need someone to want me.. I need someone to need me. When I'm in love, that person has such a significant impact on me. They help me to get better.. The only thing is... Being depressed will reflect those people away... They don't find it attractive, they find...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses May 9

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    I'm Honestly At A Breaking Point Where I Can't

    Stand Myself Nor My Life And I Want Happiness But I Can't Seem To Get It I Truly Want To Die But I'm Staying Strong For My Family And Friend .. Idk What To Do To Feel Better
    schneilie07 schneilie07 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 11

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    Crap can just be overwhelming!

    So the thoughts are bound to happen. But I believe there's always a way out of that darkness. For me it was God and His Son My Lord Savior Jesus Christ. Still hard at times, but I deal and keep moving. No one said it was easy. Whether it's faith, religion, someone to talk...
    Salute2MyFlaws Salute2MyFlaws 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 11, 2014

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    Ever thought of suicide thoughts.

    Well I know I have many times. But I'm too afraid to do anything I'm a weakling. Don't get me wrong I don't want anyone to feel bad or sorry for me I just want to express my feeling through here. Well I always thought would anyone really miss me or would they just miss me for...
    ErenJ ErenJ 18-21, M 3 Responses Dec 27, 2013

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    I do not know where to start

    but I will try my best I'm 26 years old and I live with my mother and my sister (she's 23). I want to leave my country this year, i have to but what would I do there? I do not have a place to stay, the money is almost gone at that point, my knowledge of English is not enough far...
    Brainissue Brainissue 26-30, M May 14

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    I'm Here For You

    Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and over and over You take out...
    MissJessicurr MissJessicurr 18-21, F 8 Responses Oct 19, 2012

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    forceful digging fury in my mind is the sweat

    and fear worth my time one tiny shred of evidence will surly be the death of my innocence fly away free never feeling the consequences or stay and see the beauty that life possess the devil weaves a magical spell either way I'm left stuck inside a cell
    HotMessExpress101 HotMessExpress101 31-35, F 4 Responses Jan 30

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    Every night go to sleep,

    I wish that I would never wake up.
    lamiavarc lamiavarc 16-17, F 8 Responses Aug 17, 2014

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    I want to die... It's Christmas morning.

    .. And I want to die... How ****** up am I? Please just kill me
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 25, 2014

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    I am still here, and I know

    that I am a fighter. I may feel like ending my life, but I should be proud of myself for coming a long way and still being strong. But this battle will never end. That's the sad part.
    llovelyfallenangell llovelyfallenangell 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 17, 2014

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    I am a 17 year old girl

    and I am not ashamed to admit that I know how to spell suicide Thank you
    ScarM3 ScarM3 16-17, F 2 Responses May 14

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    I'm stuck in a marriage

    that I'm not sure I want anymore. she argues with me constantly and I just feel trapped. I kind of want to leave so I can be free again without her dictating everything I can and can not do. I can't even take a nap without her having a fit saying that I don't want to spend time...
    Viciouspistols Viciouspistols 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 22

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    I have thought about ending it a few times,

    to check out and leave by my own terms. Sometimes it seemed like it was the only way I could control my life, that I could actually be the one who decides how my life should be. Existential questions, the search for an identity, the sometimes conflicting nature of what I wanted...
    Synapse81 Synapse81 31-35, M 1 Response Nov 11, 2014

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    I think about it everyday,

    even when there's a smile on my face. Everyone looks but they don't see;don't see me for me. I'm screaming from within"someone please save me" I'm trapped,can't breathe;my soul wants to be set free.. Free from her;she is me and I,she. We are one in the same,do you feel our pain...
    Tiffany199221 Tiffany199221 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 22

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    Many may not like what I say

    but it's EP and I can pretty much put it all out there if I choose. My thought on suicide is that it is one of the weakest, selfish and most cowardly things that a person can do. And before you tell me I don't have a right to say those words allow me to point out that indeed I...
    pinkstarburst pinkstarburst 41-45, F 5 Responses May 20

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    I haven't thought about it in at least 4 months,

    but today I was overwhelmed with stress and it resulted in what I can only describe as an attack of some sort, where I was so convinced that I had to commit suicide that the thought completely flooded my mind. It happened in the middle of class and it took all my energy not to...
    PapaSun56 PapaSun56 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 27

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