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    When Did I Get So Lost In Darkness?

    I cant say I don't know some of the resaons why I hurt, and that I am not to blame for the pain I suffer from my bad desions. But I also feel that I try so hard to be a good person, to help others, and to be the person that others can turn to, and depend on. I fight every...
    rescueangel rescueangel 26-30, F 3 Responses Apr 8, 2010

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    Lost

    I just got dumped on Mother's day after 8 years.  I have a 7 year old son with this guy but we were not married.  I told me that he dumped me because I would never except him or understand him as a person, I complain to much and I look at the negative in my life and I...
    1968chevelle 1968chevelle 26-30 Jun 13, 2008

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    It Just Happened.

    If anyone has been following my stories at the moment...I am the "other woman."  It has been preying on my mind for a while now.  It's not me and people ARE going to get hurt.   Anyway, I had THOUGHT me and the other guy were starting to care about...
    patchworkofmistakes patchworkofmistakes 26-30, F Jan 10, 2010

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