I Have Thought About Suicde

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    Yep quite a lot. I have drunk bleach

    and overdosed on pills but I'm not yet dead. I was thinking about killing myself this summer but it cannot happen now because I have the eyes of my friends and family on me but i don't doubt the fact that I am still capable of doing it.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    6 Responses Aug 12, 2014
    Austin777137 Austin777137
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Dec 25, 2015
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jul 18, 2014

    I have the thoughts all the time I'm working on

    getting rid of them but it's hard to get rid of them.
    winterwilliams1997 winterwilliams1997
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Mar 16

    In this moment I feel good,

    but I have even some problems.I close myself always, but not as much as before. In the beginning of 2007, one day I woke up and my legs were blocked. I was not able to walk. I underwent examinations and I was in every hospital. I was not able to speak and for two month I could...
    trapulin trapulin
    22-25, F
    Mar 28

    I think I'm actually gonna do it this time.

    There's no one here to stop me anymore.
    SheWhoCuts SheWhoCuts
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Jan 28

    I have thought about ending it a few times,

    to check out and leave by my own terms. Sometimes it seemed like it was the only way I could control my life, that I could actually be the one who decides how my life should be. Existential questions, the search for an identity, the sometimes conflicting nature of what I wanted...
    Synapse81 Synapse81
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Nov 11, 2014

    I just have to ask, why is it

    that it takes someone to kill themselves for people to care about them?
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    6 Responses Jun 25, 2015

    In the past.I was very suicidal at

    that time.I once tried it as well.I overdosed my depression pills,nothing happened.But I don't think I would ever kill myself now because my life is finally starting to turn around.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Dec 22, 2015

    I can't take it I can't stop thinking about

    death its allways in my head maybe it's my time to go but no matter what it's all I think about its stuck in my head n I can think right
    Weesm2016 Weesm2016
    22-25, M
    1 Response Apr 5

    Right now it sounds like the best idea.

    I am not even tired of life anymore it's just the fact that i can't take it anymore.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    9 Responses Apr 24, 2015

    Yes, they are annoying.

    I'd never act on them. I have thoughts about a million things. I hardly act on any of my thoughts.
    QuestionMarks QuestionMarks
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Mar 15

    You think you know me.

    .. But you don't know the first thing about me... You think you've been through depression... But you haven't... How long did it last?? Oh two weeks? That's cute!! Depression is ******* hell... You try to sympathize but the problems you face, would be close to the bottom of my...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile
    22-25, M
    Mar 10, 2015

    I think about it everyday.

    I just want to down a few bottles of nyquil and take some sleeping pills.
    SuicidalTeen16 SuicidalTeen16
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Jan 21

    So he he's talking to someone else this kills

    me inside ... Feels like I'm dying because I wanted your love ... I'm so angry .... Whyyyyyyyyyu ???!!! I love you why I'm I going through this my heart hurts .... This is it ??? I'm going to block him .... I'm hurt ??? When will I update this I'm not sure but pray for me...
    amandalovee24 amandalovee24
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jan 4

    I think about it everyday,

    even when there's a smile on my face. Everyone looks but they don't see;don't see me for me. I'm screaming from within"someone please save me" I'm trapped,can't breathe;my soul wants to be set free.. Free from her;she is me and I,she. We are one in the same,do you feel our pain...
    Tiffany199221 Tiffany199221
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jun 22, 2015

    It's been years since a man you touched me

    loved me . Why don't I have some too love ? It's been 2 years since I've had a boyfriend no wait .... 3 and its hurts ... How come no none loves me likes me ? Being so alone and having no confidents no plans for my future ... No kid no home no life .... Just darkness . But my...
    amandalovee24 amandalovee24
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Feb 12

    I have, and still do,

    but I will never do it, there's always something to look forward to. Surprises and curiosity are the reason why I'm still here, and I know that there are more to come
    DoorMattress DoorMattress
    13-15, M
    Apr 24, 2015

    I want to die... It's Christmas morning.

    .. And I want to die... How ****** up am I? Please just kill me
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile
    22-25, M
    1 Response Dec 25, 2014
    4sh1ynn 4sh1ynn
    16-17, F
    23 Responses Jul 13, 2014

    Maybe I should drive.

    Home . Drunk. Drive over a cliff into the river.. Would anyone even care? If I died In a car accident? How could you live with yourself now? Treating me this wAy to lead me to driving over a bridge... "Suicide isn't cowardly. What's cowardly is pushing someone so hard to the...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile
    22-25, M
    3 Responses May 6, 2015
    Keyana136 Keyana136
    13-15
    2 Responses Oct 17, 2015

    How to sit with someone

    who is suicidal? Understand that their longing for death is really their longing for Home. This is a spiritual crisis, not merely a medical one. They are trying to awaken from a nightmare. By all means, call a doctor, obtain professional medical help, get them to a hospital...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Apr 13, 2014

    I wanted to kill myself a couple years ago

    but the only thing that stopped me at the last moment wasn't a loved one it was a teacher
    austun1 austun1
    22-25, M
    Mar 8

    Honestly **** everything.

    Nothing I ever do is ever good enough. I just wish I can go to sleep and never wake up.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Nov 21, 2014

    Why does my hurt pound

    for him hurts for him and he's in love with someone else how does that work that I'm here in pain and he's happy not a care in the world about me .... I'm here in bed hurt used and he's happy with her
    amandalovee24 amandalovee24
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 26

    I'm cleaning my house

    so that if I acutually go through with it all they have to do is take out the trash
    wash2 wash2
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 16

    I think I understand it now

    and I knew it all along, No matter how hard I really tried I never did belong. I really do get it now and I really can see How much you hate me here, how you wish it was you three. How could I have been so stupid or naive To think that any of you would care enough to grieve...
    ShyButterfly04 ShyButterfly04
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Jan 11, 2015

    never far away...but more of a wish

    that i can just let go. of course i dont have the option of ending things because of the hurt it causes others. but going through life waiting for the end is not terribly fulfiling either. you need a destination in life. a reason. i have no destination and little reason to...
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer
    46-50, M
    Jan 21

    I know that I'm loved.

    That's not what this is about. I just know that I'm a pointless, angry piece of rubbish, and it wouldn't really matter if I wasn't here. I mean, I don't think I would actually do it, because I have family and friends who I know really do care, but I want to. I find myself...
    skeletoncliquetop skeletoncliquetop
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Feb 16

    I just want it all to be over.

    I feel so lost. So broken. So helpless.. Like im trapped under water, locked to an anchor. Slowly drowning. But instead of dying and drowning, im suffocating. I'm stuck at the feeling of knowing you're about to die. But death just will not come. I can't breathe. I can't see. And...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Jun 22, 2015

    every once in a while I have thoughts about not

    living anymore. I wish they would go away and never come back but they always come back. life is just too much to handle right now
    wash2 wash2
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 11

    I dispise myself and the voices in my head say

    it's only a matter of time. feeling bitter and worthless for years. I just can't anymore. I'm sorry
    DelusionalWolf DelusionalWolf
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Nov 8, 2015

    Crap can just be overwhelming!

    So the thoughts are bound to happen. But I believe there's always a way out of that darkness. For me it was God and His Son My Lord Savior Jesus Christ. Still hard at times, but I deal and keep moving. No one said it was easy. Whether it's faith, religion, someone to talk...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Sep 11, 2014

    Sometimes i feel like leaving my house

    and throwing myself off a bridge. I just wanted to say that and get it off my chest.
    jaylol jaylol
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Dec 20, 2014

    I'm Here For You

    Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and over and over You take out...
    MissJessicurr MissJessicurr
    18-21, F
    8 Responses Oct 19, 2012

    I was very suicidal in the past.

    But I don't think I would ever kill myself now because my life is finally starting to turn around
    bearhugs00 bearhugs00
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Jan 20

    A little vodka and too much heroin,

    then fade to black. Am I the only one who thinks that sounds awesome?
    SRayne SRayne
    51-55, M
    Apr 6
    akaShaun akaShaun
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Jul 28, 2015

    The day these thoughts have faded my smile will

    be revealed The day these thoughts are silenced my smile will be real The day these thoughts have vanished Depression will be vanquished The day these thoughts are forgotten I'll be happy for that's all I want
    polarbearlove polarbearlove
    16-17, F
    1 Response Aug 18, 2015

    why is it things turn out to be going okay life

    just feels like **** and you feel as alone as ever. tonight's just one of those nights
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Mar 11

    August 26, 2011

    This was one of the worst days of my life. Actually, it started a incredibly bad downward slide that still now has not reached the bottom. I sat on my couch, alone in my place. My wife was out 'scoring'....part of the problem... The money was gone. All of it. Things were being...
    RisenFromAshes RisenFromAshes
    36-40, M
    3 Responses May 2, 2013

    "SUICIDE DOESN'T REMOVE PAIN,

    IT GIVES IT TO SOMEONE ELSE." I've read this after a video I watched and I realize, yes, it is true. I'm not in your position or situation and I can only imagine it, what you're going through but I know that in every person there's someone atleast one caring for them... maybe...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 2

    I can't do this anymore,

    i have never felt so issolated and hopeless, at school no body ever talks to me, i spend half of the time in the bathrrom crying or panicing, i can't leave the house without my blades ever, i was never going to accomplish anything anyway, i'm not pretty, smart, funny, strong...
    love11915 love11915
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Feb 28

    just seems like my life is a complete lie.

    i don't even know who I am anymore. what is the point?
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79
    36-40, F
    1 Response Nov 2, 2015

    A Step Too Close A few weeks ago I took a step

    that was too far. My life felt like it was falling apart all around me. My thoughts were haunting and the nightmares even more haunting. I didn't want to live the way I was living anymore. My mind made a choice that I will never forget. I decided it was okay to die and say...
    jackjack600 jackjack600
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 28, 2014

    I can't stand living anymore.

    There's so much pain. I need to die.
    Hesmyvampireking Hesmyvampireking
    13-15, F
    6 Responses Jan 25

    I hate when people talk down on people

    who attempt suicide . The people who they should talk down on are the people who made them feel like they needed to die
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Jul 7, 2015

    When I was younger, I

    even had my "last meal" and then was prepared to commit suicide afterwards but somehow ended up "talking" myself out of it. I actually thought about it a lot when I was younger but I've sort of put the idea out of my mind now and I'm hoping that it doesn't come back.
    ElyzaTheWeird ElyzaTheWeird
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 21

    It happens everyday..

    . I always think, what if i end this. What if i pick a knife and end everything. My misery, my tiredness, both phisically and emotionally. End my sadness... I look at my knife and i get scared of death ... Ughhh another day, another painful day...
    Potchii Potchii
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jan 7

    Can't deal with this anymore,

    hate my life& myself everyone will be better of with me dead I'm done 😩😩😩
    Courtneyxxxx Courtneyxxxx
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Apr 5

    I have had this thought many times

    and was close to doing it once.
    winterwilliams1997 winterwilliams1997
    16-17, F
    Mar 15

    Today I lost my grandfather.

    My mom and I went to plan the funeral and Just going through that made me lose any and all suicidal thoughts I've been having. I saw a pain in my moms eyes that I've never seen and I don't ever want her to have that because of me. I never want my family to have to plan my...
    ParanoidGirl ParanoidGirl
    26-30
    Jan 27

    I'm going to either snap

    or kill myself
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Feb 5

    Not really something to worry about much anymore

    but when I was younger like about a little while throughout early high school. I'd still have thoughts about it like if I see a knife in the kitchen something would run through my mind thinking about cutting, but fortunately I get the best of it, even when I walk outside I live...
    Tagstar2000 Tagstar2000
    13-15, M
    2 Responses Feb 26

    I have in my life thought about suicide .

    . I was having a really just rough time with bullying but I always still tried to be as nice as I could to people.. I was just getting so much meanness said to me on this particular day that I was already to give up. I went to class like normal but I had tears in my eyes and...
    ShawnaMae123 ShawnaMae123
    18-21, F
    Mar 11
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