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I Have Trouble Staying Truly Happy

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 325 People

    Well I am 19 years old,

    I've been in 2 abusive relation ships one for 3 years and one im still in every time I try to get into a serious relation ship im always scared and don't want to get hurt again all I want is a family I know it seems like im young but ive been on my own sense I was 13 my brother...
    alexis121 alexis121 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 2

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    Mood Swings

    Mood swings,Stuff me up,Hav' 'em,Every now and then,One day,I'm up,Next down,I guess,That's the curse,Of living.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Dec 13, 2011

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    Wth

    I am on meds for depression and don't deny I need them.  It seems like I have a pattern of unhappiness that I can't shake.  I can truly only remember a brief period of time when I was happy in college, that was well over 4 years ago.  Things just haven't been...
    B0082 B0082 26-30 1 Response Oct 13, 2010

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    Its Hard Sometimes

    ... i get lost sometimes i will admit that. i get so depressed i just want to numb it all away and i do something stupid. before when she was in my life i was... beyond words in greatness but now .. i just don't know what to do. i feel lost and not just cause i miss her. i just...
    CaptainJackass CaptainJackass 22-25, M 4 Responses Mar 9, 2011

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    Random Days

    So its like I am happy for random days. A lot of times I feel really lonely and depressed. Its difficult for me to find stuff that makes me happy. Its all temporary happiness, not true happiness. I'm not sure that I will ever be able to find true happiness. Its like most of the...
    lolajonson lolajonson 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 16, 2011

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    I Battle With Depression An...

    I battle with depression and anixity. I also have a lot of other issues that I deal with
    withoutpurpose withoutpurpose 56-60 Jan 7, 2009

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    Truly Excruciating..

    This pain is truly excruciating. Watching the person whom i love so much in someone else's arms. How could a heart who always loved truly can endure and survive this trauma? These days i cant even breathe right, the pain in my heart is so bad, that i can pysically feel it in my...
    bluie19 bluie19 26-30, F 8 Responses Mar 9, 2011

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    Damn You Depression.

    Every time I think I am starting to feel genuinely happy, depression grabs me and drags me down once again. It's just a common cycle for me now. I'm just hoping that one day my depression will just die down and decide never to come back. I want to be a happy person, I don't want...
    KawaiiDoll KawaiiDoll 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 27, 2011

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    I Have No Reason In the Wor...

    I have no reason in the world to be unhappy. The people in my life are amazing, the experiences I have had and am having are great, there are no serious tragedies. And yet, in the middle of what should be the happiest most satisfying times, I feel dissatisfied - not truly happy...
    caityj caityj 18-21 Feb 27, 2009

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    Thats Life For You.

    I guess everyone has the same old problem trying to stay happy some of us hide how we really feel some people have no problem letting the world and its friend the fact they are down and in the dumps,me on the other hand i tend to block out how i feel about alot of things maybe...
    nuttyrocker nuttyrocker 26-30, F Apr 3, 2010

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    My Heart Hurts.

    Things are not going so well in my relationship. I'm planning on leaving my fiance. To make things harder we have a son together, he's 11 months old. I have so many fears about leaving him. I haven't had a job in over 2 years. I would have rather worked than stayed at home, but...
    NoWhiteFlag NoWhiteFlag 22-25, F 2 Responses May 16, 2012

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    It's Hard...

    Lately I seem to be in a mode of slowly crawling out of my depressed state and into a somewhat happier mood. Maybe it's the change in weather, or maybe it's something else, but I can barely, almost imperceptibly feel a slight change coming over my mood for the positive. However...
    Tuva Tuva 31-35, M 2 Responses Apr 3, 2010

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    Not Right Now.

    I'am currently on a emotional rollercoaster ride right now. my wife and I are seperating, but she is still here. I wish she would go ahead and move on, cause having her here is not letting me heal. She has fallen in love with another man and already has months of healing behind...
    goodheart goodheart 46-50, M 1 Response May 3, 2008

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    Unhappy

    I don't know why, but everytime I get remotely close to feeling happy, I think of something or someone that has done me wrong in the past and forget the happiness that I came close to. I don't think that I deserve to be happy and I often feel like no one cares...
    depressedmommy depressedmommy 22-25, F 9 Responses Mar 10, 2009

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    I have trouble falling asleep earlier than 1am even during the work week. And even if I did not sleep much the previous night, I would still be awake until late the next night. Any...
    VoiceInYourHead VoiceInYourHead 31-35, M 1 Response Mar 23

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    I have trouble talking to people about me. I can do superficial talk about me, just nothing beyond surface level. I can talk to about anything else from politics and religion to...
    Kathrax Kathrax 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 24

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    A therapist I was working for , building a huge wooden bookshelf, told me after talking religion and, politics also the meaning of life while I was working , that I was the wisest...
    madmoe68 madmoe68 41-45, M Mar 24

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    I have trouble due to social anxiety, problems with people before and fear of immediate rejection. Which in turn leads to awkwardness and sometimes I tend to embarrass myself more...
    xxRaindrop xxRaindrop 18-21, M a week ago

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    I never had a day like this. I haven't slept full night. Since 1 and half months I'm drinking daily. I'm worried about my health. I don't know why you left me but I'm becoming...
    naz69 naz69 26-30, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I have always had trouble telling people how I feel. There have been a few girls that I have become sort of friends with and wished I could tell them how I feel and I could get...
    Balockay Balockay 16-17, M 1 Response Mar 24

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    I need help. I was just on spring break and I ****** up my sleeping schedule. I need help! I have school tomorrow!
    universegirl101 universegirl101 13-15, F Mar 22

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    I have a very long history of sleeping problems. I can't stay up longer than midnight in fear of sleepwalking. I twitch in my sleep. Sometimes I wake up to leg cramps and...
    BITTERandNAIVE BITTERandNAIVE 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    When I moved to London in grade 9, I became friends with a girl who cut and attempted suicide many times, and my sister began to cut as well. In grade 10, I became friends with...
    drowninginsaltwater drowninginsaltwater 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    It's especially with the clothes I wear. Because I want to express myself completely and I'm always pursuing individualism. So my clothes have to be something that describes me and...
    queenjellyfish queenjellyfish 16-17, F Mar 29

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    Criticism never bugged me until this year. I guess cause alot of things changed idk but anyone I'm around comments on my weight, how I look, or just me being me. My friends and...
    lilly756 lilly756 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 4

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    The only person I need to make happy is me no matter what, we only live once and I don't want to live a life with regrets am not getting any younger so Be happy with what u have.
    fresa87 fresa87 26-30, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I Chose To Go On Growing!!!Looking at how important your thoughts are to your reality, it is far better to chose to be happy!!!
    LadyGypsy LadyGypsy 36-40, F 2 Responses Apr 5

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    What Do I Have To Be Sad About? ~Hateful mooching relatives. ~No real friends. ~Youngest child stolen from me 17 years ago&refuses to have anything to do with me. ~Oldest sons...
    FineAsWine45 FineAsWine45 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 18

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    She never loved me and after 5 years I am still in love with her
    poetatdusk poetatdusk 18-21, T 3 hrs ago

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    Or the trailer. And the car. And the motel room.
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M Mar 22

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    i'm glad i met someone here who gives me a little hope for tomorrow. tomorrow i'm going to make a fake tattoo haha.
    Raicyn Raicyn 18-21, F Mar 24

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    we talked to mom today.She criticised the partners I choose. I mean like the previous one was fine but was a bad guy, this one is not good-looking and it's unknown even if he's at...
    darkblue0909 darkblue0909 18-21, F Mar 28

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    I can't sleep any at all anyone want to talk?
    beachgirl13 beachgirl13 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    I'm so angry with you. I keep looking on your last fm music feed and keep thinking about you. Looking up the lyrics of the songs you're listening to. wondering if they mean you...
    drakewood drakewood 26-30, F Mar 28

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    My parents split a few years ago. My mom fell in love with a neighbor and eventually moved states away. That was the most difficult depressing time of my life. As soon as she moved...
    Shessolovely Shessolovely 18-21 Mar 30

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    [see picture] Wtf is this!!?? I barely see any difference between the two! Why do they get so much dark blue (deep sleep) with AND without earplugs?! That's not even fair... >_>
    ArrowPewPew ArrowPewPew 18-21 2 Responses Mar 31

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    I don't know what it is, but I want more. I don't know how to change my body clock to get more.
    asert12345678 asert12345678 31-35, M 1 Response Apr 2

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    I'm just sad because I really like you; more than I've like anyone. Tonight I got slapped in the face with the reality that I'll never be able to call you mine and that isn't a...
    angela9817 angela9817 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    I take pills and medicine but I feel like **** in the mornings... Any ideas that may actually help me fall asleep besides pills? ( please don't say a warm cup of milk or counting...
    TheWorldsExiled TheWorldsExiled 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 9

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    If this is you follow my tips! This is my experience and tips: So this is bacically when your first starting high school in year 7 or it can be for anything really. So I remember...
    FriendshipQ FriendshipQ 13-15, F Apr 10

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    Yup. I really want to sleep at this point of time but i don't know how. Fudge
    pawpawyumul pawpawyumul 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    I am not deleting my account, I am just going to stay away from it and come on once a year. This will make me a little happier. Smiles {>^.^}>
    Chisington Chisington 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 22

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    I'm going to get into independent living. For myself. I want to take courses for school (of course) and also a cooking class, I am going to do this. I'm going to be my own woman...