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I Hide Behind A Mask Of Smiles, No One See Beneath The Surface

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    The Pain Is Too Big For Me To Handle.

    I have been burying it all my life. People hide it for different reasons......I hide it from myself. If I ever let it out the flood gates would open and I think it would over whelm me. I would then be so depressed I would not be able to dig myself out of the pit I was in. The...
    onnmyown onnmyown 51-55, F Nov 27, 2011

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    What They Think

    My family and my friends believe that i am this happy girl that nothing can get me down but its lies,everyday i feel like i am in pain that all i want to do is run and hide. The laughing go lucky girl is slowing running thin. I don't think I can make one more happy smile. My...
    Darkness96 Darkness96 13-15, F Mar 7, 2012

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    Behind The Mask

    As I think how my life is going, I come across a frays in my head. "behind the mask" that is exactly what I am. my definition of it is a girl who may look like she is doing good in her life but when she is on her own it is the complete opposit. someone who fears rejection and...
    cutiev0900 cutiev0900 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 8, 2013

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    No One Knows I Cry Inside

    No one knows that lately, i can't go through a single day without shedding a few tears. In my case, there are several reasons that i might cry, some not so important, but to me, they can totally ruin my day. This has all started ever since i lost contact with my crush. Ever since...
    lily200klt lily200klt 16-17 May 20, 2013

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    But I Wish You Could

    I never, ever created my mask of smiles. I never wanted that, as much as it has helped repair some things that were broken, when I was broken and open... not faking my smiles, I never wanted to play this game of happiness pretend. It's all so fake, and I feel like a clown...
    WiltingBlossom WiltingBlossom 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 3, 2010

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    My Beginning Of My Mask

    One day a bunch of kids where bulling me by the time i made it home i was covered in marks my parents wanted to know what happened i said i fell with a big smile on my faces that my parents started to laugh soon after it became who i was. Even to this day i still have my...
    Darkness96 Darkness96 13-15, F Mar 7, 2012

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    I Don't Let Anyone See...

    I don't let anyone see beyond the fake smile, and the stupid laugh. I did a long time ago, I didn't care, but now, I have been hurt too bad, and have been attacked for saying and showing how i truly feel, so I'm done, I no longer share with the world, with my friends, the pain...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 24, 2010

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    Smile's With No Sound

    My Smiles are draining all my energy, I feel so week, I bottle EVERYTHING up inside of me. I love seeing people Smile it's the key to make people believe your happy. But he's making me feel so weak! We been dating for two weeks... He makes me think the bottling everything up just...
    Karma777 Karma777 16-17, F Apr 29, 2012

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    Why I Push Things Away?

    Once there was a little girl, She was always happy and free. Then something she loved broke her, She felt no longer free, It might have tooken her years to push it away, But she has to live with all those memories. She doesn't want anyone's sympathy, She's happy with who she is...
    Karma777 Karma777 16-17, F Apr 17, 2012

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    Every Morning I Wake Up And Put On My Mask.

    I'm not sure if anyone really knows who I really am. People comment on how bright my smile is or how I'm always "happy". My boyfriend says I am the happiest person he knows. Behind my smile I hide this darkness I've carried around with me for a very long time. I live in this...
    BlackLilly BlackLilly 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 3, 2011

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    My Tears Warm My Heart

    Fake smiles And fake laughter Fake giggles And fake happiness When can i stop trying to fool myself? I am broken deep inside I need forever to heal Sometimes i feel happy But am i really happy? Only tears can warm my weeping heart
    fuglygirlonthebench fuglygirlonthebench 22-25, F Mar 11, 2011

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    I Am In Love With Someone Who Doesn't Love Me Back

    I love someone so much who doesn't love me back and I can hardly live with it
    cincityskyles cincityskyles 41-45 Nov 25, 2010

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    My Crush And I Drifted Apart

    So, this is the story of me and my crush! It's weird, but this really all started with my math teacher... yeah. So, btw, my crush's name will be c, and i'll be k. So, now it's may in 2013, but at the beginning of the school year, i don't remember the exact date, maybe around the...
    lily200klt lily200klt 16-17 1 Response May 12, 2013

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    Thing Is Though...

    It's a lot easier when no one around you cares enough to try and dig deeper.Let's face it. No matter how good we may be at faking it if someone really tried. Really wanted to get underneath our skins, they could do it.
    BeteNoire BeteNoire 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 2, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    Ok here is some background. When I was a kid I was diagnosed as being emotionally disturbed, in all aspects I can agree. My home life at the time was turbulent to say the least...
    orochitheoni orochitheoni 36-40, M Jan 1

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    So my mind has been in overdrive for days now, and it doesn't seem to be slowing down, despite my efforts of trying to stop it. I've been neglecting everyone and everything around...
    kinkysexybabe kinkysexybabe 36-40, F 3 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    When one should come around to reccomending games for parents to play with their kids, one should always start with this one (maybe after Link's Awakening). Why you ask? Because...
    Moltencorgi2 Moltencorgi2 22-25, F 6 days ago

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    About Dr. Alapati Keeping the best smile for the world is a passion to Dr. Manjula Alapati and it made her the dentist she is today. Dr. Alapati graduated from the University of...
    edr567 edr567 26-30, M Jan 21

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    As with the previous story, I want to mention again that the main theme for Majora's Mask has been adulthood. And that idea gets hammered down to you in the last dungeon of the...
    Moltencorgi2 Moltencorgi2 22-25, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    wide awake and staring at the clock. 12:16 am...time crawls. the hollow ache inside that tells me i hit one of those periods of clarity. where i can see .....nothing. the grey...
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer 46-50, M 1 Response Jan 21

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    Have you ever just watched someone from a distant? Not in a creepy or stalker way just see them and think she's pretty, or she has a cute butt, I like the way she smiles, or even...
    MrsGigalowJr MrsGigalowJr 26-30, F 9 Responses Jan 13

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    This is just sad... I have been depressed for some time, idk maybe Four years, i have been through so much pain and now i am at a really scary part, i feel empty, have this...
    lynnewolf99 lynnewolf99 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 13

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    I tell you i'm fine, even when i'm not I tell you i'm happy, when i'm sad I tell you i'm tired, when i'm lonely Just hoping that one day you will realise how i really feel in the...
    Shimmerz479 Shimmerz479 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 22

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    I don't know if it's the evening, the fatigue of the day...the calmness that sometimes causes one to just drift into somewhere you might want to be...perhaps it's in someone else...
    SmartSweet1 SmartSweet1 51-55, F 5 days ago

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    I'm truly blessed that every morning I'm graced upon two beautiful smiles from my two children (ages 2 & 5). Some mornings I see both smiles at the same time as they come prancing...
    booyah73 booyah73 41-45, M 4 Responses Jan 8

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    Hi, everyone. Ever fell in love with the right person at the wrong time? Well, in my case I fell in love with the wrong person at the wrong time. Yes, you didn't misread that. I...
    krokskray krokskray 22-25, M 4 Responses Jan 18

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    I am standing with my back turned to you. You walk up behind me, so quietly I don't hear you. Silently, without a word, you reach over and move the hair from the nape of my neck...
    kinkysexybabe kinkysexybabe 36-40, F 3 Responses Jan 17

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    There was a morning that I woke up. And I thought I was going to die. It wasn't a frantic waking. I just woke up one morning and felt something. I felt as though that day was the...
    layswhyfe layswhyfe 18-21 Jan 18

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    I gave a guy my number this morning (at a New Year's Party) and have not heard from him all day. I consider this a rejection. If I don't hear from him tomorrow, I still consider...
    obscureriddle obscureriddle 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 1

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    Though i have a big problem with women at the moment, trust issues, I want someone who is happy to see me and smiles at me and truely likes me and being around me.
    fat60man fat60man 51-55, M Jan 3

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    10 years from now I keep having an image pop up, in my mind. I'm sitting down at a computer, it seems, or maybe I'm writing something on a piece of paper. I look occupied, but...
    TheAnonymousINFx TheAnonymousINFx 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    I think a smile is best thing to see. Because that means someone is happy. Smiles are really nice and they make me smile.
    TimidGrl01 TimidGrl01 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    So many ways this can be taken... As regards me...I work and try to get experience in time and learning from masters... I study a language online just for pleasure, it enables me...
    Brunette4U Brunette4U 31-35, F Jan 6

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    This has been going on for around 6 years Whenever I arrive at College, I assume this character, almost an alter ego of myself.This person I have created is not me, he is jovial...
    Fluenzi Fluenzi 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 6

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    I'm good at lieing about myself only my internet. Bestie knows all about me she said that's she is hear for me and ect she is beautiful and amazing ­čśŹ all my friends think I have...
    BiXwolfsXbears BiXwolfsXbears 13-15, F Jan 7

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    For quite a while a lot of bad things are happening around me and it hurts me a lot, but when I am around my family and friends and I see their problems I hide mine and try to...
    sweetxdreamsx sweetxdreamsx 18-21, F Jan 10

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    My smile is my armour. If you want to know how I really feel look at my eyes. No one likes a misery guts. So when I can't maintain the smile I withdraw. Take to my bed and wait for...
    abscuramma abscuramma 41-45, F 1 Response Jan 10

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    Any person on the street would always see me as a positive person, but someone who really knew me, knew my secrets, and how I really felt everyday.
    justinbartolome justinbartolome 13-15, M Jan 19

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    I was in a photoshop class last year and, of course, we were required to create things using the program. Everyone in there thought I was crazy, bubbly, and fun to be around, but...
    AnarchyOfAthena AnarchyOfAthena 16-17, F Jan 19

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    I always keep a smile on my face and try to laugh at any and everything I can. Otherwise, all my emotions would come out at once and I fear what would be the aftermath of it. If I...
    KeithPrice94 KeithPrice94 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 20

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    I was seen by my sister in law. My wife and I she was my girlfriend at the time. We were snuggling but her sister and her friends were making a hell of a noise next door. So my...
    iainfast iainfast 31-35, M 5 days ago

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    Faking smile is one of my daily routine , it's easier to fake smile then to explain to people who won't understand . Faking smile is my way to escape my painful memories , anger...
    ZeroShift ZeroShift 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 3

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    One of our paramedics has a shadow. Within 24 hours of seeing it someone dies. He can see it in the brightest of rooms, even if we can't see our own shadows. Anyway, we were...
    iNinja iNinja 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    People look at boxes and cans of food every day to see what nutrients they contain. This article can help educate you are reading is full of tips on what they mean.Any supplement...
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    Joshua8383gcy4 Joshua8383gcy4 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 16

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    No I haven't - and while I can never say never. I'm pretty certain that I won't in the future. However I do have a story about a night when I almost did. My friend J and I went...
    Mmmcherries Mmmcherries 46-50, F 7 Responses 6 days ago