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I Hold Back My Tears

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    Something Left To Hold

    i don't cry as much as i used too.  i actually got to a point where i was crying myself to sleep every night for a long time but things just changed i guess.  19 i still had a heart, 20 began losing it, and now at 21 feels like i lost it.  it's hard to cry when your heart...
    EchoesInTwistedMeadows EchoesInTwistedMeadows 22-25 2 Responses Feb 26, 2012

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    What Do I Call This?

    I actually cant recall a time when I've cried, and people havent told me to stop it or say something like "Oh great, whats she crying about now?". So, I think you can guess why I dont.
    xxfallxoutxgirlxx xxfallxoutxgirlxx 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 19, 2010

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    The Day When Everything Changed..

    When I was but a child, I have lived through countless ordeals. No one wanted to be friends with a girl who's father left behind. I never knew my father, until one day my teacher from preschool caught me crying silently as I watch all the little girls being carried off by their...
    BelLovesYou BelLovesYou 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 9, 2013

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    Scary.

    For me, crying is one of my few weaknesses.  Not only do I hate to cry in front of others, but I also hate seeing others cry. I get hurt sooooo easily.  I'm usually able to hold back my tears.  When I get hurt, people can tell, but they won't see the tears. ...
    oliveoil2007 oliveoil2007 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 5, 2008

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    Each Time

    It's systematic; my middle name. It passes or breaks.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 2, 2008

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    You know when you have a bad day,

    you can't help but manage to condemn yourself. So you end up crying, breaking all your morales. I don't want to cry because it makes me feel lost as the heat arises mostly not around the people I love. Today was just as neutral, a simple thought in a dead end. I can't say I...
    Glumie57 Glumie57 16-17, F Jun 20

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    I Try

    Whenever i get sad or pained enough to cry I cant hold it in no matter how hard i try I just can't. I don't get a lot of friends that way but I just can't help it I mean when I have to i do it I just can't stop it if I want to.  PLEASE COMMENT...
    babydiaperwearer babydiaperwearer 13-15, M 6 Responses Nov 12, 2008

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    It Just Doens't Come Out Anymore

    It's been a while since i really, really cried and let the tears out. I dunno... I guess, a part of me's afraid of some things again... I guess, crying would weaken me. I know it's not true, but i can't help but feel that way. Sometimes, I jsut want the tears to flow, but a part...
    mistyeyedlass mistyeyedlass 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 6, 2009

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    Fearing The Pain...

    I have to be honest, the majority of the time I force my tears to remain invisible so I don’t have to face the real pain I am feeling. I don’t enjoy people seeing me cry, especially not hearing the sounds I make so I subconsciously don’t let it out. Even when...
    Vikz4913 Vikz4913 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 9, 2010

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    Like If Crying Is A Bad Thing?

    I am an emotional person..'a basket case' some would say and have. I cry at the scene of 'woman running into the arms of a lover-over joyed to see them'...weddings, when someone speaks of an ill child, or when someone else cries, be it happy or sad--I am moved by emotion. I ve...
    nethingunderdasun nethingunderdasun 41-45, F Sep 23, 2010

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    I Don't Like Letting Ot...

    I don't like letting others see me cry, so I'll try to hold them in.  There's been a few times when I've actually cried though.
    evilkittymew evilkittymew 36-40, F Jan 29, 2009

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    While I Still Can

    I used to cry a lot years ago when i saw my life destroyed by myself and my family/friends. After i turned 18 i tried to just ''man up'' and hold them in. Sometimes i lay in bed and think back about the what could of beens and other things that have upset me and i can feel a tear...
    Shyone2 Shyone2 18-21, F Mar 21, 2012

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    Tough

    I am not the kind of girl that cried at sappy movies or when someone says something that is is hurtful. But my husband is in the US Army and everyone says that i need to be strong for him, not to let him see how much i hurt when he leaves and most of the time holding in my...
    thenewmrsL thenewmrsL 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 5, 2008

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    Cold-hearted

    Coldhearted, emotionless, brutally honest-just some of the words that people often used to describe my personality. But one day, one day after several months of recovery-with no alcohol or vicodin to make me strong-I woke up crying and haven't stopped since. Facing the real pain...
    letingo letingo 26-30, F Jul 2, 2010

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    It Wasn't Easy..

    I held them back constantly especially when I am at work or when I am visiting my mum.. This morning I read thru one of my stories here .... titled I Remember... I felt tears flooded by eyes.  I quickly wiped them off with tissue...sniffing away. I do miss 'our...
    Eternal Eternal 31-35, F 2 Responses Aug 20, 2009

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    Almost Every Day!

     Almost every day I'm faced with an emotional mountain. I struggle with being overwhelmed with life and disappointments. I worry and for my children and their struggles. I want life to be so mucheasier for them. I agonize of the responsibility I have played in their...
    nethingunderdasun nethingunderdasun 41-45, F 4 Responses Jan 14, 2010

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    I don't understand why it is

    so hard sometimes, or all the time, really. Dancing around heart-break is something that I have done my entire life. Through my own decisions, or the decisions of others, my actions or the actions of others... I know heart-break very well. We are old frienemies. "I am not...
    CathyAmes CathyAmes 31-35, F Jun 11, 2014

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    blink...Just blink.

    I don't like being made or feeling like I need to cry...and, I definitely don't like crying in front of others. So, I do my best to hold 'em back until I'm in my room and in private. Then, I curl up into a ball and just let it out. If I can't get to my room or my house, I think...
    vinividivici21 vinividivici21 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 12, 2008

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    I Try to

    I try to hold them back. Don't always succeed. When I was a senior I did a huge research paper/presentation on the Darfur conflict (this was before it was 'popular'). While I was researching I found this article: http://query.nytimes.com/gst/fullpage.html?res...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Feb 5, 2008

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    I Have To Now

    inside, i have lost everything. who i am. what i wanted. and so on...but that is besides the point i think. I have learned that when i cry,i hurt others that i care about. so i have decided to not cry anymore. well, for my stupid inner reasons. if something bad happens to someone...
    SunkinLies SunkinLies 18-21, T Jan 10, 2011

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    For As Long As Possible

    I really don't like to let myself cry. Even when I am all alone and I know no one in the world knows, I still feel really bad for even thinking about it. True, most times I do feel better after wards, but I guess I'm the type of person who would rather sit and suffer quietly...
    Melody08 Melody08 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 26, 2008

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    All The Time.....

    I hold my tears back all the time. I don't let anyone see them fall, and I don't let anyone know that they are falling. I hold them in, till I feel like I am going to explode, I hate crying, I hate when it gets to the point that I feel the need to cry, it makes me feel so small...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 18, 2010

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    I bed feels so good but I really need to go but I don't want to get up! It feels nice to hold it in! I'm holding myself to help!
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    anybody holding this morning
    Direwolf65 Direwolf65 46-50, M 5 hrs ago

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    if only i could turn back time...
    tulalit tulalit 22-25, F 2 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    Really miss having someone to hold at night. It has gotten way past old. It's been over 2 years and I really just would like to have some one to hold or hold me.
    malexander564 malexander564 51-55, M 13 hrs ago

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    Lock him up for a day or two initially, then a few days, and then maybe work up to a week or more. Rules are good. Maybe he gets unlocked only when he’s chained to the bed. Then...
    ItalianVelvet ItalianVelvet 41-45, F 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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    He is still making me hold! He said it won't be long now! He removed my gag and gave me some water! He pressed on my bladder and smiled! He's proud of me! He put the gag back on...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    if I see a lady or a older person or handicap person I always hold the door open for them I was taught this by my dad he always told me you might need someone to hold the door for...
    justmyself11 justmyself11 51-55, M 1 day ago

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    Always having to bite my tongue for the sake of others. It's not fair. I'm stuck in a place with no way out that I can see. Some how I've managed
    js246 js246 22-25 2 days ago

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    My greatest fear in life is dependency. I'm desperately afraid of being dependent on others, because of how much it's ended up hurting me in the past. I can't bring myself to...
    mirrorimage99 mirrorimage99 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    How hard is it to say "I'm playing a game hold on." You gotta text me back a whole hour later saying sorry then disappear again. Why even bother?✌🏾️
    thedon21 thedon21 13-15, M 4 days ago

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    it's easy to believe if you could go back in time and change the things that went wrong it would fix everything. When you're the one who is being destructive, destroying everything...
    Sakaratte Sakaratte 26-30, M 4 days ago

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    I'm at work, holding all day and I've been here for 4 hours, I've got 3.5 till I go home and I'm not using the men's room until 7. that's another 5 hours I've got to hold on. we...
    wetpants013 wetpants013 36-40, M 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I'm at work, holding all day and I've been here for 4 hours, I've got 3.5 till I go home and I'm not using the men's room until 7. that's another 5 hours I've got to hold on. we...
    wetpants013 wetpants013 36-40, M 4 days ago

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    Tonight I let them fall. In the dark by myself. I didn't stop them. The flowed steadily and I felt each one. My thoughts were everywhere from what if to what should have been and...
    bethany444 bethany444 46-50, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    Any guys out there wanna hold with me? Message me. I'm planning to hold my morning pee.
    lemonadedisco lemonadedisco 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 25

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    So working on this right now don,t no how much longer i can last..But going to be very good...
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Jul 25

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    Walking side by side, I always anticipate that moment when I feel her little hand slide into mine, because it invariably always does. I teach her how a good hand-holding works...
    1gr8guy 1gr8guy 41-45, M 6 Responses Jul 24

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    I love to hold c#ck when they are peeing. I definitely would hold a strangers maybe even aim at my crotch.
    Bellahpee Bellahpee 41-45, F 19 Responses Jul 23

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    Cause I need, I need a hand to hold, to hold me from the edge, that I'm sliding slowly.
    Otunev Otunev 18-21, M Jul 22

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    Today I woke up at 6. Went for a run. Had a light breakfast then go to work. I started working from 9:30. Didn't have lunch only had soy milk. Then I resumed my work and had long...
    thousandcuts thousandcuts 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 20