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I Have to Find Myself Again

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 199 People

    How Can You Find Yourself When Your True Self Has Been Robbed Away From You?

    After almost 10 years of domestic violence, and 2 more years to realize I've been a victim of it and get my ex out of my life for good, I don't know who I am and what I like anymore. Like most narcissist perverts, my abuser has taken away all my talents, my intelligence, what...
    dormouse10 dormouse10 26-30, F Feb 11, 2012

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    Him

    He looks at me then turns away. I just really hope he would stay. But instead you walk away. I'm so hurt but I don't let you see the pain built up in me. You don't know the way I feel and I should tell you but it's to real. Im scared of rejection or what you will say because idk...
    Victoria19 Victoria19 16-17, F Apr 16, 2012

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    How Do You Realize What's Changed About Yourself?

    My best friend says I've changed, and she wouldn't tell me how. I really don't know what I've changed about myself or what is different. As much as I try to think about myself and everything that I've gone through with her, I can't seem to figure it out. Is there really a way to...
    LionssDen LionssDen 18-21 Oct 23, 2012

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    I've found myself once,

    it was so great but i slipped away. I'm having a hard time trying to find myself again it's so frustrating
    ssolitude ssolitude 16-17, F Feb 8

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    How To Deal With Competing With The Firestation

    I have been dating my boyfriend for almost a year and a half now and we have been having it rough lately. when we first started dating, he wanted to be an architect but didnt think it was too enjoyable. he then mentioned to me that he has always wanted to be a firefighter but...
    bfd130girl bfd130girl 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 26, 2012

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    The Cab

    I looked where there is light... na da.I looked at the Lost & Found... na da.I posted on walls and street posts.I used a megaphone.I hired investigators.In the end, I waited by the curb.Until a cab pulled up and asked where I'm headed.I said to the driver I have to find myself...
    RedDust RedDust 41-45, F Nov 15, 2012

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    Where To Start

    I spent nearly two years supporting my girlfriend and myself while struggling with anxiety and depression. I knew I should have stood up for myself, but putting myself first isn't something i know about. Until now. She left me soon as she had finacial support. So I quit the job...
    chrisa83 chrisa83 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 22, 2010

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    Fade

    The faerie wonders how mortals could act nonchalant over things that matter to others.  Is it a case of insensitivity?  Or are they just unconcerned?  The indifference and apathy could be so overwhelming, the faerie wonders how the world continues to exist.  ...
    Sylphy Sylphy 41-45, F 15 Responses Jun 15, 2010

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    Finding Me

    Sitting here in the lost and found, Trying to make sense, Talking to myself out loud, A solo conference. Like a battle lost at sea, Swimming for dear life, A precious little apostrophe, A pause to cause still life. For now I know I have to grow, Which way is up to me, And how am...
    harleylover1970 harleylover1970 41-45, M 4 Responses Oct 20, 2012

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    Me And Only Me

      I didn't realize I had lost myself but I have this reawakening that is amazing and I am on a journey to find myself again. 
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 5 Responses Apr 18, 2010

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    Out Of My Tailspin

    Recently, I felt like I crashed and burned. I was drowning in a horrible mix of depression, debt and ****. I am rebuilding by finding better things to focus on to brighten my spirits, so the depression is disappearing and I am starting to avoid **** too.   The debt...
    baringmysoul baringmysoul 41-45, M Apr 18, 2010

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    Looking Into Broken Mirror

    It was two years ago I jumped from my two-story apartment window and shattered my heel into several pieces. I used to practice yoga positions and be told that I could walk with a stack of books on top of my head, or that I was as graceful as a swan. Well after not walking for so...
    cinnamint cinnamint 31-35, F Oct 20, 2012

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    Everyday Teen Problem With Guys

    You like a guy and you wish you could read there mind. Life would be so much easier if that's the was life really was. But that's not how it goes but I would do anything to just know how he really feels about me. But the best thing I ever did was have a senior talk to him and...
    Victoria19 Victoria19 16-17, F Apr 11, 2012

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    Who I Used To Be... At Age 7

    i used to be that kid with the smile that could brighten a room. i used to care what other people felt. i used to feel the pain of an angery parents.i am now the kid that no one cares about. i am now the kid in the background. i am the kid whos dad wants him gone. i am the kid...
    rawrthekid rawrthekid 13-15 Jan 25, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    Seems to happen time and time again. I am inlove with the most wonderful man but the long distance makes it so hard. My mistake was to build my life around around our relationship...
    nicoleACA nicoleACA 22-25, F Sep 1

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    I want to start off by saying, I love this group name. It fits my situation perfectly. I used to be such a creative, artistic, expressive person. I had a 600+ page role-play going...
    rollingdoro rollingdoro 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 16

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    i don't know who i am anymore..i've changed so much that i lost myself in this life. i'm not depressed, i'm not unhappy. i'm...just lost. and i fear i won't be able to find myself...
    FishWhoLearnedToFly FishWhoLearnedToFly 22-25, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Im just all over the place right now. I recently divorce And now im trying to find my happiness and figure out what will truely make me happy as far as moving to a new state and...
    alycia12 alycia12 26-30, F Sep 9

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    I'm finding it quite hard and I'm not sure why.
    yennafur yennafur 22-25, F Sep 14

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    which results in me hating myself even more.
    ohwritteninthestars ohwritteninthestars 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 22

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    I never like the "found myself" thing. You already are you how does one find what they ready are? Are we trying to rip the space time continuum
    ValhallaAwaits ValhallaAwaits 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 20

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    I first cut myself at the age of 16. Few times at age of 17. Then again when i was 20. And the latest was 3 months ago as 21. All to ease the pain in my heart. Trying to stay clean...
    Zim0 Zim0 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 16

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    I spent all summer depressed thinking I'm alone in this world my family seemed to grow farther apart from me I was starting my second year of college scared I would not have...
    kintobeans kintobeans 22-25, M Sep 17

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    I have been on a search for who I am for quite awhile now. Every time I think I am getting closer, everything implodes. Work doesn't help anything, and neither does going out...
    LilBoyBluu LilBoyBluu 22-25, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I normally use a pair of scissors I have about 6 scars in total all on my left arm no one mentions them I don't know if they know what they are or is they are afraid to mention...
    Gabriella20xx Gabriella20xx 13-15, F 3 Responses Sep 11

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    I feel I can do the best. I know that. I know I am capable of doing a lot of stuff. But at some point I lose my control of myself with silly action that postpone any real success...
    peterrizk peterrizk 22-25, M 1 Response Sep 20

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    I can't stop thinking about sucking ****. I going to dream about it again tonight!!
    Harryharry123 Harryharry123 22-25, M 4 Responses Sep 10

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    Sometimes I found myself. But I always afraid of what people can think of me. You can say fear of prestige or fear of anything. To be yourself, it's challenge.
    peterrizk peterrizk 22-25, M 1 Response Sep 19

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    Yeah but sadly I didn't do it quick enough. I don't know what those injections are called, the ones you can get now if you'd like to kill yourself. Anyone know what they're called...
    WintersSoldier2 WintersSoldier2 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I cut to make the pain I have been through to go away
    shibabe1996 shibabe1996 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 3

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    I really have lately, a lot of it is thanks to this app, I used to be a very bitter and angry person, not at anything in particular just everything. Things weren't so bad in high...
    steelers7fan steelers7fan 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    I rarely add men to my friends list....
    emeraldtriangle420 emeraldtriangle420 22-25, F 28 Responses Sep 11

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    I'm starting to be more attracted to girls 😮. Females can turn me on now. Gosh, I'm gay.
    jeaaane jeaaane 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 20

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    Last week I had dinner with a girl who has a lot of problems. Just like I do. I thought we might be able to keep each other company in this cruel world. We met yesterday and I...
    sammysadness sammysadness 36-40, M Sep 1

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    true story. it was so amazing!
    melina123 melina123 22-25, F 4 Responses Sep 7

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    So i decided to cut my tummy instead of my arms and legs because my friend keeps seeing them I think im getting better, im starting to cut less
    Hellokitty1313 Hellokitty1313 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 10

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    It did save me, years ago. I'd die without it
    HisDaysAreNumbered HisDaysAreNumbered 18-21, M Sep 18

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    Music has saved my life on multiple occasions
    JalenFrankie616 JalenFrankie616 13-15, F Sep 19

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    yeah i slipped with a knife dozens of times when i do stuff outside
    chuckzares chuckzares 26-30, M Sep 19

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    I'm not happy or excited about anything in my life for over a year, but I'm trying to find a way to find myself again. Feeling like this just makes me want to be alone, away from...
    SirenaVonLee SirenaVonLee 36-40, F 3 days ago

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    I hate my life, I am almost 30 and haven't had a job in over 10 years, live alone, have 0 friends for 10 years now, almost never leave my house, high anxiety, major depression...
    Asadfellow Asadfellow 26-30, M 1 Response 46 mins ago

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    I forget the days as the nights close in they all seem to run together now. For reasons unknown to me the medication agreement I have accepted Has placed me in a mellow zone, free...
    PoeticMute PoeticMute 31-35, M Sep 13

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    Looming thought's yet to be processed have me considering ideas that shouldn't Why do these happen I don't know, my understanding is just that from where I sit I dwell On the...
    PoeticMute PoeticMute 31-35, M Sep 18

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    I always wake up the next day finding myself not wanting to see my mother, because everytime i see my mother and she sees me, the first few words that would come out from her mouth...
    TheWandAirs28 TheWandAirs28 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    But really, how much would you charge if you'd been drawing artwork, with at least 18+ years of experience? If you had the skill to draw portraits, cartoon characters, book and...
    ArtofSunrise ArtofSunrise 22-25 2 Responses Sep 11

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    A little frustrated here. I'm a designer and have been working side by side (literally) with a beautiful coworker of mine for 7 months now. She's a few years older than me and is...
    SoulChemistNOLA SoulChemistNOLA 26-30, M 5 days ago

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    I don't know how I did it but I somehow managed to not write any stories over the summer. It was hard to fight the urge because I'm a bit of writer and when ideas come I just want...
    Dreamer32 Dreamer32 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 2

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    I have hated myself from a very young age. Although my parents never beat me black and blue or locked me in a closet, they played a big role in making me feel completely indequate...
    ridersofrohan ridersofrohan 18-21 1 Response Sep 3

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