I Have to Keep a Wall Up

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    My Wall Is Made Of Titanium

    I have a wall, built by being taken advantage of, used, tossed aside, mentally abused, tormented, judged, humiliated, crushed, unappreciated. I am a good person inside. I know I am. But I can't let anyone hurt me because I have been hurt too much. And the minute I start to let...
    GalileosFinger GalileosFinger
    31-35, F
    1 Response Oct 17, 2012

    I Block It All Out Though I Want It In So Bad.......

    There are very few people who are inside my "wall". The only reason they are there is because I knew them forever and they were there before I put a wall up. I've let a few people inside and it always ended bad. All I wanted was love and I'd let a guy in just to be used...
    PixiiHead PixiiHead
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Aug 16, 2009

    Its a lose lose situation with me,

    either i open the door & let people in which eventually hurt me by rubbing personal things that i told them in my face they always use it against you & each time i let a person in & build trust just for them to turn around & hurt me it kills me more & more each time & if i dont...
    TheWorldVsJ TheWorldVsJ
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jan 12, 2014

    The Irony Of It All

    It wasnt like one i decided that i wanted to block everyone out and build this massive indestructable wall around me. Out of all honesty, it was a lot more subtle than that. From the moment i realized what abondonment was and the fact that someone who helped to create you, could...
    sexandcandy25 sexandcandy25
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 16, 2010

    To Everyone

    To all thethings I want   This is what I wish for the most   To have one person   Who I can take the wall down with   That is open   And will experience it with me   Today I do not take this down   And I...
    MizzBlue72 MizzBlue72
    36-40, F
    8 Responses May 3, 2009

    I'm Doing It Again!!!!

    Theres this really nice guy I've been talking to and I hung out with him and friends and he's really nice and now.......................I'm trying to find reasons to not like him and find ways to not talk to him. Whats wrong with me? I do this all the time to guyss. Can anyone...
    PixiiHead PixiiHead
    18-21, F
    Aug 20, 2009

    I'm Building One Right Now...

    I'm building my wall right now, wether I like it or not. It's funny too, because I'm a fan of Pink Floyd. What started the construction? First, I'm an alcoholic and drug addict. I was in recovery and wasn't using drugs or drinking. I was sober for almost three years. My family...
    jaycm610 jaycm610
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Feb 25, 2010

    I Enjoy The Company Of Animals More Than I Do People

    I learned at very young age that I preferred taking care of my horse, spending time riding and showing my horse, rather than hanging around people.  I've always had a lot of friends - sincere friends. I still have friends from when I was 7-12 years old.  I would say I...
    LAN1921 LAN1921
    51-55, F
    Apr 13, 2010

    So Far

    In middle school I had the best of friends and I always confided to them but we all drifted apart, buy the 8th grade I had one friend then none. I got depressed and I put this wall up and kept it up so nothing else could hurt me after i was already hurt so many times. In the 9th...
    theshortloud1 theshortloud1
    18-21, F
    Aug 12, 2009

    Bring On The Storm

    My walls are rated for hurricane strength winds.  Everyone is kept at a distance and it's just the way I like it.  Occasionally, however, someone slips past them.
    SpiritualFighter SpiritualFighter
    26-30, M
    Feb 25, 2010

    I Built A Wall When I Was Young..

    I built a wall when I was young.. I layered on bricks one by one.. until I could no longer be reached by anyone.. I built this wall to protect myself.. I can't let myself be hurt much more.. I am ripping at the seams.. I built this wall to hide.. If I let just anyone in.. It...
    Beautifulimperfections Beautifulimperfections
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 7, 2012

    If It's Up, Your Out

    If I can keep this suffocating wall up you can never hurt me. If its up and you can't say mean things, or laugh at my dreams. If I keep my wall up you will never get the chance to hurt me. How can I go wrong there. If I keep my wall up than nobody can break me down again. Sure...
    ForgottenFuture ForgottenFuture
    18-21, F
    Jul 15, 2011

    however in 2015 as a new years resolution i

    decided to try and let ppl in. Now im bitter and angry because most of them have used my vulnerability against me, especially the ones who tried very hard to get me to let down my guard. I don't open up often and I may never again. It's 2016, my new year resolution is to trust...
    LadyGhost27 LadyGhost27
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jan 14

    Everytime People Get Close..

    every time I have let someone get close to me, every time I have gotten close to someone else I've been hurt or abandoned... they have either left me or abused me... sometimes I think I have "HURT ME" tatooed onto my forehead...   and so now I keep...
    shadowlight shadowlight
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 8, 2009


           My brother use to hang out with a boy in high school whom was also friends of my family and he recently returned back to town, so I offered him my friendship when he asked for it. He immediately fell in love with me and I told him that I...
    Neutrino38 Neutrino38
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Nov 8, 2009

    They're Pretty

    I decorate my walls. I used to consider the inside of my head the most comfrotable place in the world until I started getting cabin fever. I left and regretted it and now am on the outside of my own walls and can't remember whats behind them. I'm scared to find out now-a-days.
    senmetsu senmetsu
    22-25, M
    Oct 29, 2009

    If I Let No One In I Cant Get Hurt

    every time i begin to trust somebody, and give them my all they crush me, they scar me for life. i figure if i leave my guard up, and let no one in then i cant get hurt. This year i am going to a new school, and everyones trying to figure me out, but they cant because i dont tell...
    sarahbabydoll sarahbabydoll
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Sep 28, 2010

    I'm a B**** to Hide How Vulenerable I Am

    I hate how I'm so mean to people who don't deserve it but I can't help. I'm afraid that someone might just see past me and see what I truly I am. But I beg for someone to notice. For someone to help me............I'm afraid to ask for help and I so desperatly need it. I don't...
    PixiiHead PixiiHead
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Sep 8, 2009
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