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I Hold Back My Tears

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    I don't understand why it is

    so hard sometimes, or all the time, really. Dancing around heart-break is something that I have done my entire life. Through my own decisions, or the decisions of others, my actions or the actions of others... I know heart-break very well. We are old frienemies. "I am not...
    CathyAmes CathyAmes 31-35, F Jun 11, 2014

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    What Do I Call This?

    I actually cant recall a time when I've cried, and people havent told me to stop it or say something like "Oh great, whats she crying about now?". So, I think you can guess why I dont.
    xxfallxoutxgirlxx xxfallxoutxgirlxx 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 19, 2010

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    I Don't Like Letting Ot...

    I don't like letting others see me cry, so I'll try to hold them in.  There's been a few times when I've actually cried though.
    evilkittymew evilkittymew 41-45, F Jan 29, 2009

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    Like If Crying Is A Bad Thing?

    I am an emotional person..'a basket case' some would say and have. I cry at the scene of 'woman running into the arms of a lover-over joyed to see them'...weddings, when someone speaks of an ill child, or when someone else cries, be it happy or sad--I am moved by emotion. I ve...
    nethingunderdasun nethingunderdasun 41-45, F Sep 23, 2010

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    It Wasn't Easy..

    I held them back constantly especially when I am at work or when I am visiting my mum.. This morning I read thru one of my stories here .... titled I Remember... I felt tears flooded by eyes.  I quickly wiped them off with tissue...sniffing away. I do miss 'our...
    Eternal Eternal 31-35, F 2 Responses Aug 20, 2009

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    It Just Doens't Come Out Anymore

    It's been a while since i really, really cried and let the tears out. I dunno... I guess, a part of me's afraid of some things again... I guess, crying would weaken me. I know it's not true, but i can't help but feel that way. Sometimes, I jsut want the tears to flow, but a part...
    mistyeyedlass mistyeyedlass 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 6, 2009

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    I Have To Now

    inside, i have lost everything. who i am. what i wanted. and so on...but that is besides the point i think. I have learned that when i cry,i hurt others that i care about. so i have decided to not cry anymore. well, for my stupid inner reasons. if something bad happens to someone...
    SunkinLies SunkinLies 18-21, T Jan 10, 2011

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    The Day When Everything Changed..

    When I was but a child, I have lived through countless ordeals. No one wanted to be friends with a girl who's father left behind. I never knew my father, until one day my teacher from preschool caught me crying silently as I watch all the little girls being carried off by their...
    BelLovesYou BelLovesYou 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 9, 2013

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    Scary.

    For me, crying is one of my few weaknesses.  Not only do I hate to cry in front of others, but I also hate seeing others cry. I get hurt sooooo easily.  I'm usually able to hold back my tears.  When I get hurt, people can tell, but they won't see the tears. ...
    oliveoil2007 oliveoil2007 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 5, 2008

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    I Try to

    I try to hold them back. Don't always succeed. When I was a senior I did a huge research paper/presentation on the Darfur conflict (this was before it was 'popular'). While I was researching I found this article: http://query.nytimes.com/gst/fullpage.html?res...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Feb 5, 2008

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    I Try

    Whenever i get sad or pained enough to cry I cant hold it in no matter how hard i try I just can't. I don't get a lot of friends that way but I just can't help it I mean when I have to i do it I just can't stop it if I want to.  PLEASE COMMENT...
    babydiaperwearer babydiaperwearer 13-15, M 6 Responses Nov 12, 2008

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    Cold-hearted

    Coldhearted, emotionless, brutally honest-just some of the words that people often used to describe my personality. But one day, one day after several months of recovery-with no alcohol or vicodin to make me strong-I woke up crying and haven't stopped since. Facing the real pain...
    letingo letingo 26-30, F Jul 2, 2010

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    While I Still Can

    I used to cry a lot years ago when i saw my life destroyed by myself and my family/friends. After i turned 18 i tried to just ''man up'' and hold them in. Sometimes i lay in bed and think back about the what could of beens and other things that have upset me and i can feel a tear...
    Shyone2 Shyone2 18-21, F Mar 21, 2012

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    blink...Just blink.

    I don't like being made or feeling like I need to cry...and, I definitely don't like crying in front of others. So, I do my best to hold 'em back until I'm in my room and in private. Then, I curl up into a ball and just let it out. If I can't get to my room or my house, I think...
    vinividivici21 vinividivici21 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 12, 2008

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    Almost Every Day!

     Almost every day I'm faced with an emotional mountain. I struggle with being overwhelmed with life and disappointments. I worry and for my children and their struggles. I want life to be so mucheasier for them. I agonize of the responsibility I have played in their...
    nethingunderdasun nethingunderdasun 41-45, F 4 Responses Jan 14, 2010

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    Each Time

    It's systematic; my middle name. It passes or breaks.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 2, 2008

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    Tough

    I am not the kind of girl that cried at sappy movies or when someone says something that is is hurtful. But my husband is in the US Army and everyone says that i need to be strong for him, not to let him see how much i hurt when he leaves and most of the time holding in my...
    thenewmrsL thenewmrsL 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 5, 2008

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    For As Long As Possible

    I really don't like to let myself cry. Even when I am all alone and I know no one in the world knows, I still feel really bad for even thinking about it. True, most times I do feel better after wards, but I guess I'm the type of person who would rather sit and suffer quietly...
    Melody08 Melody08 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 26, 2008

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    All The Time.....

    I hold my tears back all the time. I don't let anyone see them fall, and I don't let anyone know that they are falling. I hold them in, till I feel like I am going to explode, I hate crying, I hate when it gets to the point that I feel the need to cry, it makes me feel so small...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 18, 2010

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    Fearing The Pain...

    I have to be honest, the majority of the time I force my tears to remain invisible so I don’t have to face the real pain I am feeling. I don’t enjoy people seeing me cry, especially not hearing the sounds I make so I subconsciously don’t let it out. Even when...
    Vikz4913 Vikz4913 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 9, 2010

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    Something Left To Hold

    i don't cry as much as i used too.  i actually got to a point where i was crying myself to sleep every night for a long time but things just changed i guess.  19 i still had a heart, 20 began losing it, and now at 21 feels like i lost it.  it's hard to cry when your heart...
    EchoesInTwistedMeadows EchoesInTwistedMeadows 22-25 2 Responses Feb 26, 2012

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    You know when you have a bad day,

    you can't help but manage to condemn yourself. So you end up crying, breaking all your morales. I don't want to cry because it makes me feel lost as the heat arises mostly not around the people I love. Today was just as neutral, a simple thought in a dead end. I can't say I...
    Glumie57 Glumie57 16-17, F Jun 20, 2015

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    Hiii everyone!! It's been so long I haven't been on here!! But im back :)))). Hope everyone's feeling positive today!! Have a good Saturday ya'll! Much love Xoxo
    anisha07969 anisha07969 22-25, F 11 hrs ago

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    I wanna do this..but like..what do I do.? I'm new here and this is my first time with this pee holding stuff..I'm bad at holding my pee tbh..
    AnonGirl77777777 AnonGirl77777777 16-17, F 22 hrs ago

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    been hold since i got up! bladder is so full! im drinking sweet tea and ignoring it! i gotta go pretty bad
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 days ago

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    Don't have to pee yet, but gonna start holding now.. Who wants to join?
    WettingStacy WettingStacy 22-25, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    I wanna hold my pee starting now! Anyone wanna join me??
    WettingStacy WettingStacy 22-25, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    Yeah I like to hold my strong feeling for someone, and when I can't take it anymore, I just go tell her that I like her, and make her heart melt. It was so comforting and sweet...
    deathday deathday 16-17, M 3 days ago

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    I've had to pee super bad since 8 pm it's 9:22 pm now who wants me to hold it?
    BladderControler BladderControler 16-17, F 3 days ago

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    When holding hands also means guiding, protecting, supporting....)
    LadyHeartnMind LadyHeartnMind 31-35, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I haven't forgotten That I am just one person, That I am but one voice Attempting to stand out From the crowd. I remember That I have fallen Among the laughter That surrounds me...
    LadyHeartnMind LadyHeartnMind 31-35, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I want a girlfriend to hold hands as we walk
    Anthony2400 Anthony2400 22-25, M 4 days ago

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    Personally, I think it holds amazing and beautiful things
    polylove0210 polylove0210 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I remember watching him I could almost see the little boy Inside Struggling to hide behind The bravado of the young Soldier sitting in front of me The carousel was spinning...
    chastewhisperer chastewhisperer 41-45, F 6 days ago

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    At least this time, I do. Yet, I wish I could say it. What would be the point, though? It's best to be kept inside. Only I know. It's (unfortunately) best this way
    Whirlwind5 Whirlwind5 41-45, M 1 Response a week ago

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    Anyone want to make me hold?Message me!
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses a week ago

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    Like a lot of people I challenge myself to see how long I can hold my pee ! I often go for a long drive, and see if I can make it back home and arrive dry. To push the boundries...
    canlem canlem 36-40, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    Have been since noon. I've really got to go. How much longer should I hold?
    secretleaker secretleaker 36-40, M 4 Responses Jan 29

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    :) thanks to EP - I know this 'kink' exists! I'm not sure how 'into it' I am... But was thinking of all of you who enjoy it when I was on a walk yesterday! Didn't want to be...
    Nipper66 Nipper66 46-50, F 13 Responses Jan 29

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    UPDATED I was taking a shower, when I swung around on my left hand side. I felt pain on the side of my tummy, and something moving around. I felt something pulling and pushing. I...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F Jan 28

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    still holding! my sweet baby is sick with a fevor right now. I can't put her down or she will scream. I've been up all night holding and rocking her! I gotta stay strong and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 28

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      "No Promises"  Hey baby, when we are together doing things that we love.Every time you're near I feel like I’m in heaven feeling highI don’t want to let go...
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