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I Hope to Die In My Sleep Tonight

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 102 People

    Life Is Really Stupid

    I'm only a girl so why? Why does life do this to me? Why is it that I can't understand how I feel? I just wish life wasn't so hard. I mean god I don't know how I ended up here. One minute I was 4 year's old I probably had the best life ever.. I went to preschool my "mommy" and...
    uhgstupid uhgstupid 16-17, F Dec 23, 2010

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    Well That Didn't Happen....

    well it didn't happen last night, not that i tried anything. I didn't sleep at all last night, and I am just in a TERRIBLE mood today, and my jackass boyfirend ins't helping much.... maybe tonight would be a great night to die in my sleep...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jul 5, 2009

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    I Wish God Could Take Me Quietly

    I'm going through a lot with my husband were constantly fighting right before bed and we don't make up either i feel like crap just laying awake all night while he's asleep thinking that he didn't do anything wrong and I just want to go to heaven and be with God where there's no...
    depressed210 depressed210 18-21, F Oct 14, 2012

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    **** My Life

    For some time, i've been trying to survive. All i want is a normal life, all i want is to actually feel OK at least. Mars 2012 I left a 2y and 9m relationship, because there wasn't any love in it anymore. I broke his heart, really bad. And on top of it, i kissed another man 5...
    mylifemysecret mylifemysecret 18-21, F Sep 19, 2012

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    Help Me Please

    I am disabled and cannot walk. I have been in a wheelchair for 3 1/2 yrs and tried an overdose 10 months ago unfortunately my husband " saved" me. Now I cannot buy any more tablets and he watches the post! I don't know what to do. I badly want to die and keep praying (!) I will...
    Mariabe Mariabe 41-45 1 Response Feb 20, 2011

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    Die

    i dont want to alive i have no one hope in my life my life is full of pain and i cant tolrate it and want to die but there is a problem i have a fear of painful die so i want to die  without pain is there any way to do that then tell me plz
    hart15 hart15 22-25 1 Response Apr 3, 2012

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    My ******* Life

    i hate my life . i dont understand why god hates me more. my past , my present everything is full of pain..only pain... i almost fed up with my ******* life. god should either give me the strength to face the problems or no problems. i lost my dad when i was 9. i was away from my...
    anasmylove anasmylove 22-25 1 Response Oct 28, 2012

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    I Hate Living

    no use in living.. i would like 2 die as early as possible
    arar2312 arar2312 18-21 3 Responses Mar 31, 2012

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    Marriage Feels Over, I Would Do Anything To Save It

    I have been married for six years and in the relationship for 9 years. I have spent these years raising his kids. I finally got pregnant this year amidst a year of having my house wrecked, taken over, by his 14 year old....my life threatened and possessions stolen. When I told...
    jlowen jlowen 31-35 1 Response Sep 4, 2011

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    Tomorrow, A Living Nightmare

    My parents refuse to help me get my license, take me to school or even take me to work. My boyfriend acts like he dosent care. When i call him all his says is I dont know. I feel like ending my life tonight. No one cares about me. Tomorrow I am getting fired for going over on my...
    Leftalonetosuffer91 Leftalonetosuffer91 18-21 Aug 22, 2011

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    Nothing Special

    let me not begin like all those fairy tales "once there lived a little girl.." because this is no tale and this gonna be similar to many of your's life in here. they said that the "world is gonna end", frankly speaking i first felt happy because it will end all my pains then i...
    angel4tears angel4tears 18-21 Sep 28, 2013

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    Just Done.

    I'm so young. I have experienced so much pain. I have over 7O cuts over my arms, legs, and stomach. I lost my mom when I was five. My dad has never been any help. I'm diagnoised with Depression, and Bipolar. I am hated by almost everyone. I get blamed for everything. I feel so...
    JustKeepSwimming111 JustKeepSwimming111 22-25 Mar 23, 2013

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    Lost And Alone

    I met him two year ago. I was 16. The first time our eyes met I knew he had to be mine... From that point on I now had a purpose in life, let's face it, I didn't have much going for me so I knew it was a long shot. We've been together through anything you can think of. The...
    DestinedAgainstFate DestinedAgainstFate 18-21, F Jun 4, 2013

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    I'm Not In A Crisis Nor Want Help, I'm Just Sick Of Living And Wish I Could Just Die In Sleep

    I lost my husband of 20 years after being with him since I was 17, he left me for another woman....I lost my oldest son (21), haven't spoken to him in almost a year now because we got into a fight and he went running to his dad and lives with him and his new family. I hurt...
    Seashell6 Seashell6 36-40, F Jul 24, 2012

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    Ready To Go...

    I feel that I stress others out with my personal issues. Not intentionally, but because I have multiple panic attacks everyday. I don't know where they come from and they really hurt the the ones I love. For me, the easiest thing to do is fall asleep and release others from me...
    Polanco14 Polanco14 26-30 1 Response Apr 4, 2012

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    I Wake Up Disappointed

    ...that i didn't die peacefully in my sleep. Boy I would do it if it was painless but I'd rather die peacefully. I ask that if It's not written for me to get what I want to just take me away to heaven. The mean people here aren't worth it to face everyday and it's disappointing...
    Dapph Dapph 18-21 3 Responses Dec 25, 2011

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    Not Tonight, Maybe Not Even Tomorrow Night........

     But I have tried on occasion to make this happen.  Takin many sleepers and washed them down with straight vodka.   Taken Jims nerve pills ...........  In the past I'd do other  drugs with the hope of not recovering, or of coming back to life as I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 5, 2009

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    Hell On Earth

    I have no family, no friends. Lost my home of 25 years, my job, my car. Gone is my freedom and independence. Trapped in a depressing and oppressive living situation. Wonder why I am still alive since I've lost everything that matters while innocent children get blown away for no...
    cynsroom cynsroom 41-45, F Dec 21, 2012

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    To Die Or Not

    So, 4 months and 2 miscarriages later I am done with life. I would actually welcome death with a hug. Bring me out of my missery. I have the best fiance, but nothing more. A job for the summer that I can't handle because of my depression. A body that can't Do what it is supposed...
    mylifemysecret mylifemysecret 18-21, F Jun 7, 2013

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    I've just laid down and all I can think is

    that I hope I do not wake up. That it will all be over soon . I lost everything, my career, my relationship, and my kid because of my own selfishness. Because of drugs. Its been 8 months now and I am trapped in this maddening loneliness. Have you heard the saying that silence...
    therealjam therealjam 26-30, M Feb 14

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    I Never Want To Wake Agiain

    The amount of times i think in a week i want to die is unbelievably high. All for various reasons not just ever one thing. I dont need people saying go to the doctors go and see someone!! Iv bin there to and that is hopeless. The only way someone could help me is if they tell me...
    Lovinreejay Lovinreejay 26-30, F Sep 9, 2012

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    Hate Myself

    After having an accident at work and losing everything and getting 5 spinal surgeries and almost dying i am now getting divorced due to the fact that i hate myself ans feel my children won't even miss me. I tried killing myself and was found by my wife 3 years ago. I swore I'd...
    Downandoutagain Downandoutagain 41-45 Aug 28, 2012

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    I Hope Every Night

    Every night I hope that I won't wake up. I hate my life and I'm a burden to everyone. I'm not religious but every night I beg to whatever is out there that I die in my sleep. My heart sinks when I wake up in the morning. I have nothing to live for but I can't bring myself to end...
    MissVictorian MissVictorian 31-35, F Sep 17, 2013

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    I Hope I Die Now

    wife hates me son not bothered family not bothered no job very few friends
    wimbledon11 wimbledon11 36-40 Oct 3, 2012

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    Please God Don't Let Me Wake Up Again....

    I don't want to live anymore...can someone please help me, i want to die in my sleep but i want to make sure that the love of my life is there to hold me, so i can see her before i go...i have lost everything for her, she was my life.  i have nothing to live for.  i...
    Lonely1019 Lonely1019 36-40 6 Responses May 26, 2010

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    Life Leading Nowhere

    I have lost my groove. My love of life. My job has sucked my soul out and slit it's throat. I have spend 3 1/2 years in the same job and I completely hate everyday that I'm there. Every bitchy customer that comes in makes me want to slam my head on the counter and bleed to...
    hayden83 hayden83 26-30, M Aug 21, 2012

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    Fear

    i dont know how to talk to girls, im a 17 yr old virgin, i have no one to take to prom, i fear ill be lonley for ever
    shamwow230 shamwow230 16-17, M 1 Response Dec 15, 2011

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    The More You Love The More You Get Hurt

    HI FRNDS,                THIS IS A GIRL WHO IS WILLING TO DIE JUST BECAUSE OF LOVING A GUY. I TOO HAVE HEARD MANY STORIES IN WHICH LOVERS DIE BECAUSE OF THEIR LOVE FAILURE. BUT MINE IS A DIFFERENT STORY. I DID LOVE A GUY FOR 6 YEARS. MY FATHER LEFT MY MOM AT MY...
    HIMAVARSHA HIMAVARSHA 22-25 5 Responses May 18, 2012

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    Just End It Already.

    I see no point in living anymore, but I'm too afraid to commit suicide because I'm not sure what happens next. I just keep hoping and wishing that something unexpectedly happens to me. I just don't want to wake up anymore. I wish I would get sick or something. I've been having...
    BabyBitchButterfly BabyBitchButterfly 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 13, 2011

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    Mistakes In Life

    I am writing this mail with sheer frustration about the way i am leading my life these days.I am jobless right now and so it happens that i don't find a stable job that suit me except the first job that i have started my job career.I am currently burden to my family & friends. I...
    sridharsethi sridharsethi 26-30 2 Responses Jun 5, 2012

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    Yep, Tonights A Good Night To Die

    He everyone. I have a son with deadly asthma. He cant be in the cold. Im $75 away from being homeless. My only income is foodstamps. I have only one windshield wiper on my car and everytime I drive down a hill I pray to god my car will stop because the brakes are so bad. I have...
    exslut exslut 22-25, F Sep 2, 2013

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    Broken

    five years of terror from a government agency...that lost my child .. no more no more.... 2 murders in my family since i was 9... child a victim of human trafficking.... no one investigated... we are of the wrong class... white and poor .....
    twenty7 twenty7 51-55, F Nov 10, 2012

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    My Life...ruined

    Life is so short...but we have to make it smart and enjoy alot.This is my own story in which i had good parents who are so lovable and careable too.I'm totally different from others and i had my own set of thoughts.I'm good at studies.The thing is one of my classmate in my...
    funeraldeath funeraldeath 18-21, F Oct 7, 2012

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    Am I Living A Lost Cause?

    Now before any of you say that I'm being all emo let me explain this first. I would rather NOT commit suicide. Just a few people may know that I have been interested in Furry Fandom since I was 15. But before I knew what it was I...
    bufcvxldt0 bufcvxldt0 18-21 Feb 2, 2011

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    I feel helpless....praying to god

    that either give me a reason to live or give me the strength to end this life.
    Avnichristian Avnichristian 22-25, F 2 Responses May 29

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    I can't sleep tonight... I will just simply post a link to a story I posted not to long ago and it will explain why I am having a hard time falling a sleep tonight... EP Link
    ECrierie ECrierie 16-17, M Oct 10

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    It's 4:00 in the morning, and I'm still awake. Just so much on my mind, I don't wanna try to sleep cause I'll just lay there and think about everything. I guess there will be no...
    HisDaysAreNumbered HisDaysAreNumbered 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 4

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    My brain races and my thoughts run. I need the sleep. Tonight i really need it...the interview tomorrow could help me get on track...please shut up brain...please
    intellowave intellowave 22-25, M 1 day ago

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    I hope that I can shut my mind off , forget every damn happened to me and have some sleep , but I can't Memories never die.
    hopeless220 hopeless220 18-21 2 Responses Oct 10

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    I'm terrified to go to sleep cause I'm afraid I'm gonna die in my sleep. I can't breathe, I can feel my heart and brain. Also I keep seeing dark shadows and faces
    BooBear99 BooBear99 13-15, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I guess it's one of those nights... And I had been doing so well lately. I thought everything I had going on was helping me sleep through the night, hopefully that wasn't temporary...
    LivviyLove LivviyLove 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I just wanna die tbh, I mean how many times do I have to attempt till its permanent, I don't ******* get it.
    Brogann Brogann 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 1

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    Omg im bored tonight! Havent been able to sleep at all lately, Anyone awake and wanna talk all bullshit aside a friend would be nice!
    Cbh004 Cbh004 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 14

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    Just taking selfies of my tats cause I'm bored lol. Hope to be covered soon!
    tylouhill tylouhill 18-21, F 8 Responses Sep 28

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    Lost night I could not sleep until 12am then I was back up at 1am and could not get back to sleep until 6am then I head to get up at 6:30am! I'av been in bed trying to sleep sin 8...
    Shabz5black Shabz5black 22-25, F Sep 25

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    It's kind of like I can't sleep ever -_- well honestly I weirdly never feel tired it seems like when I do sleep it's more like passing out from eventually pass out without knowing...
    trinidadsteph92 trinidadsteph92 22-25, M Sep 23

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    Can't sleep anyone out their who can't sleep wanna keep me company lol
    Married2DaGame Married2DaGame 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 25

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    Sometimes I just can't sleep, it's like I've had too much going on in my brain and I can't switch off. I need to hear a good thunderstorm to put me to sleep...
    desy1 desy1 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 7

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    I can't sleep, I don't feel good and these 2 girls keep getting on my mind. I've been laying in bed for 4 hours trying to sleep and I keep getting distracted
    Carsonisthedawg1025 Carsonisthedawg1025 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 14

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    I hate those nights; kind of like tonight , where I can't fall asleep. I toss and I turn, struggling to keep my eyes shut and fighting with the blankets. Getting comfortable seems...
    GlamGasm GlamGasm 22-25, T 1 day ago

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    I'm tired but I can't sleep and it's because my mind is running rampant with the thought of you and me and the us that doesn't exist. What would it be like to touch you and be held...
    modernmuse modernmuse 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 23

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