I Have Tried To Commit Sucide

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    I remember walking back

    and forth in my room crying trying to look for reasons to live... I remember crying to the point of being un able to breath I remember feeling so unwanted I never want my baby girl to feel that way
    Roseyyheart Roseyyheart
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Dec 7, 2015

    It's quite remarkable I lived,

    really. It was a wake up call though. It's not my time and there's more I need to do with this life. What is it? I don't know. I'll figure it out though. If anyone who reads this is considering suicide, please know you are not alone. I know that's cliche but I genuinely mean it...
    Luxrunout Luxrunout
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Nov 21, 2015

    I've tried to kill myself 3 times

    and while my life has gotten crappies, I just don't have the will to try again. Part of me wants to die or just run away but something is keeping me here and I don't know what it is.
    Queenofnothing Queenofnothing
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 17, 2015

    I was a cutter previously.

    and I took a large dose of sleeping pills. but not enough.
    Chelsea1973 Chelsea1973
    41-45, F
    1 Response Nov 14, 2015

    I'm SO glad I didn't succed!

    I feel for the ones who did and for their family/friends. I tried to overdose once.. then I tried to cut my wrists, but I wasn't brave enough (thankfully). those were during my teen ages, nowadays I want to live as much as possible!
    Mountainbird Mountainbird
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Nov 14, 2015

    I first tried in 98 and again in 06.

    . I have thought about trying recently however a caring person in my life told me not to as it will affect a lot of people.. My son he is 12 , my mum whom I'm caring for , my sister, my neices and nephews, my friends. I wont attempt again because I've realised others need me and...
    boggley76 boggley76
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Nov 14, 2015

    The first time I was in 7th grade,

    and I downed a bottle of pills and tried to sleep. I couldn't and eventually I threw them up, but my parents never knew I should have been in the hospital and I even nearly died after the fact.
    MxAlex MxAlex
    13-15, T
    Nov 13, 2015

    Why can't you just trust me,

    I'm more than those pills I took to OD. I know it scared you, It scared me too, But do you even know the things I do? How many nights I lose sleep, Trying to hide the secrets I keep. I can never have anyone understand me, Without them knowing who I was before...
    AwkwardTurtle46 AwkwardTurtle46
    18-21, F
    Nov 11, 2015

    That's why I've been in the hospital

    and not online for the past few days. I'm not going into detail but I did some stuff. My sister found me and called 911. **** this.
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Nov 7, 2015

    when ur constantly put down

    and left by everyone and the person ur in love with COMMITED suicide because his parents raped him and tried killing him it's hard to say ur OK ur fine ur happy cause all u want to do is end it all
    hornyslutbitch hornyslutbitch
    26-30, F
    1 Response Oct 23, 2015

    i have try it once two years ago

    and now im trying to do it but i want it to be seccessful one .
    hell25 hell25
    26-30, F
    1 Response Oct 23, 2015
    burnner burnner
    61-65, M
    Oct 23, 2015

    I've tried to take my life several different

    times and failed (obviously) and I'm honestly considering trying again. Some may argue my life is good. I got accepted into college, I have a job, I live in my own apartment but I'm just not happy. But anyways...The first time I tried to kill myself was when I was 14 years old...
    thatenvyfan thatenvyfan
    22-25, T
    1 Response Oct 22, 2015

    My husband and I had gotten into a fight,

    I don't even remember why, and had decided to split. I can't describe how depressed I'd already been feeling and we were just laying there because our living room was taken up and were going to sleep. I always have difficulty sleeping, so I had to take sleep aid. Two at one time...
    CandidxApple CandidxApple
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Oct 22, 2015

    it was some months ago now.

    .... I've suffered from depression for most of my life.. and I've been on and off antidepressants for years.. anyway. I was having some issues with my insurance and was unable to get a refill (I have sense straightened this out..).. and I guess they are pretty serious about that...
    Zforzombie Zforzombie
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 22, 2015

    I've tried over and over

    but I keep failing like tf all I do is fail at **** I hate my life
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Oct 21, 2015

    I have tried a few times,

    and I thought about it not too long ago, but I'm still here and I don't think I could actually do it.
    RandomExistence RandomExistence
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Oct 21, 2015

    When I tried to commit suicide something died at

    that time But it wasn't my body
    AutoLove0 AutoLove0
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Oct 21, 2015

    Last night actually. I took a lot of pills.

    People were being mean Af. And My nana told me to go kill myself. Just like how my ma used to do. I didn't really mean to take a lot. But. If I woulda died I wouldn't of minded. Oh wells tho
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Oct 5, 2015

    When I was 12. I didn't know what the hell I

    was doing, I took a **** ton of pain pills. It's scary, when you start losing vision from being too tired. You can't tell if you're dying. I passed out. It was terrifying because as I was dosing off, I was panicking because I just did something so ******* stupid. But I...
    deleted deleted
    5 Responses Oct 3, 2015

    yes quite a few times i day i will get it right

    and no one will find me to save me the next time
    burnner burnner
    61-65, M
    Sep 28, 2015

    Feel like just taking all the tablets I've got

    in the house ?? what's the point?
    nicmar21 nicmar21
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Sep 25, 2015

    in 2014, I attempted suicide.

    I felt like everyone was being fake to me. they were just pretending to be nice. pretending to care about me. I had gotten into an argument with my dad. he was mad that I was chatting with strangers online. he told me to stop being stupid. that was the icebreaker for me. when I...
    Misskaryn Misskaryn
    16-17, F
    1 Response Sep 25, 2015

    but if it did work, I wouldn't have met my

    three most amazing friends <3
    isolatedboy123 isolatedboy123
    13-15, F
    1 Response Sep 18, 2015
    smileforme14 smileforme14
    16-17, F
    1 Response Sep 17, 2015

    yes i have tried to end it all b twice before

    and still is thinking about doing it once more maybe i will get lucky the thrid time around
    masterLLL masterLLL
    56-60, M
    3 Responses Sep 14, 2015

    Yesterday I Googled how to kill myself (to find

    the best and most effective painless way) and I found this site. I'm liking this site so far and am feeling better today.
    meowkachu meowkachu
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Sep 13, 2015
    deligoddess deligoddess
    26-30, F
    1 Response Sep 12, 2015

    When you plan to end your life tomorrow

    and your parent's decide that they are going to stay home.... *******.
    rawimabear rawimabear
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 6, 2015

    A few months ago I overdosed on two boxes of

    paracetamol. I just went to school like normal because I knew it would take a few days to kill me. After a few hours I told one of my friends and she dragged me down to the school nurse. They called my parents and an ambulance and took me to hospital. It was too late for me to...
    FeedingTheWolves FeedingTheWolves
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Sep 2, 2015

    Trigger warning. I have been depressed

    for a while. Right now, the thoughts are under control. But they weren't in September 2014. At that time, I had a "row" with this girl who ignored me and always changed her plans with me. I loved her from the Christmas before, and she knew. She was understanding and accepting...
    skylar1621 skylar1621
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 24, 2015

    My life insurance pays out extra

    if I die at work. I feel some times that that would be the best way to take care of my family.
    DudewhoDuddles DudewhoDuddles
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Aug 21, 2015

    I hate it when my dysfunctional family fights.

    No only fight but cheat and sneak behind each others backs!! We never have any money or food (poor A.F) and my 'sister never takes care if her son or daughter. I'm stuck taking care of them because no one else will!! How can I still feel stable when I feel so... Spread thin? Is...
    Lhokw Lhokw
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Aug 21, 2015

    I have but then I realized

    that its totally selfish.. it just sucks you know ? I feel life is hard expecailly when stuff builds up over the years ,it ruins you .. depression sucks also with anxiety and being bipolar. sometimes I feel like I'll go insane.. or loose it idk life is super hard you'd know if...
    LOSTlo0ve LOSTlo0ve
    22-25, F
    Aug 20, 2015
    wonderlessangel wonderlessangel
    16-17, F
    5 Responses Aug 20, 2015

    So at around the age of 9 I

    though I understood the concept of suicide and I tried to die.I became depressed well I think and I think I still am.I am really scared to tell my mum because if she tells my dad hes going to kill me.The stress comes from him school and life!I don't think I can handle it....I...
    Lovwey Lovwey
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Aug 19, 2015

    When I was 15 years old

    and a freshman in High School I absolutely hated my life. Everything just wasn't going right for me. My family just didn't understand what I was going through, nor did they really seem to care. My grades were slipping, my body was changing, my family was fighting, and my best...
    Royaladdi Royaladdi
    18-21, F
    Aug 13, 2015

    So over the past few years right at 10.

    I have tried to commit suicide right at 10 times and every time failed, from miss fires on firearms to drugs. and every time that it has failed i have gotten up and carried on. i have never reached out professional help. i have just carried on. this past weekend I had a...
    Mensin2112 Mensin2112
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Aug 3, 2015

    I tried it and it failed,

    obviously. I had tied a jacket around a fan and was starting to suffocate when the knot came undone and I fell to the floor. The next day, I told someone and went to a mental hospital. I was put on new meds, received therapy, and you know what? It really helped. I feel better...
    LordNexus78 LordNexus78
    16-17, M
    2 Responses Aug 1, 2015

    "People who die from suicide don't want to end

    their life, they want to end their pain"
    NikkiCOCO NikkiCOCO
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 30, 2015

    Very long time ago lived a maid,

    she was always smiling, everybody called her miss laughter, she fell deeply in love with a butcher, the butcher seemed to had some mental illness, but her love for him was so strong that she was didnt see, hell thats what the butcher put her into, no way to escape was her life...
    deleted deleted
    Jun 5, 2015

    Whoever you are, i love you

    and im sorry you feel this sad. it will pass soon
    sillygooserhys sillygooserhys
    18-21, M
    May 31, 2015

    I have and it's never worked,

    but I do wish something would happen though so everyone could feel better knowing my burden self won't be around them much longer
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses May 30, 2015

    When I was 15, I tried overdosing.

    Right after taking 2 handfuls of pills, my sisters came in my room & saw the empty pill bottle. They called Poison Control and my parents rushed me to the Emergency Room. I had to drink 2 cups of liquid charcoal to flush it out of my system. Unfortunately, I still resent my...
    untamedx3heart untamedx3heart
    22-25, F
    2 Responses May 24, 2015

    I havnt tried in a while,

    only because my son needs me and I love him to much to leave him. but I do think about just ending my life all the time. I think it would just make it easier for everyone else around me.
    deleted deleted
    May 4, 2015
    obeyyyjayyy obeyyyjayyy
    16-17, M
    Apr 29, 2015

    I have tried many times to commit sucide many

    times. So many times I feel hopeless and alone
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Apr 25, 2015

    I was home alone. I felt this overwhelming

    feeling of loneliness. I started having suicidal thoughts. I gave in. I tried to hang myself. With a curtain cord. Once I was hanging. I choked. I coughed. I panicked. I made it out of the noose. I fell to the floor. Stared at the spot I hung the noose for a couple minutes...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Apr 17, 2015

    I suffer from major depression

    and severe anxiety. A few months ago I tried to kill myself. Fortunately I did not die from the overdose. I was taken to the emergency room and the next day I was taken to a mental institution. I was there for about a week. I got a lot of help there, and from therapy afterwards...
    Poisonedmystery Poisonedmystery
    18-21, F
    Apr 6, 2015

    Around this time, last year.

    And several times before that. I still have all the old notes in a desk drawer.
    Franse Franse
    22-25, M
    1 Response Apr 5, 2015

    i tried 2 times and it didnt work.

    i still want to somedays but then i see my kids and i cant. ive tried mixing drugs so it would be more of accident but lived though that too
    cooper3366 cooper3366
    31-35, F
    5 Responses Apr 4, 2015

    I tried overdosing, but someone caught me

    before I could. That was a year. Unfortunately, I still really want to commit suicide. Past problems are gone, but new ones have arrived, and I can't handle anymore pain.
    morekisses morekisses
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Apr 4, 2015

    all 474 people on here didn't deserve to feel

    like they had to commit or try to commit suicide, I'm so sorry, and I love you
    PleasureOverMatter PleasureOverMatter
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Apr 4, 2015

    monday, I lost it. I overdosed on pills

    and for the 1st time in my life, I cut up my wrists. The pills, they didn't stay down and the cuts altho, I will have scars, were not deep enough to end the life I no longer want. I look at my healing arms and only want to inflict more pain and draw more blood. I hate this...
    GlassGem GlassGem
    36-40, F
    7 Responses Apr 4, 2015

    I've lost count my parents have

    yet to find out :/
    OkJohnny OkJohnny
    18-21, M
    4 Responses Apr 4, 2015

    i had two attempts. it didn't work out

    so i feel like a moron. im still battling with depression and still having suicidal thoughts. i feel alone. nobody cares and it sucks. im really really sad. nobody knows about what im going through right now. this is my first time to share how i feel. pls dont judge me. it's...
    deleted deleted
    5 Responses Mar 6, 2015

    Well I wanted to share my suicide attempt.

    I overdosed on 4 bottles of pills they were all my moms medication i Know one was benedril idk if i wrote that right , backlifin and some others i was in the hospital for 4 days i woke up and i was like how long have i been in here ? And i dont wanna go to into detail its alot...
    gnarlyyvibesz gnarlyyvibesz
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 5, 2015

    Don't let bully's control you,

    and when you feel like life is over , come to this experience and we'll talk, personally and helpfully
    redmoon12 redmoon12
    16-17, M
    Feb 26, 2015

    Me too...many of times,

    because I just didn't want to live anymore. Not for any reason.
    aleeeexa aleeeexa
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Feb 15, 2015

    I'm only here, living

    and breathing cos my very closest friend saved me after my last attempt (2 years ago).
    noxeous noxeous
    36-40, F
    Feb 15, 2015
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