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I Hit Myself

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    Tonight I went a little further

    than normal. I wanted to full on abuse myself. I tied my ankles together and then I put a belt snug around my neck, sat on the floor and tied it to the bar for the hand towels in the bathroom. I took all my clothing off, and with my shirt still hanging around my neck, I cut my...
    innerself000 innerself000 18-21, F Apr 4

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    Past Tense

    When I was little, right up until I started cutting I would always hit myself in the head or the face when I did something wrong or when I felt trapped by a situation. I've heard it's a sign of autism, but.. I'd rather not go there <_<  It was always in private though...
    newmurderer newmurderer 70+ 3 Responses Jun 20, 2010

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    Reminds Me Of "liar Liar"

    This is a serious group, but it does remind me of the movie Liar Liar when Jim Carrey's beating himself up in a bathroom, and a man walks in on this. Horrified, he asks Carrey, "What are you doing??" Jim pauses and says, "I'm kicking my ***, do ya MIND!?" Makes me laugh. I just...
    chococat159 chococat159 18-21 1 Response Feb 2, 2012

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    Sometimes

    I am bad about smacking my hands when I do something stupid.
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 9, 2010

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    *sigh*

    i constantly hit my thighs with the remote when im watching TV its something fairly new it annoys everyone around me i also pull my hair out which is an older habit but lately ive started hitting my skull with my fist till my teeth hit each other and it scares me how insane that...
    j0di j0di 31-35, F Jan 5, 2013

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    I Hit Myself When My Feelings Are Hurt

    And when I can't cut. I hit myself this morning actually, I was awoken by sister who asked for some clothes of hers. I hadn't had a pillow that night and had thrown a bunch of clothes in a pillow case. I told I'd get them, she said why would you even do that if you have your...
    otter3 otter3 18-21, F Jun 20, 2010

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    It amazes me how much the pain of hitting

    yourself can mask the stress and turmoil of everything else around you. At least that's how it is for me. I mean, hitting myself hurts but it feels relieving at the same time because distracts me from everything else. I find that hitting myself in the ribs helps me the most, and...
    waterwolflover waterwolflover 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 16

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    Since I Was A Kid

    I'm 18 now, but I've been doing this since I was a child. As long as I can remember. It's sort of a self-punishment thing. I pound on my head with my fists until it hurts a "reasonable" amount for the punishment. I don't do it in public or around anyone for that matter, just...
    chococat159 chococat159 18-21 2 Responses Feb 2, 2012

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    I Abuse Myself

    When I am overwhelmed or angry, I hit myself. I use my fists and I punch myself in the face and arms. My face ended up all swollen and bruised on both sides. I wears lots of cover-up at work now. I smack my face a lot now, so it wont bruise. I also hit my arms at first with...
    innerself000 innerself000 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 14, 2013

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    I Need To

    I hit myself when I am very depressed or feel self-hatred. But I recently got a boyfried who sees my body naked, so I can't leave huge bruises like I used to. But he makes me feel depressed and worthless most of the time, so I really want to hit myself. I can't take it. I think I...
    disemboweled disemboweled 22-25, F Jan 4, 2013

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    I Do It Too.

    Hello. I'm Hillary, and I'm 14. So this is more of a venting post, probably going to bore you.But here's a little history:I started self harm in 7th grade, I didn't fit in, I was being made fun of, my grades were horrible. I failed Science and when I found out I had to take...
    BlackBirdFly96 BlackBirdFly96 13-15 1 Response Nov 3, 2011

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    Legs...mostly

    I've self-injured pretty much forever. Hitting myself was the gateway.  I never questioned why I felt so much better after pounding on my legs.  It was just how I handled stress.Worse, more dangerous, was my head.The human skull has a flat patch near the crown.  I used to...
    Plaid Plaid 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 15, 2012

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    Whenn;

    When i get really angry i punch myself. It makes me feel better cause the pain distracts me. I find myself doing this alot lately. I don't want to stop.
    Mooseyy Mooseyy 16-17, F 7 Responses Nov 16, 2008

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    Smack!

    Whenever someone says something really stupid, I just smack myself in the face! lol. When I say something stupid, it's rare, but I may get a smack too. I mostly blush a lot, when it's me, though. I wonder why I do this though... and I hope I won't break my glasses on my face! :-o...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Nov 4, 2008

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    Yeah, It Happens...

    I used to cut, not to die just to feel, or just because, or just to get that sense of relief. The scars are all over my upper thighs, just sitting there reminding me of that feeling of... completeness. Of being whole. But I can't do that any more, or rather I shouldn't- so...
    livingwiththepast livingwiththepast 18-21, F Feb 9, 2013

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    To Git It Out Of Me

    id hit my self in the face as hard as i can sometimes i punch my self in the lip of the mouth not the nosie or the eye. i hit my self so i dont hit someone eles becouse last time i did that i all most killed him so i gest take it out on my self. last time i punch my self over...
    Lifeornolife Lifeornolife 16-17, M 2 Responses Jan 26, 2010

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    I'm Not Impaired!!

    People tend to associate this kind of self-injury with autism, but it ticks me off because people hit other people and they're not autistic; I'm just taking it out on myself instead. But I guess it's good that it isn't socially acceptable to just whack yourself in the head, which...
    VfangzV VfangzV 18-21, F 2 Responses May 29, 2012

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    I Punch Myself Because I'M Worthless

    I punch myself because I'm stupid. I punch myself because I'm a child. I punch myself because I have no value. I punch myself because I hurt her. I punch myself because I'm ugly. I punch myself because I feel empty. I punch myself because I'm scared. I punch myself because...
    farmallcub51 farmallcub51 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 7, 2013

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    When i get really angry

    and desperated about everyone and everything - we all know that kinda mood - and just wanna explode i mostly hit my head or my thighs. (On the picture you see my thighs as they look right now after hitting them while my meltdown on wednesday, so three days ago.) I promised my...
    meltdownmonday meltdownmonday 18-21, F Mar 1

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    Yeah I Do

      I've been doing this since I was eleven years old and hitting myself in the arms, legs, thighs and pretty much anywhere where i can hide it with my fists and hard objects, like books and against tables. i get really bad bruises that hurt a lot and have gone...
    alexis1235 alexis1235 13-15 1 Response Aug 23, 2009

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    I Doooo It.

    Yeah, when I don't want to cut, or can't because I don't have the tools, i just hit myself on my forearms really hard. Yep. 
    Hopeless0Nerd Hopeless0Nerd 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 19, 2010

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    Yes

    It helps when I'm feeling aggravated with myself or towards someone else. If I want to hurt someone else I take it out on myself, or if I'm stressed out to the point of freaking out I start hitting myself against things until I feel better. >.< It feels kind of nice.
    LifelessSource LifelessSource 18-21, F Jun 2, 2011

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    I've Only Done It Once

    At the end of 7th grade, I was suspended and my mom got really mad. I don't have a messed up family, my parents are divorced, but they are friends and they would not have been happy as a couple. This makes me mad to because I have no reason to hurt myself with such a normal life...
    someonesome1 someonesome1 13-15, F Oct 23, 2013

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    I Do It...

    Only when I am hurting like really, really bad. 
    BamaBabe87 BamaBabe87 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 24, 2010

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    3 Days Last Week And Today I Did It Again

    I feel really bad. I thought it was getting better but it's not. I feel bad and I want to apologize to everyone I've ever encountered for being who I am. I feel bad and I just wanted to write this here, because no one else will listen. I went to my psych recently and he didn't...
    waterteacoffee waterteacoffee 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 29, 2013

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    Slap

    I just smack myself. Its pretty crazy.  Ive done it for different reasons at different times.  Sometimes its because i said/did something stupid. Its almost like another person inside...
    Tacit Tacit 22-25, F 8 Responses Nov 3, 2008

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    Related Experiences

    When I get frustrated or extremely upset or argue with someone I want to hurt myself. Its mainly when I argue with my close friends and mother. I feel so bad about things I said or...
    kleox7x kleox7x 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    When I feel incredibly down, and when I feel like I've lost my direction I have to talk to myself in the mirror. Sounds weird! But it helps cement-in what I need to tell myself. I...
    FreezerDog1 FreezerDog1 18-21, M 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    I feel like I'm worthless, I feel sad and angry and i feel neglected by my friends. I have always felt like I would never cut myself because at that time in life I was happy and...
    AnonymousSloth AnonymousSloth 13-15 2 hrs ago

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    I generally hate all kinds of domestic violence. I have hit a girl twice in my life and i am not proud of it(guess i hate myself too then). Both times were when i was about 11-14...
    Zim0 Zim0 18-21, M 4 Responses Sep 10

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    Ladies... !!! As I have experienced by viewing people beating there wife's ! I don't think this is correct . I'm men myself as I speak for myself when I see someone hits woman's...
    billyaldo billyaldo 22-25, M 1 Response Sep 2

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    The group "I want to kill myself" is not available to me on EP. That is bullshit. So I'm here. There's not much I can think of to say. I have been wanting to kill myself for a...
    Orange666 Orange666 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 5

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    I never like the "found myself" thing. You already are you how does one find what they ready are? Are we trying to rip the space time continuum
    ValhallaAwaits ValhallaAwaits 18-21, M 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    I am here in a corner, no one hears me but me, no one feels me but me, I am obsessed by myself, as if I am the only one and the only one that is real is me. No one to talk to, I...
    CapitalH CapitalH 22-25, M 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    True in....true out....I'm don't dress in a 'societal norm' convention...just dress as who I am...do get judged...being true to myself lot more important
    cherryjar cherryjar 26-30, F 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    I hate that I always fall into the trap of "don't worry, I'm not like them" or "I would never leave you." But everyone always stays for my good side, the fake me, the me that's...
    OsyriaRose OsyriaRose 16-17, F 4 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    I am a 20 year old junior guy in college. I have never posted anything on this, but more than anything I am using this as a way to vent. So here I go. I hate myself. There are so...
    slopez7597 slopez7597 18-21, M 4 Responses Aug 21

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    because my brother just came into my room and said f you then hit me on the head so I hit him back and it got really out of hand he slammed my head I kicked his balls then he just...
    xlovelybutterflyx xlovelybutterflyx 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 26

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    Sometimes the pain doesn't hit me until late at night Then it cradles me, sings to me Coos to me words of its infinite false knowledge Laughing when it hurts Receiving pleasure...
    NeverForgeIt NeverForgeIt 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 29

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    I was on ep before....loved it...it was my place. i met someone on here, we met, now live together. deleted my ep sometime along the way. three years later now ive lost...
    LostInTheLight LostInTheLight 26-30, F 1 Response a week ago

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    sometimes, after he and his friends watch a football match and comes home at like 2am, he's drunk = he gets angry way easier. so if I do something slightly wrong or if I don't do...
    jayissosadlike jayissosadlike 13-15, F 9 Responses 5 days ago

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    I'm finding sleep where I need it Nothing goes to plan any more Awaiting the day where I can throw off the shackles Needing no more that help that I desire right now Just to even...
    PoeticMute PoeticMute 31-35, M Sep 11

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    I was at a waterpark when I was younger, about 10. I went down this slide where 4 people each go down a lane and you race. You lay down on a mat and go down head first. Me, a...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 days ago

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    I can’t tell if I am dreaming or not. One moment I am in a room full of people. The next I feel my body being moved around on a bed and the blurred images and voices are back. I...
    perilousindenvers perilousindenvers 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 27

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    Men who hit women normally are insecure and sometimes jealous of what he knows she can accomplish. My uncle hits his girlfriends after having children with them. My mother has been...
    cittykatluv cittykatluv 18-21, F 6 Responses Sep 11

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    Sharp Thoughts By Kassidy Voelker And Tristan Rethman We cut into our skin because we're angry, we're sad, we're hurtin we're trying to hide it but We're lost and we're broken. We...
    ImNotReallyFine ImNotReallyFine 13-15, M Aug 29

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    (using google translate) um.. this michael.. i go to stand up to the one that bully me he about 5 yrs older than me and give me a black eye and when i breathe hard it hurt on my...
    Blazingdragon Blazingdragon 13-15, M 6 Responses 2 days ago

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    A couple years ago I was playing softball with my family when my dad hit me a pop up and it hit the ground which was kind of a hill and went to scoop it and it popped up and split...
    erikapaige97 erikapaige97 16-17, F Aug 26

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    This actually happened yesterday so I might as well share it. I'm 15 and still in school, so I was waiting for my mom to pick me up after a long day. I saw her car across the...
    firelovelies firelovelies 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 30

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    I was hit by a guy before. it was during school and on the buss. I remember me and my friend Michael were talking about this kid Anthony. we kind of making fun of him. he heard us...
    catherine1028 catherine1028 13-15, F 7 Responses Sep 2

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