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I Have to Find Myself Again

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 193 People

    How Can You Find Yourself When Your True Self Has Been Robbed Away From You?

    After almost 10 years of domestic violence, and 2 more years to realize I've been a victim of it and get my ex out of my life for good, I don't know who I am and what I like anymore. Like most narcissist perverts, my abuser has taken away all my talents, my intelligence, what...
    dormouse10 dormouse10 26-30, F Feb 11, 2012

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    Out Of My Tailspin

    Recently, I felt like I crashed and burned. I was drowning in a horrible mix of depression, debt and ****. I am rebuilding by finding better things to focus on to brighten my spirits, so the depression is disappearing and I am starting to avoid **** too.   The debt...
    baringmysoul baringmysoul 41-45, M Apr 18, 2010

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    Everyday Teen Problem With Guys

    You like a guy and you wish you could read there mind. Life would be so much easier if that's the was life really was. But that's not how it goes but I would do anything to just know how he really feels about me. But the best thing I ever did was have a senior talk to him and...
    Victoria19 Victoria19 16-17, F Apr 11, 2012

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    Fade

    The faerie wonders how mortals could act nonchalant over things that matter to others.  Is it a case of insensitivity?  Or are they just unconcerned?  The indifference and apathy could be so overwhelming, the faerie wonders how the world continues to exist.  ...
    Sylphy Sylphy 41-45, F 15 Responses Jun 15, 2010

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    How To Deal With Competing With The Firestation

    I have been dating my boyfriend for almost a year and a half now and we have been having it rough lately. when we first started dating, he wanted to be an architect but didnt think it was too enjoyable. he then mentioned to me that he has always wanted to be a firefighter but...
    bfd130girl bfd130girl 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 26, 2012

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    Where To Start

    I spent nearly two years supporting my girlfriend and myself while struggling with anxiety and depression. I knew I should have stood up for myself, but putting myself first isn't something i know about. Until now. She left me soon as she had finacial support. So I quit the job...
    chrisa83 chrisa83 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 22, 2010

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    The Cab

    I looked where there is light... na da.I looked at the Lost & Found... na da.I posted on walls and street posts.I used a megaphone.I hired investigators.In the end, I waited by the curb.Until a cab pulled up and asked where I'm headed.I said to the driver I have to find myself...
    RedDust RedDust 41-45, F Nov 15, 2012

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    How Do You Realize What's Changed About Yourself?

    My best friend says I've changed, and she wouldn't tell me how. I really don't know what I've changed about myself or what is different. As much as I try to think about myself and everything that I've gone through with her, I can't seem to figure it out. Is there really a way to...
    LionssDen LionssDen 18-21 Oct 23, 2012

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    Finding Me

    Sitting here in the lost and found, Trying to make sense, Talking to myself out loud, A solo conference. Like a battle lost at sea, Swimming for dear life, A precious little apostrophe, A pause to cause still life. For now I know I have to grow, Which way is up to me, And how am...
    harleylover1970 harleylover1970 41-45, M 4 Responses Oct 20, 2012

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    Him

    He looks at me then turns away. I just really hope he would stay. But instead you walk away. I'm so hurt but I don't let you see the pain built up in me. You don't know the way I feel and I should tell you but it's to real. Im scared of rejection or what you will say because idk...
    Victoria19 Victoria19 16-17, F Apr 16, 2012

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    I've found myself once,

    it was so great but i slipped away. I'm having a hard time trying to find myself again it's so frustrating
    ssolitude ssolitude 16-17, F Feb 8

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    Me And Only Me

      I didn't realize I had lost myself but I have this reawakening that is amazing and I am on a journey to find myself again. 
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 5 Responses Apr 18, 2010

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    Looking Into Broken Mirror

    It was two years ago I jumped from my two-story apartment window and shattered my heel into several pieces. I used to practice yoga positions and be told that I could walk with a stack of books on top of my head, or that I was as graceful as a swan. Well after not walking for so...
    cinnamint cinnamint 31-35, F Oct 20, 2012

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    Who I Used To Be... At Age 7

    i used to be that kid with the smile that could brighten a room. i used to care what other people felt. i used to feel the pain of an angery parents.i am now the kid that no one cares about. i am now the kid in the background. i am the kid whos dad wants him gone. i am the kid...
    rawrthekid rawrthekid 13-15 Jan 25, 2011

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    Everyone who terrifies you is sixty-five percent water. And everyone you love is made of stardust, and I know sometimes you cannot even breathe deeply, and the night sky is no...
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    Yep, i cut myself again today... Thanksgiving was the first time i cut in a while so it felt good to do it again. Its like one you get addicted to cutting, you build a tolerance...
    Nick54 Nick54 18-21, M Nov 28

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    So wake me up when it's all over.. When I'm wiser and I'm older.. All this time I was finding myself and I didn't know I was lost..
    Anngeleyes Anngeleyes 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 6

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    With each step, I could feel my lungs exploding. How many more miles? I don’t think I can hold this pace for the entire race. I can’t even run the whole race. As these thoughts...
    andreacrystal96 andreacrystal96 18-21, F Nov 30

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    I let myself go to this boy and now I am struggling to find who I am. I feel myself changing and I want to get back to the independent, happy person I was. I tried to find my...
    murn murn 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 30

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    People think that I'm the happiest person because I smile and laugh a lot. But actually I'm not. Sometime I just want to end everything when everyone that i trust cut all the...
    Julietxxx Julietxxx 16-17, F Nov 22

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    I don't really understand myself. I don't really feel like there is much motivation for me being here, but at the same time I know I'll never off myself. I'm just super confused...
    dabram71 dabram71 16-17, M 2 Responses Dec 3

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    EP is a great way to get to know myself. In the spirit of anonymity I get to remove my social filters & really be me. I guess we're never too old to surprise ourselves!
    Elayla Elayla 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 19

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    Sometimes I feel like I can't find my own *** with all 8 tentacles! Seriously... I think this is a recurrent phenomenon... Astrology buffs seem to like to call this "your Saturn...
    elKraken elKraken 70+ 1 Response Nov 19

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    Who am I? I have no clue! Maybe I don't need to know exactly but just something to work with. Something to build on! So I can build a future for myself!
    wickedlilangel69 wickedlilangel69 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 9

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    It happens bit by bit. I get excited when I rediscover old passions and hobbies and get that old contented feeling. I get even more excited when I discover something new to do, or...
    ZigNamaste ZigNamaste 41-45, M 3 Responses Dec 2

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    I have dreams about me but I'm older and I have lost my way of life constantly living in fear and when I wakeup it's the same only now.There is this girl at my school from day one...
    venomsounds venomsounds 13-15, M Dec 7

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    I just started cutting and to be honest I find the pain addicting and it is such a great pain reliever. What is the best thing to cut with?
    macygracey macygracey 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 8

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    She's not worth it, they said. You'll get over her, they said. You'll find someone new, they said. Well, they were wrong...
    emilesfault emilesfault 16-17, M Dec 10

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    Tbh Like I cut a couple times..... not a lot but then I found an outlet u know like for me it is friends and music... I'm kinda determined to help other ppl to find there outlet...
    invisiblegirlz invisiblegirlz 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    I cut myself before cause I can't stand living here on earth like, I wanna kill myself cause I'm a mess. I'm depressed and I even decided to be dropped-out of school and then my...
    xxBoyishGirlxx xxBoyishGirlxx 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 22

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    I'm married, but in the past I have messed about with a friend. We played with each other over p0rn, sucked each other. I definitely prefer girls, they're smooth, soft, beautiful...
    scott0702 scott0702 41-45, M 2 Responses Nov 28

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    Crying myself to sleep is the only way for me to sleep lately. It's just so hard and tiring that I then get more tearful.
    ExPButterfly ExPButterfly 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 19

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    Today i cut myself for the first time i even have photos but i wish i died you know ICANT take it anymore . My parents dont give a **** about me rather care about their reputation...
    Mizo0217 Mizo0217 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 3

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    I have been known to do this in the work restrooms. Sometimes you just get too f*ucking ho*rny
    Lu24642 Lu24642 18-21, F 9 Responses Dec 1

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    When utter loneliness overwhelmed me in the middle of the night during the darkest days of my childhood. With no one there to comfort me since by then I lived all alone I cried...
    TenThousandSorrows TenThousandSorrows 22-25, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    For many years I have felt like I just was a waste of space. I felt like something was missing. A strange as It was, when I was standing there, bound to the wall, getting caned, I...
    0happycamper 0happycamper 22-25, F Nov 18

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    When your best isn't good enough...
    bambi456 bambi456 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 28

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    Outside these walls, there waits a world that is often cold, lonely. Everyone wearing masks and expecting you to don yours as well. Little half truths and white lies and fake...
    justNIK justNIK 41-45, F 1 Response Dec 8

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    You look like, a perfect fit.
    wanderquietly wanderquietly 18-21, F Dec 8

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    Heya ladies, I'm getting pretty tired of being told, “You can't write this or that.” I've decided that's ok though because I've found a new website. I've only been here for 2...
    DevilishTongue DevilishTongue 26-30, F Dec 10

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    I was in class today and this kid grabbed my hand to do something and it touched my cuts but he didn't realize and he was wondering why I was freaking out .
    unicornsydney unicornsydney 13-15, F Nov 19

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    I just got a boyfriend! I just got a boyfriend! His name is Bryce and he's cute! I love him so much! I hope our relationship will last longer than the last one (6 days sits at...
    Jordan4Bryce Jordan4Bryce 13-15, M 4 Responses Nov 20

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    I'm stuck at a bar. For hours.... While people see a show I couldn't get into. :/ trying not to be a complete drunkard.
    tarkovsky tarkovsky 26-30, M Nov 28

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    heyimalive heyimalive 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 5

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    Me two it's hot it makes me so hard thinking ab it
    ticel74 ticel74 36-40, M 3 Responses Dec 6

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    I have to give the background its my therapy, but I will try my best to keep it short. I have known this girl and her family, as friends of my family for over 20 years. about 8...
    EnConTroll EnConTroll 26-30, M 4 hrs ago

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    I have given you everything. I have presented myself as the cup at your winner's circle. I bow down at your presence. Your beauty steals my breath almost constantly. And all the...
    risa1068 risa1068 18-21 13 hrs ago

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