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I Hide Behind A Mask Of Smiles, No One See Beneath The Surface

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    Why I Push Things Away?

    Once there was a little girl, She was always happy and free. Then something she loved broke her, She felt no longer free, It might have tooken her years to push it away, But she has to live with all those memories. She doesn't want anyone's sympathy, She's happy with who she is...
    Karma777 Karma777 16-17, F Apr 17, 2012

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    My Tears Warm My Heart

    Fake smiles And fake laughter Fake giggles And fake happiness When can i stop trying to fool myself? I am broken deep inside I need forever to heal Sometimes i feel happy But am i really happy? Only tears can warm my weeping heart
    fuglygirlonthebench fuglygirlonthebench 22-25, F Mar 11, 2011

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    Thing Is Though...

    It's a lot easier when no one around you cares enough to try and dig deeper.Let's face it. No matter how good we may be at faking it if someone really tried. Really wanted to get underneath our skins, they could do it.
    BeteNoire BeteNoire 26-30, F Dec 2, 2012

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    Every Morning I Wake Up And Put On My Mask.

    I'm not sure if anyone really knows who I really am. People comment on how bright my smile is or how I'm always "happy". My boyfriend says I am the happiest person he knows. Behind my smile I hide this darkness I've carried around with me for a very long time. I live in this...
    BlackLilly BlackLilly 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 3, 2011

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    Smile's With No Sound

    My Smiles are draining all my energy, I feel so week, I bottle EVERYTHING up inside of me. I love seeing people Smile it's the key to make people believe your happy. But he's making me feel so weak! We been dating for two weeks... He makes me think the bottling everything up just...
    Karma777 Karma777 16-17, F Apr 29, 2012

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    I Don't Let Anyone See...

    I don't let anyone see beyond the fake smile, and the stupid laugh. I did a long time ago, I didn't care, but now, I have been hurt too bad, and have been attacked for saying and showing how i truly feel, so I'm done, I no longer share with the world, with my friends, the pain...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 24, 2010

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    My Beginning Of My Mask

    One day a bunch of kids where bulling me by the time i made it home i was covered in marks my parents wanted to know what happened i said i fell with a big smile on my faces that my parents started to laugh soon after it became who i was. Even to this day i still have my...
    Darkness96 Darkness96 13-15, F Mar 7, 2012

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    The Pain Is Too Big For Me To Handle.

    I have been burying it all my life. People hide it for different reasons......I hide it from myself. If I ever let it out the flood gates would open and I think it would over whelm me. I would then be so depressed I would not be able to dig myself out of the pit I was in. The...
    onnmyown onnmyown 51-55, F Nov 27, 2011

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    So often it can be so much easier just to fake

    a smile and internalise the struggles instead of having to explain everything to people who may or may not understand. It's even harder when I don't even know what's going on in my head some days.
    mattywheels25 mattywheels25 26-30, M Apr 9

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    Everyone knows this person A person with the

    prettiest smile ever A smile to seem stuck on their face forever A person they think they know inside and out A person that has people believe they are always happy These people are hidden in the dark This pretty smile is just a mask they put up until they are safe Safe and...
    ashleysokolik ashleysokolik 13-15, F Apr 6

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    What They Think

    My family and my friends believe that i am this happy girl that nothing can get me down but its lies,everyday i feel like i am in pain that all i want to do is run and hide. The laughing go lucky girl is slowing running thin. I don't think I can make one more happy smile. My...
    Darkness96 Darkness96 13-15, F Mar 7, 2012

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    I hope you like this poem I made its called A

    Wall That Surrounds My Heart You know the girl who smiles With the brightest one of all? You may think you know her, But that's not it at all. She hides behind the mirror, So fragile and clear, She shows you what you want to see, Even when in constant fear. She then puts on a...
    RavenNightwing RavenNightwing 16-17, F Apr 5

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    I Am In Love With Someone Who Doesn't Love Me Back

    I love someone so much who doesn't love me back and I can hardly live with it
    cincityskyles cincityskyles 41-45 Nov 25, 2010

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    No One Knows I Cry Inside

    No one knows that lately, i can't go through a single day without shedding a few tears. In my case, there are several reasons that i might cry, some not so important, but to me, they can totally ruin my day. This has all started ever since i lost contact with my crush. Ever since...
    lily200klt lily200klt 16-17 May 20, 2013

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    Behind The Mask

    As I think how my life is going, I come across a frays in my head. "behind the mask" that is exactly what I am. my definition of it is a girl who may look like she is doing good in her life but when she is on her own it is the complete opposit. someone who fears rejection and...
    cutiev0900 cutiev0900 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 8, 2013

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    My Crush And I Drifted Apart

    So, this is the story of me and my crush! It's weird, but this really all started with my math teacher... yeah. So, btw, my crush's name will be c, and i'll be k. So, now it's may in 2013, but at the beginning of the school year, i don't remember the exact date, maybe around the...
    lily200klt lily200klt 16-17 1 Response May 12, 2013

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    But I Wish You Could

    I never, ever created my mask of smiles. I never wanted that, as much as it has helped repair some things that were broken, when I was broken and open... not faking my smiles, I never wanted to play this game of happiness pretend. It's all so fake, and I feel like a clown...
    WiltingBlossom WiltingBlossom 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 3, 2010

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    I´m new on the site and already surprised at the great number of men and women who don´t get what they should get in their relationships...meaning sex, intimacy, cuddling and...
    000Camilla 000Camilla 31-35, F 6 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    Unless you`re stupid, smile is nothing but a mask. And like any mask, it covers the real nature of things. One great poet once said that smiles and happiness belong to rude people...
    Tatius Tatius 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Three nights ago my boyfriend broke up with me. He was seeing other guy behind my back. A guy that is skinny and healthy. I'm healthy to an extent. So what if I'm fat? I still...
    MrMouseMe MrMouseMe 13-15, M 1 day ago

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    This handsome boye is Casper. This beloved son of mom is now 2 and half. Just like any other dog he loves to play all the time and tries to seek everybody's attention. We play...
    sonalanimax sonalanimax 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I am 13 about to be 14 and I don't have anyone not even my councilor will listen he says that it is just teenage problems and it is stupid. All my friends ditched me at school and...
    Teenagegirl258 Teenagegirl258 13-15 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I was the primary caregiver for my wife with dementia/Alzheimer for the past nine years. She was 64 years old when I was no longer able to take care of her. I hired a number of...
    newtonpark newtonpark 61-65, M 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    No one sees past my smile, how hurt, sad and lonely I am.
    LBMia LBMia 22-25, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    It's so hard today not to hide it. My boyfriend finally admitted he'd just rather go to sleep than be intimate with me and thinks I make things stressful when I bring up the fact...
    SereneThoughts SereneThoughts 22-25, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    Wow. Sad enough to quit this But back today. Walking. Talking. Loving. Thinking. Lusting. Caring. Defensive. Disgusted. Hungry. Horny. Amused. Bipolar...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M 4 days ago

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    The story goes basically the same way no matter where you are in the world. And the strange thing is that I have known smart solid blackjack players and master poker players that...
    HaroldJenson HaroldJenson 31-35, M 5 days ago

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    I sometimes fake smile to hide my sadness I feel like the sadness will not end due to a loss of the love of my life due to my own mental issues/demons I wish I could smile & mean...
    mechanicman96 mechanicman96 36-40, M 1 Response a week ago

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    Distractions, positive thinking, acceptance, denial, humour, bladiblah. When all that fails, how do you deal with that dark feeling that seems to be stronger than you? Edit: It's...
    Tinboxdoll Tinboxdoll 36-40, F a week ago

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    My first username was boastroasttoast. That was just kinda by default, because I was just trying to enter my username for the first time, and I tried about 2 or 3, and they were...
    OqSydSchizo16Troll OqSydSchizo16Troll 36-40, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    Well I must say EP has been an amazing and whirlwind and at times less than perfect experience for me. I met some really awesome people, who I am proud to call my friends. I met...
    rana3434 rana3434 36-40, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Since the day you've been gone i do fake a smile to hide my sadness... i don't want the people around me specially my loves ones to know that am still not doing fine since you've...
    realhappiness realhappiness 26-30, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    It's just the easy way out of things. Fake a smile and you don't have to explain to someone your whole life story and why you're just so ******* broken inside. I'd rather not get...
    niahhydra niahhydra 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 26

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    I wish to get over all this pain inside my heart and soul and especially those people who come into my life care about me I open my heart and tell everything then one day they hit...
    emmadarko emmadarko 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 26

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    I've been hanging out with friends, for a week straight, and the whole time I've wanted to cry. My internalized racism always finds a way to destroy me in ways that I've never...
    Avidnerd Avidnerd 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 26

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    And contrary to the hunchback of Notredam, I do not have a sweet character to make up for my looks. I must have escaped from Gehenna and replaced the fruit in my mothers loins...
    IAmAfriend IAmAfriend 41-45, M Jun 26

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    My cheeks hurt from smiling so much at the BBQ. But now that I'm home I'm just bawling my eyes out. I'm sick of always having to smile for the cameras even though I'm dying inside...
    icyfrost icyfrost 22-25, F 5 Responses Jun 26

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    I am a 23 yr old student in college and unfortunately to say, I have been extremely depressed for the past couple of years. This mostly has to do with the fact that I have no...
    lonelyman1113 lonelyman1113 22-25, M 2 Responses Jun 25

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    It is not about a nightmare but it after I woke up from one. one night I woke up from a nightmare. i don't remember the whole nightmare just bits of it. all i recall was me running...
    Cahx2 Cahx2 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 25

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    Here's the thing... I'd love to know if anyone relates. I'm depressed and lately I've felt the urge to open up about it cause until now nobody knows. Yet, everytime I try to send a...
    nowherewego nowherewego 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 23

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    This happened when I was 15. I was going to take a shower and I was about to step in, when my mom knock on the door. I can’t remember what she wanted, but I open the door. I don...
    naruto75 naruto75 18-21, M 4 Responses Jun 23

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    I'm the funny guy in the group, im the one everyone calls if they are feeling down because I'm always there to lighten the mood and pick people up. But I'm so unhappy, no-one...
    Jaybo93 Jaybo93 22-25, M 2 Responses Jun 23

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