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I Hide My Pain

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    All of It.

    Both emotional and physical - it makes no difference.  I don't see the use of letting something so awful shine through for everyone else to witness. Funny how pain, is such a private and personal thing.
    rockyj rockyj 31-35, F 3 Responses Mar 5, 2009

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    Days I'm So Tired

    I am superwoman. Isn't that ridiculous? I wish sometime I had someone I could could just go to, curl up on their shoulder for a little while and cry. And not have to explain, in detail, why. I have a cousin with cancer, that scares the hell out of me, and it hurts so deep i can...
    Tzech Tzech 46-50, F 4 Responses Nov 4, 2008

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    I Am a Pro...........

    If they handed out awards for the best performance, I would receive the OSCAR! I am very good at hiding my pain. Especially from my family. They have so much on their plates, that I never bother trying to get them to help me with mine. I've spent years doing what I have to do for...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Apr 18, 2009

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    With My Writing...

    I hide my pain with my writing. I get a lot of my pain out in writing short stories, or writing on EP, sometimes it is the only thing that helps me at all. I feel terrible sometimes, but writing helps me hide it a little better, or at least get the pain leveal down to the point...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 8, 2009

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    All the time I've been asking him to stop

    contacting me. Even though I was dying to see him , to talk to him. I was suggesting him to move away because I thought it was right. But he still contacts me. He still loves me so much. Its the time when he should be busy with his own stuff and his new life. But he cannot stay...
    lovemylife2210 lovemylife2210 26-30, F May 8

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    It Hurts

    no one really knows how i feel. i am hurting so much iside and i dont show anyone. i just put on a happy face for the crowd.
    LelouchZero LelouchZero 18-21, T Apr 12, 2010

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    These brown shades, cover up my dark eyes from

    a life time of mental pain. Pain that I was forced to keep inside, never to let out. Pain that made feel death's icy touch, not even the choice whether to let it out. It was forced to stay in. Over my life time it has turned me into a monster. So, I hide it all behind these...
    UnconditionallyGone UnconditionallyGone 16-17, M Oct 30, 2014

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    Ugh..the Small Things

    The house I live in from top to bottom is a total mess trash in the living room, trash in the kitchen and bathrooms and mine and my brothers room I cant do it alone but I would be willing to clean only that cleaning just a small part of the house like the living room will be...
    skyrain skyrain 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 11, 2011

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    Hidden Beneath The Skin

    ive realised that if by chance you show your pain, people see you as vulnerable, weak and seeking attention which is usually the complete oppisite to how we feel. i hide my pain in my paintings, they seem happy, but in actual fact, they each have a secret message hidden inside...
    boeboeQ boeboeQ 16-17, F Jun 30, 2011

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    It's Better That Way

    Let people see they have hurt you and they will do it again.
    BeteNoire BeteNoire 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 2, 2010

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    Just Smile

    Is what I tell myself.  I think that if I keep smiling, and telling myself that everything will be okay, then maybe it will, but deep inside I know that it wont.  Smiling you can hide what you're going through from eveybody eles but you can't hide it from yourself...
    BehindBlueEyes11 BehindBlueEyes11 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 24, 2009

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    Related Experiences

    This is something I did the other night while I was on shrooms. I know it's a bit of a colourful mess lol but if I had real paints or something I could come up with something...
    WokenandOpen WokenandOpen 31-35, M 12 mins ago

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    I am always Hiding my feelings to protect others, and to protect myself. I do it basically to hide how I am feeling, because I don't want others to worry about me, or about how I...
    BroknGirl89 BroknGirl89 26-30, F 8 hrs ago

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    I always hide my emotions and my last eat in college this kid called me girl with no emotions. So basically when it's all built up inside and it crashes down I start to cry and I...
    xxemogirlxx xxemogirlxx 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    i feel misunderstood, I wish people could see the real me, I pretend I'm fine, and try to be the way others expect me to be, but I am just never good enough. I am not sure how much...
    Awhiteorchid Awhiteorchid 18-21, F 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    Here is How to Treat PMS-Related Back Pain (http://luv2sex.theblogpress.com/?p=4348) It’s no secret that many women suffer through their monthly periods, experiencing cramps...
    how2stayyoung how2stayyoung 51-55, M 1 day ago

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    I feel so much pain for all the abused children out there, maybe it was because I was one of them, I was in their shoes, and I know what they are feeling, and the paint that they...
    BroknGirl89 BroknGirl89 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    It's so hard today not to hide it. My boyfriend finally admitted he'd just rather go to sleep than be intimate with me and thinks I make things stressful when I bring up the fact...
    SereneThoughts SereneThoughts 22-25, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Well yes, I think anyone depressed tries to hide it
    Polis195 Polis195 36-40, M 2 days ago

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    It's quite amazing how easy it is to hide my feelings from my family.
    deademotion11 deademotion11 22-25, M 4 days ago

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    10 Tips to Quickly End Your Partner's Chronic Pain Here (http://luv2sex.theblogpress.com/?p=4342) The only thing worse than struggling with chronic pain is watching your partner...
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    Before I never painted, colored or anything. Got into it after my mother's suicide. Now I can look at something that would be hideous and think I can turn that into something...
    JustaSimpleSoul JustaSimpleSoul 41-45, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I sometimes fake smile to hide my sadness I feel like the sadness will not end due to a loss of the love of my life due to my own mental issues/demons I wish I could smile & mean...
    mechanicman96 mechanicman96 36-40, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I've only done three watercolor paintings as an adult. My paintings look very different from one another. Even though I don't yet have any skill, somehow I feel like I'm managing...
    katappi katappi 26-30, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Since the day you've been gone i do fake a smile to hide my sadness... i don't want the people around me specially my loves ones to know that am still not doing fine since you've...
    realhappiness realhappiness 26-30, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Had rotator cuff surgery 20 hours ago and it's the most painful surgery I have had to date10 lumbar surgeries with complete fusion. That was a cake walk compared to rotator cuff...
    JayMb62 JayMb62 51-55 6 days ago

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    I love painting or have other women paint my toes and finger nails painted. I love the color red on my toe and finger nails. Red is so sexy and I am a very sexy woman.
    femalemusiclover femalemusiclover 46-50, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    Heart feels empty , badly broken guess cause of my own mistakes and flaws , my faith is shaken almost shattered and heart aches eyes want to cry i am a recluse i want to hide want...
    anasteel2 anasteel2 41-45, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    I wish to get over all this pain inside my heart and soul and especially those people who come into my life care about me I open my heart and tell everything then one day they hit...
    emmadarko emmadarko 22-25, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I have to hide my true feelings. I don't want to scare people away or have my mother yell at me.
    logan1997 logan1997 18-21 4 Responses a week ago

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    7 Smartest Ways for a Remarkably Painless Life (http://luv2sex.theblogpress.com/?p=4339) Here are 7 healthy habits you should adopt if you want to have a painless life without...
    how2stayyoung how2stayyoung 51-55, M a week ago

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    I find it hard to express my emotions. Years of bullying means I've had to suppress/hide them away and to become invisible to others including family. There have been countless...
    stacey1447 stacey1447 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 26

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    I am a 23 yr old student in college and unfortunately to say, I have been extremely depressed for the past couple of years. This mostly has to do with the fact that I have no...
    lonelyman1113 lonelyman1113 22-25, M 2 Responses Jun 25

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    A couple of months ago I shared my experience about how one day when I was 12 years old I wore a t shirt, shorts, and white pantyhose and I was wrestling around on the floor in my...
    ashlynparker2001 ashlynparker2001 13-15, F Jun 25

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    how2stayyoung how2stayyoung 51-55, M Jun 25

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    what do I get by showing everyone sadness. for most people it's be a reason to joke on. so just fake a smile say it's fine. again it takes courage to do that I guess. you're...
    ru661 ru661 18-21, M 4 Responses Jun 24

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    Idk what to do about my pain either. I go through bottles of ibuprofen like its nothing. Almost my whole body is in pain : I get headaches from past surgeries or natural causes My...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 2 Responses Jun 24

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    You see that girl who smiles so bright No one knows it fades late at night Cries filling her immortal soul;tourcheress shadows taking control She grabs the blade to ease her pain...
    Tiffany199221 Tiffany199221 22-25, F Jun 22

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    All day I am in severe chest pain. It never ends except during sleep and at night it calms down a lot. (This was the other way round last week to so). My heart beats are extremely...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 1 Response Jun 22

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    Since discontinuing my anti-depressant/anxiety medication I have noticed an increased sensitivity to physical pain. Small things that cause bruising just send me into that "ahhhh...
    merrygentry merrygentry 31-35, F 4 Responses Jun 20

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    i grew up thinking that crying was a signal of weakness, that crying wasnt what men do. so whenever i am upset i hide those feelings behind a wall of blankness, fearing that if i...
    shatteredglass378 shatteredglass378 13-15, M 1 Response Jun 20

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    I am a kind person who loves making people's days but my family knows nothing of who I am. They don't know me. I have tried but it don't work out to well. So I hide who I am and...
    chrisscott515 chrisscott515 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 19

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