I Hide My Pain By Smiling

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    I thought I didn't need this app

    for support so I made my "last post" a few weeks ago! Man I was wrong! Where do I start! The sadness is always here, I'm always paranoid, I won't let myself trust anyone! I finally got a girlfriend and I'm struggling with getting the motivation to even try to make a relationship...
    sm1ttay sm1ttay
    18-21, M
    1 Response Feb 12, 2015


    .....It hurts so bad to smile when on the inside I am breaking and shattering like a china dish. I wish there was some one in my life who really understood how I feel. People will tell you they do understand but sometimes I wonder if they actually do. Especially when in the same...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Jan 3, 2013

    A few weeks ago I realized I was great at

    hiding my pain. Despite being a mess, I managed to convince people that nothing ever tore me apart, that I enjoyed life...the truth is, they'll never know my fight with blades, substance abuse and suicidal ideation. I told my friend something about having a psychologist, and...
    driftingalone driftingalone
    18-21, F
    Dec 7, 2015

    I never let people know i'm sad.

    I cover it by being a goof and a smart@ss. I feel as if i annoy people by being silly and weird, but i'm only that way because i'm lonely. But i know that if i tell people that i'm sad, or act sad, i'll just annoy people even more. People don't like problems like that. I'll...
    thedifferent thedifferent
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Feb 10, 2014

    Lately I've been feeling like a complete

    failure... I know I'm going to **** off a lot of people by saying this... But I just have to let it out. I can't smile through this anymore. I'm a cancer patient. I'm still in treatment but things are looking up. Yet I feel like just breaking down and dying. There is so much in...
    Ajeric Ajeric
    22-25, M
    Sep 3, 2015

    Pain Can change you Can break you Can kill

    you Can shame you Something we don't ask for But comes before every success And never fully leaves
    Freeyourself3 Freeyourself3
    22-25, F
    Jun 24, 2014

    I was always told to smile with my teeth

    and I just hate my smile regardless because this is what it looks like when I do.
    kelsey0616 kelsey0616
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 23, 2014
    fea00karlaa fea00karlaa
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 22, 2014

    I'm not perfect and all

    but I do know this we all can make it through tuff times u just have to believe in yourself keep your head high and never look down unless u need to but that's not the point the point is u need to know that it's what's in the inside not the outside so try not to think about what...
    lildragon123 lildragon123
    16-17, F
    Jun 15, 2015

    It's A Defense Mechanism

     Whenever i feel pain and start feeling like crying, i tend to smile and laugh a bit while tears starts to fall down on my cheeks. That's why i'm calling it a defense mechanism. Each and everyone of us has our own way of hiding our true feelings. And i must say that each...
    torns08 torns08
    36-40, F
    1 Response Jun 3, 2010

    when people look at me ,

    i look like the happiest person on earth but ive learned how to hide my pain so much that nobody knows when im upset anymore. i feel as if i dont matter to much people. i wish someone cared to ask.
    paulinaleonardo paulinaleonardo
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 29, 2015

    It seems so much better

    for everyone. They don't worry because I seem normal :)
    CaptainBenza CaptainBenza
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Jun 10, 2014

    yup i hide my pain by smiling all the time.

    i knoe im a fake but hey that's just me.
    treasure91 treasure91
    22-25, F
    Mar 7, 2016

    I hide all my pain by smiling physically not

    everyone can see all the pain that is behind my eyes.... All they see is a person smiling back at them.... Nobody knows how i feel... All the pain i stifle down within me its unbearable to comprehend by others.... People don't understand how much they can hurt people by what...
    CoolRockerChic CoolRockerChic
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 19, 2015

    It's so funny though.

    Probably NO ONE knows I'm so anxious and depressed. Sure, you sometimes nag to your friends about a few things that bother you, but they never take you seriously. They'll never know what's really going on in your head . They really don't know how much self-hatred I deal with and...
    Realitea Realitea
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 9, 2014

    I love helping people

    but I feel like I bother others when I want or need help so I just hide it and have breakdowns at least once a week alone
    justsmiles justsmiles
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jun 10, 2014

    I Want To Be Honest To Myself And Others

    For some odd reason i always hide my pain by smiling, fisicall or emotional . Its like im afraid of something but don't know what mabey its the fact that im actully weak so i act strong. if im sad upset or sick i still smile like no tomorow . I have always semm like the stong...
    twiligth2013 twiligth2013
    18-21, F
    4 Responses May 12, 2012

    I put my sadness inside a glass box.

    I turn the key and hope that it locks. I appear so happy while it's inside, No one can see the sadness I hide. I draw people to me as long as I smile, I give them attention and laugh awhile. But if the box opens and I turn gray, The friends that I need all turn away.
    TallaLily TallaLily
    56-60, F
    2 Responses Dec 13, 2015

    I Just Don't Want Anyone To Worry About Me

    I never want to talk about my inner problems because i don't think i should burden anyone with them. So i just wear a smile everytime i see everyone to pretend like everything is fine. Talking about what really troubles me takes a long time but wearing a smile is a lot easier...
    ImperfectionsMakeUsUnique ImperfectionsMakeUsUnique
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 22, 2012

    :D Smile D:

    "Say cheese" No one sees you past that. Just look happy, just look pretty. No one really cares. You can be dieing for all they care. And that whats happening. I am dieing slowly but surly. I dont care that they dont care but I would like someone to see behind my smile. I could...
    Geinger Geinger
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 26, 2011

    Smile And The World Smiles With You

    "Smile and the world smiles with you ,cry and you cry alone" .I very much believe this so I smile alot".A smile is a thousand words ".I hide my pain behind that smile as I dont want sympathy .A simple smile not only makes someone elses day If I get a smile back or even a good...
    beastman111 beastman111
    46-50, M
    Jun 26, 2011

    I Just Can't Handel It All

    For some odd reason i always hide my pain by smiling, fisicall or emotional . Its like im afraid of something but don't know what mabey its the fact that im actully weak so i act strong. if im sad upset or sick i still smile like no tomorow . I have always semm like the stong...
    IamME2012 IamME2012
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Aug 26, 2012
    MJIzReal MJIzReal
    18-21, M
    Dec 31, 2014

    That's the thing about pain.

    .. It demands to be felt
    CriminalMinds14 CriminalMinds14
    22-25, F
    Jun 16, 2014

    The Other Day.

    The other day I was very suicidal. But my friend came over despite my complaints that I was "sick". She convinced me to take a walk with her, so I did. While we were walking and making conversation she missunderstood something I said with "I just want to die" She looked at me...
    hippiegirlxox hippiegirlxox
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Nov 1, 2012

    If You Really Knew My Past

    I wear a mask, a mask that covers the truth about my past and people. A smile that laughs at every joke aimed at me to show I don't care, A smile that smiles at everyone to show I don't care Any more. I fight back tears and try to keep that glint in my eye, I don't want people...
    NeverLetThemWin NeverLetThemWin
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Aug 20, 2012

    You see that girl who smiles

    so bright No one knows it fades late at night Cries filling her immortal soul;tourcheress shadows taking control She grabs the blade to ease her pain Flesh burning blood running down her legs Screaming from within,head spinning,heart racing..it's happening again Darkness...
    Tiffany199221 Tiffany199221
    22-25, F
    Jun 22, 2015

    Always Done It, Its Just Me I Guess

    well sure i have always smiled to hide the pain away, its like a reflex. every time something bad happens, BAMa smile. But another thing is i want to help my friends, i don't want to think about my life, my problems, my fears.when i help others i stop thinking about my life which...
    UmbraEyes UmbraEyes
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Dec 3, 2011

    Physical pain is extremely hard,

    but emotional pain is the most excruciating pain you could ever bare. I wouldn't wish it on anyone. but it kills and it kills slowly. sometimes you think it would kill you in your sleep. but it doesn't, it hovers over you like a force of darkness. breaking down every thing you...
    Jippyjane Jippyjane
    22-25, F
    Oct 13, 2015
    Harper101 Harper101
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 18, 2015

    The Masks We Wear

           When the kids make fun of you, learn to laugh with them. That's what I was told over and over again.  I retreated into myself more and more, leaving all the hurt behind a wavering smile with tears wanting to escape from my eyes.  All though school it never stopped...
    JinnieH JinnieH
    61-65, F
    1 Response Aug 11, 2011

    I Do It All The Time

    At times when I am aching the most in the inside and I see other people wether it be family, friends or strangers I don't want them to see my feelings.. meaning I don't want them to see how much pain I am in so I do I hide behind a smile. and then just go somewhere where I can be...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Oct 18, 2012

    today I found out that I have to have surgery,

    my husband said "you need to find out the exact day and time so I know when i need to DROP YOU OFF".......really?
    lobosluv lobosluv
    41-45, F
    11 Responses Oct 14, 2015

    "Mask" By, me Everyday I try to hide,

    behind the mask that covers my inside. A smile, a laugh, an I'm okay. Keeps them from seeing the pain I hide away. But sometimes a mask is too small. It starts to slip, it starts to fall. And then they start to see. The darkness inside of me. They frown, they turn, they say...
    Spinningoutofcontrol Spinningoutofcontrol
    22-25, F
    1 Response Dec 4, 2014
    3mro16 3mro16
    22-25, M
    Aug 15, 2014
    lovechristina lovechristina
    18-21, F
    Jun 19, 2014

    I am a simple girl with a thousand feelings

    who hides behind a fake smile
    crystallyne crystallyne
    31-35, F
    1 Response Mar 9, 2014
    lovechristina lovechristina
    18-21, F
    Jun 20, 2014

    I have a very high pain tolerance

    but when I start to really feel pain is never I don't show pain unless it's like a head ack or something pain doe go away really fast I do have. A rep in 8th grade I am the heavy weight I don't back to people pain is gone in about 2 min but it the se place is hi multiple times...
    Erentitan Erentitan
    18-21, M
    Oct 12, 2014
    sasuke2121 sasuke2121
    22-25, F
    Nov 30, 2015

    I have had a lot of friends through out the

    years. From school. From work. But none of them have seen the trouble and pain I bear everyday. From the start of a broken marriage to raising my kids, I have never let them see my pain. They actually see me as a happy go lucky kinda guy. I was shocked 1 day when a new friend...
    AKent0107 AKent0107
    36-40, M
    Jan 31, 2016

    Because sometimes its easier to ignore to

    forget to pretend that your not in pain and sadly People dont really want to be bothered by what your going thru.
    minimeme minimeme
    26-30, F
    2 Responses May 3, 2015

    Smiles can be so fake sometimes.

    Is not hard to tell if your hiding pain or not. When u look deep into someone's eye u can see their pain. And the best way to help is always a hug,a cup of coffee, and u
    shiningstar32 shiningstar32
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jun 4, 2014

    Everyone thinks that im

    such a happy person...that I have it all together They say I look innocent and sweet. Strong But I'm not smh My smile is my mask and I put it on everyday of my life to hide all the hurt;all the pain I feel inside
    Tiffany199221 Tiffany199221
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 8, 2014

    A smile can only hold

    so much I've been through hell and back more than probably anyone
    photographyismylife photographyismylife
    16-17, F
    May 23, 2015
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