I Have Written Letters That I Can Never Send

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    I'm fifteen, so maybe in a couple weeks I'll

    laugh at all this, thinking "I knew nothing," and still knowing nothing except that another thing isn't right. But right now, I think I'm truly in love with someone. Not because I think about her always, or because she's the most attractive, or any reason I've ever felt romantic...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Sep 29, 2015

    To the boy who broke my heart,

    I thought of you today- after two years of willing myself to push you out of my brain-you appeared, and my heart stopped beating. For a second there was nothing; I couldn't breathe...then it came. The pain. Searing through my heart, burning to the core of my soul. As I write it...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Mar 17, 2014

    Dear: a Friend With Benefits.....

         I’m just gonna be brutally honest right now, for the record only, at this point, because I don’t know when or if I’ll actually give you this letter:      From the bottom of my heart, I love you.  I always have...
    MysticWriter MysticWriter
    36-40, F
    7 Responses Aug 6, 2006

    I don't know where you are,

    how you are so remembering you i come here everyday silently keep my heartfelt thoughts and walk pass away. I wish to send them directly though but have lost the way to your home.Preparing my mind when i ransack options to find the path i get lost all the more in between all...
    winterfall winterfall
    41-45
    Mar 8

    To The Cheater

    Dear George, I'm sitting here writing this and I'm still in a little bit of shock and disbelief. I told you that this was your last chance. I asked you not to hurt me again because I wouldn't be able to take it. My heart was already broken...and now you have made it hurt even...
    xgumbyz2 xgumbyz2
    36-40
    Apr 22, 2013

    I have written lots of letters to my ex

    boyfriend that I never sent. I wanted to make up things to him. So, let me but my ex best friend came up and ruined things again and my ex best friend was the reason why ex boyfriend and I broke up in the first place. Today's date is November 2nd and its the day when my ex...
    XxCuTiE14xX XxCuTiE14xX
    18-21, F
    Nov 2, 2015

    Well I could send them.

    But that would be extraordinarily stupid.
    TKD1 TKD1
    51-55, F
    1 Response Mar 15, 2014

    Dear Brad; I have been in love with you the

    moment I saw you perform in your seventh grade play. You are the only one that I get. You are the only one who gets me. You love to argue, but we've never argued with each other. I know you've been attracted to me in some way or another and I guess I'll never know why you weren...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Oct 28, 2015

    Dear Brad, I have been in love with you

    since I saw you perform in that play when you were 13 and I was 12. You scared me at first when I met you the next year, but we grew closer. I shared things with you. We performed together in the Alice play. Then we talked for hours with you and Melody. You got me through a lot...
    Njhth Njhth
    16-17, F
    1 Response Nov 2, 2015

    Dear: (part 2) a Friend With Benefits

    August 13, 2006   I feel so stupid when a week passes since we had sex and I can’t even talk to you.  It makes me wonder so many things…like, are we about to lose contact with each other, again (like we have so many times over the past ten years); is...
    MysticWriter MysticWriter
    36-40, F
    8 Responses Aug 13, 2006

    I've got an old suicide note I wrote a

    while ago put away in a box somewhere
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Sep 14, 2015

    I'M Sorry You Can'T Escape The Person You Are...

    You fully realise the pain you caused me. And the worst of it is, you don't really care. You seem to gain some sadistic pleasure in dragging up the past, replaying events that should be long gone and buried deep. Trying to embed them into my mind. Images, words, feelings...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jun 24, 2013

    God im so stupid. In got into deep this time.

    I ruined it all but then again what was there to ruin? There never was it was all an illusion. Just something to keep me around as I was the puppet in his game. As he jerked me around and made me feel what he wanted, chaos and confusion. I think he loved it because he barely...
    WickedlilAngel WickedlilAngel
    31-35, F
    Dec 24, 2014

    I have written so many letters to one person

    but I could never try to send them for I felt like they'd reject it, not read it, or just have a response of the opposite of what I think of. But I shouldn't fear or be afraid of what will happen. I just think that maybe it's not worth it anymore because of the whole experience...
    XxCuTiE14xX XxCuTiE14xX
    18-21, F
    Oct 2, 2015

    "dear, pretty face" looking at a you is like

    looking at a painting in a museum that I walk by and it grabs me. So many other paintings but this particular one has something I can't fully grasp yet. We all know your beautiful and crafted with care but I see something more, or so I think. Its that mystery, that "what if...
    CandidMic CandidMic
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jul 1, 2015

    Written Then Ripped

    On many occasions, I have written letters pouring out my every last feeling and emotion to different people.  Usually I will write down what I have always wanted to say to that person but never did because I was too scared.  It's so theraputic to be able to get out what...
    reachin4goals reachin4goals
    31-35, F
    Jul 30, 2007

    I'm writing a letter to my aunt

    who passed away after her battle with cancer. I plan for years to come. That once a year. I write a letter to her telling her about everything that has happened. I made one this year and finished it. I have that letter in a box and I plan to put more in there. Maybe one day I'll...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jun 30, 2015

    I would send them, but.

    .. I don't have any stamps.
    Bethy1234321 Bethy1234321
    18-21, F
    Jun 30, 2015

    I write letters to people telling them how I

    feel about them. asking them things that I don't have the courage to ask them... I don't ever send them. usually I fold them up and burn them so nobody ever sees them...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Sep 9, 2015

    I still have letters

    for you. Things that I'm afraid to say because you might not understand it. Every time that I miss you, I just write and write until the pain goes away.
    midnightthoughtsofyou midnightthoughtsofyou
    22-25, F
    Apr 28, 2015

    I wrote you a letter

    that you will never read. All the why's you asked I answered wholeheartedly. Everything you wanted to know was in that letter all the happiness, disappointments, visions EVERYTHING was there! I read over it and cried as I watched it burn.
    1kallaway 1kallaway
    41-45, F
    Mar 16
    TristeMuneca87 TristeMuneca87
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 26

    A Form of Therapy

    it makes no matter the situation, if i'm upset in any way whatsoever, be it angry, sad, rejected, etc., i will write a letter to the person who offended me.  i hold on to that letter for 24 hours.  i then re-read the letter and weed out the over-exaggerated, hyper...
    AbbyNormal AbbyNormal
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Jun 25, 2007

    My Very Last Letter.

    Dear Ana, When you said you needed space from everyone, I couldn't understand why it was only me that had to take a step back, I should have been your rock, your confidant, but you asked me to give you space, and even though it was unbearable for me, I gave it to you, when no one...
    DiesSomnium DiesSomnium
    31-35
    2 Responses Aug 5, 2012

    Dear Asa, I force myself not to think

    about you. I force myself not to give in of what I am feeling. I force myself not to cry for you. But I can never force myself to someone else. Ever since we broken apart as boyfriend and girlfriend even as close friends, my world have changed and it did not change for the...
    XxCuTiE14xX XxCuTiE14xX
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Nov 2, 2015

    My Heart Has No Address

    My beautiful child,While it's true I will never feel the spark of your creation or experience you growing in my body, I do, in fact, know you.  I have known you as long as I can remember.  You are the child I have always wanted, the child that would come from me.  I always...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    7 Responses Aug 2, 2011

    a letter to my stranger yes.

    yes. yes! why? but... yes! a hormonal imbalance. a chemical catastrophe. a yearning and my reality. painting lies on my canvas. I can't paint lies in my mind. this is the curse of an artists mind. my fear - the feelings are for all to see if I one day give in and paint my...
    Unmasked Unmasked
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Dec 14, 2015

    I wrote this letter about how I wanted it all

    to end. I thought it was going to be a suicide letter. But as I went on I realized I was writing down reasons to live. I want the heartbreak and sadness to end. But I don't want to end. I carry the letter around with me. I read it when I feel like I'm at my breaking point. But I...
    nicolemarie3 nicolemarie3
    18-21, F
    Mar 26, 2014

    I have written many letters

    that I can never send. Most of them are to the man who took so much from me, and stole my childhood. I have a journal full of letters to the man who raped and abused me for many many years. I of course can never share them, not with him, and not with anyone else.
    HisLittleAriel HisLittleAriel
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jul 3, 2015

    Dear: Absent Father

    January 13, 2007 Dear Dad, I am deeply hurt by our conversation today.  I am well aware that I shouldn't have had higher expectations but I really wasn't aware of how little you thought of me.  In a way, I'm glad because I can now honestly say that you share partial...
    theophania theophania
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 13, 2007

    I have 7 or 8 notebooks filled with letters

    written to my mom over the past 10 years starting with the one I wrote the day she passed away. I have sad letters mad letters and happy ones. When something good or bad happens I write to her. I know I can never send them but it helps so much.
    KylieeBear KylieeBear
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Jul 19, 2015

    What if you’ve died…?

    Dear myI don’t really know how to call you, but I think you know what I mean…That day when I have heard you could have died my heart just stops beathing for a moment. I could not belive what I heard… I repeat this statement for about 100 times in a 5 sec...
    Estranea Estranea
    22-25, F
    Feb 3

    To My (ex) Partner, You're wound under my skin

    so tight I can't be free of you. I know I need to be. I know my soul was dead this last year with you. Constantly belittling me, telling me all the things you didn't like. So why do you want me? What's the point? If I'm such an annoyance and every quirk of my personality vexed...
    Ardenes Ardenes
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Sep 25, 2015

    Sometimes it's better not to send them.

    ..I used to write many love letters to a special person but kept them in a box. Exactly on the day I finally dared to send one, he found another girl and they have been a couple since then. After that I destroyed all letters but still keep writing new ones to different people or...
    Vakuum Vakuum
    13-15, T
    Sep 25, 2015

    to the Man I Wish Would Be My Full-time "daddy"

    Dear Nicky I don't think I could feel much more like an idiot.  Even before the whole, humiliating key/door-thing, I wasn't "acting right," and I know it.  It'd be easy to write the whole business off as:  "I ****** around & 'caught feelings...
    MysticWriter MysticWriter
    36-40, F
    1 Response Oct 24, 2006

    One was a goodbye note lucky I burnt it

    before someone read it.
    sroonaka616 sroonaka616
    18-21
    Sep 27, 2015
    Clothed Clothed
    41-45, M
    Jun 30, 2015

    i have written some letters ,

    a personal diary type which i can never send to someone...awkward
    sincerehuman sincerehuman
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jun 22, 2014

    I Wrote a Letter to My Best Friend That I Cant Send

    I have written a letter to my best friend recently but i can never send it because i am in love with her, its wierd becuase she is bisexual and i always thought i was straight until i began to have feelings for her........i don't know wether to tell her how i feel and send this...
    lifenotknife lifenotknife
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Apr 10, 2007

    You aren’t going back.

    .. You’re moving forward without a person who meant a lot to you. You’re moving forward and it feels like part of you is being ripped away; and there are some days when you lie in bed wishing you could run back in time and lie in his arms again. You’re moving forward and...
    snowbunny1002 snowbunny1002
    46-50, F
    1 Response Feb 6

    in my mind I guess..every night I write a

    letter to you or a message and leave it under my pillow on hopes of having a dream about you. I miss you so much one year doesn't even seem much,,i remember the horrors we faced when you left us,,sometimes my mind is so clouded all I do is just lay there,,,& think about the...
    MyraTomPhil MyraTomPhil
    26-30, F
    1 Response Oct 5, 2015

    Yup.. I wrote a lot of letters

    for my ex-bestfriend.. I love her so much because she's my bestfriend.. But when she moved back to Arkansas... Everything changed.. She barely text/send me a message, she ignored me and stuffs.. After 4 months I think, I confronted her.. I commented on her photo ( cause she just...
    xJesuslivesx xJesuslivesx
    16-17, F
    Mar 25, 2014

    As I was reading this group's post,

    I noticed that a large bulk of them we letters to loved ones who've pasted away or to love interests...But...uh... what i my letters are not so nice and loving? My relationship with my dad isn't the best. We're always fighting and arguing. I hope that it's just normal to fight...
    AzarathRaven AzarathRaven
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Jul 1, 2015

    I Did.

    I wrote the letter over two years ago. Sealed it up in an envelope and hid it in the back of my closet. Probably my biggest fear over this time period was that if I died in a car accident or something, then someone would eventually find and read it. One more reason to wear my...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    8 Responses Jan 7, 2009

    This is the first one I've written like this.

    As a draft, but to be displayed in public to gain views and support. So here goes. I'm fed up. Truth be told, I really truly am. Our relationship seems to have circles. Lots of circles. We push each other slightly farther than we would ideally like to be pushed, then we stretch...
    cloudsoflife cloudsoflife
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Jul 7, 2015

    Yes I did write you a letter in my journal.

    Would never bring it out here, too personal. I cant keep hoping and praying you will come back, it doesn't seem to be. It has been two weeks tomorrow and outside of the few words yesterday or day before, there is nothing. I am going to go back to my Dino World. Love
    boldtimer boldtimer
    66-70, M
    Mar 17

    Thoughts Go Unknown!!

    I always write letters to release my emotions, and then rip them up so I don't cause or start any problems. I find it's easier to forgive and forget then to show true feeling and find out the outcome.
    chateone chateone
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 11, 2007

    Letter After Letter After Letter. . .

    I have written you so many letters. Letter that started out telling you that I love you. Then letters telling you how much I love our amazing sex, and how I can't wait to be near you again. Letters to tell you how happy I am to be living together. Letters then start wondering if...
    rottenrobi rottenrobi
    46-50, F
    Jul 1, 2012

    Sitting alone when my mind gets tangled

    and I feel frantically out of control as if I am being pulled and tugged in different directions, my heart screams but I couldn’t hear. Depressive thoughts grab me by the hand and try to lead me away. With all my soul I fight believing that when a choice is made based on a...
    winterfall winterfall
    41-45
    Sep 24, 2015

    Letters to my deceased parents.

    Thanking them in ways I never did while they were alive. Apologizing for all the hurt I caused. Letters to my son, who never had a chance in this life. Letters to my sisters, telling all the secrets I was afraid to share before their deaths. Letters to my daughter that I'm too...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Mar 9

    You always say you hate to see me hurt,

    and you hate to see me cry. So all those times that you hurt me, did you close your eyes?
    somebodythatuusedtoknow somebodythatuusedtoknow
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Oct 20, 2015
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