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I Hide My Pain

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    Ugh..the Small Things

    The house I live in from top to bottom is a total mess trash in the living room, trash in the kitchen and bathrooms and mine and my brothers room I cant do it alone but I would be willing to clean only that cleaning just a small part of the house like the living room will be...
    skyrain skyrain 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 11, 2011

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    I Am a Pro...........

    If they handed out awards for the best performance, I would receive the OSCAR! I am very good at hiding my pain. Especially from my family. They have so much on their plates, that I never bother trying to get them to help me with mine. I've spent years doing what I have to do for...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Apr 18, 2009

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    Days I'm So Tired

    I am superwoman. Isn't that ridiculous? I wish sometime I had someone I could could just go to, curl up on their shoulder for a little while and cry. And not have to explain, in detail, why. I have a cousin with cancer, that scares the hell out of me, and it hurts so deep i can...
    Tzech Tzech 46-50, F 4 Responses Nov 4, 2008

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    It's Better That Way

    Let people see they have hurt you and they will do it again.
    BeteNoire BeteNoire 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 2, 2010

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    All of It.

    Both emotional and physical - it makes no difference.  I don't see the use of letting something so awful shine through for everyone else to witness. Funny how pain, is such a private and personal thing.
    rockyj rockyj 31-35, F 3 Responses Mar 5, 2009

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    Just Smile

    Is what I tell myself.  I think that if I keep smiling, and telling myself that everything will be okay, then maybe it will, but deep inside I know that it wont.  Smiling you can hide what you're going through from eveybody eles but you can't hide it from yourself...
    BehindBlueEyes11 BehindBlueEyes11 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 24, 2009

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    With My Writing...

    I hide my pain with my writing. I get a lot of my pain out in writing short stories, or writing on EP, sometimes it is the only thing that helps me at all. I feel terrible sometimes, but writing helps me hide it a little better, or at least get the pain leveal down to the point...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 8, 2009

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    It Hurts

    no one really knows how i feel. i am hurting so much iside and i dont show anyone. i just put on a happy face for the crowd.
    LelouchZero LelouchZero 18-21, T Apr 12, 2010

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    Hidden Beneath The Skin

    ive realised that if by chance you show your pain, people see you as vulnerable, weak and seeking attention which is usually the complete oppisite to how we feel. i hide my pain in my paintings, they seem happy, but in actual fact, they each have a secret message hidden inside...
    boeboeQ boeboeQ 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 30, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    Basically I got into a huge fight with my best friend. We both said some mean things but I'm sure I said the meanest things. I brought up a guy she likes and said "that's why he...
    swimmer20166 swimmer20166 16-17, F Jul 29

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    My mom is in a very abusive relationship ... 2 days ago she got in a fight with her husband in which he threw her phone out of the window while he was driving, took her head and...
    RiseAbove222 RiseAbove222 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 10

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    So much has happened in just a year. It all started when I was informed that my "family" who has abused me in the past were planning to abuse me again and make me a slave. It was...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 10

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    So, it's been 3 months since my boyfriend broke up with me. We were together for almost a year. He is two years younger than me. He broke up with me over text. I remember calling...
    Mitsuko15 Mitsuko15 18-21, F 5 Responses a week ago

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    I hide my emotions by having a cold stare.
    dancerwithheart dancerwithheart 13-15, F Jul 30

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    Well of course I do. Whenever they're remotely visible I'm considered fragile or to be over reacting. So I keep them to myself, they're mine after all. Whatever feelings I have...
    BleedingOrchids BleedingOrchids 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 3

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    As some of you know, I am a natural "A" cup, but to enhance things, I wear a push-up bra everyday. Well, it's summer here in NE Ohio and the temps are getting into the 80's. We...
    davis36a davis36a 61-65 1 Response Aug 4

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    Well, I met my boyfriend yesterday at a convention...a friend of mine was with me...the majority of the time, my boyfriend and I had to practically hide behind the charade of just...
    sunatdawn214 sunatdawn214 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 10

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    I always hide my breasts in my bra So useful
    fauxlady fauxlady 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 14

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    I think if you asked anyone who knows me, none of them would be able to tell you that I'm depressed. I tend to hide it rather well and am generally a quiet/shy/aloof/introverted...
    LockedDarius LockedDarius 26-30, M a week ago

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    She said something, I felt my heart leap back, Far back, hiding from the harsh words. My whole body trying to hide from what my ears heard. Feeling tears growing large in my eyes...
    UnknownGirlll UnknownGirlll 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    So I had 2 shoulder surgeries one month apart. First surgery was for taking care of a shoulder impingement and tighten my shoulder which could pop out of its socket. Then...
    yodasl yodasl 41-45, M Aug 8

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    I really do. .. I have fractured my arm twice, my leg was operated for an injury that happened while playing I thought it was hurting me it's painful I was wrong they were with me...
    Abhayabhay Abhayabhay 22-25, M 3 Responses Aug 5

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    Well right now as I type this, I am laying in bed listening to the Enigma Station in Pandora Radio- hopefully that helps give a better of idea of what all common chronic pain...
    thekid2010 thekid2010 22-25, M Aug 9

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    I am 7 weeks post-op. Up until last week the amount of pain I have experienced was about 5% of what I expected. In other words the experience has been very good. I am sleeping...
    tgb260 tgb260 51-55, M Aug 18

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    Is my surgeon jumping the gun by suggesting I see a pain management specialist after having 2 shoulder surgeries one month apart? I had a 1st one early June but 3.5 weeks later I...
    yodasl yodasl 41-45, M 1 day ago

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    i like pain, i like to re-cut my scabs and watch the blood drip down, i like the pain. it feel wonderful. i like the pain when i cut , i like the pin when i punch myself. it feels...
    brownzugar brownzugar 16-17, M Jul 29

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    "But I must explain to you how all this mistaken idea of denouncing pleasure and praising pain was born and I will give you a complete account of the system, and expound the actual...
    idontmindtherain idontmindtherain 18-21, M Aug 5

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    I'm 40, this invisible pain started out 6 years ago after a routine sinus surgery. I say "invisible" because with a gunshot wound or broken arm people can see what pain you are in...
    jhuntersemail jhuntersemail 36-40, M Aug 11

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    (JUSt a warning, this is quite TMI and fairly gross. :-) Yeah mine are just terrible. One period in particular was just horrendous. I was at home, second day of period (which is so...
    humblyhoo humblyhoo 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 15

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    Crist I haven't written a story on ep for so long I almost forgot how! Anyway I've been lost for many years now. Had my moments to find myself, and I guess I choose not to. Been...
    Slashrattlenroll Slashrattlenroll 41-45, M 2 Responses Aug 13

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    We'll, I don't really "like pain" i just don't care.. I have a REEEAAALLLY high pain tolerance.. Like.., I broke my Nose one time and it was gushing blood out and I just laughed...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    I started a weekend job last weekend and this week I am having pain in my hands. I had to do a lot of accordion style napkin folding and I think this is the result of that. Any...
    fishingbuddy fishingbuddy 56-60, F Aug 6

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    I wish you the best of luck. I'm 41 years old & suffered for years in pain. It was so bad I ended up in the ER every month keeled over in pain. I tried so many different things to...
    mylifeoutloud mylifeoutloud 41-45, F 1 Response Aug 12

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    I have been in a relationship for only 3 months with my boyfriend. We are both in our mid 30's and currently trying to work on a long distance relationship. In the first month...
    1234dogma 1234dogma 31-35, F 3 Responses Aug 15

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    I've wanted an alien tumblr type shirt for so long. They are so cute, but I'm cheap and none of them were ever 'just right'. Today I remembered I have a couple plain white shirts...
    kittenasylum kittenasylum 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Well, I am sick and tired of hiding and pretending it isn't there... It started out as back pain that won't go away with basic procedures. And I thought after the months went by...
    4NeonFun 4NeonFun 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    Pain, should know pain. I hate being in pain!
    Charliee4 Charliee4 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 31

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    I had breakups before but they were never painful. The first breakup that really hurt me was when I was 14 years old. I remember that we could see each other only every two weeks...
    zyakkui zyakkui 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 5

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    I absolutely love artistic body painting. I have had my body painted for over 25 years. I started off just after graduating from college and still do it today 25 years later...
    talloldermom talloldermom 46-50, F 2 Responses Aug 9

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    Hello everyone, Here is my (brief)story of pain. I live in a very critical & strict house. Through age 12 to 15, I was abused physically & emotionally by my mom. She used to...
    GenaAmore GenaAmore 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 13

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    I lied and misrepresented myself and hurt someone badly. We had an email relationship for almost 3 years. I am married but let him think I was single. Lied about my age too. I...
    Remster Remster 56-60, F Aug 15

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    I am 59 and had surgery on may left shoulder May 5, 2014 for a small but full thickness rotator cuff tear. Also had bone spurs removed, labrum cleaned up, and arthritis removed...
    Bob119 Bob119 56-60 Aug 15

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    Its been a bad pain day today just about everything hurts, I cant push my chair or move properly cos of my back and chest pains, my bladder has been cramping all day so my...
    wheels1972 wheels1972 41-45, M Aug 16

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    In the past four years, I've had two work-related back injuries and one serious car crash. Without prescription medication, there isn't much I can do without suffering from pain. I...
    Jononymous Jononymous 26-30, M 2 days ago

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    Falling love again its bad idea. My pearl of tears so precious but is it worthy for him. I feel so hurt and pain. Why I need to undergo this pain. Why my heart still feel worried...
    neha79 neha79 22-25, F Jul 27

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    Its everywhere. They create it. To profit. Even by locking us up. Or removing freedoms. Greed and power cause the pain. As does jealousy. Its eternal. No...
    Livyn4pals Livyn4pals 46-50, M Jul 28

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    Everyone remembers their first painful breakup but it's not a bad thing because for some it was your first "I love you" and really meaning it. Every breakup is always painful, they...
    xgmgvx xgmgvx 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 29

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    I'm trying hard to lose weight and get in shape, but my back pain is really making it difficult. I have two weeks until my first Veterans Assosciation pain management visit. I've...
    mohawkmom mohawkmom 22-25, F Jul 30

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