I Hold Myself Back Too Much

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    Behind A Glass Wall

    So I've had a really bad anxiety problem for literally as long as I can remember. Like way back to kindergarten and all. It's always been there. And it's always stopped me from doing so many things. Never had very many friends. And the ones I did have were only in school. I never...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Jan 13, 2012

    Ocd.

    Today is 11:34 am, 9/26I was dreading going to school today, mainly because my anxiety felt like it was rising. I really hoe this zoloft is making it rise right now. I'm having these thought of ocd I can't coNtrol myself. The only way I can reason Is through Klonopin. I really...
    allissaxx allissaxx
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 26, 2011

    So in awareness of my families' past,

    I hold myself back. There are some mentally ill members of my family, but there also is some brilliant geniuses too. I fear insanity. Its why I have a strong fear of zombies (losing control). However, this fear makes me hold parts of myself back for fear of seeming...
    Paris555 Paris555
    18-21, F
    Feb 8, 2014

    I'm really nervous to send a message to some

    one, but there are so many fascinating people on here that I wish I could talk to.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Sep 16, 2015

    Parents

    Today I realized that I have been doing the things I have been doing because my parents and other people thought I should. I was told I was good at writing so I am at school for journalism. I used to love it, but now I hate it. I hate the stress of it. I hate the strict deadlines...
    dancer2011 dancer2011
    18-21, F
    Sep 18, 2008

    Staying Safe?

    I have several ideas.  Not all of them are good...to that, I'll admit.  I know not 100% can be that terrible though either.  So, what keeps me from pursuing dreams and goals? Is it fear of failure? Perhaps, fear of success? Is it that I still think I'm...
    debmichelle debmichelle
    36-40
    1 Response Jun 1, 2008

    Why Cant I Just Be Me?

    i am to shy for my own good. i hardly ever talk to anyone i dont already know as i am always thinking what is the best thing to say so that  im witty or come across as a person they want to know. i ALWAYS seem to say the wrong thing or try to say something funny and  it...
    crabbit crabbit
    31-35, F
    1 Response Mar 20, 2009

    I Can Be Rude

    I read that people don't like rude people. I can tell you I don't like hypocrites, and that's what gets me rude at times. I hold myself back a lot, because I don't want to hurt, or fuss about something that is not worth it in the end, or because of people I don't care about and...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    May 26, 2008

    Don't Say What I Wanna Say

    I will hold it in until i explode or until the tears are running down my face; I tell people all the time when they say I'm upset irritated or aggravated that I'm really not and that if i was as upset as they claimed they would be hiding under their desk (while the crazy person...
    tulick tulick
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Jul 2, 2008

    We Are One

    It may sound like a cliché, but it's true ― we are all connected. Some connections are closer than others, but we are all connected as one. If one person hurts, it affects every one of us. Alone, your energy is powerful enough to shape the flow and direction of your personal...
    zeeva70 zeeva70
    41-45, F
    1 Response Apr 18, 2013

    Keeping Strong Is What Keeps Me Going!

    Maybe it's people and me being scared of what they will think that holds me back. Maybe it's the thought that if I do something wrong, that I will screw it up, but the thing is, If people do something different then what others do, then they have a uniqueness to themselves...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Dec 16, 2012
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