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I Hide Behind A Mask Of Smiles, No One See Beneath The Surface

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    Smile's With No Sound

    My Smiles are draining all my energy, I feel so week, I bottle EVERYTHING up inside of me. I love seeing people Smile it's the key to make people believe your happy. But he's making me feel so weak! We been dating for two weeks... He makes me think the bottling everything up just...
    Karma777 Karma777 16-17, F Apr 29, 2012

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    The Pain Is Too Big For Me To Handle.

    I have been burying it all my life. People hide it for different reasons......I hide it from myself. If I ever let it out the flood gates would open and I think it would over whelm me. I would then be so depressed I would not be able to dig myself out of the pit I was in. The...
    onnmyown onnmyown 51-55, F Nov 27, 2011

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    What They Think

    My family and my friends believe that i am this happy girl that nothing can get me down but its lies,everyday i feel like i am in pain that all i want to do is run and hide. The laughing go lucky girl is slowing running thin. I don't think I can make one more happy smile. My...
    Darkness96 Darkness96 13-15, F Mar 7, 2012

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    Every Morning I Wake Up And Put On My Mask.

    I'm not sure if anyone really knows who I really am. People comment on how bright my smile is or how I'm always "happy". My boyfriend says I am the happiest person he knows. Behind my smile I hide this darkness I've carried around with me for a very long time. I live in this...
    BlackLilly BlackLilly 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 3, 2011

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    I Am In Love With Someone Who Doesn't Love Me Back

    I love someone so much who doesn't love me back and I can hardly live with it
    cincityskyles cincityskyles 41-45 Nov 25, 2010

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    No One Knows I Cry Inside

    No one knows that lately, i can't go through a single day without shedding a few tears. In my case, there are several reasons that i might cry, some not so important, but to me, they can totally ruin my day. This has all started ever since i lost contact with my crush. Ever since...
    lily200klt lily200klt 16-17 May 20, 2013

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    My Crush And I Drifted Apart

    So, this is the story of me and my crush! It's weird, but this really all started with my math teacher... yeah. So, btw, my crush's name will be c, and i'll be k. So, now it's may in 2013, but at the beginning of the school year, i don't remember the exact date, maybe around the...
    lily200klt lily200klt 16-17 1 Response May 12, 2013

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    I Don't Let Anyone See...

    I don't let anyone see beyond the fake smile, and the stupid laugh. I did a long time ago, I didn't care, but now, I have been hurt too bad, and have been attacked for saying and showing how i truly feel, so I'm done, I no longer share with the world, with my friends, the pain...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 24, 2010

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    My Beginning Of My Mask

    One day a bunch of kids where bulling me by the time i made it home i was covered in marks my parents wanted to know what happened i said i fell with a big smile on my faces that my parents started to laugh soon after it became who i was. Even to this day i still have my...
    Darkness96 Darkness96 13-15, F Mar 7, 2012

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    But I Wish You Could

    I never, ever created my mask of smiles. I never wanted that, as much as it has helped repair some things that were broken, when I was broken and open... not faking my smiles, I never wanted to play this game of happiness pretend. It's all so fake, and I feel like a clown...
    WiltingBlossom WiltingBlossom 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 3, 2010

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    My Tears Warm My Heart

    Fake smiles And fake laughter Fake giggles And fake happiness When can i stop trying to fool myself? I am broken deep inside I need forever to heal Sometimes i feel happy But am i really happy? Only tears can warm my weeping heart
    fuglygirlonthebench fuglygirlonthebench 22-25, F Mar 11, 2011

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    Behind The Mask

    As I think how my life is going, I come across a frays in my head. "behind the mask" that is exactly what I am. my definition of it is a girl who may look like she is doing good in her life but when she is on her own it is the complete opposit. someone who fears rejection and...
    cutiev0900 cutiev0900 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 8, 2013

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    So often it can be so much easier just to fake

    a smile and internalise the struggles instead of having to explain everything to people who may or may not understand. It's even harder when I don't even know what's going on in my head some days.
    mattywheels25 mattywheels25 26-30, M Apr 9

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    I hope you like this poem I made its called A

    Wall That Surrounds My Heart You know the girl who smiles With the brightest one of all? You may think you know her, But that's not it at all. She hides behind the mirror, So fragile and clear, She shows you what you want to see, Even when in constant fear. She then puts on a...
    RavenNightwing RavenNightwing 16-17, F Apr 5

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    Thing Is Though...

    It's a lot easier when no one around you cares enough to try and dig deeper.Let's face it. No matter how good we may be at faking it if someone really tried. Really wanted to get underneath our skins, they could do it.
    BeteNoire BeteNoire 26-30, F Dec 2, 2012

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    Why I Push Things Away?

    Once there was a little girl, She was always happy and free. Then something she loved broke her, She felt no longer free, It might have tooken her years to push it away, But she has to live with all those memories. She doesn't want anyone's sympathy, She's happy with who she is...
    Karma777 Karma777 16-17, F Apr 17, 2012

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    Everyone knows this person A person with the

    prettiest smile ever A smile to seem stuck on their face forever A person they think they know inside and out A person that has people believe they are always happy These people are hidden in the dark This pretty smile is just a mask they put up until they are safe Safe and...
    ashleysokolik ashleysokolik 13-15, F Apr 6

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    I feel like no one even notices me and if they do it's because I cracked a joke or because I'm wearing something nice.I feel like no one really knows me and how it's hard getting...
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    All smiles add to the world, but some smiles are just spectacular, almost unbelievably charismatic. Sometimes, when I smile, it seems that my smile is like a switch that turns on...
    Allinside Allinside 70+, M 2 days ago

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    Hey look there's that kid you bullied the other day one the news No he didn't do something amazing he hung him self those words were the last straw I bet you didn't know that he...
    Brooklynnkelly Brooklynnkelly 16-17, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I'm fine how many times do those two words cover up something far more sinister. They cover up sadness, madness, hate maybe for yourself or others. I'm fine is the death to love...
    Brooklynnkelly Brooklynnkelly 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    They enjoy it even more, when they see that there is someone who is annoyed by them. They must think that all the negative feedback they get stems from jealousy, but the truth is...
    LeapingToadstool LeapingToadstool 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    I would wear one almost everyday when I leave the house if I could. I wish they were more socially acceptable in the US.
    lovelymaskedbeauty lovelymaskedbeauty 31-35, F 3 days ago

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    I pretend I have friends. Fake phone calls where I laugh and make plans, all the texts I get are from people I've never met. I lie about my weekends. no one knows.
    sweettlc sweettlc 22-25, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    well i try but my friends see though it. they know me too well.
    noahfaith noahfaith 16-17, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    IVE GOT FIRE FOR A HEART IM NOT SCARED OF THE DARK IVE GOT A RIVER FOR A SOUL AND BABY YOURE A BOAT BABY YOURE MY OWN REASON IF I DIDNT HAVE YOU THERE WOULD BE NOTHING LEFT THE...
    imveryboring imveryboring 13-15, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    so I don't have to see PR hear the disturbing things next door XD GOTTEM
    kimberlylovesbands kimberlylovesbands 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    I've been dealing with a very toxic person for a long time. She did something that gave me PTSD while we were roommates and emotionally abused me for the whole year. I feel like I...
    lcr3 lcr3 18-21, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    this is the first time i went to my back yard naked when neighbours are at outside. i saw a mature lady at our neighbourhood was at her garden and watering the plant. so i thot to...
    bareassboy01 bareassboy01 26-30, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    To be honest I don't think I have ever had a real smile as a teenager, everyday seemed to painful to look in the mirror at a smile that I knew wasn't real, it's very rare I have a...
    NoUsernameInserted NoUsernameInserted 18-21, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I fake a snile cuz I try to make everything seem okqy with me when it really is not..... but I have to do what I have to do, to make people think that im happy and that nothing is...
    jojorigal jojorigal 16-17 a week ago

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    What I feel never really comes out. Its like I'm numb to everyone. I try to be happy and it comes off as I'm pushy. I have a mehh day and it comes off as I want to start a fight. I...
    KiraRawr KiraRawr 16-17, F a week ago

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    feelings dont matter. at least not mine. i think you get to a point where you have to suck it up and help yourself cause no one else wants to be bothered anymore. im pathetic. i...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses a week ago

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    have been booted a cpl of times....... i'll start the story, the finish it under comments... we were at a piano bar, good music, and jam packed. making our way to the dance floor...
    pearls45 pearls45 56-60, M 1 Response Jul 27

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    My mum and dad have been arguing a lot lately and my brother has autism. This causes most of the arguments as he is being really difficult at the moment and attacks everyone in the...
    AimeeWells AimeeWells 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 26

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    In the movie 'home', how the boov (?) change colour to show how they are feeling. Do you think if humans did that everyone would be more considerate of what they say and do around...
    ImBatmanShhh ImBatmanShhh 16-17, T Jul 26

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    I look angry most times when I'm really not. It's more a defense against people who usually don't notice me or disregard me if they do. No one cares if I'm happy, sad, etc, so why...
    LonesumnTx LonesumnTx 51-55, F 1 Response Jul 25

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    It's a greater life when one does. Life is less stressful.
    UnlovingAlex UnlovingAlex 16-17, M 6 Responses Jul 25

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    This thread has been so enlightening and shocking at the same time. I have been seeing the numbers 911, 119 ever since my father passed away in 2011. At first I kept ignoring it...
    moonm moonm 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 25

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    It's been a while since the last time I was on EP. So a lot has happened these past months. The guy that asked me to be his girlfriend which I agreed has went behind my back and...
    PoopieNoodle PoopieNoodle 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 23

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    I hide them from everyone, even my best friend, he says he understands me yet he can't tell when I'm wearing my mask or revealing my true face. Even when I talk to those I trust...
    Kurlzz3Tears Kurlzz3Tears 13-15, M 1 Response Jul 21

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    My bf is one of those who is so secretive with his phone, that he would flip out if I use it to check the time! If you have nothing to hide, why is it such a big secret?
    MissKennybabe MissKennybabe 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 21

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    Ok this might sound crazy... But I think there has to be a bathroom god. I have died and gone to heaven. There is the most unbelievable seat that is available in some of the most...
    cmyk323 cmyk323 36-40, F 4 Responses Jul 21

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