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I Have Uncontrollable Compulsive Thoughts

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    For those of you who own trucks

    or jeeps and actually use them, hopefully you'll understand well when I tell you, I have the uncontrollable urge to go offroading. I was driving to work today and it happened again, I was going down the highway when I passed a spot that led into a field, I threw the truck...
    Devilscar Devilscar 22-25, M Feb 23, 2014

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    Fighting Obssessive Thoughts Can Work!

    Four months after my 20-year old son committed suicide, while I was going through a major depressive period, I found my husband on the phone with a woman, explicitly having sex.  I was devastated, for more than a year I couldn't stop thinking about this and everything else...
    pdelrio2 pdelrio2 51-55, F 1 Response Nov 14, 2007

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    I Had Uncontrollable Compulsive Thoughts...

    I had uncontrollable compulsive thoughts...HAD being the key word.  I went through a LOT of bad stuff about 2 years ago, and I came out of it an absolute mess.  I felt like life was out of control, and I had no idea how to handle it.  I didn't do drugs, or drink...
    Avice Avice 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 15, 2007

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    Just found out the name

    for my peculiar mental behavior.
    narutobuddy narutobuddy 13-15, M 1 Response Sep 14, 2014

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    Uncontrollable Unrelated Thoughts

    Hi i m suffereing from this since long time..i dont know probabably from my age of 16 or 17 now i m 30.what happens is when i dont have any work.. say for example when i about to sleep lot of thoughts pass they are UNRELATED... and UnControllable.Similary while waking up...
    thoughtsAsin thoughtsAsin 26-30, M 3 Responses Apr 6, 2010

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    That fight is a constant battle. The more my life gets turned upside down the more those dark thoughts try to take over my mind. I don't think those thoughts will ever leave my...
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    It's one thing battling against the world but when you're battling your own suicidle thoughts, that's another thing. Often suicide goes across my mind. I wonder what good am I even...
    mekaxoxo mekaxoxo 16-17, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    I have started liking this app :) it's really fun to share your experiences and thoughts, like you get to know there are many people out there with same thoughts as you ..I...
    laylaaa911 laylaaa911 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    Yes but sometimes the echo in my head really weirds me out :-) Actually I think taking time here and there to be alone with your thoughts and to be a little introspective...
    OakleysWorld OakleysWorld 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Although I'd like to think I'm active on this site, I hardly write or post anything about myself. or my experiences. first, because I keep my thoughts bottled up and I only open up...
    vrooomm vrooomm 31-35, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I have been hurt, physically, and mentally. I have moved 7 times, I moved out of my moms at 13, and into my dads. My mom was an alcoholic, and my dad is a compulsive ling...
    Stark2660 Stark2660 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I’ve posted about this before as have others, but this time it’s a bit different. Yes there are attractive women I work with that I have fantasized about and wondered what if...
    alteregoeleven alteregoeleven 46-50, M 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I have been researching tons on this subject. I have suffered from this since puberty. The #1 mistake of compulsive eaters is dieting. Restricting any one food or any combo of...
    onmyway214 onmyway214 26-30, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    To a achieve a dream, you have to have an interminable need to prove yourself.
    Longpatrol90 Longpatrol90 22-25, M 6 days ago

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    Read this somewhere 23 Emotions people feel, but can’t explain Sonder: The realization that each passerby has a life as vivid and complex as your own. Opia: The ambiguous...
    RedHwaiting RedHwaiting 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I sometimes use poetry to get sad thoughts out of my head, temporarily. This is one I wrote today: In My Head I know I need help, I've been begging for it for years, But only...
    LonelyGirlLex LonelyGirlLex 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    It's ridiculously pathetic and totally school girl... What's even more hopeless is I haven't seen him since I quit my job last summer! Yup... It's been a year and I still dream...
    anhonestgirl anhonestgirl 26-30, F 1 Response a week ago

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    First off I am not a violent person. But I do have very bad thoughts. Thoughts of me beating the s*** out of someone, like a bully. I saw this video on Youtube a few days ago...
    bfsd150 bfsd150 26-30, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    "maybe we'll meet again, when we are slightly older and our minds less hectic, and I'll be right for you and you'll be right for me. But right now, I am chaos to your thoughts and...
    TjDee TjDee 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I'm 14, well... I'll be 15 in 2 weeks. I am definitely a compulsive eater. I do eat when I'm hungry, but most of the time when I'm eating, it's because I'm angry, sad, lonely...
    SparkleSwirl SparkleSwirl 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I get sexual fantasies and thoughts about other people and I feel bad cos I'm married
    deleted deleted 26-30 11 Responses Jul 24

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    About 4 years ago I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder and my Dr assumed I hear voices and see things but I don't. I just went along with it and it's snowballed out of...
    liar2000 liar2000 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 23

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    Everyday from the moment I rise, I'm vin a constant battle with my thoughts. I question everything I think, even my actions, decisions and speech. It's like having two different...
    roots2life roots2life 46-50, M 3 Responses Jul 23

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    People wouldn't look at me the same. Depending on my mood someone could think I'm depressed, completely insane; just a plain mad, extremely Lonley, disgusting, weird, kind hearted...
    Alex288837359 Alex288837359 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 22

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    Thoughts: When the very thing that protected you and helped you escape suffering vanishes, he is left guard-less and open to his harsh reality. It is only He, now, who can get up...
    lifetime201 lifetime201 16-17, M Jul 21

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    I have been separated from my husband for 11 months now. We were together for 3 years and have two children together. We fought some but not really bad until after I had my second...
    shoxic shoxic 22-25, F Jul 19

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    A year ago, my heart was an aching mess - a hurt organ with pain resonating from it's dingy chambers and broken strings. It was a stranger to the ray of hope, of optimism. It...
    ArcticNorah ArcticNorah 16-17, F Jul 18

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    Its just sometimes when I am sitting on roof of my house and watching stars... Random thoughts struck me quite often. I mean all I could think of these days. Those deep thoughts...
    LittleCreates LittleCreates 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 18

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    Lol allllll the time. All kinds of thoughts too.
    PandemicFox PandemicFox 18-21, F 8 Responses Jul 18

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    I like EP for the ability to be totally open, honest and exposed. I share ideas, thoughts and things that seem funny. Some of the things I share are private, including photos. It...
    Cbob1412 Cbob1412 41-45, M 1 Response Jul 17

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    After a stressful week, for some unknown reason my mind gets tunnel vision and I start imaging what creative ways I could entertain/seduce a woman in some unknown location equipped...
    DidISayThat69 DidISayThat69 56-60, M 1 Response Jul 17

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    These are 10 Assertive Rights I have as a human being that I have to say out loud 3 times a day... Assertive Right #1: I have the right to judge my own behavior, thoughts, and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jul 17

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    Started when I was 17. I had just passed for the 12th Grade. I was seeing this guy from my neighbourhood even though he was much older than me. It was summer vacation and I visited...
    ThandazaHoga ThandazaHoga 26-30 Jul 17

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    I just can't bring myself to give up delicious food for health. I work out almost everyday and do cardio and strength training, but I can't bring myself to eat right. I love food...
    nadiabowls nadiabowls 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 16

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    Something I think of a lot.... I have a very attractive professional wife. We have had our ups and downs and have been married for quite awhile. By all means a functional loving...
    Envisioned1 Envisioned1 41-45, M 3 Responses Jul 16

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    Its been raining whole day. So I opened my window, put on some light music and enjoyed the rain drops falling silently and in between wishing my life was like those romcom movies...
    miru1 miru1 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    I have had an intense fear of vomiting for as long as I can remember. I used to fear others vomiting around me, or even seeing it on TV or in movies (to the point where my parents...
    Einalem22 Einalem22 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 14

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    I wish i could start again have a healthy body a body that isnt bombarded with excess fat and pressure on joints. When i was 11 i weighed 15st. Some of my earliest memories like...
    Sbd29 Sbd29 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 14

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    Dear EP Well, its been years since i last posted something. Currently feeling lonely, i decide to the EP community to share my daily life story and thoughts. As of right now, i am...
    BrokenAndLost94 BrokenAndLost94 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 14

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