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I Hope to Die In My Sleep Tonight

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 112 People

    I've just laid down and all I can think is

    that I hope I do not wake up. That it will all be over soon . I lost everything, my career, my relationship, and my kid because of my own selfishness. Because of drugs. Its been 8 months now and I am trapped in this maddening loneliness. Have you heard the saying that silence...
    therealjam therealjam
    31-35, M
    Feb 14, 2014

    Not Tonight, Maybe Not Even Tomorrow Night........

     But I have tried on occasion to make this happen.  Takin many sleepers and washed them down with straight vodka.   Taken Jims nerve pills ...........  In the past I'd do other  drugs with the hope of not recovering, or of coming back to life as I...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Jul 5, 2009

    I Wake Up Disappointed

    ...that i didn't die peacefully in my sleep. Boy I would do it if it was painless but I'd rather die peacefully. I ask that if It's not written for me to get what I want to just take me away to heaven. The mean people here aren't worth it to face everyday and it's disappointing...
    Dapph Dapph
    4 Responses Dec 25, 2011

    Well That Didn't Happen....

    well it didn't happen last night, not that i tried anything. I didn't sleep at all last night, and I am just in a TERRIBLE mood today, and my jackass boyfirend ins't helping much.... maybe tonight would be a great night to die in my sleep...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Jul 5, 2009

    Please God Don't Let Me Wake Up Again....

    I don't want to live anymore...can someone please help me, i want to die in my sleep but i want to make sure that the love of my life is there to hold me, so i can see her before i go...i have lost everything for her, she was my life.  i have nothing to live for.  i...
    Lonely1019 Lonely1019
    5 Responses May 26, 2010

    My ******* Life

    i hate my life . i dont understand why god hates me more. my past , my present everything is full of pain..only pain... i almost fed up with my ******* life. god should either give me the strength to face the problems or no problems. i lost my dad when i was 9. i was away from my...
    anasmylove anasmylove
    1 Response Oct 28, 2012


    five years of terror from a government agency...that lost my child .. no more no more.... 2 murders in my family since i was 9... child a victim of human trafficking.... no one investigated... we are of the wrong class... white and poor .....
    twenty7 twenty7
    51-55, F
    Nov 10, 2012

    To Die Or Not

    So, 4 months and 2 miscarriages later I am done with life. I would actually welcome death with a hug. Bring me out of my missery. I have the best fiance, but nothing more. A job for the summer that I can't handle because of my depression. A body that can't Do what it is supposed...
    mylifemysecret mylifemysecret
    18-21, F
    Jun 7, 2013

    Am I Living A Lost Cause?

    Now before any of you say that I'm being all emo let me explain this first. I would rather NOT commit suicide. Just a few people may know that I have been interested in Furry Fandom since I was 15. But before I knew what it was I...
    bufcvxldt0 bufcvxldt0
    Feb 2, 2011

    Ready To Go...

    I feel that I stress others out with my personal issues. Not intentionally, but because I have multiple panic attacks everyday. I don't know where they come from and they really hurt the the ones I love. For me, the easiest thing to do is fall asleep and release others from me...
    Polanco14 Polanco14
    1 Response Apr 4, 2012

    My Life...ruined

    Life is so short...but we have to make it smart and enjoy alot.This is my own story in which i had good parents who are so lovable and careable too.I'm totally different from others and i had my own set of thoughts.I'm good at studies.The thing is one of my classmate in my...
    funeraldeath funeraldeath
    18-21, F
    Oct 7, 2012


    i dont want to alive i have no one hope in my life my life is full of pain and i cant tolrate it and want to die but there is a problem i have a fear of painful die so i want to die  without pain is there any way to do that then tell me plz
    hart15 hart15
    1 Response Apr 3, 2012

    Yep, Tonights A Good Night To Die

    He everyone. I have a son with deadly asthma. He cant be in the cold. Im $75 away from being homeless. My only income is foodstamps. I have only one windshield wiper on my car and everytime I drive down a hill I pray to god my car will stop because the brakes are so bad. I have...
    exslut exslut
    22-25, F
    Sep 2, 2013

    The More You Love The More You Get Hurt

    6 Responses May 18, 2012

    I Wish God Could Take Me Quietly

    I'm going through a lot with my husband were constantly fighting right before bed and we don't make up either i feel like crap just laying awake all night while he's asleep thinking that he didn't do anything wrong and I just want to go to heaven and be with God where there's no...
    depressed210 depressed210
    18-21, F
    Oct 14, 2012

    Help Me Please

    I am disabled and cannot walk. I have been in a wheelchair for 3 1/2 yrs and tried an overdose 10 months ago unfortunately my husband " saved" me. Now I cannot buy any more tablets and he watches the post! I don't know what to do. I badly want to die and keep praying (!) I will...
    Mariabe Mariabe
    1 Response Feb 20, 2011

    Mistakes In Life

    I am writing this mail with sheer frustration about the way i am leading my life these days.I am jobless right now and so it happens that i don't find a stable job that suit me except the first job that i have started my job career.I am currently burden to my family & friends. I...
    sridharsethi sridharsethi
    2 Responses Jun 5, 2012

    I'm Not In A Crisis Nor Want Help, I'm Just Sick Of Living And Wish I Could Just Die In Sleep

    I lost my husband of 20 years after being with him since I was 17, he left me for another woman....I lost my oldest son (21), haven't spoken to him in almost a year now because we got into a fight and he went running to his dad and lives with him and his new family. I hurt...
    Seashell6 Seashell6
    36-40, F
    Jul 24, 2012

    I Hate Living

    no use in living.. i would like 2 die as early as possible
    arar2312 arar2312
    3 Responses Mar 31, 2012

    I Hope I Die Now

    wife hates me son not bothered family not bothered no job very few friends
    wimbledon11 wimbledon11
    Oct 3, 2012

    Nothing Special

    let me not begin like all those fairy tales "once there lived a little girl.." because this is no tale and this gonna be similar to many of your's life in here. they said that the "world is gonna end", frankly speaking i first felt happy because it will end all my pains then i...
    angel4tears angel4tears
    Sep 28, 2013

    I won't commit suicide

    because I have 2 teenage children and I don't want them to have a mother who killed herself. Yet I get to a point many times in any given week for the past 13 months where I cannot escape internal pain, and I am up all night worrying, but still have to work 45 hours a week with...
    BlueIris1962 BlueIris1962
    Aug 12, 2015

    I Hope Every Night

    Every night I hope that I won't wake up. I hate my life and I'm a burden to everyone. I'm not religious but every night I beg to whatever is out there that I die in my sleep. My heart sinks when I wake up in the morning. I have nothing to live for but I can't bring myself to end...
    MissVictorian MissVictorian
    36-40, F
    1 Response Sep 17, 2013

    Lost And Alone

    I met him two year ago. I was 16. The first time our eyes met I knew he had to be mine... From that point on I now had a purpose in life, let's face it, I didn't have much going for me so I knew it was a long shot. We've been together through anything you can think of. The...
    DestinedAgainstFate DestinedAgainstFate
    22-25, F
    Jun 4, 2013

    Just End It Already.

    I see no point in living anymore, but I'm too afraid to commit suicide because I'm not sure what happens next. I just keep hoping and wishing that something unexpectedly happens to me. I just don't want to wake up anymore. I wish I would get sick or something. I've been having...
    BabyBitchButterfly BabyBitchButterfly
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Aug 13, 2011

    Life Leading Nowhere

    I have lost my groove. My love of life. My job has sucked my soul out and slit it's throat. I have spend 3 1/2 years in the same job and I completely hate everyday that I'm there. Every bitchy customer that comes in makes me want to slam my head on the counter and bleed to...
    hayden83 hayden83
    26-30, M
    Aug 21, 2012

    Tomorrow, A Living Nightmare

    My parents refuse to help me get my license, take me to school or even take me to work. My boyfriend acts like he dosent care. When i call him all his says is I dont know. I feel like ending my life tonight. No one cares about me. Tomorrow I am getting fired for going over on my...
    Leftalonetosuffer91 Leftalonetosuffer91
    Aug 22, 2011

    Just Done.

    I'm so young. I have experienced so much pain. I have over 7O cuts over my arms, legs, and stomach. I lost my mom when I was five. My dad has never been any help. I'm diagnoised with Depression, and Bipolar. I am hated by almost everyone. I get blamed for everything. I feel so...
    JustKeepSwimming111 JustKeepSwimming111
    Mar 23, 2013

    I"m tired of being alone,

    nobody cares. I'm tired of being forgotten.
    hector00 hector00
    46-50, M
    1 Response Mar 29, 2015

    I know it's not going happen.

    But I'll die someday and every day between now and then is just toil and suffering and waiting for sweet relief. Why endure all of that? The sooner done the better. I would have ended it by now but I couldn't do that my young child. So I'm waiting, and toiling, and smiling, and...
    VorpalPen VorpalPen
    26-30, M
    Dec 15, 2015

    **** My Life

    For some time, i've been trying to survive. All i want is a normal life, all i want is to actually feel OK at least. Mars 2012 I left a 2y and 9m relationship, because there wasn't any love in it anymore. I broke his heart, really bad. And on top of it, i kissed another man 5...
    mylifemysecret mylifemysecret
    18-21, F
    Sep 19, 2012

    Hate Myself

    After having an accident at work and losing everything and getting 5 spinal surgeries and almost dying i am now getting divorced due to the fact that i hate myself ans feel my children won't even miss me. I tried killing myself and was found by my wife 3 years ago. I swore I'd...
    Downandoutagain Downandoutagain
    Aug 28, 2012

    Hell On Earth

    I have no family, no friends. Lost my home of 25 years, my job, my car. Gone is my freedom and independence. Trapped in a depressing and oppressive living situation. Wonder why I am still alive since I've lost everything that matters while innocent children get blown away for no...
    cynsroom cynsroom
    41-45, F
    Dec 21, 2012

    I Never Want To Wake Agiain

    The amount of times i think in a week i want to die is unbelievably high. All for various reasons not just ever one thing. I dont need people saying go to the doctors go and see someone!! Iv bin there to and that is hopeless. The only way someone could help me is if they tell me...
    Lovinreejay Lovinreejay
    26-30, F
    Sep 9, 2012

    I feel helpless....praying to god

    that either give me a reason to live or give me the strength to end this life.
    Avnichristian Avnichristian
    26-30, F
    3 Responses May 29, 2014

    Marriage Feels Over, I Would Do Anything To Save It

    I have been married for six years and in the relationship for 9 years. I have spent these years raising his kids. I finally got pregnant this year amidst a year of having my house wrecked, taken over, by his 14 year old....my life threatened and possessions stolen. When I told...
    jlowen jlowen
    1 Response Sep 4, 2011
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