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I Hide My Pain

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    Days I'm So Tired

    I am superwoman. Isn't that ridiculous? I wish sometime I had someone I could could just go to, curl up on their shoulder for a little while and cry. And not have to explain, in detail, why. I have a cousin with cancer, that scares the hell out of me, and it hurts so deep i can...
    Tzech Tzech 46-50, F 4 Responses Nov 4, 2008

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    I Am a Pro...........

    If they handed out awards for the best performance, I would receive the OSCAR! I am very good at hiding my pain. Especially from my family. They have so much on their plates, that I never bother trying to get them to help me with mine. I've spent years doing what I have to do for...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Apr 18, 2009

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    It's Better That Way

    Let people see they have hurt you and they will do it again.
    BeteNoire BeteNoire 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 2, 2010

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    Hidden Beneath The Skin

    ive realised that if by chance you show your pain, people see you as vulnerable, weak and seeking attention which is usually the complete oppisite to how we feel. i hide my pain in my paintings, they seem happy, but in actual fact, they each have a secret message hidden inside...
    boeboeQ boeboeQ 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 30, 2011

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    All of It.

    Both emotional and physical - it makes no difference.  I don't see the use of letting something so awful shine through for everyone else to witness. Funny how pain, is such a private and personal thing.
    rockyj rockyj 31-35, F 3 Responses Mar 5, 2009

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    Ugh..the Small Things

    The house I live in from top to bottom is a total mess trash in the living room, trash in the kitchen and bathrooms and mine and my brothers room I cant do it alone but I would be willing to clean only that cleaning just a small part of the house like the living room will be...
    skyrain skyrain 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 11, 2011

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    Some days I do. :/ No one seems to notice. Some of my family members were surprised when they found out I suffer from depression. "You always seem so happy," they'll say. (Maybe I...
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    I hide my depression cause I'm afraid to live my life without being judged
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    lifesize lifesize 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 15

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    Sunrise13 Sunrise13 31-35, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    My battle with chronic pain goes back 18 years to my first attack of acute hemorrhaging pancreatitis - a disease caused in my case by gall stones that blocked my pancreatic duct...
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    Ronnie Raevsky was an zealous admirer and his sister used to be amazed at seeing his attention to detail. At the time he started painting, his mother showed his painting in a...
    ronald01 ronald01 22-25, M 1 day ago

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    Pain Pain is what we get. pain is there just waiting for Us. It sneaks around waiting it sneaks around watching It can tell when we are at our most vulnerable. It strikes...
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    A painter from Maysel, West Virginia, Ronald Ravesky is acknowledged for his landscape paintings. His art work is a perfect blend of creative expressions, colors and fabulous ideas...
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    Ronald Raevsky is a landscape painter from Maysel, West Virginia. He started painting at a very young age and he was just 8 years old when he completed his first painting. He grew...
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    Ron Raevsky is an artist who loves to paint landscape paintings. He was born and brought up in Maysel, West Virginia. Apart from painting, he also enjoys a great number of other...
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    Shygirl917 Shygirl917 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 12

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    goofybmxerdan goofybmxerdan 26-30, M 6 days ago

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    CPPDANCER CPPDANCER 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 1

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    CannibalizeTheMerciful CannibalizeTheMerciful 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 26

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    I am too inarticulate to ever be capable of telling someone just how much they are worth to me. I can say 'I love you', but my face won't shape the words the same way my mouth does...
    typedwriter typedwriter 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    dirkablaze dirkablaze 26-30, M Mar 30

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    I've been on this site now for a little while and am trying to create a support group for people who are working to cope with chronic pain in their spouse. This site would help...
    JustKeepSinging JustKeepSinging 26-30 Mar 31

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