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I Hurt Myself Because I Deserve It

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    No-one Can Hurt Me More Than I Can Hurt Myself

    I deserve it, I know I do. All i've ever done is hurt other people... hurting myself stops that pain from being so extreme. I punish myself for it, I can't help hurting other people and they don't understand that, so hurting myself, cutting my skin stops this from being so...
    Raveneyes Raveneyes 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 23, 2012

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    I Really Do

    I've done some horrible things in my life, and it is time I pay for them instead of hiding from karma.
    musared musared 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 23, 2009

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    I Deserve To Hurt

    My nutritionist told me today that I need to stop hurting myself because others have hurt me.... that by hurting myself, I'm letting them win twice. It makes sense - I'm not sure why it's so hard for that message to truly sink in. Sometimes though, I hurt myself because I know...
    inhale123exhale inhale123exhale 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 13, 2011

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    Yes

    I hurt myself because I know I deserve it. The voices in my head, tell me that I deserve to cut myself, that I have to punish myself for being a horrible person. Its my fault that I am just how I am, and I am the one who has to pay for it.   I cut myself, I burn...
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Dec 6, 2009

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    This

    Yeah, this ugly piece of **** here, THIS is a work of art. Just not the kind of art you're going to see in a gallery any time soon, nor the sort of thing anyone really wants to spend their time looking at, but hey a canvas DESERVES paint, right? That is what it was built for...
    newmurderer newmurderer 70+ 2 Responses Jun 13, 2010

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    Never Good Enough

    I was so proud that I hadn't cut in almost a year, and then last weekend it was all too much.  I did it.  I'm a genius at hiding my cuts, so one one knows, not even my husband.  He doesn't know what to do about it anyway, so just ignores it.  I don't know what...
    HRHBastion HRHBastion 36-40, F 3 Responses Aug 26, 2010

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    I Hurt Myself Because I'm Deserve It

    I'm such a freaking selfish b*tch. I broke up with my boyfriend because I liked someone else. Even if I cut myself and burn it many times but it doesn't compare to the pain of the one I used to loved have now. I'm felt disgusting at myself...
    marry100 marry100 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 7, 2013

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    I Deserve Punishment

    I deserve punishment. My best friends death is at least 50% my fault. I need to cut for that. I lied a bunch today so I'm going to have one cut for each lie, the worse the lie, the deeper the cut. I don't deserve to be happy. I deserve to cut and punish myself. I deserve it for...
    MissingIdentidy MissingIdentidy 22-25, F May 12, 2013

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    Erasing My Life Away

    i had to dump my boyfriend for my parents because they hate how i'm older then him. And now since i had to let him go, i hurt so much, i used an eraser and burned my skin away. I couldnt feel it. I will never date again, well my parents wont let me until i graduate. my friends...
    glodens glodens 18-21, F 7 Responses Dec 14, 2009

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    im a horrible person

    and i don't know why i only deserve to die and i need someone to save me
    Austin5123 Austin5123 13-15, M 6 Responses Apr 15

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    I Shall Not Break The Rules

    I burn, cut, and brand myself. Why? Well my husband tells me that I deserve it and I know I do so when I feel that he didnt punish me enough I punish myself. "I deserve to hurt because I am worthless and I am a dog. Dogs have no rights, I have no rights. I am scum and nothing...
    bitchbynature0 bitchbynature0 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 27, 2012

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    I Am Proud.

    I know i deserve to be hurt. To be in pain. Its really quite strange though, considering that a few months ago i promised myself that i wouldn't break down. I wouldn't hurt myself. That i would survive. How wrong i was, i realise now that i deserve the hurt, the pain and...
    dancetoyourownmusic dancetoyourownmusic 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 18, 2010

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    I'm Getting Better.

    I used to cut myself to hurt myself, because I felt it was a punishment for every bad thing I've done, even if it was just a simple thing like getting a C on a test or something.  But now I haven't cut in over 4 months, and I will never do it again.  I try not to hurt...
    FallingStarr FallingStarr 18-21, F 1 Response May 31, 2010

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    20 Years Of Self Hate

    I have great parents who love me unconditionally - siblings too. Deep friendships... friends who I would die for (literally.... Aristotelean "perfect friends"). A good job, good co-workers.... but I HATE myself. There is nothing inside of me. The razors I use to write these...
    menschfeind menschfeind 26-30 Jul 6, 2010

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    Id Like To Share Today I Was Tough It Helps

    Well im here for one reason thru these eyes to die why not speed up the process a little  i hurt myself for alot of reasons one being because i deserve it  i use to drink away my pain till they sent me to rehab  hell id be drunk right now if it werent for the...
    c1rca4lif3v2 c1rca4lif3v2 16-17 1 Response Aug 15, 2010

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    My Name Is Shaun

    i use self harm because i fell i deserve it . i used to be a cutter when i was younger but i had been able to overcome it for many of years but a few years ago i had lost my father and now i cant seem to stop the abuse. i cut until theres no room to cut , i break my fingers and...
    notsoworthy notsoworthy 22-25, M Jul 17, 2013

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    I get so angry with my loving hubby

    and I end up hurting him physically. Scratching, throwing things at him, trying to kick him. And when I realize what I've done I feel the need to hurt myself a thousand times worse.
    lamisspink lamisspink 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 3

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    How To Forget The Person You Love Most

    im rahul, of 17 years of age. I had a love at first site with my college mate. It takes 1year to accept my love from the one who i propose. it was very fine nd i feel very happy for 2,3 months. Wt happin i dont know after 3 months the girl staris avoidiong me. im very un happy...
    nanirahul nanirahul 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 15, 2013

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    I Deserve To Be Hurt Because I'm Stupid.

    But I'm such a pansy, I can't even cut myself because I don't like pain and I don't like blood, which is just typical of me. Everyone bullies me, they tell me I'm useless and I am, I'm not as good as people I know, I'm definitely not better. I used to think I was smart, but I'm...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 28, 2012

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    Yes I Do

    I do deserve it I deserve the pain.
    eyeslikestars eyeslikestars 26-30, F 2 Responses Feb 22, 2011

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    I Hate Myself

    i dont deserve to be here. i hate myself so much. i cut, i burn, just so i can get rid of the emotional pain. but i cant take it anymore.
    kahtweenuh kahtweenuh 16-17, F Jul 20, 2012

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    I cut myself because I am fat.

    I started because I'm overweight, and I hate my body. I hate myself for being weak. I looked at pictures of myself four years ago, and though I was fat then, I'm even fatter now. My body is disgusting, so I cut myself on my stomach-- because that's where I deserve it. I don't...
    nvmindme nvmindme 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 12

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    I Don't Know Really...

    I don't cut my wrists or anything like that. I have anorexia, well i am slowly recovering and absolutly hate life right now. I feel so fat as mum and dad are feeding me loads to make me put on weight and i look awful enough as it is. I feel disgusted when I look at my stomach so...
    xplanbx xplanbx 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 21, 2010

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    Not physically. At least not anymore. But I always wanna put myself in danger. I always talk to people who I know will just hurt me. I always do dangerous things, especially if I...
    21cookielover21 21cookielover21 18-21, F Jul 28

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    I used to cut myself like two years ago. With some counseling, I managed to stop. And I've promised some of my friends I won't do it ever again. But sometimes its just so hard. I...
    21cookielover21 21cookielover21 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 28

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    I hurt myself again. After several years, I hurt myself again. I chose to hurt myself rather than hurt others. Everything is coming back to me. The pain, agony, self-pity and...
    purplefreespirit purplefreespirit 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 9

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    Most people wouldn't understand and I don't expect you too. No one knows I hurt myself not even my closest friends, I only punch myself in the ribs and punch walls and throw...
    heyapple69 heyapple69 66-70, F 2 Responses Jul 30

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    My head is a mess. I think I can't do this anymore, but then I think well I have to. By this, I mean life. I've felt this way before, a long time ago, but that came in surges...
    ForBetterOrForWorse ForBetterOrForWorse 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 9

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    I just want to I'm not worth being protected . All I think about is hurting myself it sucks .
    DrowningInPain2 DrowningInPain2 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 7

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    I have been out of work for over a year. I am trying to find work but it is very difficult. Lately I have been mad at myself and feeling down. I started spanking myself. I get nude...
    mmccoy43 mmccoy43 41-45, M Aug 7

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    Im not sure if its true. I was hurt all my life by several people. They werent unhappy, not all of them. The biggest emotional pain i had as my ex- boss female started to be rude...
    angel8i angel8i 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 22

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    k so i m not as old as most people all this ( not an insult) i am a teen who goes through this every day if i so much as leave my bed i am hurt somehow at first it was just minor...
    Thomas3608 Thomas3608 13-15, M a week ago

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    I hate myself I think I was a mistake. I tried to commit suicide. I feel like everything is my fault.
    bitchybrandi bitchybrandi 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 30

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    I hate me and need drugs...more than you could even imagine... don'tfeed me that bull **** about not doing drugs. I don't care...I feel a little better. Just have ugly bruises.
    ASkylitHigh ASkylitHigh 18-21 Aug 4

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    Its the sad truth. I don't understand it at all.
    amazing97 amazing97 16-17, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    I've been cutting for about 7 months. It's gotten to the point where I don't even know why I do. My mom knows I used to cut, but she doesn't know I still do. I want to quit, but I...
    DancingDemons DancingDemons 13-15, F 4 Responses Jul 29

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    I don't know why I did it, I just felt like I had to. I'm sorry to all my friends and family who thought I was strong enough to quit. I'm sorry for breaking my promise.
    KittyTittyGang KittyTittyGang 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 29

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    No one cares. They're just pretending.
    Shxnnon Shxnnon 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 6

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    By hurting you I hurt myself. Timing has never been in my favour and I should have stayed quiet. I couldn't and didn't as I care and I want you to be happy and I know I can't do...
    myownbox myownbox 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 12

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    When I was young, I believe that doing or saying how you feel without thinking is a strict no no. That’s why even at a very young age. I don’t do or really say what I feel. And...
    VoiceLessMe VoiceLessMe 26-30, F Aug 11

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    I am hurt by my family, they don't care about anything but religion I am hurt by religion they tell me how god will no love me if I became who I am, that I would burn in hellfire...
    catxfreak catxfreak 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 21

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    I have to keep telling myself ....I deserve to be happy. I don't deserve to be yelled at, called names, demeaned, manipulated or isolated. I control my own happiness. I have to...
    Happinessismine Happinessismine 31-35, F 4 Responses Aug 6

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    I cut myself today. I am so ashamed. I haven't done something like that since I was a teenager. I used to cut myself all the time when I was younger. I had some issues growing up I...
    Thinkofme Thinkofme 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 10

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    Sometimes, when I can't sleep, I think of really sad scenarios that hurt me so much emotionally that I cry, because I want to prepare myself for the worse and so I will be able to...
    solisluna solisluna 16-17, F Aug 3

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    The rivers that were plagued by my emotions, They run with a force, The crimson tide has eroded the deepest of pleasures, I'm riding on like a racehorse, I'm being brought to...
    HUMAN2BME HUMAN2BME 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 27

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    I've recently just broke up with my boyfriend because he had to move away I feel awful every night I end up crying coz I miss him so much I tell everyone I'm okay I'm hiding behind...
    mellywoo mellywoo 13-15, F Jul 27

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    Hello. I am Bailey. I am seventeen years old. I started cutting myself when I was fourteen. The first time I did it, I used a key. I carved someone's initials into my forearm...
    Baileywelch12 Baileywelch12 16-17, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Identity is a state of mind in which someone recognizes/identifies their traits that leads to finding out who they are and what they do and not that of someone else. For the first...
    Sanora Sanora 18-21, F Jul 24

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    Hi! I've separated from my husband 3 years ago. I left him myself because he did not work for 3 years, but I was nice to him, helped out with money, and thought we were friends. He...
    DomesticRiot DomesticRiot 31-35, F Aug 13

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    I used to but our knifes are not strong enough. Anyway I went to the kitchen and grabbed a knife I kept moving it on my hand softly wanting to cut my self but I stopped and went...