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I Hide Behind A Mask Of Smiles, No One See Beneath The Surface

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    My Beginning Of My Mask

    One day a bunch of kids where bulling me by the time i made it home i was covered in marks my parents wanted to know what happened i said i fell with a big smile on my faces that my parents started to laugh soon after it became who i was. Even to this day i still have my...
    Darkness96 Darkness96 13-15, F Mar 7, 2012

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    So often it can be so much easier just to fake

    a smile and internalise the struggles instead of having to explain everything to people who may or may not understand. It's even harder when I don't even know what's going on in my head some days.
    mattywheels25 mattywheels25 26-30, M Apr 9

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    Everyone knows this person A person with the

    prettiest smile ever A smile to seem stuck on their face forever A person they think they know inside and out A person that has people believe they are always happy These people are hidden in the dark This pretty smile is just a mask they put up until they are safe Safe and...
    ashleysokolik ashleysokolik 13-15, F Apr 6

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    I Don't Let Anyone See...

    I don't let anyone see beyond the fake smile, and the stupid laugh. I did a long time ago, I didn't care, but now, I have been hurt too bad, and have been attacked for saying and showing how i truly feel, so I'm done, I no longer share with the world, with my friends, the pain...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 24, 2010

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    The Pain Is Too Big For Me To Handle.

    I have been burying it all my life. People hide it for different reasons......I hide it from myself. If I ever let it out the flood gates would open and I think it would over whelm me. I would then be so depressed I would not be able to dig myself out of the pit I was in. The...
    onnmyown onnmyown 51-55, F Nov 27, 2011

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    Every Morning I Wake Up And Put On My Mask.

    I'm not sure if anyone really knows who I really am. People comment on how bright my smile is or how I'm always "happy". My boyfriend says I am the happiest person he knows. Behind my smile I hide this darkness I've carried around with me for a very long time. I live in this...
    BlackLilly BlackLilly 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 3, 2011

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    Thing Is Though...

    It's a lot easier when no one around you cares enough to try and dig deeper.Let's face it. No matter how good we may be at faking it if someone really tried. Really wanted to get underneath our skins, they could do it.
    BeteNoire BeteNoire 26-30, F Dec 2, 2012

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    I Am In Love With Someone Who Doesn't Love Me Back

    I love someone so much who doesn't love me back and I can hardly live with it
    cincityskyles cincityskyles 41-45 Nov 25, 2010

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    No One Knows I Cry Inside

    No one knows that lately, i can't go through a single day without shedding a few tears. In my case, there are several reasons that i might cry, some not so important, but to me, they can totally ruin my day. This has all started ever since i lost contact with my crush. Ever since...
    lily200klt lily200klt 16-17 May 20, 2013

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    What They Think

    My family and my friends believe that i am this happy girl that nothing can get me down but its lies,everyday i feel like i am in pain that all i want to do is run and hide. The laughing go lucky girl is slowing running thin. I don't think I can make one more happy smile. My...
    Darkness96 Darkness96 13-15, F Mar 7, 2012

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    My Tears Warm My Heart

    Fake smiles And fake laughter Fake giggles And fake happiness When can i stop trying to fool myself? I am broken deep inside I need forever to heal Sometimes i feel happy But am i really happy? Only tears can warm my weeping heart
    fuglygirlonthebench fuglygirlonthebench 22-25, F Mar 11, 2011

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    Behind The Mask

    As I think how my life is going, I come across a frays in my head. "behind the mask" that is exactly what I am. my definition of it is a girl who may look like she is doing good in her life but when she is on her own it is the complete opposit. someone who fears rejection and...
    cutiev0900 cutiev0900 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 8, 2013

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    Why I Push Things Away?

    Once there was a little girl, She was always happy and free. Then something she loved broke her, She felt no longer free, It might have tooken her years to push it away, But she has to live with all those memories. She doesn't want anyone's sympathy, She's happy with who she is...
    Karma777 Karma777 16-17, F Apr 17, 2012

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    Smile's With No Sound

    My Smiles are draining all my energy, I feel so week, I bottle EVERYTHING up inside of me. I love seeing people Smile it's the key to make people believe your happy. But he's making me feel so weak! We been dating for two weeks... He makes me think the bottling everything up just...
    Karma777 Karma777 16-17, F Apr 29, 2012

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    But I Wish You Could

    I never, ever created my mask of smiles. I never wanted that, as much as it has helped repair some things that were broken, when I was broken and open... not faking my smiles, I never wanted to play this game of happiness pretend. It's all so fake, and I feel like a clown...
    WiltingBlossom WiltingBlossom 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 3, 2010

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    My Crush And I Drifted Apart

    So, this is the story of me and my crush! It's weird, but this really all started with my math teacher... yeah. So, btw, my crush's name will be c, and i'll be k. So, now it's may in 2013, but at the beginning of the school year, i don't remember the exact date, maybe around the...
    lily200klt lily200klt 16-17 1 Response May 12, 2013

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    I hope you like this poem I made its called A

    Wall That Surrounds My Heart You know the girl who smiles With the brightest one of all? You may think you know her, But that's not it at all. She hides behind the mirror, So fragile and clear, She shows you what you want to see, Even when in constant fear. She then puts on a...
    RavenNightwing RavenNightwing 16-17, F Apr 5

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    It's kinda sad how others can be proud of who I've become but I'm not be able to feel that myself. To feel appreciated or to feel proud of one's self, because behind closed doors I...
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    It is the one that hides behind the mirror until you face it. We all have the power within ourselves to become more, better, happier, etc. It takes effort, sometimes knowledge...
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    Honestly I have 3 sides. 1. I'm a goody tooshuies in my school. I put on a mostly fake smile and try to be kind and generous. It's like having a mask on, trying to hide the true...
    gabby121212 gabby121212 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I would evade the questions, find excuses, lies. - Where'd you get that bruise from? - Oh just playing sports.. - What's wrong? You seem sad. - Nothing. Just haven't done my...
    betruetoyourself14 betruetoyourself14 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 1

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    Well let me start from the very beginning. So this is going to be long. I was barely fifteen when I was sexually assaulted by one of my neighbors and his friend (this can be...
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    As a gay man I have no children of my own, but over the years I have had many friends with kids and have been lucky enough to be godfather to some of them. One of these was Richard...
    Littlewetnappyboy Littlewetnappyboy 56-60, M 3 Responses Mar 28

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    It's like I have so many things to be mad about but whenever I want to let them out it almost seems like other people are offended by it as in they don't want to be around someone...
    FriendshipQ FriendshipQ 13-15, F Apr 14

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    This year has been hard. I came into my sophomore year of college thinking that I had a strong group of friends to back me up, but as this year goes on I seem to be losing them all...
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    Wind Beneath My Wings From the movie Beaches Everyone has a person who is their wind Beneath their wings and without them you would be nothing
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    To see your lips murmer words of sweet hopefulness or mere nonchalance, but have your eyes say something different, A mask is truely the most hated thing. Why hate? Because it is...
    ConLocura ConLocura 18-21, F Apr 14

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    you will always see me smiling. you will always hear me cracking jokes. you will always find me to be silly. meanwhile I am cracking and breaking on the inside.
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    I think the most embarrassing or rather more awkward than embarrassing was probably the first time I got caned by a female teacher at boarding school as our canings were always...
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    Beauty isn't long hair, skinny legs, tanned skin or perfect teeth. Believe me. Beauty is the face of who cried and now smiles, beauty is the scar on your knee since you fell when...
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    I look at life as it is like there is this BEAUTIFUL masterpiece of art work that you are Creating... with all the Fine detail you put into it.. and look at this piece of art you...
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    I don't really have an idea on what to do anymore. This last year has been a **** storm. I've always been known as the guy who makes everyone laugh, the guy who can make someone...
    Zanezanezane Zanezanezane 18-21, M 3 days ago

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    I love them they rock and make me look like alien that's me with half of one on and the other half not (obviously lol)
    foreverme000 foreverme000 13-15, F Apr 3

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    I keep my mask on around people. I don't trust people anymore, they have betrayed me many times but I never betrayed them.
    RestlessDream RestlessDream 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    I hide a lot of my quirkiness from my family. One time a let some quirkiness slip and my sisters thought I was on drugs. (by the way, I DON'T DO DRUGS)
    reivven reivven 13-15, F Apr 10

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    I think nights are the most difficult. To try and sleep after you've forced yourself to sleep all day. To lay in bed when your body is restless from laying. Which in return forces...
    74Kitty 74Kitty 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 13

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    I hide everything inside and I hate it I have no one to open up to and talk about my feelings I hate it!!!! I jut need someone who'll listen but ughh **** I can neer fin someone
    DarkWorld21 DarkWorld21 13-15, F Apr 15

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    I want to wear it all the time and see what happens XD
    cagged cagged 16-17, F 1 Response 4 days ago