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I Hurt Myself Today

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    I hurt myself todayTo see

    if I still feelI focus on the painThe only thing that's realThe needle tears a holeThe old familiar stingTry to kill it all awayBut I remember everything
    deepgreenwood deepgreenwood 26-30, M Sep 12, 2014

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    I Hurt Myself Every Day....

    When I was young something bad happened to me. I got hurt. To this day I abuse myself. Sexually.... I feel like I deserve it. I am afraid to get a pelvic exam because of the abuse I give myself. I've been through the mental health system time and time again. I want to stop...
    absolutionist absolutionist 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 9, 2010

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    Biting Isnt Enough Any More...

    Wow. I dont think i have ever admitted anything to anyone. So this is a first... I realize though that I have reached some kind of no return place... If help is to be had. I guess I should try and get some. I was extensively abused as a child. In fact, one of my first memories...
    RayneJ RayneJ 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 26, 2012

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    So Ashamed

    I used to think I was stronger enought not to fall into that. I guess I`m not. I understand now why people do it. I didnt understand before,I guess you can only understand when you are going through that. I`ve been so close before, but I always stopped. Not anymore. I`m so...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Nov 5, 2012

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    I Hurt Myself Today. . .

    I found myself sitting in my room thinking. . . Which is often not a good thing. I'm the kind of person that needs to keep busy constantly. I was just in my room on my computer with music in the background. It was completely dark except for the soft glow of my computer screen. I...
    MyWrath MyWrath 18-21 2 Responses Dec 14, 2009

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    So like... 15 mins ago,

    I got out of the car and my brother closed the door and smashed my middle and other two fingers and I heard a crunch noise.. And now My middle finger is swollen and it's bruised.. It looks Pregnant and idk what I did.. And idk what to do...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 19, 2014

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    Bah

    3 times today so far.. well technically it's tomorrow now anyway, **** it. It's not even helping as much as it should. Wouldn't want to see me without it though... Ugh.
    newmurderer newmurderer 66-70 Apr 20, 2010

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    To See If I Still Feel

    I focus on the pain The only thing that's real The needle tears a hole The old familiar sting Try to kill it all away But I remember everything... What have I become, my sweetest friend? Everyone I know Goes away in the end And you could have it all My empire of dirt I will let...
    Mistake Mistake 26-30, M 1 Response Sep 29, 2010

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    This day i decided to seek attention on the

    internet. Tell people about my life, and see maybe it would get better, because lately it's gettin only worse. Years are going, and i feel like life is passing by. I only live by hope and dreams, that someday it all will change. But i guess it's a wrong pattern to go from. From...
    Godoru Godoru 22-25, M 1 Response Dec 23, 2014

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    I don't hurt myself. However, I have felt like doing so. The only time I feel like hurting myself is when I am in a large amount of emotional pain. Sometimes hurting on the outside...
    unreciprocated unreciprocated 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 28

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    I know this sounds really stupid, but I have terrible issues dealing with guilt, and there have been so many times when I lay face down under the covers in my bed and think about...
    TheEnduringSunrise TheEnduringSunrise 18-21, F Apr 24

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    I've been doing it for 4 years.. I just relapsed this month and I was so close to 6 months. I stopped but the urge to do it is so damn strong. I was so close to 6 months but I...
    PureLies PureLies 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 28

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    April 28, 2014, my father found out about my planned suicide attempt. He has "helped" me (yelled at me, told me I'm overreacting, says there's nothing to be sad about, etc.) for...
    MadiofAsgard MadiofAsgard 16-17, F 6 Responses Apr 28

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    I relapsed, again. From 11 back down to 0.
    MagicEyes95 MagicEyes95 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 27

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    It's been 5 months, but the urge never goes away.... How do you distract yourself??
    SimplyEm SimplyEm 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 27

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    I hide away in my shower at home, my parents always yell at me and I'm tired of it. right now I'm in the shower its where I go when I need support on ep, can anyone help?
    Lonewalker1432 Lonewalker1432 13-15, M 4 Responses Apr 27

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    Does anyone have any games or questions or anything distracting?
    KayandtheCelloCats KayandtheCelloCats 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    words can never describe how much i hate myself. i don't blame anyone for not caring about me and no wonder why I always end up alone . how they shut me out and label me...
    lonesomedove80 lonesomedove80 31-35, F 2 Responses May 10

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    I don't really know why. I'm feeling very down on myself today of all days. At least I have a big steak to look forward later this evening for dinner.
    vault101 vault101 26-30, F 1 Response May 10

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    My friends don't really know the difference between me and them.. When they're hurt, they talk.. When I'm hurt, I hurt myself to the breaking point. Until I'm satisfied with the...
    PureLies PureLies 13-15, F Apr 28

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    I've always hurt myself trying to make everyone else happy. I know this time I will be happy. I'm making my dreams come true. Will it be selfish of me to move away when my...
    Amaelin Amaelin 26-30 1 Response May 4

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    It is such a horrible feeling of keeping a secret from your family and friends and bottling up, not sure how to slip it into a normal conversation and not ruin everyone's mood by...
    deathnotefreak deathnotefreak 18-21, F 1 Response May 3

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    A few weeks ago i 'got worse' and they said i was too unstable to have anything that i could possibly use to hurt myself. Seriously, everything. It was driving me insane :/ So i...
    mialotta mialotta 16-17, F 1 Response May 11

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    I have since I was in 6th grade. I was starting to really take in the fact that I was adopted. I didn't understand at the time it was for the best. I've been pushed and pulled in...
    BornBroken BornBroken 16-17, F Apr 27

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    Hi I'm Leah and life is not something I ever really wanted but that's the thing you can't always get what you want people are going to judge me and they don't even know me but I...
    leahferguson7 leahferguson7 16-17 13 hrs ago

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    I don't want to get hurt again, but with that being said nothing risked is nothing gained. I can't live my life in fear of being hurt, I just have to try to make the best decisions...
    Infiniteblue Infiniteblue 36-40, F 5 hrs ago

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    For me, it's hard not to put myself in their shoes. It would be nice if more people would do that. It's almost like I can feel their pain with them.
    digitaloverload digitaloverload 36-40, M 4 hrs ago

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    i honestly am gonna stop thinking about my needs and wants in this life anymore. im done with it because when we have high expectations of ourselves and when we dont meet them or...
    heavenlytouch heavenlytouch 22-25, F 4 hrs ago

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    I don't want people to know I'm hurting. I would rather help them on why they are hurting
    Luna2468 Luna2468 13-15, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    Today I will accept that I spent a lot of my time on the phone. I think I did ot because I was searchig for some sort of approval. I also spread my blog at the internet so that...
    energymustmove energymustmove 18-21, F Apr 24

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    I actually read a lot of inspirational posts on here last night, when I should've been asleep. I also talked to a manager who's newly added me on Facebook. And my fiance called...
    cloudsoflife cloudsoflife 26-30, M Apr 25

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    I've had this weird thing with this guy met a little while ago online.. He didn't know I was transgender, he thought I was just a boy.. And when I told him, he freaked out and left...
    DementedKarkat DementedKarkat 13-15, T 1 Response Apr 26

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    Well I guess this would be my first-est post since I've just signed up like seconds ago, or minutes. First and foremost, I am not a good writer but a good thinker I guess on some...
    sadsax21 sadsax21 18-21, F Apr 28

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    Not full blown but hubs is working my last nerve. He has decided to act like a helpless 4 year old today...I'm about done with his whiney booty. Dear Lord please give me strength.
    pinkstarburst pinkstarburst 41-45, F 3 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    It takes every bit of will power I have not to sit and cry at work. I moved to another state a few months back for my job. My boyfriend was coming down later. He was supposed to...
    thelasttoknow thelasttoknow 31-35, F 2 Responses May 7

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    This became a longer story then I wanted to be, but its my story and I carry it with pride. I have always been a weirdo and I love myself for it. I am now in a point in my life...
    GuiltBear GuiltBear 31-35, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Hi guys my name is Robert. I'm 19 years old and I have an addiction problem. It started about three years ago. I would find myself laying in bed not being able to sleep...
    Robertrosales Robertrosales 18-21, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I have accidentally exposed myself naked twice. One time i was water skiing at the lake with some friends. My guy friend was driving and the four girls were watching me. Next...
    swimguy0812 swimguy0812 22-25, M 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    Headache and a stiff neck for a while now. I don't really know when it started, but it's been on and off for a few days now. My elbow has been hurting on and off as well too, I'm...
    vault101 vault101 26-30, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    and so I push people away.. I have lots of things I want to say, at the same time, I don't know what to say.. I am not good with poeple and so I NEVER had any friends, like 0...
    FallingWind FallingWind 18-21, F 1 Response May 12

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    I have a really bad temper waiting to release. I need to get off the pressure but once it's out, I can never turn back. The first biggest thing I fear is God but the second is the...
    colourflame colourflame 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    Im in my 20s, I have no friends, No girlfriend (never did), I noticed I am boring to be around.I have social anxiety and depression. I have trouble connecting with others. I dont...
    carreola765 carreola765 22-25, M 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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