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I Have Thoughts Of Murdering People

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    Murder

    The majority of my thoughts are based on murdering people. I've asked a really close friend about it and while she knows it's not right, she was really supportive when she talked to me about it. But I still feel like she doesn't understand. I want people to feel excruciating pain...
    Ns9erfan Ns9erfan 18-21, M 5 Responses Oct 20, 2013

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    Dance With Me...

    Wiping your blood from my fingers an elegant dance I've begun to crave the taste succulent, warming shimmering blades tickle demise lightly shower my world with joy tingling your guilt cuts deep to trickle merrious melodies or screams I bow as if to say thank you for your...
    bdmthrfkr bdmthrfkr 31-35, F May 27, 2012

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    I play out murdering people in my head

    and see and imagine every detail of how I would from tormenting first then slowlt killing them so precisely to which too savor their screams and holding them close to watch their souls leave their eyes as they gargle on their blood or bleed out. but unfortunately it's illegal...
    ChildOfLilith ChildOfLilith 22-25, M Mar 18

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    I never really would act on these

    and I definitely didn't ask for them but I don't hate the thoughts either because they're just thoughts. I really think of this only when it comes to a vile human being. I also have dreams about murdering if I really dislike someone. I think it's a stress relief thing.
    Allforaview Allforaview 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 13

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    Should I Do It ?

    I heard him early that morning , i did, im positive i did  but i cant go to the police because of my fear of what he might do to me if was to find out im the one who reported him. It was around 2 am Monday morning, I was up preparing for an exam which i had few hours later. i...
    BlueFloraKae BlueFloraKae 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 15, 2013

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    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 30

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    I want to kill my mother.

    she's a verbally abusive woman who yells at me for 3 hours because I didn't do the dishes. she even yelled at me when I was crying in front of relatives, And this was 10 minutes after my dog got ran over by a car. I just wanna get my belt and strangle her.
    Darcy616 Darcy616 22-25, M Dec 2, 2014

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    does anyone else have a feeling

    that one day theyre just gonna murder someone?
    kinkykittymeow kinkykittymeow 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 15, 2014

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    i really want to kill my mother's ex

    because he have made so much bas things in my and my family's life, I fantasy about killing him
    hope02345 hope02345 13-15, F Jan 23

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    I've been having thoughts about murdering my

    entire family. I always feel like this every second of the day. I just want to take my father's gun a shoot every single one of them in the head while they are sleeping... But these are just my thoughts, I never really would act on these..... But, ****!! I just feel like...
    SunshineAnderson13 SunshineAnderson13 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 19

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    I Want To Know They Died Suffering

    I hope someone does kill my relativeshangings, chainsaw massacre or knifing I don't caremy fave one is them being on a plane or a rocket getting lost forever in space...the idea of a Concorde or plane getting lost in space sounds exciting to meor a lion dens massacre at the...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F 1 Response May 13, 2012

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    Nothing serious! Just a fantasy of a random

    tree falling on my ex husband. No I don't own a chainsaw
    CallmeHopelessNotRomantic CallmeHopelessNotRomantic 36-40, F 2 Responses Dec 2, 2014

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    But.....

    that is all they are, and all they would ever be. I guess its the creative side of me. Its not even like I target to murder someone, or even plan it, its just, I've had dreams, where I have commited murder before, and I think its just the dark side of me, but that is all they are...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 25, 2010

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    Wow

    I have been divorced over a year from a true narcissit. I have two teenage children. My ex has encouraged them to have nothing to do with me although I did nothing she has accused me of. My son will have no part of it. My daughter believes every story as they evolve to no...
    sammy20 sammy20 46-50 Nov 29, 2012

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    does anybody else just get seriously intense

    urges to hurt or harm someone or something physically for no particular reason???
    bonedecay bonedecay 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 17, 2014

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    I woke up from a very realistic dream

    where I had carried out a murder of someone I have fantasized about at least 1,000 in my head. I was filled with excitement and passion and I tried to talk myself down and feel ashamed but I couldn't. I just felt empowered and even more in love with myself and what im becoming.
    Mercurylucidity Mercurylucidity 18-21, F 2 Responses May 25, 2014

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    Hatred

    I have thought about killing my step father and his kids because they are so f ucking mean. They talk about me behind my back and make fun of my mental illnesses. They have made my life a lot more miserable. I would drug them and then torture them till they appologized and...
    SomewhereTomorrow SomewhereTomorrow 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 16, 2011

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    ChrisHogan ChrisHogan 16-17, M 2 Responses Mar 30, 2014

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