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I Have Trouble Staying Truly Happy

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 325 People

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    I am on meds for depression and don't deny I need them.  It seems like I have a pattern of unhappiness that I can't shake.  I can truly only remember a brief period of time when I was happy in college, that was well over 4 years ago.  Things just haven't been...
    B0082 B0082 26-30 1 Response Oct 13, 2010

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    Not Right Now.

    I'am currently on a emotional rollercoaster ride right now. my wife and I are seperating, but she is still here. I wish she would go ahead and move on, cause having her here is not letting me heal. She has fallen in love with another man and already has months of healing behind...
    goodheart goodheart 46-50, M 1 Response May 3, 2008

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    Mood Swings

    Mood swings,Stuff me up,Hav' 'em,Every now and then,One day,I'm up,Next down,I guess,That's the curse,Of living.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Dec 13, 2011

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    Unhappy

    I don't know why, but everytime I get remotely close to feeling happy, I think of something or someone that has done me wrong in the past and forget the happiness that I came close to. I don't think that I deserve to be happy and I often feel like no one cares...
    depressedmommy depressedmommy 22-25, F 9 Responses Mar 10, 2009

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    I Have No Reason In the Wor...

    I have no reason in the world to be unhappy. The people in my life are amazing, the experiences I have had and am having are great, there are no serious tragedies. And yet, in the middle of what should be the happiest most satisfying times, I feel dissatisfied - not truly happy...
    caityj caityj 18-21 Feb 27, 2009

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    Its Hard Sometimes

    ... i get lost sometimes i will admit that. i get so depressed i just want to numb it all away and i do something stupid. before when she was in my life i was... beyond words in greatness but now .. i just don't know what to do. i feel lost and not just cause i miss her. i just...
    CaptainJackass CaptainJackass 22-25, M 4 Responses Mar 9, 2011

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    Random Days

    So its like I am happy for random days. A lot of times I feel really lonely and depressed. Its difficult for me to find stuff that makes me happy. Its all temporary happiness, not true happiness. I'm not sure that I will ever be able to find true happiness. Its like most of the...
    lolajonson lolajonson 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 16, 2011

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    My Heart Hurts.

    Things are not going so well in my relationship. I'm planning on leaving my fiance. To make things harder we have a son together, he's 11 months old. I have so many fears about leaving him. I haven't had a job in over 2 years. I would have rather worked than stayed at home, but...
    NoWhiteFlag NoWhiteFlag 22-25, F 2 Responses May 16, 2012

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    It's Hard...

    Lately I seem to be in a mode of slowly crawling out of my depressed state and into a somewhat happier mood. Maybe it's the change in weather, or maybe it's something else, but I can barely, almost imperceptibly feel a slight change coming over my mood for the positive. However...
    Tuva Tuva 31-35, M 2 Responses Apr 3, 2010

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    Damn You Depression.

    Every time I think I am starting to feel genuinely happy, depression grabs me and drags me down once again. It's just a common cycle for me now. I'm just hoping that one day my depression will just die down and decide never to come back. I want to be a happy person, I don't want...
    KawaiiDoll KawaiiDoll 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 27, 2011

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    I Battle With Depression An...

    I battle with depression and anixity. I also have a lot of other issues that I deal with
    withoutpurpose withoutpurpose 56-60 Jan 7, 2009

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    Truly Excruciating..

    This pain is truly excruciating. Watching the person whom i love so much in someone else's arms. How could a heart who always loved truly can endure and survive this trauma? These days i cant even breathe right, the pain in my heart is so bad, that i can pysically feel it in my...
    bluie19 bluie19 26-30, F 8 Responses Mar 9, 2011

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    Thats Life For You.

    I guess everyone has the same old problem trying to stay happy some of us hide how we really feel some people have no problem letting the world and its friend the fact they are down and in the dumps,me on the other hand i tend to block out how i feel about alot of things maybe...
    nuttyrocker nuttyrocker 26-30, F Apr 3, 2010

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    Well I am 19 years old,

    I've been in 2 abusive relation ships one for 3 years and one im still in every time I try to get into a serious relation ship im always scared and don't want to get hurt again all I want is a family I know it seems like im young but ive been on my own sense I was 13 my brother...
    alexis121 alexis121 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 2

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    this thought often creeps up on me; quietly and uninvited throughout the day. i have no recollection of a period of time where i have felt truly happy, uninhibited, free...not even...
    mariegander mariegander 22-25, F Jan 6

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    that is...until I found this site...I've met a lot of truly sincere, funny, and kind people here. and I guess I just want to say thanks to those people and let you know that all of...
    Inara24 Inara24 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I have trouble sleeping at night because that's when I'm the most introspective. My brain is so active at night unfortunately.
    persayous persayous 22-25, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I seriously have trouble sleeping. I could be so so tired and not be able to sleep. My eyes say yes, but my mind says no.
    persayous persayous 22-25, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Although I see true beauty and happiness all around me, it is very hard not to notice the people who are ungrateful, complaining, self-absorbed, unhappy, and inhumane. Scattered...
    TrailrunnerMN TrailrunnerMN 31-35, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I'm 20. You know what? I know I need to let go of my mother- it's because our relationship doesn't serve me or her and it's unhealthy and I feel she puts pressure on me. SHE IS...
    dzordze dzordze 18-21, M 4 days ago

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    I was ok as a child but my reading issues picked up I was about 14-15. Though I think it started earlier. I always had trouble with comprehension. When I was younger I couldn't...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 Jan 14

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    Ive always had trouble expressing my feelings, even some people have told me to change that. But... I can't. What if the person you love doesnt feel the same way? No, thanks. I...
    iamnotbabe iamnotbabe 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Well, this group title is somewhat misleading, but I'll explain. Idk why, but I notice when I talk to people while they're depressed, they are more interesting. I mean, yeah sure...
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 7 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    I think I've forgotten how to make friends. I work in an office with almost entirely older people who I don't have much in common with, so co workers are unlikely to become...
    pfsword pfsword 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 3

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    Things have a funny way of working themselves out in life, I never thought it would happen to me..but it did, eventually. I haven't been on ep in SUCH a long while and my life has...
    followthewhiterabbit followthewhiterabbit 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 12

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    Pretty sure I have a mild form of dyslexia. I'm 100% sure I have Dyscalculia too.
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 1 Response Jan 14

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    I have insomnia from alcohol withdrawal. Night # 2. Here we go.
    poppysue15 poppysue15 41-45, F Jan 14

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    For example, there's this competition at school about story writing, the deadline is in May but like I have two story ideas that I want to write an I seriously can't make a...
    RossAshton RossAshton 18-21, M Jan 17

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    In spite of my childhood, I've decided to be happy. I didn't know how to do this at first. Life seemed overwhelming at times and I felt like I was drowning. I felt like I didn't...
    Accomplishedlady Accomplishedlady 36-40, F 2 Responses Dec 29, 2014

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    I have decided to rid my life of people and things that interfere with this decision as much as possible. I am very, um, happy about it!
    SavannahAnsley SavannahAnsley 41-45, F 2 Responses Jan 6

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    Now I am looking for the rest of my buddies: Doc Dopey Bashful Grumpy Sneezy Sleepy This is the closest I am going to get to Happy! At least I'm not Grumpy anymore.
    unluckE unluckE 31-35, M 2 Responses Jan 9

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    My 3 boys are amazing!!! I cannot wait to get kisses from them to bring in the new year!!! Love my sons HAVE AN GREAT NEW YEARS EVERYONE ... Be good and be safe !!!
    dizzyupthegirl1 dizzyupthegirl1 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 31, 2014

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    Words can be so misunderstood, but my view of joy and happiness is that they come from different places. Joy can come from within, and can be amplified with good company or...
    Taurusedi Taurusedi 31-35, M Jan 7

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    just haven't figured out exactly how to mean it.
    jpl1970 jpl1970 41-45, F 6 days ago

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    my boyfriend said that I was fat today. I don't know what to do it how to feel. I feel broken and hurt. I know I'm fat, but for him to say it.. it got to me bad. now I'm...
    katiena katiena 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 8

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    I struggle so badly and spend a long time figuring it out, only to go back to what I initially wanted to do, then questioning that. I never ever make a real decision. It's so hard...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 1 Response Jan 12

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    VandelliaCirrhosa VandelliaCirrhosa 41-45, M 1 Response Jan 13

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    Sometimes I stay up thinking for no reason
    RebeccaMontero RebeccaMontero 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 13

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    Just woke up from a sleep paralysis nightmare i know it's a little late to be up now but can't go back to bed after that nightmare
    lilacstone lilacstone 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 14

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    Every time I close my eyes at night, I feel like someone's watching me and it forces me to open my eyes again. I hate it so much. I'm tired, but I can't sleep.
    MaximumAri MaximumAri 13-15, F Jan 14

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    Not really sleepy tonight instead i find myself on here now tonight and bored probably going to read
    lilacstone lilacstone 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 18

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    Stop asking me to trust you While I'm still coughing up water from the last time you let Me drown
    DaddysCupcake DaddysCupcake 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Happiness is a beautiful thing - find it where you go .
    Dancemomisme1 Dancemomisme1 46-50, F 5 Responses Jan 1

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    ROSES ARE RED VIOLETS ARE BLUE REVENGE IS SWEET..... I'M OVER YOU ...
    sweetnovember29 sweetnovember29 41-45, F 3 Responses Jan 9

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    HAPPINESS IS SIMPLY A DECISION. -self epiphany
    givememouthfuls givememouthfuls 26-30, M Jan 16

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    Sometimes I wonder: Am I ever going to be truly happy with my life? Honestly I don't think I have ever been truly happy. I know that we can't go thru life just being happy all of...
    vikkianne vikkianne 31-35, F Jan 15

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    I lost my focus for so long. Wasted so many years waiting for someone else to make me happy. Allowing myself to be buried under negativity, isolation. It doesn't work that way...
    justNIK justNIK 41-45, F 2 Responses Jan 12

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