I Hide My Feelings

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    Power Of The Night

    I hate the darkness and dread the nightWhen my body is stillĀ  and my mind wakensThe thoughts begin, soon followed by the tearsSo alone, so quiet, as what if thoughts consume meI try to push them in to the back of my mindBut they come with such force I cannot silence themAnd how...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Mar 31, 2012

    Mastered Not To Cry

    i never tell anyone how I really feel. I mastered not to cry and hide those tears, like my heart is going to burst for hiding so much pain, grief, sorrow. And even if I want to cry, no tears are coming out.   I want to be strong for my family 'cause we are in the...
    dazzlingeyes dazzlingeyes
    18-21, F
    4 Responses May 14, 2010
    CreateTVT CreateTVT
    26-30
    1 Response Jun 20, 2015

    Ah, the wonderful smile.

    The simplest way to put on that mask, that facade. People don't look at your eyes if your smiling. They just assume there's no deeper feelings.
    loveyourselfalwaysxx loveyourselfalwaysxx
    16-17, F
    2 Responses May 10, 2015

    My Feelings

    I have always hid my feelings my whole life.  I never know how to express myself so I never have.  I had a weird childhood.  I come from a broken family although you probably wouldn't think it because no one in my family ever showed it...
    Crystal0306 Crystal0306
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Apr 28, 2009

    I've been so open, I've shared

    so much, with you guys, and now, with my family and friends. But there is still so much that I can't ever let them know. So many secrets, lies, that would break their hearts even more.
    betruetoyourself14 betruetoyourself14
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 2, 2015

    I wish some people new what I feel on the

    inside, even though I have a smile on my face that doesn't mean I'm happy on the inside..... Wish my family could see how I feel
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response May 8, 2015

    Today I Hide My Feelings - Trying to Stop

    I do - I hide my feelings.  I am not sure when this started, but as I grew older, the worse it became. I have started to acknowledge, accept and feel my feelings -- It's a *****!  I'm having ups and downs .. seems like my downs when speaking...
    MizzBlue72 MizzBlue72
    36-40, F
    4 Responses Nov 15, 2008

    ugh! if there is one trait i dislike about

    myself it would have to be that i hide my feelings!!! i also carelessly dust my problems under the carpet and try to think about something else which, while works in the short-term, is terrible in the long-term. i just dont know how to talk to people when im sad. i feel...
    stellamccarthyy stellamccarthyy
    13-15, F
    1 Response Feb 24

    I hide everything behind a smile cause its safer

    than putting everything out there for people to use to there advantage. Iv seen first hand how someone can take advantage of someone elses issues & I dont plan on that happening to me
    TahirC TahirC
    16-17, F
    Oct 3, 2015

    Everyone tells me to fake it

    until you make it. Well I have been faking it for a few years and this smile I put on every day is still fake. Has this actually worked for anyone or should I just give up?
    CodeyL CodeyL
    22-25, M
    1 Response May 10, 2015

    And End Up Hurt and Sad

    Especially when it really matters,... later on I spend so much energy and time thinking about what I should have or could have said,... maybe it's a learned behaviour,... maybe I want to reach out and communicate on another level,... I'm fascinated with the non-verbal...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 12, 2009

    I Miss Talking to You - I Really Do

    I really miss talking to my friend, just about everyday things.  I write on here, and with this we keep up to date, but I do miss them. So - if you are reading this (which I am sure you aren't) - I come off as cold sometimes and do not allow...
    MizzBlue72 MizzBlue72
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Dec 6, 2008

    Tonight -- Husband Came Home Drunk Again

    I am just indescribable I guess.  My husband and I have had problems for several years. Husband is an alcoholic.  I know this is anonymous - so I am putting this out there. I go to Al-Anon meetings, at least I try to once a week. ...
    MizzBlue72 MizzBlue72
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Nov 15, 2008

    I hide the feelings that show weakness

    but lately that has been getting hard. I am starting to feel sad angry and distant from the one person I truly live to love and missing her is only thw start. but not just that with a pet dieing yes I know a pet it made me cry I didn't tell anyone that when I buried it yes I...
    jamieb1212 jamieb1212
    18-21, M
    1 Response Feb 20

    I'm tired of lying to people about how I'm

    really feeling, but I'm afraid no one would care to know the truth. Or that telling someone won't change a thing.!
    pinkhatesu pinkhatesu
    22-25, F
    1 Response May 26, 2014

    Veil

    I wear a veil that hides my true emotions. I do it so well that I forget about them until they resurface and slap me in the face with reality.
    Pembz19 Pembz19
    22-25, F
    Sep 10, 2013

    I would evade the questions,

    find excuses, lies. - Where'd you get that bruise from? - Oh just playing sports.. - What's wrong? You seem sad. - Nothing. Just haven't done my homework and don't want detention. - Why do you flinch when someone moves or touches you? - I was just surprised, that's all These...
    betruetoyourself14 betruetoyourself14
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 1, 2015

    I Am Numb

    I`m not quite sure how it happens but after leaving the service over time vets that experience PTSD become numb and have a very hard time with trust, love, caring and exoressing their feelings. I don`t know if it is hiding my feelings it is just that inside I feel cold and I have...
    Pmacphoto Pmacphoto
    70+, M
    May 26, 2012

    I could be wrong but I think

    that showing your true feelings is a sign of weakness and people can hurt you more easily.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Jun 20, 2015

    Psychology says, the longer you hide your

    feelings for someone, the harder you fall for that individual.
    iamsal iamsal
    13-15, F
    Mar 20

    More and more often I want to delete my

    accounts from everywhere, alsolutely. Here, from FB, VK, mail.ru to leave no trace of myself in the Net. Because my life is so miserable now that I want nobody to stalk me nowhere, as if I don't exist at all. Love has ruined all my feelings towards women and turned me into a...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Feb 5

    I'm afraid to like. I'm afraid to love.

    I'm a complicated person and I can get attached. I don't like the feeling that you'll be here one minute but may be gone the next. Let's just stay friends.
    kllyklls kllyklls
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jan 31

    Never

    Never wll I hide my feelings or anythig else.  I am drumnk.  What the hell,  I am drunk as  hell.  I dont any of your who are not drunk.  To eacjh his own.  I can not hide my feeligngs because they are out there for all tro see.  What...
    levin60kitty levin60kitty
    61-65
    3 Responses Nov 16, 2008

    Absolutely This....

    I am known as the happy, smiley girl at work but that's so far from the truth. I HAVE to be this way as I work with kids and I also don't want others knowing how I truly feel as I don't trust them. I don't trust them enough to let them in. I feel I have so many secrets and pain...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jun 9, 2011

    When I look at the people around me I often

    wonder if they're hiding as much as I am
    Embella Embella
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jun 20, 2015

    i can and will.. only 3 ways you can tell my

    feelings and you actually have to notice. my feelings are always shown but also very hidden.. i am a contradiction, an oxy-moron if that makes sense. i cant lie whether in person or online..i just cant and seems like lots of work..all that remembering.. most time i hide them...
    moongoddess35 moongoddess35
    31-35, F
    Jan 30

    Hi

    i wish i could tell how i feel but now i cant a few years ago i always blabbed about everything that bothered me which wasnt always great and caused drama now i dont tell my feelings to anyone even when i try to i cant say it when im face to face nomore and idk howto fix it! i...
    chel0820 chel0820
    18-21, F
    Sep 26, 2009

    well in this ugly world hiding my stuff is all

    what i can do. when i share my feelings with him he has problem for him i'm weird then, when i share stuff with my parents they think i'm immature or i can't handle my things, lastly my dear friends is all i have well they can only lend a ear and then gossip at my back...so...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Feb 20

    They Aren't For Sale!

    So therefore they aren't on display!
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Feb 27, 2011

    I am going to start to act like a robot

    for the rest of my life. Doing whatever someone says.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Mar 7

    they're safer on inside

    than out there in the wild
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jun 29, 2015
    iamsal iamsal
    13-15, F
    1 Response Jan 29

    Dying Inside

    Every day I feel as if a little part of me dies. The darkness seems to close in on my life, and I have started cutting my skin to make sure that I can still feel. I put on a facade during the school day, but during the night I cry and feel as if something is tearing me apart...
    thatsadgirl thatsadgirl
    13-15, F
    1 Response Feb 14, 2011

    I hate when something is bothering you & you

    just don't know what it is.
    deziee deziee
    18-21, F
    May 11, 2014

    Don't Want People to Worry

    I know people who openly express how they are feeling to everyone and they constantly get attention. As much as I wish I'd get attention like that sometimes, most of the time I'm glad that I don't. The problem is that people don't leave you alone if you are constantly...
    BleedingMascara BleedingMascara
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 15, 2008

    From Myself

    I can hide how i'm feeling from others easily, but the problem is i also i hide my feelings from myself. It's really weired, it's like i block most of them out until someone says something that kinda brings down the block i guess. If i'm thinking a lot, that also brings it down...
    geminixleo geminixleo
    18-21, F
    Jun 3, 2011

    Bottled Up

    I always just bottle up my emotions. I still do but my friend has gotten me to open up some. I seem to just cry all the time now when I get home from school. I rarely used to cry honestly. I don't hide my feelings here or I try not to but its not easy...
    kthimm1 kthimm1
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Mar 14, 2009

    Specially...

      ...when I am sad, dying inside, I do not want to bother other people with my problems.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    10 Responses Apr 9, 2008
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