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I Hide Behind A Mask Of Smiles, No One See Beneath The Surface

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    Every Morning I Wake Up And Put On My Mask.

    I'm not sure if anyone really knows who I really am. People comment on how bright my smile is or how I'm always "happy". My boyfriend says I am the happiest person he knows. Behind my smile I hide this darkness I've carried around with me for a very long time. I live in this...
    BlackLilly BlackLilly 22-25, F Aug 3, 2011

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    Smile's With No Sound

    My Smiles are draining all my energy, I feel so week, I bottle EVERYTHING up inside of me. I love seeing people Smile it's the key to make people believe your happy. But he's making me feel so weak! We been dating for two weeks... He makes me think the bottling everything up just...
    Karma777 Karma777 16-17, F Apr 29, 2012

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    I Don't Let Anyone See...

    I don't let anyone see beyond the fake smile, and the stupid laugh. I did a long time ago, I didn't care, but now, I have been hurt too bad, and have been attacked for saying and showing how i truly feel, so I'm done, I no longer share with the world, with my friends, the pain...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 24, 2010

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    Thing Is Though...

    It's a lot easier when no one around you cares enough to try and dig deeper.Let's face it. No matter how good we may be at faking it if someone really tried. Really wanted to get underneath our skins, they could do it.
    BeteNoire BeteNoire 26-30, F Dec 2, 2012

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    No One Knows I Cry Inside

    No one knows that lately, i can't go through a single day without shedding a few tears. In my case, there are several reasons that i might cry, some not so important, but to me, they can totally ruin my day. This has all started ever since i lost contact with my crush. Ever since...
    lily200klt lily200klt 16-17 May 20, 2013

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    I hope you like this poem I made its called A

    Wall That Surrounds My Heart You know the girl who smiles With the brightest one of all? You may think you know her, But that's not it at all. She hides behind the mirror, So fragile and clear, She shows you what you want to see, Even when in constant fear. She then puts on a...
    RavenNightwing RavenNightwing 16-17, F Apr 5

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    Behind The Mask

    As I think how my life is going, I come across a frays in my head. "behind the mask" that is exactly what I am. my definition of it is a girl who may look like she is doing good in her life but when she is on her own it is the complete opposit. someone who fears rejection and...
    cutiev0900 cutiev0900 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 8, 2013

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    The Pain Is Too Big For Me To Handle.

    I have been burying it all my life. People hide it for different reasons......I hide it from myself. If I ever let it out the flood gates would open and I think it would over whelm me. I would then be so depressed I would not be able to dig myself out of the pit I was in. The...
    onnmyown onnmyown 51-55, F Nov 27, 2011

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    I Am In Love With Someone Who Doesn't Love Me Back

    I love someone so much who doesn't love me back and I can hardly live with it
    cincityskyles cincityskyles 41-45 Nov 25, 2010

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    Everyone knows this person A person with the

    prettiest smile ever A smile to seem stuck on their face forever A person they think they know inside and out A person that has people believe they are always happy These people are hidden in the dark This pretty smile is just a mask they put up until they are safe Safe and...
    ashleysokolik ashleysokolik 13-15, F Apr 6

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    My Crush And I Drifted Apart

    So, this is the story of me and my crush! It's weird, but this really all started with my math teacher... yeah. So, btw, my crush's name will be c, and i'll be k. So, now it's may in 2013, but at the beginning of the school year, i don't remember the exact date, maybe around the...
    lily200klt lily200klt 16-17 1 Response May 12, 2013

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    So often it can be so much easier just to fake

    a smile and internalise the struggles instead of having to explain everything to people who may or may not understand. It's even harder when I don't even know what's going on in my head some days.
    mattywheels25 mattywheels25 26-30, M Apr 9

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    Why I Push Things Away?

    Once there was a little girl, She was always happy and free. Then something she loved broke her, She felt no longer free, It might have tooken her years to push it away, But she has to live with all those memories. She doesn't want anyone's sympathy, She's happy with who she is...
    Karma777 Karma777 16-17, F Apr 17, 2012

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    My Beginning Of My Mask

    One day a bunch of kids where bulling me by the time i made it home i was covered in marks my parents wanted to know what happened i said i fell with a big smile on my faces that my parents started to laugh soon after it became who i was. Even to this day i still have my...
    Darkness96 Darkness96 13-15, F Mar 7, 2012

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    But I Wish You Could

    I never, ever created my mask of smiles. I never wanted that, as much as it has helped repair some things that were broken, when I was broken and open... not faking my smiles, I never wanted to play this game of happiness pretend. It's all so fake, and I feel like a clown...
    WiltingBlossom WiltingBlossom 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 3, 2010

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    My Tears Warm My Heart

    Fake smiles And fake laughter Fake giggles And fake happiness When can i stop trying to fool myself? I am broken deep inside I need forever to heal Sometimes i feel happy But am i really happy? Only tears can warm my weeping heart
    fuglygirlonthebench fuglygirlonthebench 22-25, F Mar 11, 2011

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    What They Think

    My family and my friends believe that i am this happy girl that nothing can get me down but its lies,everyday i feel like i am in pain that all i want to do is run and hide. The laughing go lucky girl is slowing running thin. I don't think I can make one more happy smile. My...
    Darkness96 Darkness96 13-15, F Mar 7, 2012

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    Its one of the things i really can't stand. It can be the most hurtful thing. I much rather if you had something to say about me just say it to my face. Because if i find out you...
    badgirlbee badgirlbee 22-25, F 2 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    There you go again, doing that thing with your eyes and mouth that makes my knees go weak. There is something about someone flashing a genuine smile your way that makes that...
    RaiseYourWhat RaiseYourWhat 26-30, F 7 hrs ago

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    The X's represent the wounds that are being stitched and as for Bloody Lullaby that is just my story. One of life and death which can be so nice and so morbid at times. Like blood...
    XxBloodyLullabyxX XxBloodyLullabyxX 22-25, M 13 hrs ago

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    Amazing to see how no one can see how I really feel inside...
    TrappedDeadSoul TrappedDeadSoul 22-25, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    smiling brightly each day, seeming like the dark world around has no effect on me. you hear my laughter and see that smile but no one sees the dark circles under my eyes from...
    pandaangel pandaangel 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Do you think I'm blind? I see through your mask.
    writingforlife6 writingforlife6 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Ever have a secret you want people to know? But you cant tell them because the burden of it haunted you for years telling you "no one will ever love you". You want to get this off...
    8ark22 8ark22 16-17, M 1 day ago

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    Before heading out I remember to curve my lips into an eloquent smile, masking it all.
    light108 light108 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    I've always been a sad person. Ever since I was exposed to how the world works.. I was never the same again. Ever since I saw the reality of what society.. people are like, my life...
    mercifulpennies mercifulpennies 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    So recently I've found out that my boyfriend was cheating on me with another girl in our school. (Same grade and all) I couldn't believe it. So I kept on ignoring him and gave him...
    alchemistbabe alchemistbabe 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    It's history repeating itself but in reverse gender wise but it's still cruel and wrong. It ****** me off seeing men put down like their not worth anything, even if the couple are...
    sweetangel20 sweetangel20 22-25, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Since I moved school from primary to secondary I lost all my confidence I use to feel brave,smart and pretty but now I feel like sh**. I feel fat,ugly unpopular and different...
    anonymous722513 anonymous722513 13-15, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I've been in one room of the house and my family are in the room next door and talk badly of me behind my back but nice to my face.
    lupuslupus87 lupuslupus87 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    I was walking past two girls and one of them looked at me, then pointed me out to her friend and said: "She looks like the sort of girl who would say 'yeah, I'm fine' if you asked...
    VioletSea VioletSea 16-17, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    It makes me wonder.. For as long as I can remember, I’ve always been an outsider. Almost all the girls and most of the guys everywhere I’ve been, have always hated me for some...
    Anon8615 Anon8615 26-30, M 4 days ago

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    I am a traveler straying from my path but I have come to You several times . Do you recognize me? My heart tells me I know you, yes I know you, but do you look into my eyes when...
    winterfall winterfall 36-40 5 days ago

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    people around me see the happiest girl on earth! but I hide my depression pretty well. I am just not pleased with the way my life is .I try to change it but its like something is...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Browsing through many videos Wondering how a simple acts Could turn into a million views Many good arts gained no invitations Many truthful words failed to be accepted Human...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 days ago

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    August 24th 4.30pm and setting off to see my wife in hospital for yet another evening. How long can I keep up putting this fake smile and positive attitude on for her sake...
    NottsProfGent NottsProfGent 46-50, M 4 Responses Aug 24

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    Let my soul smile through my heart and my heart smile through my eyes, that I may scatter rich smiles in sad hearts. ~Para Sad hearts I see above the above and below the below from...
    LadyGallivanter LadyGallivanter 41-45, F 1 Response Aug 20

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    ....and it is very ugly! put the mask back on!
    StreetgirlnamedDesire504 StreetgirlnamedDesire504 36-40 1 Response Aug 20

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    This is gonna be long but this is my experience - my story. I come from a complicated family background. You can say I don't know much about my parent's stories since they never...
    Abcak937 Abcak937 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 18

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    I mostly hide the fact that I am pretty violent-minded, and the fact that I just hate everyone in class. I act really energetic and happy, but I really just do it to make my day go...
    AlisCookieMonster AlisCookieMonster 22-25 2 Responses Aug 18

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    I cry every day. I can't tell anyone that I do because I can't trust anyone. People will always want to see you fail even through they congratulate you when you succeed. I will not...
    Kiva10 Kiva10 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 17

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    Nobody is here for me. And I just can't open up because nobody is close to me enough so I can tell them. Not even my mother, dad, sisters, so called bestfriend or friends.. Just...
    asiangirll asiangirll 13-15, F 5 Responses Aug 17

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