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I Have to Find Myself Again

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 199 People

    Me And Only Me

      I didn't realize I had lost myself but I have this reawakening that is amazing and I am on a journey to find myself again. 
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 5 Responses Apr 18, 2010

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    I've found myself once,

    it was so great but i slipped away. I'm having a hard time trying to find myself again it's so frustrating
    ssolitude ssolitude 16-17, F Feb 8

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    Who I Used To Be... At Age 7

    i used to be that kid with the smile that could brighten a room. i used to care what other people felt. i used to feel the pain of an angery parents.i am now the kid that no one cares about. i am now the kid in the background. i am the kid whos dad wants him gone. i am the kid...
    rawrthekid rawrthekid 13-15 Jan 25, 2011

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    Where To Start

    I spent nearly two years supporting my girlfriend and myself while struggling with anxiety and depression. I knew I should have stood up for myself, but putting myself first isn't something i know about. Until now. She left me soon as she had finacial support. So I quit the job...
    chrisa83 chrisa83 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 22, 2010

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    Out Of My Tailspin

    Recently, I felt like I crashed and burned. I was drowning in a horrible mix of depression, debt and ****. I am rebuilding by finding better things to focus on to brighten my spirits, so the depression is disappearing and I am starting to avoid **** too.   The debt...
    baringmysoul baringmysoul 41-45, M Apr 18, 2010

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    Everyday Teen Problem With Guys

    You like a guy and you wish you could read there mind. Life would be so much easier if that's the was life really was. But that's not how it goes but I would do anything to just know how he really feels about me. But the best thing I ever did was have a senior talk to him and...
    Victoria19 Victoria19 16-17, F Apr 11, 2012

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    Fade

    The faerie wonders how mortals could act nonchalant over things that matter to others.  Is it a case of insensitivity?  Or are they just unconcerned?  The indifference and apathy could be so overwhelming, the faerie wonders how the world continues to exist.  ...
    Sylphy Sylphy 41-45, F 15 Responses Jun 15, 2010

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    Finding Me

    Sitting here in the lost and found, Trying to make sense, Talking to myself out loud, A solo conference. Like a battle lost at sea, Swimming for dear life, A precious little apostrophe, A pause to cause still life. For now I know I have to grow, Which way is up to me, And how am...
    harleylover1970 harleylover1970 41-45, M 4 Responses Oct 20, 2012

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    The Cab

    I looked where there is light... na da.I looked at the Lost & Found... na da.I posted on walls and street posts.I used a megaphone.I hired investigators.In the end, I waited by the curb.Until a cab pulled up and asked where I'm headed.I said to the driver I have to find myself...
    RedDust RedDust 41-45, F Nov 15, 2012

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    Him

    He looks at me then turns away. I just really hope he would stay. But instead you walk away. I'm so hurt but I don't let you see the pain built up in me. You don't know the way I feel and I should tell you but it's to real. Im scared of rejection or what you will say because idk...
    Victoria19 Victoria19 16-17, F Apr 16, 2012

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    How To Deal With Competing With The Firestation

    I have been dating my boyfriend for almost a year and a half now and we have been having it rough lately. when we first started dating, he wanted to be an architect but didnt think it was too enjoyable. he then mentioned to me that he has always wanted to be a firefighter but...
    bfd130girl bfd130girl 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 26, 2012

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    How Can You Find Yourself When Your True Self Has Been Robbed Away From You?

    After almost 10 years of domestic violence, and 2 more years to realize I've been a victim of it and get my ex out of my life for good, I don't know who I am and what I like anymore. Like most narcissist perverts, my abuser has taken away all my talents, my intelligence, what...
    dormouse10 dormouse10 26-30, F Feb 11, 2012

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    Looking Into Broken Mirror

    It was two years ago I jumped from my two-story apartment window and shattered my heel into several pieces. I used to practice yoga positions and be told that I could walk with a stack of books on top of my head, or that I was as graceful as a swan. Well after not walking for so...
    cinnamint cinnamint 31-35, F Oct 20, 2012

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    How Do You Realize What's Changed About Yourself?

    My best friend says I've changed, and she wouldn't tell me how. I really don't know what I've changed about myself or what is different. As much as I try to think about myself and everything that I've gone through with her, I can't seem to figure it out. Is there really a way to...
    LionssDen LionssDen 18-21 Oct 23, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    Commitment and relationships are the least of my worries at the moment. I am trying to find myself. I am trying to find what I believe in and why. I am pressured too easily so I...
    anitamigna anitamigna 18-21, F Oct 12

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    i don't know who i am anymore..i've changed so much that i lost myself in this life. i'm not depressed, i'm not unhappy. i'm...just lost. and i fear i won't be able to find myself...
    FishWhoLearnedToFly FishWhoLearnedToFly 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 29

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    So I made this new account because my last two accounts were suspended for some reason and I don't know what I've done to have such things done to me....I don't know if people are...
    koreanguy1005 koreanguy1005 26-30, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I have been on a search for who I am for quite awhile now. Every time I think I am getting closer, everything implodes. Work doesn't help anything, and neither does going out...
    LilBoyBluu LilBoyBluu 22-25, M Sep 29

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    I spose we'd be hard pressed to find someone who hadn't. I like to think more about all the times I've drifted off to sleep with a smile on my face. The numbers may not be even...
    niklb niklb 41-45, F Oct 3

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    I have a small amount of best friends who care and are there for me and that's all I need. People want everything it seems. Be grateful for what you already have
    ValhallaAwaits ValhallaAwaits 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    Yeah but sadly I didn't do it quick enough. I don't know what those injections are called, the ones you can get now if you'd like to kill yourself. Anyone know what they're called...
    WintersSoldier2 WintersSoldier2 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 26

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    It's one of those nights. I hate myself. Ahhh this feeling suuuucks. It's gonna be a long night!
    lizygurl lizygurl 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 2

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    I really have lately, a lot of it is thanks to this app, I used to be a very bitter and angry person, not at anything in particular just everything. Things weren't so bad in high...
    steelers7fan steelers7fan 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 29

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    I have done it my teen yrs & went through a lot with my mom & my high school bf then! A lot of drama that I couldn't take! I don't do that bc I have my kids to think about & to...
    ncsweetfem ncsweetfem 36-40, F a week ago

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    Encontrados Encontrados 36-40, M Oct 3

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    You can't really blame me. And even if you did, I still wouldn't care :/
    KazeDream KazeDream 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 5

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    Yea me too... Idk what's happening but my mommy said I need magnums... Is that like a pistol or something?
    KayvonJr KayvonJr 13-15, M Oct 11

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    I truly admire people who choose to shine even after all the **** they've been out through!!!!
    Anngeleyes Anngeleyes 26-30, F 2 Responses Oct 14

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    Try no best friends who care. Watch who u call your best friend because most likely that person will always put themselves before you.
    sammylynn333 sammylynn333 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    Barrier 1 And to this day, You chuckle and jest, Jokes I've known, But you present them, To others who shelter, Is my eye your vision, Or is security your target? And the...
    ymfas ymfas 26-30, M 12 hrs ago

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    Praying I can sleep some time soon. My head is pounding and my heart is racing.
    lizygurl lizygurl 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 3

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    and the tears just keep rolling. praying I don't make a dumb mistake. it's not good to make decisions when you're upset.
    lizygurl lizygurl 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 8

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    It's the worst. :( there's one specific instance I remember.. my brother joined a cult in Texas years ago and we hadn't heard from him in a long time. We didn't even know if he was...
    ShimmerSquirrels13 ShimmerSquirrels13 22-25, F Oct 12

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    Back in my teens I wore JNCO jeans. My favorite pair were called double barrel. I think the circumference of the legs were like 28" or something. Let's just say that they were...
    iamokaynow iamokaynow 31-35, M 1 Response Oct 14

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    Idk y I just did I'm sooooo sick of everything now. I'm sorry to everyone I hurt its nothing personal just business.
    Kelnea Kelnea 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm not happy or excited about anything in my life for over a year, but I'm trying to find a way to find myself again. Feeling like this just makes me want to be alone, away from...
    SirenaVonLee SirenaVonLee 36-40, F Sep 27

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    This is how I feel right know. "Only God Knows Why" I've been sittin here Tryin to find myself I get behind myself I need to rewind myself Lookin for the payback Listen for the...
    Fordfan93 Fordfan93 18-21, M 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    It all started at the beginning of May of my first year in college. Me and a friend from my dorm had a mutual friend who had posted links of the site “Ask.fm” on his Facebook...
    MattRogue MattRogue 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    All my life I have pushed myself to do things that are difficult and that scare me. On a daily basis I purposely put myself in situations that I do not like, that terrify me. Why...
    mattturcs mattturcs 26-30, M Oct 12

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    I always wake up the next day finding myself not wanting to see my mother, because everytime i see my mother and she sees me, the first few words that would come out from her mouth...
    TheWandAirs28 TheWandAirs28 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 30

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    A little frustrated here. I'm a designer and have been working side by side (literally) with a beautiful coworker of mine for 7 months now. She's a few years older than me and is...
    SoulChemistNOLA SoulChemistNOLA 26-30, M Sep 25

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    My boyfriend of over 14 months broke up with me exactly a week ago. Two days before our 11 month. Ive been struggling and he kissed my ex best friend to make me mad and prove he is...
    lonelygirl3011 lonelygirl3011 16-17, F 6 Responses Oct 8

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    He is screaming in my face. my whole face is wet from all the tears I'm crying, his breath makes me feel cold. I am trying to look away, I can not risk holding my head up and see...
    Theworldisminenow Theworldisminenow 18-21, F a week ago

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    My boyfriend is actually my ex-husband. We got divorced about five months ago, his choice, not mine, although the four-year marriage was stressful for both of us. About two...
    moonkitty3 moonkitty3 41-45, F Sep 23

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    So I was seeing my girlfriend for 3 and a half years, I'm now 20 we grew from kids to young adults together, in April 2014 we finally got a house together and it was great, I have...
    nathanunited94 nathanunited94 18-21, M 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    I used to be a very happy person. In the last 4 years I have lost so much of myself that I don't know if I can ever find me again. I married my second husband and thought we would...
    GrannyC4 GrannyC4 46-50, F 1 Response Sep 24

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    The great times are when you are five years old. No pressure on your shoulders, and you are mystified towards the world. So many things to learn! So much fun to have! Siblings are...
    SugarAndStrawberries SugarAndStrawberries 13-15 1 Response Oct 8

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    This morning I was thinking while I was sweeping (I do my best thinking when I'm sweeping or mopping, seriously). I was thinking about how I feel no different than I did when I...
    thescarletibis thescarletibis 41-45, F 4 Responses Oct 6

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