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I Hurt Myself Today

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    I hurt myself todayTo see

    if I still feelI focus on the painThe only thing that's realThe needle tears a holeThe old familiar stingTry to kill it all awayBut I remember everything
    deepgreenwood deepgreenwood 26-30, M Sep 12, 2014

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    Bah

    3 times today so far.. well technically it's tomorrow now anyway, **** it. It's not even helping as much as it should. Wouldn't want to see me without it though... Ugh.
    newmurderer newmurderer 66-70 Apr 20, 2010

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    So Ashamed

    I used to think I was stronger enought not to fall into that. I guess I`m not. I understand now why people do it. I didnt understand before,I guess you can only understand when you are going through that. I`ve been so close before, but I always stopped. Not anymore. I`m so...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Nov 5, 2012

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    To See If I Still Feel

    I focus on the pain The only thing that's real The needle tears a hole The old familiar sting Try to kill it all away But I remember everything... What have I become, my sweetest friend? Everyone I know Goes away in the end And you could have it all My empire of dirt I will let...
    Mistake Mistake 26-30, M 1 Response Sep 29, 2010

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    I Hurt Myself Every Day....

    When I was young something bad happened to me. I got hurt. To this day I abuse myself. Sexually.... I feel like I deserve it. I am afraid to get a pelvic exam because of the abuse I give myself. I've been through the mental health system time and time again. I want to stop...
    absolutionist absolutionist 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 9, 2010

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    Biting Isnt Enough Any More...

    Wow. I dont think i have ever admitted anything to anyone. So this is a first... I realize though that I have reached some kind of no return place... If help is to be had. I guess I should try and get some. I was extensively abused as a child. In fact, one of my first memories...
    RayneJ RayneJ 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 26, 2012

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    So like... 15 mins ago,

    I got out of the car and my brother closed the door and smashed my middle and other two fingers and I heard a crunch noise.. And now My middle finger is swollen and it's bruised.. It looks Pregnant and idk what I did.. And idk what to do...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 19, 2014

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    I Hurt Myself Today. . .

    I found myself sitting in my room thinking. . . Which is often not a good thing. I'm the kind of person that needs to keep busy constantly. I was just in my room on my computer with music in the background. It was completely dark except for the soft glow of my computer screen. I...
    MyWrath MyWrath 18-21 2 Responses Dec 14, 2009

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    This day i decided to seek attention on the

    internet. Tell people about my life, and see maybe it would get better, because lately it's gettin only worse. Years are going, and i feel like life is passing by. I only live by hope and dreams, that someday it all will change. But i guess it's a wrong pattern to go from. From...
    Godoru Godoru 22-25, M 1 Response Dec 23, 2014

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