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I Hold Back My Tears

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    I Try

    Whenever i get sad or pained enough to cry I cant hold it in no matter how hard i try I just can't. I don't get a lot of friends that way but I just can't help it I mean when I have to i do it I just can't stop it if I want to.  PLEASE COMMENT...
    babydiaperwearer babydiaperwearer 13-15, M 6 Responses Nov 12, 2008

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    All The Time.....

    I hold my tears back all the time. I don't let anyone see them fall, and I don't let anyone know that they are falling. I hold them in, till I feel like I am going to explode, I hate crying, I hate when it gets to the point that I feel the need to cry, it makes me feel so small...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 18, 2010

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    Almost Every Day!

     Almost every day I'm faced with an emotional mountain. I struggle with being overwhelmed with life and disappointments. I worry and for my children and their struggles. I want life to be so mucheasier for them. I agonize of the responsibility I have played in their...
    nethingunderdasun nethingunderdasun 41-45, F 4 Responses Jan 14, 2010

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    It Wasn't Easy..

    I held them back constantly especially when I am at work or when I am visiting my mum.. This morning I read thru one of my stories here .... titled I Remember... I felt tears flooded by eyes.  I quickly wiped them off with tissue...sniffing away. I do miss 'our...
    Eternal Eternal 31-35, F 2 Responses Aug 20, 2009

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    The Day When Everything Changed..

    When I was but a child, I have lived through countless ordeals. No one wanted to be friends with a girl who's father left behind. I never knew my father, until one day my teacher from preschool caught me crying silently as I watch all the little girls being carried off by their...
    BelLovesYou BelLovesYou 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 9, 2013

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    What Do I Call This?

    I actually cant recall a time when I've cried, and people havent told me to stop it or say something like "Oh great, whats she crying about now?". So, I think you can guess why I dont.
    xxfallxoutxgirlxx xxfallxoutxgirlxx 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 19, 2010

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    Each Time

    It's systematic; my middle name. It passes or breaks.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 2, 2008

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    Cold-hearted

    Coldhearted, emotionless, brutally honest-just some of the words that people often used to describe my personality. But one day, one day after several months of recovery-with no alcohol or vicodin to make me strong-I woke up crying and haven't stopped since. Facing the real pain...
    letingo letingo 26-30, F Jul 2, 2010

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    I Have To Now

    inside, i have lost everything. who i am. what i wanted. and so on...but that is besides the point i think. I have learned that when i cry,i hurt others that i care about. so i have decided to not cry anymore. well, for my stupid inner reasons. if something bad happens to someone...
    SunkinLies SunkinLies 18-21, T Jan 10, 2011

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    It Just Doens't Come Out Anymore

    It's been a while since i really, really cried and let the tears out. I dunno... I guess, a part of me's afraid of some things again... I guess, crying would weaken me. I know it's not true, but i can't help but feel that way. Sometimes, I jsut want the tears to flow, but a part...
    mistyeyedlass mistyeyedlass 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 6, 2009

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    Scary.

    For me, crying is one of my few weaknesses.  Not only do I hate to cry in front of others, but I also hate seeing others cry. I get hurt sooooo easily.  I'm usually able to hold back my tears.  When I get hurt, people can tell, but they won't see the tears. ...
    oliveoil2007 oliveoil2007 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 5, 2008

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    For As Long As Possible

    I really don't like to let myself cry. Even when I am all alone and I know no one in the world knows, I still feel really bad for even thinking about it. True, most times I do feel better after wards, but I guess I'm the type of person who would rather sit and suffer quietly...
    Melody08 Melody08 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 26, 2008

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    I Try to

    I try to hold them back. Don't always succeed. When I was a senior I did a huge research paper/presentation on the Darfur conflict (this was before it was 'popular'). While I was researching I found this article: http://query.nytimes.com/gst/fullpage.html?res...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Feb 5, 2008

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    I Don't Like Letting Ot...

    I don't like letting others see me cry, so I'll try to hold them in.  There's been a few times when I've actually cried though.
    evilkittymew evilkittymew 36-40, F Jan 29, 2009

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    Sometimes

    sometimes, I can hold back the tears, but sometimes, the emotions gets the best of me; and tears just start falling.
    LittleLena LittleLena 36-40, F Mar 21, 2013

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    Like If Crying Is A Bad Thing?

    I am an emotional person..'a basket case' some would say and have. I cry at the scene of 'woman running into the arms of a lover-over joyed to see them'...weddings, when someone speaks of an ill child, or when someone else cries, be it happy or sad--I am moved by emotion. I ve...
    nethingunderdasun nethingunderdasun 41-45, F Sep 23, 2010

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    Tough

    I am not the kind of girl that cried at sappy movies or when someone says something that is is hurtful. But my husband is in the US Army and everyone says that i need to be strong for him, not to let him see how much i hurt when he leaves and most of the time holding in my...
    thenewmrsL thenewmrsL 19-21, F 1 Response Feb 5, 2008

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    Something Left To Hold

    i don't cry as much as i used too.  i actually got to a point where i was crying myself to sleep every night for a long time but things just changed i guess.  19 i still had a heart, 20 began losing it, and now at 21 feels like i lost it.  it's hard to cry when your heart...
    EchoesInTwistedMeadows EchoesInTwistedMeadows 22-25 2 Responses Feb 26, 2012

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    blink...Just blink.

    I don't like being made or feeling like I need to cry...and, I definitely don't like crying in front of others. So, I do my best to hold 'em back until I'm in my room and in private. Then, I curl up into a ball and just let it out. If I can't get to my room or my house, I think...
    vinividivici21 vinividivici21 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 12, 2008

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    Fearing The Pain...

    I have to be honest, the majority of the time I force my tears to remain invisible so I don’t have to face the real pain I am feeling. I don’t enjoy people seeing me cry, especially not hearing the sounds I make so I subconsciously don’t let it out. Even when...
    Vikz4913 Vikz4913 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 9, 2010

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    I don't understand why it is

    so hard sometimes, or all the time, really. Dancing around heart-break is something that I have done my entire life. Through my own decisions, or the decisions of others, my actions or the actions of others... I know heart-break very well. We are old frienemies. "I am not...
    CathyAmes CathyAmes 31-35, F Jun 11

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    While I Still Can

    I used to cry a lot years ago when i saw my life destroyed by myself and my family/friends. After i turned 18 i tried to just ''man up'' and hold them in. Sometimes i lay in bed and think back about the what could of beens and other things that have upset me and i can feel a tear...
    Shyone2 Shyone2 18-21, F Mar 21, 2012

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    Most of the time but sometimes I just can't anymore.
    whyusteens whyusteens 13-15, F Aug 17

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    There is something wrong with my eyes. I believe there is a big tank behind somewhere with a reservoir of water. Whenever my emotions break out of its barrier, they pour out. Every...
    cedicoin cedicoin 26-30, M Aug 22

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    Even though I am fairly young. I am not from todays tiny hearted" Generation. I dont like any trouble or confrontation. Id prefer the quiet life. But if an enemy taunts. And then...
    TsavoHunter TsavoHunter 36-40, M 58 mins ago

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    don't **** with me I will hold **** against you to the grave
    uncoolmermaid uncoolmermaid 16-17, F 7 hrs ago

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    knowing that it is over. Knowing the truth from the start isn't any consolation. You scream for a chance to make it better. You wish for him to come back and wipe your tears away...
    jayatri17 jayatri17 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 7

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    I've been given the first challenge since I joined EP, so I'll post it here in as much detail as I can. I'll be posting another story letting you know how it goes nearer the time...
    ChloePawson ChloePawson 13-15, F 5 Responses Aug 20

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    I've had 3 abortions I've had sex with more people than I can count I've had 2 children with two different men I can hardly stand either of them let alone love them I've lost...
    Ilovehavingbraces Ilovehavingbraces 31-35, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I don't know why I do. But after seeing him so often at school now, it's like tugging at my heart strings. I was warned this might happen. I've talked to my mother about him, as...
    katd1234 katd1234 13-15, F 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    Backdoors or trapdoors or reset buttons are things we do to get out of the flow of everyday events and become in a way free of reality - such as Art, Love, War, Drugs, Religion...
    sogdianrock sogdianrock 51-55, M 16 hrs ago

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    I wish I could go back way in time and change myself to be more confident and not depressed To change things so I wouldn't have ended up in foster care which ruined my life and got...
    anestacia anestacia 16-17, F 2 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    im forced to stay in this shithole of a country called Kuwait because im what is called in Arabic bedon (stateless) although im born in Kuwait to a stupid family and now im not...
    sadness92 sadness92 18-21 8 hrs ago

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    I wish i could just go back and redo everything, wish i hadn't trusted the wrong people. Now it hurts me a lot. The worst part is, I want to tell someone what happened but there is...
    jove1 jove1 18-21, F 3 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    I wouldn't change even the crappiest of things that have happened. They all culminated into who I am right now. With that said, I would go back to the day before the last lottery...
    Dantescircle Dantescircle 36-40, M 4 hrs ago

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    So last night I drank 4 bottles of water right before I went to sleep and I woke up at 4 desperate to go, but I was so tired I fell back asleep. When I woke up at 7:30 I was...
    imthedaydreamqueen imthedaydreamqueen 18-21, F 10 Responses Jul 30

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    I dosed off early that day. I had had a long day and I had just gotten message from him saying hope your day went well. We were Long Distance, had problems but we were holding unto...
    ANPatie ANPatie 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 22

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    yes any girls that like holding have kik my name on there is prettygr8buddy id b happy to chat while u hold u can hold both or just one up to u
    keeleysupremeawesumness keeleysupremeawesumness 26-30, M Aug 6

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    I wish LOVE was like a volleyball. When you say "MINE" everyone would back off, and the ball would be all yours. But it is not, because love is like a basketball. If you don’t...
    JAD01 JAD01 31-35, F 3 Responses Aug 18

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    I would love to find some to hold with(I am holding right now
    Holdin4days Holdin4days 18-21, M Aug 3

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    I will hold doors open almost all the time (it's one of the reasons why I was always late for my classes in Grade 10) But a pet peeve of mine is when I am holding a door open for...
    ECrierie ECrierie 16-17, M Aug 9

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    I have been holding since 5am...... My bladder is getting super full.... I'm reading holding stories and drinking ice water....
    enjoyholdingmypee enjoyholdingmypee 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 22

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    The man I have given the last year and a half of my life with has now decided we are not meant to work out. Granted, a year and a half isn't that long I know, but it felt like life...
    CassyMay CassyMay 22-25, F Aug 1

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    Life doesn't seem to want to give me a break here lately. It's seemed to gradually get worse day by day. I'm probably more depressed now than I've ever been. I'm starting to lose...
    addictionbarbie addictionbarbie 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 9

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    Isn't it really sweet to find old couples who still hold each others hands tightly? Like they wouldnt want to let go of each other? I saw one when i was on my way home, sitting on...
    sayangeiram sayangeiram 22-25, F 5 Responses Aug 1

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    Is it common for women to hold hands for the feeling of it?
    ONEPIECE749 ONEPIECE749 18-21, M 5 Responses Aug 2

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    I am married, have a mother, a sister, a brother, and a few friends, but when i cant talk to any of them about a deep dark secret, i just wish i had someone to hold me close when...
    Amb505 Amb505 26-30, F 5 Responses Aug 4

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    I didn't even know this was something that offends people,it's common curiosity for a man or a woman to do it . If I (a girl) am first through a door and there's people behind me I...
    Life8227 Life8227 16-17, F Aug 8

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    I saw this old couple holding hands the other day and I thought it was so adorable that after so many years together they still love eachother the same way! I hope I have that...
    Helloirrelevant Helloirrelevant 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 8

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    Yes I do I've been holding for awhile let's talk about it