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I Hide My Feelings

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    Today I Hide My Feelings - Trying to Stop

    I do - I hide my feelings.  I am not sure when this started, but as I grew older, the worse it became. I have started to acknowledge, accept and feel my feelings -- It's a *****!  I'm having ups and downs .. seems like my downs when speaking...
    MizzBlue72 MizzBlue72 36-40, F 5 Responses Nov 15, 2008

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    From Myself

    I can hide how i'm feeling from others easily, but the problem is i also i hide my feelings from myself. It's really weired, it's like i block most of them out until someone says something that kinda brings down the block i guess. If i'm thinking a lot, that also brings it down...
    geminixleo geminixleo 18-21, F Jun 3, 2011

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    I would evade the questions,

    find excuses, lies. - Where'd you get that bruise from? - Oh just playing sports.. - What's wrong? You seem sad. - Nothing. Just haven't done my homework and don't want detention. - Why do you flinch when someone moves or touches you? - I was just surprised, that's all These...
    betruetoyourself14 betruetoyourself14 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 1

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    Dying Inside

    Every day I feel as if a little part of me dies. The darkness seems to close in on my life, and I have started cutting my skin to make sure that I can still feel. I put on a facade during the school day, but during the night I cry and feel as if something is tearing me apart...
    thatsadgirl thatsadgirl 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 14, 2011

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    I'm always doing this

    but the worst part is my body language makes it clear when something is wrong damn! been trying to do this all week while it's been grandads birthday and 3rd birthday since he passed away.
    baggiee baggiee 26-30, M May 9

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    CreateTVT CreateTVT 26-30 2 Responses Jun 20

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    Power Of The Night

    I hate the darkness and dread the nightWhen my body is stillĀ  and my mind wakensThe thoughts begin, soon followed by the tearsSo alone, so quiet, as what if thoughts consume meI try to push them in to the back of my mindBut they come with such force I cannot silence themAnd how...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Mar 31, 2012

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    Tonight -- Husband Came Home Drunk Again

    I am just indescribable I guess.  My husband and I have had problems for several years. Husband is an alcoholic.  I know this is anonymous - so I am putting this out there. I go to Al-Anon meetings, at least I try to once a week. ...
    MizzBlue72 MizzBlue72 36-40, F 3 Responses Nov 15, 2008

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    Hi

    i wish i could tell how i feel but now i cant a few years ago i always blabbed about everything that bothered me which wasnt always great and caused drama now i dont tell my feelings to anyone even when i try to i cant say it when im face to face nomore and idk howto fix it! i...
    chel0820 chel0820 18-21, F Sep 26, 2009

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    Either Way

    i cant really tell if i hide my feelings or not...i mean alot of the time im open and honest about what i think and how i feel but other times im hiding in the corner, not letting out to anybody about how hurt i am or how i REALLY feel about something. i guess most people...
    blueeyedblonde blueeyedblonde 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 16, 2008

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    My Feelings

    I have always hid my feelings my whole life.  I never know how to express myself so I never have.  I had a weird childhood.  I come from a broken family although you probably wouldn't think it because no one in my family ever showed it...
    Crystal0306 Crystal0306 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    Specially...

      ...when I am sad, dying inside, I do not want to bother other people with my problems.
    deleted deleted 26-30 11 Responses Apr 9, 2008

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    Bottled Up

    I always just bottle up my emotions. I still do but my friend has gotten me to open up some. I seem to just cry all the time now when I get home from school. I rarely used to cry honestly. I don't hide my feelings here or I try not to but its not easy...
    kthimm1 kthimm1 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 14, 2009

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    I Am Numb

    I`m not quite sure how it happens but after leaving the service over time vets that experience PTSD become numb and have a very hard time with trust, love, caring and exoressing their feelings. I don`t know if it is hiding my feelings it is just that inside I feel cold and I have...
    Pmacphoto Pmacphoto 66-70, M May 26, 2012

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    I've been so open, I've shared

    so much, with you guys, and now, with my family and friends. But there is still so much that I can't ever let them know. So many secrets, lies, that would break their hearts even more.
    betruetoyourself14 betruetoyourself14 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 2

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    I'm tired of lying to people about how I'm

    really feeling, but I'm afraid no one would care to know the truth. Or that telling someone won't change a thing.!
    pinkhatesu pinkhatesu 18-21, F 1 Response May 26, 2014

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    I Miss Talking to You - I Really Do

    I really miss talking to my friend, just about everyday things.  I write on here, and with this we keep up to date, but I do miss them. So - if you are reading this (which I am sure you aren't) - I come off as cold sometimes and do not allow...
    MizzBlue72 MizzBlue72 36-40, F 2 Responses Dec 6, 2008

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    I could be wrong but I think

    that showing your true feelings is a sign of weakness and people can hurt you more easily.
    dopegirlfromanotherworld dopegirlfromanotherworld 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 20

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    "Sometimes the more you hide your feelings

    for someone, the more you fall for them"
    KAREEM77 KAREEM77 36-40, M 2 Responses May 26

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    I wish some people new what I feel on the

    inside, even though I have a smile on my face that doesn't mean I'm happy on the inside..... Wish my family could see how I feel
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 8

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    And End Up Hurt and Sad

    Especially when it really matters,... later on I spend so much energy and time thinking about what I should have or could have said,... maybe it's a learned behaviour,... maybe I want to reach out and communicate on another level,... I'm fascinated with the non-verbal...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 12, 2009

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    I Show No Emotion No Fear

    i show no emotion if i do i show fear i'm always brave the one that will not back down with out a fight i will do anything for my flock a.k.a family and friends i will die for them i love them all with me around we are brave strong we won't back down while i'm here but if my...
    fax4ever fax4ever 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 16, 2011

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    Never

    Never wll I hide my feelings or anythig else.  I am drumnk.  What the hell,  I am drunk as  hell.  I dont any of your who are not drunk.  To eacjh his own.  I can not hide my feeligngs because they are out there for all tro see.  What...
    levin60kitty levin60kitty 61-65 3 Responses Nov 16, 2008

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    I hate when something is bothering you & you

    just don't know what it is.
    deziee deziee 18-21, F May 11, 2014

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    They Aren't For Sale!

    So therefore they aren't on display!
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 27, 2011

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    they're safer on inside

    than out there in the wild
    muradgh muradgh 18-21, M 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    Everyone tells me to fake it

    until you make it. Well I have been faking it for a few years and this smile I put on every day is still fake. Has this actually worked for anyone or should I just give up?
    CodeyL CodeyL 18-21, M 1 Response May 10

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    Don't Want People to Worry

    I know people who openly express how they are feeling to everyone and they constantly get attention. As much as I wish I'd get attention like that sometimes, most of the time I'm glad that I don't. The problem is that people don't leave you alone if you are constantly...
    BleedingMascara BleedingMascara 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 15, 2008

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    Ah, the wonderful smile.

    The simplest way to put on that mask, that facade. People don't look at your eyes if your smiling. They just assume there's no deeper feelings.
    loveyourselfalwaysxx loveyourselfalwaysxx 13-15, F 4 Responses May 10

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    When I look at the people around me I often

    wonder if they're hiding as much as I am
    Embella Embella 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 20

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    Mastered Not To Cry

    i never tell anyone how I really feel. I mastered not to cry and hide those tears, like my heart is going to burst for hiding so much pain, grief, sorrow. And even if I want to cry, no tears are coming out.   I want to be strong for my family 'cause we are in the...
    dazzlingeyes dazzlingeyes 18-21, F 4 Responses May 14, 2010

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    Absolutely This....

    I am known as the happy, smiley girl at work but that's so far from the truth. I HAVE to be this way as I work with kids and I also don't want others knowing how I truly feel as I don't trust them. I don't trust them enough to let them in. I feel I have so many secrets and pain...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 9, 2011

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    Veil

    I wear a veil that hides my true emotions. I do it so well that I forget about them until they resurface and slap me in the face with reality.
    Pembz19 Pembz19 18-21, F Sep 10, 2013

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    It's quite amazing how easy it is to hide my feelings from my family.
    deademotion11 deademotion11 22-25, M 4 hrs ago

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    I used to have these feelings all the time... I tried a couple times but the blade was to dual to do anything except give me a cut so shallow that I didn't hardly bleed at all. I...
    witchgirl69 witchgirl69 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Well it would be lie if I said I don't have suicidal feelings at all anymore but they are tremendously reduced. I used to have them much more. When I was 18 I thought about it...
    Maybeincubus Maybeincubus 22-25, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I sometimes fake smile to hide my sadness I feel like the sadness will not end due to a loss of the love of my life due to my own mental issues/demons I wish I could smile & mean...
    mechanicman96 mechanicman96 36-40, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Well I must say EP has been an amazing and whirlwind and at times less than perfect experience for me. I met some really awesome people, who I am proud to call my friends. I met...
    rana3434 rana3434 36-40, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Since the day you've been gone i do fake a smile to hide my sadness... i don't want the people around me specially my loves ones to know that am still not doing fine since you've...
    realhappiness realhappiness 26-30, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    but I can't, it just doesn't feel right. I think of telling whoever what is really on my mind, but then I think they'll look at me different, so I hide behind these nonsensical...
    rejectedhighly rejectedhighly 22-25, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I keep discovering more about my innermost feelings. I was in bed. It was dark. My thoughts went to my girl friend who was still working late. At that moment I felt an immense...
    melki melki 66-70 3 days ago

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    I have to hide my true feelings. I don't want to scare people away or have my mother yell at me.
    logan1997 logan1997 18-21 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I find it hard to express my emotions. Years of bullying means I've had to suppress/hide them away and to become invisible to others including family. There have been countless...
    stacey1447 stacey1447 22-25, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I never really have.. I'm just a bundle of feelings like a bottle of soda that's been shaked
    DoorMattress DoorMattress 13-15, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    caught feelings for a guy who is close to my family which is my sisters godbrother and we were on good terms but then he suddenly stopped talking to me and yes my feelings was...