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I Have Thought About Taking An Overdose of Tablets

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    I start taking them but can never finish.

    The taste brings me back to reality.
    Alylovespuppies Alylovespuppies 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    Actually I Did It

    and actually, I took 350 neuroleptic pills ( I have stored them, accumulated them), and actually there are only 5 cases on the whole planet who survived a heavy dose like that. everybody around me said I was going to die when I was in the hospital, but I'm still alive and have...
    panther61 panther61 31-35, F 2 Responses Apr 8, 2010

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    I remember when I thought about overdosing.

    . I still do.. I'm thinking about it right now. Most people when I tell them this they say stop being selfish and trying to take your own life away. What the hell am I supposed to live for if my mother is dead, my dad's in jail, who innocent which i must add and i most likely...
    SPNPLL SPNPLL 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 31

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    My First Attempt

    So seriously guys...it looks like a great way to go out...take a handful pills, and slip into a deep sleep...WELL...let me tell you first hand it's not at all that glamorous..first off, your body immediately  tries to get it out..by that I mean you start vomiting terribly...
    abbymay26 abbymay26 26-30, F 5 Responses May 31, 2012

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    I Remember When I Was Tempted But It Disappeared Very Quickly

    I remember when i wanted to take an overdose tablets, i was so sick of feeling all this hurt and pain i had inside of meit was destroying me faster than the tide coming in.But then my best friend and older sister both took an overdose of tablets and both nearly died,losing both...
    UmbraEyes UmbraEyes 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 17, 2012

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    There's Really No Reason Why..

    I don't know what's wrong with me. I have always had these thoughts, but never would I actually go through with it. I'm terrified of death and hell. I really have no reason to do it..I have a pretty decent life if I say so. I don't want to for attention, or pity, or anything. I...
    ciara96 ciara96 16-17, F Nov 4, 2011

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    Sore Stomach

    About 20years ago i decided i had had enough of life and decided to take a lot of paracetomol. I then drove my car to a remote location and connected a hose to the exhaust and sat inside while the car smoked up. Well at some time through the event i passed out but saw my dead...
    BorisKindle BorisKindle 36-40, M 1 Response Apr 2, 2012

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    My Heart Stopped!

    when i was 15 i OD on anti depressants. i was rushed to the hospital and on my way there my heart stopped twice. wheni got to the hospital they had to pump my stomach. im alive and well now. but it was the scariest thing in the world for my friends and family. suicide is not the...
    lovena17 lovena17 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 23, 2011

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    Panadeine Forte And Painful Memories

    Yes. One night, I suddenly felt in a depressive mood. A lot had happened to set this off. I was, at that point in time, going through a lot. I had so much on my mind. I couldn't think properly. I felt a sense of hopelessness. I felt as if my life would never get better. I felt as...
    TheSimpsons8 TheSimpsons8 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 4, 2012

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    Put Me Out Of This Misery

    i am on seroqueland i know if i putt the whole box in my mouthi will die in my sleepbut is it fairto take away my life when im in some oone els arms?why notthey dont really carenot at allatleast i have hold of somthing thats gonna give a new lifeplease just let me be;(u knew i...
    shayeshaye shayeshaye 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 18, 2013

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    Young Moments..

    When I was young, I think 6 or 7 years old. I was taking allot of pills, maybe I thought it was candy O.o.. But ok,, So I took a bunch of pills.. I was taking to the hospital,. And they stick a tube in my mouth, and every pill was sucked out of my stomach.. That is what I...
    Suicide16 Suicide16 16-17, F Mar 31, 2013

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    Tried It A Few Times As Well

    The first time was some prescription meds for somethin or another. I got sick exactly 15 minutes later, and my parents werent too happy, altho they didnt find out the cause for a few days. Id just said it was the McDonalds earlier. I do it every so often now, taking a few extra...
    kingbrizo kingbrizo 18-21 Aug 4, 2013

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    Something always stops me from taking an

    overdose on tablets. I don't know what it is and I don't know why. I just want the pain I am feeling to stop. I just want everything to stop. I'm sick of being alive. I'm sick of hurting and feeling useless. I have a bunch of tablets in my room and it's as if they are haunting...
    HC12345 HC12345 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 12

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    But Not Terribly Seriously

    Yes, once or twice when things seemed at their very worst I have looked  at my bottle of Jim Beam and thought...'you know, Sara, that bottle and a bottle of pills and i would never have to face anything bad, ever again.' Then I think of the people who love me, of the future...
    SaratogaGirl SaratogaGirl 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 31, 2009

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    It's Not Good

    I took an overdose, when it hit me what i had done i went to hospital. I spent the next to with 4canulas in my arms and 2 drips, one with an andtidote to the cocktail of pills i had taken (mostly paracetamol, ibruprofen and betablockers) and one to dehydrate me. I was in hospital...
    Suviver Suviver 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 10, 2009

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    I Did More Than Just Think About It.

    I was 14 at the time I took an overdose of pills. I suppose I'd been planning it for a while but everytime I set a date, something always happened that made life seem worth living again. So then I would push the thoughts to the back of my mind for a while. But they always came...
    AmberRoth AmberRoth 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 14, 2009

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    Don't Be Silly.

    I'm not going to lecture you on how suicide is not the answer blah blah It irritates the hell out of me. What I will tell you is how badly over dosing can go wrong. I took some 40+ pain pills with a can of bourbon. Fell asleep. Awoke several hours later with severe stomach cramps...
    BeteNoire BeteNoire 26-30, F 3 Responses Apr 3, 2012

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    No One Would Care..

    I'm 13, and in my second year of high school. Recently things haven't been going well at all. My so called 'friends' have all ditched me, and some making rumours about me, so I'm on my own. My grades are really beginning to slip, and I'm getting into trouble for that at home...
    WhatsWrongWithMee WhatsWrongWithMee 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 4, 2013

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    Blackout Od

    I have suffered from depression and Bipolar Disorder for most of my life, but until about 3 years ago never attempted to end my life. First I began cutting myself... though this wasn't to kill myself it was to stifle my seething rage and actually keep from hurting those...
    RavingRat RavingRat 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 4, 2009

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    Sarahsworldofpain Sarahsworldofpain 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 15

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    What Did I Get Myself Into

    I cant decide what to do about this situation.Ive been cheecking meds for about a week to overdose.i have 11 pills and so ive managed to keep my mouth shut so far.The problem is i dont know how to hold water.And tommorow is my session with the therapist and i might tell her cause...
    Passionfruit3 Passionfruit3 18-21, F Apr 17, 2013

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    This Is Happening 5 Months Ago

    Since September of last year until January of this year, I felt so so unbearably low. Depressed even. Maybe. I ate (just enough to get me staying alive), never went out, didnt study (wasnt interested in anything), got snappy at anything and anyone and with it a few panic attacks...
    Eamane Eamane 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 3, 2011

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    It Was So Intense...

    i had contemplated suicide several times, but i had never gotten so close. so i was at school, and i was having a terrible day cause i hadn't heard from my boyfriend for a few days, and i was super stressed because of family problems. my classmates decided to tell me repeatedly...
    teenfantasy teenfantasy 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 2, 2012

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    How Do I Find Purpose?

    how do I find purpose when I feel there is no reason to live no reason to eat no reason to swim I feel like a fishy who lost its school of fish how do I breath how do I live when every morning I don't want to I collect the pills I plan it all out but I always fail and there's...
    elivasquez elivasquez 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 29, 2013

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    Pills..

    Want pills.. Want suicide.. =(
    Suicide16 Suicide16 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 1, 2013

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    Next Friday Me And Iyna :)

    i have planed my death it will be next friday i will overdoes then cut up my arms why have i have decided this you may ask i failed almost everything in my life i have tried to fix things but im not able to do it i have tried but i can not it will be next friday and no one...
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Mar 31, 2013

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    Tried For A Year To Do It

    after i got kicked out a high school i developed an addiction to tylenol PM's. I would take about 5 a mouthful and about 10-15 a night. every night i hoped i wouldn't wake up the next morning or night. i sometimes drugged myself right after waking up so i wouldn't have to be...
    CaptainJackass CaptainJackass 22-25, M 4 Responses Jan 31, 2011

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    10 Minutes From Death

    In the early 80's I had been drinking all night. I remember taking a handful of anti depressants. I don't remember passing out, but I do remember seeing a bright light, and hearing the voices of the medical team, trying to revive me. Later when I woke up in intensive care, I was...
    throwawaychild throwawaychild 46-50, M 2 Responses Mar 24, 2013

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    Pill Recommendations

    I am tried of living with all the pain and sadness my existence brings with it. I have planned my date for the end of this month and started working on a video to explain how sorry i am to my daughter.I have tried this before with bottles of wine and aspirin.  I passed out...
    jacqueline1972 jacqueline1972 36-40, T 3 Responses Jul 9, 2013

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    Something Always Stops Me

    I have thought multiple times about killing myself. I imagine taking a bunch a pills and never waking up. I wonder if my classmates would care. But every time I think about killing myself something stops me. I think of how my family would be affected. I think of what the future...
    bookworm36 bookworm36 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 25, 2013

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    Whoo...

    Well its my birthday officially... And I just want to kill myself.
    OneMoreDay8248 OneMoreDay8248 18-21, F 7 Responses Jul 17, 2013

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    I Have Thought Of Ending It All

    When life gets rough, when my heart feels numb, when my regrets surround me, mocking me, making my head pound with negative thoughts...I too looked at the innocent white tablets on my table and wondered what would happen if I popped all of them at once. At times like those, I...
    DarkAngel123 DarkAngel123 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 20, 2010

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    I Overdose On The Gray Poesy

    I overdose on the gray poesy in its marvel and gutiness between emergencies. I swim submitting to depths telling them telling all of them it was a poetic vice that failed me. Why would anyone talk about me behind my back behind my consciousness? From an idiot stagnation I arose...
    iamanartist iamanartist 51-55, F Feb 22, 2013

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    To Everyone On This Experience.

    Please listen to me, I have experience this thought in the past and even acted on it. Since I'm typing right now and I am not a ghost you can assume that I did not succeed. But I was sick for a month after all, I couldn't eat or drink anything any time I did I threw up. I was...
    Megan1111 Megan1111 22-25, F 3 Responses May 22, 2011

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    A Close One

    The year before last was a particularly difficult one for me. Not sure why, but I became reclusive and never went out. Between December 2008 and July 2009, I hung out with friends a grand total of three times. I couldn't stand how I had gotten and had no idea how I got there. I...
    mistakenstrangers mistakenstrangers 22-25, M 2 Responses Feb 28, 2011

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    I Feel Like Overdosing Again

    I took an overdose of painkillers when I was thirteen. That was three years ago. Nothing happened, I woke up pretty ill the next day but I didn't die. I wanted to die, though. I wasn't happy to still be alive. I've been thinking about overdosing again. I can't cut my wrists...
    Lizzy7Wizzy Lizzy7Wizzy 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 10, 2013

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    It Wasn'T Just Once

    It wasn't one time, or two, it has been 11. I've taken at least 6 pills at the same time, 11 times. The first time was a suicide attempt. I was young. I was a 10 year old. Fifth grade. Rare, right? I was in the bathroom crying. Not because I got a bad grade or my mom yelled at me...
    elenarosem1 elenarosem1 16-17, F 4 Responses Feb 18, 2013

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    Pills Do Not Work !!!!!

    I came home from the hospital yesterday night. I am not sure why I was there in the first place, but needless to say, I was.I have this urge to just take all of my medication that I have left.  Even all of the medst that I no longer need to take just to stop the pain.The voices...
    3 Responses Feb 10, 2013

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    Pain Pills.

    I'm in so much pain. My medicine isn't working There's been many times I've thought of taking a handful of pain pills.
    jennamarie210 jennamarie210 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 20, 2013

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    It'S Right There

    My mom has a lot of prescription medication some of it is really strong and the opportunity is right there at any moment I could go down stairs a take them all that thought is killing me.
    Feb 15, 2013

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    I was very close earlier today of taking an

    overdose on my moms anti-depressants. I've been worried about a lot lately. Someone saved me today and I thank them so much!😊
    ajl04 ajl04 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 4

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    Mdma Overdose?

    In my hand right now i hold 5 grams of crystal MDMA, roughly the LD50 for someone my weight...things have fallen apart past the point of no return. What else can i do? A beautiful last song, familiar - Nils Frahm
    Rebound123 Rebound123 22-25, M 2 Responses Apr 25, 2013

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    A couple years ago I

    though about it. I actually had the tablets in my hand... I backed out though... Which was a good idea. I still get the urge to do it sometimes... But I'm defiantly not ever gonna do that. Hopefully.
    NegativePulse NegativePulse 18-21, M 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    I Actually Have.................

     In grade school I remember taking a whole bottle of aspirin.  Not long ago, I took a hand full of sleepers, and washed them down with vodka.    I can't tell you enough of the shame I have for that action. Not to mention the hurt it caused those I shared...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Sep 1, 2009

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    Except That It's Right Now.

    I don't know where else to go, who else to talk to. I'm out of people I can really talk to, I can't even talk to my boyfriend anymore. It just turns into fighting or whatever. I can't go on like this... the only peace of mind I get anymore is day-dreaming about how I'm going to...
    alicedarling alicedarling 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 28, 2012

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    Thought About It..and Sadly...tried a Few Times As Well.

    I would love to say that I have put all that nonsense behind me...but then I would be lying to all of you..and more importantly..myself. Even with all that I have..well..that doesn't make that deep dark seated pain go away..it just makes me hide it better. I've become a very good...
    luckypickle luckypickle 26-30 21 Responses Aug 31, 2009

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    I've thought about overdosing before,

    but never brought myself to doing it. Does it hurt? I've heard it does. I never thought it would though, I though it would be like fainting. Where you go drowsy and just slowly fall asleep, but unlike fainting- you just won't wake up.
    worshipsleep worshipsleep 16-17, F Jan 6

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    Everyday

    I wake up everyday to I go to sleep my mind is planning to OD. I have been signed off work due to depression and anxiety no1 around me can understand what is going on in my head can't explain A) don't want to hurt B) can't find words. Tablets are the forefront for me I can't cut...
    nessyno nessyno 41-45, F 5 Responses Sep 25, 2013

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    And It's Right By Me.

    i won't go into detail about why i'm depressed and suicidal, but i have attempted it in the past. i'm not just "another moody teenager" looking for an easy way out because school has me stressed. this has been on my mind for a very long time and as i grew, the urge and desire to...
    aa040812 aa040812 16-17, F 4 Responses Apr 5, 2013

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    Ive Never Felt So Low

    Ive never felt so low in my entire life amd nothing seems to get better. I have tried to sort out what has gone wrong in my life and things just get worse! Ive recently split from my boyfriend of two years, he was my bestfriend who I told everything to and now hes gone and he...
    emmaleigh97 emmaleigh97 16-17 2 Responses Jul 16, 2013

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    Blackandpurplesissyfox Blackandpurplesissyfox 16-17, M 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Well

    i have thought of it+actually done so,(failed obviously)but with my health sucking,bills mounting,my various addictions,i honestly thought life wasnt worth living+that i wasnt strong enough to cope with my lifearguments with my b/f obviously push me to the edgeand i dont know...
    geekoftheweek geekoftheweek 26-30, F 5 Responses May 1, 2011

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