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I Have Written Letters That I Can Never Send

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    To my father, who left without saying goodbye

    and was never there. Everyday I wonder if he's still alive and what if he died. Would I be too late? Could I live with that? I can't even send him anything because I feel guilty and I have so many painful things that I want to say, but I wouldn't want to hurt him. So I don't...
    MaryRiddle3 MaryRiddle3 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 22

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    to that boy, you broke my heart.

    you ruined me. you made me feel like nothing. I can't trust anyone anymore. I haven't loved since you. I have to see you every day. I date but I'm damaged. thanks to you. I hope that one night was really worth it. I don't know if you didn't think about the repercussions or you...
    countryanon countryanon 16-17, F Mar 22

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    I wrote a letter to my mother

    after she died. I tied it to a balloon. I remember thinking it would help me let go.
    HiImDavey HiImDavey 18-21, M Mar 20

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    Ive written about a million letters to my x.

    Sad to say those will probably never be seen by the human eye rather than mines
    elliesa elliesa 16-17, F Feb 12

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    Dear: Absent Father

    January 13, 2007 Dear Dad, I am deeply hurt by our conversation today.  I am well aware that I shouldn't have had higher expectations but I really wasn't aware of how little you thought of me.  In a way, I'm glad because I can now honestly say that you share partial...
    theophania theophania 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 13, 2007

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    I write letters all the time,

    not particularly to anyone, I write them to to express myself in privacy, and confidentiality
    ash5698 ash5698 13-15, M 2 Responses Mar 21

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    This is one of them to my ex: I'm sorry Mr.

    that I'm asexual and this relationship started out as an experiment to see if I could be a monogamous straight person. I've probably done irreversible damage on you and myself. I feel bad about it for so many reasons. But I guess there was good in it too. I don't know. I did...
    NotApplicable NotApplicable 22-25, F May 24

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    to the Man I Wish Would Be My Full-time "daddy"

    Dear Nicky I don't think I could feel much more like an idiot.  Even before the whole, humiliating key/door-thing, I wasn't "acting right," and I know it.  It'd be easy to write the whole business off as:  "I ****** around & 'caught feelings...
    MysticWriter MysticWriter 36-40, F 1 Response Oct 24, 2006

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    Dear World

    Dear World, we have known each other, and been together for quite a few years now. I am not sure if during this time we have become very good friends though. I mean most of the time I don't think I know you at all. This doesn't seem to bother you as much as I would like it to...
    CopperCoil CopperCoil 36-40, M 1 Response May 26, 2008

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    My Heart Has No Address

    My beautiful child,While it's true I will never feel the spark of your creation or experience you growing in my body, I do, in fact, know you.  I have known you as long as I can remember.  You are the child I have always wanted, the child that would come from me.  I always...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Aug 2, 2011

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    I Did.

    I wrote the letter over two years ago. Sealed it up in an envelope and hid it in the back of my closet. Probably my biggest fear over this time period was that if I died in a car accident or something, then someone would eventually find and read it. One more reason to wear my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Jan 7, 2009

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    Letter After Letter After Letter. . .

    I have written you so many letters. Letter that started out telling you that I love you. Then letters telling you how much I love our amazing sex, and how I can't wait to be near you again. Letters to tell you how happy I am to be living together. Letters then start wondering if...
    rottenrobi rottenrobi 41-45, F Jul 1, 2012

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    I wrote this letter about how I wanted it all

    to end. I thought it was going to be a suicide letter. But as I went on I realized I was writing down reasons to live. I want the heartbreak and sadness to end. But I don't want to end. I carry the letter around with me. I read it when I feel like I'm at my breaking point. But I...
    nicolemarie3 nicolemarie3 18-21, F Mar 26

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    Sleep(if It Helps You~)

    Sleep(If It Helps You~) It's ok if you tell all of your friends that it was my fault we came to an end and that you tried so hard to make amends but i'm just too much for you to contend Tell them anything you'd like I never really cared what they thought they...
    snowbunny1002 snowbunny1002 46-50, F 13 Responses Feb 1, 2010

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    So I'm a guy, and I have feelings

    for this other guy. And all the time I wish I could just tell him how I feel but I can't. I write my feelings down on a notebook and get rid of it. I'm terrified of him knowing.
    Iamsolonely96 Iamsolonely96 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 24

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    To The Cheater

    Dear George, I'm sitting here writing this and I'm still in a little bit of shock and disbelief. I told you that this was your last chance. I asked you not to hurt me again because I wouldn't be able to take it. My heart was already broken...and now you have made it hurt even...
    xgumbyz2 xgumbyz2 31-35 Apr 22, 2013

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    A Form of Therapy

    it makes no matter the situation, if i'm upset in any way whatsoever, be it angry, sad, rejected, etc., i will write a letter to the person who offended me.  i hold on to that letter for 24 hours.  i then re-read the letter and weed out the over-exaggerated, hyper...
    AbbyNormal AbbyNormal 31-35, F 2 Responses Jun 25, 2007

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    i have written some letters ,

    a personal diary type which i can never send to someone...awkward
    happyhuman1 happyhuman1 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 22

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    I've written so many letters

    that I can never send. I write letters when I'm sad, angry, lonely, or just need to let out emotions. I've written letters to my cousin, expressing my love and my anger and my pain. I've written letters to my friend that I lost to Cancer, trying to express my grief and how much...
    BroadwayDreamer16 BroadwayDreamer16 16-17, F Mar 23

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    Dear: a Friend With Benefits.....

         I’m just gonna be brutally honest right now, for the record only, at this point, because I don’t know when or if I’ll actually give you this letter:      From the bottom of my heart, I love you.  I always have...
    MysticWriter MysticWriter 36-40, F 6 Responses Aug 6, 2006

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    I wrote several.... They were apology/good bye

    letters. I could not deliver them myself and the one who I asked to do it, who could, took them and never delivered them. Her reasons were probably valid but it hurt. I was assured that my feelings would be explained verbally....I know that will never happen. I know it was...
    popuptarget popuptarget 46-50, M Mar 18

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    Dear: (part 2) a Friend With Benefits

    August 13, 2006   I feel so stupid when a week passes since we had sex and I can’t even talk to you.  It makes me wonder so many things…like, are we about to lose contact with each other, again (like we have so many times over the past ten years); is...
    MysticWriter MysticWriter 36-40, F 8 Responses Aug 13, 2006

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    Time

    I have given it some time, I am still in pain. It still hurts to think about you. When I hear your name or see your face I feel like I can't breathe, I want it to go away. People say in time I will be ok, find someone who will be better than you and I'll forget all about you, but...
    Stars889 Stars889 22-25, F Jul 22, 2013

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    Thoughts Go Unknown!!

    I always write letters to release my emotions, and then rip them up so I don't cause or start any problems. I find it's easier to forgive and forget then to show true feeling and find out the outcome.
    chateone chateone 19-21, F 2 Responses Feb 11, 2007

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    To My Ex---

    I wrote a letter to my ex explaining how bad he hurt me in his impersonal manner of ending our relationship.  AC talked me out of sending this letter and I am so glad he did because I would never humble myself to that level again.  I am happier now than ever before and...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 10 Responses Aug 3, 2008

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    I've written a letter to everyone

    that I know. And I'll give it to them when I feel comfortable giving it to them. One day they'll all have them but I don't know how long that'll take. It's different for each person
    JalenFrankie616 JalenFrankie616 13-15, F Jun 22

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    I wrote a letter to my sister in 2006

    that I have not sent to her. It seems like it's a little too late now to try and mend the fence
    joyndavid joyndavid 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 20

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    Written Then Ripped

    On many occasions, I have written letters pouring out my every last feeling and emotion to different people.  Usually I will write down what I have always wanted to say to that person but never did because I was too scared.  It's so theraputic to be able to get out what...
    reachin4goals reachin4goals 31-35, F Jul 30, 2007

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    Father......

    Do you know that I can still remember the day you left? I wasn't that old, but I remember my mom pleading with you not to leave. I remember myself holding on to you because I didn't want you to leave. It was that day that my whole world shattered. I didn't realize it then, but...
    DietIcedTea DietIcedTea 36-40, F 4 Responses Apr 21, 2009

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    I do this aaaaaall the time.

    Postcards to my loved ones, that rekindled me of them.
    Mjjim86 Mjjim86 26-30, M Mar 2

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    I have been so angry with my Father

    and with God that I have written each a letter venting my feelings and I was brutal. I am not sure if there even is a "caring" God out there, but what ever is out there I had some things to say. It felt good to get it out and to put into words the ideas that had been rolling...
    swan401 swan401 46-50, F 1 Response Mar 17

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    Is it me or I just dont feel like reading

    lengthy messages. Except if its from him..
    oblivionisabliss oblivionisabliss 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 17

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    ~To whom it may concern~ STOP.

    Just stop. Please. Stop trying to make everything better. Stop being so honest about the way things are. Stop telling me that this isn't utopia and that fairy tales don't exist. Everyone needs at least one thing to believe in. The world can't be this bad. The good things...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 3

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    Those people have passed I write them

    and keep them. Never look at them again
    Naty14 Naty14 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 14

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    Yup.. I wrote a lot of letters

    for my ex-bestfriend.. I love her so much because she's my bestfriend.. But when she moved back to Arkansas... Everything changed.. She barely text/send me a message, she ignored me and stuffs.. After 4 months I think, I confronted her.. I commented on her photo ( cause she just...
    xJesuslivesx xJesuslivesx 13-15, F Mar 25

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    I do this a lot on my iPhones note app.

    I used to write a lot to my girlfriend just to relieve stress since she has really put me through a lot emotionally. But I could never be so harsh so my true words will forever be hidden from her. As long as she is happy it doesn't matter if I am though.
    FullofFood FullofFood 16-17, M Mar 23

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    Where I Come From

    Dear Son,       I'm writing this letter slow cause I know you can't read fast. We don't live where we did when you left. Yer dad read in the newspaper that most  accidents happen within twenty miles of home, so we moved . Won't be able to send you...
    emerald emerald 36-40, F 9 Responses Nov 7, 2006

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    Well I could send them.

    But that would be extraordinarily stupid.
    TKD1 TKD1 46-50, F 1 Response Mar 15

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    My Very Last Letter.

    Dear Ana, When you said you needed space from everyone, I couldn't understand why it was only me that had to take a step back, I should have been your rock, your confidant, but you asked me to give you space, and even though it was unbearable for me, I gave it to you, when no one...
    DiesSomnium DiesSomnium 31-35 2 Responses Aug 5, 2012

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    Thurs. 10-13-11 Dear A,

    I am sitting in a random parking lot, just finished eating some McDonald's. I should be at the bereavement support group, but I just needed to get away for a bit. I thought of going to Starbucks and writing, but I just wanted to go somewhere where no one knew me, where it was...
    VendettaVita VendettaVita 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 3

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    Letter To The River

    I wrote a letter to my friend who drowned in 2009. I had no way to give it to him, so I went down to the river by myself at night and threw it in. I imagined the paper getting soggy and the ink blurring into incomprehensible blobs. And I walked away.
    NightOwl75 NightOwl75 36-40, M 3 Responses Aug 15, 2013

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    To the boy who broke my heart,

    I thought of you today- after two years of willing myself to push you out of my brain-you appeared, and my heart stopped beating. For a second there was nothing; I couldn't breathe...then it came. The pain. Searing through my heart, burning to the core of my soul. As I write it...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Mar 17

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    I'M Sorry You Can'T Escape The Person You Are...

    You fully realise the pain you caused me. And the worst of it is, you don't really care. You seem to gain some sadistic pleasure in dragging up the past, replaying events that should be long gone and buried deep. Trying to embed them into my mind. Images, words, feelings...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jun 24, 2013

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    I Wrote a Letter to My Best Friend That I Cant Send

    I have written a letter to my best friend recently but i can never send it because i am in love with her, its wierd becuase she is bisexual and i always thought i was straight until i began to have feelings for her........i don't know wether to tell her how i feel and send this...
    loobiesa loobiesa 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 10, 2007

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    Dear, Temple Constructor,,

    dear, temple constructor,, let me tell you something in me nowadays,maybe this is worthless read for you, nonetheless I only have this courage to tell you. well, would you objected if I interpolate the new “begin” and “end” between your lines of codes?only have you begun...
    ddangkochimp ddangkochimp 22-25, F Oct 9, 2013

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    When I Was Pregnant..

    Will I was pregnant and before I was beaten by the father so that I would lose the baby. I was so happy when I found out, I began to write to my unborn child, I would write about what I was doing to make its life better than mine ever was, my struggles with getting clean, and how...
    imperfectbeauty imperfectbeauty 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 9, 2012

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    I've recently started writing letters to a guy

    I've known for 7 years. We have a very complicated relationship and I can never let him in, so writing the letters helps because I can kind of let him in but still keep my self guarded by not sending them.
    bittersweetlemonade bittersweetlemonade 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 17

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    Dear Sam It seems like yesterday

    when I hugged you at the airport and said goodbye , you wouldn't stop crying and I was getting very frustrated and didn't know why you cried so much , surely we would meet again ? Why wouldn't you stop ? I told you I will be back , I asked you to visit me whenever you liked , I...
    Missreedy Missreedy 31-35 2 Responses May 25

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    I write when i am angry,

    so i write letters to people when im mad at them, of course i could never send those, also i write letters to my Aunt, grandma, and grandpa who passed away.
    anovasiangel anovasiangel 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 17

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    Eviction Of A "Friend."

    Dear "Friend," Or really, should I say dear stranger because that is what you are to me now. We were never really friends nor quiet strangers. I like to think we were somewhere in between. You were my first love and my biggest regret. I hurt you in a million ways and believe me...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 9, 2013

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    Literally Hundreds

    I have been emotionally, mentally, and verbally abused by my father over the last 10 years. When I was 15 he and my mother split up, and he saw me staying with her as a betrayal to him. Over the years I have written letters to him letting him know how his words and actions have...
    HayBail HayBail 22-25, F Mar 1, 2013

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