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I Hold Back My Tears

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    All The Time.....

    I hold my tears back all the time. I don't let anyone see them fall, and I don't let anyone know that they are falling. I hold them in, till I feel like I am going to explode, I hate crying, I hate when it gets to the point that I feel the need to cry, it makes me feel so small...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 18, 2010

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    What Do I Call This?

    I actually cant recall a time when I've cried, and people havent told me to stop it or say something like "Oh great, whats she crying about now?". So, I think you can guess why I dont.
    xxfallxoutxgirlxx xxfallxoutxgirlxx 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 19, 2010

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    It Just Doens't Come Out Anymore

    It's been a while since i really, really cried and let the tears out. I dunno... I guess, a part of me's afraid of some things again... I guess, crying would weaken me. I know it's not true, but i can't help but feel that way. Sometimes, I jsut want the tears to flow, but a part...
    mistyeyedlass mistyeyedlass 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 6, 2009

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    Sometimes

    sometimes, I can hold back the tears, but sometimes, the emotions gets the best of me; and tears just start falling.
    LittleLena LittleLena 36-40, F Mar 21, 2013

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    Fearing The Pain...

    I have to be honest, the majority of the time I force my tears to remain invisible so I don’t have to face the real pain I am feeling. I don’t enjoy people seeing me cry, especially not hearing the sounds I make so I subconsciously don’t let it out. Even when...
    Vikz4913 Vikz4913 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 9, 2010

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    I Try

    Whenever i get sad or pained enough to cry I cant hold it in no matter how hard i try I just can't. I don't get a lot of friends that way but I just can't help it I mean when I have to i do it I just can't stop it if I want to.  PLEASE COMMENT...
    babydiaperwearer babydiaperwearer 13-15, M 6 Responses Nov 12, 2008

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    The Day When Everything Changed..

    When I was but a child, I have lived through countless ordeals. No one wanted to be friends with a girl who's father left behind. I never knew my father, until one day my teacher from preschool caught me crying silently as I watch all the little girls being carried off by their...
    BelLovesYou BelLovesYou 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 9, 2013

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    It Wasn't Easy..

    I held them back constantly especially when I am at work or when I am visiting my mum.. This morning I read thru one of my stories here .... titled I Remember... I felt tears flooded by eyes.  I quickly wiped them off with tissue...sniffing away. I do miss 'our...
    Eternal Eternal 31-35, F 2 Responses Aug 20, 2009

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    Cold-hearted

    Coldhearted, emotionless, brutally honest-just some of the words that people often used to describe my personality. But one day, one day after several months of recovery-with no alcohol or vicodin to make me strong-I woke up crying and haven't stopped since. Facing the real pain...
    letingo letingo 26-30, F Jul 2, 2010

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    Almost Every Day!

     Almost every day I'm faced with an emotional mountain. I struggle with being overwhelmed with life and disappointments. I worry and for my children and their struggles. I want life to be so mucheasier for them. I agonize of the responsibility I have played in their...
    nethingunderdasun nethingunderdasun 41-45, F 4 Responses Jan 14, 2010

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    Tough

    I am not the kind of girl that cried at sappy movies or when someone says something that is is hurtful. But my husband is in the US Army and everyone says that i need to be strong for him, not to let him see how much i hurt when he leaves and most of the time holding in my...
    thenewmrsL thenewmrsL 19-21, F 1 Response Feb 5, 2008

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    I Try to

    I try to hold them back. Don't always succeed. When I was a senior I did a huge research paper/presentation on the Darfur conflict (this was before it was 'popular'). While I was researching I found this article: http://query.nytimes.com/gst/fullpage.html?res...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Feb 5, 2008

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    Each Time

    It's systematic; my middle name. It passes or breaks.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 2, 2008

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    I Have To Now

    inside, i have lost everything. who i am. what i wanted. and so on...but that is besides the point i think. I have learned that when i cry,i hurt others that i care about. so i have decided to not cry anymore. well, for my stupid inner reasons. if something bad happens to someone...
    SunkinLies SunkinLies 18-21, T Jan 10, 2011

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    Something Left To Hold

    i don't cry as much as i used too.  i actually got to a point where i was crying myself to sleep every night for a long time but things just changed i guess.  19 i still had a heart, 20 began losing it, and now at 21 feels like i lost it.  it's hard to cry when your heart...
    EchoesInTwistedMeadows EchoesInTwistedMeadows 22-25 2 Responses Feb 26, 2012

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    While I Still Can

    I used to cry a lot years ago when i saw my life destroyed by myself and my family/friends. After i turned 18 i tried to just ''man up'' and hold them in. Sometimes i lay in bed and think back about the what could of beens and other things that have upset me and i can feel a tear...
    Shyone2 Shyone2 18-21, F Mar 21, 2012

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    Like If Crying Is A Bad Thing?

    I am an emotional person..'a basket case' some would say and have. I cry at the scene of 'woman running into the arms of a lover-over joyed to see them'...weddings, when someone speaks of an ill child, or when someone else cries, be it happy or sad--I am moved by emotion. I ve...
    nethingunderdasun nethingunderdasun 41-45, F Sep 23, 2010

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    blink...Just blink.

    I don't like being made or feeling like I need to cry...and, I definitely don't like crying in front of others. So, I do my best to hold 'em back until I'm in my room and in private. Then, I curl up into a ball and just let it out. If I can't get to my room or my house, I think...
    vinividivici21 vinividivici21 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 12, 2008

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    I don't understand why it is

    so hard sometimes, or all the time, really. Dancing around heart-break is something that I have done my entire life. Through my own decisions, or the decisions of others, my actions or the actions of others... I know heart-break very well. We are old frienemies. "I am not...
    CathyAmes CathyAmes 31-35, F Jun 11, 2014

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    Scary.

    For me, crying is one of my few weaknesses.  Not only do I hate to cry in front of others, but I also hate seeing others cry. I get hurt sooooo easily.  I'm usually able to hold back my tears.  When I get hurt, people can tell, but they won't see the tears. ...
    oliveoil2007 oliveoil2007 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 5, 2008

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    I Don't Like Letting Ot...

    I don't like letting others see me cry, so I'll try to hold them in.  There's been a few times when I've actually cried though.
    evilkittymew evilkittymew 36-40, F Jan 29, 2009

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    For As Long As Possible

    I really don't like to let myself cry. Even when I am all alone and I know no one in the world knows, I still feel really bad for even thinking about it. True, most times I do feel better after wards, but I guess I'm the type of person who would rather sit and suffer quietly...
    Melody08 Melody08 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 26, 2008

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    because I know he wont accept wbat I say......
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    Because you never want to hurt them, you appreciate your friendship/relationship more than just saying a comeback, even if its against your family! However theyd just seem keen on...
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    It has caused me to have nightmares of myself yelling to a family member many many times and even people I thought were close to me. But could never say out loud.
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    There's a commercial that many of you probably have seen. It has been shown for many years, usually at Christmas time. A young couple walking down a path in a snow covered park...
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    It's sooo romantic. Seeing them holding each others hands, and then each other. Whether they've been together for 6 or 60 years. They've conquered everything that life has pushed...
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    I really have to pee. Anyone want to control my bladder and make me hold it until I'm in tears? Please hurry. Message me!
    Winniethepooh23 Winniethepooh23 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 5

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    Basically, it all started on the Sunday night. I'd been out with the lads for the majority of the weekend. I'd told them that I was going to use the bathroom at their place, and...
    LeahLND LeahLND 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 8

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    Every morning I watch the clock and wait for him to go to work so I can start doing something productive with my day. I have recently decided to give up trying to fix his life and...
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    so I went shopping and purchased some new bits and Bob's for my house I was feeling so confident and just positive for the next set of purchases especially after not having enough...
    lilygeorge12 lilygeorge12 22-25, F 9 hrs ago

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    It's just polite and its kinda funny at school every day we're always holding the door so if there's like 3 ppl and doors the 1st one goes in and holds the door for the 2nd one...
    daniel7268 daniel7268 13-15, M 1 Response Feb 14

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    I try and teach my son some old fashioned manners. always hold it for others and if its a female to open and lets her go first. I spent a lot of time standing outside places for...
    calichic calichic 36-40, F Feb 15

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    I feel guilty if I don't hold it open. It's almost as if I can feel those cold stares from them on my back sayin " dude you had one job"
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    I've posted on here before and lately shy away from this sort of thing because when I am feeling down and need some sort of encouragement it tends to turn around and slap me while...
    LaGentilleDame LaGentilleDame 31-35, F 4 days ago

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    I am by no means 'father material'. As such I don't go for random encounters or plan to be one. Ironically it is when I am holding a baby that I am at peace. When my niece was born...
    Vdarkghost Vdarkghost 22-25 Feb 7

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    i love holding my hubby's hand...actually i m addicted to it...i m so used to this one thing that i hold his hands even when i m asleep...its like, i want to be connected to him...
    Loveforeternity Loveforeternity 26-30, F 6 Responses Feb 12

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    In all my past friendships and current friendships, I am always the mother like figure of the group. I make sure no one is upset no fights, everything goes well. I put myself in...
    Izzy143 Izzy143 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 18

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    The wife and I were on vacation. Just strolling and window shopping. A young lady stopped my wife and said how nice it is to see an older couple still holding hands and walking. I...
    marriedup marriedup 56-60, M 5 Responses Feb 1

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    When my husband holds my hand, I always feel safe, important and loved. It doesn't matter if we are sitting on the couch watching tv, driving, walking around in public or even...
    Casaundra612 Casaundra612 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 7

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    Nothing like holding the hand of your partner while walking on a snow covered sidewalk. Its knowing they are holding you up and protecting you. Its the little things.
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    Usually? I always hold the door open. Even if the person is 20 feet away, I'd probably just stand there waiting like a weirdo lol. One time at church, my brother, mother and I were...
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