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I Hide My True Feelings

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    If some people knew how hurt I felt by them

    and by this world it would only hurt them more
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 2

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    Wish I Could Express My Feelings...

     I always hide my true feelings until i reach my exploding point.  Instead, I tend to appear happy on the surface...and the happier I seem and the more witty comments I make...the more I am hurting inside.  I use caffeine as an escape. When I don't want to think...
    xxWHATEVERxx xxWHATEVERxx 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 30, 2009

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    I always have a smile on my face

    even if I'm broken inside. I only tell my feelings, people sometimes ask me: 'you are always happy how do you do that?' I don't answer that and run away.
    VanjaBraat VanjaBraat 13-15, F May 5

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    A Defense Mechanism Against Women

    I am an open book around my parents and family, and my male friends. So far none of them have betrayed that. I used to be more open with women, but now I just keep my feelings locked away from them, and try not to show too much emotion. My feelings and emotions have been used...
    SuperheroFanboy SuperheroFanboy 26-30, M 4 Responses May 17, 2013

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    SCJohnny SCJohnny 61-65, M 3 Responses Jun 13

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    Now You See Me Now You Don't

    You see me, maybe you introduce yourself to me. Your first impression, I am a happy person, smiling at you. I am loud, my voice carries. I am short, you look down at me, only five feet tall. I have bad vision, thick glasses. Maybe you see me as a leader, maybe you see me as a...
    Swanfirefly Swanfirefly 18-21, F Jan 6, 2013

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    Protection Or Something Else?

    Sometimes when I am at my Saturday school I tend to get a little shy but not that much. One day this girl asked me if I liked her dress and I said sure but underneath I was just thinking it was too flashy. that same day I saw this kid bullying another kkid and I wanted to tell...
    cute4me cute4me 13-15, T Mar 2, 2012

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    Emotionally Reserved

    it seems like people who were really afraid to talk about their "true feelings" wouldn't say anything here
    leptar leptar 18-21, M Apr 10, 2013

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    Ugh I Hate It!

    I have so many many things that I wish I had the guts to say... not bad things mostly... good things... really good things. But I just can't... I can't get up the courage to just say them! Why can't I just have a little more backbone... and courage. UGH!
    slightlyscrambled slightlyscrambled 18-21, F Sep 23, 2010

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    My True Feelings Are Bubbling At The Surface

    When everyone sees me, they only see my face. My smile, my blue eyes, my brown hair and my laughter. But there are things i never let my friends see.  those are the things underneath my skin. There are days i'll be depressed because im having dark thoughts and thinking about...
    BookFreak01 BookFreak01 13-15, F Dec 18, 2009

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    I Want Them To Understand

    My family is really kind and fun. But I really hate it when they don't understand. I have an older sister that they ALWAYS compare me to. I really hate it. I won't ever turn out like my older sister. I hate it when they compare me with other people. I wish they understood how I...
    Tili56427 Tili56427 13-15, F Dec 28, 2012

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    I Keep It All Locked Up Inside

    I never talk about my feelings and I always keep them hidden away. I bottle up my problems until I explode. I wish I could show friends and family how I really feel.  My friends see me as "the happy one" with no problems because I try to be optimistic & help others with...
    lucii lucii 16-17 4 Responses Jan 29, 2011

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    Anonymous Coward

    But thank goodness that I can express my true feelings anonymously else I think I'd explode!!!!!!!!!! The boys who have hurt me will never know the extent of the pain they've caused me. My parents will never know how mad I am at them... My mom for never letting me have an...
    annathom annathom 26-30, F 10 Responses Jan 12, 2008

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    I hide my true feelings I think

    because I'm afraid that people won't understand what I am. It's fine if they don't accept, but what I hate most is when you start explaining to them why you are the way you are like I mean "I don't owe you or anyone an explanation with my life so can't you just leave it like...
    hajelove19 hajelove19 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 13

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    I Always Hide My Feelings

    Well I always hide my feelings. I told myself that I should just pretend to always be happy. I say it's for other people but I honestly think that it's just for me. I guess I just don't want to show everyone my depressing sad side. I usually say I don't want anyone to worry. That...
    Tili56427 Tili56427 13-15, F 5 Responses Dec 28, 2012

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    I Keep It All Locked Up But It's Going Down

    I hardly ever show/tell my true feelings. I have always hid them. When I post stuff like that no one knows me on facebook my friend said "Why are you saying this? You are always happy at school! You're just trying to act all emo and scene!" I hate when people say that! Just...
    TopKitten TopKitten 13-15, F 2 Responses May 20, 2012

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    This is mostly an acceptance issue I believe.

    I'm always scared of showing my feelings, let alone talk about them. I'm not sure i ever have really. Sometimes I wish I could just be honest and say how I truly feel or what I really want to, but I just can't. So I hide behind lies and fear, and end up regretting it later, or...
    blooop123 blooop123 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 13

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    Online and Outside

    I am very emotional. I have found it easy to just keep my feelings inside and release them when I am alonee. I hate people thinking I'm weak. I keep to myself in the outside world. Then I can come on here and I never feel like I'm being judged. So I find myself sharring my...
    hopeless101 hopeless101 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 23, 2013

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    Fake...

    I laugh to hide my shame, I smile because I am embarassed. I hide my feelings because it hurts too much to show them. When I open up I get ignored or put down. Sometimes I just need a hug but even thats more than people think I deserve.
    AloneInThisLife AloneInThisLife 22-25 Dec 28, 2012

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    I Think I Know Why. . . ?

    Now dat I think bout diz. I think I no y. I'm always happy, smiling, in a good mood. & ppl think I'm 'perfect', dat I never have problems. But da truth is, i do. Don't we all? I guess I dnt want others to no bout my problems. I guess u can say I'm ashamed.but I wud like it, if...
    xMariaaax xMariaaax 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 26, 2010

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    saniorita saniorita 18-21, F Jun 13

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    Now Guarded

    My feelings are foulable faulty and fraid There is no logic in their reason Leaving me hurt in my dismay Turning against me, committing treason That one time I let them free They ran rampant and uncontrollable Just to turn around and laugh at me That pain was completely...
    whisperingsunshine whisperingsunshine 31-35, F 13 Responses Mar 15, 2011

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    Crying

    Why would I show my emotions now? What do I have to gain from letting stuff out? What benefit could come from showing when I hurt? His insults hurt from the first, but anger was all that hit me when he called me a pig. Then he said right before apologizing that he didn’t mean...
    Swanfirefly Swanfirefly 18-21, F Jan 19, 2013

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    Faking a smile, pretending to be happy,

    always acting as if being the tough character when I'm not, feels broken inside, alone, feels unloved... Always trying to stretch a smile on my friends' faces while I can't do so, acting to be happy and cheerful in front of everyone :/ Yet, who knows how much I'm broken from...
    exhuberantviolet exhuberantviolet 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 5

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    sologamer sologamer 13-15, F May 26

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    I Never Talk About My Feelings

    This has become a real problem for me and it has been for a long time now i have had a lot of people tell me that it's okay for me to talk to them and that if i ever have a problem i can call them but most of the people who have said that to me i very rarely take them up on the...
    rmcrockett rmcrockett 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 6, 2012

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    You know what they say Fake it until you make it.
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    I do nothing for myself, except love. Eveything i do is done so that i can better protect and provide for the ones i love. If i did not love then i would be lost, for i have no...
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    I'm a sensitive person and I get offended easily.
    OwlWolf OwlWolf 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 25

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    I believe in honestly and treating otheres better in time as they deserve it after dealing with the trouble you give them lol
    butterflyofchange butterflyofchange 18-21, F Nov 25

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    I really love it when someone is just straight up honest. Like it can be a critique about me and I will still respect them for telling me straight up, it shows alot more respect in...
    soyacarton soyacarton 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 25

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    I'm an emotional person, that speaks my mind. I tell people the truth weather they like it or not. I'm not brutal, but I certainly never sugar coat... I hate it when people say one...
    BritBlack BritBlack 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 3

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    I think it's okay if people don't want to talk about specific things in their life, but it's better to say something like, "I'm sad today." instead of "I'm fine." so that I know...
    CaliginousHeart CaliginousHeart 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 3

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    "Mask" By, me Everyday I try to hide, behind the mask that covers my inside. A smile, a laugh, an I'm okay. Keeps them from seeing the pain I hide away. But sometimes a mask is...
    Spinningoutofcontrol Spinningoutofcontrol 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 4

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    Ever since i was a child i always noticed things that were saddening. No matter if others noticed it they would always move on as if it had never occurred. I couldn't fathom the...
    CuriousCausality CuriousCausality 22-25, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    when I was little my dad beat me and yelled not to cry...Or else I would get more... Perhaps that's how this all started then throughout my teen years I've had a few mentally...
    boxgirl1987 boxgirl1987 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 23

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    True love is rare unless you are talking about how a parent loves their child. I think about how I feel when my children pop in my head. I would never want to see them hurt or know...
    lake1107 lake1107 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 24

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    I am a clam, a sponge. I absorb and I don't show how heavy I find it. I hide in the shadows in my mind, and twinkle in the moonlight. I step out into the sun, but always I have...
    Skjeggstad Skjeggstad 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 22

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    What true love meant to me :Sometimes no words can describe the feelings you get for someone so special. How much your heart races when you get an sms from them, or when you see...
    MzPhoenix MzPhoenix 31-35, F 4 Responses Nov 25

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    it is so easy to pretend; although, it is so difficult to hide them when you are not here. Your strength gives me a reason, your weakness makes me angry but your absence kill me. I...
    Lhily Lhily 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 28

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    I love when people tend to show real and open feelings about themselves and share, by trusting the other person.
    spicycook spicycook 36-40, M Dec 5

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    21 guns- Greenday Do you know what's worth fighting for? When it's not worth dying for? Does it take your breath away and you feel yourself suffocating? Does the pain weigh out...
    trayomis trayomis 31-35, F Dec 7

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    I recently saw O.A.R. in concert and when they performed this song, I knew immediately it was going to be one of my favorites. Its a beautiful song and I wanted to share.  I...
    Indigolesbian70 Indigolesbian70 41-45, F Dec 9

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    "I'm not over I'm not over you just yet I cannot hide it you're not that easy to forget I'm not over"
    jax632 jax632 16-17, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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