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I Hurt Myself Because I Deserve It

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    I Shall Not Break The Rules

    I burn, cut, and brand myself. Why? Well my husband tells me that I deserve it and I know I do so when I feel that he didnt punish me enough I punish myself. "I deserve to hurt because I am worthless and I am a dog. Dogs have no rights, I have no rights. I am scum and nothing...
    bitchbynature0 bitchbynature0 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 27, 2012

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    I just don't want to bother anyone.

    I don't want to upset anyone but that's all I seem to be good for. I deserve to hurt emotionally and physically. I want it, because it's what I deserve. And I don't feel bad about it, because I feel better when I hurt, but it just makes people even more upset. I don't know...
    Incogneato555 Incogneato555 18-21, F Sep 25, 2014

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    How To Forget The Person You Love Most

    im rahul, of 17 years of age. I had a love at first site with my college mate. It takes 1year to accept my love from the one who i propose. it was very fine nd i feel very happy for 2,3 months. Wt happin i dont know after 3 months the girl staris avoidiong me. im very un happy...
    nanirahul nanirahul 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 15, 2013

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    MAC619 MAC619 18-21, F Jan 21

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    I Am Proud.

    I know i deserve to be hurt. To be in pain. Its really quite strange though, considering that a few months ago i promised myself that i wouldn't break down. I wouldn't hurt myself. That i would survive. How wrong i was, i realise now that i deserve the hurt, the pain and...
    dancetoyourownmusic dancetoyourownmusic 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 18, 2010

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    I Deserve To Be Hurt Because I'm Stupid.

    But I'm such a pansy, I can't even cut myself because I don't like pain and I don't like blood, which is just typical of me. Everyone bullies me, they tell me I'm useless and I am, I'm not as good as people I know, I'm definitely not better. I used to think I was smart, but I'm...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 28, 2012

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    My Name Is Shaun

    i use self harm because i fell i deserve it . i used to be a cutter when i was younger but i had been able to overcome it for many of years but a few years ago i had lost my father and now i cant seem to stop the abuse. i cut until theres no room to cut , i break my fingers and...
    notsoworthy notsoworthy 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 17, 2013

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    I Hurt Myself Because I'm Deserve It

    I'm such a freaking selfish b*tch. I broke up with my boyfriend because I liked someone else. Even if I cut myself and burn it many times but it doesn't compare to the pain of the one I used to loved have now. I'm felt disgusting at myself...
    marry100 marry100 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 7, 2013

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    I Really Do

    I've done some horrible things in my life, and it is time I pay for them instead of hiding from karma.
    musared musared 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 23, 2009

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    I Hate Myself

    i dont deserve to be here. i hate myself so much. i cut, i burn, just so i can get rid of the emotional pain. but i cant take it anymore.
    kahtweenuh kahtweenuh 16-17, F Jul 20, 2012

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    Yea...i do...i feel like i deserve this.

    ..more pain....more loneliness...until i can't take this anymore and kill myself...that's my life plan...
    anderlr anderlr 13-15, M 2 Responses Mar 1

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    I cut myself because I am fat.

    I started because I'm overweight, and I hate my body. I hate myself for being weak. I looked at pictures of myself four years ago, and though I was fat then, I'm even fatter now. My body is disgusting, so I cut myself on my stomach-- because that's where I deserve it. I don't...
    nvmindme nvmindme 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 12, 2014

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    I Don't Know Really...

    I don't cut my wrists or anything like that. I have anorexia, well i am slowly recovering and absolutly hate life right now. I feel so fat as mum and dad are feeding me loads to make me put on weight and i look awful enough as it is. I feel disgusted when I look at my stomach so...
    xplanbx xplanbx 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 21, 2010

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    Id Like To Share Today I Was Tough It Helps

    Well im here for one reason thru these eyes to die why not speed up the process a little  i hurt myself for alot of reasons one being because i deserve it  i use to drink away my pain till they sent me to rehab  hell id be drunk right now if it werent for the...
    c1rca4lif3v2 c1rca4lif3v2 16-17 1 Response Aug 15, 2010

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    SheMoansAyyoBbyBoo SheMoansAyyoBbyBoo 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 20, 2014

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    20 Years Of Self Hate

    I have great parents who love me unconditionally - siblings too. Deep friendships... friends who I would die for (literally.... Aristotelean "perfect friends"). A good job, good co-workers.... but I HATE myself. There is nothing inside of me. The razors I use to write these...
    menschfeind menschfeind 26-30 Jul 6, 2010

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    im a horrible person

    and i don't know why i only deserve to die and i need someone to save me
    Austin5123 Austin5123 16-17, M 6 Responses Apr 15, 2014

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    No-one Can Hurt Me More Than I Can Hurt Myself

    I deserve it, I know I do. All i've ever done is hurt other people... hurting myself stops that pain from being so extreme. I punish myself for it, I can't help hurting other people and they don't understand that, so hurting myself, cutting my skin stops this from being so...
    Raveneyes Raveneyes 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 23, 2012

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    I Deserve To Hurt

    My nutritionist told me today that I need to stop hurting myself because others have hurt me.... that by hurting myself, I'm letting them win twice. It makes sense - I'm not sure why it's so hard for that message to truly sink in. Sometimes though, I hurt myself because I know...
    inhale123exhale inhale123exhale 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 13, 2011

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    I get so angry with my loving hubby

    and I end up hurting him physically. Scratching, throwing things at him, trying to kick him. And when I realize what I've done I feel the need to hurt myself a thousand times worse.
    lamisspink lamisspink 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 3, 2014

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    This

    Yeah, this ugly piece of **** here, THIS is a work of art. Just not the kind of art you're going to see in a gallery any time soon, nor the sort of thing anyone really wants to spend their time looking at, but hey a canvas DESERVES paint, right? That is what it was built for...
    newmurderer newmurderer 66-70 2 Responses Jun 13, 2010

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    Yes

    I hurt myself because I know I deserve it. The voices in my head, tell me that I deserve to cut myself, that I have to punish myself for being a horrible person. Its my fault that I am just how I am, and I am the one who has to pay for it.   I cut myself, I burn...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Dec 6, 2009

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    I Deserve Punishment

    I deserve punishment. My best friends death is at least 50% my fault. I need to cut for that. I lied a bunch today so I'm going to have one cut for each lie, the worse the lie, the deeper the cut. I don't deserve to be happy. I deserve to cut and punish myself. I deserve it for...
    MissingIdentidy MissingIdentidy 26-30, F May 12, 2013

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    Yes I Do

    I do deserve it I deserve the pain.
    eyeslikestars eyeslikestars 26-30, F 2 Responses Feb 22, 2011

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    Erasing My Life Away

    i had to dump my boyfriend for my parents because they hate how i'm older then him. And now since i had to let him go, i hurt so much, i used an eraser and burned my skin away. I couldnt feel it. I will never date again, well my parents wont let me until i graduate. my friends...
    glodens glodens 18-21, F 7 Responses Dec 14, 2009

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    Never Good Enough

    I was so proud that I hadn't cut in almost a year, and then last weekend it was all too much.  I did it.  I'm a genius at hiding my cuts, so one one knows, not even my husband.  He doesn't know what to do about it anyway, so just ignores it.  I don't know what...
    HRHBastion HRHBastion 36-40, F 3 Responses Aug 26, 2010

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    I can't remember the last time I was angry and after a veeery long time.. for the first time, I'm angry >:( I'm the unfriendly and introvert type and I have trust issues. In...
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    I'm lost and uninspired, I feel like I am gone, my body is here but my mind is wondering about life, I meet a nice girl, why can't we just be friends, why do I have a tendency to...
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    Go back down memory lane because it only leads to false hope and shattered emotions. Talking to her always makes me feel some type of way because she knows me on a level that no...
    preppiboi preppiboi 31-35, T 6 hrs ago

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    Suicide is easy. Reach your hand out, you get drugs. Break something with your hands, you can find a sharp tool to stab or slit. Find a rope, you can find yourself breathless...
    colourflame colourflame 13-15, F 4 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    I studied Taekwondo for many years as a kid, until I became a 1st degree black belt but I'm not sure about my self-defense skills by now. That was something I stopped doing since I...
    somniatorlupus somniatorlupus 18-21, M 10 hrs ago

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    I tease myself to the point of ****** and then stop so that I start to throb but don't have a full blown ******. I do this for about fifteen minutes before I finally let myself go...
    thenymphomanic thenymphomanic 26-30, F 3 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    I have emotionally cheated on my lover. I was talking to a ex. I was confronted and I lied. Repeatedly. It wasn't until I knew I had hurt them did I change my ways. But change I...
    Killingcasper Killingcasper 31-35, M 1 day ago

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    I hate days like this so much. The days when all I can do is feel anxious and think of hurting myself even though I know I won't do it. The thought is very heavy though and it...
    QuietKitten QuietKitten 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I'm sick of trying to explain myself because no matter how much I tell you the truth, you won't believe me... always telling me that because you're older and you've more...
    LavenderHart009 LavenderHart009 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    Hurting myself though?? That's a completely different story.
    pinkstarburst pinkstarburst 41-45, F 10 Responses 3 days ago

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    i had walls put up, guarding myself from people. i never wanted to be hurt again because i would open myself so easily just to be let down and neglected, and be pushed away. years...
    ForgetableMe ForgetableMe 31-35, M 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    Everyone has a right to believe in what they want to believe in. Not just you. I know that's hard to grasp. I am not a republican, I am not a democrat. I am an American. I don't...
    realsweetbaby realsweetbaby 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    My gf sexts her ex bf..... My heart hurts
    alejandragucci alejandragucci 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    Ok so lets start from beginning, i have an academic enemy of sorts during University and we argued a lot regarding political theory, logic and governing social norms. I hated her...
    backgroundguy backgroundguy 22-25, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Everybody DOES deserve a second chance. The problem is, many people extend that second chance into ten, and wonder why they get hurt. People will often prove early on in a...
    Annaelaine Annaelaine 16-17, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I think I've finally figured out what I want and need from a relationship of love. First, an equal relationship, as opposed to a one sided love. There must be an equal give and...
    NewEra0916 NewEra0916 26-30, M 6 Responses a week ago

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    Im really starting to hate my scars I use to think they were beautiful but I don't think that anymore because now every time I look at them it reminds me how much I hate myself i...
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 3 Responses a week ago

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