I Hide the Pain With a Smile

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 389 People

    The Lie

    It's easier to smile and lie, yeah I'm fine. But I'm notToday, anyway...As the past tugs my heart, demanding attentionAs the future weighs heavily on me,Looking at cold lonely holidaysAnd the present smashes into meWith an armful of cutsAnd the guilty release they broughtBut I...
    Plaid Plaid
    31-35, F
    1 Response Nov 3, 2011

    Physical...and Emotional.

       I don't know if it's good thing....most likely not. But what can I say? I don't like to show it...I hide the scars. I hide the pain. I joke my way through the **** in my head because I for the most part...am not ready to realize how far I've sunk. I...
    luckypickle luckypickle
    11 Responses Sep 27, 2009

    I Am Learnig to Remove This

    I now understand that I can feel my feelings, own them, express them freely. The friends and family that I have in my life - are wonderfully supportive. They understand that no, my life is not perfect - and I can now openly say, 'No - I'm not OK', and the...
    MizzBlue72 MizzBlue72
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Feb 26, 2009

    Why Not?

    Who wants to look miserable in front of people? Especially out in public. No no, not for me.
    Melody08 Melody08
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 5, 2009

    What Else Am I Supposed to Do

    i hide the pain with a smile, because i dont want them to know how bad i am hurting!!!
    xxcoixx18xx xxcoixx18xx
    16-17, F
    Sep 16, 2009

    See Right Through It

    It was during school, in the washroom.. She's supposedly my best friend... "So, can I ask you a question?" she says. "Of course," I answer, although I know what's coming. "Are you over him?" I sigh. "Not even close." "But, the way you're acting..you're laughing and joking...
    xSilverWillowx xSilverWillowx
    18-21, F
    Jan 3, 2011

    I Do, I Don't Think The...

    I do, i don't think there's any point of burdening other people with your troubles, so i hide it and try to be cheerful,. Because at the end of the day, i often think of the famous phrase ''smile and the whole world smiles with you, cry and you cry alone!''
    welshbabe welshbabe
    46-50, F
    5 Responses Jun 19, 2009
    Anita191 Anita191
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 28, 2014

    A Little Poem...

    To express how I feel, because sometimes I can write it better in a poetry sense, than I can actually writing I know I have to hide the pain with a smile. I know that people will believe this smile. To let them see the tears fall Would just be me failing. So the smile is...
    deleted deleted
    Nov 19, 2010

    My Smiles Breaking.

    All through middle school I've smiled to hide my true depression. When I was 5, I watched my little sister's head get crushed by a tractor tire. As a little kid, I didn't really get the full grasp of the guilt of not saving her. Not until middle school when I had more common...
    Thelolplatypus Thelolplatypus
    16-17, F
    Dec 22, 2012

    I Have A Real Smile, A Shy Smile, An Embarrassed Smile, And A Lying Smile.

    AnimusVita AnimusVita
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Aug 20, 2011

    Its What I Am Suppose To Do....

    I know I have to hide the pain with a smile. I know that people will believe this smile. To let them see the tears fall Would just be me failing. So the smile is back on And the tears are pushed away Going to fool you all And Hide away again.
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Aug 16, 2010

    My Lil Sister

    about two years ago my sister passed away....we were really close we were always together....i miss her so much....she was 17 she was about to graduate high school she had all her life ahead...she passed away from leukemia....everything was so fast cuz we didntg know that she was...
    diaz777 diaz777
    18-21, F
    Apr 6, 2012


    I hear everyone in PAIN!!!!! and my thoughts go out to you all. Me, i suffer from chronic pain due to neufribromatosis, fibramiga, bleeding ulcers,hernia's,broken hip any many many more. Then the medications-some friends and family call me a junkie! Until people experience all...
    Anto815 Anto815
    46-50, F
    Jul 13, 2011

    Yep,i Do

    cause if i didnt,the people who love me would worry.
    sniperblue sniperblue
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Jun 23, 2009


    i dont half ***** about it on here!
    deleted deleted
    Aug 26, 2011


    Ive been through so much in my life and when im around people i tend to pretend everythings okay and smile! I dont like my family/friends knowing im hurting or upset. So i put a smile on. I like this quote it describes me to a t... She's an artist, a painter, actually see that...
    star26 star26
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Nov 30, 2008

    Has Become Second Nature....

    At work I always have a smile on my face and it is just second nature now. However bad I feel, I am still always smiling. Because of this, people think I am very happy which is a total lie. It's such a lie, it's ridiculous. Even today when I have felt really sad inside, I have...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Aug 15, 2011

    Well three days ago my boyfriend on 10 months

    told me that we shouldn't be together anymore but we're still close friends.
    Justforgetaboutme Justforgetaboutme
    13-15, F
    1 Response Oct 1, 2015

    Never Let My Mask Down...

    It's funny how I can smile no matter how I feel, and people always buy it. Something must show in my eyes though, not many people can hold eye contact with me. It always feels as if I'm wearing a theater mask, with only my eyes showing what I am really like. Smiling is my...
    pleasegivemeasmile21 pleasegivemeasmile21
    18-21, F
    Feb 22, 2009

    I Used to Cut My Self On My Left Wrist Close to the Vein.....

    when i first moved to texas i felt ok... but then i start midle school and in the sevventh grade i cut myself and my mom found and sent me to three mental hospitals..... when they told me i was depressed and bipolar... they put me on prezac... it made me worse.... i went again to...
    scaredtodeath94 scaredtodeath94
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Jun 23, 2009

    It was always like this.

    Instead of screaming and being ignored by everyone just hide it behind the best fake smile you can make because behind the brightest smile is a story that no one else knows except you. Behind the brightest smile is a secret hidden behind these walls. Behind the brightest smile...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses May 2, 2014

    Never Guess

    My parents don't know that I've been SH'ing again. My therapist doesn't know. The only person that knows is one of my guy friends. They didn't know i was doing it before until someone at school told on me. She knew about it. And could see it when I got dressed for gym. She...
    kotori4444 kotori4444
    13-15, F
    Mar 26, 2013

    I Still Hide My Pain.

    The Pain May Pause ,But Never Does It Go Away. So I Just Started To Act As If I Wasnt In Pain. I Put On A Smile So No One Will Know That Something IS Wrong.
    cry7 cry7
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Dec 18, 2008


             I have to hide the pain, since the pain is 24/7 physical pain from injuries, and hereditary problems. If I didn't I would probably go off on everyone.  I have found that on most days hiding the pain is the best thing to do. and a smile is the best way to show...
    lingerieme lingerieme
    51-55, M
    3 Responses Sep 9, 2011

    Blurry Path

    So this doesn't come as a surprise because the last couple of days I've been feeling like I sometimes do, worthless, pointless and more or less on the brink of suicide. I've been capable of numbing those thoughts, but I know I still feel that way as its like on the back of my...
    Khaleesi18 Khaleesi18
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 31, 2013
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