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I Hide My Pain

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    These brown shades, cover up my dark eyes from

    a life time of mental pain. Pain that I was forced to keep inside, never to let out. Pain that made feel death's icy touch, not even the choice whether to let it out. It was forced to stay in. Over my life time it has turned me into a monster. So, I hide it all behind these...
    UnconditionallyGone UnconditionallyGone 16-17, M Oct 30, 2014

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    Just Smile

    Is what I tell myself.  I think that if I keep smiling, and telling myself that everything will be okay, then maybe it will, but deep inside I know that it wont.  Smiling you can hide what you're going through from eveybody eles but you can't hide it from yourself...
    BehindBlueEyes11 BehindBlueEyes11 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 24, 2009

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    It's Better That Way

    Let people see they have hurt you and they will do it again.
    BeteNoire BeteNoire 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 2, 2010

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    It Hurts

    no one really knows how i feel. i am hurting so much iside and i dont show anyone. i just put on a happy face for the crowd.
    LelouchZero LelouchZero 18-21, T Apr 12, 2010

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    Days I'm So Tired

    I am superwoman. Isn't that ridiculous? I wish sometime I had someone I could could just go to, curl up on their shoulder for a little while and cry. And not have to explain, in detail, why. I have a cousin with cancer, that scares the hell out of me, and it hurts so deep i can...
    Tzech Tzech 46-50, F 4 Responses Nov 4, 2008

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    Ugh..the Small Things

    The house I live in from top to bottom is a total mess trash in the living room, trash in the kitchen and bathrooms and mine and my brothers room I cant do it alone but I would be willing to clean only that cleaning just a small part of the house like the living room will be...
    skyrain skyrain 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 11, 2011

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    Sometimes my heart feels like it's absolutely

    full to the brim, it's so heavy it's almost as though the pure weight of it is dragging it downwards, and I can feel all my emotions whirling around inside it like a turbulent sea. Sometimes I wish I could say "I'm hurting" more often but I can't. Sometimes I wish I could put my...
    AngelofPink AngelofPink 70+, F 3 Responses Mar 1

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    Hidden Beneath The Skin

    ive realised that if by chance you show your pain, people see you as vulnerable, weak and seeking attention which is usually the complete oppisite to how we feel. i hide my pain in my paintings, they seem happy, but in actual fact, they each have a secret message hidden inside...
    boeboeQ boeboeQ 16-17, F Jun 30, 2011

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    I Am a Pro...........

    If they handed out awards for the best performance, I would receive the OSCAR! I am very good at hiding my pain. Especially from my family. They have so much on their plates, that I never bother trying to get them to help me with mine. I've spent years doing what I have to do for...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Apr 18, 2009

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    With My Writing...

    I hide my pain with my writing. I get a lot of my pain out in writing short stories, or writing on EP, sometimes it is the only thing that helps me at all. I feel terrible sometimes, but writing helps me hide it a little better, or at least get the pain leveal down to the point...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 8, 2009

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    All of It.

    Both emotional and physical - it makes no difference.  I don't see the use of letting something so awful shine through for everyone else to witness. Funny how pain, is such a private and personal thing.
    rockyj rockyj 31-35, F 3 Responses Mar 5, 2009

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    Very tired. Just want all the emotional an physical pain to at least ease up, give me a break....just for a little while....
    GhostOfGrey GhostOfGrey 31-35, F 3 hrs ago

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    the pain just makes me feel more alive.
    urnesha urnesha 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 4

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    everyday i where a fake smile so no one know the real pain i go through everyday
    haileeboo1202 haileeboo1202 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 5

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    Hideously cute?... Is an oxymoron... Hideous (as in ugly or disgusting to look at) Cute (as in pretty, handsome, easy on the eyes to look at) I'm pretty sure that people know if...
    A1m1A A1m1A 46-50, M 2 Responses Mar 14

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    Why can't anyone see the pain in my eyes, why does no one care when I sit alone or even when I'm crying
    FallenXProphecy FallenXProphecy 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 18

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    There're lots of sadness in my heart. There're lots of pain in my heart. I'm completely overwhelmed. And i have none who can share with me.
    Juri0902 Juri0902 31-35, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    These last couple of days have been the worst of my life, I found a lump in my underarm, I was worried but enough to go to the doc, but not that much. Cancer goes in my family, but...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    why do u hide I hide because if I show that I am troubled my group will jump on to make me feel better but I'm know as a leader of leaders they look to me for strength
    ggbeauty ggbeauty 16-17 2 Responses Mar 5

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    It's always a race for me to quickly go unnoticed and escape every place where there are people. I'm so afraid that if I can't get away I'm usually shaking and trying to hide...
    rosesandcharlie rosesandcharlie 13-15, F Mar 3

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    I love them but I hide them and don't like showing others. They are personal
    iSceneGirl iSceneGirl 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 8

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    Well, they say the biggest smile hides the darkest secret...and i agree with that... I try everyday making people smile and making their day good.. But im actually waiting for...
    rexplayton rexplayton 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 10

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    Yes.i do. but this is not healthy... it's time to brake bad habits for me. For example i have couple of new friends in my life now.I moved to this city lately. And just two who i'm...
    Juri0902 Juri0902 31-35, F Mar 13

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    Yes, it's true I hide my tears but only because I must never show anyone that I am weak, in strong on the inside but I must never let anyone see me for who I really am, I cry alone...
    ACAC2000 ACAC2000 13-15 Mar 15

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    I don't know why people have blank photos on here. A lot of them hide behind anonymity and are not only rude but are disgusting. Idk, I just find it weird to communicate with a...
    IllusionaryGentleman39 IllusionaryGentleman39 18-21, M Mar 17

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    Nobody from my school knows I'm depressed. Mainly my "friends" I just hide it so I don't have to explain anything.
    Butterflyyana Butterflyyana 16-17, F Mar 19

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    I smile to hide sadness. It really helps though because smiling releases endorphins making me happier. It gives credit to the statement fake it till you make it.
    Thespistx Thespistx 26-30, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I wish people wouldn't hide their sadness. I understand sometimes you feel like you'd be burdening someone or you feel like nobody cares. But bottling things up is very dangerous...
    Raptax231 Raptax231 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Whether it's with the eye I'm legally blind with, or the migraine headaches, the persistent back pain, or the pain in my feet from standing or walking for any length of time, I...
    halfblind79 halfblind79 31-35, M 1 Response Mar 3

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    I used to think my life was filled with pain. Once upon a time, I believed that all of my problems were going to kill me. The pain of heartbreak- my boyfriend falling for somebody...
    itsaggggthang itsaggggthang 26-30, F Mar 8

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    My life has sucked a bit, and as such I have had plenty of opportunity to try out the range of painkillers out there from paracetamol to morphine, and not one of them work on me at...
    MrWinstonSmith MrWinstonSmith 22-25, M Mar 22

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    I was diagnosed with it three years ago. I slowly started to realize that my level of pain probably wasn’t in the average range when it increased with each day. I sometimes...
    mishale80 mishale80 31-35, F 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    I got married in October, and we both discussed that we would both work full time until we had kids, and then I would be a stay at home mom while the kids are little. I've been...
    in1medias1res in1medias1res 26-30, F Mar 16

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    My mother suffers from a lot of things. One of her legs is longer then the other so she had bad posture and her back hurts all the time. It got to the point to where it hurt so...
    WlCKED WlCKED 18-21, F Mar 22

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    I have been in chronic pain for 25 years, what that has taught me I would like to share with others, My life was perfect, our four children were grown and on their own and we were...
    darlingrose darlingrose 70+, F 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    My husband has suffered with chronic pain for 6 years. He had a fusion thinking it was the root cause of his pain but it didn't help. He has tried every treatment under the moon...
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    It continues to hurt no matter what I do. Does it help that the other knows what they did was wrong and has promised not to do it again? How do you get past the pain and anger...
    tir3dw0man tir3dw0man 31-35, F Mar 8

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    fa male... do not know if pain is worth it. it just reminds me of how much i love him, but i thought i had no heart but now i know because im feeling tanta pain, very pain? what...
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