I Hurt Myself Because I Deserve It

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    This

    Yeah, this ugly piece of **** here, THIS is a work of art. Just not the kind of art you're going to see in a gallery any time soon, nor the sort of thing anyone really wants to spend their time looking at, but hey a canvas DESERVES paint, right? That is what it was built for...
    newmurderer newmurderer
    70+
    2 Responses Jun 13, 2010

    I Deserve Punishment

    I deserve punishment. My best friends death is at least 50% my fault. I need to cut for that. I lied a bunch today so I'm going to have one cut for each lie, the worse the lie, the deeper the cut. I don't deserve to be happy. I deserve to cut and punish myself. I deserve it for...
    MissingIdentidy MissingIdentidy
    26-30, F
    May 12, 2013

    I get so angry with my loving hubby

    and I end up hurting him physically. Scratching, throwing things at him, trying to kick him. And when I realize what I've done I feel the need to hurt myself a thousand times worse.
    lamisspink lamisspink
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 3, 2014

    My Name Is Shaun

    i use self harm because i fell i deserve it . i used to be a cutter when i was younger but i had been able to overcome it for many of years but a few years ago i had lost my father and now i cant seem to stop the abuse. i cut until theres no room to cut , i break my fingers and...
    notsoworthy notsoworthy
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jul 17, 2013
    MAC619 MAC619
    18-21, F
    Jan 21, 2015

    I Hurt Myself Because I'm Deserve It

    I'm such a freaking selfish b*tch. I broke up with my boyfriend because I liked someone else. Even if I cut myself and burn it many times but it doesn't compare to the pain of the one I used to loved have now. I'm felt disgusting at myself...
    marry100 marry100
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Nov 7, 2013

    I Don't Know Really...

    I don't cut my wrists or anything like that. I have anorexia, well i am slowly recovering and absolutly hate life right now. I feel so fat as mum and dad are feeding me loads to make me put on weight and i look awful enough as it is. I feel disgusted when I look at my stomach so...
    xplanbx xplanbx
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Aug 21, 2010

    I've stop cutting myself

    because of my best friend. He loved me but I had issues so I've hurt him badly. I didnt mean it.. and it took me a long time to tell him how I really felt. Now he hates me and don't care about what I've said anymore. I'm back to harming myself again and he made me regret my...
    yellowishbone yellowishbone
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Nov 28, 2015

    Never Good Enough

    I was so proud that I hadn't cut in almost a year, and then last weekend it was all too much.  I did it.  I'm a genius at hiding my cuts, so one one knows, not even my husband.  He doesn't know what to do about it anyway, so just ignores it.  I don't know what...
    HRHBastion HRHBastion
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Aug 26, 2010

    I Deserve To Be Hurt Because I'm Stupid.

    But I'm such a pansy, I can't even cut myself because I don't like pain and I don't like blood, which is just typical of me. Everyone bullies me, they tell me I'm useless and I am, I'm not as good as people I know, I'm definitely not better. I used to think I was smart, but I'm...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jul 28, 2012

    I Deserve To Hurt

    My nutritionist told me today that I need to stop hurting myself because others have hurt me.... that by hurting myself, I'm letting them win twice. It makes sense - I'm not sure why it's so hard for that message to truly sink in. Sometimes though, I hurt myself because I know...
    inhale123exhale inhale123exhale
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jul 13, 2011

    I just don't want to bother anyone.

    I don't want to upset anyone but that's all I seem to be good for. I deserve to hurt emotionally and physically. I want it, because it's what I deserve. And I don't feel bad about it, because I feel better when I hurt, but it just makes people even more upset. I don't know...
    Incogneato555 Incogneato555
    18-21, F
    Sep 25, 2014

    Erasing My Life Away

    i had to dump my boyfriend for my parents because they hate how i'm older then him. And now since i had to let him go, i hurt so much, i used an eraser and burned my skin away. I couldnt feel it. I will never date again, well my parents wont let me until i graduate. my friends...
    glodens glodens
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Dec 14, 2009
    SheMoansAyyoBbyBoo SheMoansAyyoBbyBoo
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Dec 20, 2014

    I Hate Myself

    i dont deserve to be here. i hate myself so much. i cut, i burn, just so i can get rid of the emotional pain. but i cant take it anymore.
    kahtweenuh kahtweenuh
    16-17, F
    Jul 20, 2012

    I Shall Not Break The Rules

    I burn, cut, and brand myself. Why? Well my husband tells me that I deserve it and I know I do so when I feel that he didnt punish me enough I punish myself. "I deserve to hurt because I am worthless and I am a dog. Dogs have no rights, I have no rights. I am scum and nothing...
    bitchbynature0 bitchbynature0
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 27, 2012

    Yes

    I hurt myself because I know I deserve it. The voices in my head, tell me that I deserve to cut myself, that I have to punish myself for being a horrible person. Its my fault that I am just how I am, and I am the one who has to pay for it.   I cut myself, I burn...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    8 Responses Dec 6, 2009

    I Am Proud.

    I know i deserve to be hurt. To be in pain. Its really quite strange though, considering that a few months ago i promised myself that i wouldn't break down. I wouldn't hurt myself. That i would survive. How wrong i was, i realise now that i deserve the hurt, the pain and...
    dancetoyourownmusic dancetoyourownmusic
    13-15, F
    1 Response Apr 18, 2010

    I Really Do

    I've done some horrible things in my life, and it is time I pay for them instead of hiding from karma.
    musared musared
    16-17, F
    1 Response Aug 23, 2009

    Yes I Do

    I do deserve it I deserve the pain.
    eyeslikestars eyeslikestars
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Feb 22, 2011

    I cut myself because I am fat.

    I started because I'm overweight, and I hate my body. I hate myself for being weak. I looked at pictures of myself four years ago, and though I was fat then, I'm even fatter now. My body is disgusting, so I cut myself on my stomach-- because that's where I deserve it. I don't...
    nvmindme nvmindme
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 12, 2014

    Hey...don't ignore this,

    just give me a chance to explain Don't grab your "tools" whenever you feel bad.Remind yourself what will happen if you give up.How are you going to deal with it and how are you going to feel?Then refocus your goals,is giving up that easy?The relief that comes from self-harming...
    ghostdolly ghostdolly
    13-15, F
    Jan 24

    I cut to deep almost everytime

    and I just....I just want to be done with it but I can't stop....I'm scared I'm going to lens up going to deep one day and I'll leave the people that care behind....
    vamp1r3 vamp1r3
    13-15, M
    Feb 18

    im a horrible person

    and i don't know why i only deserve to die and i need someone to save me
    Austin5123 Austin5123
    16-17, M
    6 Responses Apr 15, 2014

    My name is Ryan. im trans.

    and my parents don't support it. they say i don't know my own feelings. so i became depressed. thinking i dont know who i am. and that i don't deserve to be a girl. than. i started trying to stop being transgender. i began reading and listening to transphobic quotes, rants, etc...
    PantsOnHead PantsOnHead
    16-17, M
    1 Response Sep 2, 2015

    i can't believe that

    when i breathe, there's something good inside of me. just one good thing inside of me one day you'll see scars will heal but we're meant to bleed
    kelleh kelleh
    13-15, F
    Nov 22, 2015

    No-one Can Hurt Me More Than I Can Hurt Myself

    I deserve it, I know I do. All i've ever done is hurt other people... hurting myself stops that pain from being so extreme. I punish myself for it, I can't help hurting other people and they don't understand that, so hurting myself, cutting my skin stops this from being so...
    Raveneyes Raveneyes
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Sep 23, 2012

    Id Like To Share Today I Was Tough It Helps

    Well im here for one reason thru these eyes to die why not speed up the process a little  i hurt myself for alot of reasons one being because i deserve it  i use to drink away my pain till they sent me to rehab  hell id be drunk right now if it werent for the...
    c1rca4lif3v2 c1rca4lif3v2
    16-17
    1 Response Aug 15, 2010

    Yea...i do...i feel like i deserve this.

    ..more pain....more loneliness...until i can't take this anymore and kill myself...that's my life plan...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Mar 1, 2015

    How To Forget The Person You Love Most

    im rahul, of 17 years of age. I had a love at first site with my college mate. It takes 1year to accept my love from the one who i propose. it was very fine nd i feel very happy for 2,3 months. Wt happin i dont know after 3 months the girl staris avoidiong me. im very un happy...
    nanirahul nanirahul
    18-21, M
    1 Response Apr 15, 2013

    20 Years Of Self Hate

    I have great parents who love me unconditionally - siblings too. Deep friendships... friends who I would die for (literally.... Aristotelean "perfect friends"). A good job, good co-workers.... but I HATE myself. There is nothing inside of me. The razors I use to write these...
    menschfeind menschfeind
    26-30
    Jul 6, 2010

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