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I Hide My Pain By Smiling

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    I used to cry all the time in elementary .

    And it was really embarrassing some people hated me for it. Evenually i learned to (for some reAson) not only not cry in front of others but to pretend that everything that happened to me , every insult every mean nickname anything that would make anyone else upset I pretend it...
    eacope9609 eacope9609 16-17, M Mar 7

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    Often

    Sometimes it's just easier to put on that smile. To just keep the illusion up. Why spread this sadness that I feel around?
    Oso41412 Oso41412 41-45, F 1 Response Oct 26, 2012

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    Pain Can change you Can break you Can kill

    you Can shame you Something we don't ask for But comes before every success And never fully leaves
    Freeyourself3 Freeyourself3 18-21, F Jun 24

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    I Just Don't Want Anyone To Worry About Me

    I never want to talk about my inner problems because i don't think i should burden anyone with them. So i just wear a smile everytime i see everyone to pretend like everything is fine. Talking about what really troubles me takes a long time but wearing a smile is a lot easier...
    ImperfectionsMakeUsUnique ImperfectionsMakeUsUnique 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 22, 2012

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    Faking It ..

    I cant recall the last time I've truly been happy . I have this smile painted on my face daily , faking like I'm happy . But the truth is , I'm very unhappy and haven't been happy in a long time .
    dannylove dannylove 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 15, 2013

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    :D Smile D:

    "Say cheese" No one sees you past that. Just look happy, just look pretty. No one really cares. You can be dieing for all they care. And that whats happening. I am dieing slowly but surly. I dont care that they dont care but I would like someone to see behind my smile. I could...
    Geinger Geinger 16-17, F Nov 26, 2011

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    A Glass Rose

    A shattered vase in the midst of rose petals. What do I do? I’m screaming in a room filled with people but no one even flinches to look at me. Can you hear my battle cry? Can you hear the beginning of the fight; the drums drumming, the war cry of my people, the passion fueled...
    PeelingPaint PeelingPaint 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 17, 2013

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    I love helping people

    but I feel like I bother others when I want or need help so I just hide it and have breakdowns at least once a week alone
    justsmiles justsmiles 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 10

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    fea00karlaa fea00karlaa 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 22

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    Sometimes........

    .....It hurts so bad to smile when on the inside I am breaking and shattering like a china dish. I wish there was some one in my life who really understood how I feel. People will tell you they do understand but sometimes I wonder if they actually do. Especially when in the same...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jan 3, 2013

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    lovechristina lovechristina 16-17, F Jun 20

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    I Want To Be Honest To Myself And Others

    For some odd reason i always hide my pain by smiling, fisicall or emotional . Its like im afraid of something but don't know what mabey its the fact that im actully weak so i act strong. if im sad upset or sick i still smile like no tomorow . I have always semm like the stong...
    twiligth2013 twiligth2013 16-17, F 5 Responses May 12, 2012

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    I am a simple girl with a thousand feelings

    who hides behind a fake smile
    crystallyne crystallyne 31-35, F 3 Responses Mar 9

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    I honestly can't stand

    when people pity me or feel bad for me so whenever something bad happens in my life I don't tell anyone and I just smile and keep going. Only my closest friends actually know what's going on.
    horsecrazy3 horsecrazy3 18-21, F Apr 6

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    Smile And The World Smiles With You

    "Smile and the world smiles with you ,cry and you cry alone" .I very much believe this so I smile alot".A smile is a thousand words ".I hide my pain behind that smile as I dont want sympathy .A simple smile not only makes someone elses day If I get a smile back or even a good...
    beastman111 beastman111 46-50, M 1 Response Jun 26, 2011

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    I have one friend whom I know

    for the past 6 months. We clicked and get close pretty fast, hanging out and talking like a close friend. She personally had one bestfriend whom she knew for more than 4 years, which I respect their bestfriend relationship on the first place and I know no one can replace her...
    anonymousme517 anonymousme517 18-21, F Jan 26

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    fea00karlaa fea00karlaa 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 3

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    Everyone thinks that im

    such a happy person...that I have it all together They say I look innocent and sweet. Strong But I'm not smh My smile is my mask and I put it on everyday of my life to hide all the hurt;all the pain I feel inside
    Tiffany199221 Tiffany199221 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 8

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    Ever since this girl first walked into our

    school for the first time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, and I know I probably wasn't the only one gazing at her beauty. Through my mind I was thinking "you know what, I'm gonna try to talk to her, I need to man up, I need to know how to talk to a girl and here's my first...
    elugo123456789 elugo123456789 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 6

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    gamergirl16 gamergirl16 13-15, F Apr 19

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    During 7th grade I always did that.

    I got hurt a lot during 7th grade. Trust me, it isn't fun. So many of my friends changed. I was friends with everyone in my class. I ended up hanging out with 4, then 3, then 2 :/ One decided to judge me and my friends by our clothing, the other decided to get in on all of our...
    innocentflower innocentflower 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 24

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    Smile so nobody know I got a F

    Sitting in my desk n teacher hands out graded essay homework I spend 4 hours on. My heart beat fast n im super nervous my hands skakeing bad my anxiety getting worst. Then my paper land on my desk. I look round ppl have different looks some confuse some mad dome just smile. I...
    AquilaAqua AquilaAqua 13-15, M 1 Response Feb 28, 2013

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    Always Done It, Its Just Me I Guess

    well sure i have always smiled to hide the pain away, its like a reflex. every time something bad happens, BAMa smile. But another thing is i want to help my friends, i don't want to think about my life, my problems, my fears.when i help others i stop thinking about my life which...
    UmbraEyes UmbraEyes 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 3, 2011

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    The Masks We Wear

           When the kids make fun of you, learn to laugh with them. That's what I was told over and over again.  I retreated into myself more and more, leaving all the hurt behind a wavering smile with tears wanting to escape from my eyes.  All though school it never stopped...
    JinnieH JinnieH 61-65, F 1 Response Aug 11, 2011

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    My friend just passed away 2 months ago He

    was shot 4 times It hurt so much to thing he was goon The worst part is my mom didn't even let me go to his car ways or funeral ... & I just think about him all the time but I know he's in a better place
    fea00karlaa fea00karlaa 13-15, F Jan 11

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    When all else fail,just smile

    and let them wonder why :)
    becks7ven becks7ven 18-21, M Feb 15

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    fea00karlaa fea00karlaa 13-15, F Dec 27, 2013

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    Nobody knows how much your actions affected me.

    They only see what I allow them to see, nobody truly knows the real me. I'm a sad human being just trying to break free and erase the scars you left on my heart! It's just to hard fighting alone, sometimes I want to die.. I'm slowly giving up inside 💔 Ps: I wrote the poem in...
    kelsey9317 kelsey9317 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 6

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    If You Really Knew My Past

    I wear a mask, a mask that covers the truth about my past and people. A smile that laughs at every joke aimed at me to show I don't care, A smile that smiles at everyone to show I don't care Any more. I fight back tears and try to keep that glint in my eye, I don't want people...
    NeverLetThemWin NeverLetThemWin 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 20, 2012

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    lovechristina lovechristina 16-17, F Jun 19

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    I never let people know i'm sad.

    I cover it by being a goof and a smart@ss. I feel as if i annoy people by being silly and weird, but i'm only that way because i'm lonely. But i know that if i tell people that i'm sad, or act sad, i'll just annoy people even more. People don't like problems like that. I'll...
    thedifferent thedifferent 22-25, M 2 Responses Feb 10

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    It seems so much better

    for everyone. They don't worry because I seem normal :)
    CaptainBenza CaptainBenza 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 10

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    I Just Can't Handel It All

    For some odd reason i always hide my pain by smiling, fisicall or emotional . Its like im afraid of something but don't know what mabey its the fact that im actully weak so i act strong. if im sad upset or sick i still smile like no tomorow . I have always semm like the stong...
    IamME2012 IamME2012 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 26, 2012

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    That's the thing about pain.

    .. It demands to be felt
    CriminalMinds14 CriminalMinds14 18-21, F Jun 16

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    I feel so heartbroken

    and scared and depressed . It's been 6 months and ever since I tested for HIV (it was negative) but that has me so paranoid now. I'm constantly worried and living as if something is wrong. My bf broke up with me and my mom has breast cancer, I'm tired from working and then I...
    fearfultofearless fearfultofearless 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    It's so funny though.

    Probably NO ONE knows I'm so anxious and depressed. Sure, you sometimes nag to your friends about a few things that bother you, but they never take you seriously. They'll never know what's really going on in your head . They really don't know how much self-hatred I deal with and...
    Realitea Realitea 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 9

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    I Do It All The Time

    At times when I am aching the most in the inside and I see other people wether it be family, friends or strangers I don't want them to see my feelings.. meaning I don't want them to see how much pain I am in so I do I hide behind a smile. and then just go somewhere where I can be...
    sakura9 sakura9 18-21 4 Responses Oct 18, 2012

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    Smiles can be so fake sometimes.

    Is not hard to tell if your hiding pain or not. When u look deep into someone's eye u can see their pain. And the best way to help is always a hug,a cup of coffee, and u
    shiningstar32 shiningstar32 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 4

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    Yes I Do

    I hide the pain that I feel by smiling . The pain of my past , present and this is all physical and emotional and just being too hard on my self. I smile so no one thinks that there is something wrong, and so we can all go on pretending that everything is okay. However sometimes...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 25, 2012

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    My Fake Smile

    I  smile  infront of my relatives and my family just to pretend everything is ok which is not reality. My soul is dead inside. But  I didn't finish my ***** body because I need this body  to pretend everything is all right......sigh.........
    richa12345678 richa12345678 22-25, F 12 Responses May 8, 2011

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    The day went by like a flash till about 1:40

    when playful banter and silly comments brought back the pain I've been trying to hide but instead of stoping them from saying it I smiled and got back to work.
    shadow721 shadow721 18-21, M Dec 13, 2013

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    I really want to die

    so bad! But just don't know how to do it
    BrokenArrow25 BrokenArrow25 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 13

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    I am the happy-go-lucky girl

    that is always going out of her way for other people and loves to make someone smile or laugh. I am also the girl who self harms, and cries herself to sleep. I am the person you would least likely expect to cut themselves or cry themselves to sleep, but the happiest ones are...
    WarriorWannabe WarriorWannabe 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 6

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    I'm the type of girl

    who always smiles even when I'm hurting... And the one that could brighten up your day even if I can't brighten up my own.
    kittysaurus kittysaurus 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 3

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    fea00karlaa fea00karlaa 13-15, F Dec 30, 2013

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    People often say to me 'you always seem

    so happy, are you ever sad' Of course i am, i'm a person, i have emotions and feelings. Its hiding them that's the good part, it has bad sides, like the fact that i can't trust hardly anybody and don't want them to know everything about me. I use it as a defence mechanism. To me...
    Ryanholmes20375 Ryanholmes20375 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 6

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