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    Ever thought of suicide thoughts.

    Well I know I have many times. But I'm too afraid to do anything I'm a weakling. Don't get me wrong I don't want anyone to feel bad or sorry for me I just want to express my feeling through here. Well I always thought would anyone really miss me or would they just miss me for...
    ErenJ ErenJ 18-21, M 3 Responses Dec 27, 2013

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    yesterday I wanted to go to bed

    and never wake up again
    styxc styxc 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 3

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    XxSxarletxX XxSxarletxX 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 21

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    I'm Here For You

    Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and over and over You take out...
    MissJessicurr MissJessicurr 18-21, F 8 Responses Oct 19, 2012

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    I was talking with my brother about the end of

    the world...he told me that this world needs to end...i agree...but i felt so weak cuz in between all those jokes we were doing about it i had the chance to tell him that i wanted to die but when he said that he kind of wanted the "world" to end maybe he was trying to say "life...
    anderlr anderlr 13-15, M 1 Response Jan 16

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    It's the simple inevitability of our death.

    .. Some live happily while others, such as myself, live with pain, hatred and agony bottled up inside... If we can't live happily like the majority then why are we being forced to stay here... That itself, is even more torture... You're torturing the ones who are already...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 6 Responses Jan 21

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    I am still here, and I know

    that I am a fighter. I may feel like ending my life, but I should be proud of myself for coming a long way and still being strong. But this battle will never end. That's the sad part.
    llovelyfallenangell llovelyfallenangell 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 17, 2014

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    The awful moment when you realize

    that no one you know will actually care if you commit suicide
    ExpressionDepression ExpressionDepression 22-25, M 1 Response Dec 8, 2013

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    I thought about suicide many times

    when I was a teenager. When I was 18 I was about to swallow an entire bottle of benzodiazepines in the school restroom
    styxc styxc 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 3

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    I want to kill myself.

    But i feel like I cant go without saying goodbye to everyone. Also I want to know a fast way to do it besides gunshot because we dont own a gun. Im kind of scared to do it aswell.
    cat1024 cat1024 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    My names amber and I have thought about suicide

    a lot. I have so many problems at home and school is really stressful. My parents don't understand how hard it could be to be a teenager, they think "you only go to school and back so why should you be tired?" But they don't understand how frustrating school is. My friends act...
    diamond104 diamond104 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 16, 2014

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    I just want to be a normal,

    non-miserable person. I want to be skinny and pretty. I want to like guys more and girls a lot less... it makes me feel creepy and gross. I want to be able to go without hurting myself for more than a few days. I want to not hate myself but I don't think that's possible. Right...
    SheSaid15 SheSaid15 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 7

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    I keep confiding in people

    that I plan to commit suicide and no one takes me seriously. So much for being cared for and missed and all that crap.
    PurpleHart PurpleHart 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 5, 2014

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    Am i the only one that feels really angry

    when people complain about their lives but it's just a little problem in their happy lives? i mean what are these people so angry about? at least they are normal and not lonely or hopeless ...cuz seems to me that being normal and happy is not enough... they kind of need to...
    anderlr anderlr 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 17

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    I've been on Paxil for 4 months now

    and all I want to do is sleep and not do anything it's been making me feel so confused lately and I've been having more thoughts about suicide I don't know what to do anymore
    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M 3 Responses Jan 8

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    i'm thinking about it

    now in fact. i'm tired of being depressed and sick all the time. i'm tired of being used. i'm tired of hurting. i don't think anyone will miss me except those who will have to do things for themselves once i am gone. i have no wife or kids so no one depends on me. my...
    Transluminal2010 Transluminal2010 41-45, M 7 Responses Apr 9, 2014

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    There is too much in my head

    and I want it all out. Dying is an option to get it out...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Happy New Years they said.

    .. Come Party they said... It'll be fun they said... *spends New Years on the phone with suicide prevention...* Yay... Happy New Years..
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 2

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    I think about it some times.

    How it would be easy just to wipe my self a way from the miserable life. That there's gonna come the day where everything I said or did will no longer matter. That, what's the point really. I'd just be helping a lot of people out by disappearing, better yet, probably not being...
    catherineeac catherineeac 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 4, 2014

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    What kind of **** up needs to admit himself to

    the hospital twice... :/ I hate being there. But I hate being here more... I wanna kill myself and end everything so badly, you have no idea... :'( I've ruined so many things.. I've made people hate me. On purpose mind you, but it's instant regret. Even though Id be better...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 13

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    It's my birthday...and i'm just thinking about

    ending it all...the best gift i could think of is a gun...perfect day
    anderlr anderlr 13-15, M 3 Responses Jan 10

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    The darkness is back.

    The pills aren't helping and nobody cares. I'm tired of trying when each day just brings more pain, more disappointments, and more loneliness. I'm never enough for anyone. Never good enough, never smart enough, never good-looking enough, never talented enough. Just never...
    Transluminal2010 Transluminal2010 41-45, M 8 Responses May 11, 2014

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    Yea, I'm going down that road again.

    I've been clean for 2 and a 1/2 months. I'm just really stressed recently and having those bad thoughts. That God it's winter. But I have swim :( I'll just probably wear water proof band aids.
    AngelsAgainstUs AngelsAgainstUs 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Yep quite a lot. I have drunk bleach

    and overdosed on pills but I'm not yet dead. I was thinking about killing myself this summer but it cannot happen now because I have the eyes of my friends and family on me but i don't doubt the fact that I am still capable of doing it.
    littlecrazymia littlecrazymia 13-15, F 7 Responses Aug 12, 2014

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    I have thought about suicide

    when i was a kid and i still do but now i just hide all my feels im literally a soulless doll that doesn't say to many words. I watch everything thats going people don't know this but i know thing they dont want every one esle to know...
    LolipopGummi LolipopGummi 18-21, T 1 Response Mar 7, 2014

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    I feel sometimes like I only exist to live to

    expectations and to be pushed around and hurt.. So why live? -.- I mean I don't want to die of a disease I just sometimes want to get hit by a car or "accidentally" fall off a cliff.
    PsychologyNerd PsychologyNerd 13-15, F 4 Responses Jan 13

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    4sh1ynn 4sh1ynn 13-15, F 26 Responses Jul 13, 2014

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    I just wanted to say thank you to everyone on

    here. I never posted an experience but the people here are all so nice and let me know that I'm not alone. Even if you don't know my story I know that I can talk on here and that I won't be judged!
    skysplits skysplits 16-17, F May 28, 2014

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    As each day passes the thought grows stronger

    and stronger. Each time more and more disturbing and awfully disgusting... Anyone ever thought of taking a nail gun to the head?? A running table saw to the hand? I want to die so badly. This thing we call life is nothing but torture.. The thoughts in my head. The voices. The...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I think my mom hates me.

    . She keeps telling me I'm too depressed, that I'm full of problems. Too unorganized, too dumb, too anxious, too lazy.. That I need to go on meds to be normal. Well sorry mother for not being able to handle lonlieness, grief, PMS, anxiety, and school at the same time... Maybe I...
    PsychologyNerd PsychologyNerd 13-15, F 4 Responses Jan 14

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    I have thought about ending it a few times,

    to check out and leave by my own terms. Sometimes it seemed like it was the only way I could control my life, that I could actually be the one who decides how my life should be. Existential questions, the search for an identity, the sometimes conflicting nature of what I wanted...
    Synapse81 Synapse81 31-35, M 1 Response Nov 11, 2014

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    How to sit with someone

    who is suicidal? Understand that their longing for death is really their longing for Home. This is a spiritual crisis, not merely a medical one. They are trying to awaken from a nightmare. By all means, call a doctor, obtain professional medical help, get them to a hospital...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Apr 13, 2014

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    I don't want to hurt my family.

    I can't go through with it because I can't bear the thought of traumatizing them like that. I guess that's what keeps me going :)
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    I can't stop thinking about you.

    .. I pray to God that you're doing okay... Please be doing okay... <3 please... :'(
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M Jan 12

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    Nothing seems to take these thoughts away.

    ..i can have some fun ,but after it all thoughts are back....i promised myself that i wouldn't cut myself but i guess the is no otherway at this point...
    anderlr anderlr 13-15, M 1 Response Jan 2

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    Very Dark Moments...

    December was not a great month. In fact...it hadn't been that great of a year if I was being completely honest.   I sat alone staring out at the snow floating down from above...and realized I had never felt so utterly alone in my entire life. My melancholy had clearly...
    KassieKat KassieKat 46-50, F 9 Responses Feb 7, 2012

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    I think I understand it now

    and I knew it all along, No matter how hard I really tried I never did belong. I really do get it now and I really can see How much you hate me here, how you wish it was you three. How could I have been so stupid or naive To think that any of you would care enough to grieve...
    ShyButterfly04 ShyButterfly04 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 11

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    Honestly **** everything.

    Nothing I ever do is ever good enough. I just wish I can go to sleep and never wake up.
    nathanieljlaw nathanieljlaw 18-21, M 3 Responses Nov 21, 2014

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    Haithere354 Haithere354 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 30, 2014

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    forceful digging fury in my mind is the sweat

    and fear worth my time one tiny shred of evidence will surly be the death of my innocence fly away free never feeling the consequences or stay and see the beauty that life possess the devil weaves a magical spell either way I'm left stuck inside a cell
    HotMessExpress101 HotMessExpress101 31-35, F 3 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    I've been thinking for a bit

    and to tell the truth i don't see the importance in my existence. How will i make a difference in the world at all? Im just one human, I can change anything so why try.... and if i cant change the anything or make an impact on the world then why am i of use? Whats the point of...
    thegreyace thegreyace 13-15, T 1 Response 4 days ago

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    eatthekids1stplease eatthekids1stplease 18-21, M Jul 18, 2014

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    I keep staring at the window in my room every

    night...the night sky...the city lights and the stars it's like an invitation for me to jump...
    anderlr anderlr 13-15, M 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    A Step Too Close A few weeks ago I took a step

    that was too far. My life felt like it was falling apart all around me. My thoughts were haunting and the nightmares even more haunting. I didn't want to live the way I was living anymore. My mind made a choice that I will never forget. I decided it was okay to die and say...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 28, 2014

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    im so ******* ready to just give up

    and end everything. im a huge disappointment and my heart will always remain broken. **** everything. I just... want to go to bed and never ******* wake up again. im so done with this world
    Searching4MyJuliet Searching4MyJuliet 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 3

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    :'(

    Even after my O.D i still think about cutting i havent yet but it's like every time im in a low mood when i feel like life's got nufing for me i just wanna cut myself really deep because in that moment of time death sounds pretty good.
    ohmylife ohmylife 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 24, 2012

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    sunflowerpet sunflowerpet 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 21

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    chack out my suicide chat room cute

    and past the link http://www.chatzy.com/37831562858889
    hopetodie hopetodie 51-55, M Jan 17

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    Every night go to sleep,

    I wish that I would never wake up.
    lamiavarc lamiavarc 16-17, F 9 Responses Aug 17, 2014

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    Watching greys anatomy.

    .. And they're talking about suicide... I couldn't be more intrigued... :'(
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 14

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    Crap can just be overwhelming!

    So the thoughts are bound to happen. But I believe there's always a way out of that darkness. For me it was God and His Son My Lord Savior Jesus Christ. Still hard at times, but I deal and keep moving. No one said it was easy. Whether it's faith, religion, someone to talk...
    Salute2MyFlaws Salute2MyFlaws 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 11, 2014

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    I'm trapped..... There's no way out of this.

    ... I hate myself for getting myself into this mess... No one really wants me!! It's all just a lie... People judge me, I can't be myself, I can't make my own choices, I hate it!!! The only way I actually feel good is when I'm drinking.... Suicide is one of my only options, and...