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I Have Thought About Taking An Overdose of Tablets

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    today was the worst day ever.

    mom has a whole cabinet of prescription meds. I dont think she'll miss em just like she wont miss me. I guess ill try tonight. whatd the worst that could happen?
    madisonlovesyou madisonlovesyou 13-15, F 4 Responses Nov 12

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    The only thing keeping me from it is the

    thoughts of my kids finding me. And I'm too depressed to get out of bed.
    squirrelbounce squirrelbounce 41-45, F 5 Responses Oct 29

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    Pills..

    Want pills.. Want suicide.. =(
    Suicide16 Suicide16 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 1, 2013

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    I Did More Than Just Think About It.

    I was 14 at the time I took an overdose of pills. I suppose I'd been planning it for a while but everytime I set a date, something always happened that made life seem worth living again. So then I would push the thoughts to the back of my mind for a while. But they always came...
    AmberRoth AmberRoth 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 14, 2009

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    To Everyone On This Experience.

    Please listen to me, I have experience this thought in the past and even acted on it. Since I'm typing right now and I am not a ghost you can assume that I did not succeed. But I was sick for a month after all, I couldn't eat or drink anything any time I did I threw up. I was...
    Megan1111 Megan1111 22-25, F 3 Responses May 22, 2011

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    Blackandpurplesissyfox Blackandpurplesissyfox 16-17, M 3 Responses Sep 14

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    I was very close earlier today of taking an

    overdose on my moms anti-depressants. I've been worried about a lot lately. Someone saved me today and I thank them so much!ūüėä
    ajl04 ajl04 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 4

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    This Is Happening 5 Months Ago

    Since September of last year until January of this year, I felt so so unbearably low. Depressed even. Maybe. I ate (just enough to get me staying alive), never went out, didnt study (wasnt interested in anything), got snappy at anything and anyone and with it a few panic attacks...
    Eamane Eamane 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 3, 2011

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    Tried For A Year To Do It

    after i got kicked out a high school i developed an addiction to tylenol PM's. I would take about 5 a mouthful and about 10-15 a night. every night i hoped i wouldn't wake up the next morning or night. i sometimes drugged myself right after waking up so i wouldn't have to be...
    CaptainJackass CaptainJackass 22-25, M 4 Responses Jan 31, 2011

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    most likely dont work.

    you will be alive. you want to experience chronic pain? this not a good idea. anywy, please dont kill yourself
    mstud17 mstud17 22-25, F Oct 30

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    My Heart Stopped!

    when i was 15 i OD on anti depressants. i was rushed to the hospital and on my way there my heart stopped twice. wheni got to the hospital they had to pump my stomach. im alive and well now. but it was the scariest thing in the world for my friends and family. suicide is not the...
    lovena17 lovena17 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 23, 2011

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    Mdma Overdose?

    In my hand right now i hold 5 grams of crystal MDMA, roughly the LD50 for someone my weight...things have fallen apart past the point of no return. What else can i do? A beautiful last song, familiar - Nils Frahm
    Rebound123 Rebound123 22-25, M 2 Responses Apr 25, 2013

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    I feel I have to post something here,

    because I thought about it and I did it. swallowed all 50 of them. Spent 11 days in hospital, in pain that I can't even begin to describe. I damaged my liver with all the pills. I wanted to die, I did it In the morning so I would be alone all day. It's not quick and it's not...
    0815Jade 0815Jade 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 24

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    Everyday

    I wake up everyday to I go to sleep my mind is planning to OD. I have been signed off work due to depression and anxiety no1 around me can understand what is going on in my head can't explain A) don't want to hurt B) can't find words. Tablets are the forefront for me I can't cut...
    nessyno nessyno 41-45, F 5 Responses Sep 25, 2013

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    I'm not trying to say to do this

    or telling you how by any means on how to OD. But I think it would be quite obviously if you took like 3 or 4 whole containers of something you will die... And if its more than that do something else.... It just seems people asking "how much will do it for sure?" Are just...
    TheAnonymousTroll TheAnonymousTroll 13-15, M Oct 29

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    There's Really No Reason Why..

    I don't know what's wrong with me. I have always had these thoughts, but never would I actually go through with it. I'm terrified of death and hell. I really have no reason to do it..I have a pretty decent life if I say so. I don't want to for attention, or pity, or anything. I...
    ciara96 ciara96 16-17, F Nov 4, 2011

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    I remember when I thought about overdosing.

    . I still do.. I'm thinking about it right now. Most people when I tell them this they say stop being selfish and trying to take your own life away. What the hell am I supposed to live for if my mother is dead, my dad's in jail, who innocent which i must add and i most likely...
    SPNPLL SPNPLL 16-17, F Jul 31

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    It's Not Good

    I took an overdose, when it hit me what i had done i went to hospital. I spent the next to with 4canulas in my arms and 2 drips, one with an andtidote to the cocktail of pills i had taken (mostly paracetamol, ibruprofen and betablockers) and one to dehydrate me. I was in hospital...
    Suviver Suviver 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 10, 2009

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    I Have Thought Of Ending It All

    When life gets rough, when my heart feels numb, when my regrets surround me, mocking me, making my head pound with negative thoughts...I too looked at the innocent white tablets on my table and wondered what would happen if I popped all of them at once. At times like those, I...
    DarkAngel123 DarkAngel123 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 20, 2010

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    A Close One

    The year before last was a particularly difficult one for me. Not sure why, but I became reclusive and never went out. Between December 2008 and July 2009, I hung out with friends a grand total of three times. I couldn't stand how I had gotten and had no idea how I got there. I...
    mistakenstrangers mistakenstrangers 22-25, M 2 Responses Feb 28, 2011

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    Pill Recommendations

    I am tried of living with all the pain and sadness my existence brings with it. I have planned my date for the end of this month and started working on a video to explain how sorry i am to my daughter.I have tried this before with bottles of wine and aspirin.  I passed out...
    jacqueline1972 jacqueline1972 36-40, T 4 Responses Jul 9, 2013

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    Pain Pills.

    I'm in so much pain. My medicine isn't working There's been many times I've thought of taking a handful of pain pills.
    jennamarie210 jennamarie210 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 20, 2013

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    It Was So Intense...

    i had contemplated suicide several times, but i had never gotten so close. so i was at school, and i was having a terrible day cause i hadn't heard from my boyfriend for a few days, and i was super stressed because of family problems. my classmates decided to tell me repeatedly...
    teenfantasy teenfantasy 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 2, 2012

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    A couple years ago I

    though about it. I actually had the tablets in my hand... I backed out though... Which was a good idea. I still get the urge to do it sometimes... But I'm defiantly not ever gonna do that. Hopefully.
    MusicJunkie6794 MusicJunkie6794 18-21, M 4 Responses Sep 12

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    I'm sick of this... Not sleeping at night!

    I'm so tired in the morning it makes it so hard to get out of bed!! :/ I'm so tired I just want to sleep. Or it to end... Either or works for me...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M Nov 10

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    Tried It A Few Times As Well

    The first time was some prescription meds for somethin or another. I got sick exactly 15 minutes later, and my parents werent too happy, altho they didnt find out the cause for a few days. Id just said it was the McDonalds earlier. I do it every so often now, taking a few extra...
    kingbrizo kingbrizo 18-21 Aug 4, 2013

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    But Not Terribly Seriously

    Yes, once or twice when things seemed at their very worst I have looked  at my bottle of Jim Beam and thought...'you know, Sara, that bottle and a bottle of pills and i would never have to face anything bad, ever again.' Then I think of the people who love me, of the future...
    SaratogaGirl SaratogaGirl 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 31, 2009

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    I Feel Like Overdosing Again

    I took an overdose of painkillers when I was thirteen. That was three years ago. Nothing happened, I woke up pretty ill the next day but I didn't die. I wanted to die, though. I wasn't happy to still be alive. I've been thinking about overdosing again. I can't cut my wrists...
    Lizzy7Wizzy Lizzy7Wizzy 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 10, 2013

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    Whoo...

    Well its my birthday officially... And I just want to kill myself.
    OneMoreDay8248 OneMoreDay8248 18-21, F 6 Responses Jul 17, 2013

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    Panadeine Forte And Painful Memories

    Yes. One night, I suddenly felt in a depressive mood. A lot had happened to set this off. I was, at that point in time, going through a lot. I had so much on my mind. I couldn't think properly. I felt a sense of hopelessness. I felt as if my life would never get better. I felt as...
    TheSimpsons8 TheSimpsons8 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 4, 2012

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    I've thought about overdosing before,

    but never brought myself to doing it. Does it hurt? I've heard it does. I never thought it would though, I though it would be like fainting. Where you go drowsy and just slowly fall asleep, but unlike fainting- you just won't wake up.
    worshipsleep worshipsleep 16-17, F Jan 6

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    Sarahsworldofpain Sarahsworldofpain 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 15

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    Except That It's Right Now.

    I don't know where else to go, who else to talk to. I'm out of people I can really talk to, I can't even talk to my boyfriend anymore. It just turns into fighting or whatever. I can't go on like this... the only peace of mind I get anymore is day-dreaming about how I'm going to...
    alicedarling alicedarling 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 28, 2012

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    Lately I've been depressed

    and suicidal. I'm already on medicine which I'm going to be on for the rest of my life. I couldn't get into the military because of that. The thoughts in my head tell me I should just get it over with and do it already. These thoughts tell me the most negative things. I've...
    Viciouspistols Viciouspistols 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 23

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    I guess I shouldn't say thought.

    I did try to overdose. it's a very good thing that what I took was harmless. I didn't know at the time, but hey, ignorance paid off.
    fallingintowonderrland fallingintowonderrland 16-17, F 3 Responses Oct 30

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    I HATE WHEN PEOPLE TELL ME THAT IT COULD BE

    WORSE! Telling someone they can't be sad because someone has it worse, is like telling someone they can't be happy because some one else is doing better...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 2

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    I start taking them but can never finish.

    The taste brings me back to reality.
    Alylovespuppies Alylovespuppies 18-21, F Sep 12

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    Spent the evening scrubbing my entire house

    hoping to distract me from the worst case of a breaking heart and now that I'm done and sitting down the pain is still there along with the physical pain. I got my sleeping pills refilled today and I can't help but wonder if I were to take all 30 pills if I can finally escape...
    SouthernBella89 SouthernBella89 22-25, F 5 Responses Nov 9

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    How much Restoril or Tamazepam does it take to

    do the job for sure. I don't want to risk failing yet another thing in my life.
    squirrelbounce squirrelbounce 41-45, F 3 Responses Oct 29

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    Something always stops me from taking an

    overdose on tablets. I don't know what it is and I don't know why. I just want the pain I am feeling to stop. I just want everything to stop. I'm sick of being alive. I'm sick of hurting and feeling useless. I have a bunch of tablets in my room and it's as if they are haunting...
    ThatTattooedGirl ThatTattooedGirl 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 12

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    What Did I Get Myself Into

    I cant decide what to do about this situation.Ive been cheecking meds for about a week to overdose.i have 11 pills and so ive managed to keep my mouth shut so far.The problem is i dont know how to hold water.And tommorow is my session with the therapist and i might tell her cause...
    Passionfruit3 Passionfruit3 22-25, F Apr 17, 2013

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    Ive Never Felt So Low

    Ive never felt so low in my entire life amd nothing seems to get better. I have tried to sort out what has gone wrong in my life and things just get worse! Ive recently split from my boyfriend of two years, he was my bestfriend who I told everything to and now hes gone and he...
    emmaleigh97 emmaleigh97 16-17 2 Responses Jul 16, 2013

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    I Actually Have.................

     In grade school I remember taking a whole bottle of aspirin.  Not long ago, I took a hand full of sleepers, and washed them down with vodka.    I can't tell you enough of the shame I have for that action. Not to mention the hurt it caused those I shared...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Sep 1, 2009

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    My First Attempt

    So seriously guys...it looks like a great way to go out...take a handful pills, and slip into a deep sleep...WELL...let me tell you first hand it's not at all that glamorous..first off, your body immediately  tries to get it out..by that I mean you start vomiting terribly...
    abbymay26 abbymay26 26-30, F 5 Responses May 31, 2012

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    Well

    i have thought of it+actually done so,(failed obviously)but with my health sucking,bills mounting,my various addictions,i honestly thought life wasnt worth living+that i wasnt strong enough to cope with my lifearguments with my b/f obviously push me to the edgeand i dont know...
    geekoftheweek geekoftheweek 26-30, F 5 Responses May 1, 2011

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    I Remember When I Was Tempted But It Disappeared Very Quickly

    I remember when i wanted to take an overdose tablets, i was so sick of feeling all this hurt and pain i had inside of meit was destroying me faster than the tide coming in.But then my best friend and older sister both took an overdose of tablets and both nearly died,losing both...
    UmbraEyes UmbraEyes 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 17, 2012

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    Something Always Stops Me

    I have thought multiple times about killing myself. I imagine taking a bunch a pills and never waking up. I wonder if my classmates would care. But every time I think about killing myself something stops me. I think of how my family would be affected. I think of what the future...
    bookworm36 bookworm36 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 25, 2013

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    Thought About It..and Sadly...tried a Few Times As Well.

    I would love to say that I have put all that nonsense behind me...but then I would be lying to all of you..and more importantly..myself. Even with all that I have..well..that doesn't make that deep dark seated pain go away..it just makes me hide it better. I've become a very good...
    luckypickle luckypickle 26-30 21 Responses Aug 31, 2009

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    It's days like today I regret not overdosing

    ages ago. That way I wouldn't have to suffer the way I am today. I wouldn't have to witness the love of my life play happy families or hear him be so rude and hurtful to me. The worst thing is he has no idea how he makes me feel. How much his words hurt or how much I love him...
    1BrokenWoman 1BrokenWoman 18-21 1 Response Nov 6

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    Sore Stomach

    About 20years ago i decided i had had enough of life and decided to take a lot of paracetomol. I then drove my car to a remote location and connected a hose to the exhaust and sat inside while the car smoked up. Well at some time through the event i passed out but saw my dead...
    BorisKindle BorisKindle 36-40, M 1 Response Apr 2, 2012

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    Blackout Od

    I have suffered from depression and Bipolar Disorder for most of my life, but until about 3 years ago never attempted to end my life. First I began cutting myself... though this wasn't to kill myself it was to stifle my seething rage and actually keep from hurting those...
    RavingRat RavingRat 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 4, 2009