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I Hide My Pain

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    It Hurts

    no one really knows how i feel. i am hurting so much iside and i dont show anyone. i just put on a happy face for the crowd.
    LelouchZero LelouchZero 18-21, T Apr 12, 2010

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    Just Smile

    Is what I tell myself.  I think that if I keep smiling, and telling myself that everything will be okay, then maybe it will, but deep inside I know that it wont.  Smiling you can hide what you're going through from eveybody eles but you can't hide it from yourself...
    BehindBlueEyes11 BehindBlueEyes11 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 24, 2009

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    Hidden Beneath The Skin

    ive realised that if by chance you show your pain, people see you as vulnerable, weak and seeking attention which is usually the complete oppisite to how we feel. i hide my pain in my paintings, they seem happy, but in actual fact, they each have a secret message hidden inside...
    boeboeQ boeboeQ 16-17, F Jun 30, 2011

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    These brown shades, cover up my dark eyes from

    a life time of mental pain. Pain that I was forced to keep inside, never to let out. Pain that made feel death's icy touch, not even the choice whether to let it out. It was forced to stay in. Over my life time it has turned me into a monster. So, I hide it all behind these...
    Kevin2017 Kevin2017 16-17, M Oct 30

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    I Am a Pro...........

    If they handed out awards for the best performance, I would receive the OSCAR! I am very good at hiding my pain. Especially from my family. They have so much on their plates, that I never bother trying to get them to help me with mine. I've spent years doing what I have to do for...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Apr 18, 2009

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    It's Better That Way

    Let people see they have hurt you and they will do it again.
    BeteNoire BeteNoire 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 2, 2010

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    With My Writing...

    I hide my pain with my writing. I get a lot of my pain out in writing short stories, or writing on EP, sometimes it is the only thing that helps me at all. I feel terrible sometimes, but writing helps me hide it a little better, or at least get the pain leveal down to the point...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 8, 2009

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    Days I'm So Tired

    I am superwoman. Isn't that ridiculous? I wish sometime I had someone I could could just go to, curl up on their shoulder for a little while and cry. And not have to explain, in detail, why. I have a cousin with cancer, that scares the hell out of me, and it hurts so deep i can...
    Tzech Tzech 46-50, F 4 Responses Nov 4, 2008

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    All of It.

    Both emotional and physical - it makes no difference.  I don't see the use of letting something so awful shine through for everyone else to witness. Funny how pain, is such a private and personal thing.
    rockyj rockyj 31-35, F 3 Responses Mar 5, 2009

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    Ugh..the Small Things

    The house I live in from top to bottom is a total mess trash in the living room, trash in the kitchen and bathrooms and mine and my brothers room I cant do it alone but I would be willing to clean only that cleaning just a small part of the house like the living room will be...
    skyrain skyrain 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 11, 2011

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    I always try to make others happy,I like to share my happiness, but I m scared to share my pain..I just can not.
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    A update on my damaged eye, I cannot open it without pain... So I am currently living with one eye with the other covered.
    Disqualify Disqualify 16-17, M 13 hrs ago

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    I painted my nails today. I applied two coats of ORLY "Swizzle Stick" which is a kind of bright, hot pink, and on top of that, one coat of L.A. Colors "Infrared" to tone it down...
    KatieTreat KatieTreat 51-55, T 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    I wish people wouldn't hide behind a different picture on here. I have mine out in the open because I like being honest with people about anything and everything concerning me. Yes...
    meli347 meli347 13-15, F Nov 30

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    Why was I stupid and cut myself there? Instead of somewhere where I could hide it better? Why am I so stupid??
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    Everything has gotten worse. My life has completely changed. For the past three months I have not slept well at all. It takes me hours to get to sleep and even when I try I hear...
    thatmegan thatmegan 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 15

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    I served in the Corps from 1989 to 1997. I was in the first Gulf War as a rifleman.I earned a Combat Action Ribbon which only means I wasn't so scared I couldn't shoot back. My...
    aub93rn aub93rn 41-45, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    neinsteinassociates neinsteinassociates 26-30, M Dec 15

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    Such as carmenbluee43 who blocked me for pointing out that they are a snivelling , cowardly troll who hides begin the anonymity of their keyboard and makes hatefilled anti Semitic...
    2BlossomBlue 2BlossomBlue 51-55, F 5 Responses Dec 2

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    to hide my cuts I do them on my right thigh so nobody would see them
    thedeathmist thedeathmist 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 7

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    It's surprising how much a fake smile and a simple 'I'm Fine' can hide.
    MusicSavesMyLife MusicSavesMyLife 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 7

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    Yea I think I hide the nicer part of me from them. (Mostly my bros) Cuz they annoy me so much. And my mom is not understanding at all, so they **** me off. My dad? Well, he's...
    Firepaws Firepaws 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    A few days ago, I hurt so badly that I needed help to make it through the day, so I emailed the following to some of my closest friends. I hope and pray that each of you that has...
    UncleEkipS UncleEkipS 51-55, M 6 days ago

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    Chronic pain sucks. Yes it does. Been dealing with nerve pain since 2004. I know this sounds funny butt I turn to sex. To help me get mind my mind off of the pain. It does not...
    horneybear79912 horneybear79912 36-40, M 4 days ago

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    Dealing with Cronic pain sucks.. I'm looking for a friend to be there for me when I need to get my mind off the nerve pain. I like sex and it help me deal with my pain. Having the...
    horneybear79912 horneybear79912 36-40, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    My husband of 13 yrs has been living with chronic pain (testicular) for over 4 years now. The cause is due to a nerve disease. He's always been hilarious, the life of the party...
    watershed watershed 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 26

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    Seance September I have had the most agonizing pain in my left knee all the way down to my ankle. I have been to so many doc and they all tell me it's just swelling behind my knee...
    izzy33095 izzy33095 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 3

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    I dropped my paintbrush and i started to paint with my hands. It felt sooo good painting my structured wall. I could feel my fingers getting a bit numb and it just felt weird. It...
    orcaliber orcaliber 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 14

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    Daily and no, I'm not over exaggerating or being over dramatic. I'm actually in pain daily. Eye/Head pain from past surgeries Wrist/Hand from Carpal Tunnel Legs/Knees from...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 4 Responses Nov 27

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    Ha yea physical pain I'm just like whatever idc. But emotional pain omg ha I start crying but I only cry when I'm alone.
    liajip liajip 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 27

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    I'm pretty sure how I got this way, was I started working in haunted attractions when I was 9 years old. And I have always loved Halloween. And when I was 19 I started my own...
    justpaint justpaint 31-35, M 1 Response Nov 28

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    My wife and I went to have a massage today. My toenails are still painted. I kept waiting for the masseuse to comment about the paint as she was working on my toes, but she didn't...
    Sharon03 Sharon03 56-60 3 Responses Nov 28

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    I have seen and felt pain since I was a little boy my mother who committed suicide two years ago left us with such a pain words cannot describe. She attempted suicide most of my...
    riddlesmile riddlesmile 31-35, M 1 Response Dec 2

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    I'm in pain. I love someone for 6 years, yet I hurt that person. We met few months ago, we were fine. Friends I guess. But I still feel pain. I tried to like or love others but I...
    BlueHowl08 BlueHowl08 16-17, F Dec 5

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    Her pain is almost too much to bear for one person. It constantly weighs her down like the ballast on a ship. Yet despite that, she keeps bailing out the boat and moving on. She...
    Delta7190 Delta7190 16-17, M Nov 27

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    The memories of things that have happened in the past are haunting me. No longer just keeping me up at night but haunting me through the day. I was used by a friend to when I was...
    LoveDontJudge LoveDontJudge 18-21, M 3 Responses Nov 29

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    I had a biopsy done on my cervix done 11/26/14 so the day before thanksgiving. Its now the 29th and I'm still hurting. Not as bad but i still am... The day of i couldnt walk/stand...
    tig1991 tig1991 22-25, F 4 Responses Nov 29

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    I love painting my nails. I frequently go to work with bright red toe nails under my drab boy clothes. I've found a Revlon colour called Ethereal which I can wear on my fingers...
    Monicatg Monicatg 51-55, T Nov 30

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    I love painting my nails. I frequently go to work with bright red toe nails under my drab boy clothes. I've found a Revlon colour called Ethereal which I can wear on my fingers...
    Monicatg Monicatg 51-55, T 2 Responses Nov 30

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    Soo what do you think guys :D ? Tell me your opinions about it .. This painting has been painted by me :D :)))
    oula98 oula98 16-17, F