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I Hit Myself

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    It amazes me how much the pain of hitting

    yourself can mask the stress and turmoil of everything else around you. At least that's how it is for me. I mean, hitting myself hurts but it feels relieving at the same time because distracts me from everything else. I find that hitting myself in the ribs helps me the most, and...
    waterwolflover waterwolflover 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 16

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    Whenn;

    When i get really angry i punch myself. It makes me feel better cause the pain distracts me. I find myself doing this alot lately. I don't want to stop.
    Mooseyy Mooseyy 16-17, F 7 Responses Nov 16, 2008

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    Yeah I Do

      I've been doing this since I was eleven years old and hitting myself in the arms, legs, thighs and pretty much anywhere where i can hide it with my fists and hard objects, like books and against tables. i get really bad bruises that hurt a lot and have gone...
    alexis1235 alexis1235 13-15 1 Response Aug 23, 2009

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    I Need To

    I hit myself when I am very depressed or feel self-hatred. But I recently got a boyfried who sees my body naked, so I can't leave huge bruises like I used to. But he makes me feel depressed and worthless most of the time, so I really want to hit myself. I can't take it. I think I...
    disemboweled disemboweled 22-25, F Jan 4, 2013

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    Legs...mostly

    I've self-injured pretty much forever. Hitting myself was the gateway.  I never questioned why I felt so much better after pounding on my legs.  It was just how I handled stress.Worse, more dangerous, was my head.The human skull has a flat patch near the crown.  I used to...
    Plaid Plaid 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 15, 2012

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    Tonight I went a little further

    than normal. I wanted to full on abuse myself. I tied my ankles together and then I put a belt snug around my neck, sat on the floor and tied it to the bar for the hand towels in the bathroom. I took all my clothing off, and with my shirt still hanging around my neck, I cut my...
    innerself000 innerself000 18-21, F Apr 4

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    Smack!

    Whenever someone says something really stupid, I just smack myself in the face! lol. When I say something stupid, it's rare, but I may get a smack too. I mostly blush a lot, when it's me, though. I wonder why I do this though... and I hope I won't break my glasses on my face! :-o...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Nov 4, 2008

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    I Abuse Myself

    When I am overwhelmed or angry, I hit myself. I use my fists and I punch myself in the face and arms. My face ended up all swollen and bruised on both sides. I wears lots of cover-up at work now. I smack my face a lot now, so it wont bruise. I also hit my arms at first with...
    innerself000 innerself000 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 14, 2013

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    I Do It...

    Only when I am hurting like really, really bad. 
    BamaBabe87 BamaBabe87 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 24, 2010

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    Slap

    I just smack myself. Its pretty crazy.  Ive done it for different reasons at different times.  Sometimes its because i said/did something stupid. Its almost like another person inside...
    Tacit Tacit 22-25, F 8 Responses Nov 3, 2008

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    Sometimes

    I am bad about smacking my hands when I do something stupid.
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 9, 2010

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    To Git It Out Of Me

    id hit my self in the face as hard as i can sometimes i punch my self in the lip of the mouth not the nosie or the eye. i hit my self so i dont hit someone eles becouse last time i did that i all most killed him so i gest take it out on my self. last time i punch my self over...
    Lifeornolife Lifeornolife 16-17, M 2 Responses Jan 26, 2010

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    Yeah, It Happens...

    I used to cut, not to die just to feel, or just because, or just to get that sense of relief. The scars are all over my upper thighs, just sitting there reminding me of that feeling of... completeness. Of being whole. But I can't do that any more, or rather I shouldn't- so...
    livingwiththepast livingwiththepast 18-21, F Feb 9, 2013

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    I Doooo It.

    Yeah, when I don't want to cut, or can't because I don't have the tools, i just hit myself on my forearms really hard. Yep. 
    Hopeless0Nerd Hopeless0Nerd 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 19, 2010

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    Past Tense

    When I was little, right up until I started cutting I would always hit myself in the head or the face when I did something wrong or when I felt trapped by a situation. I've heard it's a sign of autism, but.. I'd rather not go there <_<  It was always in private though...
    newmurderer newmurderer 70+ 3 Responses Jun 20, 2010

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    Yes

    It helps when I'm feeling aggravated with myself or towards someone else. If I want to hurt someone else I take it out on myself, or if I'm stressed out to the point of freaking out I start hitting myself against things until I feel better. >.< It feels kind of nice.
    LifelessSource LifelessSource 18-21, F Jun 2, 2011

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    I'm Not Impaired!!

    People tend to associate this kind of self-injury with autism, but it ticks me off because people hit other people and they're not autistic; I'm just taking it out on myself instead. But I guess it's good that it isn't socially acceptable to just whack yourself in the head, which...
    VfangzV VfangzV 18-21, F 2 Responses May 29, 2012

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    Since I Was A Kid

    I'm 18 now, but I've been doing this since I was a child. As long as I can remember. It's sort of a self-punishment thing. I pound on my head with my fists until it hurts a "reasonable" amount for the punishment. I don't do it in public or around anyone for that matter, just...
    chococat159 chococat159 18-21 2 Responses Feb 2, 2012

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    When i get really angry

    and desperated about everyone and everything - we all know that kinda mood - and just wanna explode i mostly hit my head or my thighs. (On the picture you see my thighs as they look right now after hitting them while my meltdown on wednesday, so three days ago.) I promised my...
    meltdownmonday meltdownmonday 18-21, F Mar 1

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    *sigh*

    i constantly hit my thighs with the remote when im watching TV its something fairly new it annoys everyone around me i also pull my hair out which is an older habit but lately ive started hitting my skull with my fist till my teeth hit each other and it scares me how insane that...
    j0di j0di 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 5, 2013

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    I Hit Myself When My Feelings Are Hurt

    And when I can't cut. I hit myself this morning actually, I was awoken by sister who asked for some clothes of hers. I hadn't had a pillow that night and had thrown a bunch of clothes in a pillow case. I told I'd get them, she said why would you even do that if you have your...
    otter3 otter3 18-21, F Jun 20, 2010

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    I Do It Too.

    Hello. I'm Hillary, and I'm 14. So this is more of a venting post, probably going to bore you.But here's a little history:I started self harm in 7th grade, I didn't fit in, I was being made fun of, my grades were horrible. I failed Science and when I found out I had to take...
    BlackBirdFly96 BlackBirdFly96 13-15 1 Response Nov 3, 2011

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    I Punch Myself Because I'M Worthless

    I punch myself because I'm stupid. I punch myself because I'm a child. I punch myself because I have no value. I punch myself because I hurt her. I punch myself because I'm ugly. I punch myself because I feel empty. I punch myself because I'm scared. I punch myself because...
    farmallcub51 farmallcub51 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 7, 2013

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    3 Days Last Week And Today I Did It Again

    I feel really bad. I thought it was getting better but it's not. I feel bad and I want to apologize to everyone I've ever encountered for being who I am. I feel bad and I just wanted to write this here, because no one else will listen. I went to my psych recently and he didn't...
    waterteacoffee waterteacoffee 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 29, 2013

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    Reminds Me Of "liar Liar"

    This is a serious group, but it does remind me of the movie Liar Liar when Jim Carrey's beating himself up in a bathroom, and a man walks in on this. Horrified, he asks Carrey, "What are you doing??" Jim pauses and says, "I'm kicking my ***, do ya MIND!?" Makes me laugh. I just...
    chococat159 chococat159 18-21 1 Response Feb 2, 2012

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    I've Only Done It Once

    At the end of 7th grade, I was suspended and my mom got really mad. I don't have a messed up family, my parents are divorced, but they are friends and they would not have been happy as a couple. This makes me mad to because I have no reason to hurt myself with such a normal life...
    someonesome1 someonesome1 13-15, F Oct 23, 2013

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    bigbootyNoJudy bigbootyNoJudy 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    Just needing to remind myself of this ... as I've gotten to know people better on here I'm finding myself becoming guarded again. It's interesting to me that with some of my...
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    Earlier today between the hours of 9:00a.m. and 10:30a.m. my sister, cousin, mom, and I were heading to see my brother. My mom was going to give him some money to buy some stuff...
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    I hear people say I'm pretty or hot, but when I look in the mirror I don't understand and I remind myself of the guys who've let me go and think that there must be something wrong...
    flowerchloe48 flowerchloe48 13-15, F 5 hrs ago

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    My brain has this thing where if something's not perfect or I mess up or I fail, it just shuts down and won't let me pick myself up and move on. Not everything can be perfect, and...
    Seblett Seblett 13-15, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    This both a good and bad thing for me. The good: whenever I'm alone or with someone I don't like for example my fake *** friend I tend to talk to my self. When I need to make a...
    FighterWolf FighterWolf 13-15, F Jul 9

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    Hi, I'm 16 this year. I just really need someone who can relate to me. I hate myself so much. I hate everything about myself. And this is why. I'm Asian so ever since I was young...
    jyjho jyjho 16-17, F 7 Responses Jul 14

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    But if you'd hit me, I won't allow myself to only stand there. I'm going to probably kick you in the balls just then.
    flyoffsomewhere flyoffsomewhere 16-17, F 9 Responses Jul 19

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    This happened several years ago. We were driving from Saint-Petersburg (the one, which is in northwest Russia) to our county house, which is some 150 miles away. We picked up a...
    acce55den1ed acce55den1ed 36-40, M 2 Responses Jul 2

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    2 years ago I was a different person. I was not the person you see today. I would get drunk every day and would take pills. I was addicted to xanax and opiates. I started doing...
    Jasmin1017079 Jasmin1017079 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 9

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    I recenty was told by my soon to be wife in a.letter she had written that "you really dont know me you dont know my family history my bringing, my joys my sorrows me! me inside...
    petet3030 petet3030 46-50, M Jul 13

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    I'm a guy & I've NEVER hit a girl. & I never will. The man who hits a girl is a coward & should be shot. I don't care if he's had a rough upbringing. That's no excuse to hit one...
    latinounico latinounico 22-25, M 13 Responses Jul 19

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    I don't think the title of this group is specific enough. Nobody should hit anybody, but if a woman started attacking me for no good reason, I would definitely hit back. Should I...
    annoyedagnostic annoyedagnostic 18-21, M 6 Responses 6 days ago

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    Why Did You Do It?? ​ Growing up i see my mum go through so much pain mentally and physically and it seemed what ever direction she went she went the wrong way and just could't...
    Gentleandlovingsoul Gentleandlovingsoul 36-40, F Jun 30

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    Ugh I can't say how many times I've had a guy stare at me creepily or a guy twice my age talk to me, trying to get to know me and be my 'friend'. Like find women your own age to...
    erika514 erika514 16-17, F 59 Responses Jul 15

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    Like y r u hitting on me if u r way older then me.....that's weird I probably had every 3 people there is 1 person older then me that's hitting on me.....like ew
    darecassy darecassy 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 15

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    Driven from inside as if mechanized The source is just behind his eyes A glint of light within it's depths A burning flame forcing steps My needs the same I cannot stop She pushes...
    Accebere Accebere 36-40, F 4 Responses Jul 2

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    I hate that I'm not a person my younger self would be proud of. I'm not even half as strong as I once was, emotionally. I take everything to heart, and it hits harder when your...
    paigerita paigerita 18-21, F Jul 3

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    And the hits just keep ******* coming, each day is worse than the last, tempers are reaching a tipping point, and here I sit in the middle of it all slowly dying. I guess the...
    peanutman27 peanutman27 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 5

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    rosetheinnocent rosetheinnocent 16-17, F Jul 6

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    Physical: Tall, masculine, big nose, strongish, long arms/legs, long, thick, dark hair, uneven tan from the sun, moles on my face, brown irises that seem to have gold highlights...
    ImmaKilljoyHorse ImmaKilljoyHorse 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 7

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    I feel like an alien. My mind is everywhere all the time. I think about so much and I just feel like I have more feeling than most people do. I'm a very compassionate person and my...
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