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I Hide My Pain By Smiling

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    A Poem By My Bestfriend - My smile is my bushel basket My tears the flame I hide them under the basket When all the sudden psi is too much The dam breaks Before I can save anyone...
    TrappedAbs TrappedAbs 18-21, F Mar 26, 2013

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    I Just Don't Want Anyone To Worry About Me - I never want to talk about my inner problems because i don't think i should burden anyone with them. So i just wear a smile everytime i...
    ImperfectionsMakeUsUnique ImperfectionsMakeUsUnique 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 22, 2012

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    I Hide My Pain -     I don't know why I hide my pain. Some how I have become good at it. I don't like people to ask me how I'm doing. For i know that there is...
    acjf acjf 22-25, F Sep 1, 2010

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    My friend just passed away 2 months ago He was shot 4 times It hurt so much to thing he was goon The worst part is my mom didn't even let me go to his car ways or funeral...
    fea00karlaa fea00karlaa 13-15, F Jan 11

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    Confused - For a while I feel like I've been sinking. This just feels like the last straw. It's about a boy I have really liked for years now. My friend encouraged me to start up a...
    FateFellShort FateFellShort 16-17, F 3 Responses May 18, 2011

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    Nobody knows how much your actions affected me. They only see what I allow them to see, nobody truly knows the real me. I'm a sad human being just trying to break free and erase...
    kelsey9317 kelsey9317 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 6

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    I'm the type of girl who always smiles even when I'm hurting... And the one that could brighten up your day even if I can't brighten up my own.
    kittysaurus kittysaurus 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 3

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    I Wally dislike when my mom compares me to my cousin or my friends .-.
    fea00karlaa fea00karlaa 13-15, F Dec 30, 2013

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    It's so funny though. Probably NO ONE knows I'm so anxious and depressed. Sure, you sometimes nag to your friends about a few things that bother you, but they never take you...
    Realitea Realitea 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 9

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    Faking It .. - I cant recall the last time I've truly been happy . I have this smile painted on my face daily , faking like I'm happy . But the truth is , I'm very unhappy and...
    dannylove dannylove 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 15, 2013

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    I Do It All The Time - At times when I am aching the most in the inside and I see other people wether it be family, friends or strangers I don't want them to see my feelings...
    sakura9 sakura9 18-21 4 Responses Oct 18, 2012

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    I never let people know i'm sad. I cover it by being a goof and a smart@ss. I feel as if i annoy people by being silly and weird, but i'm only that way because i'm lonely. But i...
    thedifferent thedifferent 22-25, M 2 Responses Feb 10

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    Rotting - aren't my outsides pretty? look how much i'm smiling.. yet i feel like i'm rotting..i am EXTREAMLY angry, EXTREAMLY upset...you think i really trust you? how the...
    bloodredhanded bloodredhanded 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 1, 2013

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    When all else fail,just smile and let them wonder why :)
    becks7ven becks7ven 18-21, M Feb 15

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    People often say to me 'you always seem so happy, are you ever sad' Of course i am, i'm a person, i have emotions and feelings. Its hiding them that's the good part, it has bad...
    Ryanholmes20375 Ryanholmes20375 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 6

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    I Just Can't Handel It All - For some odd reason i always hide my pain by smiling, fisicall or emotional . Its like im afraid of something but don't know what mabey its the fact...
    IamME2012 IamME2012 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 26, 2012

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    The Masks We Wear -        When the kids make fun of you, learn to laugh with them. That's what I was told over and over again.  I retreated into myself more and more...
    JinnieH JinnieH 61-65, F 1 Response Aug 11, 2011

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    Why? - Sometimes I ask myself how I'm still alive,how come I could still take all this pain and still be alive.
    2gaytofuction 2gaytofuction 18-21, F Oct 11, 2013

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    The day went by like a flash till about 1:40 when playful banter and silly comments brought back the pain I've been trying to hide but instead of stoping them from saying it I...
    shadow721 shadow721 18-21, M Dec 13, 2013

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    I really want to die so bad! But just don't know how to do it
    BrokenArrow25 BrokenArrow25 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 13

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    Parents just don't understand "This generation is messed up"
    fea00karlaa fea00karlaa 13-15, F Dec 27, 2013

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    Every Day - i hide the pain of myself by smiling . the pain of my past , present and this is all physical and emotional and just being too hard on my self.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jun 2, 2010

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    Always Done It, Its Just Me I Guess - well sure i have always smiled to hide the pain away, its like a reflex. every time something bad happens, BAMa smile. But another thing is i...
    UmbraEyes UmbraEyes 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 3, 2011

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    Friend, Foe, Or Other? - *Sigh* Dear Lord where do I even begin?...My Ex boyfriend and I have been broken up for almost a year. And throughout that we have tried to be friends and...
    TrappedAbs TrappedAbs 18-21, F Mar 11, 2013

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    Often - Sometimes it's just easier to put on that smile. To just keep the illusion up. Why spread this sadness that I feel around?
    Oso41412 Oso41412 41-45, F 1 Response Oct 26, 2012

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    I used to cry all the time in elementary . And it was really embarrassing some people hated me for it. Evenually i learned to (for some reAson) not only not cry in front of others...
    eacope9609 eacope9609 16-17, M Mar 7

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    I Hate This Effing Disease - Just had a wonderful night w a wonderful person. I had to leave early cause my stomachs hurt so bad. I got home and automatically took my nausea...
    amandaleighhh13 amandaleighhh13 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    I honestly can't stand when people pity me or feel bad for me so whenever something bad happens in my life I don't tell anyone and I just smile and keep going. Only my closest...
    horsecrazy3 horsecrazy3 13-15, F Apr 6

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    It's A Defense Mechanism -  Whenever i feel pain and start feeling like crying, i tend to smile and laugh a bit while tears starts to fall down on my cheeks. That's why i'm...
    torns08 torns08 26-30 1 Response Jun 3, 2010

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    Smiling But Hurting - You see the girl, sitting there smiling She has her friends, they're all laughing You're jealous, you look on with vain But little do you know, her world is...
    TrappedAbs TrappedAbs 18-21, F Feb 28, 2013

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    If They Only Knew - the real me and how much pain i go thou everyday of my life i joke with people to try to make then feel good and i am sometimes misable
    wotaloser wotaloser 36-40, M 4 Responses Jul 14, 2011

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    I'm insecure... I hate it ;/
    fea00karlaa fea00karlaa 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 3

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    If You Really Knew My Past - I wear a mask, a mask that covers the truth about my past and people. A smile that laughs at every joke aimed at me to show I don't care, A smile that...
    NeverLetThemWin NeverLetThemWin 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 20, 2012

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    When I Am Asked Are You Ok - when iam asked are you ok ? even when someone hurts my feeling i just smile and say yes  iam fine even when iam not deep down
    lunnas lunnas 41-45, F 1 Response Jun 2, 2010

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    The Strong One.. - "You're strong, Crystal, you never let anything bring you down" Aha.. I'll never forget those words. That's obviously what every body thinks when I don't care...
    GlassGirl01 GlassGirl01 16-17, F Aug 15, 2013

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    My Fake Smile - I  smile  infront of my relatives and my family just to pretend everything is ok which is not reality. My soul is dead inside. But  I didn't finish my ***** body...
    richa12345678 richa12345678 22-25, F 12 Responses May 8, 2011

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    I have one friend whom I know for the past 6 months. We clicked and get close pretty fast, hanging out and talking like a close friend. She personally had one bestfriend whom she...
    anonymousme517 anonymousme517 18-21, F Jan 26

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    :D Smile D: - "Say cheese" No one sees you past that. Just look happy, just look pretty. No one really cares. You can be dieing for all they care. And that whats happening. I am...
    Geinger Geinger 16-17, F Nov 26, 2011

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    I Want To Be Honest To Myself And Others - For some odd reason i always hide my pain by smiling, fisicall or emotional . Its like im afraid of something but don't know what mabey...
    twiligth2013 twiligth2013 16-17, F 5 Responses May 12, 2012

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    Never Been So Unhappy - I can't even remember the last time I actually smiled because I felt happy all I do now is put on a fake smile so everyone around me thinks I'm okay. I...
    amychrisinee amychrisinee 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 1, 2013

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    Sometimes........ - .....It hurts so bad to smile when on the inside I am breaking and shattering like a china dish. I wish there was some one in my life who really understood how...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 3, 2013

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    Ever since this girl first walked into our school for the first time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, and I know I probably wasn't the only one gazing at her beauty. Through my...
    elugo123456789 elugo123456789 18-21, M Apr 6

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    I am a simple girl with a thousand feelings who hides behind a fake smile
    crystallyne crystallyne 31-35, F 3 Responses Mar 9

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    I am the happy-go-lucky girl that is always going out of her way for other people and loves to make someone smile or laugh. I am also the girl who self harms, and cries herself to...
    WarriorWannabe WarriorWannabe 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 6

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    A Glass Rose - A shattered vase in the midst of rose petals. What do I do? I’m screaming in a room filled with people but no one even flinches to look at me. Can you hear my...
    PeelingPaint PeelingPaint 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 17, 2013

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    Smile so nobody know I got a F - Sitting in my desk n teacher hands out graded essay homework I spend 4 hours on. My heart beat fast n im super nervous my hands skakeing bad my...
    AquilaAqua AquilaAqua 13-15, M 1 Response Feb 28, 2013

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    I Hide My Pain By Smiling But The Smile.... - is slowly dying... I don't know if this is even the right group. I have read a few and it seems like more of you'll are just hiding...
    rarasnake rarasnake 26-30, F Aug 2, 2011

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    I feel so heartbroken and scared and depressed . It's been 6 months and ever since I tested for HIV (it was negative) but that has me so paranoid now. I'm constantly worried and...
    fearfultofearless fearfultofearless 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 6

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