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I Have Thoughts Of Murdering People

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    Wow

    I have been divorced over a year from a true narcissit. I have two teenage children. My ex has encouraged them to have nothing to do with me although I did nothing she has accused me of. My son will have no part of it. My daughter believes every story as they evolve to no...
    sammy20 sammy20 46-50 Nov 29, 2012

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    Dance With Me...

    Wiping your blood from my fingers an elegant dance I've begun to crave the taste succulent, warming shimmering blades tickle demise lightly shower my world with joy tingling your guilt cuts deep to trickle merrious melodies or screams I bow as if to say thank you for your...
    bdmthrfkr bdmthrfkr 31-35, F May 27, 2012

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    I Want To Know They Died Suffering

    I hope someone does kill my relativeshangings, chainsaw massacre or knifing I don't caremy fave one is them being on a plane or a rocket getting lost forever in space...the idea of a Concorde or plane getting lost in space sounds exciting to meor a lion dens massacre at the...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F 1 Response May 13, 2012

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    Should I Do It ?

    I heard him early that morning , i did, im positive i did  but i cant go to the police because of my fear of what he might do to me if was to find out im the one who reported him. It was around 2 am Monday morning, I was up preparing for an exam which i had few hours later. i...
    BlueFloraKae BlueFloraKae 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 15, 2013

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    ChrisHogan ChrisHogan 16-17, M 2 Responses Mar 30

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    But.....

    that is all they are, and all they would ever be. I guess its the creative side of me. Its not even like I target to murder someone, or even plan it, its just, I've had dreams, where I have commited murder before, and I think its just the dark side of me, but that is all they are...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 25, 2010

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    Murder

    The majority of my thoughts are based on murdering people. I've asked a really close friend about it and while she knows it's not right, she was really supportive when she talked to me about it. But I still feel like she doesn't understand. I want people to feel excruciating pain...
    Ns9erfan Ns9erfan 16-17, M 3 Responses Oct 20, 2013

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    does anyone else have a feeling

    that one day theyre just gonna murder someone?
    kinkykittymeow kinkykittymeow 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 15

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    does anybody else just get seriously intense

    urges to hurt or harm someone or something physically for no particular reason???
    bonedecay bonedecay 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 17

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    Hatred

    I have thought about killing my step father and his kids because they are so f ucking mean. They talk about me behind my back and make fun of my mental illnesses. They have made my life a lot more miserable. I would drug them and then torture them till they appologized and...
    SomewhereTomorrow SomewhereTomorrow 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 16, 2011

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    I woke up from a very realistic dream

    where I had carried out a murder of someone I have fantasized about at least 1,000 in my head. I was filled with excitement and passion and I tried to talk myself down and feel ashamed but I couldn't. I just felt empowered and even more in love with myself and what im becoming.
    Mercurylucidity Mercurylucidity 18-21, F 2 Responses May 25

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    ThoughtFulMoments ThoughtFulMoments 36-40, F 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    [filler: my entire life I've been on medicine and at one point I had hallucinations and anxiety so there's a part of my life that is confusing to look back at.] I've been having...
    Nanders01 Nanders01 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 21

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    So I'm married...but have a huge crush on my Professor ....ugh, the mind goes into these thoughts...like way too deep..my heart beats so hard around him that I sense he can see my...
    NotVibrant NotVibrant 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 29

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    I feel really bad im this way now, it makes me feel like a crappy person, but ive had so many bad experiences with people that its really genuinely hard to change that way of...
    shinjorai shinjorai 36-40, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Characterize people by their actions. Then you'll no longer be fooled by their words .
    DaddysCupcake DaddysCupcake 26-30, F Sep 26

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    If I trust a person and they betray my trust they just might as well be dead to me. With that being said there are few people in this world that I actually trust and if you have my...
    SuckMyAwesome SuckMyAwesome 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    I just think about random things at night which keeps up and I just want to fall into a deep sleep
    andreaespe andreaespe 18-21, F Sep 20

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    Jeez...I seriously thought this immature crush would stop..but I can't stop Thimphu about my professor..is it the fact that he is educating me that's so 'romantic'? I can't stop...
    NotVibrant NotVibrant 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 10

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    After being hurt. Duh. Lol
    Livyn4pals Livyn4pals 46-50, M 21 hrs ago

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    I am so glad people can't read my thoughts! Some people who I would love to sleep with don't need to know that I think of them like that as often as I do!
    jerseyboy93 jerseyboy93 18-21, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    I have apologized for people being human. It was a half-assed apology, but that doesn't really matter because I don't think it was necessary to apologize for someone's state of...
    Friability Friability 18-21 1 Response a week ago

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    My faith in God has been all over the place for a few years now. I have considered myself Christian for all of my life, but for a few years I have been leaning on being agnostic...
    JadedDivinity JadedDivinity 18-21, F Oct 4

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    It is true! Sometimes I tame it with exercise . But I enjoy reading and elaborating on my thoughts. Most of the time I enjoy and provide a healthy course to my attention deficit...
    breathingeasy breathingeasy 41-45, M 1 Response Oct 6

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    I have met many people in my life. I liked some of them, but did not like others. I have always been nice to people, and when I have met people I have liked, I have tried to stay...
    s4019t s4019t 26-30, M Sep 22

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    I was diagnosed at the age of 11. It is now just a few months shy of 10 years. Been a long and bumpy 10 years filled with medications, both crazy and fantastic doctors, days of...
    happyinmyskin happyinmyskin 18-21, F Sep 24

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    you see, i have issues with people saying this to me, cos its like, when i don't smile,people tell me to smile,even though iv'e no reason to,then at times when i do smile, people...
    cowshed123 cowshed123 31-35, M 1 Response Sep 28

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    Let me start this off by saying I have nothing against people who have worked hard to get to where they are & are humble about it. What I don't like is people that get successful...
    DaCreativeChild DaCreativeChild 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    I am very emotionally closed off and find it close to impossible to let people get close. That's because I am aware of the fact that I have problems with people and I cannot...
    ultimatehacker ultimatehacker 26-30, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    It's real hell to live with it.I can't make friends,i have hard time talking to some people,i avoid eye contact,i walk around in circles all the time,i shake my hands,twirl my...
    00pleasehelpme00 00pleasehelpme00 18-21 2 Responses Sep 21

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    I want to have conversations with people. I want to befriend them. I want to learn about their lives and what they enjoy doing. But I never seem to know how to go about it. I...
    modinski modinski 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 21

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    In my life i was born to be a noce person i tend to care about people i get attached to alot actually quite protective always seemed to give love even tho i didnt always get it...
    Queen1993 Queen1993 18-21, F Sep 28

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    The time will come when i leave this world wonder if i have touched enough peoples lives to be missed or the people that take me for granted will realize how much i was worth
    dom8869 dom8869 22-25, M Oct 9

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    Well this isn't just to make people feel sorry for me , I really have to say this to someone( I don't have any) . Generally people , even if I haven't met them before hates me. It...
    prophet558 prophet558 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 12

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    Rejection - I have kept losing people. Many of them have walked out on me or betrayed me. They have hurt me too much. I should have seen through their masks and lies. Now I am too...
    SomewhereTomorrow SomewhereTomorrow 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I always have problems trusting people and now I don't trust my boyfriend.. I don't know what's wrong but I've been like this since I was young. Someone give so e advice pls?
    nerdylizz nerdylizz 18-21, F 6 Responses Oct 5

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    For real this time my heart is sealed! Forever. I sincerely apologize if I've caused a lot of trouble and nuisance here and also have hurt other people's feelings somehow. It's my...
    Concerto Concerto 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 10

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    I'm glad I have so many people in my life. True friends who aren't afraid to show there who they really are. I didn't have too many friends growing up but one guy friend I've met...
    drinksandflowers drinksandflowers 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 12

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    I don't have time for people who don't have time for me! I don't want to hear it!
    ChrisErizo1 ChrisErizo1 31-35, M 4 days ago

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    I'm going to be honest here, but I hate seeing that I have a private message on here. I never reply to anyone and I just end up deleting the message anyway. I just cleaned out my...
    Gemz2411 Gemz2411 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 6

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    9.5/10 Pros: it works fast, is very handy, has great battery life after charge, has 110 GB of storage after the required 14.4 GB needed to run the system, App Store and iTunes...
    ThereIsNoName ThereIsNoName 31-35, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Seriously, I'm pretty sure if people could read my thoughts I'd be arrested. For example, I wish I could flush my neighbors' baby down the toilet. I really do. I HATE the f***ing...
    Wack10 Wack10 31-35, M 6 Responses Sep 22

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    Accepting others as they are is key! I enjoy learning how other people see the world, so many different perspectives. If we are only stuck to liking one type of people then you...
    Moniqueismyname1 Moniqueismyname1 18-21, F 6 Responses Sep 29

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    Hm IF i were hugged, would i have the courage to hug back? Hm or would i just make a joke? Hm and how would u know when u like-like someone and isnt just a wrong thought? Hm i have...
    Crossfire14 Crossfire14 13-15, M 4 hrs ago

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    If my wife (if I had one) ever asked me if love her with all my heart, I would reply, "No, because I can't just have you in my heart but also myself, my family, and all those who...
    TheTofuMaster TheTofuMaster 22-25, M 4 hrs ago

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    Do you ever think about those "almost relationships"? The ones where you meet someone, click, feelings start to develop and then it just stops. It's over before it even had the...
    diablesse34 diablesse34 46-50, F 13 Responses 1 hr ago

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    I keep having raunchy sex fantasies about my straight roommate even though I really am not attracted to him. If I were to have the opportunity I would be grossed out.
    tk1207 tk1207 22-25, M 22 mins ago

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    I'm not sure if I'm really glad about this. I am sometimes, but not always. My huge problem is the way I think. The way I think about people and their opinions (about me...
    Wejlo Wejlo 16-17, M 3 Responses Oct 1

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