I Have To Fight For Myself Cuz Theres No Other Way Out

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    Don't call me a saint because I'm twice as f*cked as you are. My thoughts are unhealthy, I want to save the world/destroy it. I verge on a mixture of narcissistic and self...
    Fuzzies Fuzzies
    61-65, M
    1 Response Apr 20
    I havee. I can't say they are my best friends now, but when they were, oh boy did we do some stupid stuff! I think it's only right I end my time here on EP with a positive, fun...
    TheMasterMan1 TheMasterMan1
    16-17, M
    Apr 20
    certain of uncertainty getting fkd by the disease i deny but love secretly waking up and preaching myself to stay away from the end wrapped around in disappointment how...
    anotherclone anotherclone
    31-35, M
    Apr 20
    This isn't I like to talk about mainly... So I guess it began last year. I met her and tbh she seemed like she couldn't cause any harm. I was 14, she was a bit younger. We just...
    DamageKey DamageKey
    41-45, M
    1 Response Apr 20
    Hi, my name is *CENSORED* and I am 15. i know right, so young. Anyways, I know what depression feels like. I know what feeling empty and dead feels like. I know what being sad all...
    VanillaMarshmallow VanillaMarshmallow
    13-15, F
    Apr 20
    Do guys also fight for the girl they love or they just always play it cool and let it slide? :/ I was listening to this song about a guy who'll fight for the girl he loves and he...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Apr 20
    Do guys also fight for the girl they love or they just always play it cool and let it slide? :/ I was listening to this song about a guy who'll fight for the girl he loves and he...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 20
    This will be the last time I ever post something on EP, and it seems fitting that it emanates from the account that started it all for me. I'm not sure I can class myself as a...
    Alania21 Alania21
    22-25, M
    Apr 20
    How was I forgotten and replaced so quickly...
    ITmonkey ITmonkey
    31-35, M
    1 Response Apr 19
    # 17. Hope. What a small word, yet the world spins around it. Every person lives with it. And me, I'm surely one of them. Here I am stuck with poor grades. Stuck with the...
    Abi936 Abi936
    22-25, M
    Apr 19
    It's not hard to love me, but it's obviously hard to stay in love with me... I have ****** up every relationship I've ever had including friendships, family bonds, just everything...
    Baer2113 Baer2113
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Apr 19
    # 15. How times change in a matter of years. My friend, I just can't stop texting her like 3 years or so back. Always texting! Sharing every detail. Like what's for breakfast...
    Abi936 Abi936
    22-25, M
    Apr 19
    I have absolutely no idea how to start conversations or just not be awkward in general. I blame it all on my last 3 years of high school. I went from a public high school of 400...
    chasingsunsets chasingsunsets
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Apr 18
    Time goes by, But pain is still here deep in my heart. Someday it rains, another the sun shines bright, But everything looks so grey to me now. I knew that some would win and some...
    livingdeadsoul61 livingdeadsoul61
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 17
    Friend: Xbox His crush: C So anyway, my friend Xbox has a huge crush on another friend of mine, C. He hasn't told anyone because he's really afraid of getting hate. Anyway, I...
    EridianaAndErin EridianaAndErin
    13-15, F
    Apr 16
    Here's something that's been bothering me. Why do people do this? I don't understand the mentality that drives someone, anyone to cling on to emotionally abusive individuals. From...
    themanoflegends themanoflegends
    26-30, M
    3 Responses Apr 16
    I have a bf and he is four years older than me. We have been in a secret relationship for two years now and we can't imagine losing one another. The problem now is that my parents...
    averagegirl03 averagegirl03
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Apr 16
    Something that has been weighing heavy on my heart in this age old fight for equality. I am curious as to how you guys feel about my feels. If you disagree, do so objectively, and...
    Dreambrother Dreambrother
    18-21, F
    Apr 15
    Even though I've some hoe kept it together and stayed clean, I realize I manage to find other ways of self-harm. It's almost like there will never be a time where it can stop...
    Gemini0619 Gemini0619
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 15
    lesson pounded into myself over and over again throughout the years. that I am the kind of guy who's going to spend most of his life ammounting to nothing. ill right long and...
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer
    46-50, M
    1 Response Apr 14
    EVER REMEMBER THIS - - > JESUS LOVES YOU.
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    16-17, M
    Apr 14
    My family is broken. My parents absolutely DESPISE each other but they wont get a divorce. It's such an open subject to talk about because they just hate each other so much and...
    nevergoingtousethis nevergoingtousethis
    16-17, F
    Apr 14
    So, a lot of you are wondering what really happened with me and Bon...my maths teacher. Its simple. Nothing. Its been months since I started to have feelings for him, and to say it...
    Cizzy Cizzy
    16-17, F
    Apr 14
    # 10 I just finished doing my assignment due in the morning and uploaded it. I wanted to have a quick scroll through ep and came. But I saw a question that made me think. It's...
    Abi936 Abi936
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Apr 14
    Going into freshman year of college, I expected it to be one of the best times of my life. Quite the contrary, in fact I've gone through some of my lowest points this year. If...
    SMA13 SMA13
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Apr 13
    I had a best friend and he hired me to work for him. I did and when I did he started hitting on me. I felt sorry for him bc I knew his marriage sucked so I let it roll off my...
    ceg333 ceg333
    36-40, F
    Apr 13
    This guy wants me to join his religion, but he has pretty much turned into a mindless zombie. It is actually kind of scary. I think I will stay a heathen if it means I can make my...
    ErraticSarcastic ErraticSarcastic
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Apr 13
    i hate myself so much. theres no words to experience how much i want to ******* die all of the time, i fantasise about jumping in front of cars and trains all the time just to get...
    goodgonegirl goodgonegirl
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Apr 12
    So I currently am in a situation where she isn't sure about us and if we should continue talking and getting to know each other. Granted it's over a minor issue that has been made...
    MiamiMexirican MiamiMexirican
    41-45, M
    2 Responses Apr 12
    I'm writing , actually typing this letter to you because I need closure in my life. I didn't expect you to break up with me. I wonder if you still love me.I have so much to tell...
    auntwinnie auntwinnie
    22-25, F
    Apr 12
    Why do I always go through this. You know when you really care about someone and they mean everything to you. Those people who impact your life unexpectedly. I fell in love with...
    Thelostsoulslasthope Thelostsoulslasthope
    13-15, F
    Apr 12
    Taught right, Act right, Do right, Be right, Been told this my whole life. Observe much, Look close, See beauty within the small things in life, Hold close o what's good, Let go...
    sillysweetgirl9 sillysweetgirl9
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 11
    I was friends with these two other girls, A and B. One would say we were the bestest of friends since form 1 to 3. However, during our form three years, there was another addition...
    lunamcmxcix lunamcmxcix
    16-17, F
    Apr 11
    **Not Feeling Helpless Anymore - Gaining Control Of My Anxiety And Thoughts** Hey guys, I'm relatively new to this thread but I looove the support this community has. Wish I found...
    SyazKhan SyazKhan
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Apr 10
    I suppose this is where I can speak freely, not revealing my identity. Honestly, writing about my life, a stupid, sob story, I feel skeptical about it. Not knowing if anyone cares...
    Aselfconsciousturtle Aselfconsciousturtle
    13-15, F
    Apr 10
    (I refer this to Christians going through TRIALS or/and TEMPTATIONS, lest a fellow wishes to wrongly counter the write-up)  Dear Christians and whomever this may concern, God...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    16-17, M
    Apr 10
    Thanks to my depression, bpd and other stuff i have found myself crying myself to sleep. It's even worse since my parents, and sister don't know about it when i try to tell them i...
    KittyLoverForever KittyLoverForever
    13-15, F
    Apr 10
    Lately, I have been forced yet again to ride PTSDs roller coaster ride of craziness. The past how many days truly tested my smile. It didn't steal it however. I started having...
    loveismyfriend loveismyfriend
    36-40, F
    1 Response Apr 9
    Have you ever been paralyzed with fear? I used to feel that way often when I was younger. It's one of the worst feelings in the world, you couldn't be more helpless. Your body goes...
    RoastedCycki RoastedCycki
    70+, F
    3 Responses Apr 9
    This is my story. It is long, but I hope you all can relate to it. A year ago I went on a catholic retreat called Kairos and I gave a speech on my ideals and how to find them and...
    cmom96 cmom96
    18-21, F
    Apr 9
    Dont know when it started. I had become an emotional nightmare over the last year or so. I know it started when I just started to cry over all kinds of family deaths. Not when they...
    boldtimer boldtimer
    66-70, M
    Apr 8
    Over the years I have lost myself plenty of times in games, people, hobbies, etc. When I fall for something it's hard to combine it with anything else, but it does feel great until...
    Gentle153 Gentle153
    26-30, M
    3 Responses Apr 8
    I have whipped myself up into a tornado of feelings and emotions . I am trapped in a life with no way out. And the door to freedom comes at a price. The cost of respect, family and...
    Issima Issima
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Apr 8
    I'm a 20 year old male college student and I'm not sure what I'm feeling right now, especially since I always assumed that I was 100% straight. Coming from a pretty religious...
    ProxyVox ProxyVox
    18-21, M
    5 Responses Apr 7
    I've been in love before. I was in love for three years with the same wonderful man. Sadly, I still love him. We clicked from the beginning. It was so easy with him. Everything...
    Anonylyn Anonylyn
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 7
    The only man to have touched me in the last year has been the trainer at the gym. I don't do anything fancy, I just discovered the free classes that no one takes advantage of and I...
    ijustneed2talk ijustneed2talk
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Apr 7
    I'm going to be 44 years old this month. A month before my16th birthday my beloved Grandmother died. No sweet 16. My family thought it would be in inappropriate. When I turned 18...
    18776J 18776J
    41-45, F
    Apr 7
    1. I'm 15 2. I love animals 3. I play the piano 4. I draw portraits 5. I am a smoker 6. I'm recovering from depression, bpd and drug addiction 7. I can't handle people being mean...
    hannahgr hannahgr
    13-15, F
    Apr 7
    I'm a certified weirdo and I'm cool with that. For all the weird things I do there's always a point or a lesson. I'm a lil eccentric but I love me for me and I honestly wouldn't...
    whoshookya whoshookya
    31-35, F
    Apr 7
    Bad experiences coming out as DID: Family (at first!!) *Some* people at school (but I didn't really come out to them I guess, they just noticed or something) Fiancé's family...
    Indigo27 Indigo27
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 7
    I need some encouragement as I used to be anorexic years ago and then went the other way and got really fat. I didn't eat for nearly a whole day then my BF made me eat. I need some...
    KatieeB KatieeB
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 6
    I've had depression since I was child, but my Dr suspects I may have had adhd first which then may have triggered the depression. I wasn't officially diagnosed until I was 19 but i...
    babydoll73 babydoll73
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 6
    07/04/2016 - Not everyone believes in this though and even the ones who say it don't actually mean it. Most of the ones I know aren't always fighters, they tend to just give up...
    shecanonlydream shecanonlydream
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Apr 6
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    EternityF EternityF
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 6
    Ran across this site while looking for some information & feel like it would be worth it to at least put 1 post out there & say hi. Basically, I am 38 single mom of a teenager but...
    meowkittys2002 meowkittys2002
    36-40, F
    7 Responses Apr 6
    I'm 28 years old, and I cannot express how much I hate having this. I feel like it's taking over my life. My friends say to think of other stuff, but as you all know it's almost...
    Rissa404 Rissa404
    26-30, F
    Apr 5
    Like i like to be alone way too much i feel guilty and inept. Even as a kid i force myself hard to be extroverted/more out there the wrong way even now I need to be more trusting...
    vivianescrooge vivianescrooge
    22-25
    Apr 5
    Sometimes the only thing worth fighting for is Love
    ollifer ollifer
    36-40, F
    Apr 5
    my baby fever is at an all-time high and my relationship is at an all-time low... we work different shifts and never get to see each other, we started fighting more than normal. my...
    4lynlover 4lynlover
    22-25
    1 Response Apr 5
    WARNING: Bad language... Wowzers. I have had so many girls I know be b_i_t_c_h_e_s to me! NOTE>I will now refer to this word as BEP. 1. There was once this girl, Pouthorley, who...
    YassIknowHowYouFeel YassIknowHowYouFeel
    22-25
    1 Response Apr 5
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