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I Have to Find Myself Again

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    How Do You Realize What's Changed About Yourself?

    My best friend says I've changed, and she wouldn't tell me how. I really don't know what I've changed about myself or what is different. As much as I try to think about myself and everything that I've gone through with her, I can't seem to figure it out. Is there really a way to...
    LionssDen LionssDen 18-21 Oct 23, 2012

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    How Can You Find Yourself When Your True Self Has Been Robbed Away From You?

    After almost 10 years of domestic violence, and 2 more years to realize I've been a victim of it and get my ex out of my life for good, I don't know who I am and what I like anymore. Like most narcissist perverts, my abuser has taken away all my talents, my intelligence, what...
    dormouse10 dormouse10 26-30, F Feb 11, 2012

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    The Cab

    I looked where there is light... na da.I looked at the Lost & Found... na da.I posted on walls and street posts.I used a megaphone.I hired investigators.In the end, I waited by the curb.Until a cab pulled up and asked where I'm headed.I said to the driver I have to find myself...
    RedDust RedDust 41-45, F Nov 15, 2012

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    Looking Into Broken Mirror

    It was two years ago I jumped from my two-story apartment window and shattered my heel into several pieces. I used to practice yoga positions and be told that I could walk with a stack of books on top of my head, or that I was as graceful as a swan. Well after not walking for so...
    cinnamint cinnamint 31-35, F Oct 20, 2012

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    Who I Used To Be... At Age 7

    i used to be that kid with the smile that could brighten a room. i used to care what other people felt. i used to feel the pain of an angery parents.i am now the kid that no one cares about. i am now the kid in the background. i am the kid whos dad wants him gone. i am the kid...
    rawrthekid rawrthekid 13-15 Jan 25, 2011

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    Him

    He looks at me then turns away. I just really hope he would stay. But instead you walk away. I'm so hurt but I don't let you see the pain built up in me. You don't know the way I feel and I should tell you but it's to real. Im scared of rejection or what you will say because idk...
    Victoria19 Victoria19 16-17, F Apr 16, 2012

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    How To Deal With Competing With The Firestation

    I have been dating my boyfriend for almost a year and a half now and we have been having it rough lately. when we first started dating, he wanted to be an architect but didnt think it was too enjoyable. he then mentioned to me that he has always wanted to be a firefighter but...
    bfd130girl bfd130girl 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 26, 2012

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    Fade

    The faerie wonders how mortals could act nonchalant over things that matter to others.  Is it a case of insensitivity?  Or are they just unconcerned?  The indifference and apathy could be so overwhelming, the faerie wonders how the world continues to exist.  ...
    Sylphy Sylphy 41-45, F 13 Responses Jun 15, 2010

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    Me And Only Me

      I didn't realize I had lost myself but I have this reawakening that is amazing and I am on a journey to find myself again. 
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 5 Responses Apr 18, 2010

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    Finding Me

    Sitting here in the lost and found, Trying to make sense, Talking to myself out loud, A solo conference. Like a battle lost at sea, Swimming for dear life, A precious little apostrophe, A pause to cause still life. For now I know I have to grow, Which way is up to me, And how am...
    harleylover1970 harleylover1970 41-45, M 4 Responses Oct 20, 2012

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    Out Of My Tailspin

    Recently, I felt like I crashed and burned. I was drowning in a horrible mix of depression, debt and ****. I am rebuilding by finding better things to focus on to brighten my spirits, so the depression is disappearing and I am starting to avoid **** too.   The debt...
    baringmysoul baringmysoul 41-45, M Apr 18, 2010

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    Where To Start

    I spent nearly two years supporting my girlfriend and myself while struggling with anxiety and depression. I knew I should have stood up for myself, but putting myself first isn't something i know about. Until now. She left me soon as she had finacial support. So I quit the job...
    chrisa83 chrisa83 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 22, 2010

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    Everyday Teen Problem With Guys

    You like a guy and you wish you could read there mind. Life would be so much easier if that's the was life really was. But that's not how it goes but I would do anything to just know how he really feels about me. But the best thing I ever did was have a senior talk to him and...
    Victoria19 Victoria19 16-17, F Apr 11, 2012

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    I've found myself once,

    it was so great but i slipped away. I'm having a hard time trying to find myself again it's so frustrating
    ssolitude ssolitude 16-17, F Feb 8, 2014

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    I remind myself I was never lost in the first place. Like that song. Didnt know I was lost... When do we lose ourselves? Do we really? or just learning and wanting more means we...
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    I don't know if he loves me. Could be some. I know it's not enough. Not enough to care if he hurts me, alienates me, drives me away. I think it's sad. I'm confused by the person he...
    justNIK justNIK 41-45, F Feb 17

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    My house was wrecked, the storm was over... I hated myself from allowing it to happen.  It was too much that I can bear, I went catatonic.Yet, I managed to walk past the...
    4BlackForest 4BlackForest 36-40, F 6 Responses Feb 15

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    I started self-harming when i was 9 years old... its gone downhill since then and im bullied at school, home and everywhere else. I have no friends and no one to talk to. i went to...
    hannahbananahammock hannahbananahammock 16-17, F 15 mins ago

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    It's so weird to feel so sure of your way, yet so lost at the same time. I am pretty young, yet I know exactly what I want to do and where I want to go in the future. I've planned...
    VolumeChi VolumeChi 13-15, F Feb 21

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    Not trying hard enough.. I lost my resilience when I lost myself.
    simmerdame simmerdame 16-17, F Feb 13

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    Ah, it's quiet. All ready for bed but not quite yet. Needed to sit in the quiet and let the thoughts roam some first. Bundled up in my I-apparently-live-in-the-arctic jammies...
    justNIK justNIK 41-45, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    bored at work boss is busy and I need to O. I wear short skirts to work so easy to slip my hand between my legs and finger myself. love doing it as other people are around. then...
    CheatingTracy CheatingTracy 22-25, F 54 Responses Feb 23

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    We rent out a couple of rooms in our house to make a little extra money, yesterday I thought I had the place to myself so I was wearing a bra and panties and just a dressing gown...
    LibbyLee LibbyLee 56-60, T 13 Responses 6 days ago

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    I have been clean of cutting for probably a few months now, and this is when I had pocket knives and all in the house. I gave them to my boyfriend to hold onto. I can't really...
    bemyforeverlove97 bemyforeverlove97 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 16

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    I thought I didn't have anything else to do. I grabbed the blade and cut my thighs my wrists and anywhere else I could think of. I started and I couldn't stop. It's like something...
    ErIng9971 ErIng9971 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 12

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    I cut myself on two different occasions. I wanted to feel that feeling that others said they felt. The relief of it all afterwards. And I also just genuinely wanted to feel...
    Allforaview Allforaview 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 15

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    It is possible that I wrote a story here already, but it was censored by the EP police. So in protest I won't put another one here. Somewhat related, though, you can check out...
    Taurusedi Taurusedi 31-35, M Feb 10

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    i got a cut on my finger befor
    carlosgalindo1130 carlosgalindo1130 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 11

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    Well I cut my thigh so now what I'm obviously not getting better what do I do now?
    Kelnea Kelnea 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 16

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    Looking for people to understand me
    Vandium Vandium 13-15, F Feb 22

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    I don't mean anything. even my best friend would rather **** his boyfriend than help me through this hell. I should just die. I can't even cut to release...
    YaoiPrince YaoiPrince 13-15, M 1 Response Feb 24

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    I did it Monday just gone I felt awful and felt I deserved it as I hurt someone
    shrievess shrievess 16-17, M 4 days ago

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    I have lots of stresses and worries in my life , from my child's heart condition , to not having a job , and much much more . I come to EP to hopefully get rid of some of my...
    Shaadoww Shaadoww 36-40, F 32 mins ago

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    And this time I will never take it for granted. I am absolutely thankful for the wonderful relationship I find myself in. We are still completely besotted with each other, have...
    suzieb1971 suzieb1971 41-45, F 22 mins ago

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    I know this is long. I want to know if anyone else feels the guilt that I feel and depression or if anyone has similar experiences. Thank you so much for your support. I feel...
    interested0001 interested0001 31-35, F 5 days ago

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    My experience with college is magnified by my experience in high school. I absolutely loved high school. I met so many great friends, and we weren't friends because of proximity...
    SaintJasonC SaintJasonC 18-21, M Feb 21

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    I've been letting it build up inside me and I don't know how much longer I will be able to hold it all in. I feel like I need to tell someone; anyone. I'm tired of crying myself...
    Saide123 Saide123 18-21, F Feb 20

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    I am 22 years old and have had CRIPPLING emetophobia for as long as I can remember. In fact, my fear is so bad that I can't even stand to hear or read the "v" word...so browsing...
    hummingbirdbullets hummingbirdbullets 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    I am 25 years old and have recently moved back home to live with my parents for a few months. I always knew my family was extremely dysfunctional growing up, but I always thought...
    Thristic Thristic 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 20

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    I tried writing this experience once but it shut down in the middle, so I'm a little frustrated but I'll try again. I was saying that I find myself doing things just for the sole...
    Shamandora Shamandora 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 7

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    I feel like I'm on a roller coaster, I'm constantly going up and down. I feel confident and raring to go one minute and I'm feeling despair, desperate and empty the next. I hate...
    dte21 dte21 18-21, F Feb 19

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