Post

I Hide My Pain

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 131 People

    I Am a Pro...........

    If they handed out awards for the best performance, I would receive the OSCAR! I am very good at hiding my pain. Especially from my family. They have so much on their plates, that I never bother trying to get them to help me with mine. I've spent years doing what I have to do for...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Apr 18, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    With My Writing...

    I hide my pain with my writing. I get a lot of my pain out in writing short stories, or writing on EP, sometimes it is the only thing that helps me at all. I feel terrible sometimes, but writing helps me hide it a little better, or at least get the pain leveal down to the point...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 8, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    It Hurts

    no one really knows how i feel. i am hurting so much iside and i dont show anyone. i just put on a happy face for the crowd.
    LelouchZero LelouchZero 18-21, T Apr 12, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Hidden Beneath The Skin

    ive realised that if by chance you show your pain, people see you as vulnerable, weak and seeking attention which is usually the complete oppisite to how we feel. i hide my pain in my paintings, they seem happy, but in actual fact, they each have a secret message hidden inside...
    boeboeQ boeboeQ 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 30, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    It's Better That Way

    Let people see they have hurt you and they will do it again.
    BeteNoire BeteNoire 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 2, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Days I'm So Tired

    I am superwoman. Isn't that ridiculous? I wish sometime I had someone I could could just go to, curl up on their shoulder for a little while and cry. And not have to explain, in detail, why. I have a cousin with cancer, that scares the hell out of me, and it hurts so deep i can...
    Tzech Tzech 46-50, F 4 Responses Nov 4, 2008

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Ugh..the Small Things

    The house I live in from top to bottom is a total mess trash in the living room, trash in the kitchen and bathrooms and mine and my brothers room I cant do it alone but I would be willing to clean only that cleaning just a small part of the house like the living room will be...
    skyrain skyrain 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 11, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Just Smile

    Is what I tell myself.  I think that if I keep smiling, and telling myself that everything will be okay, then maybe it will, but deep inside I know that it wont.  Smiling you can hide what you're going through from eveybody eles but you can't hide it from yourself...
    BehindBlueEyes11 BehindBlueEyes11 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 24, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    All of It.

    Both emotional and physical - it makes no difference.  I don't see the use of letting something so awful shine through for everyone else to witness. Funny how pain, is such a private and personal thing.
    rockyj rockyj 31-35, F 3 Responses Mar 5, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Related Experiences

    In my worst times , I like to get up take a deep breath and smile this smile is an attempt to hide pain may be one day I can heal and forget that I have lost the love of my life...
    Alicedreams Alicedreams 26-30, F 1 Response 5 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Everyone thinks that im such a happy person...that I have it all together They say I look innocent and sweet. Strong But I'm not smh My smile is my mask and I put it on everyday...
    Tiffany199221 Tiffany199221 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 8

    Your Response

    Cancel
    It's not that I want to die (not anymore...not since I started praying and trusting in myself and a higher power), but i just want the pain to stop. I know that one day, things...
    lunabyrd666 lunabyrd666 18-21 Jun 24

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Oh gosh this health issue is......a sneaky one! It hides we'll! I just had my second surgery last august which means I will be having another one sooner than later. They removed...
    PinkUnicorn26 PinkUnicorn26 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 25

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Anyone else dealing with chronic pain? I have has 3 back surgeries, the last a fusion. None really helped, my left buttcheek and the back of my left leg is numb. Has been for 6...
    RMCG RMCG 51-55, F 1 Response Jun 26

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I changed my personality 3 times since I was born, cuz if I stayed the same I would've killed myself when I was 9. The first time i changed my personality was because of my...
    Kirakat14 Kirakat14 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 5

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I don't know why I try to convince everyone I am alright. Why can't I just be honest when someone asks me how I am doing without feeling like I have to hide my feelings. I'm scared...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 day ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Pain Can change you Can break you Can kill you Can shame you Something we don't ask for But comes before every success And never fully leaves
    Freeyourself3 Freeyourself3 18-21, F Jun 24

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I put up a smile as a shield to keep humanity out from giving me more pain.
    djjdrink djjdrink 18-21, M Jun 29

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I dont know what you want me to say All I want is to wake up to a new day When this has all blown away why do I get hurt this way? You want a reply but I’m all out of answers...
    Nooneknowsmythoughts Nooneknowsmythoughts 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 24

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I always try to hide the bad inside of me and act like everything is okay😞but I don't know why:/
    darecassy darecassy 13-15, F Jul 2

    Your Response

    Cancel
    It's easy to hide the feelings. It's the scars that are hard to hide.
    tarara0414 tarara0414 18-21, F Jul 4

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I hide my feelings. Because i don't want anybody to feel sad for me. Its something i never want to do. So i smile... My smile is like my mask, covering up my tears of depression...
    JustMyLife223 JustMyLife223 13-15, F Jun 23

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I tend to hide parts of my personality out of fear of what people may think of me. I'm starting to learn to not care about this but the fear is still there. I know it'll always be...
    christid309 christid309 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 25

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have to be in control of myself and my emotions if I'm not I go blank and hide every emotion. Someone called it my 'shield', I guess I do that as a defense to protect myself but...
    CriminalMinds14 CriminalMinds14 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 25

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Boys you can't hide anything from girls
    harry8199 harry8199 18-21, M Jul 1

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I am pretty good at it too. Ever since I can remember it was instilled in me to hide how I was feeling. I grew up with the fear to speak of how I felt or what I needed. When your...
    blahlahblah599 blahlahblah599 16-17, F Jul 4

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Bleh, I like him, but I just know he doesn't feel the same way. He's Straight and I'm Gay. What a fkd up mess I'm in. I want to forget it. I don't know, I just want that comfort...
    SoulWriter17 SoulWriter17 16-17, M Jul 12

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I'm sick and tired of opening up to people who just take me for granted. You think you can trust someone and then they use it as a weakness. This makes me tend to hide my emotions...
    eliam14 eliam14 18-21, M Jul 12

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Sure, but to hide love and cough I am really not good at it.
    bunga87 bunga87 26-30, F 3 Responses Jul 13

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I know I have a lot of supporters here on EP, and I am thankful for that. If you had not known, I had moved out of Tennessee to live in Kentucky for two months and finally move...
    fatagustus fatagustus 16-17, M 2 Responses a week ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have always dealt with depressions. I was about 5 years old the first time and started therapy then. As I was growing up I felt the need to talk to people because I felt that...
    Wholam Wholam 18-21, F 1 day ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I agree with everyone here. I am now 12 weeks post surgery for a full tear of my rotator cuff. It's more painful than the imagination. Simply indescribable and my heart goes out...
    NomadicMe NomadicMe 41-45, M 2 Responses Jun 27

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Paintmyphotos is seen as a top quality photograph to painting studio headquartered in xiamen, fujian, China, our company has been in the area of custom made oil painting from...
    widevocation8051 widevocation8051 26-30, F Jul 3

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have been having a particularly hard weekend dealing with the loneliness of living with a spouse with chronic pain so I searched the web and found this site. As I read some of...
    hispainismypain hispainismypain 61-65, F 3 Responses Jul 12

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have had chronic back pain for about 3 years now. It used to hurt so bad sometimes I didn't want to move, just lay there eyes open wide. I tried everything, physiotherapy...
    jonacular jonacular 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 27

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have crippling pain all the time. Sometimes it's two or more pains at once. Generally I have back pain, ankle pain, neck pain, wrist pain, headaches, and/or migraines.
    kat990 kat990 13-15 3 Responses Jun 28

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Kind of ironic, isn't it? The way we cut to stop pain. We inflict pain to forget pain. Trade emotional pain for physical pain because it's easier to take. But people don't see this...
    VolleyBallPrincess14 VolleyBallPrincess14 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 2

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Just like three days grace says. Pain without love. Pain can't get enough. Pain I like it rough cause id rather feel pain than nothing at all. Could you imagine never feelingl...
    holehearted79 holehearted79 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 2

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have been in a massive amount of pain for the last few days but this pain has been on and off for months now. I thought that maybe it was my posture or something but after doing...
    sunniedays89 sunniedays89 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 24

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have been living with serious pain since I was 16. I was in a car accident where I was rear-ended by a car that was speeding. Since that day I have had chronic neck and lower...
    i4it4t i4it4t 36-40, M Jun 30

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Rough morning --- rain coming --- and not enough time. Asked the young fellow working for me if he could paint the new foundation. About 800 sq ft. He seemed all about it and I...
    MaskedRascal MaskedRascal 36-40, M Jun 25

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I had acl surgery a year ago from today and have been addicted to pain killers (morphine, hydro co, codeine) ever since and I haven't been able to put them down. The physical pain...
    Marielights Marielights 16-17, F Jun 27

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I know the pain of natural childbirth, and emotional pain. Pain of broken friendships and torn relationships. The pain of wanting to know why something has happened to you but not...
    strawberry38 strawberry38 36-40, F Jul 1

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I can only paint if I'm really really happy so I haven't painted in monthes. I did one practice painting to test how out of practice I am. I know I'm mediocre but I really dream of...
    burnout77 burnout77 16-17, F 5 Responses Jul 12

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Painting allows me to escape my brain but at the same time explore parts of it I didn't even know existed. I paint with some of my favorite music blasting and it is so therapeutic...
    Affley Affley 18-21, F Jul 14

    Your Response

    Cancel
    My husband suffers from chronic wide spread nerve pain. He has been diagnosed with small fiber neuropathy, fibromyalgia, and myofacial pain syndrome. The best way to describe what...
    overwhelmedandexhausted overwhelmedandexhausted 26-30, F 6 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    As of today I find myself thinking is being in this much pain worth it. I know god only gives you what you can handle but somedays I can't handle all the pain. I could never not be...
    karienight karienight 26-30, F 5 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    4 months I had rotator cuff surgery with a full recovery expected. Needless to say after several phydical therapy tratments and pain meds I had little to no relief. Finally after...
    fancyface19 fancyface19 46-50, F 17 hrs ago

    Your Response