Post

I Hurt Myself Because I Deserve It

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 217 People

    I Am Proud.

    I know i deserve to be hurt. To be in pain. Its really quite strange though, considering that a few months ago i promised myself that i wouldn't break down. I wouldn't hurt myself. That i would survive. How wrong i was, i realise now that i deserve the hurt, the pain and...
    dancetoyourownmusic dancetoyourownmusic 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 18, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Hurt Myself Because I'm Deserve It

    I'm such a freaking selfish b*tch. I broke up with my boyfriend because I liked someone else. Even if I cut myself and burn it many times but it doesn't compare to the pain of the one I used to loved have now. I'm felt disgusting at myself...
    marry100 marry100 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 7, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    20 Years Of Self Hate

    I have great parents who love me unconditionally - siblings too. Deep friendships... friends who I would die for (literally.... Aristotelean "perfect friends"). A good job, good co-workers.... but I HATE myself. There is nothing inside of me. The razors I use to write these...
    menschfeind menschfeind 26-30 Jul 6, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    im a horrible person

    and i don't know why i only deserve to die and i need someone to save me
    Austin5123 Austin5123 13-15, M 6 Responses Apr 15

    Your Response

    Cancel

    No-one Can Hurt Me More Than I Can Hurt Myself

    I deserve it, I know I do. All i've ever done is hurt other people... hurting myself stops that pain from being so extreme. I punish myself for it, I can't help hurting other people and they don't understand that, so hurting myself, cutting my skin stops this from being so...
    Raveneyes Raveneyes 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 23, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    My Name Is Shaun

    i use self harm because i fell i deserve it . i used to be a cutter when i was younger but i had been able to overcome it for many of years but a few years ago i had lost my father and now i cant seem to stop the abuse. i cut until theres no room to cut , i break my fingers and...
    notsoworthy notsoworthy 22-25, M Jul 17, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Yes I Do

    I do deserve it I deserve the pain.
    eyeslikestars eyeslikestars 26-30, F 2 Responses Feb 22, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I get so angry with my loving hubby

    and I end up hurting him physically. Scratching, throwing things at him, trying to kick him. And when I realize what I've done I feel the need to hurt myself a thousand times worse.
    lamisspink lamisspink 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 3

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Deserve Punishment

    I deserve punishment. My best friends death is at least 50% my fault. I need to cut for that. I lied a bunch today so I'm going to have one cut for each lie, the worse the lie, the deeper the cut. I don't deserve to be happy. I deserve to cut and punish myself. I deserve it for...
    MissingIdentidy MissingIdentidy 22-25, F May 12, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    How To Forget The Person You Love Most

    im rahul, of 17 years of age. I had a love at first site with my college mate. It takes 1year to accept my love from the one who i propose. it was very fine nd i feel very happy for 2,3 months. Wt happin i dont know after 3 months the girl staris avoidiong me. im very un happy...
    nanirahul nanirahul 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 15, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Deserve To Be Hurt Because I'm Stupid.

    But I'm such a pansy, I can't even cut myself because I don't like pain and I don't like blood, which is just typical of me. Everyone bullies me, they tell me I'm useless and I am, I'm not as good as people I know, I'm definitely not better. I used to think I was smart, but I'm...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 28, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I cut myself because I am fat.

    I started because I'm overweight, and I hate my body. I hate myself for being weak. I looked at pictures of myself four years ago, and though I was fat then, I'm even fatter now. My body is disgusting, so I cut myself on my stomach-- because that's where I deserve it. I don't...
    nvmindme nvmindme 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 12

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Shall Not Break The Rules

    I burn, cut, and brand myself. Why? Well my husband tells me that I deserve it and I know I do so when I feel that he didnt punish me enough I punish myself. "I deserve to hurt because I am worthless and I am a dog. Dogs have no rights, I have no rights. I am scum and nothing...
    bitchbynature0 bitchbynature0 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 27, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    This

    Yeah, this ugly piece of **** here, THIS is a work of art. Just not the kind of art you're going to see in a gallery any time soon, nor the sort of thing anyone really wants to spend their time looking at, but hey a canvas DESERVES paint, right? That is what it was built for...
    newmurderer newmurderer 70+ 2 Responses Jun 13, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Erasing My Life Away

    i had to dump my boyfriend for my parents because they hate how i'm older then him. And now since i had to let him go, i hurt so much, i used an eraser and burned my skin away. I couldnt feel it. I will never date again, well my parents wont let me until i graduate. my friends...
    glodens glodens 18-21, F 7 Responses Dec 14, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I'm Getting Better.

    I used to cut myself to hurt myself, because I felt it was a punishment for every bad thing I've done, even if it was just a simple thing like getting a C on a test or something.  But now I haven't cut in over 4 months, and I will never do it again.  I try not to hurt...
    FallingStarr FallingStarr 18-21, F 1 Response May 31, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Really Do

    I've done some horrible things in my life, and it is time I pay for them instead of hiding from karma.
    musared musared 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 23, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Deserve To Hurt

    My nutritionist told me today that I need to stop hurting myself because others have hurt me.... that by hurting myself, I'm letting them win twice. It makes sense - I'm not sure why it's so hard for that message to truly sink in. Sometimes though, I hurt myself because I know...
    inhale123exhale inhale123exhale 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 13, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Hate Myself

    i dont deserve to be here. i hate myself so much. i cut, i burn, just so i can get rid of the emotional pain. but i cant take it anymore.
    kahtweenuh kahtweenuh 16-17, F Jul 20, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Don't Know Really...

    I don't cut my wrists or anything like that. I have anorexia, well i am slowly recovering and absolutly hate life right now. I feel so fat as mum and dad are feeding me loads to make me put on weight and i look awful enough as it is. I feel disgusted when I look at my stomach so...
    xplanbx xplanbx 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 21, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Yes

    I hurt myself because I know I deserve it. The voices in my head, tell me that I deserve to cut myself, that I have to punish myself for being a horrible person. Its my fault that I am just how I am, and I am the one who has to pay for it.   I cut myself, I burn...
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Dec 6, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Never Good Enough

    I was so proud that I hadn't cut in almost a year, and then last weekend it was all too much.  I did it.  I'm a genius at hiding my cuts, so one one knows, not even my husband.  He doesn't know what to do about it anyway, so just ignores it.  I don't know what...
    HRHBastion HRHBastion 36-40, F 3 Responses Aug 26, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Id Like To Share Today I Was Tough It Helps

    Well im here for one reason thru these eyes to die why not speed up the process a little  i hurt myself for alot of reasons one being because i deserve it  i use to drink away my pain till they sent me to rehab  hell id be drunk right now if it werent for the...
    c1rca4lif3v2 c1rca4lif3v2 16-17 1 Response Aug 15, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Related Experiences

    I hurt myself because it feels good to me and me and my best friend Alpha will continue to hurt other people see I like to make people feel my pain and my hurt that's why I hurt...
    dangerousperson dangerousperson 26-30, M Sep 1

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I use razorblades to hurt myself, 'cause, sometimes, I'm so sad I'm in real pain. I have scars all over my wrists, so I'm always wearing a hoodie or jacket. I live in one of the...
    mymasochismtango mymasochismtango 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    When I get frustrated or extremely upset or argue with someone I want to hurt myself. Its mainly when I argue with my close friends and mother. I feel so bad about things I said or...
    kleox7x kleox7x 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 6

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Every day i do the same stupid ****. Cutting of burning myself because its a release. Then i get angry at myself for cutting and then cut more to release that anger. Im stupid...
    RazorToMySkin RazorToMySkin 16-17, M 3 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have started doing risky things - mainly meeting strangers for sex - to hurt myself. And it's working. I've been lucky so far that the men have been safe. But I keep pushing...
    chumiloons chumiloons 41-45, F Sep 4

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I hurt myself todayTo see if I still feelI focus on the painThe only thing that's realThe needle tears a holeThe old familiar stingTry to kill it all awayBut I remember everything...
    deepgreenwood deepgreenwood 26-30, M a week ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I hate myself for all the lies and deception I inflicted on my current boyfriend. I blame my family particularly. I am a cheater and this means I have broken my own value system. I...
    Deadlynightshade5 Deadlynightshade5 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 27

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I hate myself for what has happened in the past. I have hurt my family with secrets.. But I don't know how to say anything... I was raped for a year by a guy who was obsessed...
    YoungLovee15 YoungLovee15 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 27

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Truth Hurts! At my age, with my lack of accomplishments In my situation (STILL) and no improvement I was so stressed out by an event tonight I really needed to get it off my chest...
    SashaAmazon SashaAmazon 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 9

    Your Response

    Cancel
    There's so much pain inside me and i just have to cut to get it out. I hate myself for doing it but i still do it. Noone even cares anyway so i'm not hurting anyone else.
    RazorToMySkin RazorToMySkin 16-17, M 3 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Well, this isn't really a past experience but here goes... Since I left college, the people who I thought were my friends are ignoring me and sometimes it really feels like I'm...
    smify123146 smify123146 16-17, M 1 Response Sep 4

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Well I didn't do it last night....all I did was cut myself and I thought I would cut myself deep and that would end it all but no it didn't so now I'm gonna be left with even more...
    Botdf1shutup Botdf1shutup 13-15, F 3 Responses Sep 10

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I cut myself , to escape .. All the problems i have is too much
    ActuallyGrace ActuallyGrace 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 5

    Your Response

    Cancel
    "NO LIMBS, NO LIMITS!" I am going to probably write one of the harshest comments in public now, but I think it is my duty, I can't stand to just stare and keep reading without...
    TNTandCHOCOLATE TNTandCHOCOLATE 31-35 Sep 7

    Your Response

    Cancel
    So like... 15 mins ago, I got out of the car and my brother closed the door and smashed my middle and other two fingers and I heard a crunch noise.. And now My middle finger is...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I need someone to be there for me so I can't cut People say it is bad for me but I don't see the problem
    ImNotReallyFine ImNotReallyFine 13-15, M 3 Responses Sep 5

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Cutting yourself is like cutting your own heart open. No matter how hard you try, only blood will ever escape your body. Your emotions and pain will forever be within you until you...
    GetYourFreakOn GetYourFreakOn 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 5

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Around 7 months ago I hurt someone in a very bad way and I mean seriously bad. I hurt him and I was denied the chance to apologise to him, regardless whether he forgave me or not...
    GirlWithTheRedHair2013 GirlWithTheRedHair2013 16-17, F Aug 24

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I read something sad today from a friend who is now in a similar situation as i was this time last year and my heart goes out to her. As it was a time when i myself felt so very...
    lilreddress lilreddress 36-40, F 3 Responses Aug 31

    Your Response

    Cancel
    My story is that I have a sickness inside that I don't know how to make go away. It's hard to define this sickness other than a pervading poison that is eating me from the inside...
    Shellybelle Shellybelle 41-45, F 4 Responses Aug 26

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I feel like I'm living a nightmare Everything isn't going how I saw it Nothing is the same anymore Sleep non-existent Waking hours I feel zombiefied I fight the urge to dig deep...
    PoeticMute PoeticMute 31-35, M Sep 11

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I got into a big fight, and i lost a lot of people i mean my friends are my whole world met they all left me ( some stayed ), i mean i'm afraid now for being myself because we only...
    ActuallyGrace ActuallyGrace 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 3

    Your Response

    Cancel
    When you have had your heart broken so badly, you become rather heartless. You feel nothing at all when someone you care about leaves you. Realization hits you, you started to see...
    minyue minyue 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 1

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Maybe it's the fact I work all the time just to survive, but what am I surviving. An empty life. A boring life. A life that goes from work to sleep back to work again. Out of the...
    Humming247 Humming247 22-25, F 6 Responses Aug 28

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I was looking for the page "I Am Ashamed of Being Myself," and I could have sworn that I clicked on it, but instead Firefox led me here. So what I'm going to do is tell the story...
    Kurokagi Kurokagi 18-21 Sep 2

    Your Response

    Cancel
    This is the first time I am opening up about myself, and I truly cannot stand the person I am, all for one small aspect of me that in reality should not be as big of a deal as I...
    skh22 skh22 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 7

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I'm depressed and it's hard. It's gotten bad enough that I started cutting myself for tons of different reasons. Sometimes I feel so numb inside that I cut myself so I can feel...
    benjamintkw benjamintkw 13-15, M