I Hurt So Much Inside

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    Im Hurt

    My husband is in love with other woman. He told me today but that woman is married. She is friend of my friend. And my husband wants me to be friend with her. I'm really hurt inside. My heart seems to explode. I told him calmly that we will get divorce but he wont allow me. He...
    maj87 maj87
    1 Response Oct 19, 2013

    Ever since this girl first walked into our

    school for the first time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, and I know I probably wasn't the only one gazing at her beauty. Through my mind I was thinking "you know what, I'm gonna try to talk to her, I need to man up, I need to know how to talk to a girl and here's my first...
    elugo123456789 elugo123456789
    18-21, M
    Apr 6, 2014

    I'm Hurt

    Last night after our bedtime my husband expressed in a thoughtful manner that it would have been more fun, may be, if I had symmetric breast. I feel so hurt. Are asymmetric breast really a turn off? It took me so many years to build this confidence in myself and it's now gone. I...
    alveena alveena
    22-25, F
    16 Responses Dec 13, 2010

    Really Depressed

    I only had one friend that i made in high school, and i'm realizing that i can't really call her that now. I've always been more of the "yes what ever you say", and "i'll tell you want to hear" kind of person. And just about a year ago i met someone that saw through that and...
    cagedinside cagedinside
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 29, 2013

    Obvious To Some, Oblivious To Others

    It's amazing how some can tell I'm hurting just by the look on my face, and others who look at the same face don't even have a clue. After sitting at the beach in tears almost all day, I cleaned myself up a bit and walked into a fellow dive shop to say hello to a couple of...
    silentwriter180 silentwriter180
    46-50, F
    2 Responses May 25, 2012

    I hate the fact I can't stop it.

    I should be able to its just too hard. So I guess I'll remain in pain. I'll beat myself up over nothing. But I would rather hurt my own feelings than someone else's. at least it's only me getting hurt. I don't know don't mind my manic depressive crap mood.
    KateTheStraightedge KateTheStraightedge
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 1, 2014

    There Is No "Flip" Emotion Anymore

    I hear from all the "normal" people that there is a silver lining to every cloud for all the sadness there is some happiness to be found.  I find that harder and harder to believe as the days stretch on.  I don't remember much of my childhood being happy.  My mom...
    Amialive Amialive
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Apr 28, 2010

    How Could You....

    If the day were to come that he wanted me back... i couldnt do it again. For he has hurt me far too bad. Its a gut wrentching pain that spears my heart and crushes my soul. Id tell him no you should just go ahead and work things out with her because there is just no way i could...
    justasia justasia
    22-25, F
    Jul 21, 2013

    They Will Never Hear Me

    when your parents and siblings know your not happy, but continue to tell you, you are it doesn't help. It makes me feel even worse, i tell them i'm not happy i have no friends at school. I had them send me to counseling, i had to beg and cry, but i quit after 2 times showing up...
    Vampireloveless Vampireloveless
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 31, 2013

    I Hurt So Much Inside

    Just found out my husband cheated on me the first 10 yrs of our marriage with lots of women not just one, two or three.  He even developed Herpes.  Right now he's a broken man frightened to the point of getting panic attacks says he cannot live without me. ...
    indianainohio indianainohio
    51-55, F
    4 Responses Sep 22, 2007

    Just Try

    This is to all the new people on EP.  The ones who came here looking for some relief or comfort but don't know where to start.  Just try.  I know writing here may seem different.  You may not get many responses.  I do know however that once you start.  It is healing and...
    flodials flodials
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Mar 16, 2012

    Nothing is stopping me from continuously

    dragging that blade across my skin, I stop when I feel released of the pain. I stop when I feel a tingle sensation in my hand. Almost like something telling me to stop. You can never have one.
    CayyAnn CayyAnn
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 20, 2014

    I really do, I cry when I'm alone I cry

    so loud I'm sure my neighbor can hear me, I've lost faith in Jesus I don't care anymore, I wish I had the perfect life at least with no needs or struggles, but I'm 21 and unemployed I hate my life I'm shattered.
    stellahh stellahh
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Aug 14, 2014

    Who Do You Turn To?

    This experience is based on an even that happen today that struck memories of past events.  Where to start......my dad is, was, and always will be an alcoholic until the day he passes away.  And my mom is as well.  Both are divorced and can't stand each other. ...
    hobbitt192002 hobbitt192002
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Aug 1, 2007

    I'm Tired...

    I'm tired of hurtting so badly I have to hurt myself to stop it. It frustrates me how i have friends but I'm to scaried to call them and tell them how I'm feeling, I just I'm scaried how they would react =/ I've told my friend that I cut myself, and she told me if i keep on...
    xXvampschildXx xXvampschildXx
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Jan 16, 2008

    I Hurt So Much , But No One Seems To Understand

    . When I Tell Them About My feelings &&Whats Going on Inside They Don't believe Me . I Seem Like A Happy Person But I Ain't .
    DeeplyLoved43 DeeplyLoved43
    18-21, F
    Aug 31, 2014

    Nothing Left

    Emotionally i have nothing left inside of me. I have no feelings for nothing in life. I care about nothing. It's like i move thru day to day things hoping something or someone will just end it all. i don't bother to talk anymore because if i do i get hurt some more. i have never...
    LostSpace LostSpace
    5 Responses Oct 23, 2011

    Days Like Today...

    ... or weekends like this make me always think about if i really done everything right in my life. Sometimes i feel like i first seem to been at the right place, the right time, but after a while you realise that you couldnt be more wrong. Confusion storms through my brain...
    Indielicous Indielicous
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 20, 2008


    Its been over five months since Ive seen you. We talk on the phone occasionally. "I still love you," you tell me. I love you too. We're both moving on. Three years went by so fast. Looking back all I see is a blur. I ache because of all the good times that run through the blur...
    teknohippie teknohippie
    26-30, M
    Nov 10, 2013


    I'm so broken, and I don't know why. I feel so empty, and numb. Like there is a black hole inside me, Like I am being eaten alive from the inside out. I can't cry, I can't tell anyone. I don't know how. It just hurts so bad. I want to feel what love feels like, or happiness or...
    MyCatastrophe MyCatastrophe
    18-21, F
    9 Responses Jan 18, 2012

    Something About Beautiful Experiences.

    Sukneyah krishna (CD, because she is not really a man but ) she has a real great she inside. she is a transzender who founded a first site for crossdressers, a place where cds could meet chat and talk about their experiences, so they were called realcds. but gradually it became a...
    ExUser007 ExUser007
    18-21, F
    Jun 7, 2012

    All the Time

    I hurt all the time.  I have been molested, beat, put down, shoved, lied to, cheated on and the list goes on.  I have asked why does a person that has a very kind heart have to suffer this way all the time.  Why do the good people seem to always be the ones...
    rondat rondat
    41-45, F
    12 Responses Jan 8, 2008

    The love I my life doesn't seam to care anymore.

    .. :( heartbreak really does hurt!
    LilyB157 LilyB157
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Feb 2, 2014
    unknowngirlvasquez unknowngirlvasquez
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 17, 2014

    But I TRY to MASK it

    endlessl0ve endlessl0ve
    26-30, F
    Aug 20, 2014

    Legs Are Going But I'm Not Moving

    I'm 16 years old. I know what many of you could be thinking. 'What business does a 16 year old girl have with this topic?' Well, I can tell you; Quite alot really. I'm only 16 but I have lived through a group home, beatings, saving my friends from situations like abuse, and many...
    SheWolf16 SheWolf16
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Jan 26, 2012

    I Hate Being A Widower

    I have been a widower for the past 14 years and I am finding it hard to find another miss right. I am very hurt inside because I haven't had a romantic hug of a kiss in this amount of time. Without someone who you love, life is very hard and the hurt grows. It has also become...
    kimberlyann12345 kimberlyann12345
    5 Responses Mar 25, 2013

    I feel hollow and like nobody cares.

    It seems i have no friends, and Ive been experimenting with drugs lately. I'm currently in a relationship that I don't really have interest in. I just don't know how to let her go without hurting her Bc it seems like she really loves me, but we don't share the same interests...
    TheDarkPassengerInside TheDarkPassengerInside
    18-21, M
    Jun 9, 2014

    Why do the right decisions always end up

    feeling like the wrong decisions?
    emgg emgg
    16-17, F
    Sep 5, 2014

    I Can't Forget About Her

    She motivates me to be a better person at times, and other times drives me to depression. Five years in love with a girl that will never love me. Yet, every ******* that mistreats her, every time I feel that maybe she will see the man that i am, I hurt. When I told her I loved...
    deleted deleted
    Feb 15, 2011

    sometimes i get so overwhelmed .

    . i feel likee doing something to make the feeling go away .. so i think about cutting/. i have only told ONE Person about this ..
    overwhelmed5112 overwhelmed5112
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 6, 2014

    This actually started

    when I was 5. When I first felt unwanted & quickly became feelings of not being cared about & overall rejected. To this day every time some leaves my life without giving reason, which is most of the time, these painful feelings from my past return which causes me to feel...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jan 23, 2016

    My baby is unhappy I hurt

    and yearn for her. I can't sleep it's so bad she's my life she gets me motivated and she makes me happy. My brother took her from me. I hate him I hope she grows up normal.
    littyleigh littyleigh
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 26, 2014

    Not Strong

    I don't know whats wrong with me anymore. I don't seem to know anything lately. I used to know everything about myself. Where i was and where i was going. But now its just wrong, all wrong. everything is confusing. I'm so angry now. but i cant help it. I want to hate everyone...
    UnrequitedMe UnrequitedMe
    18-21, F
    May 22, 2011

    My husband is a foreigner.

    I love him so much and I know he loves me. Although, I know he loves me, I feel alone around him now. He is a stranger to me and we barely kiss, hug, or even talk now because he is obsessed with other things. How can I be so sad when he does not he me or cheat me, but rather...
    BrokenWander BrokenWander
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Aug 20, 2014
    stajapandabear stajapandabear
    18-21, F
    May 24, 2014

    So today my great aunt died

    and I needed my husbands support... And as usual, he's not.... I'm so hurt. I'm not sure what I'm really loving about this man...
    BumMagnet BumMagnet
    51-55, F
    3 Responses Jul 17, 2014

    Sometimes the overwhelming darkness inside me

    is too much and it's hard to do anything at all. I feel as though I have nothing at all, and it would be so easy to be nothing. But I need. One thing or another I NEED something, whether it be a need to loose weight, a need to be held, a need for something. That need is keeping...
    ifeelnumb ifeelnumb
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 8, 2014

    I've been smiling and just smiling

    and I try to hide the fact that I'm sad. He doesn't see past my mask I wear. I just feel terrible as a person. He hides things from me. I dk why. I know I could never help him with everything but I'd like to try. He shares his problems with others who can't do anything. And...
    tristaspuella tristaspuella
    26-30, F
    Dec 11, 2014

    I'm freaking dying and i haven't told my wifey

    abwt it. It kills me knowing that I would leave her soon more than this disease is killing me.
    arkimaya arkimaya
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jun 13, 2014


    I hide EVERYTHING inside. sure ill let the close ones to me have a lil inside info, but then i push them away. i write (sometimes i dont) all my feelings, if someone said something that hurts me i wont say a damn thing to defend myself. My own boyfriend says a lot of hurtful...
    Ivyflower Ivyflower
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Mar 8, 2009

    The Hidden Pain That Never Heals

    Years ago, i had been bullied and scorned by the tougher kids in my neighbourhood up in new England.I have ,also, faced rejection and scorn from kids of both genders that i thought were my friends. Okay, it is true that i am not the most handsome guy or , for that matter ,the...
    RedEyesBlackDragon RedEyesBlackDragon
    51-55, M
    2 Responses Sep 29, 2013

    Cancer Is Nothing Compared To The Emotional Pain

    As many of you know, I'm dealing with Stage 3, HER2 Positive, Inflammatory Breast Cancer! Many have commented on my strength and courage dealing with my disease.  But for me, dealing with cancer is easy.  I'm a pretty tough girl physically.  It's dealing with all my emotional...
    lagatta lagatta
    46-50, F
    7 Responses Jun 23, 2013

    It kills me inside every time a memory rushes

    to my head, leaving my heart to throb
    Jenna1214 Jenna1214
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 9, 2014

    At Times I Do.. ...

    at times i do.. jus the other day, my mother killed me emotionally, i've never cried so hard.. she's refusing that i ever talk to my bf again.. we are in a longdistance relationship and she doesn't think its possible.. she also thinks he's only after sex, which he isn't... she...
    iGotMine8 iGotMine8
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 24, 2007

    But You'll Never Know! ^~^

    Because I don't want to trouble you with my problems. :D
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Jun 10, 2010


    time you became special to me....important. now i see you lied to me. i said i was scared that you would disappear...you said you would never do that...but you did...you avoid me now...ignore me now..it is hurtful..my heart is all i feel. like a knife slowly going thru. you told...
    moongoddess35 moongoddess35
    36-40, F
    Jan 22, 2016

    So ep is the only place I feel comfortable to

    really let my feelings out. There's been so much going on, and I feel like everything in my life doesn't just get turned upside down but inside out. Almost everything good turns out twisted and wrong for me. Sometimes I can spend a whole day just crying from loneliness and...
    lovemattie lovemattie
    18-21, F
    May 30, 2014
    dove9 dove9
    31-35, F
    Mar 22, 2014

    It is hard to be alone

    when being alone is what you fear, even harder when you see a couple as perfect and fear imperfection being single, when all you can ever be sure of in a day is an agony that never goes away, a pain that tears at you until all you can do to cope is laugh... Until the day comes...
    XulThuan XulThuan
    22-25, M
    Jul 9, 2014
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