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I Hide Behind A Mask Of Smiles, No One See Beneath The Surface

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 74 People

    Behind The Mask

    As I think how my life is going, I come across a frays in my head. "behind the mask" that is exactly what I am. my definition of it is a girl who may look like she is doing good in her life but when she is on her own it is the complete opposit. someone who fears rejection and...
    cutiev0900 cutiev0900 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 8, 2013

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    I Am In Love With Someone Who Doesn't Love Me Back

    I love someone so much who doesn't love me back and I can hardly live with it
    cincityskyles cincityskyles 41-45 Nov 25, 2010

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    What They Think

    My family and my friends believe that i am this happy girl that nothing can get me down but its lies,everyday i feel like i am in pain that all i want to do is run and hide. The laughing go lucky girl is slowing running thin. I don't think I can make one more happy smile. My...
    Darkness96 Darkness96 13-15, F Mar 7, 2012

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    No One Knows I Cry Inside

    No one knows that lately, i can't go through a single day without shedding a few tears. In my case, there are several reasons that i might cry, some not so important, but to me, they can totally ruin my day. This has all started ever since i lost contact with my crush. Ever since...
    lily200klt lily200klt 16-17 May 20, 2013

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    But I Wish You Could

    I never, ever created my mask of smiles. I never wanted that, as much as it has helped repair some things that were broken, when I was broken and open... not faking my smiles, I never wanted to play this game of happiness pretend. It's all so fake, and I feel like a clown...
    WiltingBlossom WiltingBlossom 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 3, 2010

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    Why I Push Things Away?

    Once there was a little girl, She was always happy and free. Then something she loved broke her, She felt no longer free, It might have tooken her years to push it away, But she has to live with all those memories. She doesn't want anyone's sympathy, She's happy with who she is...
    Karma777 Karma777 16-17, F Apr 17, 2012

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    Every Morning I Wake Up And Put On My Mask.

    I'm not sure if anyone really knows who I really am. People comment on how bright my smile is or how I'm always "happy". My boyfriend says I am the happiest person he knows. Behind my smile I hide this darkness I've carried around with me for a very long time. I live in this...
    BlackLilly BlackLilly 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 3, 2011

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    Thing Is Though...

    It's a lot easier when no one around you cares enough to try and dig deeper.Let's face it. No matter how good we may be at faking it if someone really tried. Really wanted to get underneath our skins, they could do it.
    BeteNoire BeteNoire 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 2, 2012

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    My Beginning Of My Mask

    One day a bunch of kids where bulling me by the time i made it home i was covered in marks my parents wanted to know what happened i said i fell with a big smile on my faces that my parents started to laugh soon after it became who i was. Even to this day i still have my...
    Darkness96 Darkness96 13-15, F Mar 7, 2012

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    The Pain Is Too Big For Me To Handle.

    I have been burying it all my life. People hide it for different reasons......I hide it from myself. If I ever let it out the flood gates would open and I think it would over whelm me. I would then be so depressed I would not be able to dig myself out of the pit I was in. The...
    onnmyown onnmyown 51-55, F Nov 27, 2011

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    I Don't Let Anyone See...

    I don't let anyone see beyond the fake smile, and the stupid laugh. I did a long time ago, I didn't care, but now, I have been hurt too bad, and have been attacked for saying and showing how i truly feel, so I'm done, I no longer share with the world, with my friends, the pain...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 24, 2010

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    Smile's With No Sound

    My Smiles are draining all my energy, I feel so week, I bottle EVERYTHING up inside of me. I love seeing people Smile it's the key to make people believe your happy. But he's making me feel so weak! We been dating for two weeks... He makes me think the bottling everything up just...
    Karma777 Karma777 16-17, F Apr 29, 2012

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    My Crush And I Drifted Apart

    So, this is the story of me and my crush! It's weird, but this really all started with my math teacher... yeah. So, btw, my crush's name will be c, and i'll be k. So, now it's may in 2013, but at the beginning of the school year, i don't remember the exact date, maybe around the...
    lily200klt lily200klt 16-17 1 Response May 12, 2013

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    My Tears Warm My Heart

    Fake smiles And fake laughter Fake giggles And fake happiness When can i stop trying to fool myself? I am broken deep inside I need forever to heal Sometimes i feel happy But am i really happy? Only tears can warm my weeping heart
    fuglygirlonthebench fuglygirlonthebench 18-21, F Mar 11, 2011

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    Because my depression keeps me away from the possible opportunities of my life. I give up. I dont wanna fight it anymore. Im so tired. Im just gonna start accepting that. Accept...
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    I like being alone I don't wanna be with my friends or family cause I don't want them to ask me questions or watever. But my moms forcing me too when I don't even wanna go cause I...
    Hazel888 Hazel888 13-15, F 4 hrs ago

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    I'm sitting here with people...but no one here realizes how badly I just want to f*cking die. I can put on a mask and act as if I'm okay and a perfect teenager...but really...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F Sep 26

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    GOOD MORNING !!!!! to all !!!!I hope today’s a GREAT day, full of smiles, laughter & blessings, Don’t hide the sunshine inside you. Have a beautiful day:))))
    Serenita Serenita 41-45, F 2 Responses Sep 27

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    I open my eyes to gaze at a figure who seemed as familiar and natural to me as breathing, he stood over me wearing a mask all to well known to me and his close were as mine were...
    Ericsoftpaw Ericsoftpaw 13-15, M 1 Response Oct 15

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    The prettiest smiles hide the darkest secrets.. The brightest eyes have cried the most tears.. The kindest hearts have felt the most pain <3
    Anngeleyes Anngeleyes 26-30, F 5 Responses Oct 17

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    Weezeey - I was born wheezy in the sense that I was born asthmatic and with a range of severe allergies that was masked as a cold or a rash in actual fact it's anaphylaxis. Me...
    weezeey weezeey 31-35, F Sep 28

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    Her name was Amanda. We came together under unusual circumstances. A few years back I moved out to a small town. I knew no one there, and for the first year or so I was pretty much...
    SatantheHornyBeast SatantheHornyBeast 22-25, M 1 Response Sep 27

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    If I told you that there was a man or woman ready to give there life for you would you believe me? What if I told you that this person doesnt even know who you are or were your...
    SoLdIEr2010 SoLdIEr2010 22-25, F Oct 8

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    We all do, really. Although I've always preferred to use the term "persona". Means the same thing, except it's just a wee bit more pretentious and Jungian. You wear one when you...
    Gauntlets28 Gauntlets28 18-21, M Oct 8

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    It's been a little over a month now, and I ( 22 ) have been seeing a married man ( 35 ) . At first, I wasn't even aware he was married.. We met at a bar. He was alone having a...
    leahaxel leahaxel 22-25, F Sep 29

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    I never been diagnosed with depression, but it's pretty clear to me that I suffer from it. I've been suicidal and anxiety filled since I was 10-11 years old. I am 21 now and it...
    trinityzero trinityzero 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 30

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    My grandma passed away on the 1st we buried her on the 3rd. Today is the 9th almost a full week she's been gone. I had a quick short dream about her it seemed so real to the touch...
    Amerson20 Amerson20 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 9

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    *** note: I do not want pity or attention. I simply just want to get this out of my system. Feel free to judge me, I don't care. There's nothing you can say that I haven't told...
    justmebta justmebta 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 17

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    In the middle of this morning around an hour before I wanted to get up, I was awoken by loud banging and shouting, I peered put my window to see what all the commotion was and it...
    LifeOfARoseCat LifeOfARoseCat 36-40, F 6 days ago

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    I do it every time I go out somewhere I made it a habit. To a female I'll smile wave my hand and say "hello beautiful" and continue on with my business. I like to converse with...
    gow90 gow90 18-21, M 3 days ago

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    One could say I've had it all. Beautiful loving wife, four healthy children, a good career more ups than downs. But I lived with a secret that scared me to the core but I could not...
    MichelleReneeEdwards MichelleReneeEdwards 46-50, T Sep 30

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    One could say I've had it all. Beautiful loving wife, four healthy children, a good career more ups than downs. But I lived with a secret that scared me to the core but I could not...
    MichelleReneeEdwards MichelleReneeEdwards 46-50, T Sep 30

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    Something I wrote to him, although I didn't send it. Thank you. I have a lot of things to thank you for. Thank you for showing me how to love and supposedly be "loved". Thank...
    weightingforhappiness weightingforhappiness 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 2

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    Message me girls, I'm 19 and seeking the light to my dark
    Voltorius Voltorius 18-21, M Oct 6

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    I dont like long dresses because it hides my legs. Im the type that likes to show off my body. I like wearing clothes that compliment my body well. I love my body so why should i...
    Sierra1993 Sierra1993 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 7

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    I been seeing them more lately I used of see them nearly But today I saw 3 The first one was in my house it was my chair I was walking by and saw it at the corner of my eye I...
    RainbowWolf13 RainbowWolf13 13-15, F Oct 12

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    These days it's hard to know who to trust. But you should never try and hide who you are, For instance most people seem to believe I am some angry rugby playing behemoth But what...
    Anth9012 Anth9012 22-25, M Oct 14

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    I must say that I was a sports girl? So, I ran in the evening, before bedtime. The fact that I did it in the woods, it's natural. There are few people, and there is always the...
    tarasi tarasi 31-35, F 12 Responses Oct 15

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    emotionally defective...? ok so, I'm not the type of person that gets emotional, I try to avoid emotional situations as much as I can and I come off as indifferent and...
    Rainatmidnight97 Rainatmidnight97 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 27

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    I struggle with a severe mental illness. I hide it well. But as I am working more on healing it, I feel like it's a neon sign over my head. I wonder if people can see my inner...
    noplacetobreathe noplacetobreathe 36-40, F 3 Responses Oct 3

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    ONE??? just one???? geez... ok... I would run nekkid... behind a very nice behind around the perimeter of my house.. in the rain, during a thunderstorm... Altho next time...
    SKiesterly SKiesterly 36-40, F 6 Responses Oct 3

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    I think my parents might be hiding something from me. There are only pictures of my mother and father holding me the day after my birth, none of anyone with me the actual day...
    Doggy1995 Doggy1995 18-21, F Oct 7

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    Trying To Be- Last fall semester my daughter arrived home from the nearby university one day and was like, "Look what I found in the Commons Building." She had several Awake...
    SexiestChocolate SexiestChocolate 41-45, F 1 Response Oct 8

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    I cry a lot but can't seem to put in words why. I tried seeing a councillor once but she pretty much did nothing. I don't have any friends I can talk to. I haven't suffered any...
    Topcat05 Topcat05 46-50, F 1 Response Oct 11

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    I am having a major freak out, supposed to be seeing my old best friend tomorrow, haven't seen him properly for 3 years before we both got married, I know his wife doesn't like me...
    poshbarbie poshbarbie 26-30, F a week ago

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