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I Hurt Myself Sometimes

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    To Avoid Other Pains

    There are two ways for me, physical and emotional. The physical one is to 'cover' the emotional pain(s). It starts without noticing, scratching an itchy skin. Usually a birthmark, or insect bite. The next step is taking the 'top' off, so it starts to bleed a little. That's...
    Perturbee Perturbee 46-50, F 4 Responses Sep 18, 2009

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    The Pain

    it all started when i was in fifth grade. my cousins and i use to do this test called the sissy test. it would consist of us scratching our inner arm with either our nails or a quarter and who ever stopped first would lose. i almost won all the time. then the older i got it went...
    monkeymmac2 monkeymmac2 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 14, 2010

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    When Im Frustrated

    i hurt myself sometimes. im trying to stop. if i am frustrated, angry, depressed, or sad or upset for any reason i want to cut myself. sometimes i pacify myself by hitting my head or arms on things, or choking myself. but i feel the need to cut myself and it never goes away.
    beckysblog beckysblog 22-25 1 Response Dec 14, 2008

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    I'm Scared For Myself

     A lot of the time I feel alone, sad, and all the stuff that goes along with that. I've never actually "cut" myself. I started by digging my nail into the side of my thumb. Then, by then end of the day, I'd find my entire thumb and part of my hand covered in nail...
    marlawashere marlawashere 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 29, 2009

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    I Feel Like That

    When i remember some things or feel sad or blank. I want to hurt myself but i don't want others to see me like that. I hate it but it's how i feel. Easy to say '' don't do it'' but i don't want to do it.It's how i feel and i wish i didn't because it's difficult
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 22, 2009

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    Sometimes

    I got to be reminded i am still human after all.
    Arorin Arorin 22-25, M 2 Responses Mar 4, 2010

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    Trying To Stop

    i am constantly fight ing an uphill battle against myself. the emotional need to cut myself every time something bad happens or an unexpected event occours never goes away. i have been able to substitute it with another activity and that is pooping or peeing myself as you can...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 9, 2010

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    Related Experiences

    Every time I make any kind of mistake- even just getting a bad grade on a test or saying something stupid- I feel like I deserve to be punished for it by hurting myself. I cut my...
    kaleidoscopic21 kaleidoscopic21 13-15, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Sometimes I hurt myself on purpose just to have an excuse for crying. It's different from cutting, because I don't do it to hide my feelings. I do it so I don't feel as bad for...
    RestlessDreamer22 RestlessDreamer22 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 5

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    I have never hurt myself but it has crossed my mind multiple times. I like to think that its just a thought and I would never hurt myself but I am afraid that one day I really wont...
    cheybear96 cheybear96 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 1

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    As the years have gone by, dunno exactly where to start but merely understanding things cannot be replayed. In a roll of life, I guess I need to bleed for once just to stop this...
    Choirayla Choirayla 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I am extremely depressed. I feel so bad. I just want to die or hurt myself really bad. No one likes to be around me. I'm a burden to my family. I feel like I have an anchor tied to...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 30

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    Really want to hurt myself right now. :(
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 5

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    I guess you could say it's a defense mechanism... My mind repressed everytime my ex fought with me and emotionally abused me. So it's only fair to think my brain would repress my...
    AlysonBlack AlysonBlack 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I hate myself or being weak, for being caring, sympathetic all these useless things that make the persona weak. I hate myself for bringing the pain on myself from my own...
    Ic3Queen Ic3Queen 22-25, F Nov 24

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    Owwwwwwwwwwwwww. This hurts!!!!!
    poolover565 poolover565 31-35, F Nov 29

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    I haven't slept well for the past 3 days. I'm moody, depressed and exhausted. telling myself to hang on.. forcing my body to adapt the new changes. I even struggle to express...
    DNightTrain DNightTrain 26-30, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    As I'm sitting this house wondering what going to happen in my later life. As right now I do not understand myself because there so much stuff that I wanted to do. Well I can't do...
    colonaileen colonaileen 26-30, F 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    i tried not to. didn't work. it happened. after a few weeks of it not happening. i hate myself.
    kimberlykhaos kimberlykhaos 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 23

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    It's been just over a year since the last time I cut myself. This time of year is really hard for me. I miscarried last year, 5 days after the 1 year anniversary of my rape... For...
    KC94 KC94 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 1

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    It's been about two months since I cut myself and I really want to it's eating me alive.....
    kassidia kassidia 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 1

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    Someone please distract me I want I sooo bad I can't stop myself
    kassidia kassidia 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 2

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    Texting is hard sometimes. words are hard. you pulled everything you have to make an effort, to say something, but.... texting is just hard. hmmmm.. I know my expression could say...
    DNightTrain DNightTrain 26-30, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Did it again after stopping for years. Scratching my arm makes me feel less stressed and actually I like how it feels. I used to cut myself though but this time it's different at...
    PiecingMeBackTogether PiecingMeBackTogether 18-21 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    When i post something i always feel like i have to explain myself so people dont think im weird or something
    Xychorite Xychorite 18-21, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    When I was younger meeting people and getting to know them was so much easier because it was fun. Now I'm getting older and I feel like I have a sign on my face that says, "Don't...
    Justadarkhole Justadarkhole 22-25, M Nov 19

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    Why am I looking for happiness in the same place I lost it? (scratches head)
    DNightTrain DNightTrain 26-30, M 4 Responses Nov 22

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    i know i shouldn't. but i can't help it. :c
    kimberlykhaos kimberlykhaos 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 23

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    I had such a ****** day today so i decided to swim. i was lucky i didnt head right to the beach but i chose pool instead. I was swimming back and forth continuously for 45mins lap...
    DNightTrain DNightTrain 26-30, M 2 Responses Nov 25

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    Isn't it the most frustrating feeling, laying in your bed looking at pictures of people who are more successful, beautiful and talented than you. It just drives me into this pit of...
    ljevans1234 ljevans1234 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 28

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    every day I want to rip open my own skin
    Mylo248 Mylo248 16-17, F 5 Responses Nov 29

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    A overly large penis. #thestruggle
    LongNeckJoe LongNeckJoe 16-17, M Nov 30

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    It feels like I'm walking upstream through a current strong enough to pull me under four times over. There are others with me but they are walking along the banks telling me to...
    nnawsnahta nnawsnahta 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 4

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    Haha, I don't even understand life anymore. for real, what is my purpose anymore. I can't do anything right. maybe tonight is the night. ??????
    nnawsnahta nnawsnahta 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 6

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    When I get so angry I attack anyone around me with great strength not thinking,I broke a girls nose because of it
    venomsounds venomsounds 13-15, M Dec 7

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    Today the 3 year anniversary of when I was raped...
    KC94 KC94 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    My mom the first time she Heard I was bi she told me that she couldn't accept me as her daughther and there are times that i wonder if I need to wait until she dies or something...
    lucepixy lucepixy 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Parents just fought again. Some days I enjoy their fighting and other days like today I just wish they would stop. I'm not sure why I enjoy their fighting. I think part of it may...
    kxCobra kxCobra 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    I need to cut. I need to cut. I need to cut. I need to cut. I need to cut. I need to cut. I need to cut. I need to cut. I need to cut. I need to cut. I need to cut. I need to cut...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I have 3 moods 1. Helpful and Loving to others 2. Quiet and isolated from everyone 3. Pissed off at everyone who leads normal lives whereas I don't
    kxCobra kxCobra 18-21, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    My bf and I don't agree on anything anymore. He wants colored Christmas tree lights. I want white lights. He wants to shop at wallmart. I want to shop at Roses. He like the...
    Butterflywings1987 Butterflywings1987 26-30, F 3 days ago

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    I'm such an imbosile, infested with disgusting addictions. Such a bleak feeling.
    XxthedarknesswillgrowxX XxthedarknesswillgrowxX 18-21, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I feel like everything that happens to me is my fault. People tell me its not always my fault but i still feel like it is
    TheWickedJester TheWickedJester 26-30, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Life has been impossible for me these past 6 months especially the last two. I am miserable, in agony, I want to live but I can't right now. I've always flirted with the thought of...
    thefightingangel thefightingangel 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    I don't know what's going to Happen and I'm freaking out.
    Mylo248 Mylo248 16-17, F 17 hrs ago

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    I get my mini dagger and point it to my lips since those boys call me DSL. I always wonder how ill look without them. I keep telling myself not to do it so I put the dagger away...
    xocarasoulxo xocarasoulxo 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 29

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