I Hurt More Inside Than Anyone Knows

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    The Ghost Behind My Eyes

     i will smile ,laugh and joke.i will seem so happy.but be not fooled.i am really dead on the inside.the joy of life has been replaced by the long,cold nights.i will go throgh all the motions of a person who seems to not have a care in the world.but that is far from the truth...
    ghostofmyself ghostofmyself
    36-40
    1 Response Jun 29, 2009

    IT Still Hurts So...

    To this day the grief induced nausea wells up when I think of my sweet little Smokey Joe.  The tiny pekinese puppy I had received for my Christmas present when I was 11.  He was my best friend, my fierce fur bound protector  the one that bore my tears through those...
    peanutbrittle peanutbrittle
    46-50, F
    4 Responses Apr 8, 2008

    Nothing To Do....

    I don't even know anymore.... Outside I put on a smile and act like everything is fine. And sometimes I even believe everything is fine. But then I screw something else up and am reminded how incompetent and horrible I am. How I can't do things right. How I'm not normal or good...
    Kaity5 Kaity5
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 8, 2012

    I Lost My Best Friend And My Lover To A Drunk Driver

    It's been two weeks  now since I lost Simon to a drunk driver.  He was on his way to work, at 7 in the MORNING, and was hit head on by a drunk native playing "chicken" with him.  He was pronounced dead on the scene. Simon was my boyfriend for 1.5 years, and I was...
    dszabo dszabo
    26-30
    Feb 4, 2010

    A Glass

    Do I get on by drinking this? Yes.. And noone will care not even me- or maybe tomorrow perhabs..... This f'n night the bottom is cleared. Who knows but you- who have seen it too.
    aWomanExperiencedSomewhat aWomanExperiencedSomewhat
    31-35, F
    Jun 24, 2013

    Sex Offenders

    dose anyone any know what it like to be 20 and not find help becuase of a sex offenese i live i IL i was convicted of a misdorminor sex for consinualy have sex with a girl who was sixteen if any one can help me not to be homeless i will make a promise to try to change the law...
    kb9fya234 kb9fya234
    18-21, M
    1 Response Oct 6, 2009

    I'm Tainted With Darkness That Nobody Sees

    I'm the girl everyone sees as sweet, innocent, and peaceful. No one knows that I walk with the taint of darkness deep in my soul. I'm damaged inside, slowly breaking apart piece by piece. Crumbling, hurting, my heart shattered. I wear a smile masking my sadness. I've been through...
    flyingintherain flyingintherain
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 23, 2008

    Sex Offenders

    dose anyone any know what it like to be 20 and not find help becuase of a sex offenese i live i IL i was convicted of a misdorminor sex for consinualy have sex with a girl who was sixteen if any one can help me not to be homeless i will make a promise to try to change the law...
    kb9fya234 kb9fya234
    18-21, M
    Oct 6, 2009

    I Put On a Good Show.

    I must be putting on a great show, if people can't tell. Or maybe they don't get close enough to realize.. Like yesterday, I was talking to a friend and she said to me "You know, people would usually think you're a really sad person until they get to know you. Then it's...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Oct 2, 2009

    Fake Smile Yet Dying Inside

    I guess it began in my childhood. I was taught to stuff my true feelings and smile and pretend everything was alright in our home. Even though it wasn't. Dad was undiagnosed Bi-polar, who abused Mom and use kids. At 15 I was raped and never told anyone because I was afraid of...
    strawberry1969 strawberry1969
    36-40, F
    Aug 27, 2008

    Hidden Inside

    For the most part people think I'm ok, that everything is fine on the inside.  What they don't see is the real me when I come home and fall apart.  The darkness that roils inside of me.  The deep despair that makes the though of throwing it all away appealing. ...
    ShatteredSilk ShatteredSilk
    36-40, F
    1 Response Nov 18, 2008
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