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I Have to Find Myself Again

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    Out Of My Tailspin

    Recently, I felt like I crashed and burned. I was drowning in a horrible mix of depression, debt and ****. I am rebuilding by finding better things to focus on to brighten my spirits, so the depression is disappearing and I am starting to avoid **** too.   The debt...
    baringmysoul baringmysoul 41-45, M Apr 18, 2010

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    How Can You Find Yourself When Your True Self Has Been Robbed Away From You?

    After almost 10 years of domestic violence, and 2 more years to realize I've been a victim of it and get my ex out of my life for good, I don't know who I am and what I like anymore. Like most narcissist perverts, my abuser has taken away all my talents, my intelligence, what...
    dormouse10 dormouse10 26-30, F Feb 11, 2012

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    Me And Only Me

      I didn't realize I had lost myself but I have this reawakening that is amazing and I am on a journey to find myself again. 
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 5 Responses Apr 18, 2010

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    Who I Used To Be... At Age 7

    i used to be that kid with the smile that could brighten a room. i used to care what other people felt. i used to feel the pain of an angery parents.i am now the kid that no one cares about. i am now the kid in the background. i am the kid whos dad wants him gone. i am the kid...
    rawrthekid rawrthekid 13-15 Jan 25, 2011

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    I've found myself once,

    it was so great but i slipped away. I'm having a hard time trying to find myself again it's so frustrating
    ssolitude ssolitude 16-17, F Feb 8

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    Finding Me

    Sitting here in the lost and found, Trying to make sense, Talking to myself out loud, A solo conference. Like a battle lost at sea, Swimming for dear life, A precious little apostrophe, A pause to cause still life. For now I know I have to grow, Which way is up to me, And how am...
    harleylover1970 harleylover1970 41-45, M 4 Responses Oct 20, 2012

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    Everyday Teen Problem With Guys

    You like a guy and you wish you could read there mind. Life would be so much easier if that's the was life really was. But that's not how it goes but I would do anything to just know how he really feels about me. But the best thing I ever did was have a senior talk to him and...
    Victoria19 Victoria19 16-17, F Apr 11, 2012

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    Him

    He looks at me then turns away. I just really hope he would stay. But instead you walk away. I'm so hurt but I don't let you see the pain built up in me. You don't know the way I feel and I should tell you but it's to real. Im scared of rejection or what you will say because idk...
    Victoria19 Victoria19 16-17, F Apr 16, 2012

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    How Do You Realize What's Changed About Yourself?

    My best friend says I've changed, and she wouldn't tell me how. I really don't know what I've changed about myself or what is different. As much as I try to think about myself and everything that I've gone through with her, I can't seem to figure it out. Is there really a way to...
    LionssDen LionssDen 18-21 Oct 23, 2012

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    Fade

    The faerie wonders how mortals could act nonchalant over things that matter to others.  Is it a case of insensitivity?  Or are they just unconcerned?  The indifference and apathy could be so overwhelming, the faerie wonders how the world continues to exist.  ...
    Sylphy Sylphy 41-45, F 15 Responses Jun 15, 2010

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    Looking Into Broken Mirror

    It was two years ago I jumped from my two-story apartment window and shattered my heel into several pieces. I used to practice yoga positions and be told that I could walk with a stack of books on top of my head, or that I was as graceful as a swan. Well after not walking for so...
    cinnamint cinnamint 31-35, F Oct 20, 2012

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    How To Deal With Competing With The Firestation

    I have been dating my boyfriend for almost a year and a half now and we have been having it rough lately. when we first started dating, he wanted to be an architect but didnt think it was too enjoyable. he then mentioned to me that he has always wanted to be a firefighter but...
    bfd130girl bfd130girl 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 26, 2012

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    The Cab

    I looked where there is light... na da.I looked at the Lost & Found... na da.I posted on walls and street posts.I used a megaphone.I hired investigators.In the end, I waited by the curb.Until a cab pulled up and asked where I'm headed.I said to the driver I have to find myself...
    RedDust RedDust 41-45, F Nov 15, 2012

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    Where To Start

    I spent nearly two years supporting my girlfriend and myself while struggling with anxiety and depression. I knew I should have stood up for myself, but putting myself first isn't something i know about. Until now. She left me soon as she had finacial support. So I quit the job...
    chrisa83 chrisa83 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 22, 2010

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    Related Experiences

    Seems to happen time and time again. I am inlove with the most wonderful man but the long distance makes it so hard. My mistake was to build my life around around our relationship...
    nicoleACA nicoleACA 22-25, F Sep 1

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    I want to start off by saying, I love this group name. It fits my situation perfectly. I used to be such a creative, artistic, expressive person. I had a 600+ page role-play going...
    rollingdoro rollingdoro 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I have tried really hard to stop cutting. Over the past couple years it has become somewhat of an addiction for me. Whenever I was upset, angry or just feeling anything I didn't...
    RubyTuesday413 RubyTuesday413 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 29

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    I have accepted myself, not in a way that I know myself therefore I should change everything to fit in the society and #yolo. No not that, but simply I have accepted that, me, who...
    anon152 anon152 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    I spent all summer depressed thinking I'm alone in this world my family seemed to grow farther apart from me I was starting my second year of college scared I would not have...
    kintobeans kintobeans 22-25, M 13 hrs ago

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    I'm trying to find my own version of happiness and a life that feels right for me. I have so many sides of me I'm trying to fit all together. I consider myself relatively traveled...
    ajrestless ajrestless 18-21, F Aug 28

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    Im just all over the place right now. I recently divorce And now im trying to find my happiness and figure out what will truely make me happy as far as moving to a new state and...
    alycia12 alycia12 26-30, F Sep 9

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    I'm finding it quite hard and I'm not sure why.
    yennafur yennafur 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    I first cut myself at the age of 16. Few times at age of 17. Then again when i was 20. And the latest was 3 months ago as 21. All to ease the pain in my heart. Trying to stay clean...
    Zim0 Zim0 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Partly by myself.. Havent done it active-active.. But active/passively or call it passively-active. I sort of have the belief, that when everyone is gone. Just by myself. Then I...
    mirkwood86 mirkwood86 26-30, M Aug 29

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    I am more than ecstatic to be able to give hope to all sufferers today by being able to truthfully tell you that I managed to rip myself out of bulimia completely in the time space...
    mel95 mel95 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 21

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    I normally use a pair of scissors I have about 6 scars in total all on my left arm no one mentions them I don't know if they know what they are or is they are afraid to mention...
    Gabriella20xx Gabriella20xx 16-17, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I have this fetish... I like to see women hanging by their neck and barefoot. I like also to hang myself by my neck and stay there for a while, and when I feel I´m like dizzy, I...
    PepeNador PepeNador 41-45, M 1 Response Aug 20

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    Once I was a strong girl, had great friends, my dream job and was just strong. A year later, I am recently dumped, I am in the midst of walking away from my job and I hate myself.
    JeLaWa JeLaWa 22-25 1 Response Aug 31

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    I can't stop thinking about sucking ****. I going to dream about it again tonight!!
    Harryharry123 Harryharry123 22-25, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    I cut to make the pain I have been through to go away
    shibabe1996 shibabe1996 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 3

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    i had a great childhood. everything went really well until year of 2008. in year 2008 i got sick i had a chronic gastritis and it ruined my life , my education. i failed A/L exam...
    daxshane daxshane 22-25, M Aug 18

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    If most of us remain ignorant of ourselves, it is because self-knowledge is painful and we prefer the pleasures of illusion.
    Brandnue Brandnue 31-35, F 3 Responses Aug 26

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    I rarely add men to my friends list....
    emeraldtriangle420 emeraldtriangle420 22-25, F 27 Responses 6 days ago

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    Live in Sussex (west and east(England) an im 13
    xperience2 xperience2 13-15, M Aug 19

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    I hate break ups I hate the fact that I feel lonely I hate that I'm sinking lower I hate having my heart broken I hate feeling like **** I hate that I feel like he doesn't care...
    RozzebellConta RozzebellConta 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 21

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    A few times..... A few years ago my best friend lost her mother; she was in such emotional pain that it affected me too.... I hate friends feeling hurt....it hurts me too...
    SarahTheHooker SarahTheHooker 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 22

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    I had to give my first pup away after my dad died and now that i'm old enough for responsibility (hahaha) i really want another dog
    cassieeeeeeeeee cassieeeeeeeeee 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 23

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    Last week I had dinner with a girl who has a lot of problems. Just like I do. I thought we might be able to keep each other company in this cruel world. We met yesterday and I...
    sammysadness sammysadness 36-40, M Sep 1

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    true story. it was so amazing!
    melina123 melina123 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 7

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    So i decided to cut my tummy instead of my arms and legs because my friend keeps seeing them I think im getting better, im starting to cut less
    Hellokitty1313 Hellokitty1313 13-15, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    August 31. Denial. I've been recovering many years. I've used denial many times. It has been a defense, a survival device, a coping behavior, and, at times, almost my undoing. It...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Aug 31

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    August 31. Denial. I've been recovering many years. I've used denial many times. It has been a defense, a survival device, a coping behavior, and, at times, almost my undoing. It...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Aug 31

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    Okay so last Friday I was at My boyfriend's house and we were in his room waiting for his parents to finish up dinner. his younger brother had his girlfriend over as well. Me and...
    maromis maromis 16-17, F 2 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    I have a deep long standing belief that says I deserve to be treated badly. Then I find myself allowing others to treat me badly or call me names. I go on like it didn't happen...
    poorwhitetrash poorwhitetrash 46-50, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    I'm tired of doing this! why can't i stop even though i really want to!!? i'm doing this to my self even though i don't want to do it! It all started when i was 14, i don't know...
    TheTurtleDove TheTurtleDove 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 25

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    I read something sad today from a friend who is now in a similar situation as i was this time last year and my heart goes out to her. As it was a time when i myself felt so very...
    lilreddress lilreddress 36-40, F 3 Responses Aug 31

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    I forget the days as the nights close in they all seem to run together now. For reasons unknown to me the medication agreement I have accepted Has placed me in a mellow zone, free...
    PoeticMute PoeticMute 31-35, M 4 days ago

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    So broken, I ask myself how it can ever be whole once again, so many pieces, fragments, broken, busted, wrecked. I have never experienced pain such as this, never knew this type of...
    michael1971 michael1971 41-45, M 1 Response Aug 21

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    It's been a rough few weeks, I've missed him more so this last while. I find myself wondering what exactly I am missing.. I miss how beautiful he made me feel, I miss how sexy...