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I Hit Myself

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    I Do It...

    Only when I am hurting like really, really bad. 
    BamaBabe87 BamaBabe87 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 24, 2010

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    Tonight I went a little further

    than normal. I wanted to full on abuse myself. I tied my ankles together and then I put a belt snug around my neck, sat on the floor and tied it to the bar for the hand towels in the bathroom. I took all my clothing off, and with my shirt still hanging around my neck, I cut my...
    innerself000 innerself000 18-21, F Apr 4

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    It amazes me how much the pain of hitting

    yourself can mask the stress and turmoil of everything else around you. At least that's how it is for me. I mean, hitting myself hurts but it feels relieving at the same time because distracts me from everything else. I find that hitting myself in the ribs helps me the most, and...
    waterwolflover waterwolflover 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 16

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    Slap

    I just smack myself. Its pretty crazy.  Ive done it for different reasons at different times.  Sometimes its because i said/did something stupid. Its almost like another person inside...
    Tacit Tacit 22-25, F 8 Responses Nov 3, 2008

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    Since I Was A Kid

    I'm 18 now, but I've been doing this since I was a child. As long as I can remember. It's sort of a self-punishment thing. I pound on my head with my fists until it hurts a "reasonable" amount for the punishment. I don't do it in public or around anyone for that matter, just...
    chococat159 chococat159 18-21 2 Responses Feb 2, 2012

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    I'm Not Impaired!!

    People tend to associate this kind of self-injury with autism, but it ticks me off because people hit other people and they're not autistic; I'm just taking it out on myself instead. But I guess it's good that it isn't socially acceptable to just whack yourself in the head, which...
    VfangzV VfangzV 18-21, F 2 Responses May 29, 2012

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    To Git It Out Of Me

    id hit my self in the face as hard as i can sometimes i punch my self in the lip of the mouth not the nosie or the eye. i hit my self so i dont hit someone eles becouse last time i did that i all most killed him so i gest take it out on my self. last time i punch my self over...
    Lifeornolife Lifeornolife 16-17, M 2 Responses Jan 26, 2010

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    I Punch Myself Because I'M Worthless

    I punch myself because I'm stupid. I punch myself because I'm a child. I punch myself because I have no value. I punch myself because I hurt her. I punch myself because I'm ugly. I punch myself because I feel empty. I punch myself because I'm scared. I punch myself because...
    farmallcub51 farmallcub51 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 7, 2013

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    I Doooo It.

    Yeah, when I don't want to cut, or can't because I don't have the tools, i just hit myself on my forearms really hard. Yep. 
    Hopeless0Nerd Hopeless0Nerd 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 19, 2010

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    *sigh*

    i constantly hit my thighs with the remote when im watching TV its something fairly new it annoys everyone around me i also pull my hair out which is an older habit but lately ive started hitting my skull with my fist till my teeth hit each other and it scares me how insane that...
    j0di j0di 31-35, F Jan 5, 2013

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    Past Tense

    When I was little, right up until I started cutting I would always hit myself in the head or the face when I did something wrong or when I felt trapped by a situation. I've heard it's a sign of autism, but.. I'd rather not go there <_<  It was always in private though...
    newmurderer newmurderer 70+ 3 Responses Jun 20, 2010

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    I Do It Too.

    Hello. I'm Hillary, and I'm 14. So this is more of a venting post, probably going to bore you.But here's a little history:I started self harm in 7th grade, I didn't fit in, I was being made fun of, my grades were horrible. I failed Science and when I found out I had to take...
    BlackBirdFly96 BlackBirdFly96 13-15 1 Response Nov 3, 2011

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    I Hit Myself When My Feelings Are Hurt

    And when I can't cut. I hit myself this morning actually, I was awoken by sister who asked for some clothes of hers. I hadn't had a pillow that night and had thrown a bunch of clothes in a pillow case. I told I'd get them, she said why would you even do that if you have your...
    otter3 otter3 18-21, F Jun 20, 2010

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    Legs...mostly

    I've self-injured pretty much forever. Hitting myself was the gateway.  I never questioned why I felt so much better after pounding on my legs.  It was just how I handled stress.Worse, more dangerous, was my head.The human skull has a flat patch near the crown.  I used to...
    Plaid Plaid 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 15, 2012

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    3 Days Last Week And Today I Did It Again

    I feel really bad. I thought it was getting better but it's not. I feel bad and I want to apologize to everyone I've ever encountered for being who I am. I feel bad and I just wanted to write this here, because no one else will listen. I went to my psych recently and he didn't...
    waterteacoffee waterteacoffee 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 29, 2013

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    I've Only Done It Once

    At the end of 7th grade, I was suspended and my mom got really mad. I don't have a messed up family, my parents are divorced, but they are friends and they would not have been happy as a couple. This makes me mad to because I have no reason to hurt myself with such a normal life...
    someonesome1 someonesome1 13-15, F Oct 23, 2013

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    Whenn;

    When i get really angry i punch myself. It makes me feel better cause the pain distracts me. I find myself doing this alot lately. I don't want to stop.
    Mooseyy Mooseyy 16-17, F 7 Responses Nov 16, 2008

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    I Need To

    I hit myself when I am very depressed or feel self-hatred. But I recently got a boyfried who sees my body naked, so I can't leave huge bruises like I used to. But he makes me feel depressed and worthless most of the time, so I really want to hit myself. I can't take it. I think I...
    disemboweled disemboweled 22-25, F Jan 4, 2013

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    Smack!

    Whenever someone says something really stupid, I just smack myself in the face! lol. When I say something stupid, it's rare, but I may get a smack too. I mostly blush a lot, when it's me, though. I wonder why I do this though... and I hope I won't break my glasses on my face! :-o...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Nov 4, 2008

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    Yes

    It helps when I'm feeling aggravated with myself or towards someone else. If I want to hurt someone else I take it out on myself, or if I'm stressed out to the point of freaking out I start hitting myself against things until I feel better. >.< It feels kind of nice.
    LifelessSource LifelessSource 18-21, F Jun 2, 2011

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    Yeah I Do

      I've been doing this since I was eleven years old and hitting myself in the arms, legs, thighs and pretty much anywhere where i can hide it with my fists and hard objects, like books and against tables. i get really bad bruises that hurt a lot and have gone...
    alexis1235 alexis1235 13-15 1 Response Aug 23, 2009

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    Reminds Me Of "liar Liar"

    This is a serious group, but it does remind me of the movie Liar Liar when Jim Carrey's beating himself up in a bathroom, and a man walks in on this. Horrified, he asks Carrey, "What are you doing??" Jim pauses and says, "I'm kicking my ***, do ya MIND!?" Makes me laugh. I just...
    chococat159 chococat159 18-21 1 Response Feb 2, 2012

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    Sometimes

    I am bad about smacking my hands when I do something stupid.
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 9, 2010

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    When i get really angry

    and desperated about everyone and everything - we all know that kinda mood - and just wanna explode i mostly hit my head or my thighs. (On the picture you see my thighs as they look right now after hitting them while my meltdown on wednesday, so three days ago.) I promised my...
    meltdownmonday meltdownmonday 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 1

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    Yeah, It Happens...

    I used to cut, not to die just to feel, or just because, or just to get that sense of relief. The scars are all over my upper thighs, just sitting there reminding me of that feeling of... completeness. Of being whole. But I can't do that any more, or rather I shouldn't- so...
    livingwiththepast livingwiththepast 18-21, F Feb 9, 2013

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    I Abuse Myself

    When I am overwhelmed or angry, I hit myself. I use my fists and I punch myself in the face and arms. My face ended up all swollen and bruised on both sides. I wears lots of cover-up at work now. I smack my face a lot now, so it wont bruise. I also hit my arms at first with...
    innerself000 innerself000 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 14, 2013

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    Every time I make any kind of mistake- even just getting a bad grade on a test or saying something stupid- I feel like I deserve to be punished for it by hurting myself. I cut my...
    kaleidoscopic21 kaleidoscopic21 13-15, F 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    Honestly, I tend to embarrass myself on a daily basis. whether it's intentional or unintentional. and I don't really care! Cause I am who I am, and I love who I am, and I'm not...
    MeowOnMe MeowOnMe 18-21, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    I hate that I keep trying to keep our relationship going when he doesn't even want to be with me :( I'm tired of forcing this. I hate myself..it's all my fault :'( I wish I could...
    Rdelat Rdelat 18-21, F 9 hrs ago

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    I haven't let myself feel anything for the last 7 years. Sure, I've put on the appropriate faces for the right occassion. Grief, forced happiness, sadness...tonight I don't know...
    MsInked511 MsInked511 26-30, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    My mind absorbs the music Feeling every note My body delights in movement Impossible to suppress Even in public The display minimized To avoid stares Keeping my hips still...
    Accebere Accebere 36-40, F 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    Me, untouched paper, pen in hand. I discover things inside myself I never knew were hiding.
    serendipity65 serendipity65 41-45, F 34 mins ago

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    I'm a young male adult and, I've been chosen by God to preach his word. So I am trying my hardest to better myself. So that people may look at me and see his grace instead of my...
    BubbaSasquatch BubbaSasquatch 18-21, M Nov 24

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    1. I seem dumb but I'm actually quite smart. 2. I look innocent but I can be cruel when someone hit the right buttons. 3. I love to write. 4. I had never hit a rage mode before...
    Dove06 Dove06 18-21, F Dec 2

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    I hate them but if I was in a situation were I'm in a relationship and the guy hit me , I wouldn't be able to speak out or defend myself. Scary :O
    T055 T055 16-17, F 11 Responses Dec 9

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    i was beat pretty bad as i was growing up. i got hit alot when i was very young for wetting the bed. this was when my father was still around, a drunk for sure. but when...
    Pigmaginny Pigmaginny 22-25, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    It's been 4 months and I'm doing pretty well considering how close I was to losing myself the first couple of weeks. I was shattered. Crushed beyond repair. People who I'd never...
    queenettejeanette queenettejeanette 13-15, F Nov 25

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    Hi, I'm a 19 year old dude and i... wait Let me start with this... Sept. 4th, 2013 I was riding my moped (not wearing a helmet) through the center of my home town when I was hit...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 9

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    Just found out the guy I am sleeping with is married. For awhile I had a nagging thought that he was lying to me. Yes him and I entered a NSA situation but we've had conversations...
    Gigilaugh Gigilaugh 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 21

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    I am facing the end of yet another relationship. It is all my fault. I don't know what to do. 99% of me wants to withdraw, cloak myself in self loathing, listen to Creep by...
    Dionysus3223 Dionysus3223 41-45, M 2 Responses Dec 8

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    I'm not writing this to make myself sound attractive, in fact, I don't find myself attractive at all. I was invited to a high school friend's party, and he's still in high school...
    Theworldisminenow Theworldisminenow 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 13

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    Where I live in Indonesia man hit woman all the time. Even on street man can beat up there woman and no one help them and police do nothing. Then local man wonder why we are...
    lamihot lamihot 31-35, F 14 Responses Dec 5

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    How does a lying pig make a baby with a guy she really has no feelings for and bulls hits him too death She's hacked into his life and calls that love...my happy married doe...
    letsgo2234 letsgo2234 51-55, F 5 Responses Nov 23

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    I find you in the moments where the light hits my skin, in the warmth under my sheets. I find you in the first breathe I take in the morning. In the setting sun. When joyful...
    ofthisgirl90 ofthisgirl90 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 29

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    I got one for everyone. So I bought a straitjacket. I was working out of town and while I was there I decided to try it out. Unfortunately I was alone at the time and didn't...
    Photogeek47 Photogeek47 26-30, M 8 Responses Nov 30

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    I need to go to the gym but it's my first time and I'm scared someone from my School might see me. I also don't know anyone who goes to that Gym so I'm probably going to go by...
    T055 T055 16-17, F Dec 4

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    I think I'm done with weed, among other things. It's been a fun past few months, but taking a break from it has felt great. The thing I never realized was that weed hits you...
    Indistinct Indistinct 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 8

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    So yesterday I posted for help. Let me explain what is going on. I grew up in a christian home and then was a convert mormon at the age of 12. When I hit 15 though I notcied I...
    woodgateor woodgateor 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 10

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