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I Have Thought About Suicde

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    i attempted once before

    and was hospitalized. i still think about it all the time. life is just so hard. no matter how hard i try i always fail. i just feel like such a failure and loser.
    lightening69 lightening69 46-50, F 2 Responses Jun 21

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    How to sit with someone

    who is suicidal? Understand that their longing for death is really their longing for Home. This is a spiritual crisis, not merely a medical one. They are trying to awaken from a nightmare. By all means, call a doctor, obtain professional medical help, get them to a hospital...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Apr 13, 2014

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    I'm so tired of myself

    and my life but I'm too wimpy to commit suicide..
    halohai halohai 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 12

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    I keep confiding in people

    that I plan to commit suicide and no one takes me seriously. So much for being cared for and missed and all that crap.
    PurpleHart PurpleHart 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 5, 2014

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    I'm Here For You

    Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and over and over You take out...
    MissJessicurr MissJessicurr 18-21, F 8 Responses Oct 19, 2012

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    Every night go to sleep,

    I wish that I would never wake up.
    lamiavarc lamiavarc 16-17, F 8 Responses Aug 17, 2014

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    Right now it sounds like the best idea.

    I am not even tired of life anymore it's just the fact that i can't take it anymore.
    BloodyVictim BloodyVictim 16-17, F 12 Responses Apr 24

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    These are the reasons I haven't done it yet: 1.

    Shotguns, which are the only reliable means to commit suicide, are too expensive and you need a hunter's licence and to be at least 21. 2. I don't have access to all my money, meaning I'm unable to take them all out in cash, stack them in a pile and burn them. 3. It's...
    DexterMalloween DexterMalloween 13-15, M 1 Response Jul 7

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    Funny you want to terminate your life

    when you're too scared of cancer.
    23rdcamp 23rdcamp 66-70 1 Response Jul 7

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    I just have to ask, why is it

    that it takes someone to kill themselves for people to care about them?
    shironekochan shironekochan 16-17, F 6 Responses Jun 25

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    I just need to let it all out.

    .. I am so depressed
    WaitingForSailorSims WaitingForSailorSims 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    my life is dull and i cant stand it.

    i want something to happen to make it funner. like someone kidnapping me or going on a killing spree with me.
    danielfrost1995 danielfrost1995 18-21, M 4 days ago

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    I am not gonna lie I have done a drug OVER DOSE

    AND WHILE MY MOM was talking to my aunt my aunt asked to talk to me then my younger cousin came on the phone she 9 and said hey Joey I love you that woke me up and made me say **** I ****** up
    josephpiper josephpiper 22-25 Jun 25

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    I need someone to talk too please,

    I'm in a bad place and i fear I will do something
    BLANKstateofmind BLANKstateofmind 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 21

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    I hate when people talk down on people

    who attempt suicide . The people who they should talk down on are the people who made them feel like they needed to die
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Jul 7

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    nobody can understand my feeling now,

    I'm afraid that I will jump from here. My mind is full of pain, depress, tired, lonely... I want the end
    hanitears hanitears 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 12

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    eatthekids1stplease eatthekids1stplease 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 18, 2014

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    its so hot i ,get depresssed at the drop of a

    hat i have nothing to look forward to eveything is i do is a perpetual means to an end to get temporary relief, i cant ever enjoy the present
    jaywabz jaywabz 22-25, M Jun 23

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    I'm stuck in a marriage

    that I'm not sure I want anymore. she argues with me constantly and I just feel trapped. I kind of want to leave so I can be free again without her dictating everything I can and can not do. I can't even take a nap without her having a fit saying that I don't want to spend time...
    Viciouspistols Viciouspistols 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 22

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    & I will never think about it again!

    It's totally irrational and not the answer. It's hurts so many people around you! I don't care how strong your mind set is on how no one cares about you, because that is bull. People care. You parents care. Your friends care. Random people will care. I've seen things I never...
    xItsChelsx xItsChelsx 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 21

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    forceful digging fury in my mind is the sweat

    and fear worth my time one tiny shred of evidence will surly be the death of my innocence fly away free never feeling the consequences or stay and see the beauty that life possess the devil weaves a magical spell either way I'm left stuck inside a cell
    HotMessExpress101 HotMessExpress101 31-35, F 4 Responses Jan 30

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    All the time. I feel like i have no friends

    and i know nobody likes me. I hate me, i hate my personality, the way i look the way i am and everybody else seems to hate it too. It's like screaming and no one can hear you know? I'm breaking and i don't think I can take it anymore.
    felicitydunlap felicitydunlap 13-15, F 8 Responses Jul 7

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    Sorry Pink... In the darkest of hours,

    the darkness of night. I pray for you to find me, to take away my fight. Sodden tremors from a far away place, threatens to consume the smile upon my face. As gods mercy filters through this land, save me from the torture of my own hands. The tiny treasures I find, have been...
    HotMessExpress101 HotMessExpress101 31-35, F 1 Response May 20

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    You think you know me.

    .. But you don't know the first thing about me... You think you've been through depression... But you haven't... How long did it last?? Oh two weeks? That's cute!! Depression is ******* hell... You try to sympathize but the problems you face, would be close to the bottom of my...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M Mar 10

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    S inking into darkness U nable to breathe I

    ncreasing hopelessness C uts on my skin I nto eternal sleep I will fall D on't cry; you never cared E verything will be better when I am gone
    GirlforGod2 GirlforGod2 13-15 1 Response Jul 6

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    Ever thought of suicide thoughts.

    Well I know I have many times. But I'm too afraid to do anything I'm a weakling. Don't get me wrong I don't want anyone to feel bad or sorry for me I just want to express my feeling through here. Well I always thought would anyone really miss me or would they just miss me for...
    ErenJ ErenJ 18-21, M 3 Responses Dec 27, 2013

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    I think I understand it now

    and I knew it all along, No matter how hard I really tried I never did belong. I really do get it now and I really can see How much you hate me here, how you wish it was you three. How could I have been so stupid or naive To think that any of you would care enough to grieve...
    ShyButterfly04 ShyButterfly04 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 11

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    AnxiousAndAlone AnxiousAndAlone 26-30, M 4 Responses Jul 6

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    hoyee hoyee 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 7

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    Crap can just be overwhelming!

    So the thoughts are bound to happen. But I believe there's always a way out of that darkness. For me it was God and His Son My Lord Savior Jesus Christ. Still hard at times, but I deal and keep moving. No one said it was easy. Whether it's faith, religion, someone to talk...
    Salute2MyFlaws Salute2MyFlaws 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 11, 2014

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    For me it's a daily topic on mind.

    I never intend to do it, but who knows....maybe one day I'll just give up.
    fracturedforever fracturedforever 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 8

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    XxautychanxX XxautychanxX 13-15, F 4 Responses Jul 7

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    I have thought about ending it a few times,

    to check out and leave by my own terms. Sometimes it seemed like it was the only way I could control my life, that I could actually be the one who decides how my life should be. Existential questions, the search for an identity, the sometimes conflicting nature of what I wanted...
    Synapse81 Synapse81 31-35, M 2 Responses Nov 11, 2014

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    Sometimes i feel like leaving my house

    and throwing myself off a bridge. I just wanted to say that and get it off my chest.
    jaylol jaylol 22-25, M 4 Responses Dec 20, 2014

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    Like all the time! But I'm too much of a coward

    to do so, but that's a good thing too right?
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Jul 7

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    A Step Too Close A few weeks ago I took a step

    that was too far. My life felt like it was falling apart all around me. My thoughts were haunting and the nightmares even more haunting. I didn't want to live the way I was living anymore. My mind made a choice that I will never forget. I decided it was okay to die and say...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 28, 2014

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    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Maybe I should drive.

    Home . Drunk. Drive over a cliff into the river.. Would anyone even care? If I died In a car accident? How could you live with yourself now? Treating me this wAy to lead me to driving over a bridge... "Suicide isn't cowardly. What's cowardly is pushing someone so hard to the...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 4 Responses May 6

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    Very Dark Moments...

    December was not a great month. In fact...it hadn't been that great of a year if I was being completely honest.   I sat alone staring out at the snow floating down from above...and realized I had never felt so utterly alone in my entire life. My melancholy had clearly...
    KassieKat KassieKat 46-50, F 8 Responses Feb 7, 2012

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    Honestly **** everything.

    Nothing I ever do is ever good enough. I just wish I can go to sleep and never wake up.
    nathanieljlaw nathanieljlaw 18-21, M 3 Responses Nov 21, 2014

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    I love when I'm happy

    and I try my hardest to remain that way. Because when I get angry/sad my mind fills up with every little bad thing quickly. I become someone who I depise to be. I cry for hours in my room. And when someone comes around I pretend that everything is ok. I began cutting myself...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jul 22

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    I think about it everyday,

    even when there's a smile on my face. Everyone looks but they don't see;don't see me for me. I'm screaming from within"someone please save me" I'm trapped,can't breathe;my soul wants to be set free.. Free from her;she is me and I,she. We are one in the same,do you feel our pain...
    Tiffany199221 Tiffany199221 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 22

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    embonza1 embonza1 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 8

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    i think suicide is something everyone has

    thought about. at least once in their life. i believe God exists but its not the fear of God that makes me stop. its just fear. fear that it will get better and I won't experience it. everything makes me think and one feeling leads to another and i'm momentarily depressed. my...
    Adaeze123 Adaeze123 13-15, F Jul 7

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    I want to die... It's Christmas morning.

    .. And I want to die... How ****** up am I? Please just kill me
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 25, 2014

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    I have, and still do,

    but I will never do it, there's always something to look forward to. Surprises and curiosity are the reason why I'm still here, and I know that there are more to come
    DoorMattress DoorMattress 13-15, M 2 Responses Apr 24

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