I Have Thoughts

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    It's raining. Who's the first person I think of

    when I wake up? Him. He's giving me attention, talks to me a lot at work (but he's really just talkative), compliments me, tells me he likes me and i'm beautiful in his eyes. I don't want to fall for him though. Don't think I could allow myself to get to the point of being MORE...
    endlessl0ve endlessl0ve
    26-30, F
    Nov 16, 2015

    My Contradiction....

    The strands of my hair remind me of weeds that have grown in abundant, They have began to twist and turn in on themselves creating an effect similair to that of an attic cobweb. when my fingers find the need to devle into this arrangment of head hair the split ended...
    Toa2You Toa2You
    18-21, F
    Sep 6, 2009

    It's a little too obvious he likes me.

    But I like that he likes me. I like the attention. I like the feeling of being wanted. And desired. And liked and/or loved. It's a great feeling. Will it be reciprocated in return? I don't know. I don't know if I should fall for him. I like talking to him though. He's cool to be...
    endlessl0ve endlessl0ve
    26-30, F
    Nov 23, 2015

    You Can't Have Them

    Inasmuch as I would love to box up all these thoughts and put them on a train to nowhere, that just isn't going to happen. I would like to give them all away some days, but who would decide who gets stuck with what? Good or bad.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    May 8, 2011

    thoughts i maybe should not have,

    but i cant help, they are there and they ae in my brain.
    CuriousMeli CuriousMeli
    13-15, F
    Feb 9, 2015

    Broken Heart Syndrome is real.

    SO happy I DiDN'T GET THAT! But I was HEARTBROKEN for MANY, MANY months. It took another guy to help me forget and keep me distracted but that dude - he left too. He wants to be friends now but nahhh. Imma make him feel how I did.... A$*H0L3. Anyways . . Thank you to him...
    endlessl0ve endlessl0ve
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Feb 3

    He has 3 kids. Divorced.

    From a different culture than I am but with similarities in culture. Ambitious. Family-oriented. NOT boring to talk to. Nice. A good father to his children. - He has a baby mama though. Who, from his stories, I don't wanna deal with. I am 5 years younger than him. Which isn't...
    endlessl0ve endlessl0ve
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Nov 23, 2015

    Life can be overwhelming at times.

    Or maybe it's just the emotions whirling inside of me. I need a vacation. I need a break. Can't wait for this week (and next week) to be over with. Hoping for the best. Planning for the best. Wishing for good things. Trying to be positive regardless of any negative circumstances...
    endlessl0ve endlessl0ve
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Dec 8, 2015

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