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I Hurt Myself Because I Deserve It

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    How To Forget The Person You Love Most

    im rahul, of 17 years of age. I had a love at first site with my college mate. It takes 1year to accept my love from the one who i propose. it was very fine nd i feel very happy for 2,3 months. Wt happin i dont know after 3 months the girl staris avoidiong me. im very un happy...
    nanirahul nanirahul 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 15, 2013

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    This

    Yeah, this ugly piece of **** here, THIS is a work of art. Just not the kind of art you're going to see in a gallery any time soon, nor the sort of thing anyone really wants to spend their time looking at, but hey a canvas DESERVES paint, right? That is what it was built for...
    newmurderer newmurderer 70+ 2 Responses Jun 13, 2010

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    Never Good Enough

    I was so proud that I hadn't cut in almost a year, and then last weekend it was all too much.  I did it.  I'm a genius at hiding my cuts, so one one knows, not even my husband.  He doesn't know what to do about it anyway, so just ignores it.  I don't know what...
    HRHBastion HRHBastion 36-40, F 3 Responses Aug 26, 2010

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    Yes

    I hurt myself because I know I deserve it. The voices in my head, tell me that I deserve to cut myself, that I have to punish myself for being a horrible person. Its my fault that I am just how I am, and I am the one who has to pay for it.   I cut myself, I burn...
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Dec 6, 2009

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    I Hurt Myself Because I'm Deserve It

    I'm such a freaking selfish b*tch. I broke up with my boyfriend because I liked someone else. Even if I cut myself and burn it many times but it doesn't compare to the pain of the one I used to loved have now. I'm felt disgusting at myself...
    marry100 marry100 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 7, 2013

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    I Shall Not Break The Rules

    I burn, cut, and brand myself. Why? Well my husband tells me that I deserve it and I know I do so when I feel that he didnt punish me enough I punish myself. "I deserve to hurt because I am worthless and I am a dog. Dogs have no rights, I have no rights. I am scum and nothing...
    bitchbynature0 bitchbynature0 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 27, 2012

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    I Deserve Punishment

    I deserve punishment. My best friends death is at least 50% my fault. I need to cut for that. I lied a bunch today so I'm going to have one cut for each lie, the worse the lie, the deeper the cut. I don't deserve to be happy. I deserve to cut and punish myself. I deserve it for...
    MissingIdentidy MissingIdentidy 22-25, F May 12, 2013

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    No-one Can Hurt Me More Than I Can Hurt Myself

    I deserve it, I know I do. All i've ever done is hurt other people... hurting myself stops that pain from being so extreme. I punish myself for it, I can't help hurting other people and they don't understand that, so hurting myself, cutting my skin stops this from being so...
    Raveneyes Raveneyes 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 23, 2012

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    I get so angry with my loving hubby

    and I end up hurting him physically. Scratching, throwing things at him, trying to kick him. And when I realize what I've done I feel the need to hurt myself a thousand times worse.
    lamisspink lamisspink 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 3

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    I Really Do

    I've done some horrible things in my life, and it is time I pay for them instead of hiding from karma.
    musared musared 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 23, 2009

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    Yes I Do

    I do deserve it I deserve the pain.
    eyeslikestars eyeslikestars 26-30, F 2 Responses Feb 22, 2011

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    I Deserve To Hurt

    My nutritionist told me today that I need to stop hurting myself because others have hurt me.... that by hurting myself, I'm letting them win twice. It makes sense - I'm not sure why it's so hard for that message to truly sink in. Sometimes though, I hurt myself because I know...
    inhale123exhale inhale123exhale 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 13, 2011

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    I Deserve To Be Hurt Because I'm Stupid.

    But I'm such a pansy, I can't even cut myself because I don't like pain and I don't like blood, which is just typical of me. Everyone bullies me, they tell me I'm useless and I am, I'm not as good as people I know, I'm definitely not better. I used to think I was smart, but I'm...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 28, 2012

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    My Name Is Shaun

    i use self harm because i fell i deserve it . i used to be a cutter when i was younger but i had been able to overcome it for many of years but a few years ago i had lost my father and now i cant seem to stop the abuse. i cut until theres no room to cut , i break my fingers and...
    notsoworthy notsoworthy 22-25, M Jul 17, 2013

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    Id Like To Share Today I Was Tough It Helps

    Well im here for one reason thru these eyes to die why not speed up the process a little  i hurt myself for alot of reasons one being because i deserve it  i use to drink away my pain till they sent me to rehab  hell id be drunk right now if it werent for the...
    c1rca4lif3v2 c1rca4lif3v2 16-17 1 Response Aug 15, 2010

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    20 Years Of Self Hate

    I have great parents who love me unconditionally - siblings too. Deep friendships... friends who I would die for (literally.... Aristotelean "perfect friends"). A good job, good co-workers.... but I HATE myself. There is nothing inside of me. The razors I use to write these...
    menschfeind menschfeind 26-30 Jul 6, 2010

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    I cut myself because I am fat.

    I started because I'm overweight, and I hate my body. I hate myself for being weak. I looked at pictures of myself four years ago, and though I was fat then, I'm even fatter now. My body is disgusting, so I cut myself on my stomach-- because that's where I deserve it. I don't...
    nvmindme nvmindme 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 12

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    Erasing My Life Away

    i had to dump my boyfriend for my parents because they hate how i'm older then him. And now since i had to let him go, i hurt so much, i used an eraser and burned my skin away. I couldnt feel it. I will never date again, well my parents wont let me until i graduate. my friends...
    glodens glodens 18-21, F 7 Responses Dec 14, 2009

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    im a horrible person

    and i don't know why i only deserve to die and i need someone to save me
    Austin5123 Austin5123 13-15, M 6 Responses Apr 15

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    I'm Getting Better.

    I used to cut myself to hurt myself, because I felt it was a punishment for every bad thing I've done, even if it was just a simple thing like getting a C on a test or something.  But now I haven't cut in over 4 months, and I will never do it again.  I try not to hurt...
    FallingStarr FallingStarr 18-21, F 1 Response May 31, 2010

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    I Am Proud.

    I know i deserve to be hurt. To be in pain. Its really quite strange though, considering that a few months ago i promised myself that i wouldn't break down. I wouldn't hurt myself. That i would survive. How wrong i was, i realise now that i deserve the hurt, the pain and...
    dancetoyourownmusic dancetoyourownmusic 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 18, 2010

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    I Hate Myself

    i dont deserve to be here. i hate myself so much. i cut, i burn, just so i can get rid of the emotional pain. but i cant take it anymore.
    kahtweenuh kahtweenuh 16-17, F Jul 20, 2012

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    I Don't Know Really...

    I don't cut my wrists or anything like that. I have anorexia, well i am slowly recovering and absolutly hate life right now. I feel so fat as mum and dad are feeding me loads to make me put on weight and i look awful enough as it is. I feel disgusted when I look at my stomach so...
    xplanbx xplanbx 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 21, 2010

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    Not physically. At least not anymore. But I always wanna put myself in danger. I always talk to people who I know will just hurt me. I always do dangerous things, especially if I...
    21cookielover21 21cookielover21 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I used to cut myself like two years ago. With some counseling, I managed to stop. And I've promised some of my friends I won't do it ever again. But sometimes its just so hard. I...
    21cookielover21 21cookielover21 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Most people wouldn't understand and I don't expect you too. No one knows I hurt myself not even my closest friends, I only punch myself in the ribs and punch walls and throw...
    heyapple69 heyapple69 66-70, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Poke this is my first story I'm a lil nerves Iv been cutting for a while do to depression as my depression git worse so did my cutting i want to kill myself Cus people keep...
    IAmHatedForWhoIAm IAmHatedForWhoIAm 13-15, T 1 Response Jul 5

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    Everybody needs love. I've spent my time trying to dispute that; trying to convince myself that there is no need for it, but alas to no avail. So now i supplement my lack of real...
    EndSeeker EndSeeker 18-21, M Jul 15

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    Im not sure if its true. I was hurt all my life by several people. They werent unhappy, not all of them. The biggest emotional pain i had as my ex- boss female started to be rude...
    angel8i angel8i 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 22

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    If you dont take care of your feelings and manage to understand the good and the bad...you end up lost when feeling sad or miserable. I really believe people hurt another people...
    4biandu 4biandu 26-30, F Jul 9

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    I hate myself I think I was a mistake. I tried to commit suicide. I feel like everything is my fault.
    bitchybrandi bitchybrandi 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    And for those people I only have one thing to say... ***** off!!
    hadiwasii hadiwasii 13-15, F Jul 9

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    My ex boyfriend is getting married .. And i am invited ... I am still not over him though .. He cheated on me.. You think I should go ?
    Fraand Fraand 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Against the opinions of every person I've told my story I texted the girl that broke my heart. She hasn't responded and I don't think she will;( it's been hrs and nothing...
    NPkid97 NPkid97 16-17, M Jul 15

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    I've been cutting for about 7 months. It's gotten to the point where I don't even know why I do. My mom knows I used to cut, but she doesn't know I still do. I want to quit, but I...
    DancingDemons DancingDemons 13-15, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    I don't know why I did it, I just felt like I had to. I'm sorry to all my friends and family who thought I was strong enough to quit. I'm sorry for breaking my promise.
    KittyTittyGang KittyTittyGang 16-17, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Even though i have turned around and act like a different person now doesnt take the pain away because of what i did and who i was then. i hate myself. i hate what ive done and i...
    wallwalker wallwalker 22-25 Jul 16

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    Why do I hate myself? I look deep inside myself to answer the question and all I see is a monster staring back at me. In my eyes, I see Frankenstein without the scars and body...
    scooterp23 scooterp23 36-40, M 3 Responses Jul 12

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    I am hurt by my family, they don't care about anything but religion I am hurt by religion they tell me how god will no love me if I became who I am, that I would burn in hellfire...
    catxfreak catxfreak 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 21

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    I hate it when people are talking to me and they ask how I have been. I don't know if I should answer honestly or tell them a lie. Usually it's the lie. I say I and doing okay or I...
    DontCallMeSunshine DontCallMeSunshine 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 5

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    I drink to numb myself. Because I feel pain. Drinking just numbs the pain a little. It still hurts, but it hurts a little less. I am alone, but when I drink, it matters less. I...
    klokenweb klokenweb 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 18

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    To avoid hurting people that hurts me (because I would send them to the morgue as I stand in front of them but that it's illegal) I bash on inanimate objects with a sharp knife or...
    psycopower90 psycopower90 22-25, M Jul 19

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    I've recently just broke up with my boyfriend because he had to move away I feel awful every night I end up crying coz I miss him so much I tell everyone I'm okay I'm hiding behind...
    mellywoo mellywoo 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    The rivers that were plagued by my emotions, They run with a force, The crimson tide has eroded the deepest of pleasures, I'm riding on like a racehorse, I'm being brought to...
    HUMAN2BME HUMAN2BME 26-30, F 4 days ago

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    My mum tells me since my heart is so good many people take advantage of my heart I like making people happy so what ever it is they ask for I try to do and since this is who I am...
    Angel2345 Angel2345 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    When I first arrived in Ibiza it was very difficult for anyone to get to know me. I was afraid to smile and socialize because I cared too much about what other people thought. I...
    Badtimanonymous Badtimanonymous 31-35, M Jul 6

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    I want to hurt myself right now. I'm so lonely it's not funny. Every time I try to make a friend I just ruin it without even realising until they leave. I just want a friend.....
    KiwiDan KiwiDan 22-25, M 2 Responses Jul 6

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    I've never cut before, and I don't want to, but I'm scared. I don't really know how to handle my emotions sometimes and I get this urge to hurt myself. I've scratched myself before...
    Ashley1421 Ashley1421 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 6

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    Identity is a state of mind in which someone recognizes/identifies their traits that leads to finding out who they are and what they do and not that of someone else. For the first...
    Sanora Sanora 18-21, F a week ago

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    I think too much and that's why I always end up hurting myself than the other person. I'm no goody two shoes but I don't know why I seem to always be occupied with thoughts...