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I Hide My Pain

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 172 People

    Hidden Beneath The Skin

    ive realised that if by chance you show your pain, people see you as vulnerable, weak and seeking attention which is usually the complete oppisite to how we feel. i hide my pain in my paintings, they seem happy, but in actual fact, they each have a secret message hidden inside...
    boeboeQ boeboeQ 16-17, F Jun 30, 2011

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    It Hurts

    no one really knows how i feel. i am hurting so much iside and i dont show anyone. i just put on a happy face for the crowd.
    LelouchZero LelouchZero 18-21, T Apr 12, 2010

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    All of It.

    Both emotional and physical - it makes no difference.  I don't see the use of letting something so awful shine through for everyone else to witness. Funny how pain, is such a private and personal thing.
    rockyj rockyj 31-35, F 3 Responses Mar 5, 2009

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    I Am a Pro...........

    If they handed out awards for the best performance, I would receive the OSCAR! I am very good at hiding my pain. Especially from my family. They have so much on their plates, that I never bother trying to get them to help me with mine. I've spent years doing what I have to do for...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Apr 18, 2009

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    It's Better That Way

    Let people see they have hurt you and they will do it again.
    BeteNoire BeteNoire 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 2, 2010

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    Just Smile

    Is what I tell myself.  I think that if I keep smiling, and telling myself that everything will be okay, then maybe it will, but deep inside I know that it wont.  Smiling you can hide what you're going through from eveybody eles but you can't hide it from yourself...
    BehindBlueEyes11 BehindBlueEyes11 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 24, 2009

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    These brown shades, cover up my dark eyes from

    a life time of mental pain. Pain that I was forced to keep inside, never to let out. Pain that made feel death's icy touch, not even the choice whether to let it out. It was forced to stay in. Over my life time it has turned me into a monster. So, I hide it all behind these...
    UnconditionallyGone UnconditionallyGone 16-17, M Oct 30, 2014

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    Days I'm So Tired

    I am superwoman. Isn't that ridiculous? I wish sometime I had someone I could could just go to, curl up on their shoulder for a little while and cry. And not have to explain, in detail, why. I have a cousin with cancer, that scares the hell out of me, and it hurts so deep i can...
    Tzech Tzech 46-50, F 4 Responses Nov 4, 2008

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    With My Writing...

    I hide my pain with my writing. I get a lot of my pain out in writing short stories, or writing on EP, sometimes it is the only thing that helps me at all. I feel terrible sometimes, but writing helps me hide it a little better, or at least get the pain leveal down to the point...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 8, 2009

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    Ugh..the Small Things

    The house I live in from top to bottom is a total mess trash in the living room, trash in the kitchen and bathrooms and mine and my brothers room I cant do it alone but I would be willing to clean only that cleaning just a small part of the house like the living room will be...
    skyrain skyrain 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 11, 2011

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    I just finished cutting I hadn't done it in a while, I usually do it on my inner thighs, stomach, or under my breasts so no one can see. But my preferred area is the arms, I like...
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    I fake my smile to let him see that I am happy so he wouldn't worry that I am still depressed and brokenhearted from him. But it was wrong to fake my smile because deep inside my...
    XxCuTiE14xX XxCuTiE14xX 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 16

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    My parents don't accept my life choices, I used to hide part of me from them. I have always wanted to be a painter which they of course don't approve of. They told me either I...
    nevercouldmeansomuch nevercouldmeansomuch 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 9

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    I don't want my mom and people around me to stress over my pain. It's hard to hide sometimes since it's physical, I just have a problem with saying I'm in pain over the phone. I...
    cheesecrackers99 cheesecrackers99 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 22

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    I want to be happy again. I don't want to be trapped in a home with a man who does not love me. Is it to much to ask for my husband to hug me? Should the minutes leading up to him...
    need2live718 need2live718 26-30, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    I hide my fears, my hurt, my pain, and my tears under a big bright smile, hoping that while I'm fooling everyone else...I'll be able to fool myself.
    ImJustANobody ImJustANobody 26-30, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    what would be the treatment of that pain? which is teated by pain only......
    rkdrmz rkdrmz 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 6

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    Well folks that brick has been falling for quiet some time now. However, I think it was the pain in my head that finally did it for me Or it cod have been my tears on the floor...
    Farmmaid Farmmaid 36-40, F 5 Responses Apr 12

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    I am drowning in the pain of depression. My head is throbbing as tears tricked down my cheeks. I have no motivation or energy I just want to curl up and hide beneath my covers...
    busybrain busybrain 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 13

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    Because sometimes its easier to ignore to forget to pretend that your not in pain and sadly People dont really want to be bothered by what your going thru.
    minimeme minimeme 22-25, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    mental pain is harder than physical, last 17 years of submission and marriage were hard i am divorced now but it seems i can't hide that past life
    fdenna fdenna 41-45, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    freshman year was really hell to me ,I been through a lot of downs. It still is a nightmare that I'm hoping will end soon. You see on the first day of school I was so excited. Over...
    jvyluvs jvyluvs 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 15

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    Been wearing polish on my hands for the past few months 24/7 after letting people around me know I like to do it. I am straight and have a girlfriend who likes it and encouraged me...
    Mirinesse Mirinesse 46-50 2 Responses Apr 21

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    I can't listen to because of you because it feels like my life, it's just too painful
    okitr okitr 36-40, F 1 day ago

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    Usually money. Its an absolute pain when you go out. Even some jeans just have fake pockets. Its safer to keep a bit in your bra in case you put down your bag somewhere and it gets...
    Gemma1990 Gemma1990 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    It's like I have so many things to be mad about but whenever I want to let them out it almost seems like other people are offended by it as in they don't want to be around someone...
    FriendshipQ FriendshipQ 13-15, F Apr 14

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    I have no choice. I have to hide my boyfriend because he has been deemed unworthy by my stepfather, and therefore is dead if he steps anywhere near the premises. I hide my job...
    Ginkofishin Ginkofishin 18-21, F 2 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    I hope you like this poem I made its called A Wall That Surrounds My Heart You know the girl who smiles With the brightest one of all? You may think you know her, But that's not...
    RavenNightwing RavenNightwing 16-17, F Apr 5

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    I hide a lot of my quirkiness from my family. One time a let some quirkiness slip and my sisters thought I was on drugs. (by the way, I DON'T DO DRUGS)
    reivven reivven 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 10

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    The crazy size I hide that. When I outside with my friends I get so crazy, I dance to people who's playing off buckets to play music, I crack corny jokes, i make food faces. I'm...
    lorrena19 lorrena19 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 10

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    I hide things from my family and now they think I am a good person..... when I barely show any feelings for those I don't care for. No remorse for them.... or anything for them. I...
    AnonWesker AnonWesker 13-15, M 1 Response Apr 10

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    I think nights are the most difficult. To try and sleep after you've forced yourself to sleep all day. To lay in bed when your body is restless from laying. Which in return forces...
    74Kitty 74Kitty 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 13

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    I hide everything inside and I hate it I have no one to open up to and talk about my feelings I hate it!!!! I jut need someone who'll listen but ughh **** I can neer fin someone
    DarkWorld21 DarkWorld21 13-15, F Apr 15

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    I can't hide my cuts anymore. They cover my legs. It's almost summer time/shorts time. Fml. I have no idea what to do.
    ImagineA ImagineA 16-17 Apr 18

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    I fake smile to hide my sadness only around my crush because I done want him to see me sad because its his fault and I don't want to tell him it's his fault.
    skyegraeler skyegraeler 13-15, F 8 Responses 6 days ago

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    Who else hides there emotions with a smile? I do it all the time...life is hard
    livelaughlovechild livelaughlovechild 16-17, F 11 Responses 2 days ago

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    I always know when my period comes because of the pain. It's pain that hurts but isn't at the stage where I'm thinking "I can't deal with this anymore". It's like an alarm clock...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 1 Response Apr 25

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    I wish there was an easy way to end my suffering. I often wonder what I've done to deserve to always suffer. I'm tired of the pain. The physical pain, the mental pain and the...
    St4rbright St4rbright 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 26

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    Let me get straight to the point. Love is painful. It is no other way. It cannot be changed. It is pain in love. People turn the world upside down seeking for someone to love...
    Babeondwy Babeondwy 41-45, F 2 days ago

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    Pain is nothing. Pain is a restraint that you can overcome. No matter what pain physical or emotional it will go away. Pain is terrible but will heal. Pain is an obstacle that can...
    Hispan Hispan 13-15, M Apr 24

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