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I Have Written Letters That I Can Never Send

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    My Very Last Letter.

    Dear Ana, When you said you needed space from everyone, I couldn't understand why it was only me that had to take a step back, I should have been your rock, your confidant, but you asked me to give you space, and even though it was unbearable for me, I gave it to you, when no one...
    DiesSomnium DiesSomnium 31-35 2 Responses Aug 5, 2012

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    Some poems write themselves.

    Spilling from the heart to decorate the page. But my hands take their orders from my head. And my mind knows some things are better left unsaid. (Or at least not published for public broadcast.) :)
    oneinawillian oneinawillian 41-45, M 2 Responses Jun 10, 2015

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    i have written some letters ,

    a personal diary type which i can never send to someone...awkward
    sincerehuman sincerehuman 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 22, 2014

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    in my mind I guess..every night I write a

    letter to you or a message and leave it under my pillow on hopes of having a dream about you. I miss you so much one year doesn't even seem much,,i remember the horrors we faced when you left us,,sometimes my mind is so clouded all I do is just lay there,,,& think about the...
    MyraTomPhil MyraTomPhil 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 5, 2015

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    I have written many letters

    that I can never send. Most of them are to the man who took so much from me, and stole my childhood. I have a journal full of letters to the man who raped and abused me for many many years. I of course can never share them, not with him, and not with anyone else.
    HisLittleAriel HisLittleAriel 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 3, 2015

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    You always say you hate to see me hurt,

    and you hate to see me cry. So all those times that you hurt me, did you close your eyes?
    nalbyan nalbyan 31-35, F 2 Responses Oct 20, 2015

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    I Did.

    I wrote the letter over two years ago. Sealed it up in an envelope and hid it in the back of my closet. Probably my biggest fear over this time period was that if I died in a car accident or something, then someone would eventually find and read it. One more reason to wear my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Jan 7, 2009

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    Most of them I wrote

    before the age of internet.
    Clothed Clothed 41-45, M 1 Response Jun 30, 2015

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    Sometimes it's better not to send them.

    ..I used to write many love letters to a special person but kept them in a box. Exactly on the day I finally dared to send one, he found another girl and they have been a couple since then. After that I destroyed all letters but still keep writing new ones to different people or...
    Vakuum Vakuum 13-15, T Sep 25, 2015

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    My Heart Has No Address

    My beautiful child,While it's true I will never feel the spark of your creation or experience you growing in my body, I do, in fact, know you.  I have known you as long as I can remember.  You are the child I have always wanted, the child that would come from me.  I always...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Aug 2, 2011

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    I'm fifteen, so maybe in a couple weeks I'll

    laugh at all this, thinking "I knew nothing," and still knowing nothing except that another thing isn't right. But right now, I think I'm truly in love with someone. Not because I think about her always, or because she's the most attractive, or any reason I've ever felt romantic...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Sep 29, 2015

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    I'm writing a letter to my aunt

    who passed away after her battle with cancer. I plan for years to come. That once a year. I write a letter to her telling her about everything that has happened. I made one this year and finished it. I have that letter in a box and I plan to put more in there. Maybe one day I'll...
    ICanDoMyOwnThing ICanDoMyOwnThing 13-15, F Jun 30, 2015

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    A Form of Therapy

    it makes no matter the situation, if i'm upset in any way whatsoever, be it angry, sad, rejected, etc., i will write a letter to the person who offended me.  i hold on to that letter for 24 hours.  i then re-read the letter and weed out the over-exaggerated, hyper...
    AbbyNormal AbbyNormal 31-35, F 2 Responses Jun 25, 2007

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    Triztemuneca87 Triztemuneca87 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 26

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    Well I could send them.

    But that would be extraordinarily stupid.
    TKD1 TKD1 46-50, F 1 Response Mar 15, 2014

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    I've written letters to dead people--Antoine de

    Saint-Exupery, Emily Dickinson, and Everett Ruess, if you're wondering. I relate more to dead people and fictional characters than living people. I've journaled since I was sixteen and written emails I'll never send. Because the written word enables you to say more than speaking...
    Emeryael Emeryael 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 29, 2015

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    Dear: a Friend With Benefits.....

         I’m just gonna be brutally honest right now, for the record only, at this point, because I don’t know when or if I’ll actually give you this letter:      From the bottom of my heart, I love you.  I always have...
    MysticWriter MysticWriter 36-40, F 7 Responses Aug 6, 2006

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    What if you’ve died…?

    Dear myI don’t really know how to call you, but I think you know what I mean…That day when I have heard you could have died my heart just stops beathing for a moment. I could not belive what I heard… I repeat this statement for about 100 times in a 5 sec...
    Estranea Estranea 22-25, F Feb 3

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    Written Then Ripped

    On many occasions, I have written letters pouring out my every last feeling and emotion to different people.  Usually I will write down what I have always wanted to say to that person but never did because I was too scared.  It's so theraputic to be able to get out what...
    reachin4goals reachin4goals 31-35, F Jul 30, 2007

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    I wrote this letter about how I wanted it all

    to end. I thought it was going to be a suicide letter. But as I went on I realized I was writing down reasons to live. I want the heartbreak and sadness to end. But I don't want to end. I carry the letter around with me. I read it when I feel like I'm at my breaking point. But I...
    nicolemarie3 nicolemarie3 18-21, F Mar 26, 2014

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    Thoughts Go Unknown!!

    I always write letters to release my emotions, and then rip them up so I don't cause or start any problems. I find it's easier to forgive and forget then to show true feeling and find out the outcome.
    chateone chateone 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 11, 2007

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    Dear Asa, I force myself not to think

    about you. I force myself not to give in of what I am feeling. I force myself not to cry for you. But I can never force myself to someone else. Ever since we broken apart as boyfriend and girlfriend even as close friends, my world have changed and it did not change for the...
    XxCuTiE14xX XxCuTiE14xX 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 2, 2015

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    One was a goodbye note lucky I burnt it

    before someone read it.
    sroonaka616 sroonaka616 18-21 Sep 27, 2015

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    Dear Brad; I have been in love with you the

    moment I saw you perform in your seventh grade play. You are the only one that I get. You are the only one who gets me. You love to argue, but we've never argued with each other. I know you've been attracted to me in some way or another and I guess I'll never know why you weren...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 28, 2015

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    I wrote this when I was on EP about four years

    ago. It was a month after my surgery. Found it today...it still applies. My Heart Has No Address My beautiful child, While it's true I will never feel the spark of your creation or experience you growing in my body, I do, in fact, know you. I have known you as long as I can...
    pinkstarburst pinkstarburst 46-50, F 1 Response Mar 15, 2015

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    I have written so many letters to one person

    but I could never try to send them for I felt like they'd reject it, not read it, or just have a response of the opposite of what I think of. But I shouldn't fear or be afraid of what will happen. I just think that maybe it's not worth it anymore because of the whole experience...
    XxCuTiE14xX XxCuTiE14xX 16-17, F Oct 2, 2015

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    I'M Sorry You Can'T Escape The Person You Are...

    You fully realise the pain you caused me. And the worst of it is, you don't really care. You seem to gain some sadistic pleasure in dragging up the past, replaying events that should be long gone and buried deep. Trying to embed them into my mind. Images, words, feelings...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 24, 2013

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    I would send them, but.

    .. I don't have any stamps.
    Bethy1234321 Bethy1234321 16-17, F Jun 30, 2015

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    Hey there Pinkstarburst!

    I’m your future self…I’ve noticed lately that you are struggling with the thoughts in your head. You have an awful lot of questions and worrying going on in there. I remember those feelings very well so I thought I would write you a quick note to tell you to stop it. You...
    pinkstarburst pinkstarburst 46-50, F 8 Responses Jul 10, 2015

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    I have written lots of letters to my ex

    boyfriend that I never sent. I wanted to make up things to him. So, let me but my ex best friend came up and ruined things again and my ex best friend was the reason why ex boyfriend and I broke up in the first place. Today's date is November 2nd and its the day when my ex...
    XxCuTiE14xX XxCuTiE14xX 16-17, F Nov 2, 2015

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    Clothed Clothed 41-45, M Jun 30, 2015

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    Dear Brad, I have been in love with you

    since I saw you perform in that play when you were 13 and I was 12. You scared me at first when I met you the next year, but we grew closer. I shared things with you. We performed together in the Alice play. Then we talked for hours with you and Melody. You got me through a lot...
    Njhth Njhth 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 2, 2015

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    This is the first one I've written like this.

    As a draft, but to be displayed in public to gain views and support. So here goes. I'm fed up. Truth be told, I really truly am. Our relationship seems to have circles. Lots of circles. We push each other slightly farther than we would ideally like to be pushed, then we stretch...
    cloudsoflife cloudsoflife 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 7, 2015

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    Sitting alone when my mind gets tangled

    and I feel frantically out of control as if I am being pulled and tugged in different directions, my heart screams but I couldn’t hear. Depressive thoughts grab me by the hand and try to lead me away. With all my soul I fight believing that when a choice is made based on a...
    winterfall winterfall 41-45 1 Response Sep 24, 2015

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    "dear, pretty face" looking at a you is like

    looking at a painting in a museum that I walk by and it grabs me. So many other paintings but this particular one has something I can't fully grasp yet. We all know your beautiful and crafted with care but I see something more, or so I think. Its that mystery, that "what if...
    CandidMic CandidMic 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 1, 2015

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    As I was reading this group's post,

    I noticed that a large bulk of them we letters to loved ones who've pasted away or to love interests...But...uh... what i my letters are not so nice and loving? My relationship with my dad isn't the best. We're always fighting and arguing. I hope that it's just normal to fight...
    AzarathRaven AzarathRaven 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 1, 2015

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    You aren’t going back.

    .. You’re moving forward without a person who meant a lot to you. You’re moving forward and it feels like part of you is being ripped away; and there are some days when you lie in bed wishing you could run back in time and lie in his arms again. You’re moving forward and...
    snowbunny1002 snowbunny1002 46-50, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Where I Come From

    Dear Son,       I'm writing this letter slow cause I know you can't read fast. We don't live where we did when you left. Yer dad read in the newspaper that most  accidents happen within twenty miles of home, so we moved . Won't be able to send you...
    emerald emerald 36-40, F 9 Responses Nov 7, 2006

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    Yup.. I wrote a lot of letters

    for my ex-bestfriend.. I love her so much because she's my bestfriend.. But when she moved back to Arkansas... Everything changed.. She barely text/send me a message, she ignored me and stuffs.. After 4 months I think, I confronted her.. I commented on her photo ( cause she just...
    xJesuslivesx xJesuslivesx 16-17, F Mar 25, 2014

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    I Wrote a Letter to My Best Friend That I Cant Send

    I have written a letter to my best friend recently but i can never send it because i am in love with her, its wierd becuase she is bisexual and i always thought i was straight until i began to have feelings for her........i don't know wether to tell her how i feel and send this...
    lifenotknife lifenotknife 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 10, 2007

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    I have this godmother who’d I’d see only

    very rarely. When I was a kid she’d typically send me money, jewelry, or a journal for Christmases. I didn’t know what to do with those journals at first…but every once in a great while, something that greatly frustrated me would happen. And I’d find myself writing a...
    Sarahbellas Sarahbellas 26-30, F 3 Responses Jun 12, 2015

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    To the boy who broke my heart,

    I thought of you today- after two years of willing myself to push you out of my brain-you appeared, and my heart stopped beating. For a second there was nothing; I couldn't breathe...then it came. The pain. Searing through my heart, burning to the core of my soul. As I write it...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 17, 2014

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    I've got an old suicide note I wrote a

    while ago put away in a box somewhere
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Sep 14, 2015

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    a letter to my stranger yes.

    yes. yes! why? but... yes! a hormonal imbalance. a chemical catastrophe. a yearning and my reality. painting lies on my canvas. I can't paint lies in my mind. this is the curse of an artists mind. my fear - the feelings are for all to see if I one day give in and paint my...
    Unmasked Unmasked 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 14, 2015

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    Dear: Absent Father

    January 13, 2007 Dear Dad, I am deeply hurt by our conversation today.  I am well aware that I shouldn't have had higher expectations but I really wasn't aware of how little you thought of me.  In a way, I'm glad because I can now honestly say that you share partial...
    theophania theophania 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 13, 2007

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