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I Have Written Letters That I Can Never Send

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    On many occasions, I have written letters pouring out my every last feeling and emotion to different people.  Usually I will write down what I have always wanted to say to that person but never did because I was too scared.  It's so theraputic to be able to get out what...
    reachin4goals reachin4goals 31-35, F Jul 30, 2007

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    Hey there Pinkstarburst!

    I’m your future self…I’ve noticed lately that you are struggling with the thoughts in your head. You have an awful lot of questions and worrying going on in there. I remember those feelings very well so I thought I would write you a quick note to tell you to stop it. You...
    pinkstarburst pinkstarburst 41-45, F 8 Responses Jul 10

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    I wanted to write letters to my friend in the

    army but I don't want my family to find out that I'm writing letters. If I send off letters, my friend going to write a letter back to my house. I'm not the only person who have the mail box key. I wouldn't mind them knowing but I meet the dude online and we been talking for...
    lorrena19 lorrena19 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 18

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    "dear, pretty face" looking at a you is like

    looking at a painting in a museum that I walk by and it grabs me. So many other paintings but this particular one has something I can't fully grasp yet. We all know your beautiful and crafted with care but I see something more, or so I think. Its that mystery, that "what if...
    CandidMic CandidMic 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 1

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    Where I Come From

    Dear Son,       I'm writing this letter slow cause I know you can't read fast. We don't live where we did when you left. Yer dad read in the newspaper that most  accidents happen within twenty miles of home, so we moved . Won't be able to send you...
    emerald emerald 36-40, F 9 Responses Nov 7, 2006

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    to the Man I Wish Would Be My Full-time "daddy"

    Dear Nicky I don't think I could feel much more like an idiot.  Even before the whole, humiliating key/door-thing, I wasn't "acting right," and I know it.  It'd be easy to write the whole business off as:  "I ****** around & 'caught feelings...
    MysticWriter MysticWriter 36-40, F 1 Response Oct 24, 2006

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    i have written some letters ,

    a personal diary type which i can never send to someone...awkward
    sincerehuman sincerehuman 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 22, 2014

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    I Did.

    I wrote the letter over two years ago. Sealed it up in an envelope and hid it in the back of my closet. Probably my biggest fear over this time period was that if I died in a car accident or something, then someone would eventually find and read it. One more reason to wear my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Jan 7, 2009

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    I have this godmother who’d I’d see only

    very rarely. When I was a kid she’d typically send me money, jewelry, or a journal for Christmases. I didn’t know what to do with those journals at first…but every once in a great while, something that greatly frustrated me would happen. And I’d find myself writing a...
    Sarahbellas Sarahbellas 26-30, F 3 Responses Jun 12

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    Sure ,I wrote a lot message to someone whom I

    love after we don't talk each other. Every time I missed him.I am writing about something I want to know your life for example Does you miss me ? , What are you doing? and You are staying with ?
    nimkansiri nimkansiri 22-25, F Mar 17

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    I cant send them because I know

    that the people that I write them to cant handle them.
    15ShadesOfBlue 15ShadesOfBlue 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 25, 2014

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    I still have letters

    for you. Things that I'm afraid to say because you might not understand it. Every time that I miss you, I just write and write until the pain goes away.
    midnightthoughtsofyou midnightthoughtsofyou 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 28

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    I once wrote a letter to my past self.

    I wanted to fix a mistake I had made months earlier, and I was getting increasingly frustrated with it. Needless to say, I could not send it to its intended recipient.
    decorus decorus 16-17, M Mar 15

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    They are my mistakes & regrets in life,

    where I can make my loved ones tear up
    WolfsterTheWere WolfsterTheWere 16-17, M Apr 28

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    To the boy who broke my heart,

    I thought of you today- after two years of willing myself to push you out of my brain-you appeared, and my heart stopped beating. For a second there was nothing; I couldn't breathe...then it came. The pain. Searing through my heart, burning to the core of my soul. As I write it...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 17, 2014

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    Thoughts Go Unknown!!

    I always write letters to release my emotions, and then rip them up so I don't cause or start any problems. I find it's easier to forgive and forget then to show true feeling and find out the outcome.
    chateone chateone 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 11, 2007

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    To my Future Ex Husband I know you’re busy

    right now. I also reckon that you need to finish your work today. Yes, I understand that you must go out-of-town for business purposes. I know that you’re doing all of these for us, for the future of our child. Yes, all for the sake of future. I don’t know if you still...
    Brunette4U Brunette4U 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 6, 2014

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    I'M Sorry You Can'T Escape The Person You Are...

    You fully realise the pain you caused me. And the worst of it is, you don't really care. You seem to gain some sadistic pleasure in dragging up the past, replaying events that should be long gone and buried deep. Trying to embed them into my mind. Images, words, feelings...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 24, 2013

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    Thurs. 10-13-11 Dear A,

    I am sitting in a random parking lot, just finished eating some McDonald's. I should be at the bereavement support group, but I just needed to get away for a bit. I thought of going to Starbucks and writing, but I just wanted to go somewhere where no one knew me, where it was...
    VendettaVita VendettaVita 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 3, 2014

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    I wrote this when I was on EP about four years

    ago. It was a month after my surgery. Found it today...it still applies. My Heart Has No Address My beautiful child, While it's true I will never feel the spark of your creation or experience you growing in my body, I do, in fact, know you. I have known you as long as I can...
    pinkstarburst pinkstarburst 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 15

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    One time, when I was little.

    ..I though about committing sucide so I wrote little letter for everyone in my life telling them why they were important. I still have them. I considered giving them years later since then that positive messages but didn't do it since they all started with "If you are reading...
    simsim01191 simsim01191 16-17, F Mar 15

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    Most of them I wrote

    before the age of internet.
    Clothed Clothed 41-45, M 1 Response Jun 30

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    I miss my friend Pat a lot.

    She was a great lady. She was like a mentor to me. She died 10 years ago. I write to her quite a bit. I write to her about everything. I have also written a few break up letters. I even wrote a few letters to celebrities. I used to think I was strange for doing this, but now I...
    IndecisiveDoeEyes IndecisiveDoeEyes 31-35, F Aug 6

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    This is the first one I've written like this.

    As a draft, but to be displayed in public to gain views and support. So here goes. I'm fed up. Truth be told, I really truly am. Our relationship seems to have circles. Lots of circles. We push each other slightly farther than we would ideally like to be pushed, then we stretch...
    cloudsoflife cloudsoflife 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 7

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    I would send them, but.

    .. I don't have any stamps.
    Bethy1234321 Bethy1234321 16-17, F Jun 30

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    Dear: Absent Father

    January 13, 2007 Dear Dad, I am deeply hurt by our conversation today.  I am well aware that I shouldn't have had higher expectations but I really wasn't aware of how little you thought of me.  In a way, I'm glad because I can now honestly say that you share partial...
    theophania theophania 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 13, 2007

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    As I was reading this group's post,

    I noticed that a large bulk of them we letters to loved ones who've pasted away or to love interests...But...uh... what i my letters are not so nice and loving? My relationship with my dad isn't the best. We're always fighting and arguing. I hope that it's just normal to fight...
    AzarathRaven AzarathRaven 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 1

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    to that boy, you broke my heart.

    you ruined me. you made me feel like nothing. I can't trust anyone anymore. I haven't loved since you. I have to see you every day. I date but I'm damaged. thanks to you. I hope that one night was really worth it. I don't know if you didn't think about the repercussions or you...
    countryanon countryanon 16-17, F Mar 22, 2014

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    I picture us together.

    All the time. It drives me crazy because I knew from the beginning it would never happen. A large percentage of everything that goes through my mind about you is completely in my head and never even has one blip of a chance of ever coming true. It's torture when I snap myself...
    Hojoda Hojoda 26-30, F Mar 26

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    Dear: (part 2) a Friend With Benefits

    August 13, 2006   I feel so stupid when a week passes since we had sex and I can’t even talk to you.  It makes me wonder so many things…like, are we about to lose contact with each other, again (like we have so many times over the past ten years); is...
    MysticWriter MysticWriter 36-40, F 8 Responses Aug 13, 2006

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    I'm writing a letter to my aunt

    who passed away after her battle with cancer. I plan for years to come. That once a year. I write a letter to her telling her about everything that has happened. I made one this year and finished it. I have that letter in a box and I plan to put more in there. Maybe one day I'll...
    ICanDoMyOwnThing ICanDoMyOwnThing 13-15, T Jun 30

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    when i feel sad or angry

    or something like that, i write letters to the people that are the reason why i'm feeling that way. i don't know, it's kinda like a therapy cause it makes me feel so much better after doing it :)
    YINYANGINSANE YINYANGINSANE 13-15, F Feb 23

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    A Form of Therapy

    it makes no matter the situation, if i'm upset in any way whatsoever, be it angry, sad, rejected, etc., i will write a letter to the person who offended me.  i hold on to that letter for 24 hours.  i then re-read the letter and weed out the over-exaggerated, hyper...
    AbbyNormal AbbyNormal 31-35, F 2 Responses Jun 25, 2007

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    Clothed Clothed 41-45, M Jun 30

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    My Heart Has No Address

    My beautiful child,While it's true I will never feel the spark of your creation or experience you growing in my body, I do, in fact, know you.  I have known you as long as I can remember.  You are the child I have always wanted, the child that would come from me.  I always...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Aug 2, 2011

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    God im so stupid. In got into deep this time.

    I ruined it all but then again what was there to ruin? There never was it was all an illusion. Just something to keep me around as I was the puppet in his game. As he jerked me around and made me feel what he wanted, chaos and confusion. I think he loved it because he barely...
    WickedlilAngel WickedlilAngel 31-35, F Dec 24, 2014

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    Dear Jonathan, How are you doing?

    Is your conscious haunting you yet? Did you tell whoever you are with that you won't stay with her forever? Did you let her know that your exclamations of love are all lies? Or did you actually fall in love? Was it just me? What's so wrong with me that you can't love me? Don...
    LoveLeahG LoveLeahG 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 16

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    I Wrote a Letter to My Best Friend That I Cant Send

    I have written a letter to my best friend recently but i can never send it because i am in love with her, its wierd becuase she is bisexual and i always thought i was straight until i began to have feelings for her........i don't know wether to tell her how i feel and send this...
    lifenotknife lifenotknife 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 10, 2007

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    Some poems write themselves.

    Spilling from the heart to decorate the page. But my hands take their orders from my head. And my mind knows some things are better left unsaid. (Or at least not published for public broadcast.) :)
    oneinawillian oneinawillian 41-45, M 2 Responses Jun 10

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    I have 7 or 8 notebooks filled with letters

    written to my mom over the past 10 years starting with the one I wrote the day she passed away. I have sad letters mad letters and happy ones. When something good or bad happens I write to her. I know I can never send them but it helps so much.
    KylieeBear KylieeBear 22-25, F 4 Responses Jul 19

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    To The Cheater

    Dear George, I'm sitting here writing this and I'm still in a little bit of shock and disbelief. I told you that this was your last chance. I asked you not to hurt me again because I wouldn't be able to take it. My heart was already broken...and now you have made it hurt even...
    xgumbyz2 xgumbyz2 36-40 Apr 22, 2013

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    My Very Last Letter.

    Dear Ana, When you said you needed space from everyone, I couldn't understand why it was only me that had to take a step back, I should have been your rock, your confidant, but you asked me to give you space, and even though it was unbearable for me, I gave it to you, when no one...
    DiesSomnium DiesSomnium 31-35 2 Responses Aug 5, 2012

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    I've written letters to dead people--Antoine de

    Saint-Exupery, Emily Dickinson, and Everett Ruess, if you're wondering. I relate more to dead people and fictional characters than living people. I've journaled since I was sixteen and written emails I'll never send. Because the written word enables you to say more than speaking...
    Emeryael Emeryael 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 29

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    I wrote this letter about how I wanted it all

    to end. I thought it was going to be a suicide letter. But as I went on I realized I was writing down reasons to live. I want the heartbreak and sadness to end. But I don't want to end. I carry the letter around with me. I read it when I feel like I'm at my breaking point. But I...
    nicolemarie3 nicolemarie3 18-21, F Mar 26, 2014

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    I have written many letters

    that I can never send. Most of them are to the man who took so much from me, and stole my childhood. I have a journal full of letters to the man who raped and abused me for many many years. I of course can never share them, not with him, and not with anyone else.
    BroknGirl89 BroknGirl89 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 3

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    Dear: a Friend With Benefits.....

         I’m just gonna be brutally honest right now, for the record only, at this point, because I don’t know when or if I’ll actually give you this letter:      From the bottom of my heart, I love you.  I always have...
    MysticWriter MysticWriter 36-40, F 7 Responses