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I Have Thought About Suicde

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    bernard1910 bernard1910 51-55, F Mar 18

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    Yep quite a lot. I have drunk bleach

    and overdosed on pills but I'm not yet dead. I was thinking about killing myself this summer but it cannot happen now because I have the eyes of my friends and family on me but i don't doubt the fact that I am still capable of doing it.
    littlecrazymia littlecrazymia 13-15, F 6 Responses Aug 12, 2014

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    I am still here, and I know

    that I am a fighter. I may feel like ending my life, but I should be proud of myself for coming a long way and still being strong. But this battle will never end. That's the sad part.
    llovelyfallenangell llovelyfallenangell 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 17, 2014

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    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 12 Responses Mar 27

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    eatthekids1stplease eatthekids1stplease 18-21, M Jul 18, 2014

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    Yeah it's a painful story

    for me though.
    WWYDfan WWYDfan 22-25, M Mar 6

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    novak7 novak7 13-15, F Mar 6

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    Ever thought of suicide thoughts.

    Well I know I have many times. But I'm too afraid to do anything I'm a weakling. Don't get me wrong I don't want anyone to feel bad or sorry for me I just want to express my feeling through here. Well I always thought would anyone really miss me or would they just miss me for...
    ErenJ ErenJ 18-21, M 3 Responses Dec 27, 2013

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    4sh1ynn 4sh1ynn 13-15, F 26 Responses Jul 13, 2014

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    I should just kill myself.

    ... Id feel much better that way... And so would everyone else...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 6 Responses Mar 25

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    I can't do it anymore,

    I don't want to be here know one understands and it's so ******* hard, I'm so weak I can't do it
    naturallyhappy naturallyhappy 16-17, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Sometimes i feel like leaving my house

    and throwing myself off a bridge. I just wanted to say that and get it off my chest.
    jaylol jaylol 22-25, M 4 Responses Dec 20, 2014

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    Dear mother, I love you,

    I'm sorry I wasn't good enough. Dear father, forgive me, cause I'm your eyes I just never added up. It's a long and lonely road, when you know you walk alone. Dear brother, just don't hate me. For never standing by you, or being by your side. Dear sister, please don't blame me...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 3

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    A Step Too Close A few weeks ago I took a step

    that was too far. My life felt like it was falling apart all around me. My thoughts were haunting and the nightmares even more haunting. I didn't want to live the way I was living anymore. My mind made a choice that I will never forget. I decided it was okay to die and say...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 28, 2014

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    The darkness is back.

    The pills aren't helping and nobody cares. I'm tired of trying when each day just brings more pain, more disappointments, and more loneliness. I'm never enough for anyone. Never good enough, never smart enough, never good-looking enough, never talented enough. Just never...
    Transluminal2010 Transluminal2010 41-45, M 8 Responses May 11, 2014

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    I just wanted to say thank you to everyone on

    here. I never posted an experience but the people here are all so nice and let me know that I'm not alone. Even if you don't know my story I know that I can talk on here and that I won't be judged!
    skysplits skysplits 16-17, F May 28, 2014

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    Id like to fall asleep

    and never wake up again... Extra sleeping pills tonight? Maybe...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 15

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    I have thought about ending it a few times,

    to check out and leave by my own terms. Sometimes it seemed like it was the only way I could control my life, that I could actually be the one who decides how my life should be. Existential questions, the search for an identity, the sometimes conflicting nature of what I wanted...
    Synapse81 Synapse81 31-35, M 1 Response Nov 11, 2014

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    i made a suicide note.

    I attempted. I failed. I was too weak, too scared to do it. I still have my note, in my box. What if someone found it? Why do i still have it?
    DetachedCinnamon DetachedCinnamon 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I don't want to hurt my family.

    I can't go through with it because I can't bear the thought of traumatizing them like that. I guess that's what keeps me going :)
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    I think I understand it now

    and I knew it all along, No matter how hard I really tried I never did belong. I really do get it now and I really can see How much you hate me here, how you wish it was you three. How could I have been so stupid or naive To think that any of you would care enough to grieve...
    ShyButterfly04 ShyButterfly04 26-30, F 4 Responses Jan 11

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    it's my own fault but every time I think I'm

    doing good another curve ball is throw why am I this way why can't I change. why is life wasted on someone like me.
    HopelessBlah HopelessBlah 26-30, M Mar 25

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    Right now this would be the most ideal thing.

    .. I just don't want to go on in this much pain and suffering... But I don't want others to suffer so I have to stay strong and suffer for others. I feel so broken and overwhelmed right now it's ridiculous :/ some one please ****** save me for this hell I'm living!!!! Save me...
    Catho Catho 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 3

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    right now actually...

    got my knife in my hand
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 14

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    i'm thinking about it

    now in fact. i'm tired of being depressed and sick all the time. i'm tired of being used. i'm tired of hurting. i don't think anyone will miss me except those who will have to do things for themselves once i am gone. i have no wife or kids so no one depends on me. my...
    Transluminal2010 Transluminal2010 41-45, M 7 Responses Apr 9, 2014

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    I always think about how everything would just

    be easier if when crossing over a road I just stepped in front of the car, idk why..
    browndeadeyes browndeadeyes 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 30

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    You think you know me.

    .. But you don't know the first thing about me... You think you've been through depression... But you haven't... How long did it last?? Oh two weeks? That's cute!! Depression is ******* hell... You try to sympathize but the problems you face, would be close to the bottom of my...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M Mar 10

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    i think about it everyday,

    if i just had the right tool ( the shotgun ) i'd probably would have done it long time ago. that's the way i wanna go ,quick and painless, shotgun to the head. easy way out. i'm as good as dead anyway even though i'm alive..somewhere along the way something big died inside me...
    OccultumLapidem OccultumLapidem 22-25, M 5 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    Honestly **** everything.

    Nothing I ever do is ever good enough. I just wish I can go to sleep and never wake up.
    nathanieljlaw nathanieljlaw 18-21, M 3 Responses Nov 21, 2014

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    lost my job, my partner,

    family is wrecked, friends dwindled. this all happened at the same time. I feel like I have nothing. just perpetually on my couch watching Netflix.
    techassassin techassassin 22-25, M 4 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    forceful digging fury in my mind is the sweat

    and fear worth my time one tiny shred of evidence will surly be the death of my innocence fly away free never feeling the consequences or stay and see the beauty that life possess the devil weaves a magical spell either way I'm left stuck inside a cell
    HotMessExpress101 HotMessExpress101 31-35, F 4 Responses Jan 30

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    I'm Here For You

    Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and over and over You take out...
    MissJessicurr MissJessicurr 18-21, F 8 Responses Oct 19, 2012

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    Things never get better.

    ... Do they...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 6 Responses Mar 18

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    I have thought but decided

    that I would not give others the satisfaction of knowing their wrongdoings.
    BlossomTheMeganium BlossomTheMeganium 26-30, M Mar 22

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    Every night go to sleep,

    I wish that I would never wake up.
    lamiavarc lamiavarc 16-17, F 8 Responses Aug 17, 2014

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    I've thought about it,

    but my grandmother always said it was the ultimate sin.
    dirtydarkness dirtydarkness 26-30, F 5 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    The awful moment when you realize

    that no one you know will actually care if you commit suicide
    ExpressionDepression ExpressionDepression 22-25, M 1 Response Dec 8, 2013

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    I never actually done anything suicidal like

    though I'm not that into pain but I've heard that some people enjoy pain weird huh... Anyway I'm actually feeling a LOT better these days I may have moments of feeling like I'm through but I kinda want to live my life and see if with time I can change and be bold and come to...
    squiggled squiggled 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    You don't want to be here,

    and I don't... especially if you do go, I won't stick around... So why don't we go together? Like make a pact to die together..
    Catho Catho 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 29

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    Crap can just be overwhelming!

    So the thoughts are bound to happen. But I believe there's always a way out of that darkness. For me it was God and His Son My Lord Savior Jesus Christ. Still hard at times, but I deal and keep moving. No one said it was easy. Whether it's faith, religion, someone to talk...
    Salute2MyFlaws Salute2MyFlaws 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 11, 2014

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    :'(

    Even after my O.D i still think about cutting i havent yet but it's like every time im in a low mood when i feel like life's got nufing for me i just wanna cut myself really deep because in that moment of time death sounds pretty good.
    ohmylife ohmylife 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 24, 2012

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    Just took 6 pills of melatonin.

    ...(3mg) Hopefully I don't wake up... But it's obvious that I will.... Unfortunately enough
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 3 Responses Mar 15

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    My names amber and I have thought about suicide

    a lot. I have so many problems at home and school is really stressful. My parents don't understand how hard it could be to be a teenager, they think "you only go to school and back so why should you be tired?" But they don't understand how frustrating school is. My friends act...
    diamond104 diamond104 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 16, 2014

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    I think about it some times.

    How it would be easy just to wipe my self a way from the miserable life. That there's gonna come the day where everything I said or did will no longer matter. That, what's the point really. I'd just be helping a lot of people out by disappearing, better yet, probably not being...
    catherineeac catherineeac 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 4, 2014

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    When did pretending to be happy become

    so exhausting?? ******* just kill me... :/
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M Mar 4

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    sunflowerpet sunflowerpet 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 21

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