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I Hit Myself

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    Yeah, It Happens...

    I used to cut, not to die just to feel, or just because, or just to get that sense of relief. The scars are all over my upper thighs, just sitting there reminding me of that feeling of... completeness. Of being whole. But I can't do that any more, or rather I shouldn't- so...
    livingwiththepast livingwiththepast 18-21, F Feb 9, 2013

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    Slap

    I just smack myself. Its pretty crazy.  Ive done it for different reasons at different times.  Sometimes its because i said/did something stupid. Its almost like another person inside...
    Tacit Tacit 22-25, F 8 Responses Nov 3, 2008

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    I Hit Myself When My Feelings Are Hurt

    And when I can't cut. I hit myself this morning actually, I was awoken by sister who asked for some clothes of hers. I hadn't had a pillow that night and had thrown a bunch of clothes in a pillow case. I told I'd get them, she said why would you even do that if you have your...
    otter3 otter3 18-21, F Jun 20, 2010

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    I Do It...

    Only when I am hurting like really, really bad. 
    BamaBabe87 BamaBabe87 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 24, 2010

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    Past Tense

    When I was little, right up until I started cutting I would always hit myself in the head or the face when I did something wrong or when I felt trapped by a situation. I've heard it's a sign of autism, but.. I'd rather not go there <_<  It was always in private though...
    newmurderer newmurderer 66-70 3 Responses Jun 20, 2010

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    Tonight I went a little further

    than normal. I wanted to full on abuse myself. I tied my ankles together and then I put a belt snug around my neck, sat on the floor and tied it to the bar for the hand towels in the bathroom. I took all my clothing off, and with my shirt still hanging around my neck, I cut my...
    innerself000 innerself000 18-21, F Apr 4, 2014

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    Sometimes

    I am bad about smacking my hands when I do something stupid.
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 9, 2010

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    XxLittleBrotherxX XxLittleBrotherxX 18-21, M Feb 25

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    Reminds Me Of "liar Liar"

    This is a serious group, but it does remind me of the movie Liar Liar when Jim Carrey's beating himself up in a bathroom, and a man walks in on this. Horrified, he asks Carrey, "What are you doing??" Jim pauses and says, "I'm kicking my ***, do ya MIND!?" Makes me laugh. I just...
    chococat159 chococat159 18-21 1 Response Feb 2, 2012

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    I'm Not Impaired!!

    People tend to associate this kind of self-injury with autism, but it ticks me off because people hit other people and they're not autistic; I'm just taking it out on myself instead. But I guess it's good that it isn't socially acceptable to just whack yourself in the head, which...
    VfangzV VfangzV 18-21, F 2 Responses May 29, 2012

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    Legs...mostly

    I've self-injured pretty much forever. Hitting myself was the gateway.  I never questioned why I felt so much better after pounding on my legs.  It was just how I handled stress.Worse, more dangerous, was my head.The human skull has a flat patch near the crown.  I used to...
    Plaid Plaid 31-35, F 2 Responses Nov 15, 2012

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    *sigh*

    i constantly hit my thighs with the remote when im watching TV its something fairly new it annoys everyone around me i also pull my hair out which is an older habit but lately ive started hitting my skull with my fist till my teeth hit each other and it scares me how insane that...
    j0di j0di 31-35, F Jan 5, 2013

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    I Abuse Myself

    When I am overwhelmed or angry, I hit myself. I use my fists and I punch myself in the face and arms. My face ended up all swollen and bruised on both sides. I wears lots of cover-up at work now. I smack my face a lot now, so it wont bruise. I also hit my arms at first with...
    innerself000 innerself000 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 14, 2013

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    Whenn;

    When i get really angry i punch myself. It makes me feel better cause the pain distracts me. I find myself doing this alot lately. I don't want to stop.
    Mooseyy Mooseyy 16-17, F 7 Responses Nov 16, 2008

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    I mostly hit myself when I feel stupid.

    I punch myself in the head and face I slap myself in the face. I punch myself in the legs arms chest stomach. .. I even sometimes bang my head against the wall. I just have to hurt.
    DeeDoubleYoux DeeDoubleYoux 22-25, F Apr 4

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    Since I Was A Kid

    I'm 18 now, but I've been doing this since I was a child. As long as I can remember. It's sort of a self-punishment thing. I pound on my head with my fists until it hurts a "reasonable" amount for the punishment. I don't do it in public or around anyone for that matter, just...
    chococat159 chococat159 18-21 2 Responses Feb 2, 2012

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    Smack!

    Whenever someone says something really stupid, I just smack myself in the face! lol. When I say something stupid, it's rare, but I may get a smack too. I mostly blush a lot, when it's me, though. I wonder why I do this though... and I hope I won't break my glasses on my face! :-o...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Nov 4, 2008

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    I Need To

    I hit myself when I am very depressed or feel self-hatred. But I recently got a boyfried who sees my body naked, so I can't leave huge bruises like I used to. But he makes me feel depressed and worthless most of the time, so I really want to hit myself. I can't take it. I think I...
    disemboweled disemboweled 22-25, F Jan 4, 2013

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    I've Only Done It Once

    At the end of 7th grade, I was suspended and my mom got really mad. I don't have a messed up family, my parents are divorced, but they are friends and they would not have been happy as a couple. This makes me mad to because I have no reason to hurt myself with such a normal life...
    someonesome1 someonesome1 13-15, F Oct 23, 2013

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    Yes

    It helps when I'm feeling aggravated with myself or towards someone else. If I want to hurt someone else I take it out on myself, or if I'm stressed out to the point of freaking out I start hitting myself against things until I feel better. >.< It feels kind of nice.
    LifelessSource LifelessSource 18-21, F Jun 2, 2011

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    To Git It Out Of Me

    id hit my self in the face as hard as i can sometimes i punch my self in the lip of the mouth not the nosie or the eye. i hit my self so i dont hit someone eles becouse last time i did that i all most killed him so i gest take it out on my self. last time i punch my self over...
    Lifeornolife Lifeornolife 16-17, M 2 Responses Jan 26, 2010

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    Yeah I Do

      I've been doing this since I was eleven years old and hitting myself in the arms, legs, thighs and pretty much anywhere where i can hide it with my fists and hard objects, like books and against tables. i get really bad bruises that hurt a lot and have gone...
    alexis1235 alexis1235 13-15 1 Response Aug 23, 2009

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    When i get really angry

    and desperated about everyone and everything - we all know that kinda mood - and just wanna explode i mostly hit my head or my thighs. (On the picture you see my thighs as they look right now after hitting them while my meltdown on wednesday, so three days ago.) I promised my...
    meltdownmonday meltdownmonday 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 1, 2014

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    I Punch Myself Because I'M Worthless

    I punch myself because I'm stupid. I punch myself because I'm a child. I punch myself because I have no value. I punch myself because I hurt her. I punch myself because I'm ugly. I punch myself because I feel empty. I punch myself because I'm scared. I punch myself because...
    farmallcub51 farmallcub51 31-35, M 1 Response Nov 7, 2013

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    3 Days Last Week And Today I Did It Again

    I feel really bad. I thought it was getting better but it's not. I feel bad and I want to apologize to everyone I've ever encountered for being who I am. I feel bad and I just wanted to write this here, because no one else will listen. I went to my psych recently and he didn't...
    waterteacoffee waterteacoffee 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 29, 2013

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    I Do It Too.

    Hello. I'm Hillary, and I'm 14. So this is more of a venting post, probably going to bore you.But here's a little history:I started self harm in 7th grade, I didn't fit in, I was being made fun of, my grades were horrible. I failed Science and when I found out I had to take...
    BlackBirdFly96 BlackBirdFly96 13-15 1 Response Nov 3, 2011

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    It amazes me how much the pain of hitting

    yourself can mask the stress and turmoil of everything else around you. At least that's how it is for me. I mean, hitting myself hurts but it feels relieving at the same time because distracts me from everything else. I find that hitting myself in the ribs helps me the most, and...
    waterwolflover waterwolflover 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 16, 2014

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    I Doooo It.

    Yeah, when I don't want to cut, or can't because I don't have the tools, i just hit myself on my forearms really hard. Yep. 
    Hopeless0Nerd Hopeless0Nerd 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 19, 2010

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    So, I'm tired of life in general. I look on here and all of these younger people accept themselves. Fine...fine. But I'm f.ucking 22 years old and I still am having problems being...
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    i dont know what to do i think im spirling downwards. im a failure and i just want to give up. ill never make it into college i know people dont care about that stuff bc of...
    JannieL3 JannieL3 16-17, F 14 hrs ago

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    i just witnessed my aunty being hit by her husband. i dont know whats the reason between them,but really...guys shouldnt hit woman. i'd like to stop her husband badly..but what can...
    alfhyraawal alfhyraawal 16-17, F 7 Responses Apr 17

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    I hate everything about me. I have a shy and nice personality and because of that people think of me as a pushover. I hate the way my body looks and how ugly my face is. I am very...
    atr7887 atr7887 26-30, M 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    YOUR LIFE IS YOURS TO DESTROY OR BUILD! The truthiest of all the truths is that you're the only person who has to live with yourself. It's all up to you to make yourself feel good...
    BetterWorldd BetterWorldd 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 24

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    I have done it few times for the common reasons 1-wanting to feel anything if that feeling is pain. 2- being angry at myself or others n it was my way of letting it out. I used to...
    candles700 candles700 22-25, F 11 hrs ago

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    I don't like working in the hospital but I need to for experience. hospital experience is essential and will serve as bridge to my dream. And so I need to sacrifice. I tried...
    icedwithin17 icedwithin17 26-30, F 7 hrs ago

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    I lost you. I lost myself in fear of losing you. I wish I didn't do but I did. People say fools rushin. People say everything happens for a reason. You changed me. I turned into...
    piperweant piperweant 18-21, F 3 hrs ago

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    As life gets better I hate myself more. I'm trying so hard to improve but the numbers on the scale keep going up. is it muscle? I mean honestly I really cant tell a huge...
    Sometimesilence Sometimesilence 18-21, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    My life seems like a series of hit and runs, and at times I find myself returning to the scene of my own crimes. I accept and im fully aware that life is going to have its up's...
    Salute2MyFlaws Salute2MyFlaws 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 19

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    The thoughts fall and rise, such as rain hitting a substance and bounce off in disappearance. I feel like a rain drop in the cloud falling down miles With the rest feeling much...
    Xenasdreams Xenasdreams 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 26

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    I think.. Maybe i just hit rock bottom. This is one sad evening. I think you define something rock bottom when you've done something actually too embarrassing to tell here out of...
    itcheru itcheru 22-25, F Apr 27

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    I would like to know why it is socially unacceptable for a man to hit a woman, but women hit men without as much as a slap on the wrist. Is it because women aren't as strong as men...
    Blissfullyintoxicating Blissfullyintoxicating 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 28

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    I really wanna beat this kid up. I was working on my homework because I did half of it yesterday after school and didn't finish it cause I accidentally left it in the library...
    ShiningSkies ShiningSkies 13-15 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    The title says it all. I can't express how deeply I feel about this, but I'll try anyway. I'm the same with every other people on Earth who had similar situations. I can only be...
    IloveAutumn115 IloveAutumn115 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 12

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