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I Hurt So Much Inside

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    All the Time

    I hurt all the time.  I have been molested, beat, put down, shoved, lied to, cheated on and the list goes on.  I have asked why does a person that has a very kind heart have to suffer this way all the time.  Why do the good people seem to always be the ones...
    rondat rondat 41-45, F 14 Responses Jan 8, 2008

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    I Hurt So Much Inside

    Just found out my husband cheated on me the first 10 yrs of our marriage with lots of women not just one, two or three.  He even developed Herpes.  Right now he's a broken man frightened to the point of getting panic attacks says he cannot live without me. ...
    indianainohio indianainohio 51-55, F 4 Responses Sep 22, 2007

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    It kills me inside every time a memory rushes

    to my head, leaving my heart to throb
    Jenna1214 Jenna1214 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 9

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    I've been feeling depressed lately,

    it's taking away my productivity and lively personality. I just want to sleep and sleep and hopefully my heart can heal through that. I feel like I have lost the motivation and strength to do anything important to achieve closer to my goals, and one of them is to get good...
    ziwen ziwen 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 13

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    stajapandabear stajapandabear 13-15, F May 24

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    Something About Beautiful Experiences.

    Sukneyah krishna (CD, because she is not really a man but ) she has a real great she inside. she is a transzender who founded a first site for crossdressers, a place where cds could meet chat and talk about their experiences, so they were called realcds. but gradually it became a...
    ExUser007 ExUser007 18-21 Jun 7, 2012

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    At Times I Do.. ...

    at times i do.. jus the other day, my mother killed me emotionally, i've never cried so hard.. she's refusing that i ever talk to my bf again.. we are in a longdistance relationship and she doesn't think its possible.. she also thinks he's only after sex, which he isn't... she...
    iGotMine8 iGotMine8 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 24, 2007

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    Broken

    I'm so broken, and I don't know why. I feel so empty, and numb. Like there is a black hole inside me, Like I am being eaten alive from the inside out. I can't cry, I can't tell anyone. I don't know how. It just hurts so bad. I want to feel what love feels like, or happiness or...
    MyCatastrophe MyCatastrophe 16-17, F 9 Responses Jan 18, 2012

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    Hushhhhhhhh

    I hide EVERYTHING inside. sure ill let the close ones to me have a lil inside info, but then i push them away. i write (sometimes i dont) all my feelings, if someone said something that hurts me i wont say a damn thing to defend myself. My own boyfriend says a lot of hurtful...
    Ivyflower Ivyflower 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 8, 2009

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    sometimes i get so overwhelmed .

    . i feel likee doing something to make the feeling go away .. so i think about cutting/. i have only told ONE Person about this ..
    overwhelmed5112 overwhelmed5112 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    The Hidden Pain That Never Heals

    Years ago, i had been bullied and scorned by the tougher kids in my neighbourhood up in new England.I have ,also, faced rejection and scorn from kids of both genders that i thought were my friends. Okay, it is true that i am not the most handsome guy or , for that matter ,the...
    dragonfang dragonfang 51-55, M 2 Responses Sep 29, 2013

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    Obvious To Some, Oblivious To Others

    It's amazing how some can tell I'm hurting just by the look on my face, and others who look at the same face don't even have a clue. After sitting at the beach in tears almost all day, I cleaned myself up a bit and walked into a fellow dive shop to say hello to a couple of...
    silentwriter180 silentwriter180 41-45, F 2 Responses May 25, 2012

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    I really do, I cry when I'm alone I cry

    so loud I'm sure my neighbor can hear me, I've lost faith in Jesus I don't care anymore, I wish I had the perfect life at least with no needs or struggles, but I'm 21 and unemployed I hate my life I'm shattered.
    stellahh stellahh 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    Cancer Is Nothing Compared To The Emotional Pain

    As many of you know, I'm dealing with Stage 3, HER2 Positive, Inflammatory Breast Cancer! Many have commented on my strength and courage dealing with my disease.  But for me, dealing with cancer is easy.  I'm a pretty tough girl physically.  It's dealing with all my emotional...
    lagatta lagatta 41-45, F 9 Responses Jun 23, 2013

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    Requiem.

    Its been over five months since Ive seen you. We talk on the phone occasionally. "I still love you," you tell me. I love you too. We're both moving on. Three years went by so fast. Looking back all I see is a blur. I ache because of all the good times that run through the blur...
    teknohippie teknohippie 26-30, M Nov 10, 2013

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    I Asked God Why...

    I asked God why my life is in such shambles... I asked God why it seems that He doesn't care anymore... I asked God why He has forsaken me... I asked God why it seems like I keep getting punished for my past... I asked God why love hurts so much... I asked God why true love...
    pipermac pipermac 56-60, M 3 Responses May 2, 2013

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    But I TRY to MASK it

    as PERFECTLY as I CAN. As a RESULT, I HURT EVEN MORE...
    DontLoseHOPE DontLoseHOPE 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    So ep is the only place I feel comfortable to

    really let my feelings out. There's been so much going on, and I feel like everything in my life doesn't just get turned upside down but inside out. Almost everything good turns out twisted and wrong for me. Sometimes I can spend a whole day just crying from loneliness and...
    lovemattie lovemattie 16-17, F May 30

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    Im Hurt

    My husband is in love with other woman. He told me today but that woman is married. She is friend of my friend. And my husband wants me to be friend with her. I'm really hurt inside. My heart seems to explode. I told him calmly that we will get divorce but he wont allow me. He...
    maj87 maj87 26-30 1 Response Oct 19, 2013

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    My Lonely Life

    I am 17 years old now. I've just finished my high school. Well, where do i start? I am always alone. My mother died when I was a year old, my father, all of my family members told him to remarried, but he didn't want to, he said he'll take care my sisters and I by himself...
    FransisGlory FransisGlory 18-21, F May 3, 2013

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    I'm Tired...

    I'm tired of hurtting so badly I have to hurt myself to stop it. It frustrates me how i have friends but I'm to scaried to call them and tell them how I'm feeling, I just I'm scaried how they would react =/ I've told my friend that I cut myself, and she told me if i keep on...
    xXvampschildXx xXvampschildXx 16-18, F 4 Responses Jan 16, 2008

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    It is hard to be alone

    when being alone is what you fear, even harder when you see a couple as perfect and fear imperfection being single, when all you can ever be sure of in a day is an agony that never goes away, a pain that tears at you until all you can do to cope is laugh... Until the day comes...
    XulThuan XulThuan 22-25, M Jul 9

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    My baby is unhappy I hurt

    and yearn for her. I can't sleep it's so bad she's my life she gets me motivated and she makes me happy. My brother took her from me. I hate him I hope she grows up normal.
    littyleigh littyleigh 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 26

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    I'm freaking dying and i haven't told my wifey

    abwt it. It kills me knowing that I would leave her soon more than this disease is killing me.
    arkimaya arkimaya 22-25, F Jun 13

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    Nothing Left

    Emotionally i have nothing left inside of me. I have no feelings for nothing in life. I care about nothing. It's like i move thru day to day things hoping something or someone will just end it all. i don't bother to talk anymore because if i do i get hurt some more. i have never...
    LostSpace LostSpace 41-45 5 Responses Oct 23, 2011

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    Legs Are Going But I'm Not Moving

    I'm 16 years old. I know what many of you could be thinking. 'What business does a 16 year old girl have with this topic?' Well, I can tell you; Quite alot really. I'm only 16 but I have lived through a group home, beatings, saving my friends from situations like abuse, and many...
    SheWolf16 SheWolf16 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 26, 2012

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    I feel hollow and like nobody cares.

    It seems i have no friends, and Ive been experimenting with drugs lately. I'm currently in a relationship that I don't really have interest in. I just don't know how to let her go without hurting her Bc it seems like she really loves me, but we don't share the same interests...
    TheDarkPassengerInside TheDarkPassengerInside 13-15, M Jun 9

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    How Could Someone...

    I am so angry right now. Hurt and betrayed, and lied to. I was doing so well in dealing with my depression, and putting the past behind me, I decided to let myself go last night and do some drinking after a month and half of not drinking. Well life doesn't care about me...
    Blurbel Blurbel 26-30, M 3 Responses May 12, 2012

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    Ever since this girl first walked into our

    school for the first time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, and I know I probably wasn't the only one gazing at her beauty. Through my mind I was thinking "you know what, I'm gonna try to talk to her, I need to man up, I need to know how to talk to a girl and here's my first...
    elugo123456789 elugo123456789 18-21, M Apr 6

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    I don't even know where to begin.

    I feel so alone all of the time. I have few friends and I'm not sure why. I've always tried so hard to be there for others, but people never seem to be there for me. It's caused me to question my own worth as a person. I feel like whenever I open up, people take advantage...
    Amanda212 Amanda212 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 17

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    I Hate Being A Widower

    I have been a widower for the past 14 years and I am finding it hard to find another miss right. I am very hurt inside because I haven't had a romantic hug of a kiss in this amount of time. Without someone who you love, life is very hard and the hurt grows. It has also become...
    kimberlyann12345 kimberlyann12345 56-60 5 Responses Mar 25, 2013

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    Like Walking Up A Slippery Hill

    I went to a going away party last night for a guy from work. I didn’t drink as I’m trying to sort out my emotions and taking a depressant seems like a bad idea, also because I’m taking anti-depressants right now. I picked up some buddy’s and we showed up at the pub around...
    Blurbel Blurbel 26-30, M Apr 14, 2012

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    Days Like Today...

    ... or weekends like this make me always think about if i really done everything right in my life. Sometimes i feel like i first seem to been at the right place, the right time, but after a while you realise that you couldnt be more wrong. Confusion storms through my brain...
    Indielicous Indielicous 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 20, 2008

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    They Will Never Hear Me

    when your parents and siblings know your not happy, but continue to tell you, you are it doesn't help. It makes me feel even worse, i tell them i'm not happy i have no friends at school. I had them send me to counseling, i had to beg and cry, but i quit after 2 times showing up...
    Vampireloveless Vampireloveless 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 31, 2013

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    The love I my life doesn't seam to care anymore.

    .. :( heartbreak really does hurt!
    LilyB157 LilyB157 26-30, F 2 Responses Feb 2

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    I'm Hurt

    Last night after our bedtime my husband expressed in a thoughtful manner that it would have been more fun, may be, if I had symmetric breast. I feel so hurt. Are asymmetric breast really a turn off? It took me so many years to build this confidence in myself and it's now gone. I...
    alveena alveena 22-25, F 17 Responses Dec 13, 2010

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    There Is No "Flip" Emotion Anymore

    I hear from all the "normal" people that there is a silver lining to every cloud for all the sadness there is some happiness to be found.  I find that harder and harder to believe as the days stretch on.  I don't remember much of my childhood being happy.  My mom...
    Amialive Amialive 22-25, M 3 Responses Apr 28, 2010

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    How Could You....

    If the day were to come that he wanted me back... i couldnt do it again. For he has hurt me far too bad. Its a gut wrentching pain that spears my heart and crushes my soul. Id tell him no you should just go ahead and work things out with her because there is just no way i could...
    justasia justasia 18-21, F Jul 21, 2013

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    hopesnfears hopesnfears 26-30, F Mar 22

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    Crying

    I don't know how much more I can take. The pain I hide inside is way too much for me to handle anymore... Putting on this happy face is acting like there is no pain. It simply makes things worse. I hold it in keep it all to myself. There is alot more but... I can not to let it...
    ymoren21 ymoren21 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 29, 2012

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    But You'll Never Know! ^~^

    Because I don't want to trouble you with my problems. :D
    deleted deleted 26-30 32 Responses Jun 10, 2010

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    Really Depressed

    I only had one friend that i made in high school, and i'm realizing that i can't really call her that now. I've always been more of the "yes what ever you say", and "i'll tell you want to hear" kind of person. And just about a year ago i met someone that saw through that and...
    cagedinside cagedinside 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 29, 2013

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    So today my great aunt died

    and I needed my husbands support... And as usual, he's not.... I'm so hurt. I'm not sure what I'm really loving about this man...
    BumMagnet BumMagnet 46-50, F 3 Responses Jul 17

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    Nothing is stopping me from continuously

    dragging that blade across my skin, I stop when I feel released of the pain. I stop when I feel a tingle sensation in my hand. Almost like something telling me to stop. You can never have one.
    CayyAnn CayyAnn 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 20

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    Physically Aching

    There is this pain inside me that starts from deep inside me and travels through my veins to the tip of my fingers in toes when I lie in bed crying and alone at night.
    Curlycue107 Curlycue107 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 1, 2013

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    Just Try

    This is to all the new people on EP.  The ones who came here looking for some relief or comfort but don't know where to start.  Just try.  I know writing here may seem different.  You may not get many responses.  I do know however that once you start.  It is healing and...
    flodials flodials 41-45, F 2 Responses Mar 16, 2012

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    I Dont No Any More....

    AkesI cant explain the hurt inide of me. Its like my heart and soul are being riped out of me. The torment never eases. Itonly lingures waiting to pock out and say gotcha! You cnt forget me.! I feel empty lost and sad inside. I wish it would stop but small things remind me of the...
    fiestar fiestar 22-25 Apr 29, 2013

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    Who Do You Turn To?

    This experience is based on an even that happen today that struck memories of past events.  Where to start......my dad is, was, and always will be an alcoholic until the day he passes away.  And my mom is as well.  Both are divorced and can't stand each other. ...
    hobbitt192002 hobbitt192002 26-30, F 5 Responses Aug 1, 2007

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    I Can't Forget About Her

    She motivates me to be a better person at times, and other times drives me to depression. Five years in love with a girl that will never love me. Yet, every ******* that mistreats her, every time I feel that maybe she will see the man that i am, I hurt. When I told her I loved...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 15, 2011

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    My husband is a foreigner.

    I love him so much and I know he loves me. Although, I know he loves me, I feel alone around him now. He is a stranger to me and we barely kiss, hug, or even talk now because he is obsessed with other things. How can I be so sad when he does not he me or cheat me, but rather...
    BrokenWander BrokenWander 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Happy And Sad At The Same Time.

    A lot is going on right now. I feel so much different emotions. I'm happy and sad at the same time. I mean, is that even possible. I feel so confused right now. It's like there's constant battle in my head. I feel so alone but I'm not. Why is this? Sometimes even in the presence...
    LifeOfAYoungSky LifeOfAYoungSky 18-21, M 1 Response May 3, 2013

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    Not Strong

    I don't know whats wrong with me anymore. I don't seem to know anything lately. I used to know everything about myself. Where i was and where i was going. But now its just wrong, all wrong. everything is confusing. I'm so angry now. but i cant help it. I want to hate everyone...
    UnrequitedMe UnrequitedMe 16-17, F May 22, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    I allowed them to come very close to me. So close that i thought they were always gonna be there. So many times i told myself silently that i am lucky to have them in my life. We...
    Unlearn Unlearn 31-35, M 1 Response Aug 2

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