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I Have to Find Myself Again

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    Who I Used To Be... At Age 7

    i used to be that kid with the smile that could brighten a room. i used to care what other people felt. i used to feel the pain of an angery parents.i am now the kid that no one cares about. i am now the kid in the background. i am the kid whos dad wants him gone. i am the kid...
    rawrthekid rawrthekid 13-15 Jan 25, 2011

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    I've found myself once,

    it was so great but i slipped away. I'm having a hard time trying to find myself again it's so frustrating
    ssolitude ssolitude 16-17, F Feb 8, 2014

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    Looking Into Broken Mirror

    It was two years ago I jumped from my two-story apartment window and shattered my heel into several pieces. I used to practice yoga positions and be told that I could walk with a stack of books on top of my head, or that I was as graceful as a swan. Well after not walking for so...
    cinnamint cinnamint 31-35, F Oct 20, 2012

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    How Do You Realize What's Changed About Yourself?

    My best friend says I've changed, and she wouldn't tell me how. I really don't know what I've changed about myself or what is different. As much as I try to think about myself and everything that I've gone through with her, I can't seem to figure it out. Is there really a way to...
    LionssDen LionssDen 18-21 Oct 23, 2012

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    Everyday Teen Problem With Guys

    You like a guy and you wish you could read there mind. Life would be so much easier if that's the was life really was. But that's not how it goes but I would do anything to just know how he really feels about me. But the best thing I ever did was have a senior talk to him and...
    Victoria19 Victoria19 16-17, F Apr 11, 2012

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    Fade

    The faerie wonders how mortals could act nonchalant over things that matter to others.  Is it a case of insensitivity?  Or are they just unconcerned?  The indifference and apathy could be so overwhelming, the faerie wonders how the world continues to exist.  ...
    Sylphy Sylphy 41-45, F 13 Responses Jun 15, 2010

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    Me And Only Me

      I didn't realize I had lost myself but I have this reawakening that is amazing and I am on a journey to find myself again. 
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 5 Responses Apr 18, 2010

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    Out Of My Tailspin

    Recently, I felt like I crashed and burned. I was drowning in a horrible mix of depression, debt and ****. I am rebuilding by finding better things to focus on to brighten my spirits, so the depression is disappearing and I am starting to avoid **** too.   The debt...
    baringmysoul baringmysoul 41-45, M Apr 18, 2010

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    Him

    He looks at me then turns away. I just really hope he would stay. But instead you walk away. I'm so hurt but I don't let you see the pain built up in me. You don't know the way I feel and I should tell you but it's to real. Im scared of rejection or what you will say because idk...
    Victoria19 Victoria19 16-17, F Apr 16, 2012

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    How To Deal With Competing With The Firestation

    I have been dating my boyfriend for almost a year and a half now and we have been having it rough lately. when we first started dating, he wanted to be an architect but didnt think it was too enjoyable. he then mentioned to me that he has always wanted to be a firefighter but...
    bfd130girl bfd130girl 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 26, 2012

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    How Can You Find Yourself When Your True Self Has Been Robbed Away From You?

    After almost 10 years of domestic violence, and 2 more years to realize I've been a victim of it and get my ex out of my life for good, I don't know who I am and what I like anymore. Like most narcissist perverts, my abuser has taken away all my talents, my intelligence, what...
    dormouse10 dormouse10 26-30, F Feb 11, 2012

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    The Cab

    I looked where there is light... na da.I looked at the Lost & Found... na da.I posted on walls and street posts.I used a megaphone.I hired investigators.In the end, I waited by the curb.Until a cab pulled up and asked where I'm headed.I said to the driver I have to find myself...
    RedDust RedDust 41-45, F Nov 15, 2012

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    Finding Me

    Sitting here in the lost and found, Trying to make sense, Talking to myself out loud, A solo conference. Like a battle lost at sea, Swimming for dear life, A precious little apostrophe, A pause to cause still life. For now I know I have to grow, Which way is up to me, And how am...
    harleylover1970 harleylover1970 41-45, M 4 Responses Oct 20, 2012

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    Where To Start

    I spent nearly two years supporting my girlfriend and myself while struggling with anxiety and depression. I knew I should have stood up for myself, but putting myself first isn't something i know about. Until now. She left me soon as she had finacial support. So I quit the job...
    chrisa83 chrisa83 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 22, 2010

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    I was married for a long time and now I'm not...during my marriage I had 3 children, earned 2 degrees and built my life around my husband. When he passed, I realized I had...
    mommyraquel mommyraquel 31-35 1 Response Feb 26

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    Well, I often find myself lost and bored All The TIME. But when That happens i put on my headphones and listen to music and it feels right. But i take the headphones out, it all...
    ZeldaNerd ZeldaNerd 13-15, M 1 Response Mar 5

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    I have cut myself before and i felt good. I am not proud but this is the truth. I am not a masochist. Deep inside of me there is a huge pain. When i cut myself i forget 'the' pain...
    michaniel michaniel 16-17, T 4 days ago

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    Off work for awhile decided too walk around the mall maybe catch a movie. But just my luck a young woman comes up too me and ask me my name, the next hour is amazing talking about...
    kankuro18 kankuro18 18-21, M Mar 8

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    I'm 20 years old, I'm trying to find who am I. I'm trying to find my personality. trying to build my own empire.
    ihatepeople2015 ihatepeople2015 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 16

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    Ah, it's quiet. All ready for bed but not quite yet. Needed to sit in the quiet and let the thoughts roam some first. Bundled up in my I-apparently-live-in-the-arctic jammies...
    justNIK justNIK 41-45, F 1 Response Feb 27

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    my leg is killing me i haven't cut myself like that in awhile an i.....didn't wanna stop i wanted to keep going deeper an deeper.... but i didn't want anyone to find out so i...
    SweetAngelFrostPup SweetAngelFrostPup 16-17, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    We rent out a couple of rooms in our house to make a little extra money, yesterday I thought I had the place to myself so I was wearing a bra and panties and just a dressing gown...
    LibbyLee LibbyLee 56-60, T 13 Responses Feb 27

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    I got new glasses today. i haven't had new glasses in like 14 years. when i put them on and looked in the merrer i saw the kind hearted person i lost a long time ago. i don't know...
    bw32 bw32 31-35, M Mar 12

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    It's happened again. 4 on each wrist. Oy vey. I was doing so well. I hadn't cut for like 5 months or so. And now I've done it again. At least i don't feel the urge to anymore...
    Snow1353 Snow1353 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I cut my stomach again but I did this so I wouldn't cut my leg. I have a problem. Someone help me.
    Kelnea Kelnea 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 10

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    It's quite difficult. I wanted to just have messages on my phone. It won't let me. This website stuff is quite difficult.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 11

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    I have done this for the last two nights and it has felt so good. Last night I assed out in a food comma. Going for that again to night
    Chubbyhubby230 Chubbyhubby230 31-35, M 6 days ago

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    These feeders on here! Won't mention any names but they have me blowing up like a balloon, so much food! Ever since these people came into my life, I've gained 10 pounds! It's only...
    Fatassboy Fatassboy 16-17, M 18 hrs ago

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    But others I don't really know what I am. There have been others at school that thought that I was hardcore and say that" I'm bad as ****." Well I did do cool things, I was really...
    awsome2 awsome2 18-21, T Mar 13

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    I've cut myself before, I know that some of you think that I'm sick and there's something wrong with me, but it's just the way I am. It's like how some people can't help being gay...
    wolfgirl202 wolfgirl202 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 18

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    My 3 year training contract ends in July. There is another trainee in the same year as me, but I feel as though he is more liked than me, because he's more of a 'man' than me...
    ShaunSAP ShaunSAP 18-21, M 3 days ago

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    I am both the victim and the abuser. they say blades are dangerous, my thoughts have hurt me more than blades ever could. I cut to feel, I to live, to breathe, to survive this...
    recoveringteen00 recoveringteen00 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I have cut once. I was depressed af and couldn't take it anymore I tried every thing you'd think of but nothing worked out so I thought it'd be better if I was dead... and I cut...
    turki2550 turki2550 16-17, M 1 day ago

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    I started self-harming when i was 9 years old... its gone downhill since then and im bullied at school, home and everywhere else. I have no friends and no one to talk to. i went to...
    hannahbananahammock hannahbananahammock 16-17, F Mar 5

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    I want to die so badly! I just don't want to be here. I can't breath ever. Everyone lies and jokes about me. I am deeply depressed. I don't want to go talk to "someone special...
    Whitney4234 Whitney4234 22-25, F Mar 13

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    After supper I have to put on pair of pj pants feels so good to let my belly out and have stretchy pant on
    Chubbyhubby230 Chubbyhubby230 31-35, M Mar 17

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    I have done this a few times. My last job I worked nights and weekends. I would get bored. When you get bored you know what happens. They say an idle mind is the devils work shop...
    kmac72 kmac72 41-45, M 3 Responses Mar 18

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    I've cut before. But I'm going to stop. I've always known it would do nothing but hurt me more, no matter how good it felt. Even though I've always known I should stop, I've had a...
    Darkanddesolate Darkanddesolate 16-17, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I haven't cut for years and I still have scars but you have to look carefully at them to see them
    Brookedrumm Brookedrumm 16-17, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I haven't cut in a year and a half. My scars are massive and they'll never go away. I wish they would. At the time I was cutting I didn't care about the scars it would leave. I...
    Lemons2000 Lemons2000 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I'm dying here. I feel like I really need to cut. He said he only wants to be friends. Now I'm trying everything and I'm fighting to win him back. He says he loves me but I'm never...
    SparkledRed SparkledRed 18-21, F 2 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    It took my mom 2years to finally let me be me. I'm changing universities and cites . I'm so excited for my fresh start and in a coastal city far from home. I'm happy :)