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I Hide Behind A Mask Of Smiles, No One See Beneath The Surface

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    I Don't Let Anyone See...

    I don't let anyone see beyond the fake smile, and the stupid laugh. I did a long time ago, I didn't care, but now, I have been hurt too bad, and have been attacked for saying and showing how i truly feel, so I'm done, I no longer share with the world, with my friends, the pain...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 24, 2010

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    Smile's With No Sound

    My Smiles are draining all my energy, I feel so week, I bottle EVERYTHING up inside of me. I love seeing people Smile it's the key to make people believe your happy. But he's making me feel so weak! We been dating for two weeks... He makes me think the bottling everything up just...
    Karma777 Karma777 16-17, F Apr 29, 2012

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    One Of Many

    My smile is one of many masks that I wear everyday. I think it is my most polite way to keep from showing people what I really think. People like it when you smile so I aim to please them.
    jatpack3 jatpack3 36-40, M 5 Responses Dec 2, 2012

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    The Pain Is Too Big For Me To Handle.

    I have been burying it all my life. People hide it for different reasons......I hide it from myself. If I ever let it out the flood gates would open and I think it would over whelm me. I would then be so depressed I would not be able to dig myself out of the pit I was in. The...
    onnmyown onnmyown 51-55, F Nov 27, 2011

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    No One Knows I Cry Inside

    No one knows that lately, i can't go through a single day without shedding a few tears. In my case, there are several reasons that i might cry, some not so important, but to me, they can totally ruin my day. This has all started ever since i lost contact with my crush. Ever since...
    lily200klt lily200klt 16-17 May 20, 2013

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    Thing Is Though...

    It's a lot easier when no one around you cares enough to try and dig deeper.Let's face it. No matter how good we may be at faking it if someone really tried. Really wanted to get underneath our skins, they could do it.
    BeteNoire BeteNoire 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 2, 2012

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    My Tears Warm My Heart

    Fake smiles And fake laughter Fake giggles And fake happiness When can i stop trying to fool myself? I am broken deep inside I need forever to heal Sometimes i feel happy But am i really happy? Only tears can warm my weeping heart
    fuglygirlonthebench fuglygirlonthebench 18-21, F Mar 11, 2011

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    Why I Push Things Away?

    Once there was a little girl, She was always happy and free. Then something she loved broke her, She felt no longer free, It might have tooken her years to push it away, But she has to live with all those memories. She doesn't want anyone's sympathy, She's happy with who she is...
    Karma777 Karma777 16-17, F Apr 17, 2012

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    Every Morning I Wake Up And Put On My Mask.

    I'm not sure if anyone really knows who I really am. People comment on how bright my smile is or how I'm always "happy". My boyfriend says I am the happiest person he knows. Behind my smile I hide this darkness I've carried around with me for a very long time. I live in this...
    BlackLilly BlackLilly 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 3, 2011

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    My Crush And I Drifted Apart

    So, this is the story of me and my crush! It's weird, but this really all started with my math teacher... yeah. So, btw, my crush's name will be c, and i'll be k. So, now it's may in 2013, but at the beginning of the school year, i don't remember the exact date, maybe around the...
    lily200klt lily200klt 16-17 1 Response May 12, 2013

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    But I Wish You Could

    I never, ever created my mask of smiles. I never wanted that, as much as it has helped repair some things that were broken, when I was broken and open... not faking my smiles, I never wanted to play this game of happiness pretend. It's all so fake, and I feel like a clown...
    WiltingBlossom WiltingBlossom 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 3, 2010

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    Behind The Mask

    As I think how my life is going, I come across a frays in my head. "behind the mask" that is exactly what I am. my definition of it is a girl who may look like she is doing good in her life but when she is on her own it is the complete opposit. someone who fears rejection and...
    cutiev0900 cutiev0900 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 8, 2013

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    My Beginning Of My Mask

    One day a bunch of kids where bulling me by the time i made it home i was covered in marks my parents wanted to know what happened i said i fell with a big smile on my faces that my parents started to laugh soon after it became who i was. Even to this day i still have my...
    Darkness96 Darkness96 13-15, F Mar 7, 2012

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    I Am In Love With Someone Who Doesn't Love Me Back

    I love someone so much who doesn't love me back and I can hardly live with it
    cincityskyles cincityskyles 41-45 Nov 25, 2010

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    What They Think

    My family and my friends believe that i am this happy girl that nothing can get me down but its lies,everyday i feel like i am in pain that all i want to do is run and hide. The laughing go lucky girl is slowing running thin. I don't think I can make one more happy smile. My...
    Darkness96 Darkness96 13-15, F Mar 7, 2012

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    Sometimes, though it may seem like it, I'm not a happy person. I hide my feelings behind fake smiles and laughs, but behind closed doors something else goes on.
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    I have been ever since I can remember. I was the centre of attention. It is what weakens me. So I Isolated myself in my room. My locking myself away I am unable to manipulate and...
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    Increasingly I am feeling like I was born with a mask on my face... I mean, here I am, this 39 year old lady with a wealth of experience, I speak several languages, am well...
    Hhaawke Hhaawke 36-40, F 3 days ago

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    People love versions of me. My masks. Even close friends, call me when they need me to cheer them up. Who is going to cheer me up. Who is going to accept what I really am. My...
    rockstin87 rockstin87 26-30, M Jul 9

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    Funny how when you give advice, you actually end up giving yourself advice. I've read some stories on EP and have sought after answersvto my own problems currently in the zone of...
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    Honestly a smile is my favourite physical feature on a person, no matter how big,small, what their teeth look like etc, I just absolutely adore watching their faces light up. The...
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    These are some of the reasons why I feel the need to die. Abuse. Bullying. Intrusions. Hatred. Scorn. Rejection. Other people focused on my life exclusively and somehow them...
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    "Never take a day for granted. SMILE, cherish the little things in life, and remember to hug the ones you love." ~Emyden's Creation
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    I know I have a lot of supporters here on EP, and I am thankful for that. If you had not known, I had moved out of Tennessee to live in Kentucky for two months and finally move...
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    Yo ah dont git da Problem. love whoever da f*** you want. ah can't resist hot babies smiles, or da big ding dongs o' muh motha fu**** daughter. even muh motha fuc*** dog loves ta...
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    Marriage is a total trap for men. Like a lot of people, this experience starts with a relationship between 2 people, then life happens. Anyhow there's these 2 people, they...
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    I have always dealt with depressions. I was about 5 years old the first time and started therapy then. As I was growing up I felt the need to talk to people because I felt that...
    Wholam Wholam 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I don't know why I try to convince everyone I am alright. Why can't I just be honest when someone asks me how I am doing without feeling like I have to hide my feelings. I'm scared...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 days ago

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    I guess I chose this because I have always pretended to be okay. People at work and school always say... why are you so happy all the time? You are always smiling even on Monday...
    PretendingImOk PretendingImOk 18-21, F Jun 24

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    Yo-yos everywhere. Or marbles. Dirt from granny's garden. Everywhere. The little old, very very old hand built metal swing by the garden. Ooooo o O O o oooooooo I knowniknow...
    iamnoor iamnoor 13-15, F Jun 28

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    When I look in the mirror I see some sort of beauty, when I step outside my door I see nasty glances and I hear harsh words from family to strangers and it make my confidence go so...
    Fatimatam Fatimatam 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Nobody understands me.. Every time I try to fly I fall without my wings I feel so small, I guess I need you baby. Maybe one day as my dreams they stand so tall behind these walls...
    FireAndDesire FireAndDesire 18-21, F Jun 26

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    I won't post a lot about my feelings because when I get in a really depressed mood I say things without thinking. Then, I'll come back and see what I posted or said to someone and...
    perfectionisperception perfectionisperception 13-15, F Jun 28

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    HELP ME! I can't seem to relax and everything bothers me! It's so annoying and now I overthink everything! I can't control it anymore.. Anyone please help me..
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