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I Have to Find Myself Again

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    How Do You Realize What's Changed About Yourself?

    My best friend says I've changed, and she wouldn't tell me how. I really don't know what I've changed about myself or what is different. As much as I try to think about myself and everything that I've gone through with her, I can't seem to figure it out. Is there really a way to...
    LionssDen LionssDen 18-21 Oct 23, 2012

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    The Cab

    I looked where there is light... na da.I looked at the Lost & Found... na da.I posted on walls and street posts.I used a megaphone.I hired investigators.In the end, I waited by the curb.Until a cab pulled up and asked where I'm headed.I said to the driver I have to find myself...
    RedDust RedDust 41-45, F Nov 15, 2012

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    Finding Me

    Sitting here in the lost and found, Trying to make sense, Talking to myself out loud, A solo conference. Like a battle lost at sea, Swimming for dear life, A precious little apostrophe, A pause to cause still life. For now I know I have to grow, Which way is up to me, And how am...
    harleylover1970 harleylover1970 41-45, M 4 Responses Oct 20, 2012

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    Where To Start

    I spent nearly two years supporting my girlfriend and myself while struggling with anxiety and depression. I knew I should have stood up for myself, but putting myself first isn't something i know about. Until now. She left me soon as she had finacial support. So I quit the job...
    chrisa83 chrisa83 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 22, 2010

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    Him

    He looks at me then turns away. I just really hope he would stay. But instead you walk away. I'm so hurt but I don't let you see the pain built up in me. You don't know the way I feel and I should tell you but it's to real. Im scared of rejection or what you will say because idk...
    Victoria19 Victoria19 16-17, F Apr 16, 2012

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    Me And Only Me

      I didn't realize I had lost myself but I have this reawakening that is amazing and I am on a journey to find myself again. 
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 5 Responses Apr 18, 2010

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    Who I Used To Be... At Age 7

    i used to be that kid with the smile that could brighten a room. i used to care what other people felt. i used to feel the pain of an angery parents.i am now the kid that no one cares about. i am now the kid in the background. i am the kid whos dad wants him gone. i am the kid...
    rawrthekid rawrthekid 13-15 Jan 25, 2011

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    How To Deal With Competing With The Firestation

    I have been dating my boyfriend for almost a year and a half now and we have been having it rough lately. when we first started dating, he wanted to be an architect but didnt think it was too enjoyable. he then mentioned to me that he has always wanted to be a firefighter but...
    bfd130girl bfd130girl 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 26, 2012

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    Looking Into Broken Mirror

    It was two years ago I jumped from my two-story apartment window and shattered my heel into several pieces. I used to practice yoga positions and be told that I could walk with a stack of books on top of my head, or that I was as graceful as a swan. Well after not walking for so...
    cinnamint cinnamint 31-35, F Oct 20, 2012

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    Everyday Teen Problem With Guys

    You like a guy and you wish you could read there mind. Life would be so much easier if that's the was life really was. But that's not how it goes but I would do anything to just know how he really feels about me. But the best thing I ever did was have a senior talk to him and...
    Victoria19 Victoria19 16-17, F Apr 11, 2012

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    Fade

    The faerie wonders how mortals could act nonchalant over things that matter to others.  Is it a case of insensitivity?  Or are they just unconcerned?  The indifference and apathy could be so overwhelming, the faerie wonders how the world continues to exist.  ...
    Sylphy Sylphy 41-45, F 15 Responses Jun 15, 2010

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    How Can You Find Yourself When Your True Self Has Been Robbed Away From You?

    After almost 10 years of domestic violence, and 2 more years to realize I've been a victim of it and get my ex out of my life for good, I don't know who I am and what I like anymore. Like most narcissist perverts, my abuser has taken away all my talents, my intelligence, what...
    dormouse10 dormouse10 26-30, F Feb 11, 2012

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    I've found myself once,

    it was so great but i slipped away. I'm having a hard time trying to find myself again it's so frustrating
    ssolitude ssolitude 16-17, F Feb 8

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    Out Of My Tailspin

    Recently, I felt like I crashed and burned. I was drowning in a horrible mix of depression, debt and ****. I am rebuilding by finding better things to focus on to brighten my spirits, so the depression is disappearing and I am starting to avoid **** too.   The debt...
    baringmysoul baringmysoul 41-45, M Apr 18, 2010

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    Finding myself. Again! Damn it... I've found myself *so many times* only to lose track again! On the other hand, the feeling reminds me of the little boy standing in a...
    JacquesSade JacquesSade 56-60, M 1 Response Nov 14

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    I can't figure myself out. I spent months focusing on getting out of a really bad relationship, my mind was constantly thinking of what it would be like to be by myself again, and...
    Ag0405 Ag0405 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 2

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    I feel like a failure to be honest. But I know sometimes it just happens. I can't stop thinking about her. Can't stop reading her last text to me. I have so many mixed feelings I'm...
    endofalldays endofalldays 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 4

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    People think that I'm the happiest person because I smile and laugh a lot. But actually I'm not. Sometime I just want to end everything when everyone that i trust cut all the...
    Julietxxx Julietxxx 16-17, F 2 days ago

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    EP is a great way to get to know myself. In the spirit of anonymity I get to remove my social filters & really be me. I guess we're never too old to surprise ourselves!
    Elayla Elayla 31-35, F 5 days ago

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    Sometimes I feel like I can't find my own *** with all 8 tentacles! Seriously... I think this is a recurrent phenomenon... Astrology buffs seem to like to call this "your Saturn...
    elKraken elKraken 70+ 1 Response 5 days ago

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    After maybe 3 months I cut again..
    TrayFutia TrayFutia 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 1

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    It's getting harder everyday to not cut. but it hurts to know that truthfully he lied to me and was pretty much better off when I was near death... The only thing keeping me alive...
    mangadrawer12321 mangadrawer12321 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 2

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    idk who I am. I never have. I cling to things and that becomes me. the student, the wife ect. I see what u want then I become it. I mold myself to be it. I mimic. but when its all...
    PsychoBitch69 PsychoBitch69 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 10

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    It's been a few days. I can't do anything because she'll see them. I need to stay occupied, flush the ******* blades. They're on me at all times. I ******* need it, but I can't let...
    endofalldays endofalldays 18-21, F Nov 15

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    Barrier 4 The lingering scent, Breathes a sweet desire, You've made this meal, Knowing memories were hired, Whisking away, whistling the day, I think and ponder, is it worth...
    ymfas ymfas 26-30, M Oct 25

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    A friend posted this and I wanted to share because we all need to be reminded. We do have control! Attitude The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life...
    KemiKill KemiKill 36-40, F 3 Responses Nov 14

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    Warning: this post is depressing. I just had to say this... I never have the chance to get anything off my chest... Sometimes my life just sucks. I don't know why I'm feeling...
    Sweetgirl120 Sweetgirl120 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 26

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    Another incident. I had put eggs on to boil on the stove. I was wondering why the eggs weren't boiling. Stupidly put my hand on the ELEMENT. Yes my full f*cking hand! (Think my...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 2 Responses Oct 29

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    I  did it again. :(. Why am I so useless?
    PercyJacksonisAWESOME PercyJacksonisAWESOME 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I cut myself before cause I can't stand living here on earth like, I wanna kill myself cause I'm a mess. I'm depressed and I even decided to be dropped-out of school and then my...
    xxBoyishGirlxx xxBoyishGirlxx 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Another one! I had myself instant noodles on the stove. The bowl I had put the boiling water and noodles and flavouring in wasn't very big and it was about 70-80% with boiling...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 Oct 29

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    One night I was eating some of my favorite hot wings and I took a huge bite and it went down so far so i had for force myself to throw up
    smitlord smitlord 16-17, M 1 Response Oct 30

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    Crying myself to sleep is the only way for me to sleep lately. It's just so hard and tiring that I then get more tearful.
    ExPButterfly ExPButterfly 16-17, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I have just gotten out of my self harm bout. I'm 16 and planning on joining the U.S. Army. Now I know that self harm scars are a BIG disqualifier but I am determined to reach my...
    Armyhopeful Armyhopeful 16-17, M Nov 13

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    For many years I have felt like I just was a waste of space. I felt like something was missing. A strange as It was, when I was standing there, bound to the wall, getting caned, I...
    0happycamper 0happycamper 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    Barrier 2 We looked into each other, Strangers and lovers, You carry as weight carries, I fly as the flies defile, Over and under, left and around, hardly a touch, we scream...
    ymfas ymfas 26-30, M Oct 24

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    Barrier 3 And I speak, the first words spoken, A meek, "Would you like some tea?" And a quiet, "Yes, please" And for a brief moment, no error is defined, just habituality...
    ymfas ymfas 26-30, M 1 Response Oct 24

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    Im 22 and confused out of my mind. Im scared to make all the desicions that will impact my life. Im terrified about my future and what I want to do, who I want to be. Im stuck and...
    DenSan DenSan 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 8

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    MARCO!!.......................................
    RiddikulusSister RiddikulusSister 31-35, F 3 Responses Nov 14

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    I'm in my second to last year of college and I still don't know what I want to do with my life.
    Deuz Deuz 18-21, M Nov 15

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    Many a time! The worst was when I was at the supermarket once. Some old people were in the way of the heated chicken (and other foods in there) rack area. They were choosing...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 1 Response Oct 29

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    you know that moment when things are so bad and ****** up there is absolutely nothing you can do except laugh...I am that laughter.
    TheGreatDisappointment TheGreatDisappointment 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 6

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    Flashed my boobz for a group of guys in a stag party
    Bev1978 Bev1978 36-40, F 5 Responses Nov 11

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    That moment where you make delicious homemade pizza, eat some of it, and then your body purges itself because your stomach is too weak to handle the digesting material.
    BloodofAmara BloodofAmara 16-17, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I was in class today and this kid grabbed my hand to do something and it touched my cuts but he didn't realize and he was wondering why I was freaking out .
    unicornsydney unicornsydney 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    I just got a boyfriend! I just got a boyfriend! His name is Bryce and he's cute! I love him so much! I hope our relationship will last longer than the last one (6 days sits at...
    TheJordanator TheJordanator 13-15, M 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    I feel like screaming somebody save me. Anybody? Save me! Please save me from myself. Or am I actually the one that needs saving? Am I really in the wrong here or does the blame...
    SimplicityJai SimplicityJai 26-30, F 3 Responses Nov 13

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