I Hurt Myself

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    Did it again after stopping

    for years. Scratching my arm makes me feel less stressed and actually I like how it feels. I used to cut myself though but this time it's different at least scratching doesn't involve blood. I know I need help but I must accept that there's really no help. its a cycle. maybe I...
    PiecingMeBackTogether PiecingMeBackTogether
    22-25, M
    4 Responses Dec 14, 2014

    I hurt myself today, To see

    if I still feel. I focus on the pain. The only thing that's real. The needle tears a hole, The old familiar sting. Try to kill it all away, But I remember everything. What have I become, My sweetest friend? Everyone I know, Goes away in the end. You could have it...
    deleted deleted
    May 15, 2014

    Most people wouldn't understand

    and I don't expect you too. No one knows I hurt myself not even my closest friends, I only punch myself in the ribs and punch walls and throw myself against anything that can hurt me very well, I don't cut cause I don't want any marks on body so people can know that I hurt...
    heyapple69 heyapple69
    70+, F
    1 Response Jul 30, 2014

    A Hammer

    for the past four years i have used a hammer to hit myself. i have caused enough damage to my knee that i have had numerous mri's and gone to physical therapy. can people really not figure out what happened? i think it is easy, but whatever. i have tried cutting, but hitting...
    iamfine iamfine
    6 Responses Aug 11, 2009
    ACyanideSurprise ACyanideSurprise
    22-25, M
    1 Response Aug 5, 2015

    I use razorblades to hurt myself,

    'cause, sometimes, I'm so sad I'm in real pain. I have scars all over my wrists, so I'm always wearing a hoodie or jacket. I live in one of the few cold cities there are in Brazil. The thing is I was born in Rio de Janeiro, which is really hot. So everytime I go home, it's a...
    mymasochismtango mymasochismtango
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Sep 13, 2014

    I hurt myself because it feels good to me

    and me and my best friend Alpha will continue to hurt other people see I like to make people feel my pain and my hurt that's why I hurt others and that is why I hurt myself me and Alpha do not like people who try and make fun of us oh yeah and Alpha is my inner Beast
    dangerousperson dangerousperson
    26-30, M
    Sep 1, 2014

    Don't Ever Start Self Harming.

    I self harm. I started scratching when I got upset one day, and I started cutting deeper and deeper the more upset I got. I now leave scars on my arms and I think I'm addicted. It makes me feel better, which is why I do it, but I know I should stop. It's ridiculous. I actually...
    Christineb90 Christineb90
    13-15, F
    Nov 13, 2011

    It's always while crying about being ugly,

    dumb, lonely, and without friends when I need something to clear my head again, find back to reality. I use a needle or a pair if scissors to scratch myself, and it is relieving to let the tears fall and the pain make the fog in my head disappear, clear and sharp. I know it is...
    pianobookme pianobookme
    16-17, F
    Feb 21, 2014


    Hi,  I have been diagnosed with schizophrenia.  I have been known to hurt my self in anger at people or at myself and to stop the voices that I hear.  I am getting help and learning to stop this.  But I have done this for years.  I hit myself and bite my hands.  I also pull...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Jun 17, 2012

    Back To Day.....0?

    Here I am again.... Back to day zero! Seems like I just can't do it.... Seems like I will never be able to do this..... Standing alone, fighting alone, failing....Alone....
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Aug 7, 2010

    A provocative sickness flows Through my

    veins Trying to coax my demons out Until I relapse and succumb Back into my old ways
    KristinaBeena KristinaBeena
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 17, 2014

    I hurt myself again. After several years,

    I hurt myself again. I chose to hurt myself rather than hurt others. Everything is coming back to me. The pain, agony, self-pity and worthlessness are now creeping back and ready to swallow me. There is no one to blame but myself. This is the path I have chosen that's why I...
    purplefreespirit purplefreespirit
    31-35, F
    Aug 9, 2014

    I think i might have bandaged my arm a little

    to tight but, i dont feel the pain,
    ClockworkTimesUp ClockworkTimesUp
    18-21, F
    Sep 23, 2014

    Ever since I was younger,

    I don't react to disappointing others very well. I had always been wary about how they see me and how I should act around them because I feel like no one actually likes me and that they might be laughing at me behind my back. I'm afraid of failure and I tend to hurt myself...
    JalynArr JalynArr
    18-21, F
    Mar 24, 2015

    Meh.... Nightmare like thoughts came again.

    .. Just flooded with negative emotions again.... ;(... Pain started to get to me, and i was dying gasping for air.... My heart LITERALLY FELT LIKE IT WAS BEING CRUSHED AN STABBED AND TT__TT.... So i choked myself to stop myself from taking in oxygen and to help calm myself from...
    InfiniteMusic InfiniteMusic
    18-21, M
    Feb 10, 2015

    A couple of years ago,

    I was helping my mom make dinner cutting up vegetables. I accidentally stabbed myself in the nose, because I was holding a big sharp knife and trying to scratch my head. I ran into the shower and a crap ton of blood flower out. It didn't hurt as much as I expected, and it didn't...
    Gerop Gerop
    18-21, M
    Apr 15, 2014

    I hate days like this

    so much. The days when all I can do is feel anxious and think of hurting myself even though I know I won't do it. The thought is very heavy though and it never goes away. I feel like a ticking time bomb and it just keeps building up. I can't talk to my mom about it because...
    mentallyhigh mentallyhigh
    22-25, F
    Jun 29, 2015

    Yeah, Today...

    So, I was so angry and feeling sad...that I had to let it out, I didn't cry but chose to make a mark on my forearm. I used my nails, since I have sharp nails...I dug into my skin and ran it across...up to 2 and a half inches long...I didn't want it to remain a scar, but I left it...
    PunizhedZoul PunizhedZoul
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 13, 2011

    Really Wanna Give Up

    I'm really close to giving up and just saying screw everything. Nothing seems to go right anymore. Nothing seems worth it right now. And I don't think anybody understands where I'm coming from
    animalwatcher22 animalwatcher22
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jun 29, 2013

    What Went Wrong?

    This is the first time I've shared anything on this website so forgive me if it comes out really crappy...... My life is..................... good. My family cares about me. I have friends that are there for me. My family is middle class, so we're not stuck-up but we're not...
    homeygirl homeygirl
    13-15, F
    3 Responses Dec 27, 2012

    It's been a while since I last posted in here,

    things have changed. My H now knows that I have had an affair this year, he knows it was with an ex who lives nowhere near here. I know I've hurt him very badly. The affair is most definitely over, during the time we spent together & since it ended I have got to know my OM...
    yespleaseMrDarcy yespleaseMrDarcy
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Dec 7, 2013

    Hurting Myself

    I haven't been cutting for long. Just a few months... maybe four? But today I told someone for the first time. She's been bugging me since Saturday because I skipped out on the dance and called her to asks where she was. She didn't answer, but when she called back I was already...
    whynotxx whynotxx
    13-15, F
    4 Responses Oct 23, 2012

    I hurt my hand. I jerked it back then it made

    pop sound and felt weird now it's like a pinching pain from the nuckle of my pinky to my wrist and I can't straighten it. No discoloration though and it doesn't look but maybe a little swollen? Any ideas?
    Spideygirl96 Spideygirl96
    22-25, F
    Apr 5, 2014

    As the years have gone by,

    dunno exactly where to start but merely understanding things cannot be replayed. In a roll of life, I guess I need to bleed for once just to stop this pain I'm having. I hurt myself, felt like no one could ever imagine how hurt I was. This is one shot for my pain and sorrow.
    Choirayla Choirayla
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Dec 17, 2014

    I love seeing bruises on myself,

    I've recently began hitting myself with objects and biting myself
    Theonlywayy Theonlywayy
    18-21, F
    Jan 6, 2016

    I Want Attention Now

    I get the urges to cut myself and end up seriously messing up my arm. But just resently I got the thought that I probably do it for attention, which I know is the stupidest ******* thing ever. And worst of all I don’t any attention at all. But, I still can't stop, because I...
    EverLoner EverLoner
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jul 8, 2011

    I Can't Sleep.

    Curled up. Trying not to wake my roommate. But I'm breaking. Shaking. It's too much. I want to scream. Or run away. Drowning, lungs hindered by attempts to stifle the cloudburst. Like the ocean is in my throat. Wrapped around my tongue. Mind is foggy. And my spine is...
    mirrorscantlie mirrorscantlie
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 5, 2012

    It Was Really Weird...

    Cuz I did it for the first time last night. I was on the phone with my bf and I hurt his feelings really bad... I was so ashamed of myself and I still am. I have a tendancy to mentally beat myself up for everything I do wrong... and since it was the first time I...
    Azurehearts Azurehearts
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Jan 9, 2009


    I feel very bad that I hurt myself. I still couldn't believe that I have reached such a stage. I have only started hurting myself this year. It's only when I couldn't bear the pain inside me that I turn to making really red scratches on my left wrist. It dulls the emotional pain...
    mareliberum mareliberum
    3 Responses Nov 2, 2013

    Hey...don't ignore this,

    just give me a chance to explain Don't grab your "tools" whenever you feel bad.Remind yourself what will happen if you give up.How are you going to deal with it and how are you going to feel?Then refocus your goals,is giving up that easy?The relief that comes from self-harming...
    ghostdolly ghostdolly
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jan 24, 2016

    Sometimes I hurt myself on purpose just to have

    an excuse for crying. It's different from cutting, because I don't do it to hide my feelings. I do it so I don't feel as bad for feeling them. Usually I poke my eye or stub my toe or anything like that that looks like a mistake. I wish crying didn't make me feel so stupid...
    PoetPrincess85 PoetPrincess85
    31-35, F
    1 Response Dec 5, 2014

    It's Good For Me

    Here I go again, hurting myself. To me though, it's not pain. It's release. From all the anxiety and stress that has built up, cutting feels great. The longest I went without cutting is two weeks. So great. Then, all fell down. There is only One person that knows I cut, but he...
    Hopeless0Nerd Hopeless0Nerd
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Aug 29, 2010

    I hate myself I think I was a mistake.

    I tried to commit suicide. I feel like everything is my fault.
    bitchybrandi bitchybrandi
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Jul 30, 2014

    I Am The Victim And The Abuser.

    I have realized that there are more ways you can hurt yourself other than cutting.... Sometimes I am so angry with myself , so abusive and horrible that it doesnt seem like me. I feel crazy sometimes. Its strange I am such a nice person, very sweet and gentle, and accepting of...
    innerself000 innerself000
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Jun 28, 2013

    Purification Through Pain

    Purify : to be free from guilt or evil. First, try to understand what I say and feel. Do not try to "correct" me or "save" me. If you can't understand what I feel, how can you help me. If you understand, then there is no need to help me. When I was in High School, I was a...
    worknplayhard13 worknplayhard13
    36-40, M
    Sep 24, 2012

    Why Am I Honest

    I hate admitting that I hurt myself. i like to keep it secret because I feel like pain is a gift that I can give myself. Its mine and no one can take that from me. I can starve myself untill my stomach hurts, hold my breath to feel the pain, shower in water thats hot so...
    sindayla sindayla
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Apr 24, 2009


    I never thought I'd be the one to hurt myself like this. Now it's almost an addiction. Like I have to take that blade and slide it across my skin multiple times. Watch the blood come out, like you're releasing all of the demons out of your soul. Feeling that physical pain instead...
    Emmawendy Emmawendy
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 2, 2013


    I get the urges to self harm almost constantly now. They get so strong sometimes I have to give in to them after fighting them for so long. They just seem to get stronger and stronger and it doesn't make sense. I wish something in my life would make sense. I have almost no...
    animalwatcher22 animalwatcher22
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jun 29, 2013

    Smart Enough To Be Dangerous

    I lost my marriage a little bit ago. My family, Lord love them, started smothering me emotionally. I wanted to feel pain, I wanted to punish myself for being a loser who couldn't even keep his marriage together. Every time I'd go to do something, there was my family. But I don't...
    wilstanton wilstanton
    41-45, M
    Sep 6, 2013

    Just To Get It Out

    You can look at my confessions for more background on this story. I like girls and I like boys. There I said it. No hate comments please. I haven't gotten on this website in a while but recently I just go tback on cus I need help. There is a hurt in my chest where my heart is. I...
    homeygirl homeygirl
    13-15, F
    1 Response Jun 30, 2013

    I don't hurt myself,

    but I feel guilty when I hear how hard some people have had it in comparison to me. I wish all that hurt themselves will work through it
    sharnold1914 sharnold1914
    18-21, M
    Jun 4, 2014

    I've been hurting my left arm

    for 3 years. Almost on a daily basis for one of those years. 3 years, and no one in my family has noticed. There were periods within those 3 years where my cuts were healed enough to not be super obvious, and during these periods I would wear short sleeves. I would wear short...
    brint0n brint0n
    18-21, F
    Dec 2, 2015
    19BiGirl 19BiGirl
    18-21, F
    May 20, 2014
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