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I Have to Find Myself Again

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 189 People

    Out Of My Tailspin

    Recently, I felt like I crashed and burned. I was drowning in a horrible mix of depression, debt and ****. I am rebuilding by finding better things to focus on to brighten my spirits, so the depression is disappearing and I am starting to avoid **** too.   The debt...
    baringmysoul baringmysoul 41-45, M Apr 18, 2010

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    Me And Only Me

      I didn't realize I had lost myself but I have this reawakening that is amazing and I am on a journey to find myself again. 
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 5 Responses Apr 18, 2010

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    I've found myself once,

    it was so great but i slipped away. I'm having a hard time trying to find myself again it's so frustrating
    ssolitude ssolitude 16-17, F Feb 8, 2014

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    Fade

    The faerie wonders how mortals could act nonchalant over things that matter to others.  Is it a case of insensitivity?  Or are they just unconcerned?  The indifference and apathy could be so overwhelming, the faerie wonders how the world continues to exist.  ...
    Sylphy Sylphy 41-45, F 13 Responses Jun 15, 2010

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    Finding Me

    Sitting here in the lost and found, Trying to make sense, Talking to myself out loud, A solo conference. Like a battle lost at sea, Swimming for dear life, A precious little apostrophe, A pause to cause still life. For now I know I have to grow, Which way is up to me, And how am...
    harleylover1970 harleylover1970 41-45, M 4 Responses Oct 20, 2012

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    Who I Used To Be... At Age 7

    i used to be that kid with the smile that could brighten a room. i used to care what other people felt. i used to feel the pain of an angery parents.i am now the kid that no one cares about. i am now the kid in the background. i am the kid whos dad wants him gone. i am the kid...
    rawrthekid rawrthekid 13-15 Jan 25, 2011

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    How Can You Find Yourself When Your True Self Has Been Robbed Away From You?

    After almost 10 years of domestic violence, and 2 more years to realize I've been a victim of it and get my ex out of my life for good, I don't know who I am and what I like anymore. Like most narcissist perverts, my abuser has taken away all my talents, my intelligence, what...
    dormouse10 dormouse10 26-30, F Feb 11, 2012

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    How To Deal With Competing With The Firestation

    I have been dating my boyfriend for almost a year and a half now and we have been having it rough lately. when we first started dating, he wanted to be an architect but didnt think it was too enjoyable. he then mentioned to me that he has always wanted to be a firefighter but...
    bfd130girl bfd130girl 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 26, 2012

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    Looking Into Broken Mirror

    It was two years ago I jumped from my two-story apartment window and shattered my heel into several pieces. I used to practice yoga positions and be told that I could walk with a stack of books on top of my head, or that I was as graceful as a swan. Well after not walking for so...
    cinnamint cinnamint 31-35, F Oct 20, 2012

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    The Cab

    I looked where there is light... na da.I looked at the Lost & Found... na da.I posted on walls and street posts.I used a megaphone.I hired investigators.In the end, I waited by the curb.Until a cab pulled up and asked where I'm headed.I said to the driver I have to find myself...
    RedDust RedDust 41-45, F Nov 15, 2012

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    Where To Start

    I spent nearly two years supporting my girlfriend and myself while struggling with anxiety and depression. I knew I should have stood up for myself, but putting myself first isn't something i know about. Until now. She left me soon as she had finacial support. So I quit the job...
    chrisa83 chrisa83 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 22, 2010

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    Everyday Teen Problem With Guys

    You like a guy and you wish you could read there mind. Life would be so much easier if that's the was life really was. But that's not how it goes but I would do anything to just know how he really feels about me. But the best thing I ever did was have a senior talk to him and...
    Victoria19 Victoria19 16-17, F Apr 11, 2012

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    How Do You Realize What's Changed About Yourself?

    My best friend says I've changed, and she wouldn't tell me how. I really don't know what I've changed about myself or what is different. As much as I try to think about myself and everything that I've gone through with her, I can't seem to figure it out. Is there really a way to...
    LionssDen LionssDen 18-21 Oct 23, 2012

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    Him

    He looks at me then turns away. I just really hope he would stay. But instead you walk away. I'm so hurt but I don't let you see the pain built up in me. You don't know the way I feel and I should tell you but it's to real. Im scared of rejection or what you will say because idk...
    Victoria19 Victoria19 16-17, F Apr 16, 2012

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    Yeah, so... I'm too ugly to be loved... I don't go anywhere and sometimes I'm afraid to because I fear rejection... I felt like if I ever lost weight, I know I'd be in check, so...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F 4 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    So here goes a long story. I'm a 20 year old guy (about to turn 21 in December). I have always gone through life being incredibly self-consious and lacking in confidence/self...
    Shah190 Shah190 22-25 4 hrs ago

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    I'll probably have to get used to it. I have me, myself and I. YAY(!)
    usernameinneed usernameinneed 26-30, M 2 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    I use to cut and quite often at that, but then this amazing and wonderful person came into my life (now my girlfriend) and helped me stop cutting because it's 100% not the answer...
    xxSatansDemonxx xxSatansDemonxx 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    I always blame it on the cat and everyone always believes me
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I have been married for four years, we have been together for 6. We initially met when I was separated from my ex-husband, which was a very abusive unhealthy marriage. When my...
    Notintomyelf Notintomyelf 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    This is going to sound crazy and at the same time, this will still be nothing special. But that's who I am, I am average and sentimental, at the same time I am unique and a total...
    AmoraTheGreat AmoraTheGreat 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    .. And it was like everything i did was falling apart.Everything i had was fleeting and everybody i loved ..they were losing trust on me.I couldn't find myself anywhere in their...
    anupamasatyarthi anupamasatyarthi 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I find myself to be absolutely repulsive. Every person I've come across has rejected me or turned me away (except for one) because I'm too negative. I can't help it if I have this...
    JSylvia1015 JSylvia1015 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    I married young... I loved being married, but being single for the last year has really made me examine who I am as an individual. I realize that as independent as my husband and...
    Dahlia2020 Dahlia2020 31-35, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    emotional clearing is a gateway to the next level of development on the individual basis it seems. since yesterday; being emotionally triggered revealed many things perhaps i was...
    Solongotgon Solongotgon 26-30, F 5 days ago

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    Just last night until 2 am. I need to find a job.
    crispyFlakes crispyFlakes 41-45, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Dear all of you - I have decided to write all your letters today in combination of just one. So here it is... Dear America - I have found myself questioning the legality in...
    sambiggie sambiggie 36-40, M 6 days ago

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    I don't want I be gay. However, my feelings insist on me being gay. A gay **** pop-up appeared one time when I was watching a show on an apparently unprotected website, and it...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I lost my grandma on my dad's side in 1993, lost my dad in 2005, then lost my mom 2008. Since losing the 3 people I was closest to growing up, I lost myself and am having a hard...
    Firefly8380 Firefly8380 31-35, F a week ago

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    I swear I really don't know who I am. It is really messed up. I don't know what makes up me anymore. Can a person go through life and enjoy it not knowing who they are because...
    jenjef jenjef 36-40, F 1 Response a week ago

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    One thing i love is when a guy finishes in my a**hole
    sexymanx sexymanx 18-21, M 3 Responses Jul 21

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    it was a period in my life that I'm so glad is over and has made me such a strong person. at the time, i couldn't see a way out and you don't think there is one. i was so consumed...
    mxtxc mxtxc 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 19

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    For all those people who are cutting at the moment please stop I'm saying this because I care about all of you I know what it's like to feel like it's the only thing that can make...
    Naniebananie Naniebananie 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 19

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    I have really bad insomnia. I just can't sleep it's abnormal like I'm not suppose to sleep. It's so bad I feel tired but my body doesn't want to sleep and I find myself up for over...
    Shilfer Shilfer 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 18

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    I have, until this time, resisted the urge to post a comment that sounds like I am doing so solely to generate sympathy. Not that I have anything against anyone that reaches out in...
    Heartofgold4one Heartofgold4one 46-50, F 1 Response Jul 17

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    Suffering with chronic depression and anxiety I have found that I have become quite reclusive. I see a friend once or twice a week, but apart from that I stay at home by myself. I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 17

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    Isn't everyone? I guess to answer this question, you have to know what you're definition of happiness is. For me, I'm not talking about watching a clip and getting a chuckle...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Jul 15

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    I've kept to myself most of the time. I told myself whatever I'm going through is minor. I'll get over it in a week or so. But weeks turned to months. Months turned to years. I...
    SinSpitter SinSpitter 18-21, M Jul 15

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    iv grown bitter,maybe i should retrace my steps find myself all over again
    miimii0069 miimii0069 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 15

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    I am writing this is the hope it may help someone else. I completely forgot I had this account until I received an email which led to me to my first and only post back in 2013...
    rose24785 rose24785 22-25, F Jul 15

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    Sitting here, wondering how l got here...not literally, but emotionally. I thought if l write about it, maybe it would help put my thoughts and emotions in order. It's not one...
    MistyGoddess MistyGoddess 41-45, F 15 Responses Jul 13

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    I've never fully had self confidence. I've always hated how I looked. I've gotten compliments anywhere from 'gorgeous,beautiful,cute,pretty,hot,sexy... Etc.' and every time I get a...
    Aflame22 Aflame22 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 12