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I Hide My True Feelings

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    Wish I Could Express My Feelings...

     I always hide my true feelings until i reach my exploding point.  Instead, I tend to appear happy on the surface...and the happier I seem and the more witty comments I make...the more I am hurting inside.  I use caffeine as an escape. When I don't want to think...
    xxWHATEVERxx xxWHATEVERxx 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 30, 2009

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    A Defense Mechanism Against Women

    I am an open book around my parents and family, and my male friends. So far none of them have betrayed that. I used to be more open with women, but now I just keep my feelings locked away from them, and try not to show too much emotion. My feelings and emotions have been used...
    SuperheroFanboy SuperheroFanboy 26-30, M 3 Responses May 17, 2013

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    My True Feelings Are Bubbling At The Surface

    When everyone sees me, they only see my face. My smile, my blue eyes, my brown hair and my laughter. But there are things i never let my friends see.  those are the things underneath my skin. There are days i'll be depressed because im having dark thoughts and thinking about...
    BookFreak01 BookFreak01 13-15, F Dec 18, 2009

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    I Keep It All Locked Up Inside

    I never talk about my feelings and I always keep them hidden away. I bottle up my problems until I explode. I wish I could show friends and family how I really feel.  My friends see me as "the happy one" with no problems because I try to be optimistic & help others with...
    lucii lucii 16-17 4 Responses Jan 29, 2011

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    Fake...

    I laugh to hide my shame, I smile because I am embarassed. I hide my feelings because it hurts too much to show them. When I open up I get ignored or put down. Sometimes I just need a hug but even thats more than people think I deserve.
    AloneInThisLife AloneInThisLife 22-25 Dec 28, 2012

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    Anonymous Coward

    But thank goodness that I can express my true feelings anonymously else I think I'd explode!!!!!!!!!! The boys who have hurt me will never know the extent of the pain they've caused me. My parents will never know how mad I am at them... My mom for never letting me have an...
    annathom annathom 26-30, F 10 Responses Jan 12, 2008

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    SCJohnny SCJohnny 61-65, M 3 Responses Jun 13, 2014

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    I Want Them To Understand

    My family is really kind and fun. But I really hate it when they don't understand. I have an older sister that they ALWAYS compare me to. I really hate it. I won't ever turn out like my older sister. I hate it when they compare me with other people. I wish they understood how I...
    Tili56427 Tili56427 13-15, F Dec 28, 2012

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    I always have a smile on my face

    even if I'm broken inside. I only tell my feelings, people sometimes ask me: 'you are always happy how do you do that?' I don't answer that and run away.
    VanjaBraat VanjaBraat 13-15, F May 5, 2014

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    I Always Hide My Feelings

    Well I always hide my feelings. I told myself that I should just pretend to always be happy. I say it's for other people but I honestly think that it's just for me. I guess I just don't want to show everyone my depressing sad side. I usually say I don't want anyone to worry. That...
    Tili56427 Tili56427 13-15, F 4 Responses Dec 28, 2012

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    Faking a smile, pretending to be happy,

    always acting as if being the tough character when I'm not, feels broken inside, alone, feels unloved... Always trying to stretch a smile on my friends' faces while I can't do so, acting to be happy and cheerful in front of everyone :/ Yet, who knows how much I'm broken from...
    exhuberantviolet exhuberantviolet 18-21, F Dec 5, 2014

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    I Never Talk About My Feelings

    This has become a real problem for me and it has been for a long time now i have had a lot of people tell me that it's okay for me to talk to them and that if i ever have a problem i can call them but most of the people who have said that to me i very rarely take them up on the...
    rmcrockett rmcrockett 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 6, 2012

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    I hide my true feelings I think

    because I'm afraid that people won't understand what I am. It's fine if they don't accept, but what I hate most is when you start explaining to them why you are the way you are like I mean "I don't owe you or anyone an explanation with my life so can't you just leave it like...
    hajelove19 hajelove19 18-21, F Jun 13, 2014

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    Now You See Me Now You Don't

    You see me, maybe you introduce yourself to me. Your first impression, I am a happy person, smiling at you. I am loud, my voice carries. I am short, you look down at me, only five feet tall. I have bad vision, thick glasses. Maybe you see me as a leader, maybe you see me as a...
    Swanfirefly Swanfirefly 18-21, F Jan 6, 2013

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    Now Guarded

    My feelings are foulable faulty and fraid There is no logic in their reason Leaving me hurt in my dismay Turning against me, committing treason That one time I let them free They ran rampant and uncontrollable Just to turn around and laugh at me That pain was completely...
    whisperingsunshine whisperingsunshine 31-35, F 13 Responses Mar 15, 2011

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    Ugh I Hate It!

    I have so many many things that I wish I had the guts to say... not bad things mostly... good things... really good things. But I just can't... I can't get up the courage to just say them! Why can't I just have a little more backbone... and courage. UGH!
    slightlyscrambled slightlyscrambled 18-21, F Sep 23, 2010

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    Protection Or Something Else?

    Sometimes when I am at my Saturday school I tend to get a little shy but not that much. One day this girl asked me if I liked her dress and I said sure but underneath I was just thinking it was too flashy. that same day I saw this kid bullying another kkid and I wanted to tell...
    cute4me cute4me 16-17, T Mar 2, 2012

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    For quite a while a lot of bad things are

    happening around me and it hurts me a lot, but when I am around my family and friends and I see their problems I hide mine and try to help them, but as soon as I'm on my own I just get really sad.
    sweetxdreamsx sweetxdreamsx 18-21, F Jan 10

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    This is mostly an acceptance issue I believe.

    I'm always scared of showing my feelings, let alone talk about them. I'm not sure i ever have really. Sometimes I wish I could just be honest and say how I truly feel or what I really want to, but I just can't. So I hide behind lies and fear, and end up regretting it later, or...
    blooop123 blooop123 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 13, 2014

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    sologamer sologamer 13-15, F May 26, 2014

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    I Think I Know Why. . . ?

    Now dat I think bout diz. I think I no y. I'm always happy, smiling, in a good mood. & ppl think I'm 'perfect', dat I never have problems. But da truth is, i do. Don't we all? I guess I dnt want others to no bout my problems. I guess u can say I'm ashamed.but I wud like it, if...
    xMariaaax xMariaaax 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 26, 2010

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    Crying

    Why would I show my emotions now? What do I have to gain from letting stuff out? What benefit could come from showing when I hurt? His insults hurt from the first, but anger was all that hit me when he called me a pig. Then he said right before apologizing that he didn’t mean...
    Swanfirefly Swanfirefly 18-21, F Jan 19, 2013

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    Emotionally Reserved

    it seems like people who were really afraid to talk about their "true feelings" wouldn't say anything here
    leptar leptar 18-21, M Apr 10, 2013

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    I Keep It All Locked Up But It's Going Down

    I hardly ever show/tell my true feelings. I have always hid them. When I post stuff like that no one knows me on facebook my friend said "Why are you saying this? You are always happy at school! You're just trying to act all emo and scene!" I hate when people say that! Just...
    TopKitten TopKitten 13-15, F 2 Responses May 20, 2012

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    If some people knew how hurt I felt by them

    and by this world it would only hurt them more
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 2, 2014

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    Somebody close to me always tells me

    that I need to tell her my feeling more and what I'm feeling. The problem is is that I don't know how to and it makes me uncomfortable.
    Mindofanintrovert Mindofanintrovert 16-17, F Jan 1

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    Online and Outside

    I am very emotional. I have found it easy to just keep my feelings inside and release them when I am alonee. I hate people thinking I'm weak. I keep to myself in the outside world. Then I can come on here and I never feel like I'm being judged. So I find myself sharring my...
    hopeless101 hopeless101 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 23, 2013

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    saniorita saniorita 22-25, F Jun 13, 2014

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    Why why why only me I am

    so sweet so innocent and I'm getting treated like this I really don't know how much longer I can take this but I'm holding on very strongly I live in hope every day hope it will get better
    JamOnly JamOnly 13-15, M Jan 8

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    I hate it, but I do it

    so often, and I'm so good at it now. It's frustrating because sometimes, I really do want to cry out for help, and sometimes, I really do NEED to cry out for help, but I'm so used to hiding things and pretending that everything is okay, that I can't convey my feelings well. It...
    Boulier Boulier 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 13

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    Lately I've been feeling like a complete failure... I know I'm going to **** off a lot of people by saying this... But I just have to let it out. I can't smile through this anymore...
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    the world is so small when compared to the universe. the universe is growing am I? how am I expanding with the space that is newly created every day? am I filling it all or am I...
    bigheartsmallworld bigheartsmallworld 36-40, M 6 hrs ago

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    thestral33 thestral33 18-21, F 2 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    Ever have a secret you want people to know? But you cant tell them because the burden of it haunted you for years telling you "no one will ever love you". You want to get this off...
    8ark22 8ark22 16-17, M 2 days ago

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    So recently I've found out that my boyfriend was cheating on me with another girl in our school. (Same grade and all) I couldn't believe it. So I kept on ignoring him and gave him...
    alchemistbabe alchemistbabe 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I like it when you tell me you miss me I like it when you tell me you're thinking about me I like it when you seem to be so addictive to me I like it when you adore me even when I...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa 22-25, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I like it when you tell me you miss me I like it when you tell me you're thinking about me I like it when you seem to be so addictive to me I like it when you adore me even when I...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa 22-25, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Looking for JOY?I am deeply sorry for your pain, whatever it may be. Life can be so hard and painful...full of regrets. No one seems to be immune. However, it doesn't have to stay...
    GraceIsMine GraceIsMine 66-70, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    **** you feelings....since these three words aren't enough for EP to let me post then maybe I should say it a few more times, **** you feelings, **** you feelings, **** you...
    Betruebnis Betruebnis 22-25, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    people around me see the happiest girl on earth! but I hide my depression pretty well. I am just not pleased with the way my life is .I try to change it but its like something is...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I'm trying to open up and be more outgoing and tell them my feelings, but it's soo hard. Not giving up though.
    Cessydesu Cessydesu 13-15, F a week ago

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    I just there was someone I could tell all my secrets, fears, and pain. For the first time I am able to open up about myself. I still keep most inside but I'm starting to open. My...
    veranique veranique 18-21, F a week ago

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    Hush me, touch me Perfume, the wind and the leaves Hush me, touch me The burns, the holes in the sheets I'm hoping the smoke Hides the shame I've got on my face Cognac and broken...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 25

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