I Have Tried To Commit Sucide

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    After my bf called the ambulance,

    (i felt pain in my stomach and i was a little dizzy). I was not admitted to a hospital...they didn't seem to care they told me to sleep off the pills...i feel embarrassed i feel like since I'm a black woman in Alabama it didn't matter..maybe if I was a cute white girl they would...
    shawnbone1 shawnbone1
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 19, 2016

    -Trigger warning- I've been depressed a

    long time. I have attempted suicide several times but stopped myself last minute. I was going to drown myself it was in the shower and I laid down and started letting water full my mouth and lungs, everything started going dark around me and I started to fade out. But something...
    Thelostsoulslasthope Thelostsoulslasthope
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jan 23, 2016

    "People who die from suicide don't want to end

    their life, they want to end their pain"
    NikkiCOCO NikkiCOCO
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 30, 2015

    Ok ... So I just saw this person post an

    experience about them being in the hospital because they tried to commit suicide . How stupid can our society be ? 😒 To Be Honest with all of you , I've tried to commit suicide once ... But guess what ? I don't post anything of that on the Internet or any social media...
    CalmYourShit CalmYourShit
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Dec 26, 2014

    I've not really been suicidal in many years,

    but for a while, late 2007 to mid 2009, I tried every six weeks or so to end my life. I had really bad flashbacks due to waking up during surgery, and I didn't see how I could live like that anymore. Then I met another person who'd woken up during surgery, and she made me make a...
    PeanutsauntieP1982 PeanutsauntieP1982
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Dec 24, 2015

    I tried to go with bleeding to death

    but I couldn't get up the nerve to cut deep enough I'm glad I didn't I have special people in my life now
    JClove33 JClove33
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jan 29, 2016

    Today is a new day. I know that.

    Yesterday it was awfull. I tried to kill myself after one year. I'm just feeling like crap at home. My mother keeps yell at me. She is the only person who makes me sad and angry. So yes. I took too many pills. I feel so weird. I couldn't sleep this night. My stomack hurts. And...
    gajchy97 gajchy97
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 29, 2015

    I tried it and it failed,

    obviously. I had tied a jacket around a fan and was starting to suffocate when the knot came undone and I fell to the floor. The next day, I told someone and went to a mental hospital. I was put on new meds, received therapy, and you know what? It really helped. I feel better...
    LordNexus78 LordNexus78
    16-17, M
    2 Responses Aug 1, 2015

    I'm SO glad I didn't succed!

    I feel for the ones who did and for their family/friends. I tried to overdose once.. then I tried to cut my wrists, but I wasn't brave enough (thankfully). those were during my teen ages, nowadays I want to live as much as possible!
    Mountainbird Mountainbird
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Nov 14, 2015

    my experience in the past cause me to feel

    depressed. back in my highskul days i was a victim of bullying the whole yr was rily an awful experience for me. from then i begun to start feeling of sad.. iam not that extrovert type before but i do have frens around.. i grew up in conservative family.. my father was never...
    bokading bokading
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jan 23, 2016

    I have tried a few times,

    and I thought about it not too long ago, but I'm still here and I don't think I could actually do it.
    RandomExistence RandomExistence
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Oct 21, 2015

    I have been through a lot in my life.

    I have tried over and over to commit suicide. I would've died at age 16 if I hadn't called for help. I guess what I am trying to say is think before you act, because it may save your life. I am thankful that I called for help that day, because even though I still have lessons to...
    sicksheep sicksheep
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 18, 2016

    I took 6small cups of nite time.

    .don't do this you vomit and have diarrhea. Not regular the one that burns your ***. And you get really drowsy. I still feel burning in my upper chest. I'm not happy I'm still here...I'm disappointed
    shawnbone1 shawnbone1
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 18, 2016

    When I was 15 years old

    and a freshman in High School I absolutely hated my life. Everything just wasn't going right for me. My family just didn't understand what I was going through, nor did they really seem to care. My grades were slipping, my body was changing, my family was fighting, and my best...
    Royaladdi Royaladdi
    18-21, F
    Aug 13, 2015

    This is important... I've tried to commit

    suicide 3 different times now but I can't seem to cut deep enough or find enough strong pills. I've left suicide notes all the times saying who I love and I'm sorry and such, but I always wake up so I just save them for a reference for the next time and I don't tell anybody. I...
    alliebear1211 alliebear1211
    18-21, F
    5 Responses May 8, 2014

    monday, I lost it. I overdosed on pills

    and for the 1st time in my life, I cut up my wrists. The pills, they didn't stay down and the cuts altho, I will have scars, were not deep enough to end the life I no longer want. I look at my healing arms and only want to inflict more pain and draw more blood. I hate this...
    GlassGem GlassGem
    36-40, F
    7 Responses Apr 4, 2015

    Whoever you are, i love you

    and im sorry you feel this sad. it will pass soon
    sillygooserhys sillygooserhys
    18-21, M
    May 31, 2015

    just before you die, they say you see your life

    go flashing by? but that's a lie I saw a beautiful purplish blue mist engulf me I was at peace. never was happy until that day I killed myself. Dead gone for eight minutes. the most amazing thing yet I have experienced Death!!!!! and no cared that I killed myself no one was...
    wolfserpent wolfserpent
    56-60, M
    1 Response Mar 7, 2016

    The thing about being suicidal.

    .. you cry for help but hide it all at the same time. You feel like your subtle hints should break through.. but you hide your weakness from everyone so well that unless someone is paying very close attention they have no clue, and even those who ask you "are you ok" get a...
    RaynieLove RaynieLove
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jan 7, 2014

    That's why I wanted to let people tell their

    story of what changed their mind. Or find some reassurance and happiness within the community at http://live-another-day.boards.net/
    driftingalone driftingalone
    18-21, F
    Jan 23, 2016

    I tried to eat my pistol .

    ...when my gf of seven years gave me an std I wanted to kill myself ...because who would want a guy with an std right?....I would never go through with it but I feel like the rest of my life I'll be alone
    firechild85 firechild85
    31-35, M
    Jan 23, 2016

    Hi everyone! I'm really sorry I haven't been on

    EP in a few months. My life has changed quite a bit. On April 23rd 2014 I tried to commit suicide. I was completely done with everyone. I got home from school and wrote a goodbye letter to my family and friends. I then took a handful of pills. I started to feel sick and I passed...
    Linsey14 Linsey14
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 11, 2014

    I've made many attempts over the years.

    .. and now, I'm clinging on by a thin thread right now - I'm thankful to my support network who are keeping my head just above the water right now. I thought that I'd have been safe after all these years... but apparently, I'm still a danger to myself.
    LoneSouls LoneSouls
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Jan 22, 2016

    It was two years ago

    when I tried
    LibertyCityPD LibertyCityPD
    18-21, M
    1 Response Dec 14, 2015

    When I was in high school I was suicidal

    and even took a half a bottle of sleeping pills. I was extremely depressed, but with treatment over many years my suicidal voices stopped. However, depression always lingers in those who suffer from it. Lately I have been depressed and kind of started thinking about suicide...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Jan 24, 2016

    Yesterday I Googled how to kill myself (to find

    the best and most effective painless way) and I found this site. I'm liking this site so far and am feeling better today.
    meowkachu meowkachu
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Sep 13, 2015

    When I was 14, I was in a very ''dark time''.

    I've been diagnosted with depression and i have social anxiaty. It's very hard for me to make friends because im scared to get close to people. To this day, I still take anti-depressants (prozac). So when i was 14, my dad was always very drinking and mean. He would tell me that...
    BunnyFornele BunnyFornele
    18-21, F
    3 Responses May 25, 2014

    all 474 people on here didn't deserve to feel

    like they had to commit or try to commit suicide, I'm so sorry, and I love you
    PleasureOverMatter PleasureOverMatter
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Apr 4, 2015

    yes three times I did die the last time

    for 8minutes best 8minutes I have ever know
    Thewingedwolfserpent Thewingedwolfserpent
    56-60, M
    Feb 14, 2016

    A lot of times actually.

    I didn't want to be in this world any more. No one loved me No one was there for me. It was so bad even playing music couldn't help me. But then I started staying after school a lot talking to my band directors. They were helping me practice and I told them that I wasn't...
    Kelnea Kelnea
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 18, 2015

    I have tried to commit suicide

    so many times but it never worked. last time I drank about 16 pills. I really really need a best friend or someone to talk to.
    Nthabi1 Nthabi1
    16-17, F
    1 Response Feb 8, 2016

    It's quite remarkable I lived,

    really. It was a wake up call though. It's not my time and there's more I need to do with this life. What is it? I don't know. I'll figure it out though. If anyone who reads this is considering suicide, please know you are not alone. I know that's cliche but I genuinely mean it...
    Luxrunout Luxrunout
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Nov 21, 2015

    yess i did it in my childhood.

    ...wen i got tensed..i ate almost 20 tabs of low blood pressure but still didnt died....lol.....next i again ate tabs of low blood sugar but i guess i have to suffer a little longerrrr...... :p
    phoenixangel1802 phoenixangel1802
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Dec 15, 2015

    I always went to a private school.

    I have been bullied since the 2nd grade and I told my family and they told me that they were jealous of my beauty when they went into the other room they said I don't believe she fell for that she is the ugliest kid I know and then they figured out in the 3rd grade I was cutting...
    Bullied12 Bullied12
    16-17, F
    3 Responses May 8, 2014

    When I was 12. I didn't know what the hell I

    was doing, I took a **** ton of pain pills. It's scary, when you start losing vision from being too tired. You can't tell if you're dying. I passed out. It was terrifying because as I was dosing off, I was panicking because I just did something so ******* stupid. But I...
    deleted deleted
    5 Responses Oct 3, 2015
    imjustmex33 imjustmex33
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 27, 2014

    but if it did work, I wouldn't have met my

    three most amazing friends <3
    isolatedboy123 isolatedboy123
    13-15, F
    1 Response Sep 18, 2015
    youAREmyBAE youAREmyBAE
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Jan 25, 2016

    I was home alone. I felt this overwhelming

    feeling of loneliness. I started having suicidal thoughts. I gave in. I tried to hang myself. With a curtain cord. Once I was hanging. I choked. I coughed. I panicked. I made it out of the noose. I fell to the floor. Stared at the spot I hung the noose for a couple minutes...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Apr 17, 2015

    I was diagnosed with chronic depression

    because of my upbringing. my parents gave me away because they didn't want me and I was adopted within my family. I was battered and abused everyday and kicked out all the time. living on the streets couch surfing and the thought I would run in front a vline. a man jogging spear...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Jan 23, 2016

    it's very interesting,

    you know. I've tried on October 5th and since then, my life got a bit better. I'm not that depressed anymore. ironically, this try has helped me in finding some pleasure in life.
    WitheredMind WitheredMind
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 21, 2015
    EndYourLifePls EndYourLifePls
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Jan 24, 2016

    I remember walking back

    and forth in my room crying trying to look for reasons to live... I remember crying to the point of being un able to breath I remember feeling so unwanted I never want my baby girl to feel that way
    Roseyyheart Roseyyheart
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Dec 7, 2015

    That's why I've been in the hospital

    and not online for the past few days. I'm not going into detail but I did some stuff. My sister found me and called 911. **** this.
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Nov 7, 2015

    I tried to yesterday morning I almost did

    succeed I tried to take the bottle of pain killers and I remember I blacked out and next thing I know I'm in the hospital and my parents hugging me and crying telling me that they were sorry that they weren't there for me and that they loved me so my mom told me that she had...
    thatgirltay09 thatgirltay09
    16-17, F
    6 Responses Feb 1, 2016

    Hey guys just figure I would share my story see

    last year I attempted suicide through depression and anxiety I drank drain cleaner and was in intensive care for several weeks as it stands I am still paying the price because i damaged my throat so badly I am currently on a feeding tube because I am unable to swallow but i am...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jan 22, 2016

    When I was young, I have been through bullying,

    isolation of others, lonely, low self esteem, followed by depression, to PTSD, to other things like bad relationships, etc. I can't say how many times but I know I tried more than 2 to kill myself. I tried hanging myself but it honestly wasn't for me. I tried over dosing on...
    domdotcom domdotcom
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 23, 2016

    I lived.... I am thankful,

    and grateful.... For more details just ask, but I am forever more a changed man I got sent to a Allen hospital and stayed for help and I am doing better than I ever have! n_n
    Strivexwolf Strivexwolf
    22-25, M
    Mar 25, 2016

    I've tried to commit suicide twice

    both within a year of eachother. I was going to a school where I wasn't accepted and it wasn't just the kids who would pick on me it was the teachers too. when kids gave me bruises the teachers were no help and then my home life changed too. Maybe because of me or they changed...
    Deathgodsimple Deathgodsimple
    18-21, F
    Jan 23, 2016

    You know there was a point in my life at

    several times that I just could not go on anymore. I wanted the suffering and pain to stop. I didn't really think about my future nor did I really care. I just wanted to be free from pain and suffering. Today I can tell you that suicide is not the answer to a temporary problem...
    lizzie9787 lizzie9787
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 23, 2016

    It's not easy living with my family.

    A passive aggressive mother with massive expectations, a psychotic brother who often cracks and goes on rampaged, and a father living at another home, it's pretty tough. I love my family, not doubt about it, but they're so hard to reason with. With mon, she won't even listen and...
    SCLegacy SCLegacy
    16-17, M
    1 Response Jul 8, 2014

    The only reasons I am ashamed of the 4 times

    I've done this is because is that I tried to end Gods gift & that I am ashamed of trying to end before helping every one that I can. Only one of the 4 times was I close to actually getting it done. That time I did actually see my life pass before me & immediately afterwards saw...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jan 23, 2016

    I took something 3 nights ago,

    blacked out then woke up the next morning seeing a pile of vomit next to me. I could have choked to death that night. May Allah forgive all my actions. I did it because every waking minute of that day I was having suicidal thoughts without me even thinking, it was just there...
    citysquare citysquare
    26-30, M
    1 Response Mar 12, 2016

    I have tried to cut my throat numerous of times.

    The very last time i came close until my friend stop me.
    pandalover89 pandalover89
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jan 23, 2016
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