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I Hurt Myself Sometimes

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    To Avoid Other Pains

    There are two ways for me, physical and emotional. The physical one is to 'cover' the emotional pain(s). It starts without noticing, scratching an itchy skin. Usually a birthmark, or insect bite. The next step is taking the 'top' off, so it starts to bleed a little. That's...
    Perturbee Perturbee 46-50, F 4 Responses Sep 18, 2009

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    I'm Scared For Myself

     A lot of the time I feel alone, sad, and all the stuff that goes along with that. I've never actually "cut" myself. I started by digging my nail into the side of my thumb. Then, by then end of the day, I'd find my entire thumb and part of my hand covered in nail...
    marlawashere marlawashere 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 29, 2009

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    Sometimes

    I got to be reminded i am still human after all.
    Arorin Arorin 22-25, M 2 Responses Mar 4, 2010

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    Trying To Stop

    i am constantly fight ing an uphill battle against myself. the emotional need to cut myself every time something bad happens or an unexpected event occours never goes away. i have been able to substitute it with another activity and that is pooping or peeing myself as you can...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 9, 2010

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    When Im Frustrated

    i hurt myself sometimes. im trying to stop. if i am frustrated, angry, depressed, or sad or upset for any reason i want to cut myself. sometimes i pacify myself by hitting my head or arms on things, or choking myself. but i feel the need to cut myself and it never goes away.
    beckysblog beckysblog 22-25 1 Response Dec 14, 2008

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    I Feel Like That

    When i remember some things or feel sad or blank. I want to hurt myself but i don't want others to see me like that. I hate it but it's how i feel. Easy to say '' don't do it'' but i don't want to do it.It's how i feel and i wish i didn't because it's difficult
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 22, 2009

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    The Pain

    it all started when i was in fifth grade. my cousins and i use to do this test called the sissy test. it would consist of us scratching our inner arm with either our nails or a quarter and who ever stopped first would lose. i almost won all the time. then the older i got it went...
    monkeymmac2 monkeymmac2 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 14, 2010

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    Related Experiences

    I don't hurt myself. However, I have felt like doing so. The only time I feel like hurting myself is when I am in a large amount of emotional pain. Sometimes hurting on the outside...
    unreciprocated unreciprocated 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 28

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    I know this sounds really stupid, but I have terrible issues dealing with guilt, and there have been so many times when I lay face down under the covers in my bed and think about...
    TheEnduringSunrise TheEnduringSunrise 18-21, F Apr 24

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    I know he's probably not trying to hurt me but it hurts so much. When you say you want to kill yourself or when the fact that you're already dying comes up...it just hurts, because...
    outcasterforever outcasterforever 13-15, F Apr 26

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    I been with my bd for 7 years and now he says he wants a break(this hurts so much) but that he still wants to hangout with me amd our son.I'm really confused about it and this is...
    mzlonely01 mzlonely01 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 30

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    I've been doing it for 4 years.. I just relapsed this month and I was so close to 6 months. I stopped but the urge to do it is so damn strong. I was so close to 6 months but I...
    PureLies PureLies 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 28

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    I try as hard as I can to make those I love and admire proud of me, but every day in some way I'm told "You're not good enough" or "you're not attractive at all." I try to prove I...
    SomethingThatWorks SomethingThatWorks 18-21, F May 5

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    I've been having a hard time finding any kind of feelings about anything lately. Nothing excites me anymore. Life just never seems to move forward to me. I'm mostly the same person...
    ianbrewman ianbrewman 26-30, T 2 Responses May 14

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    April 28, 2014, my father found out about my planned suicide attempt. He has "helped" me (yelled at me, told me I'm overreacting, says there's nothing to be sad about, etc.) for...
    MadiofAsgard MadiofAsgard 16-17, F 6 Responses Apr 28

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    Right now I'm hating myself so much for giving all I can and get back nothing from others
    PuertoRican75 PuertoRican75 36-40, F 2 Responses Apr 29

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    I hate myself for the decisions I have to make
    Stucat Stucat 16-17, M 1 Response May 10

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    He doesn't seem to care that I am doing absolutely everything to support our family and trying to keep on top of everything and it's driving me insane am I an idiot?
    rebeltrooper rebeltrooper 26-30, F Apr 26

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    We go hours without talking . Idk how to bring up that it makes me feel sad . Especially when he has the time to talk to me. He his time is limited he's in the Air Force
    Laurxo417 Laurxo417 18-21, F Apr 26

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    He says he needs space........this breaks my heart. I know it shouldn't. But it feels like a direct slam at me, no matter how I think of it. It's hard to hear him say something...
    bambino420 bambino420 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 27

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    I relapsed, again. From 11 back down to 0.
    MagicEyes95 MagicEyes95 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 27

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    It's been 5 months, but the urge never goes away.... How do you distract yourself??
    SimplyEm SimplyEm 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 27

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    I hide away in my shower at home, my parents always yell at me and I'm tired of it. right now I'm in the shower its where I go when I need support on ep, can anyone help?
    Lonewalker1432 Lonewalker1432 13-15, M 4 Responses Apr 27

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    Does anyone have any games or questions or anything distracting?
    KayandtheCelloCats KayandtheCelloCats 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I'm always thinking that I owe people explanations for the way I act. I feel like they have the right to know so no one will think any less of me. But in reality, regardless of...
    SentimentalMood SentimentalMood 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 28

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    *smashes face into keyboard until I'm expired*
    cartoonblankets cartoonblankets 18-21, M May 7

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    lol even my mom feels bad for anyone who dates me
    cartoonblankets cartoonblankets 18-21, M May 8

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    Started a new college, sit alone at class everyday , spend my breaks alone. When its time for group project, I let everyone choose their grooup members first. When they are done...
    YongTauFoo YongTauFoo 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    It doesnt always mean i want to change..sometimes i just want someone to understand,not try to change me....am i not good enough or something? If i was,.. then no one would want me...
    bunnydisaster77 bunnydisaster77 22-25, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    words can never describe how much i hate myself. i don't blame anyone for not caring about me and no wonder why I always end up alone . how they shut me out and label me...
    lonesomedove80 lonesomedove80 31-35, F 2 Responses May 10

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    It is such a horrible feeling of keeping a secret from your family and friends and bottling up, not sure how to slip it into a normal conversation and not ruin everyone's mood by...
    deathnotefreak deathnotefreak 18-21, F 1 Response May 3

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    My friends don't really know the difference between me and them.. When they're hurt, they talk.. When I'm hurt, I hurt myself to the breaking point. Until I'm satisfied with the...
    PureLies PureLies 13-15, F Apr 28

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    I've always hurt myself trying to make everyone else happy. I know this time I will be happy. I'm making my dreams come true. Will it be selfish of me to move away when my...
    Amaelin Amaelin 26-30 1 Response May 4

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    A few weeks ago i 'got worse' and they said i was too unstable to have anything that i could possibly use to hurt myself. Seriously, everything. It was driving me insane :/ So i...
    mialotta mialotta 16-17, F 1 Response May 11

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    i despise conflict. it makes me physically ill. i will retreat into myself, sometimes for days, weeks, or years, to avoid conflict and create harmony. BUT that means sacrificing a...
    tryingtobeamazing tryingtobeamazing 41-45, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I have since I was in 6th grade. I was starting to really take in the fact that I was adopted. I didn't understand at the time it was for the best. I've been pushed and pulled in...
    BornBroken BornBroken 16-17, F Apr 27

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    I always believed in the inherent consistency of myself; that, since I was depressed as a child, being down in the dumps is just a fact for me...as if it's my hometown that I am...
    Ewoo Ewoo 16-17 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    Finally found an EP experience, tailor made for something I do often. I enjoy writing stories and I amuse myself trying to write poems, but sometimes I myself have to admit that...
    jim054 jim054 51-55, M 47 mins ago

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    Both on EP and in real life. I try my best to see the difference between situations where I can be funny and/or sarcastic and situations where I need to be serious. Sometimes I...
    PinkChocolate00 PinkChocolate00 13-15, F 2 hrs ago

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    Sometimes I dream that I woke up and started my day and I'll be bummed out that I have class on Saturday but then I'll wonder why the campus is even open. Then I'll be happy that...
    candycat13 candycat13 18-21, F 5 hrs ago

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    It appears that I have done it again, only this time hurting another and not just myself. Ive started to see a pattern developing (maybe I always did it?), that when 'He' hurts me...
    MissTerious4 MissTerious4 36-40, F 7 Responses May 7

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