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I Hurt Myself Sometimes

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    To Avoid Other Pains

    There are two ways for me, physical and emotional. The physical one is to 'cover' the emotional pain(s). It starts without noticing, scratching an itchy skin. Usually a birthmark, or insect bite. The next step is taking the 'top' off, so it starts to bleed a little. That's...
    Perturbee Perturbee 46-50, F 4 Responses Sep 18, 2009

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    I Feel Like That

    When i remember some things or feel sad or blank. I want to hurt myself but i don't want others to see me like that. I hate it but it's how i feel. Easy to say '' don't do it'' but i don't want to do it.It's how i feel and i wish i didn't because it's difficult
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 22, 2009

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    When Im Frustrated

    i hurt myself sometimes. im trying to stop. if i am frustrated, angry, depressed, or sad or upset for any reason i want to cut myself. sometimes i pacify myself by hitting my head or arms on things, or choking myself. but i feel the need to cut myself and it never goes away.
    beckysblog beckysblog 22-25 1 Response Dec 14, 2008

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    I'm Scared For Myself

     A lot of the time I feel alone, sad, and all the stuff that goes along with that. I've never actually "cut" myself. I started by digging my nail into the side of my thumb. Then, by then end of the day, I'd find my entire thumb and part of my hand covered in nail...
    marlawashere marlawashere 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 29, 2009

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    Trying To Stop

    i am constantly fight ing an uphill battle against myself. the emotional need to cut myself every time something bad happens or an unexpected event occours never goes away. i have been able to substitute it with another activity and that is pooping or peeing myself as you can...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 9, 2010

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    The Pain

    it all started when i was in fifth grade. my cousins and i use to do this test called the sissy test. it would consist of us scratching our inner arm with either our nails or a quarter and who ever stopped first would lose. i almost won all the time. then the older i got it went...
    monkeymmac2 monkeymmac2 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 14, 2010

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    Sometimes

    I got to be reminded i am still human after all.
    Arorin Arorin 22-25, M 2 Responses Mar 4, 2010

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    sometimes I'm content with being who I am. but sometimes I question myself why am I like that. why did I even do that. and why do I always end up ruining things I like. The bone...
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    Sometimes, nah... All the time
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    I hate that I bring up the ******* past with him. I hate myself everyday I do that to him. Ugh why can I be a damn normal girlfriend and love him right.
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    He doesn't seem to care that I am doing absolutely everything to support our family and trying to keep on top of everything and it's driving me insane am I an idiot?
    rebeltrooper rebeltrooper 26-30, F 1 day ago

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    We go hours without talking . Idk how to bring up that it makes me feel sad . Especially when he has the time to talk to me. He his time is limited he's in the Air Force
    Laurxo417 Laurxo417 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    He says he needs space........this breaks my heart. I know it shouldn't. But it feels like a direct slam at me, no matter how I think of it. It's hard to hear him say something...
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    In lot of ways....i´m really creative when it comes to that
    anderlr anderlr 13-15, M 5 Responses Mar 31

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    It's just one of those days. My blade is dull though.
    Untrustworthy117 Untrustworthy117 16-17, M 5 Responses Apr 7

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    EmbraceTheEVIL EmbraceTheEVIL 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 8

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    I relapsed, again. From 11 back down to 0.
    MagicEyes95 MagicEyes95 18-21, F 2 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    It's been 5 months, but the urge never goes away.... How do you distract yourself??
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    I hide away in my shower at home, my parents always yell at me and I'm tired of it. right now I'm in the shower its where I go when I need support on ep, can anyone help?
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    I hate being me. I'm so tired. I wish I didn't hate my self but I do.
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    Hahah no I don't. I always overanalyse and overreact and make a drama out of the smallest things and I don't know why the hell I do that. It's just dumb ??
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    Blood is the price you pay for mistrust
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    im jus confused. my mom doesnt trust me. nor my aunt or grandma, they think im gonna end up pregnant at 16 (not judging) &' they pretty much use my past mistakes as weapons on me...
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    he forgave me but I still feel like cutting
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 2 Responses Apr 11

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    My dad is making me loose pounds, please comment if you want me to keep my fat :*(
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    It hurts when the one you care about, have feelings for, and love. Just drops off the face of the earth and you don't know if their alive or not. Going on a week now and it hurts...
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