I Have Tried To Commit Sucide

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    all 474 people on here didn't deserve to feel

    like they had to commit or try to commit suicide, I'm so sorry, and I love you
    PleasureOverMatter PleasureOverMatter
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Apr 4, 2015

    When I was 12. I didn't know what the hell I

    was doing, I took a **** ton of pain pills. It's scary, when you start losing vision from being too tired. You can't tell if you're dying. I passed out. It was terrifying because as I was dosing off, I was panicking because I just did something so ******* stupid. But I...
    deleted deleted
    5 Responses Oct 3, 2015

    Yesterday I Googled how to kill myself (to find

    the best and most effective painless way) and I found this site. I'm liking this site so far and am feeling better today.
    meowkachu meowkachu
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Sep 13, 2015

    Hi everyone! I'm really sorry I haven't been on

    EP in a few months. My life has changed quite a bit. On April 23rd 2014 I tried to commit suicide. I was completely done with everyone. I got home from school and wrote a goodbye letter to my family and friends. I then took a handful of pills. I started to feel sick and I passed...
    Linsey14 Linsey14
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 11, 2014

    I tried it and it failed,

    obviously. I had tied a jacket around a fan and was starting to suffocate when the knot came undone and I fell to the floor. The next day, I told someone and went to a mental hospital. I was put on new meds, received therapy, and you know what? It really helped. I feel better...
    LordNexus78 LordNexus78
    16-17, M
    2 Responses Aug 1, 2015

    I was diagnosed with chronic depression

    because of my upbringing. my parents gave me away because they didn't want me and I was adopted within my family. I was battered and abused everyday and kicked out all the time. living on the streets couch surfing and the thought I would run in front a vline. a man jogging spear...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Jan 23, 2016

    I've not really been suicidal in many years,

    but for a while, late 2007 to mid 2009, I tried every six weeks or so to end my life. I had really bad flashbacks due to waking up during surgery, and I didn't see how I could live like that anymore. Then I met another person who'd woken up during surgery, and she made me make a...
    PeanutsauntieP1982 PeanutsauntieP1982
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Dec 24, 2015

    I tried to yesterday morning I almost did

    succeed I tried to take the bottle of pain killers and I remember I blacked out and next thing I know I'm in the hospital and my parents hugging me and crying telling me that they were sorry that they weren't there for me and that they loved me so my mom told me that she had...
    thatgirltay09 thatgirltay09
    16-17, F
    6 Responses Feb 1, 2016

    but if it did work, I wouldn't have met my

    three most amazing friends <3
    isolatedboy123 isolatedboy123
    13-15, F
    1 Response Sep 18, 2015

    I always went to a private school.

    I have been bullied since the 2nd grade and I told my family and they told me that they were jealous of my beauty when they went into the other room they said I don't believe she fell for that she is the ugliest kid I know and then they figured out in the 3rd grade I was cutting...
    Bullied12 Bullied12
    16-17, F
    3 Responses May 8, 2014

    Today is a new day. I know that.

    Yesterday it was awfull. I tried to kill myself after one year. I'm just feeling like crap at home. My mother keeps yell at me. She is the only person who makes me sad and angry. So yes. I took too many pills. I feel so weird. I couldn't sleep this night. My stomack hurts. And...
    gajchy97 gajchy97
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 29, 2015

    This is important... I've tried to commit

    suicide 3 different times now but I can't seem to cut deep enough or find enough strong pills. I've left suicide notes all the times saying who I love and I'm sorry and such, but I always wake up so I just save them for a reference for the next time and I don't tell anybody. I...
    alliebear1211 alliebear1211
    18-21, F
    5 Responses May 8, 2014

    The thing about being suicidal.

    .. you cry for help but hide it all at the same time. You feel like your subtle hints should break through.. but you hide your weakness from everyone so well that unless someone is paying very close attention they have no clue, and even those who ask you "are you ok" get a...
    RaynieLove RaynieLove
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jan 7, 2014
    imjustmex33 imjustmex33
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 27, 2014

    "People who die from suicide don't want to end

    their life, they want to end their pain"
    NikkiCOCO NikkiCOCO
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 30, 2015

    I'm SO glad I didn't succed!

    I feel for the ones who did and for their family/friends. I tried to overdose once.. then I tried to cut my wrists, but I wasn't brave enough (thankfully). those were during my teen ages, nowadays I want to live as much as possible!
    Mountainbird Mountainbird
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Nov 14, 2015

    When I was in high school I was suicidal

    and even took a half a bottle of sleeping pills. I was extremely depressed, but with treatment over many years my suicidal voices stopped. However, depression always lingers in those who suffer from it. Lately I have been depressed and kind of started thinking about suicide...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Jan 24, 2016

    When I was 15 years old

    and a freshman in High School I absolutely hated my life. Everything just wasn't going right for me. My family just didn't understand what I was going through, nor did they really seem to care. My grades were slipping, my body was changing, my family was fighting, and my best...
    Royaladdi Royaladdi
    18-21, F
    Aug 13, 2015

    When I was 14, I was in a very ''dark time''.

    I've been diagnosted with depression and i have social anxiaty. It's very hard for me to make friends because im scared to get close to people. To this day, I still take anti-depressants (prozac). So when i was 14, my dad was always very drinking and mean. He would tell me that...
    BunnyFornele BunnyFornele
    18-21, F
    3 Responses May 25, 2014

    Ok ... So I just saw this person post an

    experience about them being in the hospital because they tried to commit suicide . How stupid can our society be ? 😒 To Be Honest with all of you , I've tried to commit suicide once ... But guess what ? I don't post anything of that on the Internet or any social media...
    CalmYourShit CalmYourShit
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Dec 26, 2014

    A lot of times actually.

    I didn't want to be in this world any more. No one loved me No one was there for me. It was so bad even playing music couldn't help me. But then I started staying after school a lot talking to my band directors. They were helping me practice and I told them that I wasn't...
    Kelnea Kelnea
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 18, 2015

    monday, I lost it. I overdosed on pills

    and for the 1st time in my life, I cut up my wrists. The pills, they didn't stay down and the cuts altho, I will have scars, were not deep enough to end the life I no longer want. I look at my healing arms and only want to inflict more pain and draw more blood. I hate this...
    GlassGem GlassGem
    36-40, F
    7 Responses Apr 4, 2015

    I was home alone. I felt this overwhelming

    feeling of loneliness. I started having suicidal thoughts. I gave in. I tried to hang myself. With a curtain cord. Once I was hanging. I choked. I coughed. I panicked. I made it out of the noose. I fell to the floor. Stared at the spot I hung the noose for a couple minutes...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Apr 17, 2015

    I have been through a lot in my life.

    I have tried over and over to commit suicide. I would've died at age 16 if I hadn't called for help. I guess what I am trying to say is think before you act, because it may save your life. I am thankful that I called for help that day, because even though I still have lessons to...
    sicksheep sicksheep
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 18, 2016

    I remember walking back

    and forth in my room crying trying to look for reasons to live... I remember crying to the point of being un able to breath I remember feeling so unwanted I never want my baby girl to feel that way
    Roseyyheart Roseyyheart
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Dec 7, 2015

    I have tried a few times,

    and I thought about it not too long ago, but I'm still here and I don't think I could actually do it.
    RandomExistence RandomExistence
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Oct 21, 2015

    Whoever you are, i love you

    and im sorry you feel this sad. it will pass soon
    sillygooserhys sillygooserhys
    18-21, M
    May 31, 2015

    That's why I've been in the hospital

    and not online for the past few days. I'm not going into detail but I did some stuff. My sister found me and called 911. **** this.
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Nov 7, 2015

    It's quite remarkable I lived,

    really. It was a wake up call though. It's not my time and there's more I need to do with this life. What is it? I don't know. I'll figure it out though. If anyone who reads this is considering suicide, please know you are not alone. I know that's cliche but I genuinely mean it...
    Luxrunout Luxrunout
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Nov 21, 2015

    It's not easy living with my family.

    A passive aggressive mother with massive expectations, a psychotic brother who often cracks and goes on rampaged, and a father living at another home, it's pretty tough. I love my family, not doubt about it, but they're so hard to reason with. With mon, she won't even listen and...
    SCLegacy SCLegacy
    16-17, M
    1 Response Jul 8, 2014

    This is it I am going to do it this weekend.

    I'm so done bein treated like trash. And called a ***** and skinny white girl. I'm so tired of being hated so much they have to make my life missable. This is the last time u will ever see me I talk to me unless it fails which I hope to god it won't. Goodbye to all my friends on...
    Kelnea Kelnea
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Sep 19, 2014

    I have tired to commit sucide many different

    times. I just think it would be essayer to be dead then to live with pain. I have never told anybody this but I want to get it out. People my life is hell and I mean it. My family doesn't know what the **** is Wong with me and r always stepping all over me. My father is just an...
    lifeishardbutitgoeson lifeishardbutitgoeson
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Jan 6, 2014

    6 years ago I tried to hang myself.

    It obviously failed. Ever since it's been haunting me that it didn't work, well today I came upon that rope and it's all I can focus on, with the memories and it makes me want to correct my mistakes and make it work this time. This time failure is not an option. And I will put...
    fricklefrackle fricklefrackle
    18-21, F
    3 Responses May 5, 2014
    Bullied12 Bullied12
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Dec 26, 2014

    So over the past few years right at 10.

    I have tried to commit suicide right at 10 times and every time failed, from miss fires on firearms to drugs. and every time that it has failed i have gotten up and carried on. i have never reached out professional help. i have just carried on. this past weekend I had a...
    Mensin2112 Mensin2112
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Aug 3, 2015

    My husband and I had gotten into a fight,

    I don't even remember why, and had decided to split. I can't describe how depressed I'd already been feeling and we were just laying there because our living room was taken up and were going to sleep. I always have difficulty sleeping, so I had to take sleep aid. Two at one time...
    CandidxApple CandidxApple
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Oct 22, 2015

    I've tried to kill myself 3 times

    and while my life has gotten crappies, I just don't have the will to try again. Part of me wants to die or just run away but something is keeping me here and I don't know what it is.
    Queenofnothing Queenofnothing
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 17, 2015

    I lived.... I am thankful,

    and grateful.... For more details just ask, but I am forever more a changed man I got sent to a Allen hospital and stayed for help and I am doing better than I ever have! n_n
    Strivexwolf Strivexwolf
    22-25, M
    Mar 25, 2016

    The only reasons I am ashamed of the 4 times

    I've done this is because is that I tried to end Gods gift & that I am ashamed of trying to end before helping every one that I can. Only one of the 4 times was I close to actually getting it done. That time I did actually see my life pass before me & immediately afterwards saw...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jan 23, 2016

    Last night actually. I took a lot of pills.

    People were being mean Af. And My nana told me to go kill myself. Just like how my ma used to do. I didn't really mean to take a lot. But. If I woulda died I wouldn't of minded. Oh wells tho
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Oct 5, 2015
    wonderlessangel wonderlessangel
    16-17, F
    5 Responses Aug 20, 2015

    You know there was a point in my life at

    several times that I just could not go on anymore. I wanted the suffering and pain to stop. I didn't really think about my future nor did I really care. I just wanted to be free from pain and suffering. Today I can tell you that suicide is not the answer to a temporary problem...
    lizzie9787 lizzie9787
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 23, 2016

    Trigger warning. I have been depressed

    for a while. Right now, the thoughts are under control. But they weren't in September 2014. At that time, I had a "row" with this girl who ignored me and always changed her plans with me. I loved her from the Christmas before, and she knew. She was understanding and accepting...
    skylar1621 skylar1621
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 24, 2015

    The thing about being suicidal.

    .. you cry for help but hide it all at the same time. You feel like your subtle hints should break through.. but you hide your weakness from everyone so well that unless someone is paying very close attention they have no clue, and even those who ask you "are you ok" get a...
    RaynieLove RaynieLove
    26-30, F
    Jan 7, 2014

    People I'm so sorry that life is hard ok it

    will be hard. Someone does not give u a manual for ur life. We have to get though the hard times in life to get to the good times. I know this!! People life is a gift u may not think it is but it truly is!! If u have read some of my stories u know that I have had a hard life and...
    lifeishardbutitgoeson lifeishardbutitgoeson
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 13, 2014

    I still haven't told anybody.

    A few weeks ago I was fed up with existence and feeling really numb. I used an old belt to try and hang myself. It broke. It did leave a mark, and I lied to cover it up. Nobody knows except me. And I still feeling like trying again. I'd tell someone but then they'd take me to...
    puppy85899 puppy85899
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 6, 2014

    6 years ago, I have tried to hang myself at

    home. I am tired of life. Having such complicated family background, I hate my family, even myself. I even blame them for having me in this family. I cried every night, wishing someone could just save me from this misery and willing to give me a peacful life without any noises...
    Megumi07 Megumi07
    18-21, F
    Dec 29, 2014

    Well I wanted to share my suicide attempt.

    I overdosed on 4 bottles of pills they were all my moms medication i Know one was benedril idk if i wrote that right , backlifin and some others i was in the hospital for 4 days i woke up and i was like how long have i been in here ? And i dont wanna go to into detail its alot...
    gnarlyyvibesz gnarlyyvibesz
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 5, 2015

    I suffer from major depression

    and severe anxiety. A few months ago I tried to kill myself. Fortunately I did not die from the overdose. I was taken to the emergency room and the next day I was taken to a mental institution. I was there for about a week. I got a lot of help there, and from therapy afterwards...
    Poisonedmystery Poisonedmystery
    18-21, F
    Apr 6, 2015

    A few months ago I overdosed on two boxes of

    paracetamol. I just went to school like normal because I knew it would take a few days to kill me. After a few hours I told one of my friends and she dragged me down to the school nurse. They called my parents and an ambulance and took me to hospital. It was too late for me to...
    FeedingTheWolves FeedingTheWolves
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Sep 2, 2015

    It was two years ago

    when I tried
    LibertyCityPD LibertyCityPD
    18-21, M
    1 Response Dec 14, 2015

    It was. A really dark part in my life.

    Still struggling with it. And. Yeah. I cut. Yeah I overdose. Waiting till it or actually kill me is like waiting on forever.
    caseyjailynne caseyjailynne
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 8, 2014

    I've tried to kill myself more times

    than I can count or remember and the doctors say I'm luckily to have survived, because I should have died with how many pills I took, and sometimes I curse the fact that I got "lucky" and lived. But I don't want to be the girl who died too young, or that poor girl who nobody...
    lillolipop lillolipop
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 26, 2014

    I've made many attempts over the years.

    .. and now, I'm clinging on by a thin thread right now - I'm thankful to my support network who are keeping my head just above the water right now. I thought that I'd have been safe after all these years... but apparently, I'm still a danger to myself.
    LoneSouls LoneSouls
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Jan 22, 2016

    When I was young, I have been through bullying,

    isolation of others, lonely, low self esteem, followed by depression, to PTSD, to other things like bad relationships, etc. I can't say how many times but I know I tried more than 2 to kill myself. I tried hanging myself but it honestly wasn't for me. I tried over dosing on...
    domdotcom domdotcom
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 23, 2016

    When I tried to commit suicide something died at

    that time But it wasn't my body
    AutoLove0 AutoLove0
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Oct 21, 2015

    I'm only here, living

    and breathing cos my very closest friend saved me after my last attempt (2 years ago).
    noxeous noxeous
    36-40, F
    Feb 15, 2015

    yess i did it in my childhood.

    ...wen i got tensed..i ate almost 20 tabs of low blood pressure but still didnt died....lol.....next i again ate tabs of low blood sugar but i guess i have to suffer a little longerrrr...... :p
    phoenixangel1802 phoenixangel1802
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Dec 15, 2015

    Don't let bully's control you,

    and when you feel like life is over , come to this experience and we'll talk, personally and helpfully
    redmoon12 redmoon12
    16-17, M
    Feb 26, 2015

    I have tried many times to commit sucide many

    times. So many times I feel hopeless and alone
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Apr 25, 2015
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