I Have Thought About Taking An Overdose of Tablets

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    Blackandpurplesissyfox Blackandpurplesissyfox
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Sep 14, 2014

    Pain Pills.

    I'm in so much pain. My medicine isn't working There's been many times I've thought of taking a handful of pain pills.
    jennamarie210 jennamarie210
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Nov 20, 2013

    My Heart Stopped!

    when i was 15 i OD on anti depressants. i was rushed to the hospital and on my way there my heart stopped twice. wheni got to the hospital they had to pump my stomach. im alive and well now. but it was the scariest thing in the world for my friends and family. suicide is not the...
    lovena17 lovena17
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Jan 23, 2011

    I Remember When I Was Tempted But It Disappeared Very Quickly

    I remember when i wanted to take an overdose tablets, i was so sick of feeling all this hurt and pain i had inside of meit was destroying me faster than the tide coming in.But then my best friend and older sister both took an overdose of tablets and both nearly died,losing both...
    UmbraEyes UmbraEyes
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jun 17, 2012

    Something always stops me from taking an

    overdose on tablets. I don't know what it is and I don't know why. I just want the pain I am feeling to stop. I just want everything to stop. I'm sick of being alive. I'm sick of hurting and feeling useless. I have a bunch of tablets in my room and it's as if they are haunting...
    HannahElizabethLouise HannahElizabethLouise
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 12, 2014

    I've thought about overdosing before,

    but never brought myself to doing it. Does it hurt? I've heard it does. I never thought it would though, I though it would be like fainting. Where you go drowsy and just slowly fall asleep, but unlike fainting- you just won't wake up.
    worshipsleep worshipsleep
    18-21, F
    Jan 6, 2014

    I'm not trying to say to do this

    or telling you how by any means on how to OD. But I think it would be quite obviously if you took like 3 or 4 whole containers of something you will die... And if its more than that do something else.... It just seems people asking "how much will do it for sure?" Are just...
    TheAnonymousTroll TheAnonymousTroll
    16-17, M
    Oct 29, 2014

    A couple years ago I

    though about it. I actually had the tablets in my hand... I backed out though... Which was a good idea. I still get the urge to do it sometimes... But I'm defiantly not ever gonna do that. Hopefully.
    ACyanideSurprise ACyanideSurprise
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Sep 12, 2014

    Thought About It..and Sadly...tried a Few Times As Well.

    I would love to say that I have put all that nonsense behind me...but then I would be lying to all of you..and more importantly..myself. Even with all that I have..well..that doesn't make that deep dark seated pain go away..it just makes me hide it better. I've become a very good...
    luckypickle luckypickle
    26-30
    21 Responses Aug 31, 2009

    Except That It's Right Now.

    I don't know where else to go, who else to talk to. I'm out of people I can really talk to, I can't even talk to my boyfriend anymore. It just turns into fighting or whatever. I can't go on like this... the only peace of mind I get anymore is day-dreaming about how I'm going to...
    alicedarling alicedarling
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jun 28, 2012

    I Actually Have.................

     In grade school I remember taking a whole bottle of aspirin.  Not long ago, I took a hand full of sleepers, and washed them down with vodka.    I can't tell you enough of the shame I have for that action. Not to mention the hurt it caused those I shared...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Sep 1, 2009

    Everyday

    I wake up everyday to I go to sleep my mind is planning to OD. I have been signed off work due to depression and anxiety no1 around me can understand what is going on in my head can't explain A) don't want to hurt B) can't find words. Tablets are the forefront for me I can't cut...
    nessyno nessyno
    41-45, F
    4 Responses Sep 25, 2013

    Tried For A Year To Do It

    after i got kicked out a high school i developed an addiction to tylenol PM's. I would take about 5 a mouthful and about 10-15 a night. every night i hoped i wouldn't wake up the next morning or night. i sometimes drugged myself right after waking up so i wouldn't have to be...
    CaptainJackass CaptainJackass
    22-25, M
    4 Responses Jan 31, 2011

    I've overdosed several times.

    The last attempt was about a year ago. I took 70 extra strength Tylenol. There are times i wish that it would've killed me. I've been to a psych ward. It doesn't help, in my case it made it worse
    Ang012685 Ang012685
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Jul 5, 2015

    My First Attempt

    So seriously guys...it looks like a great way to go out...take a handful pills, and slip into a deep sleep...WELL...let me tell you first hand it's not at all that glamorous..first off, your body immediately  tries to get it out..by that I mean you start vomiting terribly...
    abbymay26 abbymay26
    26-30, F
    4 Responses May 31, 2012

    I start taking them but can never finish.

    The taste brings me back to reality.
    Alylovespuppies Alylovespuppies
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 12, 2014

    I think about this very often.

    Especially when I take my pills for the night.it's like rolling the dice.is the amount of pills that night going to be the right amount? Or will it be a happy accident.
    Chelsea1973 Chelsea1973
    41-45, F
    1 Response Nov 14, 2015
    Sarahsworldofpain Sarahsworldofpain
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Apr 15, 2014

    It's days like today I regret not overdosing

    ages ago. That way I wouldn't have to suffer the way I am today. I wouldn't have to witness the love of my life play happy families or hear him be so rude and hurtful to me. The worst thing is he has no idea how he makes me feel. How much his words hurt or how much I love him...
    1BrokenWoman 1BrokenWoman
    22-25
    1 Response Nov 6, 2014

    Who creates these groups?

    Workers for EP the Gov.?...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Nov 19, 2015

    A Close One

    The year before last was a particularly difficult one for me. Not sure why, but I became reclusive and never went out. Between December 2008 and July 2009, I hung out with friends a grand total of three times. I couldn't stand how I had gotten and had no idea how I got there. I...
    mistakenstrangers mistakenstrangers
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Feb 28, 2011

    To Everyone On This Experience.

    Please listen to me, I have experience this thought in the past and even acted on it. Since I'm typing right now and I am not a ghost you can assume that I did not succeed. But I was sick for a month after all, I couldn't eat or drink anything any time I did I threw up. I was...
    Megan1111 Megan1111
    22-25, F
    3 Responses May 22, 2011

    It Was So Intense...

    i had contemplated suicide several times, but i had never gotten so close. so i was at school, and i was having a terrible day cause i hadn't heard from my boyfriend for a few days, and i was super stressed because of family problems. my classmates decided to tell me repeatedly...
    teenfantasy teenfantasy
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Jun 2, 2012

    Sore Stomach

    About 20years ago i decided i had had enough of life and decided to take a lot of paracetomol. I then drove my car to a remote location and connected a hose to the exhaust and sat inside while the car smoked up. Well at some time through the event i passed out but saw my dead...
    BorisKindle BorisKindle
    36-40, M
    1 Response Apr 2, 2012

    today was the worst day ever.

    mom has a whole cabinet of prescription meds. I dont think she'll miss em just like she wont miss me. I guess ill try tonight. whatd the worst that could happen?
    mis18 mis18
    13-15, F
    5 Responses Nov 12, 2014

    Something Always Stops Me

    I have thought multiple times about killing myself. I imagine taking a bunch a pills and never waking up. I wonder if my classmates would care. But every time I think about killing myself something stops me. I think of how my family would be affected. I think of what the future...
    bookworm36 bookworm36
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 25, 2013

    The only thing keeping me from it is the

    thoughts of my kids finding me. And I'm too depressed to get out of bed.
    squirrelbounce squirrelbounce
    41-45, F
    5 Responses Oct 29, 2014

    I have not just thought about taking an

    overdose of tablets. I have tried to kill myself, by taking a bunch of medication three times. The 1st time, I didn't take enough meds, and I just had a really bad stomach ache for awhile, and wasn't feeling so well, the 2nd time. After swallowing the pills, I regretted it...
    HisLittleAriel HisLittleAriel
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jul 3, 2015

    This Is Happening 5 Months Ago

    Since September of last year until January of this year, I felt so so unbearably low. Depressed even. Maybe. I ate (just enough to get me staying alive), never went out, didnt study (wasnt interested in anything), got snappy at anything and anyone and with it a few panic attacks...
    Eamane Eamane
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 3, 2011

    It's Not Good

    I took an overdose, when it hit me what i had done i went to hospital. I spent the next to with 4canulas in my arms and 2 drips, one with an andtidote to the cocktail of pills i had taken (mostly paracetamol, ibruprofen and betablockers) and one to dehydrate me. I was in hospital...
    Suviver Suviver
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Sep 10, 2009

    Well

    i have thought of it+actually done so,(failed obviously)but with my health sucking,bills mounting,my various addictions,i honestly thought life wasnt worth living+that i wasnt strong enough to cope with my lifearguments with my b/f obviously push me to the edgeand i dont know...
    geekoftheweek geekoftheweek
    26-30, F
    4 Responses May 1, 2011

    I'm sick of this... Not sleeping at night!

    I'm so tired in the morning it makes it so hard to get out of bed!! :/ I'm so tired I just want to sleep. Or it to end... Either or works for me...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile
    22-25, M
    Nov 10, 2014

    Pills..

    Want pills.. Want suicide.. =(
    Suicide16 Suicide16
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 1, 2013

    Tried It A Few Times As Well

    The first time was some prescription meds for somethin or another. I got sick exactly 15 minutes later, and my parents werent too happy, altho they didnt find out the cause for a few days. Id just said it was the McDonalds earlier. I do it every so often now, taking a few extra...
    zydeko zydeko
    18-21
    Aug 4, 2013

    Panadeine Forte And Painful Memories

    Yes. One night, I suddenly felt in a depressive mood. A lot had happened to set this off. I was, at that point in time, going through a lot. I had so much on my mind. I couldn't think properly. I felt a sense of hopelessness. I felt as if my life would never get better. I felt as...
    TheSimpsons8 TheSimpsons8
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Aug 4, 2012

    Blackout Od

    I have suffered from depression and Bipolar Disorder for most of my life, but until about 3 years ago never attempted to end my life. First I began cutting myself... though this wasn't to kill myself it was to stifle my seething rage and actually keep from hurting those...
    RavingRat RavingRat
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Sep 4, 2009

    I was very close earlier today of taking an

    overdose on my moms anti-depressants. I've been worried about a lot lately. Someone saved me today and I thank them so much!😊
    ajl04 ajl04
    18-21, M
    1 Response Mar 4, 2014

    Lately I've been depressed

    and suicidal. I'm already on medicine which I'm going to be on for the rest of my life. I couldn't get into the military because of that. The thoughts in my head tell me I should just get it over with and do it already. These thoughts tell me the most negative things. I've...
    Viciouspistols Viciouspistols
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Nov 23, 2014

    I guess I shouldn't say thought.

    I did try to overdose. it's a very good thing that what I took was harmless. I didn't know at the time, but hey, ignorance paid off.
    fallingintowonderrland fallingintowonderrland
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Oct 30, 2014

    I just got home today,

    attempted suicide, so I had to go to the psych ward for quite a while. sorry to everyone who missed me, and I'm sorry that I'm suck a **** up, welcome back. :/
    Animelife300 Animelife300
    16-17, F
    1 Response Feb 28, 2015

    But Not Terribly Seriously

    Yes, once or twice when things seemed at their very worst I have looked  at my bottle of Jim Beam and thought...'you know, Sara, that bottle and a bottle of pills and i would never have to face anything bad, ever again.' Then I think of the people who love me, of the future...
    SaratogaGirl SaratogaGirl
    26-30, F
    1 Response Aug 31, 2009

    I HATE WHEN PEOPLE TELL ME THAT IT COULD BE

    WORSE! Telling someone they can't be sad because someone has it worse, is like telling someone they can't be happy because some one else is doing better...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile
    22-25, M
    1 Response Nov 2, 2014

    I have thought about this before,

    and other methods as well. But I don't think I would ever kill myself now because my life is finally starting to turn around.
    ErraticSarcastic ErraticSarcastic
    31-35, F
    Nov 19, 2015

    I've overdosed once on klonopin

    and mucinex dm one time when I was really high and woke up in the ICU and it was not fun. I was told I had a seizure and wouldn't wake up. I'm already an epileptic so I'm not sure if the seizures were from the OD of what. the second time I accidentally overdosed on dilaudid and...
    Viciouspistols Viciouspistols
    26-30, F
    Dec 2, 2015

    I feel I have to post something here,

    because I thought about it and I did it. swallowed all 50 of them. Spent 11 days in hospital, in pain that I can't even begin to describe. I damaged my liver with all the pills. I wanted to die, I did it In the morning so I would be alone all day. It's not quick and it's not...
    0815Jade 0815Jade
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Nov 24, 2014

    Pills Do Not Work !!!!!

    I came home from the hospital yesterday night. I am not sure why I was there in the first place, but needless to say, I was.I have this urge to just take all of my medication that I have left.  Even all of the medst that I no longer need to take just to stop the pain.The voices...
    3 Responses Feb 10, 2013

    I remember when I thought about overdosing.

    . I still do.. I'm thinking about it right now. Most people when I tell them this they say stop being selfish and trying to take your own life away. What the hell am I supposed to live for if my mother is dead, my dad's in jail, who innocent which i must add and i most likely...
    SPNPLL SPNPLL
    18-21, F
    Jul 31, 2014

    Only once but this was back

    when I was 21, I was already on a 2 year suspended sentence after 6 months home detention. I was peddling a few eccies at a rave one Saturday night. I was in the men's toilets after exchanging a few, a friend ran in and told me that there were cops inside with sniffer dogs. If I...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Aug 2, 2015

    How much Restoril or Tamazepam does it take to

    do the job for sure. I don't want to risk failing yet another thing in my life.
    squirrelbounce squirrelbounce
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Oct 29, 2014
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