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I Have to Find Myself Again

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 186 People

    How Do You Realize What's Changed About Yourself?

    My best friend says I've changed, and she wouldn't tell me how. I really don't know what I've changed about myself or what is different. As much as I try to think about myself and everything that I've gone through with her, I can't seem to figure it out. Is there really a way to...
    LionssDen LionssDen 18-21 Oct 23, 2012

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    How Can You Find Yourself When Your True Self Has Been Robbed Away From You?

    After almost 10 years of domestic violence, and 2 more years to realize I've been a victim of it and get my ex out of my life for good, I don't know who I am and what I like anymore. Like most narcissist perverts, my abuser has taken away all my talents, my intelligence, what...
    dormouse10 dormouse10 26-30, F Feb 11, 2012

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    Who I Used To Be... At Age 7

    i used to be that kid with the smile that could brighten a room. i used to care what other people felt. i used to feel the pain of an angery parents.i am now the kid that no one cares about. i am now the kid in the background. i am the kid whos dad wants him gone. i am the kid...
    rawrthekid rawrthekid 13-15 Jan 25, 2011

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    Me And Only Me

      I didn't realize I had lost myself but I have this reawakening that is amazing and I am on a journey to find myself again. 
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 5 Responses Apr 18, 2010

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    I've found myself once,

    it was so great but i slipped away. I'm having a hard time trying to find myself again it's so frustrating
    ssolitude ssolitude 16-17, F Feb 8, 2014

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    Fade

    The faerie wonders how mortals could act nonchalant over things that matter to others.  Is it a case of insensitivity?  Or are they just unconcerned?  The indifference and apathy could be so overwhelming, the faerie wonders how the world continues to exist.  ...
    Sylphy Sylphy 41-45, F 13 Responses Jun 15, 2010

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    How To Deal With Competing With The Firestation

    I have been dating my boyfriend for almost a year and a half now and we have been having it rough lately. when we first started dating, he wanted to be an architect but didnt think it was too enjoyable. he then mentioned to me that he has always wanted to be a firefighter but...
    bfd130girl bfd130girl 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 26, 2012

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    Everyday Teen Problem With Guys

    You like a guy and you wish you could read there mind. Life would be so much easier if that's the was life really was. But that's not how it goes but I would do anything to just know how he really feels about me. But the best thing I ever did was have a senior talk to him and...
    Victoria19 Victoria19 16-17, F Apr 11, 2012

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    Where To Start

    I spent nearly two years supporting my girlfriend and myself while struggling with anxiety and depression. I knew I should have stood up for myself, but putting myself first isn't something i know about. Until now. She left me soon as she had finacial support. So I quit the job...
    chrisa83 chrisa83 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 22, 2010

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    Finding Me

    Sitting here in the lost and found, Trying to make sense, Talking to myself out loud, A solo conference. Like a battle lost at sea, Swimming for dear life, A precious little apostrophe, A pause to cause still life. For now I know I have to grow, Which way is up to me, And how am...
    harleylover1970 harleylover1970 41-45, M 4 Responses Oct 20, 2012

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    The Cab

    I looked where there is light... na da.I looked at the Lost & Found... na da.I posted on walls and street posts.I used a megaphone.I hired investigators.In the end, I waited by the curb.Until a cab pulled up and asked where I'm headed.I said to the driver I have to find myself...
    RedDust RedDust 41-45, F Nov 15, 2012

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    Looking Into Broken Mirror

    It was two years ago I jumped from my two-story apartment window and shattered my heel into several pieces. I used to practice yoga positions and be told that I could walk with a stack of books on top of my head, or that I was as graceful as a swan. Well after not walking for so...
    cinnamint cinnamint 31-35, F Oct 20, 2012

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    Him

    He looks at me then turns away. I just really hope he would stay. But instead you walk away. I'm so hurt but I don't let you see the pain built up in me. You don't know the way I feel and I should tell you but it's to real. Im scared of rejection or what you will say because idk...
    Victoria19 Victoria19 16-17, F Apr 16, 2012

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    Out Of My Tailspin

    Recently, I felt like I crashed and burned. I was drowning in a horrible mix of depression, debt and ****. I am rebuilding by finding better things to focus on to brighten my spirits, so the depression is disappearing and I am starting to avoid **** too.   The debt...
    baringmysoul baringmysoul 41-45, M Apr 18, 2010

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    I'm learning to be myself again. It'll take a lot of patience...Lord knows I need that, but it will be a beautiful journey.
    GeniseGreen GeniseGreen 18-21, F 4 hrs ago

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    i am determined not to cave in on this one. We are working on my separation anxiety that i have as a result of His predecessor (he would give me longer term instructions and...
    LoneSouls LoneSouls 31-35, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    I used to write... Or at least thats what i call it for lack of better phrasing. When chat rooms were still in their prime i would find myself wandering through, just to stumble...
    littleporcelaindoll littleporcelaindoll 31-35, F 3 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    I started taking medication for my depression about 8 years ago, though I suffered from it for at least 10 years prior to that. I would try a medicine, slowly have it upped and...
    Ikid Ikid 22-25 1 Response 20 hrs ago

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    Hi there. My name is Bulim-- wait nope. My name is Larkin and I was diagnosed with Bulimia halfway through my sophomore year of high school. I bet you're wondering about the second...
    larkrobb larkrobb 18-21, F 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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    ...simply stated. i find myself worrying so much about the smallest things. the bible says to do this and it's for our own good. i pray that Jesus will give me the strength and...
    cosmosdrift cosmosdrift 31-35, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Hey everyone. I'm new to this group. Hoping to get a little support and more insight about having narcissistic parents. I grew up in a big family (6 siblings, mom and dad) it's...
    PainfullyAvoidant PainfullyAvoidant 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I feel like I lost who I am, but I can't figure out where. I need to find myself, I'm tired of being emotionless and watching everyone around me succeed and live their life. I feel...
    DaisyKaine DaisyKaine 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    i used to appreciate what i liked and enjoyed and respected myself. now...i need that again.
    cosmosdrift cosmosdrift 31-35, F 2 days ago

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    Feeling Fleeting To my embarrassment, it was only recently that I discovered depersonalization-derealization is classified as its own disorder. I've spent many years falling into...
    SourPennies SourPennies 22-25, F 2 days ago

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    it's official...I need to leave my house. my parents rely on me too much and my brother does nothing to help us. I have so many responsibilities with my school work. I'm a 4.0...
    marckengenie1 marckengenie1 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I might be wrong about what I believe today, 10 years from now. My ideas and conclusions might differ or develop from what is, today. But today, I'll decide on the basis of...
    kasiyat kasiyat 26-30, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    Shaved my boy hole for my first time coming soon 😉😉
    houseofcards39 houseofcards39 18-21, M 4 days ago

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    Wondering why we crave approval, love, acceptance and appreciation from others when we can generate all of these within... Soliciting answers... (Why I didn't post it as a...
    kasiyat kasiyat 26-30, F 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    It seems so simple, self-explanatory, and obvious, doesn't it? Loving oneself sounds like something that should come totally naturally. I have found that mindfulness helps me stay...
    rebekahanastasia rebekahanastasia 18-21, F 6 Responses 6 days ago

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    I just went through a bad breakup. He physically and verbally abused me during the relationship. Yet, I still love him so much and I want the best for him. I know I'm not ready yet...
    MonicaGeller13 MonicaGeller13 18-21, F 7 Responses 6 days ago

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    Sitting here at work with the door shut and a raging hard-on. Reading EP stories and watching some **** on my cell phone. Been fondling my balls and stroking my shaft. If I don't...
    ivegot5onit ivegot5onit 31-35, M 1 Response a week ago

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    Please bear with me as this may be a long post. I started having severe anxiety issues during my first marriage . My ex thought I was cheating on him every time I left the...
    Elizabeth08021976 Elizabeth08021976 36-40, F 1 Response Jan 28

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    My dad and I just talked for 20 minutes. I love my dad. He is a great guy who loves his family. My mom died of lung cancer six years ago. He remarried about six months after...
    Doomflower Doomflower 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 27

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    yet again another restless night. its 1 am and I find myself lying here body physically drained but my brain is still going a million miles an hour. but whats new, this is an every...
    MasterKush25 MasterKush25 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 27

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    I've been holding and drinking juice all day.. almost to the breaking point. For last hour thinking about it, at work, whether I was going to go in a bottle in the break area and...
    3penthesilea 3penthesilea 46-50, F 9 Responses Jan 26

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    I seems to get triggered easily.wonder why
    Bryanisflyinglol Bryanisflyinglol 16-17, M Jan 25

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    In my opinion my arms look better with cuts on them
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 25

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    I've realized that I am, in fact, afraid. I used to try to convince myself that nothing could or should scare me: Spiders, heights, deep waters, even death. These things might be...
    TigerAtHeart TigerAtHeart 22-25, F Jan 25

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    The way our cubes were setup at work we had tall walls and I had a wall to my back and only one cube in front me. I have pulled it out on many occasions at my desk. I've...
    justallofme justallofme 31-35, M 2 Responses Jan 24

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    I remember the wind was so strong , I struggled to push myself against it . The urge to end this was stronger. I kept moving across the icy shoreline , my feet sinking into frozen...
    Angelofthesilence Angelofthesilence 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 24

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    I am tale that is untold I am a plot that has yet to unfold But my new chapter starts today I'll figure what to do and what to say This is my story and I'm gonna see it through...
    EternalLuckyGuy EternalLuckyGuy 13-15, M Jan 23

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    I should could use a Bud Light right now!