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I Have Trouble Staying Truly Happy

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 317 People

    It's Hard...

    Lately I seem to be in a mode of slowly crawling out of my depressed state and into a somewhat happier mood. Maybe it's the change in weather, or maybe it's something else, but I can barely, almost imperceptibly feel a slight change coming over my mood for the positive. However...
    Tuva Tuva 31-35, M 2 Responses Apr 3, 2010

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    Wth

    I am on meds for depression and don't deny I need them.  It seems like I have a pattern of unhappiness that I can't shake.  I can truly only remember a brief period of time when I was happy in college, that was well over 4 years ago.  Things just haven't been...
    B0082 B0082 26-30 1 Response Oct 13, 2010

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    Mood Swings

    Mood swings,Stuff me up,Hav' 'em,Every now and then,One day,I'm up,Next down,I guess,That's the curse,Of living.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Dec 13, 2011

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    Not Right Now.

    I'am currently on a emotional rollercoaster ride right now. my wife and I are seperating, but she is still here. I wish she would go ahead and move on, cause having her here is not letting me heal. She has fallen in love with another man and already has months of healing behind...
    goodheart goodheart 46-50, M 1 Response May 3, 2008

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    My Heart Hurts.

    Things are not going so well in my relationship. I'm planning on leaving my fiance. To make things harder we have a son together, he's 11 months old. I have so many fears about leaving him. I haven't had a job in over 2 years. I would have rather worked than stayed at home, but...
    NoWhiteFlag NoWhiteFlag 22-25, F 2 Responses May 16, 2012

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    Truly Excruciating..

    This pain is truly excruciating. Watching the person whom i love so much in someone else's arms. How could a heart who always loved truly can endure and survive this trauma? These days i cant even breathe right, the pain in my heart is so bad, that i can pysically feel it in my...
    bluie19 bluie19 26-30, F 8 Responses Mar 9, 2011

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    Its Hard Sometimes

    ... i get lost sometimes i will admit that. i get so depressed i just want to numb it all away and i do something stupid. before when she was in my life i was... beyond words in greatness but now .. i just don't know what to do. i feel lost and not just cause i miss her. i just...
    CaptainJackass CaptainJackass 22-25, M 4 Responses Mar 9, 2011

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    Damn You Depression.

    Every time I think I am starting to feel genuinely happy, depression grabs me and drags me down once again. It's just a common cycle for me now. I'm just hoping that one day my depression will just die down and decide never to come back. I want to be a happy person, I don't want...
    KawaiiDoll KawaiiDoll 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 27, 2011

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    Random Days

    So its like I am happy for random days. A lot of times I feel really lonely and depressed. Its difficult for me to find stuff that makes me happy. Its all temporary happiness, not true happiness. I'm not sure that I will ever be able to find true happiness. Its like most of the...
    lolajonson lolajonson 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 16, 2011

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    I Battle With Depression An...

    I battle with depression and anixity. I also have a lot of other issues that I deal with
    withoutpurpose withoutpurpose 56-60 Jan 7, 2009

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    I Have No Reason In the Wor...

    I have no reason in the world to be unhappy. The people in my life are amazing, the experiences I have had and am having are great, there are no serious tragedies. And yet, in the middle of what should be the happiest most satisfying times, I feel dissatisfied - not truly happy...
    caityj caityj 18-21 Feb 27, 2009

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    Thats Life For You.

    I guess everyone has the same old problem trying to stay happy some of us hide how we really feel some people have no problem letting the world and its friend the fact they are down and in the dumps,me on the other hand i tend to block out how i feel about alot of things maybe...
    nuttyrocker nuttyrocker 26-30, F Apr 3, 2010

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    Unhappy

    I don't know why, but everytime I get remotely close to feeling happy, I think of something or someone that has done me wrong in the past and forget the happiness that I came close to. I don't think that I deserve to be happy and I often feel like no one cares...
    depressedmommy depressedmommy 22-25, F 9 Responses Mar 10, 2009

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    Related Experiences

    I have so many things to do. From midterms to projects to hand in to classes to attend to New Year's shopping, to getting people gifts to figuring out what I want from 2015 and...
    Theworldisminenow Theworldisminenow 18-21, F Dec 3

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    only one girl has made me truly happy but i found out she was lying to me
    imagination34 imagination34 16-17, M 1 Response Dec 7

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    When I am talking to someone and they start to lose interest in what I am talking about, it hurts my feelings and I have trouble walking away. I want to keep trying to get their...
    tryingagainII tryingagainII 56-60, M 1 Response Nov 29

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    I feel abandoned. My own fault. Audioslave reminds me of some dark days. Can't listen to them. I have trouble letting go, getting over, and moving on. In my heart.
    Peacepuppy Peacepuppy 22-25, F 4 Responses Dec 7

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    I have decided to be happy. The problem with deciding to be happy, is I have to admit that I am not. I can't live in denial anymore. Like the song says....Happiness is... 1. A...
    tryingagainII tryingagainII 56-60, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    For years I read about happiness, that you can decide to be happy. I thought: 'doh, i know that' but i still kept complaining and being miserable every now and then. Just recently...
    hyilol hyilol 26-30, F 2 hrs ago

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    I don't think it's just because I'm cocky or the biggest egoist in the world. It's got to be more than that, because I think I've apologized a total of 5-6 times my whole life...ok...
    Theworldisminenow Theworldisminenow 18-21, F Dec 2

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    Even though it's better this way, and al my effort was meant for the happiness and greater good, except that which I could not control, I'd want to say, how much you made me happy...
    Peacepuppy Peacepuppy 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 28

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    Stayed out late. Didn't have a curfew, didn't get into trouble until after Thanksgiving. It wasn't even my friends fault
    LilRedFoxTail LilRedFoxTail 18-21, M Nov 30

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    It was just few weeks when I learned that I was cheated again for numerous time. Desperation and pain I think will always be in my heart. It's really hard to forgive and forget. I...
    ezzy2014 ezzy2014 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 22

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    I suppose I could call it insomnia. It has been both productive and destructive in my life. I can remember as a child having great difficulty sleeping. When I discovered books I...
    TunnelofTrees TunnelofTrees 36-40, M Nov 28

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    Currently my boyfriend is dealing with some family stuff, and I really want to be there for him, I just don't always know how. I so often feel like my emotions make me vulnerable...
    lillyforever4 lillyforever4 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 2

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    basically because i've made so much bad decisions.I have always wondered how my life would've changed if i had changed my decision. nowadays i toss coins to take small decisions...
    alexgabriel alexgabriel 22-25, M 2 Responses Dec 8

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    My 3.5 yr old boy is petrified of the toilet for no reason. I have tried encouragement with stickers, rewards charts, toy cars and even chocolate. Nothing seems to get him to want...
    omniversereality omniversereality 31-35, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    One day in the Garden of Eden, Eve calls out to God. "Lord, I have a problem!" "What's the problem, Eve?" "Lord, I know you created me and all of this beautiful garden and all of...
    novembermountain novembermountain 41-45, F 6 Responses Nov 23

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    i recently sat down and uncovered all of the reasons why i am unhappy right now, it was a long list but i've decided to be happy. i decided i'm going to put myself first, i'm going...
    aurorabutterfly aurorabutterfly 18-21, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    I think many guys have a just sex with wives also.....
    awakeja awakeja 51-55, F Nov 26

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    I have a long list as well .
    Keyshawna31 Keyshawna31 31-35, F 2 days ago

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    I stay up till late hours of the night trying to fall asleep. My eyes feel strained ! And im tired but i cant gall asleep.
    amberlxl amberlxl 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 26

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    I honestly don't know if it will ever trust anyone again. It didn't work so well last time. If I do it will take a long long time
    RememberingSunday22 RememberingSunday22 36-40, F Dec 1

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    I try to be 100-90% honest... but people want to keep things that involve my happiness.. and wonder why I stop being so honest with them.... I stoped trusting you when you mislead...
    butterflyofchange butterflyofchange 18-21, F Dec 1

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    Why don't I believe you anymore
    paradox123 paradox123 16-17, F Dec 5

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    I don't speak unless someone speaks to me first...
    ClearEverglass ClearEverglass 13-15, F Dec 7

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    Get out of my head, I'm trying to sleep... Stop keeping me awake with your unnecessary nightmares.
    BloodofAmara BloodofAmara 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 11

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    I start hockey tomorrow and ugh my coach isn't helping she doesn't communicate and wants me to play Saturday when I can't, I've never been in hockey skates before either! I can't...
    SomethingAboutFigureSkating SomethingAboutFigureSkating 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 11

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    Hi everyone I hope we can all be good friends :)
    bezogoon bezogoon 18-21, M a week ago

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    I can't sleep. I did sleep for an hour. I awoke feeling sad, scared, and lonely. I wonder why. a bad dream that I can't remember maybe. kicked out of bed. now curled up on...
    regalshewolf regalshewolf 41-45, F 1 Response a week ago

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    People think im mean, but im simply only shy, and want someone to talk to.
    EmoAngelOfLight EmoAngelOfLight 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    My mind keeps running from one thought to another,and i toss and turn all night.
    brandye brandye 22-25, F 2 hrs ago

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    I am in pain..emotional pain..I feel lost and alone.. Yet I have a good hard working husband, and four beautiful healthy children, a house, cars, big back yard, a pool...etc.. Not...
    Sorrentina Sorrentina 41-45, F 8 Responses Nov 28

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    I think my sister is starting to hate me. I don't know what I did wrong and now I want to escape. She has been pointing out things that hurt me and I can't tell if she's just...
    Cranksta Cranksta 18-21, F Dec 1

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    This is a problem, I can't seem to tell whether I'm truly happy or not.
    choodie choodie 18-21, F Nov 27

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    Oh, where to begin... I'm not sure if he has NPD or if he's just very narcissistic, but he's definitely not an easy person to live with. I experienced abuse as a child from my...
    chococat159 chococat159 18-21 Nov 23

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