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I Have Written Letters That I Can Never Send

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    Yup.. I wrote a lot of letters

    for my ex-bestfriend.. I love her so much because she's my bestfriend.. But when she moved back to Arkansas... Everything changed.. She barely text/send me a message, she ignored me and stuffs.. After 4 months I think, I confronted her.. I commented on her photo ( cause she just...
    xJesuslivesx xJesuslivesx 13-15, F Mar 25, 2014

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    They are my mistakes & regrets in life,

    where I can make my loved ones tear up
    WolfsterTheWere WolfsterTheWere 13-15, M Apr 28

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    I've recently started writing letters to a guy

    I've known for 7 years. We have a very complicated relationship and I can never let him in, so writing the letters helps because I can kind of let him in but still keep my self guarded by not sending them.
    bittersweetlemonade bittersweetlemonade 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 17, 2014

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    I do this a lot on my iPhones note app.

    I used to write a lot to my girlfriend just to relieve stress since she has really put me through a lot emotionally. But I could never be so harsh so my true words will forever be hidden from her. As long as she is happy it doesn't matter if I am though.
    FullofFood FullofFood 18-21, M Mar 23, 2014

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    One time, when I was little.

    ..I though about committing sucide so I wrote little letter for everyone in my life telling them why they were important. I still have them. I considered giving them years later since then that positive messages but didn't do it since they all started with "If you are reading...
    simsim01191 simsim01191 16-17, F Mar 15

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    Where I Come From

    Dear Son,       I'm writing this letter slow cause I know you can't read fast. We don't live where we did when you left. Yer dad read in the newspaper that most  accidents happen within twenty miles of home, so we moved . Won't be able to send you...
    emerald emerald 36-40, F 9 Responses Nov 7, 2006

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    Thurs. 10-13-11 Dear A,

    I am sitting in a random parking lot, just finished eating some McDonald's. I should be at the bereavement support group, but I just needed to get away for a bit. I thought of going to Starbucks and writing, but I just wanted to go somewhere where no one knew me, where it was...
    VendettaVita VendettaVita 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 3, 2014

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    i have written some letters ,

    a personal diary type which i can never send to someone...awkward
    deephuman deephuman 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 22, 2014

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    Dear: Absent Father

    January 13, 2007 Dear Dad, I am deeply hurt by our conversation today.  I am well aware that I shouldn't have had higher expectations but I really wasn't aware of how little you thought of me.  In a way, I'm glad because I can now honestly say that you share partial...
    theophania theophania 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 13, 2007

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    I write letters all the time,

    not particularly to anyone, I write them to to express myself in privacy, and confidentiality
    ash5698 ash5698 16-17, M 2 Responses Mar 21, 2014

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    To The Cheater

    Dear George, I'm sitting here writing this and I'm still in a little bit of shock and disbelief. I told you that this was your last chance. I asked you not to hurt me again because I wouldn't be able to take it. My heart was already broken...and now you have made it hurt even...
    xgumbyz2 xgumbyz2 31-35 Apr 22, 2013

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    i have my written letters

    for my ex girlfriend i want her back but she have her new relationship.
    asskicker24 asskicker24 22-25, M Mar 16

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    Many years ago, I lost a friend.

    She died in a car crash in the country. I was really cut up about it for ages. I hadn't realised just how much I missed her. Anyway. One day I'm in the library. And I come accross a book on grief. It was a lightbulb moment! It said. Basically. That if you felt there was much...
    picklebobble picklebobble 46-50, M Oct 25, 2014

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    This is one of them to my ex: I'm sorry Mr.

    that I'm asexual and this relationship started out as an experiment to see if I could be a monogamous straight person. I've probably done irreversible damage on you and myself. I feel bad about it for so many reasons. But I guess there was good in it too. I don't know. I did...
    NotApplicable NotApplicable 22-25, F May 24, 2014

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    Dear future Lover Please appreciate me

    for everything I am. Don't try to change me, but love me for me. Accept for who I am because I'm the best me I can be, & I can't be anything better than I am today. Appreciate me, & appreciate all of me. I love me, so why shouldn't you? If you break my heart, I still love me...
    FreeSpirit02 FreeSpirit02 18-21, F Mar 16

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    I wrote this when I was on EP about four years

    ago. It was a month after my surgery. Found it today...it still applies. My Heart Has No Address My beautiful child, While it's true I will never feel the spark of your creation or experience you growing in my body, I do, in fact, know you. I have known you as long as I can...
    pinkstarburst pinkstarburst 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 15

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    A Form of Therapy

    it makes no matter the situation, if i'm upset in any way whatsoever, be it angry, sad, rejected, etc., i will write a letter to the person who offended me.  i hold on to that letter for 24 hours.  i then re-read the letter and weed out the over-exaggerated, hyper...
    AbbyNormal AbbyNormal 31-35, F 2 Responses Jun 25, 2007

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    to the Man I Wish Would Be My Full-time "daddy"

    Dear Nicky I don't think I could feel much more like an idiot.  Even before the whole, humiliating key/door-thing, I wasn't "acting right," and I know it.  It'd be easy to write the whole business off as:  "I ****** around & 'caught feelings...
    MysticWriter MysticWriter 36-40, F 1 Response Oct 24, 2006

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    Is it me or I just dont feel like reading

    lengthy messages. Except if its from him..
    oblivionisabliss oblivionisabliss 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    to that boy, you broke my heart.

    you ruined me. you made me feel like nothing. I can't trust anyone anymore. I haven't loved since you. I have to see you every day. I date but I'm damaged. thanks to you. I hope that one night was really worth it. I don't know if you didn't think about the repercussions or you...
    countryanon countryanon 16-17, F Mar 22, 2014

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    God im so stupid. In got into deep this time.

    I ruined it all but then again what was there to ruin? There never was it was all an illusion. Just something to keep me around as I was the puppet in his game. As he jerked me around and made me feel what he wanted, chaos and confusion. I think he loved it because he barely...
    WickedlilAngel WickedlilAngel 31-35, F Dec 24, 2014

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    I once wrote a letter to my past self.

    I wanted to fix a mistake I had made months earlier, and I was getting increasingly frustrated with it. Needless to say, I could not send it to its intended recipient.
    decorus decorus 13-15, M Mar 15

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    I wrote a letter to my sister in 2006

    that I have not sent to her. It seems like it's a little too late now to try and mend the fence
    joyndavid joyndavid 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 20, 2014

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    Dear: a Friend With Benefits.....

         I’m just gonna be brutally honest right now, for the record only, at this point, because I don’t know when or if I’ll actually give you this letter:      From the bottom of my heart, I love you.  I always have...
    MysticWriter MysticWriter 36-40, F 7 Responses Aug 6, 2006

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    I've written a letter to everyone

    that I know. And I'll give it to them when I feel comfortable giving it to them. One day they'll all have them but I don't know how long that'll take. It's different for each person
    JalenFrankie616 JalenFrankie616 13-15, F Jun 22, 2014

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    To my father, who left without saying goodbye

    and was never there. Everyday I wonder if he's still alive and what if he died. Would I be too late? Could I live with that? I can't even send him anything because I feel guilty and I have so many painful things that I want to say, but I wouldn't want to hurt him. So I don't...
    MaryRiddle3 MaryRiddle3 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 22, 2014

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    Dear Jonathan, How are you doing?

    Is your conscious haunting you yet? Did you tell whoever you are with that you won't stay with her forever? Did you let her know that your exclamations of love are all lies? Or did you actually fall in love? Was it just me? What's so wrong with me that you can't love me? Don...
    LoveLeahG LoveLeahG 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 16

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    I Wrote a Letter to My Best Friend That I Cant Send

    I have written a letter to my best friend recently but i can never send it because i am in love with her, its wierd becuase she is bisexual and i always thought i was straight until i began to have feelings for her........i don't know wether to tell her how i feel and send this...
    lifenotknife lifenotknife 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 10, 2007

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    I Did.

    I wrote the letter over two years ago. Sealed it up in an envelope and hid it in the back of my closet. Probably my biggest fear over this time period was that if I died in a car accident or something, then someone would eventually find and read it. One more reason to wear my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Jan 7, 2009

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    Well I could send them.

    But that would be extraordinarily stupid.
    TKD1 TKD1 46-50, F 1 Response Mar 15, 2014

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    I cant send them because I know

    that the people that I write them to cant handle them.
    15ShadesOfBlue 15ShadesOfBlue 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 25, 2014

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    To my Future Ex Husband I know you’re busy

    right now. I also reckon that you need to finish your work today. Yes, I understand that you must go out-of-town for business purposes. I know that you’re doing all of these for us, for the future of our child. Yes, all for the sake of future. I don’t know if you still...
    Brunette4U Brunette4U 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 6, 2014

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    I still have letters

    for you. Things that I'm afraid to say because you might not understand it. Every time that I miss you, I just write and write until the pain goes away.
    midnightthoughtsofyou midnightthoughtsofyou 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 28

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    Thoughts Go Unknown!!

    I always write letters to release my emotions, and then rip them up so I don't cause or start any problems. I find it's easier to forgive and forget then to show true feeling and find out the outcome.
    chateone chateone 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 11, 2007

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    Sure ,I wrote a lot message to someone whom I

    love after we don't talk each other. Every time I missed him.I am writing about something I want to know your life for example Does you miss me ? , What are you doing? and You are staying with ?
    nimkansiri nimkansiri 22-25, F Mar 17

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    Dear World

    Dear World, we have known each other, and been together for quite a few years now. I am not sure if during this time we have become very good friends though. I mean most of the time I don't think I know you at all. This doesn't seem to bother you as much as I would like it to...
    CopperCoil CopperCoil 36-40, M 1 Response May 26, 2008

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    Written Then Ripped

    On many occasions, I have written letters pouring out my every last feeling and emotion to different people.  Usually I will write down what I have always wanted to say to that person but never did because I was too scared.  It's so theraputic to be able to get out what...
    reachin4goals reachin4goals 31-35, F Jul 30, 2007

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    Father......

    Do you know that I can still remember the day you left? I wasn't that old, but I remember my mom pleading with you not to leave. I remember myself holding on to you because I didn't want you to leave. It was that day that my whole world shattered. I didn't realize it then, but...
    DietIcedTea DietIcedTea 36-40, F 4 Responses Apr 21, 2009

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    when i feel sad or angry

    or something like that, i write letters to the people that are the reason why i'm feeling that way. i don't know, it's kinda like a therapy cause it makes me feel so much better after doing it :)
    YINYANGINSANE YINYANGINSANE 13-15, F Feb 23

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    I've written so many letters

    that I can never send. I write letters when I'm sad, angry, lonely, or just need to let out emotions. I've written letters to my cousin, expressing my love and my anger and my pain. I've written letters to my friend that I lost to Cancer, trying to express my grief and how much...
    BroadwayDreamer16 BroadwayDreamer16 18-21, F Mar 23, 2014

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    I picture us together.

    All the time. It drives me crazy because I knew from the beginning it would never happen. A large percentage of everything that goes through my mind about you is completely in my head and never even has one blip of a chance of ever coming true. It's torture when I snap myself...
    Hojoda Hojoda 26-30, F Mar 26

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    So I'm a guy, and I have feelings

    for this other guy. And all the time I wish I could just tell him how I feel but I can't. I write my feelings down on a notebook and get rid of it. I'm terrified of him knowing.
    Iamsolonely96 Iamsolonely96 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 24, 2014

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    I wanted to write letters to my friend in the

    army but I don't want my family to find out that I'm writing letters. If I send off letters, my friend going to write a letter back to my house. I'm not the only person who have the mail box key. I wouldn't mind them knowing but I meet the dude online and we been talking for...
    lorrena19 lorrena19 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 18

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    To My Ex---

    I wrote a letter to my ex explaining how bad he hurt me in his impersonal manner of ending our relationship.  AC talked me out of sending this letter and I am so glad he did because I would never humble myself to that level again.  I am happier now than ever before and...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 10 Responses Aug 3, 2008

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    To the boy who broke my heart,

    I thought of you today- after two years of willing myself to push you out of my brain-you appeared, and my heart stopped beating. For a second there was nothing; I couldn't breathe...then it came. The pain. Searing through my heart, burning to the core of my soul. As I write it...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 17, 2014

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    Sleep(if It Helps You~)

    Sleep(If It Helps You~) It's ok if you tell all of your friends that it was my fault we came to an end and that you tried so hard to make amends but i'm just too much for you to contend Tell them anything you'd like I never really cared what they thought they...
    snowbunny1002 snowbunny1002 46-50, F 12 Responses Feb 1, 2010

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