Post
Experience Project iOS Android Apps | Download EP for your Mobile Device

I Hurt Myself Because I Deserve It

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 241 People

    Id Like To Share Today I Was Tough It Helps

    Well im here for one reason thru these eyes to die why not speed up the process a little  i hurt myself for alot of reasons one being because i deserve it  i use to drink away my pain till they sent me to rehab  hell id be drunk right now if it werent for the...
    c1rca4lif3v2 c1rca4lif3v2 16-17 1 Response Aug 15, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Don't Know Really...

    I don't cut my wrists or anything like that. I have anorexia, well i am slowly recovering and absolutly hate life right now. I feel so fat as mum and dad are feeding me loads to make me put on weight and i look awful enough as it is. I feel disgusted when I look at my stomach so...
    xplanbx xplanbx 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 21, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Yes

    I hurt myself because I know I deserve it. The voices in my head, tell me that I deserve to cut myself, that I have to punish myself for being a horrible person. Its my fault that I am just how I am, and I am the one who has to pay for it.   I cut myself, I burn...
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Dec 6, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I get so angry with my loving hubby

    and I end up hurting him physically. Scratching, throwing things at him, trying to kick him. And when I realize what I've done I feel the need to hurt myself a thousand times worse.
    lamisspink lamisspink 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 3

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Erasing My Life Away

    i had to dump my boyfriend for my parents because they hate how i'm older then him. And now since i had to let him go, i hurt so much, i used an eraser and burned my skin away. I couldnt feel it. I will never date again, well my parents wont let me until i graduate. my friends...
    glodens glodens 18-21, F 7 Responses Dec 14, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    im a horrible person

    and i don't know why i only deserve to die and i need someone to save me
    Austin5123 Austin5123 13-15, M 6 Responses Apr 15

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Hate Myself

    i dont deserve to be here. i hate myself so much. i cut, i burn, just so i can get rid of the emotional pain. but i cant take it anymore.
    kahtweenuh kahtweenuh 16-17, F Jul 20, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    No-one Can Hurt Me More Than I Can Hurt Myself

    I deserve it, I know I do. All i've ever done is hurt other people... hurting myself stops that pain from being so extreme. I punish myself for it, I can't help hurting other people and they don't understand that, so hurting myself, cutting my skin stops this from being so...
    Raveneyes Raveneyes 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 23, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Deserve To Hurt

    My nutritionist told me today that I need to stop hurting myself because others have hurt me.... that by hurting myself, I'm letting them win twice. It makes sense - I'm not sure why it's so hard for that message to truly sink in. Sometimes though, I hurt myself because I know...
    inhale123exhale inhale123exhale 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 13, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Deserve Punishment

    I deserve punishment. My best friends death is at least 50% my fault. I need to cut for that. I lied a bunch today so I'm going to have one cut for each lie, the worse the lie, the deeper the cut. I don't deserve to be happy. I deserve to cut and punish myself. I deserve it for...
    MissingIdentidy MissingIdentidy 22-25, F May 12, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Shall Not Break The Rules

    I burn, cut, and brand myself. Why? Well my husband tells me that I deserve it and I know I do so when I feel that he didnt punish me enough I punish myself. "I deserve to hurt because I am worthless and I am a dog. Dogs have no rights, I have no rights. I am scum and nothing...
    bitchbynature0 bitchbynature0 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 27, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    20 Years Of Self Hate

    I have great parents who love me unconditionally - siblings too. Deep friendships... friends who I would die for (literally.... Aristotelean "perfect friends"). A good job, good co-workers.... but I HATE myself. There is nothing inside of me. The razors I use to write these...
    menschfeind menschfeind 26-30 Jul 6, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    This

    Yeah, this ugly piece of **** here, THIS is a work of art. Just not the kind of art you're going to see in a gallery any time soon, nor the sort of thing anyone really wants to spend their time looking at, but hey a canvas DESERVES paint, right? That is what it was built for...
    newmurderer newmurderer 70+ 2 Responses Jun 13, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Never Good Enough

    I was so proud that I hadn't cut in almost a year, and then last weekend it was all too much.  I did it.  I'm a genius at hiding my cuts, so one one knows, not even my husband.  He doesn't know what to do about it anyway, so just ignores it.  I don't know what...
    HRHBastion HRHBastion 36-40, F 3 Responses Aug 26, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I'm Getting Better.

    I used to cut myself to hurt myself, because I felt it was a punishment for every bad thing I've done, even if it was just a simple thing like getting a C on a test or something.  But now I haven't cut in over 4 months, and I will never do it again.  I try not to hurt...
    FallingStarr FallingStarr 18-21, F 1 Response May 31, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Really Do

    I've done some horrible things in my life, and it is time I pay for them instead of hiding from karma.
    musared musared 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 23, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Every time I make any kind of mistake-

    even just getting a bad grade on a test or saying something stupid- I feel like I deserve to be punished for it by hurting myself. I cut my wrists sometimes (and cover it with a watch), but I try not to press too hard because I don't want obvious scars. In the last year I've...
    kaleidoscopic21 kaleidoscopic21 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Am Proud.

    I know i deserve to be hurt. To be in pain. Its really quite strange though, considering that a few months ago i promised myself that i wouldn't break down. I wouldn't hurt myself. That i would survive. How wrong i was, i realise now that i deserve the hurt, the pain and...
    dancetoyourownmusic dancetoyourownmusic 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 18, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Hurt Myself Because I'm Deserve It

    I'm such a freaking selfish b*tch. I broke up with my boyfriend because I liked someone else. Even if I cut myself and burn it many times but it doesn't compare to the pain of the one I used to loved have now. I'm felt disgusting at myself...
    marry100 marry100 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 7, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I just don't want to bother anyone.

    I don't want to upset anyone but that's all I seem to be good for. I deserve to hurt emotionally and physically. I want it, because it's what I deserve. And I don't feel bad about it, because I feel better when I hurt, but it just makes people even more upset. I don't know...
    Incogneato555 Incogneato555 16-17, F Sep 25

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I cut myself because I am fat.

    I started because I'm overweight, and I hate my body. I hate myself for being weak. I looked at pictures of myself four years ago, and though I was fat then, I'm even fatter now. My body is disgusting, so I cut myself on my stomach-- because that's where I deserve it. I don't...
    nvmindme nvmindme 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 12

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Yes I Do

    I do deserve it I deserve the pain.
    eyeslikestars eyeslikestars 26-30, F 2 Responses Feb 22, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Deserve To Be Hurt Because I'm Stupid.

    But I'm such a pansy, I can't even cut myself because I don't like pain and I don't like blood, which is just typical of me. Everyone bullies me, they tell me I'm useless and I am, I'm not as good as people I know, I'm definitely not better. I used to think I was smart, but I'm...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 28, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    How To Forget The Person You Love Most

    im rahul, of 17 years of age. I had a love at first site with my college mate. It takes 1year to accept my love from the one who i propose. it was very fine nd i feel very happy for 2,3 months. Wt happin i dont know after 3 months the girl staris avoidiong me. im very un happy...
    nanirahul nanirahul 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 15, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    My Name Is Shaun

    i use self harm because i fell i deserve it . i used to be a cutter when i was younger but i had been able to overcome it for many of years but a few years ago i had lost my father and now i cant seem to stop the abuse. i cut until theres no room to cut , i break my fingers and...
    notsoworthy notsoworthy 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 17, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Related Experiences

    Sometimes I hurt myself on purpose just to have an excuse for crying. It's different from cutting, because I don't do it to hide my feelings. I do it so I don't feel as bad for...
    RestlessDreamer22 RestlessDreamer22 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 5

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have never hurt myself but it has crossed my mind multiple times. I like to think that its just a thought and I would never hurt myself but I am afraid that one day I really wont...
    cheybear96 cheybear96 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 1

    Your Response

    Cancel
    As the years have gone by, dunno exactly where to start but merely understanding things cannot be replayed. In a roll of life, I guess I need to bleed for once just to stop this...
    Choirayla Choirayla 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I am extremely depressed. I feel so bad. I just want to die or hurt myself really bad. No one likes to be around me. I'm a burden to my family. I feel like I have an anchor tied to...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 30

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Really want to hurt myself right now. :(
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 5

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Today, I nearly killed myself, because I was struggling from the past and what it had brought. But I didn't, I didn't because I feel like I can Change who I am at any time... Death...
    writingforlife6 writingforlife6 18-21, F Nov 19

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Life has been impossible for me these past 6 months especially the last two. I am miserable, in agony, I want to live but I can't right now. I've always flirted with the thought of...
    thefightingangel thefightingangel 18-21, M 1 day ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Please don't hesitate to talk to me if you ever feel alone, worthless, sad, or feel the need to hurt yourself. You're not alone in your struggle, everyone at some point feels the...
    Michaelyourguardianangel Michaelyourguardianangel 18-21, M Nov 23

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Owwwwwwwwwwwwww. This hurts!!!!!
    poolover565 poolover565 31-35, F Nov 29

    Your Response

    Cancel
    i tried not to. didn't work. it happened. after a few weeks of it not happening. i hate myself.
    kimberlykhaos kimberlykhaos 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 23

    Your Response

    Cancel
    It's been just over a year since the last time I cut myself. This time of year is really hard for me. I miscarried last year, 5 days after the 1 year anniversary of my rape... For...
    KC94 KC94 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 1

    Your Response

    Cancel
    It's been about two months since I cut myself and I really want to it's eating me alive.....
    kassidia kassidia 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 1

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Someone please distract me I want I sooo bad I can't stop myself
    kassidia kassidia 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 2

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Did it again after stopping for years. Scratching my arm makes me feel less stressed and actually I like how it feels. I used to cut myself though but this time it's different at...
    PiecingMeBackTogether PiecingMeBackTogether 18-21 5 Responses 4 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I tried to cut myself when I was 12. Because of a puny, funny reason; I was not able to study all of the subjects for the supposed final exams tomorrow that day. I was so...
    dakilangdreamer dakilangdreamer 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 21

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Now for weeks I've been crying in my bed because of depression and all the bullying and school and I decided to cut myself. I did it today and it felt strange but now its the only...
    suicidegirl123 suicidegirl123 18-21, F 3 Responses a week ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Hey there. There is no such thing somebody can fix you. You gotta fix yourself! Is all in you! In your mind! You gotta learn to see your pain and understand it. And try to not let...
    LovelyLilly13 LovelyLilly13 22-25, F 5 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I don't know what's going to Happen and I'm freaking out.
    Mylo248 Mylo248 16-17, F 10 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    i know i shouldn't. but i can't help it. :c
    kimberlykhaos kimberlykhaos 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 23

    Your Response

    Cancel
    every day I want to rip open my own skin
    Mylo248 Mylo248 16-17, F 5 Responses Nov 29

    Your Response

    Cancel
    A overly large penis. #thestruggle
    LongNeckJoe LongNeckJoe 16-17, M Nov 30

    Your Response

    Cancel
    It feels like I'm walking upstream through a current strong enough to pull me under four times over. There are others with me but they are walking along the banks telling me to...
    nnawsnahta nnawsnahta 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 4

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Haha, I don't even understand life anymore. for real, what is my purpose anymore. I can't do anything right. maybe tonight is the night. ??????
    nnawsnahta nnawsnahta 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 6

    Your Response

    Cancel