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I Hide My Pain

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    Just Smile

    Is what I tell myself.  I think that if I keep smiling, and telling myself that everything will be okay, then maybe it will, but deep inside I know that it wont.  Smiling you can hide what you're going through from eveybody eles but you can't hide it from yourself...
    BehindBlueEyes11 BehindBlueEyes11 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 24, 2009

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    Hidden Beneath The Skin

    ive realised that if by chance you show your pain, people see you as vulnerable, weak and seeking attention which is usually the complete oppisite to how we feel. i hide my pain in my paintings, they seem happy, but in actual fact, they each have a secret message hidden inside...
    boeboeQ boeboeQ 16-17, F Jun 30, 2011

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    I Am a Pro...........

    If they handed out awards for the best performance, I would receive the OSCAR! I am very good at hiding my pain. Especially from my family. They have so much on their plates, that I never bother trying to get them to help me with mine. I've spent years doing what I have to do for...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Apr 18, 2009

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    It Hurts

    no one really knows how i feel. i am hurting so much iside and i dont show anyone. i just put on a happy face for the crowd.
    LelouchZero LelouchZero 18-21, T Apr 12, 2010

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    With My Writing...

    I hide my pain with my writing. I get a lot of my pain out in writing short stories, or writing on EP, sometimes it is the only thing that helps me at all. I feel terrible sometimes, but writing helps me hide it a little better, or at least get the pain leveal down to the point...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 8, 2009

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    Days I'm So Tired

    I am superwoman. Isn't that ridiculous? I wish sometime I had someone I could could just go to, curl up on their shoulder for a little while and cry. And not have to explain, in detail, why. I have a cousin with cancer, that scares the hell out of me, and it hurts so deep i can...
    Tzech Tzech 46-50, F 4 Responses Nov 4, 2008

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    Ugh..the Small Things

    The house I live in from top to bottom is a total mess trash in the living room, trash in the kitchen and bathrooms and mine and my brothers room I cant do it alone but I would be willing to clean only that cleaning just a small part of the house like the living room will be...
    skyrain skyrain 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 11, 2011

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    All of It.

    Both emotional and physical - it makes no difference.  I don't see the use of letting something so awful shine through for everyone else to witness. Funny how pain, is such a private and personal thing.
    rockyj rockyj 31-35, F 3 Responses Mar 5, 2009

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    All the time I've been asking him to stop

    contacting me. Even though I was dying to see him , to talk to him. I was suggesting him to move away because I thought it was right. But he still contacts me. He still loves me so much. Its the time when he should be busy with his own stuff and his new life. But he cannot stay...
    lovemylife2210 lovemylife2210 26-30, F May 8

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    These brown shades, cover up my dark eyes from

    a life time of mental pain. Pain that I was forced to keep inside, never to let out. Pain that made feel death's icy touch, not even the choice whether to let it out. It was forced to stay in. Over my life time it has turned me into a monster. So, I hide it all behind these...
    UnconditionallyGone UnconditionallyGone 16-17, M Oct 30, 2014

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    It's Better That Way

    Let people see they have hurt you and they will do it again.
    BeteNoire BeteNoire 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 2, 2010

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    i hide my feelings and make sure everyone thinks i'm okay, they all seem to think that i'm fine.. i don't need much attention but that doesn't mean i don't need any at all. i'm...
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    Currently I should be studying for my finals but instead I'm writing this. Why you may ask? Because sometimes you can't focus on important tasks until you air out all of your...
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    Those have you who follow what I write (thank you!) have probably noticed me taking a turn down the road of darkness lately. But that's what happens when the pain is inside of you...
    ToughEddie ToughEddie 36-40, M 1 Response 23 hrs ago

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    Its 4:30 am and I'm sitting on my sofa with a swollen eye that hurts so much. and Im Unable to take this killing pain away..
    chari1975 chari1975 36-40, F 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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    It just sucks how much pain so many people have to deal with everyday, I wish I could actually help somehow.
    yeshomo yeshomo 13-15, F 8 hrs ago

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    Consider me the da Vinci, no the Paganini, of this craft. It is an art form I learned at an early age. I'm the eccentric. The one people instantly recognize. It's like I have a...
    hisdudeness3 hisdudeness3 31-35, M 2 Responses May 9

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    when I hurt I bottle everything up its a great way to get passed the pain . since being in my relationship with my boyfriend ive come to realize that I hide even more. I shut...
    aliciastra aliciastra 18-21, F 2 Responses May 18

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    Because sometimes its easier to ignore to forget to pretend that your not in pain and sadly People dont really want to be bothered by what your going thru.
    minimeme minimeme 22-25, F 2 Responses May 3

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    mental pain is harder than physical, last 17 years of submission and marriage were hard i am divorced now but it seems i can't hide that past life
    fdenna fdenna 41-45, F 2 Responses May 3

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    I act like all is well, I act like I'm okay.. I act like I'm happy... but nothing could be further from the truth... I drown my stress, my pain, my heartache, my sorrow in bottles...
    raf408 raf408 31-35, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I can't listen to because of you because it feels like my life, it's just too painful
    okitr okitr 36-40, F May 3

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    Usually money. Its an absolute pain when you go out. Even some jeans just have fake pockets. Its safer to keep a bit in your bra in case you put down your bag somewhere and it gets...
    Gemma1990 Gemma1990 22-25, F 1 Response May 4

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    The most painful tears are not The ones that fall from your eyes And cover your face. It's the ones that fall from your Heart and cover your soul.
    RedHwaiting RedHwaiting 18-21, F 2 Responses May 10

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    Recently I have moved out if my home and into a home alone. I've talked to my husband many times that feel invisible. His family has not treated me like I want. Their has been...
    CountryGalz1 CountryGalz1 31-35, F 3 Responses May 11

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    i hate writing **** like this. i hate leaving myself vulnerable and wide open. it makes me feel worse, which is why i never do it. but this isn't facebook and i'm basically...
    sludgefeast sludgefeast 26-30, F 3 Responses May 13

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    Any good ,quick and easy painless ways to kill your self ? Please help me .. I can't take it .....
    mixedfellings mixedfellings 31-35, F 4 Responses May 21

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    The pain is almost too much to bear I don't think I can survive without him
    lostmomto4 lostmomto4 41-45, F 3 Responses May 25

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    I have no choice. I have to hide my boyfriend because he has been deemed unworthy by my stepfather, and therefore is dead if he steps anywhere near the premises. I hide my job...
    Ginkofishin Ginkofishin 18-21, F 3 Responses May 4

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    People often make fun of my laugh and smile, so I tend to hide them. I hide my smile around people because I am afraid of being judged by the way I smile and laugh.
    songwriterandsinger songwriterandsinger 13-15, F 1 Response May 10

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    I've had a difficult time growing up. I've had to hide my sadness from the rest of my peers hoping that, eventually, I could trick myself into being happy. But there comes a time...
    BlackSeoul BlackSeoul 18-21, F 2 Responses May 14

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    My mum is very critical of me, so I chose to hide certain things from her, and from the rest of my family. Some things aren't meant for sharing with your family. I think everyone...
    BexBaby84 BexBaby84 31-35, F 3 Responses May 11

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    Is amazing how many feeling you can hide behind one smile.
    NikkiCOCO NikkiCOCO 16-17, F 2 Responses May 11

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    I wear a mask which I hid behind for so long, I forgot what it was like to be me. I hide my sadness and emptiness with a fake smile
    MidnightDragons MidnightDragons 16-17, F 1 Response May 15

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    Yeah.... It's hard ... It's easy to smile but it's hard to hide the sadness behind it .....
    RyRyOfAwesomeness RyRyOfAwesomeness 16-17, M 5 Responses May 16

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    I live in Springdale Arkansas I would love to have a dad or mom tan my hide
    jeremiah55 jeremiah55 18-21, M 2 Responses May 17

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    I'm so sick of putting on that smile everyday, just to hide what I really feel...
    lapis92 lapis92 22-25, F 1 Response May 19

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    people won't under how much hurt they cause you if you keep faking smiles to hide your sadness, you just have to let it all out, no matter how hard it seems
    Khyr Khyr 16-17, M May 19

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    "Sometimes the more you hide your feelings for someone, the more you fall for them"
    KAREEM77 KAREEM77 36-40, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    It's annoying being called cute all the time. Why can't I be hot? Or sexy? NOPE. I have to be gum droppingly, fluffy, pucker fishy cute. HIDEOUS.
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 days ago

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    I have felt the worst pain I've ever felt. How could this be more painful than anything else I've ever experienced in my life?.. More painful than my dad having a mini-stroke...
    MissNexp MissNexp 26-30, F May 10

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