I Have Tried To Commit Sucide

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    I lived.... I am thankful,

    and grateful.... For more details just ask, but I am forever more a changed man I got sent to a Allen hospital and stayed for help and I am doing better than I ever have! n_n
    Strivexwolf Strivexwolf
    22-25, M
    Mar 25, 2016

    When I was young, I have been through bullying,

    isolation of others, lonely, low self esteem, followed by depression, to PTSD, to other things like bad relationships, etc. I can't say how many times but I know I tried more than 2 to kill myself. I tried hanging myself but it honestly wasn't for me. I tried over dosing on...
    domdotcom domdotcom
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 23, 2016

    I have been through a lot in my life.

    I have tried over and over to commit suicide. I would've died at age 16 if I hadn't called for help. I guess what I am trying to say is think before you act, because it may save your life. I am thankful that I called for help that day, because even though I still have lessons to...
    sicksheep sicksheep
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 18, 2016

    I took something 3 nights ago,

    blacked out then woke up the next morning seeing a pile of vomit next to me. I could have choked to death that night. May Allah forgive all my actions. I did it because every waking minute of that day I was having suicidal thoughts without me even thinking, it was just there...
    citysquare citysquare
    26-30, M
    1 Response Mar 12, 2016

    just before you die, they say you see your life

    go flashing by? but that's a lie I saw a beautiful purplish blue mist engulf me I was at peace. never was happy until that day I killed myself. Dead gone for eight minutes. the most amazing thing yet I have experienced Death!!!!! and no cared that I killed myself no one was...
    wolfserpent wolfserpent
    56-60, M
    1 Response Mar 7, 2016

    After my bf called the ambulance,

    (i felt pain in my stomach and i was a little dizzy). I was not admitted to a hospital...they didn't seem to care they told me to sleep off the pills...i feel embarrassed i feel like since I'm a black woman in Alabama it didn't matter..maybe if I was a cute white girl they would...
    shawnbone1 shawnbone1
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 19, 2016

    I took 6small cups of nite time.

    .don't do this you vomit and have diarrhea. Not regular the one that burns your ***. And you get really drowsy. I still feel burning in my upper chest. I'm not happy I'm still here...I'm disappointed
    shawnbone1 shawnbone1
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 18, 2016

    yes three times I did die the last time

    for 8minutes best 8minutes I have ever know
    Thewingedwolfserpent Thewingedwolfserpent
    56-60, M
    Feb 14, 2016

    I have tried to commit suicide

    so many times but it never worked. last time I drank about 16 pills. I really really need a best friend or someone to talk to.
    Nthabi1 Nthabi1
    16-17, F
    1 Response Feb 8, 2016

    I tried to yesterday morning I almost did

    succeed I tried to take the bottle of pain killers and I remember I blacked out and next thing I know I'm in the hospital and my parents hugging me and crying telling me that they were sorry that they weren't there for me and that they loved me so my mom told me that she had...
    thatgirltay09 thatgirltay09
    16-17, F
    6 Responses Feb 1, 2016

    I tried to go with bleeding to death

    but I couldn't get up the nerve to cut deep enough I'm glad I didn't I have special people in my life now
    JClove33 JClove33
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jan 29, 2016
    youAREmyBAE youAREmyBAE
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Jan 25, 2016
    EndYourLifePls EndYourLifePls
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Jan 24, 2016

    When I was in high school I was suicidal

    and even took a half a bottle of sleeping pills. I was extremely depressed, but with treatment over many years my suicidal voices stopped. However, depression always lingers in those who suffer from it. Lately I have been depressed and kind of started thinking about suicide...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Jan 24, 2016

    -Trigger warning- I've been depressed a

    long time. I have attempted suicide several times but stopped myself last minute. I was going to drown myself it was in the shower and I laid down and started letting water full my mouth and lungs, everything started going dark around me and I started to fade out. But something...
    Thelostsoulslasthope Thelostsoulslasthope
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jan 23, 2016

    I have tried to cut my throat numerous of times.

    The very last time i came close until my friend stop me.
    pandalover89 pandalover89
    13-15, F
    1 Response Jan 23, 2016

    I've tried to commit suicide twice

    both within a year of eachother. I was going to a school where I wasn't accepted and it wasn't just the kids who would pick on me it was the teachers too. when kids gave me bruises the teachers were no help and then my home life changed too. Maybe because of me or they changed...
    Deathgodsimple Deathgodsimple
    18-21, F
    Jan 23, 2016

    That's why I wanted to let people tell their

    story of what changed their mind. Or find some reassurance and happiness within the community at http://live-another-day.boards.net/
    driftingalone driftingalone
    18-21, F
    Jan 23, 2016

    The only reasons I am ashamed of the 4 times

    I've done this is because is that I tried to end Gods gift & that I am ashamed of trying to end before helping every one that I can. Only one of the 4 times was I close to actually getting it done. That time I did actually see my life pass before me & immediately afterwards saw...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jan 23, 2016

    I tried to eat my pistol .

    ...when my gf of seven years gave me an std I wanted to kill myself ...because who would want a guy with an std right?....I would never go through with it but I feel like the rest of my life I'll be alone
    firechild85 firechild85
    31-35, M
    Jan 23, 2016

    You know there was a point in my life at

    several times that I just could not go on anymore. I wanted the suffering and pain to stop. I didn't really think about my future nor did I really care. I just wanted to be free from pain and suffering. Today I can tell you that suicide is not the answer to a temporary problem...
    lizzie9787 lizzie9787
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 23, 2016

    my experience in the past cause me to feel

    depressed. back in my highskul days i was a victim of bullying the whole yr was rily an awful experience for me. from then i begun to start feeling of sad.. iam not that extrovert type before but i do have frens around.. i grew up in conservative family.. my father was never...
    bokading bokading
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jan 23, 2016

    I was diagnosed with chronic depression

    because of my upbringing. my parents gave me away because they didn't want me and I was adopted within my family. I was battered and abused everyday and kicked out all the time. living on the streets couch surfing and the thought I would run in front a vline. a man jogging spear...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Jan 23, 2016

    I've made many attempts over the years.

    .. and now, I'm clinging on by a thin thread right now - I'm thankful to my support network who are keeping my head just above the water right now. I thought that I'd have been safe after all these years... but apparently, I'm still a danger to myself.
    LoneSouls LoneSouls
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Jan 22, 2016

    Hey guys just figure I would share my story see

    last year I attempted suicide through depression and anxiety I drank drain cleaner and was in intensive care for several weeks as it stands I am still paying the price because i damaged my throat so badly I am currently on a feeding tube because I am unable to swallow but i am...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jan 22, 2016

    Today is a new day. I know that.

    Yesterday it was awfull. I tried to kill myself after one year. I'm just feeling like crap at home. My mother keeps yell at me. She is the only person who makes me sad and angry. So yes. I took too many pills. I feel so weird. I couldn't sleep this night. My stomack hurts. And...
    gajchy97 gajchy97
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 29, 2015

    I've not really been suicidal in many years,

    but for a while, late 2007 to mid 2009, I tried every six weeks or so to end my life. I had really bad flashbacks due to waking up during surgery, and I didn't see how I could live like that anymore. Then I met another person who'd woken up during surgery, and she made me make a...
    PeanutsauntieP1982 PeanutsauntieP1982
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Dec 24, 2015

    it's very interesting,

    you know. I've tried on October 5th and since then, my life got a bit better. I'm not that depressed anymore. ironically, this try has helped me in finding some pleasure in life.
    WitheredMind WitheredMind
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 21, 2015

    yess i did it in my childhood.

    ...wen i got tensed..i ate almost 20 tabs of low blood pressure but still didnt died....lol.....next i again ate tabs of low blood sugar but i guess i have to suffer a little longerrrr...... :p
    phoenixangel1802 phoenixangel1802
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Dec 15, 2015

    It was two years ago

    when I tried
    LibertyCityPD LibertyCityPD
    18-21, M
    1 Response Dec 14, 2015

    I remember walking back

    and forth in my room crying trying to look for reasons to live... I remember crying to the point of being un able to breath I remember feeling so unwanted I never want my baby girl to feel that way
    Roseyyheart Roseyyheart
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Dec 7, 2015

    It's quite remarkable I lived,

    really. It was a wake up call though. It's not my time and there's more I need to do with this life. What is it? I don't know. I'll figure it out though. If anyone who reads this is considering suicide, please know you are not alone. I know that's cliche but I genuinely mean it...
    Luxrunout Luxrunout
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Nov 21, 2015

    I've tried to kill myself 3 times

    and while my life has gotten crappies, I just don't have the will to try again. Part of me wants to die or just run away but something is keeping me here and I don't know what it is.
    Queenofnothing Queenofnothing
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 17, 2015

    I was a cutter previously.

    and I took a large dose of sleeping pills. but not enough.
    Chelsea1973 Chelsea1973
    41-45, F
    1 Response Nov 14, 2015

    I'm SO glad I didn't succed!

    I feel for the ones who did and for their family/friends. I tried to overdose once.. then I tried to cut my wrists, but I wasn't brave enough (thankfully). those were during my teen ages, nowadays I want to live as much as possible!
    Mountainbird Mountainbird
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Nov 14, 2015

    I first tried in 98 and again in 06.

    . I have thought about trying recently however a caring person in my life told me not to as it will affect a lot of people.. My son he is 12 , my mum whom I'm caring for , my sister, my neices and nephews, my friends. I wont attempt again because I've realised others need me and...
    boggley76 boggley76
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Nov 14, 2015

    The first time I was in 7th grade,

    and I downed a bottle of pills and tried to sleep. I couldn't and eventually I threw them up, but my parents never knew I should have been in the hospital and I even nearly died after the fact.
    MxAlex MxAlex
    13-15, T
    Nov 13, 2015

    Why can't you just trust me,

    I'm more than those pills I took to OD. I know it scared you, It scared me too, But do you even know the things I do? How many nights I lose sleep, Trying to hide the secrets I keep. I can never have anyone understand me, Without them knowing who I was before...
    AwkwardTurtle46 AwkwardTurtle46
    18-21, F
    Nov 11, 2015

    That's why I've been in the hospital

    and not online for the past few days. I'm not going into detail but I did some stuff. My sister found me and called 911. **** this.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Nov 7, 2015

    when ur constantly put down

    and left by everyone and the person ur in love with COMMITED suicide because his parents raped him and tried killing him it's hard to say ur OK ur fine ur happy cause all u want to do is end it all
    hornyslutbitch hornyslutbitch
    26-30, F
    1 Response Oct 23, 2015

    i have try it once two years ago

    and now im trying to do it but i want it to be seccessful one .
    hell25 hell25
    26-30, F
    1 Response Oct 23, 2015
    burnner burnner
    61-65, M
    Oct 23, 2015

    I've tried to take my life several different

    times and failed (obviously) and I'm honestly considering trying again. Some may argue my life is good. I got accepted into college, I have a job, I live in my own apartment but I'm just not happy. But anyways...The first time I tried to kill myself was when I was 14 years old...
    thatenvyfan thatenvyfan
    18-21, T
    1 Response Oct 22, 2015

    My husband and I had gotten into a fight,

    I don't even remember why, and had decided to split. I can't describe how depressed I'd already been feeling and we were just laying there because our living room was taken up and were going to sleep. I always have difficulty sleeping, so I had to take sleep aid. Two at one time...
    CandidxApple CandidxApple
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Oct 22, 2015

    it was some months ago now.

    .... I've suffered from depression for most of my life.. and I've been on and off antidepressants for years.. anyway. I was having some issues with my insurance and was unable to get a refill (I have sense straightened this out..).. and I guess they are pretty serious about that...
    Zforzombie Zforzombie
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 22, 2015

    I've tried over and over

    but I keep failing like tf all I do is fail at **** I hate my life
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Oct 21, 2015

    I have tried a few times,

    and I thought about it not too long ago, but I'm still here and I don't think I could actually do it.
    RandomExistence RandomExistence
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Oct 21, 2015

    When I tried to commit suicide something died at

    that time But it wasn't my body
    AutoLove0 AutoLove0
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Oct 21, 2015

    Last night actually. I took a lot of pills.

    People were being mean Af. And My nana told me to go kill myself. Just like how my ma used to do. I didn't really mean to take a lot. But. If I woulda died I wouldn't of minded. Oh wells tho
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Oct 5, 2015

    When I was 12. I didn't know what the hell I

    was doing, I took a **** ton of pain pills. It's scary, when you start losing vision from being too tired. You can't tell if you're dying. I passed out. It was terrifying because as I was dosing off, I was panicking because I just did something so ******* stupid. But I...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    5 Responses Oct 3, 2015

    yes quite a few times i day i will get it right

    and no one will find me to save me the next time
    burnner burnner
    61-65, M
    Sep 28, 2015

    Feel like just taking all the tablets I've got

    in the house ?? what's the point?
    nicmar21 nicmar21
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Sep 25, 2015

    in 2014, I attempted suicide.

    I felt like everyone was being fake to me. they were just pretending to be nice. pretending to care about me. I had gotten into an argument with my dad. he was mad that I was chatting with strangers online. he told me to stop being stupid. that was the icebreaker for me. when I...
    Misskaryn Misskaryn
    16-17, F
    1 Response Sep 25, 2015

    but if it did work, I wouldn't have met my

    three most amazing friends <3
    isolatedboy123 isolatedboy123
    13-15, F
    1 Response Sep 18, 2015
    smileforme14 smileforme14
    16-17, F
    1 Response Sep 17, 2015

    yes i have tried to end it all b twice before

    and still is thinking about doing it once more maybe i will get lucky the thrid time around
    masterLLL masterLLL
    56-60, M
    3 Responses Sep 14, 2015

    Yesterday I Googled how to kill myself (to find

    the best and most effective painless way) and I found this site. I'm liking this site so far and am feeling better today.
    meowkachu meowkachu
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Sep 13, 2015
    deligoddess deligoddess
    26-30, F
    1 Response Sep 12, 2015

    When you plan to end your life tomorrow

    and your parent's decide that they are going to stay home.... *******.
    rawimabear rawimabear
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 6, 2015

    A few months ago I overdosed on two boxes of

    paracetamol. I just went to school like normal because I knew it would take a few days to kill me. After a few hours I told one of my friends and she dragged me down to the school nurse. They called my parents and an ambulance and took me to hospital. It was too late for me to...
    FeedingTheWolves FeedingTheWolves
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Sep 2, 2015
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