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I Hide My Feelings

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    Tonight -- Husband Came Home Drunk Again

    I am just indescribable I guess.  My husband and I have had problems for several years. Husband is an alcoholic.  I know this is anonymous - so I am putting this out there. I go to Al-Anon meetings, at least I try to once a week. ...
    MizzBlue72 MizzBlue72 36-40, F 3 Responses Nov 15, 2008

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    Today I Hide My Feelings - Trying to Stop

    I do - I hide my feelings.  I am not sure when this started, but as I grew older, the worse it became. I have started to acknowledge, accept and feel my feelings -- It's a *****!  I'm having ups and downs .. seems like my downs when speaking...
    MizzBlue72 MizzBlue72 36-40, F 5 Responses Nov 15, 2008

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    Never

    Never wll I hide my feelings or anythig else.  I am drumnk.  What the hell,  I am drunk as  hell.  I dont any of your who are not drunk.  To eacjh his own.  I can not hide my feeligngs because they are out there for all tro see.  What...
    levin60kitty levin60kitty 61-65 3 Responses Nov 16, 2008

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    They Aren't For Sale!

    So therefore they aren't on display!
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 27, 2011

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    I Show No Emotion No Fear

    i show no emotion if i do i show fear i'm always brave the one that will not back down with out a fight i will do anything for my flock a.k.a family and friends i will die for them i love them all with me around we are brave strong we won't back down while i'm here but if my...
    fax4ever fax4ever 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 16, 2011

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    I Only Wish I Did

    My feelings stay right there out in the open.  I'd like to learn how to hide them though.  
    EyzofBlue EyzofBlue 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 25, 2012

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    Veil

    I wear a veil that hides my true emotions. I do it so well that I forget about them until they resurface and slap me in the face with reality.
    Pembz19 Pembz19 18-21, F Sep 10, 2013

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    Hi

    i wish i could tell how i feel but now i cant a few years ago i always blabbed about everything that bothered me which wasnt always great and caused drama now i dont tell my feelings to anyone even when i try to i cant say it when im face to face nomore and idk howto fix it! i...
    chel0820 chel0820 18-21, F Sep 26, 2009

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    Power Of The Night

    I hate the darkness and dread the nightWhen my body is still  and my mind wakensThe thoughts begin, soon followed by the tearsSo alone, so quiet, as what if thoughts consume meI try to push them in to the back of my mindBut they come with such force I cannot silence themAnd how...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Mar 31, 2012

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    Either Way

    i cant really tell if i hide my feelings or not...i mean alot of the time im open and honest about what i think and how i feel but other times im hiding in the corner, not letting out to anybody about how hurt i am or how i REALLY feel about something. i guess most people...
    blueeyedblonde blueeyedblonde 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 16, 2008

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    Specially...

      ...when I am sad, dying inside, I do not want to bother other people with my problems.
    deleted deleted 26-30 11 Responses Apr 9, 2008

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    I hate when something is bothering you & you

    just don't know what it is.
    deziee deziee 18-21, F May 11

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    I Am Numb

    I`m not quite sure how it happens but after leaving the service over time vets that experience PTSD become numb and have a very hard time with trust, love, caring and exoressing their feelings. I don`t know if it is hiding my feelings it is just that inside I feel cold and I have...
    Pmacphoto Pmacphoto 66-70, M May 26, 2012

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    And End Up Hurt and Sad

    Especially when it really matters,... later on I spend so much energy and time thinking about what I should have or could have said,... maybe it's a learned behaviour,... maybe I want to reach out and communicate on another level,... I'm fascinated with the non-verbal...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 12, 2009

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    My Feelings

    I have always hid my feelings my whole life.  I never know how to express myself so I never have.  I had a weird childhood.  I come from a broken family although you probably wouldn't think it because no one in my family ever showed it...
    Crystal0306 Crystal0306 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    I Miss Talking to You - I Really Do

    I really miss talking to my friend, just about everyday things.  I write on here, and with this we keep up to date, but I do miss them. So - if you are reading this (which I am sure you aren't) - I come off as cold sometimes and do not allow...
    MizzBlue72 MizzBlue72 36-40, F 2 Responses Dec 6, 2008

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    Mastered Not To Cry

    i never tell anyone how I really feel. I mastered not to cry and hide those tears, like my heart is going to burst for hiding so much pain, grief, sorrow. And even if I want to cry, no tears are coming out.   I want to be strong for my family 'cause we are in the...
    dazzlingeyes dazzlingeyes 18-21, F 4 Responses May 14, 2010

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    From Myself

    I can hide how i'm feeling from others easily, but the problem is i also i hide my feelings from myself. It's really weired, it's like i block most of them out until someone says something that kinda brings down the block i guess. If i'm thinking a lot, that also brings it down...
    geminixleo geminixleo 18-21, F Jun 3, 2011

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    Absolutely This....

    I am known as the happy, smiley girl at work but that's so far from the truth. I HAVE to be this way as I work with kids and I also don't want others knowing how I truly feel as I don't trust them. I don't trust them enough to let them in. I feel I have so many secrets and pain...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 9, 2011

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    Dying Inside

    Every day I feel as if a little part of me dies. The darkness seems to close in on my life, and I have started cutting my skin to make sure that I can still feel. I put on a facade during the school day, but during the night I cry and feel as if something is tearing me apart...
    thatsadgirl thatsadgirl 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 14, 2011

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    I'm tired of lying to people about how I'm

    really feeling, but I'm afraid no one would care to know the truth. Or that telling someone won't change a thing.!
    pinkhatesu pinkhatesu 18-21, F 1 Response May 26

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    Bottled Up

    I always just bottle up my emotions. I still do but my friend has gotten me to open up some. I seem to just cry all the time now when I get home from school. I rarely used to cry honestly. I don't hide my feelings here or I try not to but its not easy...
    kthimm1 kthimm1 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 14, 2009

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    Don't Want People to Worry

    I know people who openly express how they are feeling to everyone and they constantly get attention. As much as I wish I'd get attention like that sometimes, most of the time I'm glad that I don't. The problem is that people don't leave you alone if you are constantly...
    BleedingMascara BleedingMascara 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 15, 2008

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    Related Experiences

    when I was little my dad beat me and yelled not to cry...Or else I would get more... Perhaps that's how this all started then throughout my teen years I've had a few mentally...
    boxgirl1987 boxgirl1987 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 23

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    I am a clam, a sponge. I absorb and I don't show how heavy I find it. I hide in the shadows in my mind, and twinkle in the moonlight. I step out into the sun, but always I have...
    Skjeggstad Skjeggstad 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 22

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    it is so easy to pretend; although, it is so difficult to hide them when you are not here. Your strength gives me a reason, your weakness makes me angry but your absence kill me. I...
    Lhily Lhily 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 28

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    21 guns- Greenday Do you know what's worth fighting for? When it's not worth dying for? Does it take your breath away and you feel yourself suffocating? Does the pain weigh out...
    trayomis trayomis 31-35, F Dec 7

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    "I'm not over I'm not over you just yet I cannot hide it you're not that easy to forget I'm not over"
    jax632 jax632 16-17, M 1 Response a week ago

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    i was playing hide and seek with my little sister and it was my turn to hide so i ran up the stairs and tried to go under my bed i started to go under but got completely stuck when...
    sootyandsweepandsoo sootyandsweepandsoo 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 24

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    "Mask" By, me Everyday I try to hide, behind the mask that covers my inside. A smile, a laugh, an I'm okay. Keeps them from seeing the pain I hide away. But sometimes a mask is...
    Spinningoutofcontrol Spinningoutofcontrol 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 4

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    I served in the Corps from 1989 to 1997. I was in the first Gulf War as a rifleman.I earned a Combat Action Ribbon which only means I wasn't so scared I couldn't shoot back. My...
    aub93rn aub93rn 41-45, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    It´s a recent thing... though I like to talk about emotions and thoughts, when it comes to feelings I´ve found out some people would ask and encourage me to talk to them about my...
    Brunette4U Brunette4U 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 25

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    I joined Experience Project because - well for a whole swirling storm of reasons, but the common thread is - I have never really felt able to SHARE what's going on inside me. 1...
    elevating elevating 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 23

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    since I got over my feelings soon ! Well partly .. any way I don't feel like kissing him or something ;) well I realize now how much he likes his wife and how much he seems happy...
    troublemaker18 troublemaker18 18-21, F Dec 8

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    Such as carmenbluee43 who blocked me for pointing out that they are a snivelling , cowardly troll who hides begin the anonymity of their keyboard and makes hatefilled anti Semitic...
    2BlossomBlue 2BlossomBlue 51-55, F 5 Responses Dec 2

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    I do this all the time I always but on a fake smile and when people ask" are you ok?"I say "I'll be fine " because I don't like to bother anyone with my problems when they have...
    Rach1544 Rach1544 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 6

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    to hide my cuts I do them on my right thigh so nobody would see them
    thedeathmist thedeathmist 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 7

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    It's surprising how much a fake smile and a simple 'I'm Fine' can hide.
    MusicSavesMyLife MusicSavesMyLife 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 7

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    It's easier to write about my feelings, but to express them by mouth to someone else is so hard. I dont take much things seriously. I am an easy going person & I get along with...
    Cath947 Cath947 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 23

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    Sometimes I wish that people wouldn't be so insensitive and remember that I am a real person with real feelings just like them. I have feelings just like anyone else and I can...
    abbylicious abbylicious 13-15, F 7 Responses Nov 29

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    Yesterday this girl I liked passed me at the corrider & said “watch where you're going”, which happened to make me very frustrated for the rest of the school part of the day...
    fcnantes fcnantes 13-15, M Dec 2

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    Just because I'm an unfaithful, cheating, selfish person, who can act like a total *****. Just cos I give myself freely to people. It doesn't mean I'm not human or that I don't...
    CheatingTracy CheatingTracy 22-25, F 12 Responses Dec 9

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    Why do I bother with this? All it's going to do is get me hurt. I know it. I just know. It already kind of is. I wish I can just say "I'm done" and actually be done. But I can't...
    MeowOnMe MeowOnMe 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 13

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    I'd really like some advice on this ... I've been in love with this boy(Mickey) for 3 years .. we were best friends for those years and we both had feelings for each other but...
    MinnieMelaMouse MinnieMelaMouse 16-17, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    My feelings change often. This is normal. Being able to see feelings as opportunities is important. I feel a certain way and it teaches me about me.
    tryingagainII tryingagainII 56-60, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    my feelings don't mean nothing, i've made a lot of spontaneous and stupid decisions based on my feelings, i don't trust them anymore,they're delusional.
    antoneli antoneli 18-21, M 16 hrs ago

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    Not really suppose to have feelings for a guy. But It's just he's cute, funny, sarcastic and when I'm around him I can't keep eye contact but I have to stop myself from looking at...
    JohnoCA JohnoCA 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 22

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    I realize now I can't control my feelings - but I can always control my reactions.
    theirthere theirthere 26-30, F Nov 22

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