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I Hold Back My Tears

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    Scary.

    For me, crying is one of my few weaknesses.  Not only do I hate to cry in front of others, but I also hate seeing others cry. I get hurt sooooo easily.  I'm usually able to hold back my tears.  When I get hurt, people can tell, but they won't see the tears. ...
    oliveoil2007 oliveoil2007 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 5, 2008

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    Something Left To Hold

    i don't cry as much as i used too.  i actually got to a point where i was crying myself to sleep every night for a long time but things just changed i guess.  19 i still had a heart, 20 began losing it, and now at 21 feels like i lost it.  it's hard to cry when your heart...
    EchoesInTwistedMeadows EchoesInTwistedMeadows 22-25 2 Responses Feb 26, 2012

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    It Wasn't Easy..

    I held them back constantly especially when I am at work or when I am visiting my mum.. This morning I read thru one of my stories here .... titled I Remember... I felt tears flooded by eyes.  I quickly wiped them off with tissue...sniffing away. I do miss 'our...
    Eternal Eternal 31-35, F 2 Responses Aug 20, 2009

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    While I Still Can

    I used to cry a lot years ago when i saw my life destroyed by myself and my family/friends. After i turned 18 i tried to just ''man up'' and hold them in. Sometimes i lay in bed and think back about the what could of beens and other things that have upset me and i can feel a tear...
    Shyone2 Shyone2 18-21, F Mar 21, 2012

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    Each Time

    It's systematic; my middle name. It passes or breaks.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 2, 2008

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    I Try to

    I try to hold them back. Don't always succeed. When I was a senior I did a huge research paper/presentation on the Darfur conflict (this was before it was 'popular'). While I was researching I found this article: http://query.nytimes.com/gst/fullpage.html?res...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Feb 5, 2008

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    I Don't Like Letting Ot...

    I don't like letting others see me cry, so I'll try to hold them in.  There's been a few times when I've actually cried though.
    evilkittymew evilkittymew 36-40, F Jan 29, 2009

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    I Have To Now

    inside, i have lost everything. who i am. what i wanted. and so on...but that is besides the point i think. I have learned that when i cry,i hurt others that i care about. so i have decided to not cry anymore. well, for my stupid inner reasons. if something bad happens to someone...
    SunkinLies SunkinLies 18-21, T Jan 10, 2011

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    What Do I Call This?

    I actually cant recall a time when I've cried, and people havent told me to stop it or say something like "Oh great, whats she crying about now?". So, I think you can guess why I dont.
    xxfallxoutxgirlxx xxfallxoutxgirlxx 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 19, 2010

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    Almost Every Day!

     Almost every day I'm faced with an emotional mountain. I struggle with being overwhelmed with life and disappointments. I worry and for my children and their struggles. I want life to be so mucheasier for them. I agonize of the responsibility I have played in their...
    nethingunderdasun nethingunderdasun 41-45, F 4 Responses Jan 14, 2010

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    I Try

    Whenever i get sad or pained enough to cry I cant hold it in no matter how hard i try I just can't. I don't get a lot of friends that way but I just can't help it I mean when I have to i do it I just can't stop it if I want to.  PLEASE COMMENT...
    babydiaperwearer babydiaperwearer 13-15, M 6 Responses Nov 12, 2008

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    Fearing The Pain...

    I have to be honest, the majority of the time I force my tears to remain invisible so I don’t have to face the real pain I am feeling. I don’t enjoy people seeing me cry, especially not hearing the sounds I make so I subconsciously don’t let it out. Even when...
    Vikz4913 Vikz4913 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 9, 2010

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    Cold-hearted

    Coldhearted, emotionless, brutally honest-just some of the words that people often used to describe my personality. But one day, one day after several months of recovery-with no alcohol or vicodin to make me strong-I woke up crying and haven't stopped since. Facing the real pain...
    letingo letingo 26-30, F Jul 2, 2010

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    Like If Crying Is A Bad Thing?

    I am an emotional person..'a basket case' some would say and have. I cry at the scene of 'woman running into the arms of a lover-over joyed to see them'...weddings, when someone speaks of an ill child, or when someone else cries, be it happy or sad--I am moved by emotion. I ve...
    nethingunderdasun nethingunderdasun 41-45, F Sep 23, 2010

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    All The Time.....

    I hold my tears back all the time. I don't let anyone see them fall, and I don't let anyone know that they are falling. I hold them in, till I feel like I am going to explode, I hate crying, I hate when it gets to the point that I feel the need to cry, it makes me feel so small...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 18, 2010

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    For As Long As Possible

    I really don't like to let myself cry. Even when I am all alone and I know no one in the world knows, I still feel really bad for even thinking about it. True, most times I do feel better after wards, but I guess I'm the type of person who would rather sit and suffer quietly...
    Melody08 Melody08 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 26, 2008

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    It Just Doens't Come Out Anymore

    It's been a while since i really, really cried and let the tears out. I dunno... I guess, a part of me's afraid of some things again... I guess, crying would weaken me. I know it's not true, but i can't help but feel that way. Sometimes, I jsut want the tears to flow, but a part...
    mistyeyedlass mistyeyedlass 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 6, 2009

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    Sometimes

    sometimes, I can hold back the tears, but sometimes, the emotions gets the best of me; and tears just start falling.
    LittleLena LittleLena 36-40, F Mar 21, 2013

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    Tough

    I am not the kind of girl that cried at sappy movies or when someone says something that is is hurtful. But my husband is in the US Army and everyone says that i need to be strong for him, not to let him see how much i hurt when he leaves and most of the time holding in my...
    thenewmrsL thenewmrsL 19-21, F 1 Response Feb 5, 2008

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    I don't understand why it is

    so hard sometimes, or all the time, really. Dancing around heart-break is something that I have done my entire life. Through my own decisions, or the decisions of others, my actions or the actions of others... I know heart-break very well. We are old frienemies. "I am not...
    CathyAmes CathyAmes 31-35, F Jun 11

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    The Day When Everything Changed..

    When I was but a child, I have lived through countless ordeals. No one wanted to be friends with a girl who's father left behind. I never knew my father, until one day my teacher from preschool caught me crying silently as I watch all the little girls being carried off by their...
    BelLovesYou BelLovesYou 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 9, 2013

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    blink...Just blink.

    I don't like being made or feeling like I need to cry...and, I definitely don't like crying in front of others. So, I do my best to hold 'em back until I'm in my room and in private. Then, I curl up into a ball and just let it out. If I can't get to my room or my house, I think...
    vinividivici21 vinividivici21 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 12, 2008

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    Related Experiences

    Sadly only in the real world. On here, I say exactly what's on my mind. Maybe I should take a leaf out of this site into real life.
    Reallifeperson Reallifeperson 22-25, M 4 days ago

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    I would go back and never do that mistake, now i have only memories of her smile, she is married now, happy with him, he deserves her and ahe deserves him, i would do anything just...
    brahimmes brahimmes 26-30, M 3 Responses Dec 2

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    I do not want to cry. There are so many reasons why. I do not care for self pity. It just causes more misery. The bad memories come back you know. The tears like a river overflow...
    quito1969 quito1969 41-45, M 2 days ago

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    Yeah well I met him like 3 months back and we were the best of friends since then. I had a break up with my bf back then n this guy was like always there for me after that. I...
    callmeLys callmeLys 13-15, F 1 hr ago

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    going to school ,wearing a beautiful smile, full of excitement , holding a breath for a seconds before entering my room.listening well to the lesson ,answering those questions...
    davinesarah davinesarah 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 21

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    The Beatles - "I Want To Hold Your Hand" Oh yeah, I'll tell you something I think you'll understand When I say that something I wanna hold your hand I wanna hold your hand I...
    jml2000 jml2000 56-60, M 4 Responses Nov 18

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    It happens more often then not now. Falling asleep late with tears and a broken packed away heart. I tell myself not to get attached again, but when I wake up, I can't help but do...
    LoneFox29 LoneFox29 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    My brains cracked. It's not so much that I need someone to hold me but more of... I need someone I can connect to so badly. I put a wall up for everyone I've ever met. All my...
    Sometimesilence Sometimesilence 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 23

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    I am a mom of two boys 7 - 8 next month and 6 my ex left me and them in may 2011 for two years he lied cheated stole didnt call or barely come see them backed out of promises one...
    lonelydove12 lonelydove12 26-30, F Nov 24

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    got this girl I really love,been together 5 months,good times bad times,we would go out talk eat movies laugh eith eachother and on our birthday i took her to disneyland and cool...
    tones714677 tones714677 22-25, M 1 Response Dec 8

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    You may mess up, but you are not a mess up. You may make a mistake, but you are not a mistake. You may screw up, but you are not a screw up. You may fail, but you...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    My grandparents wouldn't leave the house without holding hands. Everywhere they went they were holding hands. They always were clasped together forever. To me that was the biggest...
    taylormorgan2113 taylormorgan2113 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 18

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    Sometimes all a girl needs is someone to hold her tight and make her feel like she's protected and sheltered from the dark and violent storm. Even a hug is worth so much, some many...
    Hellokittybbgrl Hellokittybbgrl 31-35, F 3 Responses Nov 24

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    I'm going to start doing a hold. I'm starting with an empty bladder and I'm going to drink 2L of water. I'm going to hold it as long as possible but I may need some help. If anyone...
    Winniethepooh23 Winniethepooh23 18-21, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    I don't know where to start this off, but I'll just first say that I can't do anything remarkable. I'm not special. I'm not good at anything. I'm just ordinary. I try so hard to...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I don't know where to start this off, but I'll just first say that I can't do anything remarkable. I'm not special. I'm not good at anything. I'm just ordinary. I try so hard to...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    I have been trying my hardest to hold on to everything and keep it, I tried to give up... but couldn't. I can't say bye, I can't lose everything. I don't want to. Everything that...
    imgivingupnow imgivingupnow 18-21, F 10 hrs ago

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    I think my bladder can hold about 800 ml. I want to train my bladder to hold even more.
    biniceboy biniceboy 22-25, M 3 Responses Dec 6

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    right now, I'm holding my bladder. I emptied before work, and chugged a 500ml water bottle during work. I'm now home after a 5 hour shift, and still holding it. It doesn't hurt...
    mysteri123 mysteri123 18-21, F 6 Responses a week ago

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    I have some one that used to hold me now im lucky if I get a quick hug can someone get bored of holding there other half!?
    kernalzuggy kernalzuggy 22-25, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I like the feeling when i hold my man's hand and to play with it... I always like holding hands.I feel so warm and better. and more of all that could be only felt, couldn't be...
    prgya prgya 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I don't line to recall this event. But I was taken to the police station because of 'something' and left in a holding cell for several hours. I was treated terribly. It's painful...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 Nov 21

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    Excellent Ideas To actually Stop InjuryThese physical therapies may involve anything like mobility, walk training, restorative therapy, programs to further improve strength and...
    Aiden555s8txi Aiden555s8txi 31-35, M Nov 28

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    In elementary school, to strengthen the social relations in class we were shown a presentation. The teacher gave us each one wooden pencil, and asked us to break it. A simple task...
    Lechette Lechette 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 30

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    I don't know how much longer I can hold on to acting nice. I'm tired of acting nice to this guy. I used to date this guy. I stopped talking to everyone for him. I had all his...
    lorrena19 lorrena19 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 18

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    I miss having someone to hold me, tell me he loves me. someone to actually appreciate me, someone to actually laugh and joke with me. when I see cute legitimate couples on...
    suzibabee suzibabee 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 18

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