I Held a Fallen Star As It Wept For Me

Once in my life
holder of all the cards
Now unable to enter
the Game
The strong shoulder,
the rock you break
yourself on
The gentle hand to dry
your tears
Calming voice to bring
peace the havok
in your world
correcting...

You sow the field with nothing but salt,
angrily stomping the ground
like a little troll
their is no fruit to be sown
this is not TV
you feelings may change with
the gulp of another pill
but mine continue to hurt
you are indifferent
to...

I wonder if I stay with you
for my innocent Son
income
conversation
for it is not
a warm bed
your witty remarks that
destroy me with every breath
you take
Do I really fear
solitude that much
a slave to
the fist
the anger...

My life falls apart piece by piece.  People stand idly by and shake their heads.  Ripped part by vultures who feast on me and that which they can use.
I wont be alright despite what they say.
Been down this tired road...

I wish you could see me. The good and bad. To be proud of what I've been able to achieve despite all the abuse. To feel the hug that made things OK. The hug that held me tight underneath so many stars over so many countless nights...

See me in your sky
as my tears
number the stars
on the obsidian canvas.
Only to know
I was loved once.
Not for what I might be...
but for the then and now
the entity
that bleed fresh
before you.
Dark rivers
craving arms of comfort
that...

I stare many days and nights into your eyes
dreaming of what you would say if you could.
Your silly look sturns somber at times as if to say
I hear you Dad, I feel your pain.
Hold the wall of tears as I try to smile at you
hiding...

You told me once you never wanted to be the abusive person your father was to you.

yet here you are being that exact same person to me. abusive.

does this mean I have been inducted into your sick and twisted family... this cycle of...

My world spins wildly

in a revolution of mayhem

while the barbed equator

digs in deeper with every turn.

Dispondance: you b***h

my lover...

Acid rain pours from

your skys

erroding my former life.

As my world bleeds Black

her...

When a dark shadow melts into the form of something you fear, it's easy to miss the edge of the cliff and fall right out into space. Long ago, I did, and oh what a fool. Still, what an amazing experience! As I was falling, I noticed...

I saw a Ghost
of You
in My December
dancing in a sheet of rain
as it hid my tears
unable to speak
but still starring into the horizon
beautiful blurs
of mystic fire
For You.
You'll never know
of these words
hidden on this page,
but my...

Come and go...
Walk and stand still...
Laugh and cry...

Near and far...
High and low...
Smile and sigh...

The initial words came as a surprise
And somehow the sun has ceased to rise
Dull and bleak, the world has become
And life within  turned into a humdrum.
How does one learn to ever let go
The once enraptured star receiving such a blow...

If a tree were to fall
in the forest,
would it make a sound?
How is it
no one hears
my deafening
screams.
Like the tree
in the forest,
am I just
another tree?
Inconsequential
existance amidst
a forest of inhabitants.
Who...

Drain the tragedy from my mouth
that I may once again
feel your lips
pulsing with that life
our life
in that bubble,
in that moment in time
that was so
Perfect.

I held a fallen star as it wept for me
as it wept for humanity

I held a fallen star as it cried out for the world
cried out in the pain felt a thousand times over

I held a fallen star as it showed me the future
the future that...