I Hide My True Feelings

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    and I'm sick of it. sick of pretending like

    everything is alright and I am okay and my life is perfect... **** you all, I am not okay, I have scars, I cut myself, I am so angry I can punch the walls hurt myself and other people. but you will never understand because the only thing you care about is you. ******* ignorant...
    darklotus01 darklotus01
    13-15, T
    3 Responses Feb 18, 2016

    Emotionally Reserved

    it seems like people who were really afraid to talk about their "true feelings" wouldn't say anything here
    leptar leptar
    18-21, M
    Apr 10, 2013

    Now Guarded

    My feelings are foulable faulty and fraid There is no logic in their reason Leaving me hurt in my dismay Turning against me, committing treason That one time I let them free They ran rampant and uncontrollable Just to turn around and laugh at me That pain was completely...
    whisperingsunshine whisperingsunshine
    31-35, F
    13 Responses Mar 15, 2011

    I have a distinct hatred

    for someone and yet can do nothing about it. even if it wasn't that he lived in a different state entirely, I'd get live in prison at least for what I'd do to him...
    KuranesSteilsin KuranesSteilsin
    18-21, M
    Feb 22, 2016

    I hate it, but I do it

    so often, and I'm so good at it now. It's frustrating because sometimes, I really do want to cry out for help, and sometimes, I really do NEED to cry out for help, but I'm so used to hiding things and pretending that everything is okay, that I can't convey my feelings well. It...
    Boulier Boulier
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Aug 13, 2015

    For quite a while a lot of bad things are

    happening around me and it hurts me a lot, but when I am around my family and friends and I see their problems I hide mine and try to help them, but as soon as I'm on my own I just get really sad.
    sweetxdreamsx sweetxdreamsx
    18-21, F
    Jan 10, 2015

    This is mostly an acceptance issue I believe.

    I'm always scared of showing my feelings, let alone talk about them. I'm not sure i ever have really. Sometimes I wish I could just be honest and say how I truly feel or what I really want to, but I just can't. So I hide behind lies and fear, and end up regretting it later, or...
    blooop123 blooop123
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Jun 13, 2014

    I hide my feelings in real life

    because of gender stereotypes. I don't like how men can't talk about their feelings because it would just make them into big p••sies. Like why do I have to hold in something that hurts so much, homosexuals embrace that, most of those guys don't mind sharing their feelings...
    Tagstar2000 Tagstar2000
    16-17, M
    1 Response Feb 18, 2016

    Every day I get up and go to school

    and all is fine. I have a good relationship with my teachers and I sometimes even stay after school to help them with some things but it is mostly because I want to avoid being at home where I am constantly put down by my mother and father.
    joeyig joeyig
    18-21, M
    1 Response Sep 18, 2015
    sologamer sologamer
    16-17, F
    May 26, 2014

    I Always Hide My Feelings

    Well I always hide my feelings. I told myself that I should just pretend to always be happy. I say it's for other people but I honestly think that it's just for me. I guess I just don't want to show everyone my depressing sad side. I usually say I don't want anyone to worry. That...
    Tili56427 Tili56427
    13-15, F
    4 Responses Dec 28, 2012

    I've been going throught some really bad ****

    lately bit I don't feel I can't show my feelings to anyone. It's as if I knew someone would use it against me or even distorce my words...
    uryell uryell
    26-30, F
    Feb 21, 2016
    iLucyJ iLucyJ
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 26, 2016

    i want to tell something

    but i cant, i just cant help but to cry and release all the pain even i cant tell. :'(
    Emzie28 Emzie28
    18-21, F
    Nov 27, 2015

    Why why why only me I am

    so sweet so innocent and I'm getting treated like this I really don't know how much longer I can take this but I'm holding on very strongly I live in hope every day hope it will get better
    JamOnly JamOnly
    16-17, M
    Jan 8, 2015

    I've hidden them so long I can't

    even find them now... The only reason I know they're there is because I'm still tempted to act irrationally, and from the temptation I can infer the emotion. I can't actually FEEL it.
    jason1stlegion jason1stlegion
    26-30, M
    Feb 17, 2016

    Faking a smile, pretending to be happy,

    always acting as if being the tough character when I'm not, feels broken inside, alone, feels unloved... Always trying to stretch a smile on my friends' faces while I can't do so, acting to be happy and cheerful in front of everyone :/ Yet, who knows how much I'm broken from...
    exhuberantviolet exhuberantviolet
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 5, 2014

    I think we all hide a sliver of ourselves

    once in awhile. Even as someone as honest as myself. Now, I'm very open and communicate it to others clearly, but I don't express the severity of a feeling. For example if I am very upset to the brink of tears, I say I'm angry but use sarcasm to fluff it up and make it sound as...
    deleted deleted
    Feb 18, 2016

    I can't get my feelings out very well.

    I tend to bottle them up inside for so long that when I try to talk about them I can't make it into words. I wish I could have someone in my life that I felt comfortable talking too so I didn't have to hide my feelings
    deleted deleted
    Sep 17, 2015

    I don't people a lot of things (even on the

    internet when i have anonymity) most of the times because I'm afraid of their judgement, and I feel this way a lot too when there's people staring at me. It feels like everyone's out to get me a lot of times, even though I know that's not true I still feel it
    AskingOfMiceAndPiercedBrides AskingOfMiceAndPiercedBrides
    16-17, F
    Sep 20, 2015

    I hide away in my bedroom,

    depressed, sad, dwelling on the past and nobody knows.. listening to music to try and distract me but it makes me think of you. Tears roll down my cheeks as I remember the times where I was so happy all the time. I'm so different without you. My family and friends wouldn't even...
    shadowwolf24 shadowwolf24
    16-17, F
    Sep 12, 2015

    If some people knew how hurt I felt by them

    and by this world it would only hurt them more
    deleted deleted
    Feb 2, 2014

    Now You See Me Now You Don't

    You see me, maybe you introduce yourself to me. Your first impression, I am a happy person, smiling at you. I am loud, my voice carries. I am short, you look down at me, only five feet tall. I have bad vision, thick glasses. Maybe you see me as a leader, maybe you see me as a...
    Swanfirefly Swanfirefly
    18-21, F
    Jan 6, 2013
    deleted deleted
    Feb 18, 2016

    Online and Outside

    I am very emotional. I have found it easy to just keep my feelings inside and release them when I am alonee. I hate people thinking I'm weak. I keep to myself in the outside world. Then I can come on here and I never feel like I'm being judged. So I find myself sharring my...
    hopeless101 hopeless101
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 23, 2013
    saniorita saniorita
    22-25, F
    Jun 13, 2014

    I Keep It All Locked Up Inside

    I never talk about my feelings and I always keep them hidden away. I bottle up my problems until I explode. I wish I could show friends and family how I really feel.  My friends see me as "the happy one" with no problems because I try to be optimistic & help others with...
    lucii lucii
    4 Responses Jan 29, 2011

    A Defense Mechanism Against Women

    I am an open book around my parents and family, and my male friends. So far none of them have betrayed that. I used to be more open with women, but now I just keep my feelings locked away from them, and try not to show too much emotion. My feelings and emotions have been used...
    SuperheroFanboy SuperheroFanboy
    26-30, M
    3 Responses May 17, 2013

    Anonymous Coward

    But thank goodness that I can express my true feelings anonymously else I think I'd explode!!!!!!!!!! The boys who have hurt me will never know the extent of the pain they've caused me. My parents will never know how mad I am at them... My mom for never letting me have an...
    annathom annathom
    26-30, F
    10 Responses Jan 12, 2008
    SCJohnny SCJohnny
    61-65, M
    3 Responses Jun 13, 2014

    I really dislike showing my feelings

    because it make me feel so weak..
    Fenriis Fenriis
    18-21, T
    1 Response Feb 17, 2016

    Somebody close to me always tells me

    that I need to tell her my feeling more and what I'm feeling. The problem is is that I don't know how to and it makes me uncomfortable.
    Mindofanintrovert Mindofanintrovert
    18-21, F
    Jan 1, 2015
    jayjay388 jayjay388
    26-30, M
    Feb 18, 2016

    I hide my true feelings I think

    because I'm afraid that people won't understand what I am. It's fine if they don't accept, but what I hate most is when you start explaining to them why you are the way you are like I mean "I don't owe you or anyone an explanation with my life so can't you just leave it like...
    hajelove19 hajelove19
    22-25, F
    Jun 13, 2014

    I always have a smile on my face

    even if I'm broken inside. I only tell my feelings, people sometimes ask me: 'you are always happy how do you do that?' I don't answer that and run away.
    VanjaBraat VanjaBraat
    16-17, F
    May 5, 2014

    I Keep It All Locked Up But It's Going Down

    I hardly ever show/tell my true feelings. I have always hid them. When I post stuff like that no one knows me on facebook my friend said "Why are you saying this? You are always happy at school! You're just trying to act all emo and scene!" I hate when people say that! Just...
    TopKitten TopKitten
    13-15, F
    2 Responses May 20, 2012
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