I Hide Behind A Mask Of Smiles, No One See Beneath The Surface

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    The Pain Is Too Big For Me To Handle.

    I have been burying it all my life. People hide it for different reasons......I hide it from myself. If I ever let it out the flood gates would open and I think it would over whelm me. I would then be so depressed I would not be able to dig myself out of the pit I was in. The...
    onnmyown onnmyown
    51-55, F
    Nov 27, 2011

    My Crush And I Drifted Apart

    So, this is the story of me and my crush! It's weird, but this really all started with my math teacher... yeah. So, btw, my crush's name will be c, and i'll be k. So, now it's may in 2013, but at the beginning of the school year, i don't remember the exact date, maybe around the...
    lily200klt lily200klt
    18-21
    1 Response May 12, 2013

    Every Morning I Wake Up And Put On My Mask.

    I'm not sure if anyone really knows who I really am. People comment on how bright my smile is or how I'm always "happy". My boyfriend says I am the happiest person he knows. Behind my smile I hide this darkness I've carried around with me for a very long time. I live in this...
    BlackLilly BlackLilly
    26-30, F
    Aug 3, 2011

    Everyone knows this person A person with the

    prettiest smile ever A smile to seem stuck on their face forever A person they think they know inside and out A person that has people believe they are always happy These people are hidden in the dark This pretty smile is just a mask they put up until they are safe Safe and...
    ashleysokolik ashleysokolik
    16-17, F
    Apr 6, 2015

    My Beginning Of My Mask

    One day a bunch of kids where bulling me by the time i made it home i was covered in marks my parents wanted to know what happened i said i fell with a big smile on my faces that my parents started to laugh soon after it became who i was. Even to this day i still have my...
    Darkness96 Darkness96
    13-15, F
    Mar 7, 2012

    I Don't Let Anyone See...

    I don't let anyone see beyond the fake smile, and the stupid laugh. I did a long time ago, I didn't care, but now, I have been hurt too bad, and have been attacked for saying and showing how i truly feel, so I'm done, I no longer share with the world, with my friends, the pain...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Nov 24, 2010

    Thing Is Though...

    It's a lot easier when no one around you cares enough to try and dig deeper.Let's face it. No matter how good we may be at faking it if someone really tried. Really wanted to get underneath our skins, they could do it.
    BeteNoire BeteNoire
    26-30, F
    Dec 2, 2012

    So often it can be so much easier just to fake

    a smile and internalise the struggles instead of having to explain everything to people who may or may not understand. It's even harder when I don't even know what's going on in my head some days.
    mattywheels25 mattywheels25
    31-35, M
    Apr 9, 2015

    I hope you like this poem I made its called A

    Wall That Surrounds My Heart You know the girl who smiles With the brightest one of all? You may think you know her, But that's not it at all. She hides behind the mirror, So fragile and clear, She shows you what you want to see, Even when in constant fear. She then puts on a...
    RavenNightwing RavenNightwing
    18-21, F
    Apr 5, 2015

    Why I Push Things Away?

    Once there was a little girl, She was always happy and free. Then something she loved broke her, She felt no longer free, It might have tooken her years to push it away, But she has to live with all those memories. She doesn't want anyone's sympathy, She's happy with who she is...
    Karma777 Karma777
    16-17, F
    Apr 17, 2012

    Behind The Mask

    As I think how my life is going, I come across a frays in my head. "behind the mask" that is exactly what I am. my definition of it is a girl who may look like she is doing good in her life but when she is on her own it is the complete opposit. someone who fears rejection and...
    cutiev0900 cutiev0900
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 8, 2013

    What They Think

    My family and my friends believe that i am this happy girl that nothing can get me down but its lies,everyday i feel like i am in pain that all i want to do is run and hide. The laughing go lucky girl is slowing running thin. I don't think I can make one more happy smile. My...
    Darkness96 Darkness96
    13-15, F
    Mar 7, 2012

    But I Wish You Could

    I never, ever created my mask of smiles. I never wanted that, as much as it has helped repair some things that were broken, when I was broken and open... not faking my smiles, I never wanted to play this game of happiness pretend. It's all so fake, and I feel like a clown...
    WiltingBlossom WiltingBlossom
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Dec 3, 2010

    I Am In Love With Someone Who Doesn't Love Me Back

    I love someone so much who doesn't love me back and I can hardly live with it
    cincityskyles cincityskyles
    41-45
    Nov 25, 2010

    No One Knows I Cry Inside

    No one knows that lately, i can't go through a single day without shedding a few tears. In my case, there are several reasons that i might cry, some not so important, but to me, they can totally ruin my day. This has all started ever since i lost contact with my crush. Ever since...
    lily200klt lily200klt
    18-21
    May 20, 2013

    Smile's With No Sound

    My Smiles are draining all my energy, I feel so week, I bottle EVERYTHING up inside of me. I love seeing people Smile it's the key to make people believe your happy. But he's making me feel so weak! We been dating for two weeks... He makes me think the bottling everything up just...
    Karma777 Karma777
    16-17, F
    Apr 29, 2012

    My Tears Warm My Heart

    Fake smiles And fake laughter Fake giggles And fake happiness When can i stop trying to fool myself? I am broken deep inside I need forever to heal Sometimes i feel happy But am i really happy? Only tears can warm my weeping heart
    fuglygirlonthebench fuglygirlonthebench
    22-25, F
    Mar 11, 2011

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