I Hit Myself

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 160 People

    Since I Was A Kid

    I'm 18 now, but I've been doing this since I was a child. As long as I can remember. It's sort of a self-punishment thing. I pound on my head with my fists until it hurts a "reasonable" amount for the punishment. I don't do it in public or around anyone for that matter, just...
    chococat159 chococat159
    2 Responses Feb 2, 2012

    I'm Not Impaired!!

    People tend to associate this kind of self-injury with autism, but it ticks me off because people hit other people and they're not autistic; I'm just taking it out on myself instead. But I guess it's good that it isn't socially acceptable to just whack yourself in the head, which...
    VfangzV VfangzV
    18-21, F
    2 Responses May 29, 2012

    I self abuse by hitting myself

    when I'm depressed. I usually use a hairbrush or a coat hanger. I don't cut. I hit myself because my husband doesn't want to hear about my depression and I have no one else to go to. Hitting myself on my legs is the only thing that makes me stop hurting inside. When I hit myself...
    df12arkh df12arkh
    31-35, F
    Jun 16, 2015

    I Do It...

    Only when I am hurting like really, really bad. 
    BamaBabe87 BamaBabe87
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Feb 24, 2010

    To Git It Out Of Me

    id hit my self in the face as hard as i can sometimes i punch my self in the lip of the mouth not the nosie or the eye. i hit my self so i dont hit someone eles becouse last time i did that i all most killed him so i gest take it out on my self. last time i punch my self over...
    Lifeornolife Lifeornolife
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Jan 26, 2010

    If I fight with my parents (which happens a

    lot) I normally walk away as if nothing happened and when I'm on my own I slap my face, punch my legs, the wall, everything until my skin is hot and hurts. Then I always have to tell my mother where the bruises come from, but I can't tell her. I have bpd and I don't know how to...
    aimeetomlinson aimeetomlinson
    18-21, F
    Aug 9, 2015

    I Need To

    I hit myself when I am very depressed or feel self-hatred. But I recently got a boyfried who sees my body naked, so I can't leave huge bruises like I used to. But he makes me feel depressed and worthless most of the time, so I really want to hit myself. I can't take it. I think I...
    disemboweled disemboweled
    22-25, F
    Jan 4, 2013

    It amazes me how much the pain of hitting

    yourself can mask the stress and turmoil of everything else around you. At least that's how it is for me. I mean, hitting myself hurts but it feels relieving at the same time because distracts me from everything else. I find that hitting myself in the ribs helps me the most, and...
    waterwolflover waterwolflover
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Apr 16, 2014
    XxLittleBrotherxX XxLittleBrotherxX
    22-25, M
    1 Response Feb 25, 2015

    Reminds Me Of "liar Liar"

    This is a serious group, but it does remind me of the movie Liar Liar when Jim Carrey's beating himself up in a bathroom, and a man walks in on this. Horrified, he asks Carrey, "What are you doing??" Jim pauses and says, "I'm kicking my ***, do ya MIND!?" Makes me laugh. I just...
    chococat159 chococat159
    1 Response Feb 2, 2012

    I Doooo It.

    Yeah, when I don't want to cut, or can't because I don't have the tools, i just hit myself on my forearms really hard. Yep. 
    Hopeless0Nerd Hopeless0Nerd
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 19, 2010

    Yeah, It Happens...

    I used to cut, not to die just to feel, or just because, or just to get that sense of relief. The scars are all over my upper thighs, just sitting there reminding me of that feeling of... completeness. Of being whole. But I can't do that any more, or rather I shouldn't- so...
    livingwiththepast livingwiththepast
    18-21, F
    Feb 9, 2013


    I just smack myself. Its pretty crazy.  Ive done it for different reasons at different times.  Sometimes its because i said/did something stupid. Its almost like another person inside...
    Tacit Tacit
    22-25, F
    7 Responses Nov 3, 2008

    I Do It Too.

    Hello. I'm Hillary, and I'm 14. So this is more of a venting post, probably going to bore you.But here's a little history:I started self harm in 7th grade, I didn't fit in, I was being made fun of, my grades were horrible. I failed Science and when I found out I had to take...
    BlackBirdFly96 BlackBirdFly96
    1 Response Nov 3, 2011

    I Punch Myself Because I'M Worthless

    I punch myself because I'm stupid. I punch myself because I'm a child. I punch myself because I have no value. I punch myself because I hurt her. I punch myself because I'm ugly. I punch myself because I feel empty. I punch myself because I'm scared. I punch myself because...
    farmallcub51 farmallcub51
    31-35, M
    1 Response Nov 7, 2013


    I've self-injured pretty much forever. Hitting myself was the gateway.  I never questioned why I felt so much better after pounding on my legs.  It was just how I handled stress.Worse, more dangerous, was my head.The human skull has a flat patch near the crown.  I used to...
    Plaid Plaid
    31-35, F
    1 Response Nov 15, 2012

    Physically and mentally.

    Most of the time it's just mental and I can't pick myself up. I find my flaws easily and destroy my self-confidence. Then when I have panic attacks I snap and hit myself in the head or punch walls and doors until I bruise. I'm ashamed of it and haven't told anyone yet. I don't...
    LoreleiLoch LoreleiLoch
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 19, 2016

    Past Tense

    When I was little, right up until I started cutting I would always hit myself in the head or the face when I did something wrong or when I felt trapped by a situation. I've heard it's a sign of autism, but.. I'd rather not go there <_<  It was always in private though...
    newmurderer newmurderer
    3 Responses Jun 20, 2010

    I slap my butt, whether it's

    because I did something bad or I accomplished a goal.
    nicolieflowergirlie nicolieflowergirlie
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 31, 2015

    I mostly hit myself when I feel stupid.

    I punch myself in the head and face I slap myself in the face. I punch myself in the legs arms chest stomach. .. I even sometimes bang my head against the wall. I just have to hurt.
    DeeDoubleYoux DeeDoubleYoux
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 4, 2015


    Whenever someone says something really stupid, I just smack myself in the face! lol. When I say something stupid, it's rare, but I may get a smack too. I mostly blush a lot, when it's me, though. I wonder why I do this though... and I hope I won't break my glasses on my face! :-o...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Nov 4, 2008

    3 Days Last Week And Today I Did It Again

    I feel really bad. I thought it was getting better but it's not. I feel bad and I want to apologize to everyone I've ever encountered for being who I am. I feel bad and I just wanted to write this here, because no one else will listen. I went to my psych recently and he didn't...
    waterteacoffee waterteacoffee
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 29, 2013

    There are of course drawbacks to head-slapping

    and head-punching. I have done this a lot, particularly when I get angry with other people and feel it is unjustified - which it usually is as they are my children. Of course I have never, could never hit them in any way whatsoever but I hit myself instead. Two years ago, in a...
    tmathews tmathews
    46-50, M
    1 Response Sep 23, 2015

    I Abuse Myself

    When I am overwhelmed or angry, I hit myself. I use my fists and I punch myself in the face and arms. My face ended up all swollen and bruised on both sides. I wears lots of cover-up at work now. I smack my face a lot now, so it wont bruise. I also hit my arms at first with...
    innerself000 innerself000
    18-21, F
    Aug 14, 2013

    Yeah I Do

      I've been doing this since I was eleven years old and hitting myself in the arms, legs, thighs and pretty much anywhere where i can hide it with my fists and hard objects, like books and against tables. i get really bad bruises that hurt a lot and have gone...
    alexis1235 alexis1235
    1 Response Aug 23, 2009


    When i get really angry i punch myself. It makes me feel better cause the pain distracts me. I find myself doing this alot lately. I don't want to stop.
    Mooseyy Mooseyy
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Nov 16, 2008

    I've Only Done It Once

    At the end of 7th grade, I was suspended and my mom got really mad. I don't have a messed up family, my parents are divorced, but they are friends and they would not have been happy as a couple. This makes me mad to because I have no reason to hurt myself with such a normal life...
    someonesome1 someonesome1
    18-21, F
    Oct 23, 2013

    Tonight I went a little further

    than normal. I wanted to full on abuse myself. I tied my ankles together and then I put a belt snug around my neck, sat on the floor and tied it to the bar for the hand towels in the bathroom. I took all my clothing off, and with my shirt still hanging around my neck, I cut my...
    innerself000 innerself000
    18-21, F
    Apr 4, 2014

    I Hit Myself When My Feelings Are Hurt

    And when I can't cut. I hit myself this morning actually, I was awoken by sister who asked for some clothes of hers. I hadn't had a pillow that night and had thrown a bunch of clothes in a pillow case. I told I'd get them, she said why would you even do that if you have your...
    otter3 otter3
    18-21, F
    Jun 20, 2010

    When i get really angry

    and desperated about everyone and everything - we all know that kinda mood - and just wanna explode i mostly hit my head or my thighs. (On the picture you see my thighs as they look right now after hitting them while my meltdown on wednesday, so three days ago.) I promised my...
    meltdownmonday meltdownmonday
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 1, 2014

    I hit myself... when I honestly have no idea

    what else to do. I get so frustrated and angry at myself and other people, but it's just not me to yell or even confront others. And half the time the things I am angry about are so minute and irrelevant that it's not worth making trouble over. Today I came home to my moms...
    Arty1998 Arty1998
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 22, 2015


    I am bad about smacking my hands when I do something stupid.
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm
    46-50, F
    1 Response Mar 9, 2010


    i constantly hit my thighs with the remote when im watching TV its something fairly new it annoys everyone around me i also pull my hair out which is an older habit but lately ive started hitting my skull with my fist till my teeth hit each other and it scares me how insane that...
    j0di j0di
    31-35, F
    Jan 5, 2013


    It helps when I'm feeling aggravated with myself or towards someone else. If I want to hurt someone else I take it out on myself, or if I'm stressed out to the point of freaking out I start hitting myself against things until I feel better. >.< It feels kind of nice.
    LifelessSource LifelessSource
    18-21, F
    Jun 2, 2011
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