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I Have Uncontrollable Compulsive Thoughts

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    I Had Uncontrollable Compulsive Thoughts...

    I had uncontrollable compulsive thoughts...HAD being the key word.  I went through a LOT of bad stuff about 2 years ago, and I came out of it an absolute mess.  I felt like life was out of control, and I had no idea how to handle it.  I didn't do drugs, or drink...
    Avice Avice 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 15, 2007

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    For those of you who own trucks

    or jeeps and actually use them, hopefully you'll understand well when I tell you, I have the uncontrollable urge to go offroading. I was driving to work today and it happened again, I was going down the highway when I passed a spot that led into a field, I threw the truck...
    Devilscar Devilscar 18-21, M Feb 23

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    Uncontrollable Unrelated Thoughts

    Hi i m suffereing from this since long time..i dont know probabably from my age of 16 or 17 now i m 30.what happens is when i dont have any work.. say for example when i about to sleep lot of thoughts pass they are UNRELATED... and UnControllable.Similary while waking up...
    thoughtsAsin thoughtsAsin 26-30, M 3 Responses Apr 6, 2010

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    Fighting Obssessive Thoughts Can Work!

    Four months after my 20-year old son committed suicide, while I was going through a major depressive period, I found my husband on the phone with a woman, explicitly having sex.  I was devastated, for more than a year I couldn't stop thinking about this and everything else...
    pdelrio2 pdelrio2 51-55, F 1 Response Nov 14, 2007

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    What if I am unlovable? I am so messed up that people meet me and once the glitz and glam of the lip gloss has worn off and the real me shows through people can see how hurt and...
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    Eh, I for one do censor my thoughts because something in me is self-conscious towards myself...but it's strange, and rather pathetic that I feel so-- my thoughts are probably...
    Ewoo Ewoo 16-17 3 days ago

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    Kwaters12 Kwaters12 22-25, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    A thousand powerful words will have no meaning if the other person doesn't want to hear it.
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    No matter how far you have gone on the wrong road, you can still turn around.
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    Chasemanning Chasemanning 13-15, M 4 hrs ago

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    followthesugarbabe followthesugarbabe 18-21, F 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    ForBetterOrForWorse ForBetterOrForWorse 16-17, F 2 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    dekantheeccentriciceman dekantheeccentriciceman 26-30, M 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    darkhorsek darkhorsek 26-30, F 1 day ago

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    galaxyrea galaxyrea 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 1

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    Gentleandlovingsoul Gentleandlovingsoul 36-40, F Jul 1

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    DarkwingGoslyn DarkwingGoslyn 31-35 1 Response Jul 4

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    UmmaCoward UmmaCoward 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 13

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    I'm new here and I was hoping to meet a few people with the same problem. I have no one to turn to and have lost out on all my friends due to my disorder..
    nj93 nj93 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 14

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    It's rather funny how this is working out. Lately, I've been obsessing over whether or not I have OCD. You know, spending hours googling symptoms, and taking tests, reading...
    jaisikae jaisikae 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 14

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    I'm writing this here for anyone struggling with bed bugs like I am. I hope this is of some help, as I've rid my room of most, compared to what I began with. They aren't completely...
    insertausername insertausername 13-15, F Jul 17

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