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I Hide My Pain

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    It Hurts

    no one really knows how i feel. i am hurting so much iside and i dont show anyone. i just put on a happy face for the crowd.
    LelouchZero LelouchZero 18-21, T Apr 12, 2010

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    Ugh..the Small Things

    The house I live in from top to bottom is a total mess trash in the living room, trash in the kitchen and bathrooms and mine and my brothers room I cant do it alone but I would be willing to clean only that cleaning just a small part of the house like the living room will be...
    skyrain skyrain 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 11, 2011

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    Just Smile

    Is what I tell myself.  I think that if I keep smiling, and telling myself that everything will be okay, then maybe it will, but deep inside I know that it wont.  Smiling you can hide what you're going through from eveybody eles but you can't hide it from yourself...
    BehindBlueEyes11 BehindBlueEyes11 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 24, 2009

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    With My Writing...

    I hide my pain with my writing. I get a lot of my pain out in writing short stories, or writing on EP, sometimes it is the only thing that helps me at all. I feel terrible sometimes, but writing helps me hide it a little better, or at least get the pain leveal down to the point...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 8, 2009

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    It's Better That Way

    Let people see they have hurt you and they will do it again.
    BeteNoire BeteNoire 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 2, 2010

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    Days I'm So Tired

    I am superwoman. Isn't that ridiculous? I wish sometime I had someone I could could just go to, curl up on their shoulder for a little while and cry. And not have to explain, in detail, why. I have a cousin with cancer, that scares the hell out of me, and it hurts so deep i can...
    Tzech Tzech 46-50, F 4 Responses Nov 4, 2008

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    I Am a Pro...........

    If they handed out awards for the best performance, I would receive the OSCAR! I am very good at hiding my pain. Especially from my family. They have so much on their plates, that I never bother trying to get them to help me with mine. I've spent years doing what I have to do for...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Apr 18, 2009

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    All of It.

    Both emotional and physical - it makes no difference.  I don't see the use of letting something so awful shine through for everyone else to witness. Funny how pain, is such a private and personal thing.
    rockyj rockyj 31-35, F 3 Responses Mar 5, 2009

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    Hidden Beneath The Skin

    ive realised that if by chance you show your pain, people see you as vulnerable, weak and seeking attention which is usually the complete oppisite to how we feel. i hide my pain in my paintings, they seem happy, but in actual fact, they each have a secret message hidden inside...
    boeboeQ boeboeQ 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 30, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    In my worst times , I like to get up take a deep breath and smile this smile is an attempt to hide pain may be one day I can heal and forget that I have lost the love of my life...
    Alicedreams Alicedreams 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 18

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    Basically I got into a huge fight with my best friend. We both said some mean things but I'm sure I said the meanest things. I brought up a guy she likes and said "that's why he...
    swimmer20166 swimmer20166 16-17, F 17 hrs ago

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    i like pain, i like to re-cut my scabs and watch the blood drip down, i like the pain. it feel wonderful. i like the pain when i cut , i like the pin when i punch myself. it feels...
    brownzugar brownzugar 16-17, M 4 hrs ago

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    Maybe not 'like'. I need pain. I'm sick and tired of feeling like crap all the time, and pain is the only thing that can make it better. I used to think cutters were crazy but now...
    JustOldLight JustOldLight 13-15, F 4 hrs ago

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    Every time I hav them I can't even take a deep breath, or move, the pain is sooo intense y do girls hav to b sooo fukin cursed. Every time I hav to take stronger painkillers I...
    burnout77 burnout77 16-17, F 3 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    Everyone remembers their first painful breakup but it's not a bad thing because for some it was your first "I love you" and really meaning it. Every breakup is always painful, they...
    xgmgvx xgmgvx 13-15, F 1 Response 18 mins ago

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    Everyone thinks that im such a happy person...that I have it all together They say I look innocent and sweet. Strong But I'm not smh My smile is my mask and I put it on everyday...
    Tiffany199221 Tiffany199221 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 8

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    For some reason i crave pain and suffering. I want to be tied up, whipped, and dominated completely. I think it stems from my childhood. My mom used to beat the crap out if me and...
    Heartsu Heartsu 26-30, F 5 hrs ago

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    So I found my aunts journals today. They were her cancer journals. She wrote in them from 2002 - 2005. She wrote down e everyday of her life with cancer. Every bit of pain she went...
    CeBeY1 CeBeY1 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I changed my personality 3 times since I was born, cuz if I stayed the same I would've killed myself when I was 9. The first time i changed my personality was because of my...
    Kirakat14 Kirakat14 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 5

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    I don't know why I try to convince everyone I am alright. Why can't I just be honest when someone asks me how I am doing without feeling like I have to hide my feelings. I'm scared...
    deleted deleted 26-30 a week ago

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    I put up a smile as a shield to keep humanity out from giving me more pain.
    djjdrink djjdrink 18-21, M Jun 29

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    I always try to hide the bad inside of me and act like everything is okay­čś×but I don't know why:/
    darecassy darecassy 13-15, F Jul 2

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    It's easy to hide the feelings. It's the scars that are hard to hide.
    tarara0414 tarara0414 18-21, F Jul 4

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    Boys you can't hide anything from girls
    harry8199 harry8199 18-21, M Jul 1

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    I am pretty good at it too. Ever since I can remember it was instilled in me to hide how I was feeling. I grew up with the fear to speak of how I felt or what I needed. When your...
    blahlahblah599 blahlahblah599 16-17, F Jul 4

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    Bleh, I like him, but I just know he doesn't feel the same way. He's Straight and I'm Gay. What a fkd up mess I'm in. I want to forget it. I don't know, I just want that comfort...
    SoulWriter17 SoulWriter17 16-17, M Jul 12

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    I'm sick and tired of opening up to people who just take me for granted. You think you can trust someone and then they use it as a weakness. This makes me tend to hide my emotions...
    eliam14 eliam14 18-21, M Jul 12

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    I know I have a lot of supporters here on EP, and I am thankful for that. If you had not known, I had moved out of Tennessee to live in Kentucky for two months and finally move...
    fatagustus fatagustus 16-17, M 2 Responses Jul 16

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    I have always dealt with depressions. I was about 5 years old the first time and started therapy then. As I was growing up I felt the need to talk to people because I felt that...
    Wholam Wholam 18-21, F Jul 21

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    Paintmyphotos is seen as a top quality photograph to painting studio headquartered in xiamen, fujian, China, our company has been in the area of custom made oil painting from...
    widevocation8051 widevocation8051 26-30, F Jul 3

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    I have been having a particularly hard weekend dealing with the loneliness of living with a spouse with chronic pain so I searched the web and found this site. As I read some of...
    hispainismypain hispainismypain 61-65, F 3 Responses Jul 12

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    had surgery on my dominant shoulder on april 24. it was arthroscopic, had 10 incisions which were done to treat/repair 1 full thickness with a graft and two partial tears, remove...
    pdpcuffed pdpcuffed 66-70, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Kind of ironic, isn't it? The way we cut to stop pain. We inflict pain to forget pain. Trade emotional pain for physical pain because it's easier to take. But people don't see this...
    VolleyBallPrincess14 VolleyBallPrincess14 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 2

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    Just like three days grace says. Pain without love. Pain can't get enough. Pain I like it rough cause id rather feel pain than nothing at all. Could you imagine never feelingl...
    holehearted79 holehearted79 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 2

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    I have been living with serious pain since I was 16. I was in a car accident where I was rear-ended by a car that was speeding. Since that day I have had chronic neck and lower...
    i4it4t i4it4t 36-40, M Jun 30

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    I know the pain of natural childbirth, and emotional pain. Pain of broken friendships and torn relationships. The pain of wanting to know why something has happened to you but not...
    strawberry38 strawberry38 36-40, F Jul 1

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    I can only paint if I'm really really happy so I haven't painted in monthes. I did one practice painting to test how out of practice I am. I know I'm mediocre but I really dream of...
    burnout77 burnout77 16-17, F 5 Responses Jul 12

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    Painting allows me to escape my brain but at the same time explore parts of it I didn't even know existed. I paint with some of my favorite music blasting and it is so therapeutic...
    Affley Affley 18-21, F Jul 14

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    My husband suffers from chronic wide spread nerve pain. He has been diagnosed with small fiber neuropathy, fibromyalgia, and myofacial pain syndrome. The best way to describe what...
    overwhelmedandexhausted overwhelmedandexhausted 26-30, F Jul 16

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    As of today I find myself thinking is being in this much pain worth it. I know god only gives you what you can handle but somedays I can't handle all the pain. I could never not be...
    karienight karienight 26-30, F Jul 18

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    4 months I had rotator cuff surgery with a full recovery expected. Needless to say after several phydical therapy tratments and pain meds I had little to no relief. Finally after...
    fancyface19 fancyface19 46-50, F 6 days ago

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    Go Away, The pain, Breath in, Breath out, Push the pain down, Pull it out my heart, Put it in that box, Grab my tears, Mop them up, Don't cry no more, Shut of from the world, The...
    Gentleandlovingsoul Gentleandlovingsoul 36-40, F Jun 29

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    I have a rare disorder called Loeyz-Dietz syndrome in a bad form. 28 surgeries. 3 open heart. Another coming soon. I can walk and appear mostly normal, but I suffer minimum 8/10...
    longcat4u longcat4u 31-35, M 2 Responses Jun 30

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    In the 8th grade, the school's nurses did all the grades (6,7,8)health checks for any back problems. I was next in line and I already knew I got back pain issues. Then exams all...
    manotham manotham 13-15, F Jul 1

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    You know how they say everyone has a different talent, well I don't have any. Yes, I can write and I enjoy writing. I can also take good photographs. So What! Anyone can do those...
    Dubois1985 Dubois1985 26-30, M Jul 6

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    The very first day I had my period, I had just turned twelve a week before. My parents birthday gift to me was to trust me walking around town alone for a set time, and then...
    raylynn24 raylynn24 22-25, F Jul 8

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    This was supposed to be the happiest year of our lives. We welcomed our beautiful baby boy into the world 8 months ago and the first two months were amazing. It was then when my...
    abo1486 abo1486 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 16

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