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I Have Thoughts Of Murdering People

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    I want to kill my mother.

    she's a verbally abusive woman who yells at me for 3 hours because I didn't do the dishes. she even yelled at me when I was crying in front of relatives, And this was 10 minutes after my dog got ran over by a car. I just wanna get my belt and strangle her.
    Darcy616 Darcy616 22-25, M Dec 2, 2014

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    But.....

    that is all they are, and all they would ever be. I guess its the creative side of me. Its not even like I target to murder someone, or even plan it, its just, I've had dreams, where I have commited murder before, and I think its just the dark side of me, but that is all they are...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 25, 2010

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    I Want To Know They Died Suffering

    I hope someone does kill my relativeshangings, chainsaw massacre or knifing I don't caremy fave one is them being on a plane or a rocket getting lost forever in space...the idea of a Concorde or plane getting lost in space sounds exciting to meor a lion dens massacre at the...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F 1 Response May 13, 2012

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    ChrisHogan ChrisHogan 16-17, M 1 Response Mar 30, 2014

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    I'm 15 years old. I guess you could call me a

    Nihilist.. Someone who doesn't value life or anyones elses. Someone who thinks life has no meaning but can still be happy. SO basically, I have these insane, murderous tendencies that I can't control. My other side takes control and loves torture and killing things. I wouldn't...
    ThatOnePerson5467 ThatOnePerson5467 13-15, M 3 Responses May 25

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    i really want to kill my mother's ex

    because he have made so much bas things in my and my family's life, I fantasy about killing him
    hope02345 hope02345 13-15, F Jan 23

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    I play out murdering people in my head

    and see and imagine every detail of how I would from tormenting first then slowlt killing them so precisely to which too savor their screams and holding them close to watch their souls leave their eyes as they gargle on their blood or bleed out. but unfortunately it's illegal...
    ChildOfLilith ChildOfLilith 26-30, M Mar 18

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    does anyone else have a feeling

    that one day theyre just gonna murder someone?
    kinkykittymeow kinkykittymeow 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 15, 2014

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    I never really would act on these

    and I definitely didn't ask for them but I don't hate the thoughts either because they're just thoughts. I really think of this only when it comes to a vile human being. I also have dreams about murdering if I really dislike someone. I think it's a stress relief thing.
    Allforaview Allforaview 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 13

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    I've been having thoughts about murdering my

    entire family. I always feel like this every second of the day. I just want to take my father's gun a shoot every single one of them in the head while they are sleeping... But these are just my thoughts, I never really would act on these..... But, ****!! I just feel like...
    SunshineH13 SunshineH13 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 19

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    Should I Do It ?

    I heard him early that morning , i did, im positive i did  but i cant go to the police because of my fear of what he might do to me if was to find out im the one who reported him. It was around 2 am Monday morning, I was up preparing for an exam which i had few hours later. i...
    BlueFloraKae BlueFloraKae 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 15, 2013

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    IWantToBeBadlyTortured IWantToBeBadlyTortured 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 11

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    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 30

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    I want to do it so bad,

    right now! Not just take you, but own you, and use you, destroy you-not your body but your mind, your soul. I want to shatter every confidence, every hope and dream, and feed off your happiness, pull it into me with your flesh. And when theres nothing left of your soul/mind I...
    JamieMostra JamieMostra 26-30, T Apr 28

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    I have a doll house fantasy with my apartment

    complex. Where I would go into everyone's home the middle of the night when they were all asleep, and quietly as possible kill them, dress them, and place them about the house - dad on the couch, wife in the kitchen, kid in the bath tub. & I would do this un every single...
    HeyThereHeather HeyThereHeather 26-30, F 1 Response May 7

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    does anybody else just get seriously intense

    urges to hurt or harm someone or something physically for no particular reason???
    bonedecay bonedecay 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 17, 2014

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    Murder

    The majority of my thoughts are based on murdering people. I've asked a really close friend about it and while she knows it's not right, she was really supportive when she talked to me about it. But I still feel like she doesn't understand. I want people to feel excruciating pain...
    Ns9erfan Ns9erfan 18-21, M 6 Responses Oct 20, 2013

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    Wow

    I have been divorced over a year from a true narcissit. I have two teenage children. My ex has encouraged them to have nothing to do with me although I did nothing she has accused me of. My son will have no part of it. My daughter believes every story as they evolve to no...
    sammy20 sammy20 46-50 Nov 29, 2012

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    Hatred

    I have thought about killing my step father and his kids because they are so f ucking mean. They talk about me behind my back and make fun of my mental illnesses. They have made my life a lot more miserable. I would drug them and then torture them till they appologized and...
    SomewhereTomorrow SomewhereTomorrow 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 16, 2011

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    Dance With Me...

    Wiping your blood from my fingers an elegant dance I've begun to crave the taste succulent, warming shimmering blades tickle demise lightly shower my world with joy tingling your guilt cuts deep to trickle merrious melodies or screams I bow as if to say thank you for your...
    bdmthrfkr bdmthrfkr 31-35, F May 27, 2012

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    I woke up from a very realistic dream

    where I had carried out a murder of someone I have fantasized about at least 1,000 in my head. I was filled with excitement and passion and I tried to talk myself down and feel ashamed but I couldn't. I just felt empowered and even more in love with myself and what im becoming.
    Mercurylucidity Mercurylucidity 18-21, F 3 Responses May 25, 2014

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    Nothing serious! Just a fantasy of a random

    tree falling on my ex husband. No I don't own a chainsaw
    CallmeHopelessNotRomantic CallmeHopelessNotRomantic 36-40, F 2 Responses Dec 2, 2014

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