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I Hurt Myself Today

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    I Hurt Myself Every Day....

    When I was young something bad happened to me. I got hurt. To this day I abuse myself. Sexually.... I feel like I deserve it. I am afraid to get a pelvic exam because of the abuse I give myself. I've been through the mental health system time and time again. I want to stop...
    absolutionist absolutionist 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 9, 2010

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    To See If I Still Feel

    I focus on the pain The only thing that's real The needle tears a hole The old familiar sting Try to kill it all away But I remember everything... What have I become, my sweetest friend? Everyone I know Goes away in the end And you could have it all My empire of dirt I will let...
    Mistake Mistake 26-30, M 1 Response Sep 29, 2010

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    Biting Isnt Enough Any More...

    Wow. I dont think i have ever admitted anything to anyone. So this is a first... I realize though that I have reached some kind of no return place... If help is to be had. I guess I should try and get some. I was extensively abused as a child. In fact, one of my first memories...
    RayneJ RayneJ 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 26, 2012

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    So Ashamed

    I used to think I was stronger enought not to fall into that. I guess I`m not. I understand now why people do it. I didnt understand before,I guess you can only understand when you are going through that. I`ve been so close before, but I always stopped. Not anymore. I`m so...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Nov 5, 2012

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    I Hurt Myself Today. . .

    I found myself sitting in my room thinking. . . Which is often not a good thing. I'm the kind of person that needs to keep busy constantly. I was just in my room on my computer with music in the background. It was completely dark except for the soft glow of my computer screen. I...
    MyWrath MyWrath 18-21 2 Responses Dec 14, 2009

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    to see if i still feel i focus in the pain the

    only thing that's real the needle tears a hole the old familiar sting try to kill it all away but i remember everything What have i become my sweetest friend everyone i know goes away in the end You could have it all my empire if dirt i will let you down i will make...
    causeimhappy491 causeimhappy491 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 24

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    Bah

    3 times today so far.. well technically it's tomorrow now anyway, **** it. It's not even helping as much as it should. Wouldn't want to see me without it though... Ugh.
    newmurderer newmurderer 70+ Apr 20, 2010

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    My head is a mess. I think I can't do this anymore, but then I think well I have to. By this, I mean life. I've felt this way before, a long time ago, but that came in surges...
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    I just want to I'm not worth being protected . All I think about is hurting myself it sucks .
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    k so i m not as old as most people all this ( not an insult) i am a teen who goes through this every day if i so much as leave my bed i am hurt somehow at first it was just minor...
    Thomas3608 Thomas3608 13-15, M Aug 13

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    I hate me and need drugs...more than you could even imagine... don'tfeed me that bull **** about not doing drugs. I don't care...I feel a little better. Just have ugly bruises.
    ASkylitHigh ASkylitHigh 18-21 Aug 4

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    I gave in I'm sorry why does life work like this timer I'm okay for a certain amount then I just blow
    baileyzook baileyzook 13-15, F Aug 5

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    Its the sad truth. I don't understand it at all.
    amazing97 amazing97 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 13

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    I read something sad today from a friend who is now in a similar situation as i was this time last year and my heart goes out to her. As it was a time when i myself felt so very...
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    They didn't pass away but we fell out over something I think wasn't worth falling out over. A message I didnt complete because I got distracted whilst texting and never got to...
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    GirlWithTheRedHair2013 GirlWithTheRedHair2013 16-17, F a week ago

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    Obviously I've been hurt many times.. but I'll never forget one of those times.. I still remember the pain as if it was yesterday.. I still feel the pain sometimes.. I used to be...
    Lily449 Lily449 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    I don't get to do this very often nowadays! But today I can and I am! Going to lose the battle soon. Anyone out there?
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    No, you'll never realise. I keep the pain under lock and key. You'll never know how much your words have scarred me. I'll put up with the pain so you can be happy. I'll pretend it...
    MiniMiku MiniMiku 16-17, F 3 hrs ago

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